#i have never cringed so hard in my life
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Forgive me for being that person but since I am a book reader on top of a show watcher, witnessing Jere's ugly ass personality bloom in real time is the most jarring shit my eyes have witnessed and the longer this plays out the less forgiving I am.
#misc#text#tsitp text#he is public enemy number 1#i have never cringed so hard in my life#i dont even want to hear people defend it
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Oh boy—
Tomorrow I think I’ll unleash a small snippet of the guilty pleasure that is my AU of Starline having actually had friends (and maybe something more) once.
I am going to die of cringe, but I made this blog specifically so I could talk about it, and I want my stupid platypus man to just be happy for a single moment gosh dangit!! So whatever. XD
#prepare yourselves#It’s gonna be so cringe#This stupid cute idea has been haunting me for weeks Now#I think it makes enough sense but who knows#it does have a ship too I’m sorry#But also not because they’re cute#is it technically a ship if they never officially get together due to circumstances?#wont stop me from making cute art anyways#i will try my hardest not to OOC Starline too much#hes a hard character to write for because he seems to have two completely different sides to him#both a goof and a brilliant guy#ill likely lean more into his serious yet sly cunning side that we see at the beginning of the Metal Sonic arc#since this happens before Eggmans disappearance and the Metal Virus#and way before before The Bad Guys#hes still going to be incredibly sassy#and i may give him a small sense of humor for the fun of it#what am i doing with my life
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Me like 99% of the time: “Lol, yeah, I was super suicidal and severely mentally ill when I was 13/14. I was so cringe. Glad I’m better and can make light of the topic. What a wreck lol”
Me that 1% of the time: …I was suicidal when I was 14
#never realized how fast I moved on#I went from being super sick and once I got better I just erased the past#everything that happened then was something cringe my middle school self did#MIDDLE SCHOOL#I WAS A CHILD#no child should ever be so sad they want to kill themself#I guess I’ve never given it thought#never mourned or reflected what I lost and what happened to me#I guess it’s just easier to completely separate that part of me than remember it#because it’s painful and hard to remember#I wasn’t a good person then I was in a lot of pain and I was so young#no one wants to think about that#but now I have such a huge disconnect between that time of my life and who I am now#I’ve completely made that part of my life a separate entity#and it’s literally been this past month or two that’s i realized this#I’ve spent the past three-ish years just making fun of myself at that time period because it’s easier than thinking about that part of#my life#it’s a chapter I don’t want in my story but keeping it out leaves this awkward blank space#I’ve never been good at receiving apologies or praised for doing something hard#and looking back and admitting that I was so sick so young and was able to get over it is something that’s fucking amazing and fucking#horrifying and I’m allowed to feel those things without pushing it away and making a joke about it#this is so random I meant for this to be a lol relatable post#delete later#rae’s rambles
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My half-delirious ranking because it’s past midnight and I just realized the album came out:
1. Portrait of a Blank Slate
2. Scum
3. Consequences
4. Call Me What You Like
5. It’s Golden Hour Somewhere
6. Warsaw
#also bc this is my blog and I never tag shit so this isn’t breaching containment lmao#I really like Wilbur’s vocals but sometimes he strains particularly hard and it makes me cringe#like it’s a great tone and there’s singers who do it and are very healthy but every once in a while he’ll sing a high note#or hold out a note and it’s like. oh no. that’s not an artistic choice#I will say I normally have one or two songs that I just skip in albums and eps#(staring directly at the fall. I like the concept but spoken word never meshes well w/ me)#(sections of it like in call me what you like are rly fun but it’s not my cup of tea when it’s the whole piece)#but this one I feel like they’re all gonna be added to my regular listening#and that’s like super rare. even though I think the only other time this happened for a non-musical album was also Lovejoy lmao#are you alright? does not miss once in its life
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is geoff johns run on the Teen Titans considered good by people?
#i read the first thirty issues and genuinely thought it was bad and cringe and that the man has never spoken to a teenager in his life#other than maybe having like a kid egg his car or something#because to me it feels like he writes all teenagers with the same strokes off: life is depressing being a teen sucks nothing good happens#which... like i guess would be fine if he did that for like 1 character but he did it with characters that weren't like that?#and made it so the titans barely felt like a family... the younger titans felt like kids forced to be at a summer camp who lowkey hated#each other and resented being there in the first place#like they kinda grew out of that but like. idk they just felt estranged from one another and always felt to me in the issues i read#that they 1) didn't respect what being a titan meant 2) were happy to throw stones at old 'crazy' titans 3) were miserable ppl with drama#that i couldn't get invested in because it was so stupid#like we have: tim 'you don't know how hard it is to lie to your dad' drake#cassie 'i'm here to be the female representative of my generation and it shows' sandsmark#bart 'i read a lot of books and it got rid of my entire personality and fundamentally changed my characterization for the worse' allen#and conner 'whines about kansas and thinks outcomes are determined by your genetics' kent#like sorry i was messed up when i was a teen but like... i would have never sympathized or seen myself in these kids...
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I get so hyped when Twin Size Mattress comes on the 8th grade / year 9 playlist it's unreasonable. Girl that is your entire 8th grade experience in a song we are not hype about that. what
#If nobody got me. I know Twin Size Mattress by The Front Bottoms got me#I'm. okay. I keep the playlist around because like. yeah I forget that a thing happened to me that changed me forever#which is soo dumb. where's that post that's like. me when I realise I do something because of something happened to me when I was kid#On one hand I'm like...girl this happened like 5 - 6 years ago. you were 14 - 15. this is so cringe#but it makes sense. yeah a lil cringy but the stuff that happens to you in high school does have a long standing effect on you as a person#I think#Bad stuff yeah. but good stuff too.#This essay is never getting done. can I request help academically even if I have no conditions that affect it?#I really struggle with writing professionally. I always say it's Monika synpath syndrome because I overthink everything ^^;#but idk. 1k words isn't hard but I'm like. the research topic is hard to get my head around aha#I don't know how much they care really. I just wont sleep until I get it down IG ^^;#such is the life of a uni student....yknow this was supposed to be in a day ago now#dsjsdjssdhdsh#Android.txt
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my mother warning me out of the blue today to not get married before 30 like... pipe down mother. u don't even know I'm GAY.
#like jesus... she's very important to me and all but. i have never told her im gay.#like i love my mother a lot but nothing makes me cringe as fast as hearing marriage talk thru het ppl's eyes.#she really thinks i might end up w a man and nothing makes me cringe as hard as that.#u dont even know im gay. u've got some nerve giving me advice.#its sooo fucking. i wanted to throw something. like ur standards for me. ARE SOO FUCKING FAR.#from who i am as a person. you don't understand me in any way. the kind of life u imagine for me is stiffling.#and i think i might kill myself if it ever comes to pass.#the simple idea of it makes me feel violent vomit emoji ngl. and so fuckjng trapped i can't explain.
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um. erm. <- accidentally stayed up until 1am drawing bmc
#when i got into it in 2017 i tried. i tried so hard to draw them. but none of it was any good. being able to draw them now is very#gratifying for my 12yo self. especially jeremy. i think i maybe drew him once in the stretch of 2017-2019. and even the last time i got#nostalgic i drew him maybe twice? i think the most i did was of my werewolf au (oh god so cringe) but it wasnt *him* yknow?#it was a whole lotta brooke. and i tried to do christine but for the life of me i could never figure out her hair.#gonna have to do a lot of reading before class tomorrow. i mean today fuck. bc i was like oh ill just get to it after imdone drawing.#thats the devils voice. by the way.
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One of these days I’m gonna suck up enough courage to put random-ass BL boys on my F/O list and then we’re ALL going to be sorry
#YES this is about Otsu Manly Appetites I am STEALING HIM#don't get me wrong I ALSO love Mingishi he's so unnormal but that's DIFFERENT#Also I can't spell his fucking name to save my life it would simply never work#but ALSO it's about this big crybaby guy#Tomoki from Melt at Night (very hardcore shit I am a degenerate at times I will admit)#But he's SO FUCKING CUTE MY GOD!!!!!! STEALING HIM!!!!#I have others they're just really hard to remember the names of because I'll read the whole series all in one night#And my brain is bunk#The day I put a random ass Boy's Love man on my F/O list is the day I've finally gone off the deep end#I will never return to the light when it finally happens#For now I'm safe but like...... eventually..........#This is such a genuinely cringe post but look man BL is like my Destresser when Regression doesn't work or I don't have TIME for it#I can either become a Toddler and watch Horror or I can sit with Koro and read about two dudes (usually) fucking really hard#I am Asexual and get nothing out of that part btw I'm not actually a degenerate I just like Gay Men as a Gay Men#I'm getting. Worse.#I should delete all these tags but I'm not going to I suppose this is the life I'm making for myself at 1:30am on a Saturday Morning#Alright back to Boy's Love
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ok update i just finished making my card and i said / drew (lol) basically everything i wanted to say in it (except for the things i definitely can’t say now that this is happening lol). so i think maybe i might be ok with not saying what i want to say directly to her. but then when i say that im not ok with it at all LOLLLL so i think i need to sleep on it and maybe see what tomorrow brings
#purrs#sobbed hysterically writing the message and that was like 4 hrs ago (yeah.) and im still like dizzy and puffy eyed from it. i am not having#a good time lol. and it’s only going to get more intense this whole week and i don’t know if i can handle it. ive been overstimulated /#sleep deprived for like 2 straight days bc yesterday i was doing everything in my power to avoid thinking abt it and today i was doing#everything in mt power TO think abt it including being subjected to things that were hard and ofc the walk being a flop kinda lol. but omg.#mutuals i know it’s so deeply cringe but i have been vagueposting abt my work life since before i even got the fucking job. i know i look#mentally ill about it and i definitely am but my colleagues past and present are my best friends and my number 1 reason to be alive#actually. so this is just. idk. this feels very……. especially when this is someone who was never supposed to leave this suddenly. who i thou#thought i had years and years left with. and it’s just over like that and we have to say goodbye and i know it’s not even that big of a move#but it’s actually killing me. like physically. that this is happening rn. i don’t know what the fuck im going to do. and we aren’t even f#gonna be able to grieve openly at all but we are grieving and she doesn’t even.. like idk. maybe it just hasn’t occurred to her that we are.#but we literally are and its soooooooo bad. it’s so bad. i feel like im having a bad dream every day. i already felt like nothing was real#anymore and this helped abt -50000% with that sensation. like wtf is going on rn. she’s LEAVING. ON FRIDAY. FOREVER. FUCK!#but uh yeah the point is i do want to talk to her and if it was anyone else i would. but when it comes to emotional stuff and being honest#w each other abt how one makes the other feel… we are incompatible im afraid. she doesn’t want to talk abt it and all i want to do is talk b#but im shy and weak so i cave and just do everything in my power to give her what she needs and then i feel shattered for the rest of the#day / week / whatever. it fucking sucks and im not like that w anyone else in my little irl world (except my p*rents ofc LMAO) but it’s like#onmgggggg. can we please just talk abt how it is so painful you are doing this and comfort each other in it somehow. LOL! like i am in so mu#much pain i can’t even speak and she didn’t even look at me when i flicked my eyes over to her during the silences. CRINGE! girl she doesn’t#care about you 😭😭😭😭 except she does. idk. it’s just sooooo. idk. my brain is not right it hasn’t been since i got the news. i think im dying#delete later#OMG ALSO it is now the wee hours of july 26 which means that 3 yrs ago right abt now i did something so very stupid that made me have my#first very bad breakdown ever and it led to me realizing i needed counseling again. so maybe in the spirit of this anniversary i will do#this stupid thing (of asking to talk and then saying what i want to say even though i wrote it out) and then have a very bad breakdown and t#then go to counseling 🥳✌️
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so anyway people are always criticizing anyone who's interested in true crime but I feel like cyber sleuths should get a healthy dose of bullying too because like yeah ok you may think people who read and listen to content about true crime cases are insane (arguing the point is not in my best interest) but the fuckholes who'll harass people and push them into suicide because they think they know something they clearly don't and like they can do a better job than the people who investigate professionally? yeah no those guys are the actual psychos
and yes this is about the Elisa Lam documentary on Netflix
#i'm actually kinda really pissed#because that metalhead's music is butt hair and i'd never willingly listen to it in my entire life#but it'd be one thing if a couple folks wrote to him and told him that his music is ass and then left#which is legitimate#boy believe me i cringed so hard at this dude's music it's so low quality#and i'm saying this as someone who appreciates metal including some good death metal#but it's a different thing when hordes of strangers come at you and accuse you of murder with NO evidence whatsoever#and holy shit this guy almost killed himself from the pressure and stress#bottom line: she didn't take her meds which she was supposed to take after she decided to travel to a whole other country alone#and she kept not taking her meds for days and that's how she ended up drowning in a hotel's water tank#that's all it is#and the folks who harassed this innocent guy never even said they were sorry - the fucking cowards#'but they had good intentions!' no they didn't - all they wanted was to be under the spotlight and that's all it is#people who have any actual good intentions will try helping and not broadcast it to the whole internet#and if the detectives and professionals tell them they're not necessary they'll sit the fuck down and shut up#/vent#btw yo remember when that case happened and everyone went insane phewwwww i'm so glad it's over
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#warning you know this is a bit of a vent so do not ye go any further if you dont wanna see bad vibes lmao#anyway. my father is an absolute bastard of a man. emotionally neglected my mother. was an absent father. and very nearly-#killed us both towards the very end lmao. just a horrible guy who hides behind his charisma and has never processed an emotion once#instead likes to emotionally neglect and gaslit people instead of idk... going to therapy instead of retreating to church lmao#anyway its been around three years since I've seen him irl and im very happy about that. i never want to hear from him again#but he snagged some foreign young woman whos nearly my age and yeah. its disgusting but not surprising#theyre having a kid apparently and the only reason i know is cause my mom told me. but i really need to have a talk with her and its going-#to suck#i need to talk to her about never bringing him or her up around me ever again and this boundary is a hard one im gonna have to establish#cause shes still so scared of him and cant help following his every move. but im gonna have to pin her down and play therapist and ARRGGHH#I GOTTA PLAY THERAPISTTTT WHY WAS I CURSED TO BE AN ONLY DAUGHTER. WHOS ONLY FAMILY IS THEIR MOTHER#THEREFORE IM THE ONLY ONE CLOSEST AND KNOWS OF THE SHIT SHES GOING THROUGH AKA I GOTTA FUCKIN BEAT IT INTO HER#im gonna-- HELP GIRL#strange lore to drop but god imagine almost being killed by your dad and surviving by pure luck. cringe moment#i cannot imagine if i left this life and my blog wouldve been stuck in 2017... imagine dying as a marvel blog SKSKSKSKS#anyway. this life man.
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wait addendum to the last post it does not apply to bodies bodies bodies ive never seen a trailer and taken a movie off my watchlist so fucking fast
#i was at 6% cause i forgot to charge my phone before we left and i still pulled up letterboxd and un-listed it#based on just the letterboxd summary alone i was like well that looks like it could be a fun modern slasher#but like oh my god no the trailer it looks so bad and not in a fun enjoyable way either#'stop gaslighting me!' 'omg im totally triggered' 'youre like TOXIC' pete davison is there.#omg this is like sooo funny im laughing sooo hard :| <- they have never been farther from laughing in their life.#avpost#everyone whos like 'its a fun satire its sooo accurate to gen z' is it??? it must not be shown in the trailer then#i have never seen something more cringe and written by 40 year olds pretending to be young people in all my years.#then again thats what all the reviews for love and thunder said too so idk. cant trust these people to know what 'fun' and 'funny' are i gu#guess**
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T__T final fantasy
#🌙.rambles#bruh i remember why i'm so romantic now#i hate final fantasy................#BUT GOD THE LYRICS OF. SUTEKI DA NE. EYES ON ME. MELODIES OF LIFE. KISS ME GOOD-BYE. SOBBBBBBB#i want to throw my phone or my laptop across my room! bury my head in a pillow n scream!#the the. EMOTION IN THEM. hurts just the way i like it lol#STAR-CROSSED ? OH MY GOD I HATE FINAL FANTASY FOR MAKING THAT ONE OF MY FAV TROPES WTF#THIS IS SO EMBARRASSING REALIZING HOW ROMANTIC I AM BCS OF INFLUENCES LIKE FINAL FANTASY#'darling so share with me / your love if you have enough / your tears if you're holding back / or pain if that's what it is'#'just reach me out then you will know that you're not dreaming' i will Cry#this is so cringe n i've always been a bit 'weird' but#sob hermes ffxiv kin bcs i still fit in thanks to my kindness n my intelligence . but it feels lonely#frankly as long as i stop caring about that n just really focus on just being myself as i always have. i'll definitely be happier .#be closer to that inner peace. n while i definitely keep on improving in that regard. i got the mindset n all#it's hard still bcs i can tell there's smth that's holding me back significantly. am i afraid that i'll be left out? alone?#i don't want to be what i'm not. but i'm afraid that. everything i've already found could just go away. disappear and leave#n i'll never really find a place that stays that i belong in. i'm too young to say for sure but i think#the world was cruel then. I ALREADY HAD TRUST ISSUES THEN THANKS TO OLD FRIENDS N THEN LMFAOOO I GOT HURT MORE#this is why i love helping others ! i try to make sure that people are being listened to in convos. i try to really read n understand *you*#fuck my anxiety though n i guess that child in me's still afraid to let my guard down.#there's sm i WANT to do for others n then. added with my own self. it's so overwhelming n it often feels like i failed everyone#we all owe ourselves the same kindness we give to others. it really gets hard though. bcs god i beat myself up for not being enough#especially for others :') like god i always want to help but it gets so hard to reach out n then i get hurt even more by my incompetence#cries i got distracted but back to ff..... i hate being romantic this way bcs i cld find some witty way to.#god no wait i'm not gna bring that up
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this is so irrelevant but im gaining a new fear of anglerfish
#like ive never been like scared of them#but i saw the word anglerfish totally randomly while scrolling just now#like completey out of context for the game#and it gave me the ick#the ooze if you will#same feeling as when my cat jumps up behind my back#that is to say a full body cringe as phantom creepy crawlies tingle up my back#its the same way im scared of spiders#in that im not really scared of them so much as they terrify me#no that didnt make sense#like the big spiders freak me out ESPECIALLY if theyre hairy not bc i find them scary but bc they just make me#they give me the ick#but not like a disgusting ick#like nails on a chalkboard? maybe?#its not fear it just genuienly freaks me out#and makes my entire body sceunch up like im auditioning for a role as a turtle#im not explaining it properly i think#anglerfish are rapidly rising in my list of irrational fears#the list in no particular order is spiders spiders and other creepy crawlies climbing up the plumbing and biting me in the ass#sneezing while in the middle of a soccer game and in that split second a ball getting scored on me#looking down from tall heights but NOT on rollercoasters#im aure theres more#oh horseflies#those assholes have haunted me since first grade and ive never even seen one jn real life#anglerfish as previously stated#oh the dark too :/#i define irrational by whether it makes my hands tingle if i think abt it too hard or not#cuz like some things im scared of but it doesnt give me the tingles#and other things im NOT scared of but it gives me the tingles anyways#michi tag
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going back to just he/him.......
#i'm still comfortable with she/her and fem terms IN A WAY. hard to explain.#NEED to find a new name mine are so cringe I have never decided on a name before in my life I HATE THIS#I also put my letterboxd in my pinned because I made it semi recently and I am not scared abt it anymore ur all freaks too (affectionate)
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