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the thing about eliot spencer as a character, right. the thing about him.
(and as always your mileage may vary on my analyses so if we disagree that's cool actually)
is that he is in fact a somewhat emotionally constipated idiot who is occasionally sensitive about his perceived masculinity and gets defensive about emotional intimacy around other men (largely hardison, who's much more comfortable expressing affection and embracing a softer kind of masculinity), but eliot displays enough emotional awareness and sensitivity and respect for women etc etc that anyone who's been subjected to that era of television will put on rose-tinted glasses without even looking twice.
(and he is, don't get me wrong, incredibly emotionally aware for a professionally punchy guy with enough trauma to sink the titanic. it still startles me to see.)
on top of which we have the layers and the accessories and the excellent hair with the secret braids and the way he barely has an ego and he's good with kids and protective of his team without taking it too far, and some of us never stood a fucking chance.
#eliot#eliot spencer#orig#further discussion in further tags#I'm being perhaps a little critical and there are other ways to read eg the fragile masculinity moments#but I Do think they were intended this way and largely come across this way#I'm quite happy playing with a fanon eliot who's better at this shit is the thing? it feels faithful enough to the original.#but this is something I'm chewing over in a rewatch and it's interesting so far#the fact that he pretty consistently respects women doesn't stop him from treating men and women differently y'know?#the fact that his bantering with hardison expresses affection and gets quite soft over time#doesn't stop him from pushing hardison away on a semi-regular basis. often physically.#the fact that the fandom unanimously decided he's an utter gentleman in matters of dating#doesn't quite negate the time he physically stopped aimee from getting away when he wanted to talk to her#though that's one I might disregard because it's so early and I think they hadn't quite figured out the characters then#and it was admittedly a brief moment followed by very consensual happenings#perhaps. honestly. eliot may be reflecting the attitudes of the show here.#which were very progressive for the time and are still startling on several fronts now but also showing definite signs of age#arguably fanon eliot (as I understand him) is eliot adjusted for inflation. as it were.#there's a lot going on here I'm having a normal amount of thoughts about it I'm. stopping now
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actually like... buck is not christopher's dad. he really isn't. he's helping eddie parent but he's not actually a parent himself. and i think trying to exaggerate buck's place in chris's life for the buddie of it all not only does a disservice to eddie as a father a lot of times but... to the buddie of it all. the fact that buck is not at all chris's dad right now but that chris and eddie are not only unfazed when he does but frequently invite him to touch the boundaries of fatherhood - that eddie says you were there for him when i couldn't be - speaks to the weirdness and all the things about them that they can't really name, and it doesn't really make sense to name it preemptively. buck is not christopher's dad but he wouldn't have to think twice about stepping into that role alongside eddie and eddie would let him - that's what's so insane!
#like i understand the sentiment but buck is very much not actually parenting chris. he COULD. he is closer to parenting#chris than anyone else has ever been probably even though he's not actually parenting him THAT'S WHAT'S INSANE#just can't stop thinking about the anon who talked about fandom's tendency to inflate buck at the expense of eddie#and i think there's a way to talk about buck+chris without doing that. i wish we did it more. it makes things crazier#what's actually happening on the show is 10x worse than popular fanon interpretations#*
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There is something about seeing actors Powdered Rich Hollywood Faces in interviews that can ruin the play pretend of shows so quickly
#first of all: rich bastards disconnected from normal reality#second of all: inflated unchecked egos#this is kind of about its always sunny bc the podcast did collateral damage to me being able to enjoy the show#also about succession although ive been dodging interviews left and right#interviews and fucking analysis videos#sorry to be a hater but i find 'ending explained' videos insulting. i imagine they have the same amount of passion like literature class ->#-> in school. where youre not allowed to enjoy a book but forced to summarize every chapter and highlight the right passages to get a good#grade#i NEVER want an ending explained. that's NO FUN. if i want to understand a show further and i care about it ill just watch it again#late night later activity#i respect the artistry housed in hollywood but damn do i not like the personalities
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There is something that I can’t understand and will never understand about fandom “culture”
Why EVERYTHING (or a lot of things) need to be canon or acknowledged by the actors/directors/producers to be accepted by the fandom? In specific ships?
And why when a “ship” (two characters, really) have more screentime than others/other characters aren’t in the picture anymore, people take that as a victory as see their ship as more valid and “actually canon”? And mock/harass others for it?
Also there is this thing people have been doing a lot too: Thats calling everyone that doesn’t like the ship you like names (and also calling them terms that before actually meant something awful but nowadays can be said for simply tagging the incorrect ship in a fucking post)
Canon isn’t always the norm here kid. At least when it relates to ships and scenarios. (Bc if we’re talking about characterization… yes it needs to be canon in a sense or we’re writing/making ocs out of canon characters)
Most of the more popular ships will never be canon and have never been, especially the gay ones. (See Drarry, Narusasu, Frodo/Sam, Johnlock, etc, etc)
So why suddenly we care so much about what NEEDS to be canon or not?
Why people NEED to see their ships be canon so badly?
Sure, I can be seen as a hypocrite because Ive been talking about Stucky a lot in the canon and what happened in EG, but they actually did that themselves. The directors talked about gay characters, the actors talked about Stucky. So actually it isn’t something ludicrous or anything. (I’ve never thought they would actually make the ship canon -bc that would be a big problem for them “how can you make Cap America gay!” And shit- but I thought they would at least make them still be friends or friendly or acknowledge the “bromance” and they just killed the friendship in one scene with the most ooc shit ever). In fact, I’m more annoyed by that. They assassinated Steve’s character and Bucky’s progress.
Nevermind…
Why people fight so much about ships and use terms that shouldn’t be brought into stupid shit like this?
Fandoms are supposed to be fun and to have discussions (in good faith) about the canon. What we like and what we don’t like about it.
Besides, a lot of current media are about stuff that’s been remade over and over again. So they have a lot of adaptations and you can pick and choose too, if you want.
And if you don’t like the canon? Easy! Do analysis, criticize it, write fics, do fanart, do creative shit or simply ignore it! No one is forcing you to keep on watching the show or the stuff you now hate/cant stand. That’s what Im doing at least.
Sure, I criticize some people and movies a lot and get actually annoyed by the disrespect towards/assassination of some characters, but at the end of the day I can only shrug and say “it is what it is” and leave it at that. (Meaning not giving them money for the new stuff/not watching nor caring about it and only acknowledging the old things I actually care about and like)
But I don’t insult or disrespect other people in fandom because of it. And also I don’t harass the directors or actors either, ffs.
Idk, Ive always been on the sidelines of the stuff I follow, I’ve never been on the thick of fandoms so maybe thats why I don’t understand.
And I’ve also not seen so many crazy shit (the most crazy stuff Ive seen is people calling others racists for tagging a ship incorrectly and also others inflating the tag of a ship in ao3 so their ship would be “the most popular” with most fics, in that fandom) because I actually curate what I see. I don’t like a ship? I mute, if I can’t stand a person or a ship? I block em. Simple and easy.
I’ve always drawn stuff for myself, read fics and made headcanons. Only recently I’ve been sharing stuff more openly, so maybe it’s that.
Idk.
I’m just tired of seeing discourse and people fighting over this stuff.
#kinda personal#im really tired pf people fighting over ships#also the inflating of the tag in ao3 was a big problem bc most of those supposed works were a phrase written over and over again#it was the most petty pathetic shit ive seen#you like a ship? good do a fic or write headcanons#you dont like that another ship is more popular than your otp/the ship you like? DO MORE FICS OR ARTWORK OF IT#also… like in canon MCU Nat and Bruce were together kinda#but in some comics Nat is with Bucky#and so on and so forth#So a lot of ships can be canon in different media#Steve was supposed to be with Sharon but they didn’t flesh the ship and then used Peggy to stop us from shipping Stucky#in Mcu#But that will discourage me from shipping what I like? No.#my shipping tastes don’t depend on canon#im very particular in the ships I read content sometimes…#particular in the sense that I take a character and ship it with a lot of others#lmao#you can see me liking canon ships and then the most random ship in the same series/movie#Like Blaise Zabini x Harry Potter my beloved#or sometimes crossovers bc sometimes I need to read that shit#Jasper Withlock x Harry my other beloved#but how I said I don’t understand the need to fight or shame/antagonize others#and welp sometimes the fandom makes me despise or avoid a ship too bc of how they actually write and interact with em#like I see that ship tagged? not going to interect bye#and I leave it as that#simple and easy
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The way that the sun hits leaves and clouds. I feel like I could watch the colors change forever. If I could slow down for that long.
#i keep forgetting a have a deck now. i can go outside and sit there#im doing that now. sitting in the corner of a deck full of empty chairs. staring up at a big pine tree where the sun is striking it gold#at the top. i like how thr light hits the needles. if the sky was black it would look like its on fire#theres a tree outside my bedroom window too. in the morning. after the sunrises it catches thr light and refelcts the most perfect shade#of green. the kind of green that flutters translucent like youre looking up from the bottom of a pool. the light the light its all about#the sun. everything everything is about the sun. when i start my project I'll be focused on understanding how organisms catch the light bc#its so incredible and complicated it would make my chest swell to bursting if there wasnt an empty bleeding wound in my gut. a#metaphorical wound of course. i dunno. its just difficult bc right now my mood is inflated by hormones. not even that much i think I'm#just at what shoulf be a normal level of happiness so i can be slow for a minute. but just a minute bc i kno it won't last long#sorry i cant shut the fuck up when im like this but i dunno i just feel like i havr to document these ephemeral moments before they're gone#its just difficult when you kno the world is so full of beautiful things but 95% of the time your eyes are too clouded to see it#everyone tells me i work too much but i feel like im just staring off into space being miserable 60% of the time. ive just done so much#damage over the past few years im coming into a new lab as damaged goods. ive got an albatross around my neck in thr form of data i#collected so self destructively that the idea of having anything to do with its publication makes me hate myself. everytime someone tells#me good job on collecting so so so much data it feels like they're congratulating me for breaking something within myself. like i slit my#wrists and bled out on a lab bench and theyre saying good job and theyre excited for me and i have to grin and bear it and pretend im#excited too. but im not bc ive burned everything inside me to ash. so when im elevated enough to be distracted by the clouds and trees it#feels like healing. like seeing angels. beautiful ephemeral beams of light. i wish i could slow down enough to watch them. but now thr sun#is hitting the horizon and the sky is going gradually dark and i should go inside. bc i have many things to do in the morning. so that's#what ill do. and ill try to get more thsn 6hrs of sleep but its hard when your body is vibrating over with energy#but at least i dont feel tired in the morning. something in my head must be on fire#unrelated#hm i should maybe add a tw to this#tw self injury#but its the kind thst makes u good at ur Job. its the kind ppl reward. so they don't understand when u say its destroying ur life#but im trying to get better. i say as i gear up for an insane semester lol but i do mean it
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I FUCKING DID SOMETHING FOR ONCE LET'S GO!!!
ok so i was listening to this song like a week ago and i saw this animation clear as day in my mind and i knew i had to try and storyboard it out while i was thinking of it. i wanna do the full song at some point because it is So Very Them-coded but i do not have the time rn and will not for a while (i barely had the time to make this) so for now i just made sure i got the really complicated part out of the way. figured i'd post it because. why not lol
anyway. this is for my Darkest Desire AU story!! it's called Glitching Fates!! i am so normal about it and i have been for years now. it is. so far removed from the source material but i do not care it is very special to me :]
as a sort of summary for what's going on here, the night guard and Will used to be really good friends but they both ended up getting busy with their own lives so they couldn't interact as much, and then the whole Glitchtrap possession thing happens which reunites them but also drives a wedge between them since Will is blindly following Glitchtrap while the night guard is trying to find a way to stop Glitchtrap.
i am so not fucking normal about these characters you all have no idea. oh my god. they have permanent residence in my mind rn. i need people to ask me about them or else I Will Become Violent (/j)
hope y'all liked this, or at least i hope y'all found my passive-agressive notes to myself funny lol. under the cut i typed up all the handwritten ones in case y'all want to read them but can't make out my handwriting
a fuckin uh.. pillar or somethin idk
ooh cool scene transition
how do i convey that he's walking onto a train
dismissive wave
hair is longer to indicate passage of time
pretend this shot doesn't look like total dogshit ok?
hey how did my anatomy manage to get That Much Fucking Worse this far in
there is Something wrong here. i just cannot tell What
that is. so much better what the fuck
ok that's all thank you for looking at my post :]
#rys.txt#rys draws#WAVING MY ARMS AROUND WILDLY LIKE ONE OF THOSE WACKY WAVING INFLATABLE TUBE MEN COME HERE AND LOOK AT MY POST PLEASE!!!#I FINALLY COOKED SOMETHING!!!#i finally figured out how to draw decent side profiles that don't look like i'm totally ripping off jamie hewlett's art style i'm so happy#on the topic of my au being super different from the source material. let's be real for a second#does anyone out there have a darkest desire au that isn't totally different from the source material? do those exist?#i don't think i've ever seen one everyone's always taking a ton of liberty with it. and that's okay! :D#anyway. these two are everything to me you don't understand#please. if anyone seeing this wants to know more about my story PLEASE ask me about it (no pressure)#my ask box is open you can ask me anything about this and i will answer happily (or in the notes here is good too)#even if you have no clue what the fuck is going on here. if you don't know shit about fnaf or darkest desire i will explain it for you#glitching fates#glitching fates au#dawko#dagames#night guard dawko
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hi! Average USamerican has to take on massive debt over and over all throughout life just to survive day-by-day, because the companies that control our vital resources are both allowed and incentivized to raise prices indiscriminately! For you see, we live in a dystopian nightmare country. Send help.
FOR REAL. i also live in a dystopian nightmare country but in a different way, so sometimes i learn shit about the usa (usually relating to money and finances) that makes me go 😨😨😨 what the fuck. stay strong 🫡❤️
#like the inflation over here is massive and our money fucking sucks#but oh god if i had to deal with All That Shit you guys over there do i would cry#i already don't understand finances and it seems like they're deliberately making shit as difficult for y'all there as possible#horrifying.
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................. not to rain down on anyone's parade but barely characterized 14 year old lucerys could never have the swag eleanor or henry had
#1#2#3#4#5#again you do you per carità i'm not here to judge anyone's taste because then i'd be a fucking hypocrite#but this still made me laugh#maybe because i never really understood the hype around luke/aemond. i mean i get it on a intellectual level#but there are so many juicier pairs in hotd that while i understand why people would ship it i'm not sure why it's so popular#no hate to the pairing or anything of course. you can ship whatever you want!#but this reeks of the usual inflated m/m ship with one (or two) fictional men with weak or barely acknowledged characterizations#while incredibly complex female characters (at least in comparison) are JUST THERE#again this is not a hate post about the ship or slash pairings (OBVIOUSLY!!)#but still. in any case the eleanor/henry dynamic fits better with rhaenicent or maybe daemyra tbh#like... even when i love a ship with all my heart i wouldn't assign *every* possible au to them but only those who fit their characters bes#if my otp is a etl ship i wouldn't want to read or write a childhood friends to lovers au because what i like about them#is that they fucking hate each other's guts and perpetually try to kill the other (before falling in love... and sometimes even after)#if a pairing is more p&p like i really couldn't get into a wuthering heights au even if i'd recognize it's magnificently written#because that's not what these characters and their dynamic are. it would be projection#at this point i would prefer to read/write about two ocs ngl#again in fandom you can do whatever you want i'm no one and i could never tell you what you can or can't like. that'd be ridiculous#and idw the op of that post to feel bad about it. it's just my personal preference/opinion on fanworks that's all#val speaks#val rambles in the tags#txt
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why do religions want to get rid of the ego so bad can you be fucking nice...
#i do not understand many self sacrificial elements of some religions but then again i dont understand how other people think at all#have fun being boring and selfless...#see in mine you just inflate your ego so much and it being huge and prideful allows your spirit to stay on earth after death its awesoeee
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It’s so funny to me that there are people who literally think shows like We Are being popular is going to ruin BL series completely. Like I literally saw someone say it’s dangerous how popular it is 🤣🤣🤣
#there are worse things than a silly little slice of life uni romance being popular lmao#oh no they might make more Bl series that people are obviously enjoying!!! heavens to Betsy whatever shall we do???#stuff and nonsense#okay tbf I know there are issues with fans inflating tweet counts and that they look to Twitter more than yt views or comments or w/e#but it’s still funny to me#I’m not going to quote what they said exactly because I’ll get angry again haha#I just don’t understand how such a fluffy chill show is endgendering so much outrage#and that it’s literally ruining entire tropes and genres#Stuff and nonsense#oops they didn’t say dangerous but the rest still stands lol
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the absolute chokehold the shameless soundtrack has me in 😵💫
#shameless#lastfm#might be right is now top 6 of all time???#this is the fastest any song has shot up into my top 10#it's not even that good?? it doesn't even play more than 50 seconds in the episode??? WHY DO I LOVE IT SO MUCH?????#like u dont understand#my most favorite song until like a week ago was the scientist by coldplay with 176 scrobbles and ive been listening to that for 20 years!#i dont inflate my stats btw im at 24k scrobbles on a 2010 account
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What do you think the significance is that Charlie was off at a birthday party for most of Bowling? I wonder if it was another nod to the idea of moving on/growing up that's been so strong this season
The first thing that jumps out to me when they mentions the birthday party is that Uncle Jack's birthday party and the fact that Charlie doesn't even realise he's over 40, so I don't think anyone celebrates Charlie's birthday for a long time. However in this ep it's clear that Charlie loves birthday parties or at least the food and drinks that come with it, even though he doesn't like the idea of being at Jack's birthday party.
I do think with those facts, Charlie missed his own parties. He's having loads of fun in the birthday party seems like what in his eyes the past was or what could have been. Also when he's actually here where we can see, he's still obssessed with the waitress, so it seems that he's still dwelling on the past. However, the part where the waitress easily manipulates him, it could mean sticking to the old way is not going to work out great, but I'm not really sure about it.
Along with the fact that in s15, Charlie gets the closure of meeting his biological father and finds out he could read, and in this season Charlie seems much less delusional compared to himself before and to other people in the gang, I think it's about Charlie reflects and reconciles with his childhood, and it's a continuation from the previous episodes in this season!
#sorry for any grammar mistakes#charlie kelly#iasip#iasip s16 spoilers#hy speaks#I'm not very set on this yet but I do think#in inflates he explicitly wants things to go back to the status quo#in frank shoots he wants his legacy but is just rejected by his sisters. also in that ep he sees what mac could have had#in cursed he faced uncle jack and seemingly understand their past much better. at least to me#in frank vs russia he has to ask uncle jack for help. and they did it!#I'm not sure about celebrity booze lol but in risk e. rats#he and dennis go to see the robot girl to recreate the childhood experience#only to find out the whole thing has changed and was wiped out#so it looks like the growing up/moving on theme is pretty clear with charlie#thanks so much for sending an ask!#dayglomasochism
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the only thing keeping me going rn is getting upvotes from my professor on perusall
#why yes. do inflate my ego for confirming i understand basic googleable information#the amount of learned helplessness in this class and ppls apparent inability to research anything for themselves is. bad
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whenever st*phen am*ll continues his trend of worst takes (why is he like this? stop speaking, we beg), i cackle a little and think of you. maybe he should quit SAG then idk just a suggestion for this man 🤷🏻♀️🙄
oh my god lol every time this man opens his mouth it eventually gets back to me and then i'm just like
#he speaks and every time it's 'that's what i thought you'd say you dumb fucking horse'#he's just so BOLD in his wrongness#i still do not understand how arrow of all things inflated this man's ego this much#septembersghost#anti stephen amell
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While Tumblr has been gaslighting the internet into movie analysis, the TikTok dabloon economy is in shambles 😔
#no I was having so much fun until I won the lottery#'1.5 billion dabloons' NO YOU CAN'T DO THAT#half of us are in debt. the other half got robbed. soup costs TWELVE dabloons. TWELVE#it started at 4😭 inflation is terrible#I joined a pirate crew and have a small orange cat to take care of#i don't know how to explain this cross platform. do my tiktok cosplay friends know about goncharov. to my tumblr mutual understand#the importance of the dabloon economy
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Me: I know lots of fic authors say they love people who long comment on every chapter but when I do it I feel bad especially if the author is the kind to reply to comments but none of my comments have replies - not to mention on WIP fics it feels borderline manipulative because yes I’m commenting to tell the author what I liked but I have the secondary motivation of wanting more chapters so I’m basically evil -
*email notification*
nevermind I think I’m getting a good grade in fic reader something that is both normal to want and possible to achieve
#ra speaks#personal#fanfic#fanfiction#fandom#I’ve seen authors say they don’t reply to comments bc they don’t wanna inflate their comment count like#fool I need the serotonin of an AO3 email too ya know#to elaborate on the whole feeling manipulative thing I know I’m just neurotic and always afraid of not understanding social cues or whatever#so I have to grab myself by my shoulders and remind myself abt that jewish [the word escapes me]#about the guy who builds an orphanage but does it bc it makes him feel good so he feels bad#but in the end the material good he did was more important than why he did it#which also applies to a lot of stuff I do to make people feel good/do good things for people#(probably on account of the low/no empathy)#anyways. fic authors. reply to your comments. we too weep over our analyses and live reactions being received with joy.
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