#i dunno im just so sick of it

[800-dick-pics]

Were about to be without power!

TLDR: My mom missed so much work leading up to her heart attack that bills bounced from her accts and now we are scrambling because the internet and power are basically being shut off back to back! CA: $sleepyhen OR $grumblybear

VN: wildwotko OR XochiRose

My mom has been dealing with an increase of various undiagnosed chronic illnesses for the past two months and was in the ER 6 times before her recent heart attack. Since she basically is unable to work right now her last check isnt going to cover much of anything.

I have a job starting in late Oct but I still need internet to finish my schooling/get certified as an herbalist. I do plan on selling my art again but that also requires internet access, and since my partner is not a legal resident finding jobs is really really difficult for them right now. There is a lot of shit going on in my life right now, Until I get my 1st check at the end of Oct or sell some art between now and then I dont have any income to cover any bills (my own phone has been unpaid as well). We can go without internet for a while but I really dont want all of our food to go to waste, because that was the last food I was able to buy for our house. The electric/gas is $181 and the internet is $320

CA: $sleepyhen OR $grumblybear

VN: wildwotko OR XochiRose

[r-o-s-eblue]

late on the elliot mv bandwagon by MONTHS bc i was so scared of Being Wrong but uhm Hey! Isnt it strange that this part was emphasized? Why would there be a reason for an Elliot mv so early on? Why would there be a part with seemingly more importance that was just Not that important in the original mv? why is it that this specific line goes against everything we've learned about elliot so far? what if? what if he IS alive???

pls i have an entire theory i need to release but it has like 500 words and hasnt even touched the tip of the iceberg ohhh i need this man to the the mastermind or connected to the like production team ASAP.... I HATE HIM!!!!

[jihyo-x]

I love my body idc!!!! I'm fat who cares it's cute as shit!! weeee

[thetisming]

something people dont talk about is that losing a pet can be genuinely traumatic

[floatingwithlaura]

my therapist wrecked me with the closing statement of the session being ‘i think you have been alone for a very long time’.

[stardust-sunset]

(vent in the tags and under the cut. don’t read if you don’t want.)

sometimes i wonder if people would care if i was gone. there’s just no point anymore tbh.

[coridallasmultipass]

Just wanna remind everyone that it's NEVER okay to tell someone to die.

You don't know how hard they're fighting to stay alive every day. Or if they don't even want to fight for that any more.

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[jiangshinigami]

i am feeling REALLY UPSET and EASILY FRUSTRATED right now if somebody talks to me in the WRONG WAY i am going to DISEMBOWEL THEM

[sillybouquetoflillies]

i keep thinking i rly didnt go thru that much growing up, but idk, everytime i tell someone abt my life, they say i did and kinda just like sit in shock abt it. am i just internet brained or smth, or am i just dramatic?? i rly dont think ive earned a lot of the symtoms of someone who was traumatized that i have. or maybe i havent been in a safe place for long enough to process things??? i dunno. maybe someday far away in the future ill figure things out

[rexscanonwife]

I’ve been a bit depressed lately and I wanted to draw something super soft and self indulgent and...went a little ham with the lighting ngl! but sometimes instead of getting up and going to some mission debriefing you just wanna stay in bed with your lover ♡

[radrobotz]

i think the funniest ocs ive ever had were it was like a next gen crossover au where all webseries (of the 2000s-2010s for reference) exist in the same world but its like the kids of the characters and the main character (and couple) were an eddsworld fankid and a dick figures fankid

[the-amber-droid-dreams]

empathy is so damn confusing. i get it in theory, but in practice ? like i sorta think of myself as low / flux empathy but am i really ? how much of that is actually low sympathy and compasssion ?

cognitive empathy is understanding why someone feels a way, and ive read and researched and trained myself enough to be very good at that, but its all logical analysis. is that still empathy ? what if i can connect all the correct logical threads but when it comes to the conclusion i just cant wrap my emotions around it because why does it matter Really ? is that still empathy ? sometimes people are a curiosity, a fun little puzzle to analyze. certainly thats not empathy ?

emotional empathy, feeling what others feel, thats definitely not there too often. secondhand embarrassment maybe, and i used to not be able to look at people who cried but im not sure it affects me anymore

sympathy. i dont always feel that either. sometimes i still help because i feel compassion but sometimes compassion is also gone and its just to save face. reputation is especially important to me, without it id have nothing: power, support, admiration— theyre all intertwined.

sometimes its because i know i will or might care later so i better act accordingly to secure the future i want. or maybe i care about the relationship with the person as a whole if not whatever bullshit im having to deal with at the moment, so i do what i must to maintain their love and trust

sometimes its just base morality, my ideas of whats right and wrong, that stop me from being as cruel as id like. or reputation. it always comes back to reputation when im that far gone. the fun of burning everything to the ground just isnt worth the effort itll take to rebuild it all again yk ?

[piplupod]

one of the cashiers at the grocery store i go to is so fucking fixated on shoplifters and it drives me crazy any time i check out through him (i try to avoid him but his checkout is often the most open/empty - hm! i wonder why! - and im often on a tight schedule w the bus). he brings up shoplifters every opportunity he gets and he seems so convinced that theyre a huge problem.

BUT WHAT REALLY GETS ME ,,, is that today the customer in front of me was needing a price check on one of the items bc it should've come out to be cheaper, so he was kind of apologetic abt it and saying "ah well, yknow, six dollars is six dollars, especially with how expensive groceries are right now" and i was nodding and agreeing (trying to show that i dont mind the wait and also solidarity my guy good for u for speaking up and getting the price fixed on that) AND THE CASHIER AGREES. FULLY ACKNOWLEDGES AND BEMOANS THE FACT THAT GROCERIES ARE CRAZY RN. AND THEN GOES ON TO COMPLAIN ABOUT SHOPLIFTERS. HUH ??????

so you agree that groceries are unreasonably expensive... and that sometimes ppl can't afford them... and yet ....................

[sludgeguzzler]

look i really dont mind having a pre t body with its little biological quirks but i have a limit and the limit is waking up at 4am with immense pain and a puddle of blood on my bed

[dead-set-goat]

If your digestive tract should stay intact, fellow human do not interact!

Brought the devil to our plane of existence… it’s supposed to be a lentil-something-“stew” but it rather resembles an alien abortion. And smells of cigarettes… I’m not joking, I’m dead serious. Contemplating, at 12:30 AM if I should shove this in the fridge or bury it 20 kms away at the nearest junkyard. I don’t usually tolerate throwing away food, makes me feel quite guilty, but this… “matter is not created nor destroyed” but God too will make an exception this once (For I’m sure Satan just broke the first half of the law a few hours ago) so I think I’m good to go!