#i hope they have cancer

[s0lsticebirdy]

come w me now on a journey through time and space.... to the world of no livestreams and potato camera.

[willgrahamscock]

No one prepares you for how crippling grief is, last year my mom died of cancer. I watched her decline so rapidly that my brain couldn't understand who I was looking at by the time she passed. I couldn't understand who I was by the time she passed because I had to become a vessel who makes appointments, dresses, nurses, cooks and an entity who does not sleep. I did it all alone. The reality is that cancer eats away at everything, it lives on even after the patient dies. It ate away at every part of me, I couldn't get out of bed, I had sleep paralysis, I couldn't stop seeing her... like that. They asked me if she's my grandmother when they carried her out of the house. She was in her early 50s. Do you understand? In 3 months, she began to look like she was 80. Everyone wanted me to move on after a month, no one called anymore, not even a text. I thought I was alone when she was alive, but this was a new type of isolation. One that I barely survived. (thank you to my mutuals and tumblr for being an outlet)

It's been a year and 6 months, today I realized she's not the first thing I think of in the morning, or the last thing I think of before I fall asleep. I couldn't even call to do paperwork before, now I'm forgetting why it was even that difficult.

The sun's out, I think i'm going to get ice cream without feeling guilty that it's not something she can do anymore.

[independent-fics]

Thinking a lot today about how in “The Nigerian Job” Hardison made them all $32 MILLION from one job and they all go “yeah let’s stick with this unhinged alcoholic” instead of retiring.

[killjoy-prince]

House M.D. but it's when House says Wilson's name

[lazylittledragon]

what do you mean youre technically a detransitioner cause of terf bullshit?

it's a v long story but i detransitioned for a couple of years when i was 16/17, for multiple reasons but mostly because i fell into the blaire white/kalvin garrah chamber of "you have to be This way to be trans otherwise you're not real".

i was already Deeply insecure about myself and my 'passing' and i was led to believe that i couldn't want to wear makeup or skirts, and i couldn't choose not to have bottom surgery, and i couldn't do anything but bind for 12+ hours a day to the point that my ribcage is still misshapen. basically i thought that if i wasn't suffering enough doing 'feminine' things, i couldn't really be trans, so i should just go back to being a girl and suck it up.

the terf bullshit is because i'd seen a lot of terfs/detransitioners talking about the 'dangers' of testosterone and how it would turn me into a horrible ugly evil monster and how there was nothing worse than wanting to be a man. which combined with 'you need to fully medically transition to be valid at all' creates some very dangerous and upsetting feelings to cope with.

it also came from trying really hard to put myself in a little box before i realised that my sexuality/gender are very fluid and it's FINE for me not to have a label and just do whatever i want. when i was 19 or so i went back to using they/them (and eventually he/him) and changed my name again because even though i like doing 'feminine' things, i don't want to be seen as a woman.

tldr: i was conditioned by transphobic/terf rhetorics to think that i was being trans the 'wrong' way so i couldn't be trans at all, so i believed i must actually be a girl if i still wanted to do 'feminine' things. nowadays i am a transmasc who does feminine things because i don't give two shits about what any transmed prick thinks of me anymore.

[mxwhore]

Evacuation/Shelter Fundraisers

I havent been able to donate but i dont want to just ignore whats going on. Most of these fundraisers were made to evacuate families and basic neccesities, so time is crucial. if you are in a position to do so, please donate and share!

Ahmed Ziad (£10,243/£30,000)

Bilal Abed Rabou (€8,400/€80,000) Very low on funds

Amira's family (€29,130/€39,000) !! She is so close!!

Shymaa Taiser ($11,553/$50,000)

Ghazi Younis ($4,593/$50,000) Lets help them break 10k!

Nour's family ($13,742/$45,000)

Haya's family (€83,835/€100,000) Almost there!!

Ola Ferwana (€4,235/€35,000)

Hadeel Mikki (€15,920/€35,000)

Youseff's family ($6,151/$15,000)

Ahmed's family (€29,767/€45,000)

Nour Alanqar (€21,424/€40,000)

Dr. Mohammed Aldeeb (€39,914/€55,000)

Islam Al-Najjar (€1,950/€30,000)

Sohaip's family (£847/£10,000) Very low on funds

Mahmoud AlBalawi (€38,991/€85,000) Halfway there

Kareman's family ($7,272/$50,000)

Waseem Abusafi (€2,989/€15,000)

Mohammed's family (€187/€25,000) Donations protected but not vetted

Youssef Helles (€15,441/€23,000)

Ahmed Hallas (€14,006/€80,000)

Mohammad's family (€23,066/€40,000)

Ahmed Jehad ($2,898/$40,000) Low on funds

Safaa's family (€23,854/€35,000)

Mohammed Alwadiya ($3,980/$35,000)

Youssef's son (€9,827/€20,000)

Ahmed Al-Habil (€2,152/€50,000) Very low on funds

Will link a part two soon

[ohno-the-sun]

Uh oh Sun is dying

And he’s known for awhile

[finniestoncrane]

this is my beautiful boy jake, he lived with my mum and he was 13 years old. my brother, my bug, my buddy. and he passed away this morning, without me there to tell him that i loved him and i am filled with guilt even though there was no way i would have made it, it all came as a shock. so i'm proclaiming it publicly here: i loved jake with all of my soul 💚💚💚 hug your furry or scaly or slimey friends for me, i'm hugging both of my sons who will no doubt be looking for their uncle the next time i visit home 💚💚💚

[wetslug]

was doing bit o research on salivary gland pain (minor, transient) when starting to salivate and in literature it only exists as 'first bite syndrome' which is rare and linked to v severe pain, but i think a less severe phenotype is much more common. so i must ask...

[lab-gr0wn-lambs]

I don't think I'm capable of drawing King Z not grinning like a maniac. Cereal mascot lookin ass

[betweenblackberrybranches]

Hi look at this cute Sun in a pretty outfit

In other news, i had a really really bad week with so many bad things happening at the same time. Cat got diagnosed with kidney problems, i got very bad migraines, we flooded our flat and all flats below and probably have to pay for all damages and one of my favourite coworker got diagnosed with cancer.

So it has been a week. I might take some more time off but i just wanted to sound off and tell you that im okay and ill come back when i can. Atleast i can actually draw again.

[reallyrandomtj]

Results from my Cancer Specialists mouth: Will reblog due to time differences.

( under read more )

MY CANCER IS BENIGN!

Meaning it has lost it's cancer status and has not grown in several months before my last hospital procedure/check!

However, to be better safe than sorry, in 3 months ( November 11th ) I will have another IUD change and internal test to make sure it has remained benign. If not and it has somehow become cancerous-- THAT is when I will have the hysterectomy with absolute zero hesitation!

[parisofpeoplez]

After reflecting on episode 8, I don't think that the stomach cancer bit is unbelievable or out of the blue.

Constant stress actually manifests into physical condition. If you're constantly stressed for days, you will have sleep issues and gut problems. If you are stressed constantly for months, your physical health will deteriorate. If you're constantly stressed for YEARS, then it is very likely that that stress will have huge effects on the human body, resulting in some sort of an illness.

When your mind constantly produces negative thoughts, your body eventually becomes addicted to it, and that can lead to an illness of some kind.

So, the fact that Syeok-Ryu was under constant stress for years and that physically manifested into cancer is not that surprising.

And I really don't think she's gonna die, the whole thing will probably be used to explore the the relationships that she has with people around her, be it her friends or her family, in more depth. Her parents are toxic and we know that's why she didn't tell them. I'm interested to see how they will respond to the news.

I'm also keen to know why she kept this a secret from her best friends. We all know Seung-hyo will be devastated, but I'm interested to see Mo-eum's reaction.

Thank God it's Saturday tom, I'm going crazy with anticipation! A welcome change in feelings since last week I was kinda meh about the new ep releases.

[thewandererh]

I think I have a type 😳

@calamarispider (ran no have @ :[)

(behold, the beginning of a however-long-spanning jashling gift bomb. this one is of a few specific round headed jashling fellows i adore with all my heart 😭. you can see where Dyadracide’s inspiration came from <33)

[bisexualseraphim]

I 😤HATE🤬 the Royal Family but I can’t help but feel kind of bad for Kate Middleton because like… yes people were being super invasive about her whereabouts and making memes but that’s all because Kensington was doing the absolute fucking worst PR I’ve ever seen in human history for literally no reason like what the fuck was that all about with the obviously heavily Photoshopped pictures 😭 And letting her take the blame for it! And now it turns out she has cancer like jeez things are Not going Miss Catherine’s way lately are they

[aahsoka]

this ex fiancee plot is like. aggravating for no reason. we already need to contend with him not admitting he might die in ten years we dont uhhhh need this?