#i just want to be alone and be quiet

[inkskinned]

this is sort of pathetic, but when you were younger, you were sort of puzzled by the cartoon representations of fathers: how a kid would be outside with a mitt, waiting to play catch.

it's not that your father never played catch with you, but you also didn't like when he did. something about a hard ball coming quickly towards your face doesn't seem exciting. not that you'd ever say you don't trust him. you trust him, right?

it's not like he never tried to teach you anything. or never tried to parent. on rare days, a strange person would walk in your father's skin. bright, happy, magnificent. this version of your father was so cheerful and charismatic that you would do anything to keep him. and this is the version of your father that would laugh and gently coax you try again. this is the version of your father that would break down the small elements of a problem and point them out so you have an easier time with them.

as a kid, those days happened more often. but somewhere around 11, you started being too much of a person, and he was often cross about it. when he'd try to sit you down to learn something, you spent the whole time with your shoulders around your ears, nervous, uncertain. terrified because you didn't immediately understand how to navigate something. worried you will run out of his goodwill and then you will have the Other Father back, and you will have ruined a good day for your entire family. something about you being visibly afraid - it just made him angry. he would accuse you of not wanting to learn and storm away.

on tv, it's not like there's a lot of versions of men-who-are-mostly-fathers. they can be good dads, but usually their stories are not told in the household. so it's normal that your father is there, but he's never around. you know he was in the house, somewhere, it's just not that you guys ever... "hung out". he just seemed to get kind of bored of you, annoyed you weren't made in his perfect image. frustrated with how much energy it took to raise a kid. over time, you kind of adopt a bittersweet band around your throat - he knows nothing about me. he says at least i never abandoned my family.

and it's technically - technically - true. he was there for you. sometimes he even made an effort and made it to the big moments; the graduations and the dance recitals. he grins and tells everyone that he taught you. it almost erases the days in between, where he complains because you need a ride to school. the weeks that go by where he doesn't actually ever speak to you. the times you say i am struggling and he says figure it out on your own. i can't help you.

and that's fine! that's all fine. you can call him if you are having a problem with your car. or if you need a ride to the hospital. he loves playing hero, he just doesn't like the actual work that comes with being a father. and you've kind of made your peace with that; because you had to, because you don't want to live your life like he does; the whole world at a managed distance, a little rotating and controlled orb he can witness and take credit for but never truly love.

as an adult, you are rewatching some dumb cartoon - and again, the child standing in the rain, with a mitt, waiting for their father to come play catch. as an adult, there's this strange creeping dread - this little thing? this little thing, and their dad can't even show up for that? oh god, holyshit, it's not about the mitt, is it. oh god, holyshit, your father spent most of your life leaving you hanging.

[sketchy-tour]

A wilting flower is not always beyond healing. It'll just take time.

[sagesfandomspot]

Wait so... Paris showed up to study. Jess showed up with food from Luke’s. Dean showed up with ice cream. But did Rory ever get her Indian food??

[muttsterion]

Kenny's in-universe popularity seems to fluctuate depending on what kind of plot the writers wants to do. In one episode he'll be labeled as a quiet loner, the next he's able to befriend dozens of people in one day. Which do you subscribe to?

With Kenny I feel and like to go with something more in the middle. Like it's true he's shown to have a small circle of true close friends and has a tendency to do things on his own. Sometimes he even breaks away from his closer friends to do something else? (though that's usually more M&T having no idea where to use him in whatever plot they have. ) And of course Mysterion is when he acts the most as a loner, whether that's his true nature or if he's playing along with his hero identity I can't say. But he does seem to have a charismatic nature about him sometimes? Like not in a way that he's talkative or anything, he's usually a very quiet to himself kind of person, but there are canon instances such as the end of "The Poor Kid" where everyone in the school is clapping and cheering that he's back. And Butters in "Going Native" outright admitted seeing something in Kenny that made him respect him the most out of everyone else in the school. And TFBW there's Call Girl/Wendy telling Mysterion he's a beast(no joke I love that line. XD), and even Henrietta is complimenting his darkness throughout the Casa Bonita DLC. And not to mention none of the girls seem to mind Kenny trying to join their trick or treating group in "The Scoots"? So I 'd like to think even though he's mostly very quiet (unless he has something he needs to say) and to himself by nature people are still drawn to him? And feel at least most people in his school to some degree enjoy his company/presence even if he's just quietly sitting next to them doing his own thing.

[leslie057]

i know for a fact that chrissy cunningham’s bizarre hiding places at hawkins high coincide with jonathan and nancy’s bizarre hiding/hooking up places at hawkins high. poor girl is so :( when those two start dating and discover her secret spots. she needs her be-weird-by-myself time. she needs her crying spot. she needs her hide-from-my-boyfriend nook. she needs total isolation when things get rough and she feels like she can’t breathe. they took that away from her and shes so quietly grrrrrr about it.

how they stay turned on in a maze of pipes in the boiler room is beyOND her like ooooh sexy HVAC system. (its not beyond her though, not really, she is a horny hormonal girl but like not for her boyfriend, for her right hand.)

anyway shes mildly concerned for them and their codependency level. even when she leaves in the middle of class they will sometimes be there, in her favorite hiding places (empty home econ room) (corner of the ag workshop thats hidden by three sets of shelves) (music room closet) (hidden nook adjacent to the teachers lounge where they keep the coffeemaker) and its like guys its 10:30am right now what are we doing. go back to class i need a place to cry + read my book. we have a test tomorrow go study.

theyre not even always kissing sometimes theyre just in the weirdest most isolated places doing literally nothing. staring at each other. tying each other’s shoes. looking out the window. doing…palm readings or something, they’re always comparing their hands.

she knows too much. she knows nancy really should be more gentle with jonathan because he’s always breathing SO hard and one day he’s going to pass out and hit his head real bad. right from the sexy HVAC system to the sexy AMBULANCE hellooo. she also knows jonathan needs to work on not hitting light switches on accident and pushing nancys head against them. he gets super worked up and the needy clumsiness jumps out.

still her favorite couple at school, shes rooting for them and she once had a weirdgood sex dream about them both so ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ five stars

[thelastsaiyanprincess]

i need a McFuckin break

[meowydoe]

I think people who make fun of or mock ‘quiet kids’ should be punched in the nose but idk that might just be me

[sprout-fics]

I’m sorry that you’ve been getting a lot of anon hate :( recently a lot of anons have been feeling pretty entitled and being rude to people just trying to have fun and to share

Me and everyone else who follows you enjoys what you write. You don’t deserve that hate. Sending much love ❤️

I wasn't getting anon hate until that last message, which I won't publish, but essentially got pissy with me bc I asked folks to talk to me off anon about stuff- which has been ignored twice today and as a result I wasn't able to discern one anon from another and came across as irritated to someone who didn't deserve it. (Sorry 2nd barracks bunny anon, that's on me) and that is one of the reasons I really don't like talking with someone via anon because it can lead to a lot of confusion. I've always asked people to talk me off anon, and it gets very frustrating when folks ignore that and insist I engage with them.

I get lots of sweet people over anon, and I appreciate them. However at this point I think I am going to permanently and forever turn off that function. Even outside of this circumstance I get anxious even seeing a notification because I'm constantly worried someone is going to be nasty. It's better for me to keep it off. It's a privilege not a right, and I have no obligation to provide that to folks if I'm uncomfortable with it.

[burning-academia-if]

Hello! I have a question about Lars specifically, if you don't mind. Is there a reason for him to be so hostile - and nonetheless, purposefully inflict danger on MC, too, if I understood right - towards MC from the very beginning? Does he know something about MC's condition and tries to stop ??? from achieving their goal, whatever that might be? Or is it just that his and MC vibes clash in a wrong way leading to and instant natural antipathy? Or is he just one of those assholes who are like "I treat everyone as shit untill they prove me otherwise"?

In other words, how can he be redeemed in MC's eyes on his romantic route? Because I'm looking at him respectfully and with interest, but the whole "hostile, life-threatening walking red flag" ordeal bothers me. Also it confuses me that you rated his route as 1/10 angsty. So like the lest angsty of them all? So I guess it means that his route is a smooth sail once the initial hostility wears off? Of course, if it's spoilery, I humbly agree to patiently wait for the mystery of the duality of Lars Angel to unfurl within the story.

Have a nice day and thank you!

Lol Lars angst level is like...a 7/10? As for why Lars is Like That, it's pretty obvious right away honestly. Whether he's openly hostile or just doesn't want to be near you is dependent on your own actions. I'd also say it is spoilers as it relates to the overarching plot and whether you romance/befriend him or not, you'll still learn why.

Lars is the opposite of ???, in that in the beginning ??? is the villain but isn't one of the antagonists, meanwhile Lars isn't a villain but he is one of the antagonists. His title is also "Hand of Judgment" for a reason!

Lastly, if needed I'll get more into it after his introduction because I think explanations vs. in story tend to be different from each other lmfaO. I will say I'd never have an RO that doesn't have a reason to be that way towards an MC. Whether those reasons are one you can forgive or not is up to you.

[silenthillbunni]

i think the reason i always feel so lonely is bc rlly all i want is a romantic relationship that is kinda co-dependent but we love eo nd it works for us. idc that it's generally considered toxic. that's what i need nd want. like i do want to experience nd go thru life w someone always by my side. i need someone close to me all the time to seek quiet, verbal nd physical comfort nd reassurance from. i need to share the burden nd horrors of life w someone else. have their warmth nd closeness be an anchor for me.

[mintacle]

What I need:

Jason Todd in his slightly messy but homey kitchen at 7am watching the sun rise out his window. Hair messy from sleep and wearing boxers and a t-shirt, slight chubby belly (dadbod), just a bit unshaven, leaning his chin on one hand as he slowly drinks his morning tea/coffee.

[glitterghost]

Feeling the ace-solation tonight.

[icewindandboringhorror]

While I don't know much about it, I would probably bet there are tons of issues with the cruise industry that would make me not actually appreciate it broadly speaking - HOWEVER, I do really love a lot of the interior design of some cruise ships.. How it's almost like a miniature city crammed into one area. Multiple sections with all different aesthetic designs, a variety of shops, restaurants, activity centers, community seating areas, communal use spaces (like gyms, laundry, pools, cafeteria/buffet (which I always love anywhere)), etc. etc. but then also everyone has a little nice clean comfortable looking space of their own to retreat back to if they'd like to be alone. Maybe it's something akin to the idea of 'walkable cities', where everything you could ever want to do is kind of right there just a short walk away? I also especially love how so much stuff is stacked on top of other stuff, a layered cluster of spaces, bright open atriums, and when they're set up with little walkways down the center between a bunch of rooms so it's almost like a mini city street with apartments lining it, etc.. They often seem like they'd be SUCH a cool place to live permanently, IF only something identical was just built on solid land instead lol

[smallblueandloud]

walking to class listening to the story of us and having CNL feels. this is @paperairplanesopenwindows' fault

[golvio]

Headcanon rambling ahoy, inspired by my thoughts from a Twitter thread that I had no room for, about a topic that people might not be interested in/care to hear contrasting headcanons about.

Again, this is a headcanon, not a theory or assertion I expect anyone to take as fact. These are my personal opinions on the matter, feel free to ignore them if you disagree with them.

Am I the only person who doesn’t really see Ganondorf as “dad” material? Besides the fact that he seems absolutely uninterested in procreation, much less marrying a queen or even having girlfriends. It feels like all the popular headcanons I’ve seen involve him having a gaggle of concubines and a million biokids, or he’s constantly adopting the younger iterations of Zelda & Link after being overwhelmed by paternal instinct, but…I just don’t see it. Like, I get that one scene with him tucking in an unconscious Tetra in Wind Waker resonated with a lot of people, but I feel like whatever sympathy he felt for Tetra was a very special case, given how he’s drawn to people he feels he has something in common with, particularly some sort of loss or denial of one’s ambitions or potential by The Gods/fate/Hylia herself/the royal family/whatever.

His aversion to/complete lack of interest in cishetero entanglements in every game he’s been in is to the point where, even if he’s not necessarily not attracted to women, I feel like there’s something about Gerudo culture that means marriage or even a totally informal romantic/sexual relationship with a woman would severely limit his personal and political autonomy as king. Also, the guy intends to live forever. He can’t really do that when he has a bunch of snotty, spoiled little blood descendants getting all uppity about their inheritance and trying to off him because he won’t get his ancient butt off that throne. Why on earth would a guy concerned with that carelessly spray his gametes around like some medieval European monarch?

The guy’s not even willing to marry a woman for political reasons! Not even for a land or cash grab from a rich and powerful family, or to stabilize relations with a warring kingdom, or to solidify his claim to a land he conquered, which was the only reason why nobles ever got married back then. He has kidnapped Zelda a million times, but has never once breathed a word about marrying her despite his whole schtick being the ultranationalist “Big Scary Foreigner Man Threatens Our Nation’s Fair, Nubile Women.”

I really do believe that one of the big reasons he keeps cutting ties with the Gerudo, beyond the political disagreements and murder and starting/continuing multiple wars, is that he cannot stand the pressure put on him as king to marry and make babies. He loves his culture. He loves his position. He loves his people (provided they respect him, keep their hands to themselves, and let him be in charge of everything). But he does not love the prospect of being passed off to someone like a prized breeding bull just because the elders of every tribe in the Gerudo region got together and decided she’d be the best candidate for queen.

And then there’s my general read on his personality. I can see him being the owner of many dangerous pets who he spoils rotten. I can see him tending a garden outside his castle full of brightly flowering ornamental plants (which are also very dangerous and would probably kill anyone who didn’t take the proper safety precautions). But I can’t see him raising a kid, whether from infancy or adopted at an older age. If he tried, he’d probably be really bad at it. The guy’s practically oozing generational trauma instead of sebum from the oil glands in his skin, getting it on everything he touches. He’s gotta sort his own business out before even considering taking on someone else’s. 😅