#i know i know my mental health was shit lately

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

This election day, I'm thinking of my Nana.

I'm thinking of how as a young woman, she fled political violence in her native Colombia to build a new home in a more stable country. I'm thinking about how she lived a long life, but not long enough to see her home country elect its first ever progressive president (just a few months ago!).

Coincidentally, I was living in Colombia at that time (in the very city she grew up in), and I was able to witness what felt like a miracle. A very conservative country, suffering from the violent inheritance of colonization and catholic invasion and the war on drugs, against a backdrop of the dangerous global rise of the far right--this unlikely country managed to elect one of the most progressive heads of state in the world, in 2022. That's a pretty big deal.

And I'm thinking about this, this election day, because that election was won by a very thin margin. I'm thinking about how it almost didn't happen. I'm thinking about how it was only possible thanks to the highest voter turnout in 20 year. And I am thinking about the countless number of voters who chose to vote for the first time. I am thinking of the poorest and most disenfranchised citizens who showed up at the polls. I am thinking of the indigenous women who rode 12 hours on public buses to vote at the 'nearest' polling stations. I am thinking of all the money and corruption that went into preventing minority citizens from voting, and I'm thinking about how they showed up in the millions and voted anyway.

I am thinking that I would like to see a miracle like that in my own home country.

So if you're on the fence about waiting in line today to cast your vote, I hope that you will think--about the country you want to live in, the future you hope will unfold, and about all of the people it takes to make a miracle.

Because history may deem us nameless and faceless, but when we show up en masse, we are the ones who make history happen.

And yes, maybe also spare a thought for my Nana. Who was in fact a very angry and judgemental woman who supported the republican party for 50+ years, and who would be turning in her grave right now (if the family hadn't had her cremated). Think about the mean angry ghost of my Colombian grandmother, who very much wants you to not show up at the polls to support abortion and other sinful progressive values. Think about her. Do it for her. Do it for Nana.

[whirlybirbs]

it’s 5:20am i cannot sleep i am consumed with thoughts and yearning for keigo takami i need to be euthanized

[shima-draws]

Been having a rough couple of days. Send me asks?

[bunnihearted]

regardless of the "learn how to be alone" dravel, being lonely actually is really bad for your mental health and can be very painful :p

[junespriince]

You know what fuck it, been thinking about this since I made this account, in honor of my old adhdslugcrimes(to sluggishslugcrimes) I will do a whole damn year of birdflash headcanons once again for 2025, and also in honor for the old penname rei it's Sluggy 2025's yearlong headcanons time.

My criteria

Do it in the memory of Rei's 2020 yearlong headcanon post I did on a whim that got me my best friend Nebby into my life.

I will NOT prepare for it just like the original one

I will suffer and hate myself

And I will add my aus in there because at this point these bitches live rent free for far too long and are paying the price.

So, see you at January 1st 2025 for Yearlong birdflash headcanons, Sluggy reckoning!

Editing: added flashfam and Batfam and random dc headcanons after some thought, I remember my cringe 😬

[thedrotter]

not-yet-dead-person

silly comic of a conversation in-game i thought was too funny not to make something proper for instead of a doodle ww

(timelapse + wip images (thus silly process commentary in read more if you like artist commentary :3)

i think the sketch looks silly and goofy and funny so i find it important to share with you the mere presence of the faces i drew on it. i drew it on top of the boxes without staying inside its borders because i find my proportions can get wonky if i draw them cropped in a restricted space. and I feel trapped otherwise and i will draw BAD!!! give me spaceeeee to go wild!!!!

the head circles are there for emotional support

very low res speedpaint because truth is the canvas was much bigger than the space where my comic was placed. i didnt account when exporting my timelapse in 720px that that tiny space would look so pixelated ... but it's able to be percieved, so its okay.

(i will now comment on my process and it is not brief sorry)

usually i would try to clean up my sketches and figure out what goes on top before jumping into linework, but since there are multiple panels and drawings i chose to jump into inking right away for the sake of brevity. i just went in with a brush that uses pen pressure and drew what was needed. i added extra line thickness and contrast in areas around the face because it helps direct your eyes there more easily that way.

according to her equipment rei has a chain belt but i only remembered it existed once I was going to color, and i did not like that discovery... I chose to ignore it to maintain my peace. i already have the color palettes for these characters figured out, and i didnt really want to think about a new element at the moment www I tend to overthink those things a lot so i skipped it

the rest is rather straightforward! not that anything else wasn't, but in here i could turn my brain off and sing. linework and sketching require mumbling so i cannot turn my brain off. just block in the characters with a solid color so i can have a mask (something along those lines,) where the color can stay inside. then just color in !!!

Base colors just had slight cell shading on the skin, and for the hair i airbrush a bit of the skincolor in low opacity near the forehead... I'm not sure what it means, but i can look at the faces easier with it somehow. i like the gentle subtlety it adds even if you cant really tell. it makes things look nice.

background was just me blocking in the color of the wall and floor, shade the wall a bit, then slap a noise and free use wood texture on top. work smarter not harder ! yet it took a bit to make it look stylistically fitting with the characters, and even now i think bottom middle panel looks odd. whatever!!!

for the middle panel i thought itd be funny if the background was a solid silly and colorful one to contrast the next panel's sketchy black one. a contrast to how the word widow is seen. on that note my handwritting is not pointy. i gaslighted my hand into thinking that it was indeed pointy in that moment so i could write "not-yet dead person" in letters that didn't seem cute. my hand did not fall for it but it complied anyway

that's basically it! I'm not sure what else i could say that doesn't feel barebones because it really is that straightforward. if you're curious I used clip studio paint for this. only special brush used was for linework (a brush named Lemon Brush), the rest used were just the default. my computer gets the least credit. it was trying to convince me a 20mb file was going to nuke it all the time and hardly let me save multiple times so i do not appreciate it

[compacflt]

wip wednesday: going thru my corny arc

[archduke-enver-gortash]

i will go to sleep NOW 🫵 (pointing at myself)

[finniestoncrane]

one more flop post and i can see me giving this shit up lmao like i just realised i’ve spent a month writing something that won’t get more than 30 notes, only 2 of which will be reblogs, when i could have been writing my self-indulgent fallout fic thats just for me although i might just be in a downward mental spiral either way *click click wink wink*

[thetisming]

i hate it here i hate it here i want to die i hate this so much

[fitzselfships]

I really wish I were being held by Zooble right now </3

[lighthouseshepard]

feels like. most of the past few months have just been me waiting in drs offices alone hoping for answers or a solution that will stick. and it sucks

[lostintime-liketearsinrain]

Finishing work, playing some Fallout 4 and sat chilling on my decking starting night one of dog sitting Pip (our family dog). My mum and step-dad (I always feel weird saying that. Guess I could use partner lol. Sorry rambling) have gone away for the weekend for their wedding anniversary. So it’s just me and pip for the weekend! I apologise in advance for the copious amount of doggo pics 🤣🙈

[piplupod]

my current counselor has caused me a shit ton of stress bc she is consistently late for our appts, BUT! she did come to the conclusion that my mother is not healthy for me to be around without me ever directly saying that or even implying it so that's pretty cool

(and she also accepted my "i cannot say that to my mother" response to her suggesting i try saying something that's considered a normal thing to say (i.e. "hey can we talk about xyz instead of yzx?") instead of trying to convince me im being irrational and should just Try Communicating yadda yadda)

[scaredofmyocs]

I love it when i accidentally stay up on the night im supposed to be catching up on sleep it totallly doesnt make me feel horrible all week long

[white-nolse]

hope you’re doing okay :< i miss seeing you around

Well... This was a bit unexpected to get.

First things first, I am doing ok, thank you for asking! And aweee, that's sweet of you! (⁠*⁠´⁠ω⁠｀⁠*⁠)

Still a bit hesitant about coming back here, don't fully feel comfy about that idea (I got too dependent on checking this place and compared myself with mutuals a lot, and we all know that ain't healthy).

I might start slow again, I don't want to fall down that same pit again.