#i fuckin apologized for that too!!

[chilledstrawberrysoda]

Do you ever just get really hung up on small injustices in your past that aren't THAT big of a deal but we're so pivotal to who you are as a person and felt like the end of the world at the time and everything turned out okay but you still get caught up on the what if of it all occasionally and mourn the person you may have been?

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

lighting & color practice with the Fluffy Fruits <3

[revasserium]

I just found your blog. Your writing is incredible! So addicting read! Could you write 49 with Matsukawa? If you don't write for him Iwaizumi is good too :)

send me a prompt and a character, and i’ll write you a drabble

49. stolen kisses; iwaizumi

on the rooftop, during lunch period, when it’s way too hot but it’s the only place with any semblance of privacy — his fingers insistent as they tilt your chin up to meet his, your hands crumpling his uniform front. the way you let out a long, ragged breath from between kiss-slick lips makes a strange satisfaction curl in his stomach as he pulls back.

“y-y’know… if oikawa-san knew —”

“mm — i really don’t like it when you mention another guy’s name when we’re together like this.”

he huffs, tugging you forward again, you protest lost against the press of his lips.

“so… what was that about oikawa?” he asks as the pair of you make your slow way down the three flights of stairs to japanese lit.

“i — just…” you blush, ducking as iwaizumi turns to cock his head at you, the hint of a smirk on his lips, “you always give him such a hard time for flirting —”

“ah… so you’re calling me a hypocrite?” he props an arm over your head, caging you in just before the pair of you hit the last bend into the hallway, slowly filling with more and more students, making their way back in from lunch.

“no! i just… it just occurred to me is all.”

“heehhh… so you were thinking of another guy when we were making out, hm?”

you nearly squeak as he leans down, crowding into your personal space with a sharp, hard-lined look in his eyes, but the smirk on his lips is nothing short of wicked as he pauses right before his lips meet yours, so close you can almost taste him —

“guess next time… i’ll just have to make it so you can’t think at all, huh?”

[cephydeluxe]

TW: eye strain, blood, no visible gore but eye injury implied (also rambling in the tags)

Early work in progress painting of v,,,, the final piece won’t look anything like this (…..maybe) but I was messing with layer settings and hard mix is serving ,,,,,

tbh I’m starting 2 understand V h8ters now,,, mf needs 2 get the FUCK outta my head before I do something crazy 🫣🫣🫣🫣🫣 (((draw him more****

[butwhatifidothis]

Ultimately, I think one of the worst things Hopes does wrt its writing of Claude is take out all of the complexities and contradictions that had made him so interesting to begin with.

OG Claude lies and manipulates people and closes himself off while still searching for the truth and wanting people to come together and be open with each other, because of how his traumas meld together with his dreams. He says that he'll do whatever it takes to get what he wants and shows off opportunistic tendencies and then buckles at the first sight of innocents getting hurt, because no matter how much he wants what he wants he still prioritizes the lives of the people around him over anything else. He knows of people's capacity to hurt others for petty or illogical reasons - was raised with that knowledge beating its existence into him - and yet still dreams of a world where people of different lands and cultures can still be friends, because that is how tightly he holds onto his dreams. He's a kind person with the capacity for being a dick, and his contradictions add on so much to his character; they in large part are his character.

Hopes Claude? He lies and manipulates people and closes himself off... and that's it. He says he'll do whatever it takes to get what he wants... and he does. He knows of people's capacity to hurt others for petty or illogical reasons... and has no real dreams of stopping it (or dreams of anything in the future really, by his own admission) and he indulges in that very behavior himself, seemingly without any awareness. He is untrustworthy, and manipulative, and opportunist... and that's it. What you see is what you get. And if this were a character unto themselves, if we're kind and we ignore all of the other issues with Hopes!Claude's writing, that would be a fun enough villain to follow around.

But it's not; this is supposed to be Claude. This is a character who has so much of his foundations be built on the idea that what he presents on the surface isn't all that he seems. That he's more than a character who is just "tee hee I'm only pretending to be nice but I'm actually eeeeevil evil evil evil evil evil evil," but someone who both uses kindness as a means to an end and embodies it genuinely. Warm yet calculated, a good man with real flaws - THAT is who Claude is. Hopes Claude is who Claude is if you strip him of any complexity - He Is Only Pretending To Be Good, But Actually He Is Bad.

He's just... easier to swallow, in a sense. Claude is a good person who is willing and able to do bad things, but only up to a very specific, very clear point, all for a good dream he's held onto for years and plans extensively to make a reality in the future; Clyde is a shit person who's willing to do everything short of bombing specifically whatever land he himself is ruling, all for what essentially amounts to no concrete purpose. There's no need to think about Clyde as hard, since he just does what he does because he's doing it and that's enough.

It's why I'm glad I am Dev-Approved to just fuckin' ignore Hopes entirely as a horrific fever dream, because Hopes does not understand what made Claude so lovable at all

[chaisshitposts]

Why do you think the people who get successful to enter the void state refuse to help others who are struggling when you can just affirm once for them and it’s done so sweet and simple but why create so much drama when someone asks for help when you can easily just help each other here. Instead of giving so much of advices and methods just affirm once for them😩🤚🏻

hmm i dunno tbh, everyone definitely has their different reasons for such decisions. personally, I'd think the main reason is prolly like--- they want others to enter the void state on their own just like they did and another reason is that they prolly don't wanna be attacked by people if they do manifest that that person enters the void and that person doesn't end up enterin' the void for whatever reason (perhaps cause of their personal beliefs or limitin' beliefs, shit like that) I definitely can't blame them for thinkin' that 🧍oR perhaps they just don't want to manifest for strangers on tumblr. there's toooooons of reasons, but those above are the main reasons that i can personally think of 🤸

this is kinda perplexin' to think about? 🕵️ but it most definitely comes down to personal preference. i suppose one could manifest that others can easily enter the void regardless of whatever reality and beliefs they occupy just by usin' various wordin' bUt like--- im not sure? 🤔 I would like to experiment with it myself tbh when the time comes

once i wake up in the void again, and manifest for people who ask for help gettin' into the void state i ain't gonna lie and say I'm doin' it from the goodness of my heart, I'm doin' it for experimental purposes and to fulfill my own curiosity but y'all prolly won't care if it means that ya still get what ya want regardless🚶i just wanna see what happens ngl 🕵️ theoretically it should work 100%, find out next time on dragon ball z

[im-smart-i-swear]

Stickbug and his awkward i-didnt-even-want-to-be-in-this-photo smile

[arrogantmrcnry]

so now I'll sing for you

till i can talk

I've been teaching myself to cry

so that you know how much you're loved

[bonestrouslingbones]

was looking for more songs for edge's playlist bc i got sick of listening to it when in the mood for the I'm Gonna Kill You songs and only getting all the Unrequited Feelings songs instead so i looked up some of those shitty youtube-video-format playlists and this is the lineup i'm dealing with so far

[steaksex]

Today sucked ass and penis. Clearly the healthy thing ti do is repeat my self hypnosis trigger until i dont need to worry about having a brain or being a person

[oopsiedaisymae]

took the bus/walked to the store today to grab something. very... demure... very.... mindful-- *i collapse into a puddle of sweat and oversized clothes*

[michaelnotwheeler]

The dysphoria do be dysphoriaing

Never thought I’d think about the way I stand so much but yknow. Here I am.

[kkolg]

It’s annoying

It happened twice too please🧍‍♀️

[psycherprince]

ways my emotional support cat has emotionally supported me thus far:

-got the zoomies while I was crying and distracted me by being fucking goofy

-found a bottle of Lexapro that had rolled under my bed (after he knocked it off my nightstand, but he did find it)

-crawled up on my shoulders like a parrot, preventing me from getting any work done (benefit unclear), pic related

-whined like a little baby when I wouldn't let him bite my face (???)

-REFUSES to let me piss without supervision (the bathroom door doesn't close all the way sometimes and he just bonks into it until it opens)

-forces me to get out of bed and bothers me relentlessly when I don't (this one actually is really helpful)

-does this:

[crazyw3irdo]

and when they say "in a good way" they always mean "in a slightly less bad way"

[synthshenanigans]

there’s one on here currently and they’re bringing back up old controversy (jashshipping)

Yeaa I saw that. They also seem to post a bunch of CJ related things, so I might make the daily photos one since there isn't one for just CJ screenshots/photos