#i live for that day of panic and anxiety

[crabussy]

I’m the happiest I’ve ever been in my life and. I just feel like crying over that fact. a few years ago I was sure I’d be an anxious miserable wreck for my entire life but now I wake up and I love the world and I promise one day you will too. please keep going please hold the world tight. you will giggle at something silly with a stranger. a staff member at a place you frequent will smile when they see you. an elderly person will look at you gratefully for helping them. you’ll cry about stupid stuff and laugh about it later. you’ll drink cold water during a hot day and it will be the best sensation ever. being alive is the best thing I’ve ever experienced.

[isa-ah]

for people who have anxiety but live alone anyway: how do u deal with the panic? I live with 2 other people and still have bubble burst moments of random fear that only gets soothed by putting myself in someone else's eyeline. what do you do when the catastrophising starts???

[ratislatis]

idk why it’s just coming to me now but I remember feeling this cold, white catharsis upon realizing that it wasn’t Freddie’s decision to give Glenn that panic attack. It was Anthony’s. And the way he said it, so finite, “Glenn is having a panic attack.” in a tone that was used before only to set up a disastrous scene.

It hurt, a lot, because in the weirdest way possible that’s exactly what having a panic attack is like. You’re sitting there with your world crashing down around you and then a disembodied narrator suddenly says, “This bitch shutting down.” (Distinctly in a Stanley Parable manner.)

[notjanine]

me a week ago: i love my job!!

me now, after having a mid-year review that amounted to you’re doing an excellent job and you bring such a valuable perspective to our practice but i don’t have the ability to give you a raise right now but don’t worry bc i just hired a new CFO to try to figure out money so we can maybe give you a raise later this year: *breaks into a cold sweat as i crack open indeed dot com*

[iero]

Had a panic attack that literally woke me up in the middle of the night last night and lasted until the early morning and let me tell you, that shit is TERRIFYING. Needless to say, I think I'm ready to go back to work.

[bandedbulbussnarfblat]

I got a packet from the social security people I have to fill out and have sent back in--by mail--by the 26th. I got it on Friday. And I haven't looked at it til now, bc I was so stressed out about my dog being sick and i feel so overwhelmed. They want all my medical records from the last year, which I don't have, because I've only started keeping that stuff since I had my complete mental breakdown and she took me out of work. And there's so many pages and so much information they want. They have to nitpick my whole fucking life, before they can decide I deserve health. Being disabled in this country is a fucking nightmare. Instead of trying to hep, the just look for reasons to disqualify you. Because they don't want to help us; they just want us to go away

[seventh-district]

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[kneworder]

literally how the fuck did i survive my sophmore year of college. i went out every weekend. i got HAMMERED EVERY WEEKEND. i know that's standard at some schools but now that i live off campus it's like a switch flipped and i'm suddenly like oh no i actually need to get some stuff done on this friday night. was so looking forward to going to hockey games again this year until i went to one and realized oh holy shit i did not enjoy these at all i just liked that it gave me an excuse to get so drunk i couldn't stop giggling with my besties and then go to another party afterwards. like no WONDER i was a wreck last spring i did maybe 40% of my readings and wasn't functional most saturdays. now i'm like oh no idk if i can afford an edibles+movie night in this weekend even though that's my new favorite activity 😔 and then i think back to asking in the middle of the dining hall PLEASE TELL ME WE HAVE SOMEWHERE TO GO DRINK THIS WEEKEND every single friday last year. my roommate and i joked a lot about 'alcoholism behavior' and it never got near that bad but like. in retrospect. it was a little bit of alcoholism behavior. like that was super not healthy and i don't know how the lowest grade i got that semester was an A- bc you would think i was failing my classes the way i talked and looked and acted 80% of the time.

[thefaultinoursprinkles]

how to explain that I’m dying and have too much going on in my personal life to have such a stressful job without sharing unnecessary details with my boss that may come back to bite me later on

[lookedlikethebins]

not to bitch but: being put in a shit mood first thing in the morning, (genuinely from the first three words to each other) should give me carte blanche to not deal with anything else annoying today! like thank you i've had enough, and the sun isn't even up

[sovaharbor]

tomorrow i am going to bake and i am going to sit outside for my enrichment therapy and i am going to write more fanfic stuff and i am going to study and i am going to wear cute clothes and and and!!!

[commanderquinn]

You got a puppy and haven’t provided puppy tax??? How rude! (But also understandable if you’re uncomfy sharing) but puppy!!

What kind??

i did!! he's a black lab! full of heart, dumb of ass 😌

i keep (and will attempt to remember to keep) his nonsense in his very own tag, bc this lil bastard is Very Spoiled

[junipersberries]

Jesus Christ I feel like I am going mad.

[tea-stained]

there was a cloud

it was fluffy and white

innocent enough

light and a bit tattered

in the shape of a mountain

shards of rainbows scattered inside

sitting there

opal among pearls

on the background

compiled of sapphire sky

gracefully gazing over

every cloud seen and not-seen

by the eyes of man,

bright jasper

creating a delicate golden lining

on every and each cloud

as if making sure

everyone is safe

frantically warming them up

checking up and preventing

overlapping

endlessly wide river

making everything flow

waking up gods and men

watching with those

warm and scorching

comforting and burning eyes

putting them to sleep

taking any cloud and every cloud

into the equation

there is beauty

in a cyclone

the cloud keeps moving its peak

it begins to swirl around

into a tiny spiral

is it ice cream or whipped cream?

is it a sweet meringue?

as it gets warmer

the mountain gains colours

becoming golden

as it gets hotter

the mountain gains colours

as it becomes

oh, dear red jasper

you have burnt this one

and there is nothing you can do

never again

will this mountain be whole again

the other clouds scatter slowly,

pushed away by cyclone's vicious breath

mountain growing taller and taller

towering

climbing itself

you used to be opal

now you are nothing

but smoke

you explode

howling

but there is no lightning

you explode

screaming and screeching and howling and yelling and shouting and shrieking

"nasty"

ah,

here is the explosion

you bawl out everything you had

this spectacle

this charade

just stop already, won't you?

being ripped to pieces cannot possibly hurt that bad

and you probably enjoy it

don't cry

you are nasty

don't weep

you are disgusting

"i'm sorry"

with every blow

weight grows heavier

with every blow

there is damage

impossible to be undone

as i try to calm down

i fall to the ground once more

listening to nothingness

barely breathing

struck by a lighting

i would never tell you

but there is comfort in the cyclone

i stare into its eye

and it winks

"let's keep it a secret, okay?"

[thekidsarentalright]

feeling sooooooo anxious today for no reason 😵‍💫

[rotturn]

every day on this trip is worse