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dont-open-dead-inside-25 · 1 year

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Friend date is scheduled! the date is set! the time is picked! I’m so exciteddd

#we were going to watch the d&d movie together #but then she got sick and it went out of theaters #and i thought that was the end of that #but!!#then she asked if I wanted to come over to her house and watch with her and her family!!!#aghggh #i have SUCH a hard time scheduling things my god #finn says shit

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luck-of-the-drawings · 6 months

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"And soda; runs off into the street..." "...and soda... is totally okay!"

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi suckening #cw blood #something something cracking open a boy w the cold ones #IF THERE ARE ANY MISTAKES I MISSED I SWWWEAR TO JEBEDIAH. IF I STARE AT THIS ANYMORE IM GONNA DIE IT NEEDS TO BE DONE #ALSO RRRAAAHAHHHGHGH CAN I JUST TAKEA SECOND TO SCREEAAMM ABT HOW MUCH I LOVE SODA AND EMIZEL.. LIKE THERYE SO CUTE....#THEY ARE HOMIES THAT KISS EACHOTHR GOODNIGHT. THEY CARE SO MUCH FOR EACHOTHER. SODA LOVES SODA AND SODA LOVES YOU #do u guys remember how willing he was to share blood w his vampire bestie. like cmon. remember when emizel memorized sodas Soda Schedule.#LIKE CMON.... they just have eachothers backs so much. ouhhh my god... ANYWAY SO THE ART HUH. I FEEL LIKE I SCRAMBLED W IT FOR A WHILE #DRAWIN IS HARD..... i think i did well in the end tho.. i like the lil heart beat effects. and i hope i made soda look Suffieciently Scared #i ALSO had fun w the teeth. i however did not have fun w the walls. if i had more drugs i mightve done every brick in more detail #but i didnt WANNA!!!! this will suffice.I HOPE IT FLOWS WELL&THAT ITS CLEAR... IVE STARED AT IT SO LONG IT IS NOW VISUAL SOUP. HELP!!!#i want my comics to have more Pauses and Space and Thought and Momence. i feel like normally they go so fast. but THIS time #i think i did good.... huuoouhhhh.... comics are HARD art is HARD but i am HARDER. or something. OH YEAH I HAVE MORE ART THINGS #soda was RLY HARD FOR ME TO DRAW FOR A MINUTE..but i like where his design is now. i wanted his hair to be curly swirly.like soda fizz #i THINK thats all my thoughts for now. if u have thoughts u should spill them in the tags i looooove reading tttaaggsss #have a goodnight i gotta go to work soon. maybe. unless the casinos power goes out AGAIN. OR SEOMTHING... UUGHHH MY SCHEDULE IS IN SHAMBLES #I THOUGHT I WAS WORKIN 3 DAYS INA ROW SO I RENTED A WHOLE DAMN HOTEL BC THE JOB PLACE IS FAR AWAY.. I HAD TO CANCEL THE WHOLE RESERVATOn #annd im MMMMAD ABOUT IT!!! like ill get over it ofc BUT IM PEEVED!!!! IM INCONVIENIENCED AND GENTLY AGGRIVATED. BUT OVERALL FINE.#hope yalls weekend goes well. sleep well. if u get the chance to.

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theres-whump-in-that-nebula · 8 months

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Anyone else have near-perfect executive function at work; but at home, have literally no energy or motivation to do anything except lie in a dark room, with something in or on your ears for several hours?

#It’s got to be the schedule keeping me on task at work #I love microdosing strict routines (not having an actual routine for the day; but having routines for small tasks #which piss me off if I can’t carry them out precisely the way I planned)#For instance: If I’m asked to paperclip a bunch of stuff together with multicolored paperclips of various sizes #I cannot just indiscriminately pick paperclips from the container because that is WRONG and ILLEGAL #The colors must fit the theme of the assignments; and the colors must alternate in a specific order #and the paperclips must all be the same size #If I’m asked to dump out and clean containers of writing utensils I am going to sort them by type and color #whether you like it or not #Black permanent markers have their own container in a different section from the blue permanent markers #Dry-erase markers are not to be mixed with permanent markers because they are easily confused and it is WRONG and ILLEGAL #Do not fuck with the system. It’s the only organizational skill I have and by fucking GOD I’m going to use it in EXCESS #I stuff and fill out envelopes the exact same way every time because if I do it any other way it is WRONG and ILLEGAL #The stamp always goes on last to minimize monetary waste if there is a mistake #Now you’d think my room is squeaky clean and organized because of how particular I am about these small tasks #Right? Right?#NO IT IS NOT. It looks like a bomb went off. Cleaning the room is a big task which cannot be accomplished within two hours #therefore I have discarded it as anything I need a routine for because it would take too long to come up with #and it is very hard for me to do things like that without instructions or a sense of consistency #So I simply don’t #“After five years the dust doesn’t get any worse” correct; but the mold certainly does #I am convinced half my problems with organization as a kid would have been solved if I just had a hamper #“We have a clothes chute; you don’t need a hamper” Maybe you don’t but I DO #I want one now; but I’m going to use it as incentive to get an apartment #because that’s another thing I need to smuggle and I have too much already

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kyunsies · 2 months

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hi loves i have neglected mx info since i've been on vacation i will hopefully be back on a normal schedule soon <3

#mädch rambles #god i haven't posted on there in forever im SORRY when my schedule gets busy it just is hard to keep up!#ALSO i recently got off orientation at my new(ish) nurse job #i started working in the operating room earlier in january and its been a long orientation since its something totally new but #i love it and i'm workin by myself so it's been a learning curve but having a good time!!#for vaca i visted my aunt and uncle's small lake cabin w my bf and the rest of my family i really just unplugged it was so peaceful!#and just this past weeked my bf's parents visited so i was hosting them too so just a lot going on but !!!!#hopefully will be able to post on mxinfo soon and make some gifs on here in the upcoming week/weekend! been wanting to gif aespa's new stuf #also maybe gif some other mx stuff just to get back in the swing of things lol every time i want to come back on here thers always so much #to catch up on but ANYWAYS!!!!!!!!!! see you guys soon xx

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hangingslothcentral · 7 months

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quietly, patiently reminding myself that I'm currently doing fortnightly releases for a REASON. I'm putting out an episode of SBRR one week, an episode of NQD the other week, looking for other work, developing a New Show, and trying to work out next steps for Twelvelms. I already have a VERY PACKED schedule.

but consider; want to release all content NOW.

is that content recorded and edited and ready to drop? no. am I actually behind schedule on SBRR scripts and New Show admin? YES.

buuuuut. I have written almost the WHOLE SEASON of NQD and it's killing me that I'm having to wait to put it out. it's not even done and I'm already chomping at the bit. I feel like I see a lot of fans talking about the agony of waiting for new episodes to release but I don't see a lot of creators talking about the DESPAIR of not just being able to have the whole thing done immediately so everyone can look at it and scream.

i'm trying to do other things and my brain is like 'vampires vampires VAMPIRES' and last night I finished an episode which has SUCH a reveal in it and I was like 'it's okay, Eira, it's okay, it feels like a long time now but if you look at the calendar, it's not long until this one comes out' but do you know when that episode is coming out? MAY. it's coming out IN MAY.

which is funny bc i MAY have combusted by then from sheer excitement.

just spent two hours proving to myself that no I can't just start putting episodes out weekly, I really can't, it would completely burn me out and I'm already pretty knackered by my production schedule as it is.

i am suffering the AGONIES. this is an entirely reasonable and proportionate response/j.

--- Eira xxx

#eira speaks #it's so hard that things take time and effort to complete and cannot simply just be DONE #already spent hours writing you #why do you have to take MORE TIME #yes also regular release schedules are good for algorithms #yes i need to find a balance between my enthusiasm for shows and living the rest of my life #but also NO. no wait! only show #gnawing the walls of my enclosure #god help me when things get rolling on shows with longer production runs than NQD i'm going to explode

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shima-draws · 2 years

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I had a conversation with my mom about commissions--she’s of the opinion that you shouldn’t have to wait super long to get what you paid for. I’m the opposite; I think artists should be able to take as long as they need to finish a commission, and I’m totally cool with waiting for months even for them to get back to me. Surprisingly enough I’m very patient when it comes to commissioning other people lol. Maybe I just think that way bc I’m an artist myself so I totally get the struggle. (And I also take time with my comms too.) My mom is not an artist so she doesn’t really grasp the amount of time and effort it takes, so she expects results immediately. Which like. I get that too? I dunno. What do you all think? Are you the kind of patient person who’s totally chill with an artist taking months to finish your commission? Or do you want it to be done within a reasonable amount of time, like 2-3 weeks?

#IDK she said that and now I'm stressing about it. LMAO #I put it in my TOS that yeah it'll take me a bit. Bc well. Real life happens #And sometimes it's hard to sit down and pump out art you know?#But some people don't understand that. Some people want what they paid for right away #WHICH IS FAIR. I'm not saying that's unreasonable #Scratches my head idk my anxiety's already high today so I'm worrying about this too now. Nfamkdasmdsa #Anyway to all my commissioners who have waited months for me to finish theirs: You have the patience of a saint.#And I appreciate you so so so much.#Especially to that one person who's waited for SO long now. I swear to god I'm going to finish it this week #There's definitely a line to be drawn with how long people are willing to wait #AND SAD AS IT IS TO SAY. I've crossed that line before.#Keeping a consistent schedule with life and art for fun and commissions is difficult for sure 😤#IT'S A BALANCE. It's really a balance!#Shima speaks #Actually the biggest thing for me. Is I want to put the effort in #I don't want to half ass it. I want it to look GOOD #So I never try to force myself to do comms. Bc that's not fair to me or the person who commissioned #They deserve my best effort and my best work!!#The issue is that I'm not always in that headspace to tackle comms and put in the work that's needed #IT'S FRUSTRATING.....but I'd rather make people wait for something I put time and effort into #Rather than something half-assed. You know??#So that's a big part of it too;; why people have to wait a bit sometimes #Rubs my temples #I'm probably overthinking this WAY too much lol. Sorry it's been a stressful day

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arcaneyouth · 1 month

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fighting for my fucking life getting these comic pages done

#vent post #negative #kiinda???? sorta? mostly #i decided last week i'm just like. done. i'm taking shit super easy. i have to or i'm never going to recover #i AM still working on comic pages. i will almost guaranteed get worse if i don't let myself work on my comic #so i'm taking things one day at a time and just doing my best to vibe. i'm not planning out my schedule days in advance #i'm not giving myself a ton of tasks just handling them as i feel like it #this does mean i'm a bit behind on comic pages already tho alsiduHALSIDUHAILSUDH #i'm not going to let this get to me. i am NOT. if i have to switch to a schedule that's just 'whatever i managed to get done that week'#then so be it!!! (said while gripping the edge of this table so hard i explode)#i'm actually less making this post about that and more just. ok i was on a roll. i was almost done with this last page i was supposed to #have done yesterday. oh my god suddenly i am so anxious and afraid and i don't know why #think i got myself overwhelmed again. oops :(#alright ok fine i'll finish this page later while i try to calm down #oh god what do i even do to try to calm down #i figured maybe a video game???? nothing sounds appealing #reading a book is a no i think it won't be engaging Enough for the anxiety to realize i'm fine #i don't want to work on any art shit while i'm feeling like this tbh #a walk would probably help but it's kinda hot and i might just feel more miserable #good lird #maybe i'll just go sit downstairs for a bit and see if getting out of my damn room does anything for me

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birdy-bird27 · 1 year

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TFW you are questioning your future because how much you fucking hate school and the workload associated with it

#just university things 🤪#the only reason why I’m sticking to full time schedule is becuase of scholarships #that way I don’t have I pay for school #but god I want to drop to part time student so fucking bad #vent #rant #I’m doing good at least 8 hrs of hw every day #oh yes also work on top of that #just fuck me I guess #this is such a poor me issue I’m sorry #like wow I’m forced to attend university full time so I get to do classes for free poor me #I am just having such a hard time balancing my work load #I don’t even like business why tf am I getting a bachelors in it #I know why it’s becuase im already now 3 years invested into it and I get to do it with no cost to me #do I really want to be stuck in some soul sucking corporate job rest of my life?#is this my career?#what the fuck am I doing with my life #I don’t know anymore #I’m jdut trying to make it day by day #try not be crushed by overwhelming sadness of our current reality I guess #AGHHHH

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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year

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#theres this feeling i get sometimes. i find it very hard to articulate. its part despair and part awe. dispair at how beautiful the world is #all those intricate little process coming together to organize the chaos. i dont kno y i feel it so deeply or y it hurts so much #because its just. no matters what horrible things r going on in the world. ur body is this miraculous collection of chemicals and reactions #mobile containers of water with a history that spirals back billions of years. and you can hear and see and experience and reflect #and when you die the world goes on spinning without you. if we as humans destroyed this planet past the part of our ability to inhabit it #it wouldnt even matter. there would be continued life past humanity. cosmically we r tiny and insignificant and we dont matter #but were beautiful and wonderful and infinity complex and knowing that leaves me in agony. because i want to kno everything right now but #mind is too small and i walk around with the disorientation of someone whos just been hit in thr face ans i cant focus enough to read #cant make the words make sense and i cant justify the time it would take to try. so i sit on my deck. in the sun. crying as i think about #how the light hit the grass in my front yard the last time i was home. how the cliffs in the backyard are ringed with red lines of iron #separated out as the water leached through the sandstone. how every avaliable surface is stained green as organisms reach upward toward #the sun. and its beautiful and i dont kno y im crying. maybe its bc i cant just throw everything aside and chase that feeling. im not #allowed to feel it. im not allowed to talk abt it in the way i want. bc im afraid no one cares as much as me in the same way. bc when i #talk abt what i study its obscure and academic and so far from what most ppl think abt that they get intimidated and dont try to understand #so i just try not to talk abt it. or maybe im just afraid. bc i have my 1st TA meeting tomorrow and i meet with my new advisor friday #and im worried and im afraid i wont b able to do this in a way that doesnt make me feel like im dying. bc i like to b busy and i like having #a strict schedule but if u throw me that knife im going to stab myself with it bc i dont kno how wield it as a tool without hurting myself #sure ill get the job done. but at what cost? whatever. ill try to b better this time. try to hold tight to the wonder. but that feels like #reaching out into forever. knowing ill never make contact. not knowing what im reaching for.#the closest approximation to the feeling i can find is that scene in the terror. where go0dsir is asking if god is there. any god. and it #doesnt matter bc he can see god in the landscape. in an environment that's so harsh and barren that its killing him slowly in the worst of #ways and its beautiful. its still beautiful to him. there is wonder here. and im wasting my time laying in a dark room crying bc i put #myself into a container so constrictive that the surface snaps and i come spilling out as an angry liquid. smearing away into nothing #unrelated

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shirtlessradfahrer · 8 months

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#well i had the worst week of my year so far and it’s only january #i think i cried more in the last few days than i have in the last couple of years #so uh that’s something #new manager has completely ignored my availability and just scheduled me fucking whenever #had a regular who’s usually very nice yell at me over something he KNOWS is completely out of my control #he sort of apologized the next day but what the fuck #i was supposed to get a call sometime this week from the doctor’s office i’ve been referred to #for what should be a very basic procedure #which i was hoping would get done before i leave for Kä summer camp in June #ofc they didn’t call and now i have to bother my regular doctor again #and it probably won’t happen in time because healthcare in this province is a fucking joke #i slipped on black ice riding my bike to work and bashed my shin so hard i can only partially kneel down #and after specifically asking my mom to please not do A Thing for x number of reasons #she ofc went and did The Thing #because god forbid i have some fucking boundaries #also several other things but it’s too much to get into #i just need to vent

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pumpkinsouppe · 2 years

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I absolutely love art school but I also feel like this 24/7 T-T

#standing on a crumbling cliff and drowning are the two constant moods #art is so hard oh my god engineering is nowhere near this hard #but I also love it so much this is exactly what I want to do but it’s just so intimidating being surrounded by amazing artists all the time #whereas in engineering we are all on the same level learning the same principles for the first I #time*#anyways fuck my capstone engineering prof who thought engineers were the elite of the workforce bc that was the hardest thing to major in #(it’s not you just have to have a good study schedule #)

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welcometogrouchland · 2 years

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Okay I think I'm mature enough to admit. That I am getting withdrawal from the owl show. And that I miss her so bad it's not even funny anymore

#ramblings of a lunatic #GOD. GETTING THE SYNOPSIS FOR FTF REALLY SENT ME OVER THE EDGE AND NOW I'M REWATCHING SEASON 2 AGAIN #I JUST. IT'S SO GOOD AND I MISS IT AND I LOVE WHEN A NEW EP COMES OUT AND THE TAGS AND WHATNOT EXPLODE #AND IT'S SO CLOSE TO ENDING AND I'M EMOTIONAL ABOUT IT #I DON'T QUITE KNOW WHAT TO EXPECT FROM THE SHOW RN AND THAT MAKES ME SO SCARED BUT SO EAGER TO SEE THE NEXT EP #the episode is airing 21st of January and if i remember correctly we got the poster for TTT almost exactly a month before it aired #hence if we're following the same/similar schedule and promo style then it'll be just a couple days til something like that happens #and the fact that i KNOW it might happen so soon is what's fucking getting me. i know it's here soon and i need it now #I know I could just make my own stuff in the meantime! that's how being in fandom works #but i have Not been feeling good abt my art lately (well. less the art than the fact that I'm getting more self conscious of the response?-#-and i don't like that. i had a really good run of not caring what ppl thought about the things i post but that has been a struggle lately)#and also I'm trying to get help w/ the eepy disease (being eepy all the time)#so in other words things are hard rn in terms of fandom engagement for me #hence im sitting here like a rabid cannibal on an overpass waiting for travelers. but the travelers are disney promos #that's a very disturbing metaphor but you get my point

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nomairuins · 3 months

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i want to watch the things on my watchkist but i also never do its rly tragic

#i have plenty of time i always could but instead im like idk what abt laying in bed #whatever. im having a stupid gay moment so i have to like do that instead. <- this judt means i have to sit here and go God i want to be #loved god i wabt to hold somebody i need to be held i should buy a revolver. not elaborating on the last one there are several ways you can #interpret it.#DJFBFJFNFJGNGN #IT JUST. SIGHHH. SIGHHHHH. its my fault for engaging with romance media bc it always makes me so lonely. which sucks #bc it also makes me giddy at times like i like it. but then im likr I dont have this and then i get all emo #its whatever one day when we spontaneously grow and become a real person maybe we will be able to like go out and do like. i dont know #something #almost 1 year its crazy yk. idk.. sigh. i need 2 get my ged #not rly related to any of it but it is ged is the Thing i need to do so i can do everything else #like i need a ged to get a job i need a job to fix my life (itll force me to keep a schedule again) and to get money and i need money to #do Anything at all. sigh #i miss alcohol but also drinking alone sucks. but i cant drink with ppl anymore bc i get too sad. not like my friend edibles who never make #me sad At least not abt that. there was that post abt like humanity through the ages that i cried at RLY HARD for a full hour bc i kept #crying until my screen turned off and then calming down a bit and then turning my phone back on and seeing the post again and immediately #crying again DJFNJF #anyways ive been thinking and i rly wish there was likee. sigh. unfortunately ignoring the mushy stuff i need a partner for utility purposes #1 finances 2 i cant drive and i dont think ill ever be able to . ik i should just try and learn but the thought makes me real life nauseous #but i also uppn reflection would like to live in the countryside maybe. idk i change my mind constantly #bc city is convenient and i havent lived in Cities very much i dont like suburbs bc you cant walk anywhere and theres nothing 2 do #cities you can walk everywhere country you cant but you get to be outside and i want to start being outside again... creek rly solidified #this. my dream house it has a creek nearby #in fact its kind of exactly the same as the creek at granny n papaws house. but without leeches LOL. and maybe less cow shit #but ya. thered be a creek... well in one of my dreamhouses at least #my dreamapartment there isnt a creek bc the apartments in a city with lots of food options. which is a requirement #but maybe there is a little creek in the park in the city but i couldnt swim there i bet. unfortunately.... sigh. but this is where partner #with car clmes in in both situations is in rhe city they could drive me out to a lake . we would go together and maybe wed paddleboard #or we could get one of those little boats that you umm. with the umm. feet. what the... what r they called #whatever we had those at family reunions w papaws family when i was a baby. they were fun. paddleboat???????

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aethes-bookshelf · 5 months

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I wanna write but at the same time I'm so tired all the time 😭

#this semester's schedule's been... interesting to say the least #i took a lot of classes to have plenty of free time during my final year #so that the only thing i have to stress about is my final paper #but dammit i did not expect this schedule to kick my ass this hard lol #i have 3-4 classes daily #which wouldn't be that bad if they weren't so spread out good god #thursday is especially brutal (class starts at 8 am ends at 6:30 pm)#so ouch #aethe speaks

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gnc-tits · 8 months

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girls my 3 BEASTS have been consistently waking me up at like 7 am OR EARLIER the past. idk. like month or whatever lol and rather than fighting it i have decided to just roll with it and am nowwwww taking my pillz at 7:15 + 8:15 respectively and. its kind of cunt tbh!

#they havent been waking me up before 7 tht much lately coz im trying so fucking hard to get them on a better feeding schedule and i think #its working? also i locked the door on them the other night sooooo #anyways #2024 may very well be the year i become a m*rning person 🥲#ive been like waking up taking my pills and then dozing for a few more hrs before Actually getting up and its been working alright. and like #if i get up at 7 then i can back eeping by 8:30 ish which means i can wake back Up at 10:30 get ready for fhe day at 11 and start the day at #11:30 #good grief girls when theyre autistic and need a fucking schedule. my god #the only thing tht fuckz this up slightly is saturdays when i work 8:45-5:30 but thts like been in the Routine the longest and theres no #changing it so #plus i dont have to motivate myself as much to. work coz loik. the External Pressure of it all #ugh anyway. audhd you fucking hellscape i am beating your ass #with love.#its also nice to like actually have time to make myself a nice breakfast #which is also good bcoz i need to eat more esp being back on t. im fockeng hongry #ugh ANYWAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so far this yr is looking soooooooooooooooooo sexy 👍been doing my little routines writing in my little #planners and im organized as fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkk #💃💃💃💃💃💃💃💃💃💃💃💃#tha growth is so gradual and so slow but i feel like im rlly reaping instead of sewing now dog this fucks !

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southislandwren · 9 months

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Actually I take it all back. I don’t want one or the other I want to pass repro AND I want boy to like me back. Law of equivalent exchange I know. Just take something else from me. But I want both and I want to know what’s going to happen

#pleading to god to just let things work out alright just please please please #but let’s be real. we hung out on Saturday he said he’d get back to me with his schedule. it’s Tuesday and he hasn’t done that yet #he’s done with exams so he’s not like insanely busy like usual #so I just want to know. I just want to get on with it so I can start the healing process and move on #but i am SO tired of these stupid little games im supposed to play #I think he’s gonna come stargazing with me and bestie tomorrow night and I might just be like listen. I’m not playing these games anymore #I like you I have a huge crush on you. now I’m moving on and I won’t bother you outside of school anymore .#and if he’s like oh wait I like you too then cool! but when he’s not into me I can just move on #and I cried in front of two people today about repro so I’m just sick of that too. I want the grade in I need to know if I wasted 50 bucks #on a KSU application or if I need to figure out the other transcript ASAP #if I’m taking repro next semester I can still graduate on time but if the class is full then I have to delay my major another semester #just ARGGGHHHHHHHH I am SO SICK of waiting!!!!!!!!!#I think on Friday after the dept party if he comes. I’m just gonna pull him aside and be like listen. I know texting is hard #but I need to know if we’re doing a second date. I can’t live in expectation of something and it never comes. that’s not healthy #boy post #god I just need things to HAPPEN I can’t be waiting and waiting for something that will never happen

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