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angeltism · 7 months

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#➳ valentin vents #i feel so bad i keep complaining on here #i just feel like im in so much pain #physically and emotionally #i don't even know what to say it just hurts so bad everything hurts #i don't want to hurt anymore

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hinamie · 4 months

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atla!au designs part 3 !! one of these things is uh. not like the others

first year trio gojo/choso/nanami

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #fanart #jjk fanart #jjk atla!au #geto suguru #yuta okkotsu #mahito #lmhs #atla!au: design #squints at mahito i think i might b trying a bit too hard fr preliminary designs.......#they keep getting progressively more detailed OOPS #atla!au: art #i feel like no one will complain tho so ! anywayyyyy #thank u hisuian zoroark fr ur weird hair n bad posture. stole that 2 put on this freak n gave him some soul orb hair ties #idk if his design adheres very faithfully to anything that can be considered atla canon....but i like it so much ok sue me #i would unironically like mahito more if he looked like this #let him lean more Monster.......pl..pls.......#dont dig too deep into that statement . anyway.#this whole page is full of chars i just Never draw but i dont have a least favourite here ???? all of them look rly good imo??#waterbender garb suits geto's design so well he gave me No trouble #yuuta on th other hand i was Concerned for on account of th aforementioned Orange on a very monochrome char in jjk canon #but i think i made it work? he looks great in th tattoos also??????#maybe th rumors r true and im good at what i do GHFGHGHL #(oh ya after mahito i didnt want to draw Another monster-spirit so i omitted rika but she exists. probably looks similar 2 canon also!)#(sighs ill deal w her later. priorities !!!!)

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lynxalon · 9 days

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i've seen a fair bit of... pessimism about dorym lately, esp with the ep107, for example wondering if dorian's opposing views on the gods making orym fall out of love, and i have to say. i very highly doubt it, ur fr talking about the man who has held on to will for so long, holding onto will's family and affectionately calling this *his* family too because that didn't stop when will died. i dont think falling out of love is an option or even a thought to orym.

that said, we know that orym has contingencies for if anyone in bells hells crosses the line into being a version of themselves they would despise, for anyone who jeopardizes their mission. his mission. i think, for the first time since knowing dorian, orym finally has a contingency for him. the longer dorian is back, the more orym sees how scarred he is by what's happened (understandable so) and knows that dorian is with bells hells all the way. but if he isn't...

#lynx speaks #critical role spoilers #cr spoilers #dorym #dorian x orym #i'll be so fr i hardly interact with the cr fandom at large bc soooooo many people are deeply pessimistic #i want to have fun!!!!! i AM having fun #and then i come here and see the most bad faith takes in all of the world ever and its disheartening!#where's ur fucken JOY where's ur fucken WHIMSY #bells hells is one of the wackiest groups with crazy dynamics between them all and its enjoyable!#ur Allowed to enjoy the things u watch i prommy #and to that point! people keep complaining that bells hells r indecisive and there r too many opposing views muddying things etc etc #1. ofc there r a lot of views. the real world is like that too. opposing views is one of the best story elements to enrich ur made up world #2. whenever there is a Big Decisive moment many instantly go 'noooooo not like that!!! that's not what *i*wanted' (ex: the shard.)#the cast receiving backlash from fans every time they r decisive and do something objectively fucken cool and interesting #means that any time they Think about doing a Big Thing... it gets a little harder bc what if the fans hate it. again. should i even do this #separating fandom from cast is a bit more difficult for this form of media and the inherent close proximity or creators to audience #so. just. maybe some of us could chill and cool off just a little. and maybe examine why This Thing is so terrible to u. and remember.#it may be terrible to *u* but thats where it stops. the specific bad feelings u have r not always indicative of media being Bad.#sometimes it's just not ur cup of tea and i PROMMY that its okay if its not

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ganondoodle · 3 months

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im not lying when i say that i was just finally getting "over" totk, like i hate it still, but the immediate anger and need to rant has died down-

and then the elden ring DLC fucks with me in a very similar way, just even moreso focused on my favorite character in that entire franchise, completely unexpectedly, and the more i learn about it the worse it gets and now i feel even worse bc i dont have the energy anymore to get as angry as i did with totk and its just kinda ... depression and sadness ..

it was like the interest i could fall back to when zelda annoyed me too much or i needed a break from that and i was honestly thinking about doing more with it but now

i know i know i can always draw 'my own stuff' but being a fan of a piece of media or character is just fun and .. furfilling to me in a different way and now i feel so empty again ... and finding new things to obsess about is easier said and done bc i dont 'decide' to stop liking something and neither can just decide to obsess over something so im just kinda left hanging here ... and in a way, i still like it and care about it, frustratingly so, and dont WANT to just stop and find soemthign new ...

#ganondoodles talks #elden ring #zelda #in a way #AND it adds to me just ranting #and complaining #like i wasnt literallly a few days ago beating myself up about that #now i have the next thing #and its almost as bad as it was with totk #with the only difference being that i dont have the energy left to yell that much #and that its the second time now in such a short time span relatively to how long i keep my interests and how long it takes to find one #so in a way it hurts even worse #.... also when the whole thing is kinda bad then at least the whole thing is kinda bad #but here its like specifically my fav #and i dont want to and cant let him just .. go #but at the same time ............. its been so shifted around completely idk what to make of it #idk what the point was to make and present him like he was in the base game and then do such a turn in the DLC #and it feels less like he was someones important favorite nd more like most hated character #bc why would you do that to him like this #you can argue all you want about how it makes sense actually and wahtever but this is what i feel right now ok #what am i even drawing for anyway #what am i even thinking about any stories for anyway #why am i caring about anything anyway #i wish i knew and could stop

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nell0-0 · 5 months

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Too tired to draw, what is this curse. I wanna draw so badly but can't even focus on the screen, augh

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werebutch · 5 months

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My dad won’t leave me the hell alone . I know that he’s prone to paranoid delusions but it was a lot easier to deal with when it was something like being convinced he’s a demon sent from hell. How am I supposed to convince a man his bitch ex wife and his bitch daughters aren’t plotting to ‘split his family up’ as he puts it. He is so convinced there’s no arguing. And if I refuse to argue he will yell more and tell me how I have no argument because I know he’s right. I know I shouldn’t react to that but it makes my blood boil 😐

#and this is a guy who will kill himself if I move out. or at least try to for attention so I’ll come back. this sucks right #and he’s so convinced about this that he is half convincing me that I’m actually a horrible spoiled person and I shouldn’t be complaining.#like. I know I do a lot of that on here but I usually don’t say anything. I should be thankful there’s a roof over my head #but sometimes like now it’s just too much not to say anything.#also I feel bad for everyone who keeps up with this stuff and comments and stuff. I take your advice into consideration it’s just hard #to actually do it. everyone in my life including my mom and therapist all say the same thing: stop helping them all esp my dad and #just take care of myself. it’s just hard. I feel so guilty

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hivepixels · 3 months

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#i wrote the arsl essay really emotionally if it's illogical i'm very sorry it's just my impression T0TTTTT.........#mumblings #EVEN THE SOLLUX ONE IS CRINGE TO ME I CANT LOOK AT IT ANYMORE i'm just glad people who've gotten something out of it can feel #more reassured in their enjoyment of these characters bcs theyre awesome & i like when people think abt them esp in relation to each other #i was so 👀!!! by how sollux detected his relevancy was reduced compared to the rest of the meteor crew and chose to step away with aradia #and since her arc was pretty much finished around the same time as his i rlly love how they complete their jobs then go off have fun #(well sollux is extra funny bcs he doesnt WANT to be a Main Character but mf can't resist adding his two cents backseat commentary LOL)#anw.. idk if ive ever mentioned but i dont care for pale arsl whatsoever skjskj highkey resent the popularity of that depiction but i don't #have grounds to complain since it gives people a reason to keep including aradia with sollux somehow #once again coming from a dvkt background i often saw aradia and sollux entering as a pair so it was wild to switch to slkt and #find out a lot of sollux shippers don't like aradia as much. or at all #<- was scrolling old posts and saw that people have been discussing this same exact thing years ago LMAO the cycle repeats itself #i think sollux should 🥺👉👈 for aradia forever its funnier to think he likes her so much and she's just. occupied by more important things #ANYTHING SHE NEEDS HE WILL COME.... SHE JUST HAS TO ASK. BUT WHAT CAN SHE POSSIBLY ASK FOR WHEN SHE'S ALREADY SO CAPABLE....... HSJAHAA #back when she approached him for tech and research assistance he could feel useful but now. he's huddled in the corner sad puppy #its so ;;; when ppl make him super relieved to see aradia like WAAGHHHHHH SHE'S HERE... SHE'S HERE FOR HIM!!!!!!!!!#sollux wanting to be more important to aradia is a thought i revisit a lot he just wants to know if there's anything there #but he can't pick Just One Thing and regardless of the outcome good or bad he'll always regret screwing it up #in reality its not his fault lol just like karkat dude's got the self-sabotage instinct for things no one holds him against for so. yeh #STILL don't take my opinions as truth gospel alright i'm a fangirl not a meta writer!!!!!!!!!

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hauntingblue · 6 months

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LUFFY!!!!!!!!! I HAVE BEEN CONVERTED!!!! LUFFY BELIEVER FULL TIME!!!!! LET US WORSHIP THE SUN!!!!

#luffy deflating like a balloon..... be serious 😭😭#MOMO NOT BEING ABLE TO HEAR LUFFY!!! oh kaido going for the others now..... law could hear his voice too???#NAMI BEING THE FIRST TO STEP UP!!! CHILLS!!! THIS TIME STEPPING UP TO WITNESS THE HORRORS!!! YEAH!!!#yamato really does carry the spirit of oden straight up.... motivating his son and everything...#i feel like i am going insane... I CAN HEAR THE DRUMS!!! nami telling luffy to not die and fulfill his promise WHO ELSE HAD A PROMISE????#is this why his fruit awakened.... because nami reminded him of the promise... omg..... THE DRUMS!!! CHILLS!!!! THE SMILE!!!!! IM SO HYPE!!#talking tag #watching one piece #episode 1070 #i am smiling so hard rn. contagious #also the cp0 that died for this ajdja.... suffering from success....#THE BOUNCING SOUNDS!!!! THE DRUMS!!!! THE SMILE!!! SANJI JUST VOLTING AWAKE??? see the clouds over his shoulders remain.... as i was saying #you know this has me realising maybe shanks isn't all that bad and stole the fruit from the gov so they couldnt get hold of it #hiyori saying how oden kept hia promise but also how he wanted to keep the promise of opening wano for joyboy #THE KANJURO THING!!! HIYORI WATCH OUT!!! oh its gonna burn orichi by accident YEAAHHH!!!!!!! FUCK YEAHH!!!!#the animation is so fun.. luffy just junping around and shit while hia destruction power is MASSIVE #this is so!!!! kaido complaining about being bored and having fun thru fighting AND HERE COMES LUFFY WITH HIS LOONEY TOONS GOOFY FIGHT!!!!#they knocked this shit out of the park!!! also END CREDITS????!#episode 1071 #momo saying kaido got fat 😭 actually kaido got pregnant <3 yamato you're going to be a big brother congrats!!!#the eyes 😭😭 damn luffy flew away and exploded... 😞😞 skipping rope with kaido omg.... everyone should go outside and see this...#we are welcoming here in the luffy believers... barto is gonna enlist hundreds of new members #law is luffy believer number 1 damn the speech he is giving kid... omg kaido bonked him ajshaksjak that was so good he needed witnesses..#nami worried abojt luffy being dead and when he appears she is just like WTF IS THAT!!!!!! HUH???!!#wait a second ooohhhh kaido is goong down too fuck yes akdjaksj momo and yamato peeking over the island jahdksk #THE DRUMS BEING HIS HEART I CANNOT GET OVER IT!!! Kaido shoukd be puking up his insides by now but alas this is so fun BOIOIOIOIOING #FIRST TIME SOMEONE ASKS LUFFY WHO HE IS AND HE DOESN'T SAY MONKEY D LUFFY FUTURE KING OF THE PIRATES. HE SAYS ITS HIM. STRAIGHT UP!!!!#NVM HE SAID IT!!!!! GOD IS THAT YOU????!!!!#episode 1072

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cheeseknives · 7 months

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I got last months electricity bill and it was like 800€ something, whhhaat the fuck

#this is going to be me just complaining lmao feel free to ignore #I practically live alone when moms not here ????#but also like #if you have whole ass family #let's say partner and three kids or something #and you want them to have same kind of upbringing as you so you get a house with a lawn n all that in rural area #how the fuck are you supposed to do that ???#I'm not even against the idea of raising kids myself but in this economy..?#hurr durr future bad #but also men who want housekeeper of a wife but also complain about gold diggers like dawg #you have to have stay at home money to have stay at home wife lol #even if both of you work you cant expect your wifey to do all the work at home #the municipality is going to look at our bill and the amount of residents in our house and think we are growing weed or something...#but yeah this is why you dont remove fireplace from old ass house old heaters are expensive to keep on #like idk if I should just turn them off in rooms we dont use ?#bc on the otherhand what if something like mold starts growing there since its still winter #ughh #turning this house into igloo I dont want to think about funny numbers on the screen #remember to unplug things if you arent using them #I probably should check that no one is living in our attic or something #I have desire to bother someone about this

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orcelito · 11 months

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Like. Ok. It's a big part of why I've separated myself from t.ristamp fandom more since finishing the manga. I just. The way a lot of the fans over there interact with the show is just so very different from what it means to me. And this is especially evident with how they treat Vash.

The "babygirl", the sweet sly sexy trans guy who is soooo innocent and small and meek and a total doormat, would never ever Ever say anything mean Ever, just total sunshine and daisies all the time (unless he's sad and then he's a pathetic wet meow meow who has to be bundled up and doted on until he's happy again, poor Baby)

I'm being dramatic here but like... also not? Some people really do characterize him like that, and it drives me up the wall.

I love Vash for his complexities. The way he contradicts himself. He's a staunch pacifist, but he gets angry enough a few times to be tempted to kill. He's goofy, yet haunted. Sweet, yet bitchy. And oh GOD he loves being an annoying little shit so much. He's jaded, yet hopeful. Resigned at the state of the world, yet still working to make it better. Plays the idiot, but is a total badass when push comes to shove. And for all his frequent childishness, he really is quite mature. That soul deep maturity that he achieved over a century and a half of struggle and strife, countered by his wish to just have Fun...

You see? These are two entirely different characters. After truly getting to know the 2nd (mainly manga vash, though 98 has some aspects of it too), the first just. Really falls flat.

And this. Is why. I need to stop reading t.ristamp fic. Bc more likely than not, I'm going to be disappointed.

#speculation nation #sorry i lied bitch mode wasnt over #& ok at the end of the day. if u really enjoy the first characterization then like. w/e. you do you i guess #it obviously appeals to plenty of people considering how widespread it is.#just. really not for me.#and i know that characterization isnt in all t.ristamp fic. i Know. some people really do him justice #but it feels like playing russian roulette lol. at Least 50% chance when clicking on a t.ristamp fic of seeing a characterization #that is so off the mark from what i love about him that it completely sucks the joy out of it.#....and 50% is me being generous. could be Even More than that. though im not exactly keeping track.#just.... sigh. at this point i really should just accept that it's not for me.#so that i dont end up coming back here every few weeks complaining Again about bad vash characterization.#but what can i say? i wanna read one shots sometimes and there r so many more t.ristamp ones around 😭#it's not like im Looking for them specifically!!!!! 😭😭😭😭#and so the cycle continues. and i will be continuously disappointed. alas.

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thecherrygod · 4 months

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moonlit-orchid · 4 months

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good evening to everyone except a certain few fucking anons

#go fuck yourselves like seriously what the fuck #im so sick of this #this is about the last two anons by the way. i havent gotten any more because i turned off anon asks #if you wanna know why anon asks are off blame those two assholes #seriously that stupid shits been getting to my head #you know why? because every fucking person around here (especially my mum) LOVES to criticise me and accuse me of victimising myself #literally every fucking thing i do is wrong around here down to my hair #all these fucking adults like to bully me about MY hair #fuck you if i want bangs I'll keep the bangs #literally it seems like they're just doing whatever they can to change me into someone else. someone they want #this fucking culture of mine is so shitty i swear to god #like they think that BULLYING you is people being honest with you #and that if someone's nice to you theyre shittalking you behind your back #(honestly considering some of the people i see i wouldn't be surprised)#and im not even doing anything thats WRONG either. im different and not one of these people can tolerate that #yeah my mum sent me a video of a goat with curly hair and implied she thinks my bangs are like that. in a derogatory manner btw #so yeah that's had me pissed and then the fucking anons were also making me pissed #fuck you I'm gonna be as selfish as i want when i post on MY blog #this blog is MINE #I decide what i write and how much i wanna shittalk someone who upset me to get my feelings out. if anyone wants to call me selfish fuck you #and you know what? fuck That Person too. they geniunely messed me up more than they helped me #yes. im still gonna talk about them. im still gonna complain because FUCK YOU I NEED TO GET IT OUT SOMEHOW OKAY #I NEED THIS SHIT OUT OF ME AND IT GETS BACK INTO MY HEAD SO I NEED IT OUTSIDE #and fuck you anons who gave your unwanted opinion. if you cant say anything nice SHUT YOUR FUCKING MOUTHS #i was taken advantage of and manipulated #and apparently I'm the bad guy for small mistakes like excuse me #and then that person even told a friend of theirs once to attack me (over text) like what #i just cant anymore it needs to be fucking out #and im not sorry for complaining about this because this is my blog and i will complain on here. this blog is for ME. for MY happiness.#and as such i will fucking complain shit and i will fucking post my vents because thats the only way i can send these emotions off for good

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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year

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#im just gonna complain abt it here bc i just have to accept that i can't irl bc no one else gets it #its hard to b a dyslexic grad student. u have to read so much. and its good. lots of reading is good. u just have to contend with a soul #crushing amout of discouragement at the fact u just kinda cant read while ur peers r like sure i can read this in class and have things to #say abt it. if u make me read in my head in class i literally cannot fucking tell u what i just read. not a god damn thing and if i try to #let my computer read to me i cant fucking pay attention for long enough so i just have to accept that from here on out ill have to #physically read papers aloud which i hate so much. its the only way i can fucking understand things and it still makes me feel dumb bc ill #somehow still space out while reading and have to reread like 4 times before i understand wtf is being said. it takes forever and it takes #energy and i dont like talking very much and it also restricts me to only being able to read at home which is frustrating #and im like i need to stop my brain from distracting myself with things that dont matter and my counselor is like: ur ocd is trying to make #work ur whole life and im like yeah thats how i got it. its the only way i can keep swimming with the non dyslexics #so its like wtf do i do? i kinda have to take the hit and make work my whole life rn. morn the loss of other things for a while #i dunno im still a bummer rn. like im probably coming off as more an asocial freak than normal bc its hard to talk ans maintain conversation #rn. but whatever. sometimes things just suck and theres nothing u can do abt it but accept it and move on. ill learn lots of things with all #the reading i have to do and that's never a bad thing ...no matter how much i dont give a fuck abt animals #like jesus. i could not even begin to give a fuck about like 95% of mammals. fish r cool tho. plants too #but microbes is where its at. i dont understand y ppl dont understand how cool they r. oh well ill just have to tell them #if i can find my fucking enthusiasm. ugh i have to make one of my classes read a paper and i have to work with someone abt find it. she #works with like rabbits. i refuse to assign a mammal paper. i fucking refuse. we will do plants or microbes or fucking paleontology #i will fight her on this. ugh. light filtering or orchid speciation would b perfect. annoying #at least i get to work with some culturs this week #unrelated

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jammmbi · 5 months

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god i need therapy and to move out

#aka i need to move out #idk how much longer i can take listening to my parents just say shit and have opinions and then expect me to feel the same way #and when i disagree suddenly i’m siding with the wrong people #when quite literally i’m trying to make you understand that your thoughts are not the only thoughts to be considered #while also trying to validate their feelings but that they’re not communicating at all and are taking it out on ppl #i am so so so tired of being the constant middleman between my family members and ultimately having to hear everyone say shit abt everyone #and expect me to immediately agree or understand #like girlies you can all be wrong and you all are and the fact that you aren’t willing to admit your wrongdoings is your first problem #your second was expecting me to hype you up and encourage your behavior #having to constantly remind myself that it’s not my responsibility to keep the peace or to solve my familial issues #and the one time i tried to explain this it was met with ‘no one’s asking you to’#which is true !!! but then why are ALL OF YOU complaining to me and only me #why are you burdening me with all of this information #and if i tell you i can’t handle it or don’t want to talk about it i’m suddenly the bad guy too #i can’t win here your honor !!! the only solution in which i win is to get OUT #and of course i can’t make anyone say or do or believe anything #i’m not naive enough to think i can #but sitting there silent isn’t helping and speaking doesn’t either and there’s no other good solution #it’s just exhausting

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spiderwarden · 6 months

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Y’all… I think I burned myself in energy when the ignorant little brats got the dialogue removed from the game. I think I’m gonna game and decompress and get my sewing room fixed up. Find me in discord.

#[ 🕷️ ] —— out of character #[ it’s almost pow wow season anyway I need to finish my dress SOON ]#[ and !!! a fic I need to read too I keep frickin forgetting ]#[ however I get sleepy anytime I’m trying to write so I think I just need a recharge still ]#[ “oh Mel you’re being a little harsh in their name!!!’’ no. I’m not. they’re all being entirely rude and disrespectful to us ]#[ so I give zero respects to them in my space here ]#[ zero respect and zero fucks here in my space ]#edit: also most are complaining her dialogue is broken and unavailable again and I don’t even feel bad about it

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minterim · 8 months

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just had my dad admit to me that even though he's fully aware of how much his alcoholism hurts me and my mum and brother he refuses to quit drinking outright because he likes it. cool

#im so sick of this shit. cant wait to move out #his current method if youre interested is to only drink wine after dinner. so that hes not pissed drunk at the dinner table #note: he can still drink as much beer as he wants. and still drinks all that wine after dinner anyway. and has a success rate of very bad #this is harm reduction. apparently #AND he has the fucking gall to complain that we dont give him any positive reinforcement when he succeeds!! fuck offfff #i try to be graceful and forgiving. addiction recovery isnt linear. and at least he admits its an addiction now #and he has chronic back pain and childhood trauma and whatnot. but given that he has that back pain because he stormed out in a drunken huf #then shat himself wandered into the shower to clean off and then slipped and broke his ribs. i find it. a little hard. to be sympathetic.#the complete dismissal of the success stories from recovering alcoholics going teetotal as fucking AA propaganda also doesnt help. lol.#but yeah. point is: he values being allowed to drink more than he values us and keeping himself from hurting us #there you have it. in black and white #personal #delete later #apologies for oversharing. needed to get this all out #i gotta get the fuck outta here man. i feel numb to everything #anyhoo. if you read this far kudos. thanks for lookin out or whatever <3

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