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just-your-average-tangerine · 1 year

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The moonbase theta out finale was exactly what I expected. The 'I'm sadder than you' twins has their 'I'm sadder than you' fight. Roger said something stupid that ruined the emotion of the moment. And there was absolutely no conclusion to be seen. In the series finale.

#literally the only reason i kept listening was to find out how it ended #and it just didnt #absolutely nothing separating this from any other episode #which i had been suspecting was going to happen for the past few episodes #there was just too much left to resolve and they weren't resolving any of it #some of the smaller plotpoints should have been resolved half a season ago #the only things left for the finale should have been a showoff with the megas #and taking Jerusalem #and instead we got no conclusion to Jerusalem #and the moonbases did their final plan and we dont know what happened after #i feel like ive wasted so much time on this #op

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stuckinapril · 7 months

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the neurologist i shadow is so funny bc she has a valley girl accent and yet she's the smartest person in the room. this woman was casually doing case consenus ab a man w frontotemporal dementia in the highest girliest voice imaginable. i want to be her i think

#case consensus is basically where several neurologists/doctors meet to decide what the patient's case actually is #im genuinely not sure why this medical center does it this way but they write down data on paper THEN input it into the digital system #which i have qualms w bc i feel like it wastes so much time #but literally my whole role at this internship is inputting this data into the system so i should probably be grateful they do it this way #but in that one meeting everyone was all over the place so this at the ending of the meeting this woman goes #“that... was frantic.”#in the most valley girl accent known to man #and ever since ive integrated this as my response to everything #youre right. that WAS frantic #she also was like “sorry im unfocused. need lunch rly bad” at one point during the meeting #this neurologist is just like the rest of us fr

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gophergal · 1 year

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Life on the farm

#gopher art #mortal kombat #subscorp #mk subzero #mk scorpion #kuai liang #hanzo hasashi #mortal kombat legends #been holding onto this one for a bit! finished it more than a month ago lol #i was originally going to save it for subscorp week but then i was like. nah. that wouldnt be entirely fair lol #and besides. ive been wanting to share it for long enough and my resolve has kinda worn down #anyway - snowblind but AU'd! heres my concept of this (which i may use later on for something idk): king kano got his shit wrecked #like way before the events of the movie. by the revenants in fact. i want him torn to shreds. you still have random roving assholes #making trouble across the wastes. but its much less dire. kuai still retires to his farm. kenshi still falls for shang tsung's bullshit #and kuai mentors him. hanzo becomes warlord of netherrealm. BUT. he and kuai keep in contact. its long distance and they make it work #sometimes scorpion vacays to Kuai's farm. as a treat. thats what this drawing is #i cant deny that i literally just want them to be happy ok. thats literally all i want for these gay old ninjas #bonus commentary: at the time of drawing this i was still figuring out how i wanted to draw hanzo. he's so fucking hard to draw #when i draw him without his mask or beard he looks so fucking off. but if i draw him with the beard it feels weird too.#babygirl why are you so hard to draw?? dont you want me to draw you?????

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shokupanda · 2 months

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me when time moves forward at a steady pace: how the fuck is it more than halfway through july already. this fuckers rapidly sprinting when im not looking huh

#i have so many things i need to do #before the semester starts again this fall #i need to work on comms. i need to work on a project due the end of the month. i want to do artfight. i want to make art for myself. i want #to do art studies. i want to start an alt drawing more suggestive stuff. i mean what who said that mustve been the wind #and thats just the things related to drawing.#i need to organize my room. i need to learn [redacted]. i want to cook more. i want to socialize more. i want to play games. i want to-#watch and read and listen to so many things #yet i have a finite amount of time to do everything #and half of a day is consumed by me just snoozing #and when i do work on something i feel like im Not Efficient Enough.#i cant just chill in vcs i need to be productive and draw too. and if i dont make significant progress then I Have Failed.#i cant just watch New Season of Show. thats Time Focused on One Singular Activity. gotta do multiple things at once or ill feel bad after #because i know that once the semester starts back up then im gonna be 90% less online #back to the depths of graphic design hell making infographics and powerpoints and brand identities #not having the time to draw anything furry or for myself for several months #anywho its 5am #i should go to sleep #sorry for the ramble im just. only now realizing how little time i have #when i wake up i have to really lock in on drawing and stuff #ive wasted so much time playing a game this past week #if i hadnt played it idve made so much more progress by now and im kicking myself so bad mentally now that im like mostly done w the game #gahhh #anywho yeah sorry for the ramble ill post more soon #sho.scramblin

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rouge-the-bat · 2 months

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wait like... do some ppl actually check all the blogs of people that interact with them? to vet out all the ones they dont want around? bc if so that sounds. exhausting?? how do people have time for that??

#i feel like ive seen the occasional mention that seems like some people do this and im like. HUH??? O.o #unless im misreading ???#like... if someone does then like. why do you care that much???#it seems like a huge waste of time??#and like. if ur that uncomfortable with just the idea that someone of [whatever it is youre vetting for] happens to just. like your post #i feel like... social media may not be for you #surely this must just be ppl that have like... less than a hundred followers or smthn #bc idk how someone would manage doinf this with amount of daily notifs i get #and im not even a huge huge blog #i just look at comments/tags/follows/asks when i go thru my notes #and if i find a comment/tag/ask that indicates theyre awful or saying something that makes me uncomfortable ill block #and on occasion i may check a follower just to give a quick once over to ensure theyre not a bot or something #but otherwise like.... why do ppl care so much about smaller interactions like a like/reblog #its like a person passing by you on the street #you shouldnt care if theyre something you disapprove of that badly just let them pass on #just let them say ''hey nice shirt'' and walk away

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opens-up-4-nobody · 5 months

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#i dont kno whats wrong with me. ive wasted so much time in the last 2 weeks doing nothing #like. i dont kno how to explain it. its just empty time. i dont kno how to make myself do things #i have things that have to get done so why am i not doing them?#and i dont even like have any things i want to draw. like i dunno. my motivation has disappeared. im not really obsessed with anything #im just wasting the time away #i dont want to do anything. i cant compell myself to do anything. i just want to lay on the floor until time dissappears #its so frustrating. im not even that anxious about anything. i just dont feel anything about anything #unrelated

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detentiontrack · 4 months

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If I go to the ER for a fever that won’t break, neck and head and face pain, nausea, and dizziness so bad I can’t stand with a potential infection, would they laugh at me and tell me to go home? Be honest.

#I don’t want to waste anyone’s time #there are probably people who are sicker than me that need the bed #but I feel like I would feel so much better with some IV fluids and antibiotics

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gaylienz · 6 months

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girl help i'm struggling with the inherent impermanence of everything to the point where i'm barraged by existential thoughts that come off as awfully deep-ressing

#i scroll thro blogs and im like well this could all vanish in a year or ten so am i wasting my time?#i go to try and write and i hit the wall of lack of motivation even as i know it requires energy and intention to create #i want to read fics but i have the same problem where i know its inconsequential in the long run and i feel as if i should be writing my ow #i could work on school stuff but ive been doing it all day long..and other future things....scary and intimidating #nothing sounds interesting to watch or read or listen to so im listless and bored and inevitably i think hmm this wouldnt be a thing (tm)#if i was dead. but just in the most casual and not actually suicidal way you know????#just like a fact that is useless bc of course it would be easier bc i wouldnt exist. thanks so much thats actually not helpful at all #cupid.txt

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chalkodareal · 2 years

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decemberween's not TECHNICALLY here yet but by jove is it comin' soon! 4 days! wow! this stuff is based around "the best decemberween ever" because its the most recent one i watched but if i'm feeling real stoked tomorrow i might do some art about the other ones! yippee!

#ive been keeping up with the decemberweenvent calender #that has been fun and its made me feel a lot less depressed about how much time i waste #i like these funny little animal guys and im hoping they also do some sort of decemberween special proper this year #but even if they dont #what they're doin right now is absolutely great and im happy to have this series still active even after i come so late #homestar runner #hsr #h*r #coach z #marzipan #strong bad #the cheat #CHALKO DRAWING TAG

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plasticsandwich · 16 days

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also ive spent some time just figuring out other things to do than be online all the time

#its nice. also just been more or less taking care of the house on my own now #so ive more to do in general mskdfs #i dont mind it. my life's in a weird place rn #so it helps to stay busy. i guess #and honestly? less screentime has been REALLY good for my body mksdfs #but cooking/cleaning/being out is something you can only really do so much... cant really run from reality forever #smkdfs just hard to know where things will go from here mksfs #ill try and post more like i used to though. its not like i dislike it mskdfms #but something different never hurts. though it i wish it could feel like more than just wasted time #diary

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tododeku-or-bust · 9 months

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Hooray my dramatics got people to ask!

Okay, the mini inheritance drama, cut down short and sweet:

(For context, I am a Black American. Creating generational wealth is important to us, because we are trying to have something to pass down. I'm not just being a greedy mf, it's the principle of the thing.)

So my grandfather brings up that he's questioning the inheritance of his house (that he's worked on for over three decades, and now owns). He's debating if he's going to give it to my brother or to my mom. (Now, my brother (I love him) has made exactly ZERO good decisions in his life, but he's worried that my brother won't have somewhere to live with his baby, and he thinks my mom will fight my dad about it (my dad, his own son, who also has made very poor financial decisions in life)). He goes on to say how out of my family, I've made the smartest decisions and made him so proud.

So I ask him: "well, what about me?"

His dismissive reply: "you can have your Granny's jewelry."

This was essentially followed by because I did so well in life, he doesn't want me to be waiting on anything or dependent.

Now I need y'all to understand that I'm unpacking and addressing traumas and behaviors TO THIS DAY over the pressure, expectations, double standards, and frankly cruelty I faced in this family, going Plus Ultra levels of beyond.

And I wasn't even in the running.

Anyway, that's my Villain Origin Story, that my viewership will boo me over despite being in the right 🤣

#like i dont even want the house tbh #its just the fact that i got to hear 'you did good and that's why you need nothing'#bro i coulda sold feet right outta high school debt free bruh this some BULLSHIT 🤣#i just feel like ive wasted so much time

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the-pea-and-the-sun · 22 days

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having to budget for food an b careful w food an not having a lot of space to put my food can b pretty annoying but when my roomates are throwing away 3/4 of their groceries that i cannot touch it makes me feel like im going insane

#at least throw away the food ur gonna throw away in a timely manner so i dont have to watch it decompose on the counter for five days #i would jus throw it away for them but like. ive seen my roomate reheat pizza that had been on the counter for literally like 12 hours #so i dont wanna piss them off by accident sfjgsdlfkg #i would ask if theyre making too much when their cooking or whatever #but i have had zero pleasant interactions w these people. an being the fat person in a house full of skinny ppl i just dont feel comfortabl #asking that #so it just. goes to waste #my lease ends in fuckin MAY #incredibly jealous of my friend who has roomates who keep a clean kitchen an give her a designated shelf an spot in the fridge #an take a day out of each week for everyone to cook an eat together like. y couldnt i have had that. cmon man #i would LOVE to cook for them too but they jus . have not been approachable. if theyre even here when im cooking #most of them jus show up fuck up the kitchen leave a perfectly good meal sitting out and then dont show up again until ive gone to bed

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cavity-collector · 1 month

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i genuinely need to be put down like a dog i cant do this anymore man holy shit

#yall dont know the meaning of terminally online til u meet me #i hate myself so much its not even funny i am the most miserable worthless scum #my sleep schedule is 7am to 3pm all i do all day is rot on the couch and sometimes draw if i have a drop of motivation #depression is completely kicking my ass and im not even fighting back i give up what the fuck man #theres not even a point for me to keep trying i just want to stop feeling such deep despair 24/7 please #i dont want to die i just want the pain to stop so i can peacefullylive out the rest of this year before i turn 18 and its all over for good #but i cant even have that! im just gonna suffer the whole time thanks great #i wish i could just get better and fix all of this but i cant its not working we dont have the money to #actually get me the help i need to make it work. i just have to figure it out or die #i just wanna go back to ***** ** *** i just want to stop being lonely and useless #i dont know why im posting this shit to tumblr. its so stupid i should just be journaling or something #probably because im worthless selfish scum. idfk.#the last 6 months have been a complete blur. just rotting on the couch or in bed occasionally seeing friends once every other month or so #ive already wasted half of being 17 abd im probably gonna waste the rest too. ill do nothing of worth before i die.#even my art is ugly and horrible and not worth leaving behind. people tell me to work to improve it but i dont have the time left #ill never create any of the things i wanted to create ill never be a good artist im just going to die exactly like this #an absolutely terrible person.#the only people i can talk about the things that make me a terrible person with are people who are terrible in even worse ways #no one can comfort me except them because theyre the only people who know what ive done and actually do see it as less than absolute evil #because they know absolute evil because it is them. but i actually don’t believe that i think theyre bad but could be good #idk what im saying anymore #someone shoot me #please im not kidding #just make it stop #tw vent #tw sui #delete later

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ubike-official · 1 month

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date back on for sunday now. His friend is okay. thank god. And uhhh, yea now we're finally be fr about the "hey we met on a dating, lets be so fr about what our experience has been" uncharted territory besties. we're not at "so what are you looking for?" but i already essentially told him my approach is to just really try getting to know ppl i find interesting and letting a spark develop from there w/o pressure. kinda like in school where you consistently see people in casual settings. and he thought it was a good plan so uh. here we are.

#basically he's had no luck and only like 2 matches (excluding me i believe) and all those people just never responded to him #which must be so funny bc now theres like. me. where i have seen his id. know his govt name. address. dob. and vitals. like. crazy.#and he's seen mine too ofc. equality. and uh. sounds like he's never dated. never had any bug feelings for anyone despite wanting to fall i #love so bad. which is... interesting. i feel like he has liked ppl and not recognized that it's a crush. nit just wanting to be friends but #imma hold off on sharing that until further developments.#i basically told him that I've had a very different experience. not to like brag but like most women will have better luck on apps (also hi #profile kinda sucks. all 4 photos look like a different person. his like actual answers to prompts aren't bad. they're good. thats what mad #me think 'oh i think i could rlly get along w/ this dude' but he'd attract a very niche type of woman)#which i also. didn't fully say. bc time and place. it'll come up but not right now. but yea so i told him that like. ive gotten many matche #but a lotttt of it is super low quality. lot of wasted time. so like. yea. we all have a bad time on dating apps till someone sticks and we #dont. we basically have both admitted to having idealized people in the past and getting the ick irl. and yea. building some good common #ground. ive always wanted to ask to ppl ive gone out w/ what their experience looks like but i feel like thats not smth to talk abt till #later on and I've never wanted anything past a 2nd date before so. yea.#although my first date did tell me but she was poly and like much more open to talking abt that than most monogamous ppl would be

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ambersky0319 · 2 months

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guess who didnt realize/forgot others could see their profile on roommate websites and got messaged by someone asking if i was still looking for a room when i dont actually plan on moving until much later this year 🙃

#multiple reasons i cant move sooner: health insurance. phone. not enough money to sustain myself yet #i did check anyway tho and the apartment offered was. a LONG 2 bus rides away from campus & my work #so even if i was looking. itd have very likely been a no just for that unfortunately (im hoping to cut down on commute time not increase it)#i did feel a lil bad tho and IMMEDIATELY paused my account 😅#i only created them bc i was getting a feel for how those sites worked more than anything #and also seeing if i could find someplace cheaper than $850/month since thats all my sib found and #that is an entire month worth of paychecks #i do not plan on spending that much on rent alone. i need to eat AND id like to still have something for things i enjoy #anywho i wished her luck but uh yeah im gonna have to tinker a bit more. see whats there to hide my profiles for now #or maybe just openly tell people like 'i actually cant move until much later this year ive only just been familiarizing myself w these sites #so unless you can wait that long...' bc i dont wanna waste people's time nor my own yknow?#anywho #amber's shit you can ignore

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opens-up-4-nobody · 6 months

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#tis i! tragic daughter one of three!#motherless at age 26 #the last wake was today and this was more fun than the 1st. more casual. my moms childhood friends were there #ans it was fun to catch up with my uncle and his side of the family #i feel so weird tho. bc ppl r asking how we r and like genuinely i feel fine most of the time #like my sister is like: i sacrificed so much for my mom and i saw her downslide into death #and im like yea i fucked off to [redacted state] and showed uo after the horrible part was over #and bc im finally on medication i really feel better than i have possibly ever. so its just weird #weird to br at my mother's wake and think: god ive wasted so much fucking time being miserable. i dont want to do that anymore #and i feel like thats an option now. i mean ill always be frustrated by the same things. the difficulty reading and focusing #and the lack of social ease. but it feels like less of a big deal now #i say that now before im entrenched in school again. but idk. its just weird #but idk i love my mom but there was distance there and i have weird insect brain which i think makes it hurt less #i dunno. maybr ill feel it more later. when im on my own again #its just that i never reached out to her. i didnt realy on her and she didnt reach out to me so now things won't change much #i dunno. well see #unrelated

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