#i made this for my 25th birthday celebration today lol

[deathandthemaiden23]

PUSS IN BOOTS: THE LAST WISH (2022)✨️🍷🍹🍺 DRINKING GAME 🍺🍹🍷✨️

1. Take a sip anytime:

• A banger ass song starts playing

• Santa Caloma is mentioned

• Pickles is mentioned 🥒

• Jack Horner says an extremely quotable line (at your discretion, because honest to fucking god most of what he says is quotable as fuck)

• Goldilocks is referred to as a budget version of a similar fairytale character ("Little Bo Creep," "Low-rent Cinderella")

• The name "Team Friendship" is mercilessly dragged through the shit

• A map ownership swap occurs and the surrounding area changes as a result

• Puss gets shit on by anyone within a 5 mile radius

• Perrito tries to get Puss to rub his belly

• A character dies, implying Death is most certainly somewhere in the surrounding area unbeknownst to literally everyone else in the story who isn't Death

• Kitty wears the strap-on in her relationship with Puss (for the layman, this would be any time that Kitty saves Puss's ass in any kind of fight scene or really any interaction she has with him where you look at them and the only thought to go through your head is, "this man definitely gets pegged")

• Papa Bear fails to back up Baby Bear when he resists a particular roast slung at him by Goldi and instead affirms the accuracy of said roast or takes Goldi's side

• Perrito is disturbingly upbeat given the grimness of the current conversation topic being discussed in the movie

•Puss's anime eyes are used and/or discussed

1. Chug for 3 seconds every time:

• Spanish splinter™️ occurs

• A wanted poster is shown

• Perrito triggers the censors 🤬

• Death shows up 🥰 🥺🫠😏

1. Take a shot every time:

• Puss loses a life (if you're daring and can time it, do a sip/shot for each life lost in the beginning montage and repeat during the scene in the Cave of Lost Souls if you can keep up with two sickles mcgee, ignore if you're a

✨️p u s s y✨️)

• The Shrek Cinematic Universe is alluded to, basically any time a Shrek character besides Puss appears on screen

• Perrito has to be rescued

1. Finish your drink when:

• Perrito calms Puss down during his panic attack

• Puss parts on good/neutral terms with his sleep paralysis demon ("Hasta la muerte" 💀❤️)

• The camera pans to reveal Far Far Away at the end 👽(closest emoji to Shrek that I could find sorry the only other green emoji is the puke one which I found inappropriate for our layered ogrelord)

If you're lucky, Death won't be carting your cold carcass into the afterlife by the end of this shit. Happy birthday me I guess lol here's to Shrek 5 bitches

[cameronspecial]

Candle-Lit Dinners

Pairing: Rafe Cameron x Reader

Warnings:  Suggestive Ending

Pronouns: She/Her

Word Count: 0.5K

Request by @arim250: Hey! Kinda was thinking a request whenever u can. something w either drew or rafe about celebrating yn bday (bc my bday is coming lol) Ik I said my bday is the 25th but doesn’t have to be said that day maybe just around the holidays or however u would want to write it… he plans a romantic evening a restaurant or made at home food reader maybe comes home and there’s rose petals/candles food and ending w a sexy night I wouldn’t want to be like smut but still something around there lol

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Her parents took Y/N out to lunch and she spent the afternoon with them at the mall. She watched a movie, did some shopping, and was now ready to go home to her boyfriend. She opens the front door to find rose petals leading into the dining room. The house is filled with the aromatic smell of spices from her favourite meal. Creamy Thyme Chicken with Sautéed Apples and Mushrooms. She pads her way toward the candle-lit dinner and Rafe is standing over the table, pouring wine into glasses for them. “Happy Birthday, Baby,” he wishes with a smile. He comes around the table to take the bags out of her hands and kisses her lips. The bags drop to the floor by the archway. She grins at him, “Thank you. Dinner looks delicious.” He pulls the chair out for her and pushes it in once she is seated. “You’re welcome. What did you do after I dropped you off?” he questions. Y/N and Rafe had an early breakfast together before going to the beach to spend time on the sand. It was too cold for them to go swimming. There, he gave her her gift of a necklace with his initials on it. She takes her utensils in her hands, “We had lunch at the country club and then we watched that new rom-com that came out yesterday. I did some shopping too. What have you been doing?” 

They begin eating and Rafe’s leg reaches out under the table to twine with one of hers. “I’ve been preparing for all of this. I went grocery shopping because I didn’t want to buy the ingredients early and have you figure out my plan. It took me a while to figure everything out,” he replies. Her eyes look up from her dinner to stare at him through her lashes, “Well, thank you for going through all this trouble for me.” “No problem, Baby. Anything for my girl, especially on her birthday,” he says, leaning across the table to kiss her. 

The meal is finished over the course of an hour. The lovers take the time to talk to and be with each other. After dinner, he lets her help clean up because he knows she just wants to spend time with him. They finish the dishes and she orders him to stay downstairs. She dashes upstairs with the shopping bags she brought home, changing into a certain outfit she bought for today. She returns downstairs and watches the growing boner in her boyfriend’s pants. She motions towards it, “I see you like my gift to you.” He nods vigorously and beckons her forward. “It’s your birthday. I should be showering you in gifts,” he points out, pulling her onto his lap. She sits back on his knees as she straddles him. Her hands play with the hairs on the back of his neck, “I can think of a few ways that you can give me more presents and they could all be given right now.” “I think there are too. I think we have maybe five more gifts for me to give you,” he agrees against her lips. She giggles, “Five. That’s a lot.” “What can I say I’m a generous man,” he teases. They spend the night making passionate love by the candle-lit.

Taglist: @winterrrnight @loves0phelia @thelomlisrafecameron @wickedlovely121 @thepatriarchykeychain @drewsmusee @starkowswife @maybankslover @forstarkey @loving-and-dreaming

[eddieandbird]

Happy Birthday Bird

Hello sweethearts! You read the title right, my birthday is right around the corner (Jan 25th) and i wanted to celebrate it with all of you guys! i've opened my inbox to special requests. if you want to participate, please read on

This event will be going on from today [jan 13] until Joseph Quinn's birthday [jan 26] (i know i'm like way too excited that we're birthday neighbors lol)

Just send me any of these emojis/topics and I will respond accordingly 😇

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Ask me anything you'd like to know about me or notes/posts on my blog

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Send me a stranger things scene or note I’ve made and I'll make a lockscreen for you

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I'll give you my opinion on something based on the stranger things universe

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I'll write a short headcanon blurb of a stranger things character of your choice

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If you want to send a birthday wish, I’ll write your username in a character of your choice’s handwriting

Thank you again to everyone following me for your continued love and support! I am so thankful for you guys. -Bird

[oi-loverboy]

Ok i so have a request for Levi:

I imagine him never celebrating his birthday and never getting gifts and then when he gets a gf(y/n) she remembers his birthday and celebrates with him and gives him gifts. I just imagine that would be so cute and maybe you could write a short story about it? You don’t have to of course<33

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Hello lovie! I was so excited to write this lol. I made it a modernAU but if you want canon you can just tell me and I shall fulfill your request. Enjoy!

TW: pure fluff

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Looking at the calendar you circled your finger around December 25th, your lovers birthday. You had decorated the little box with lopsided balloons and little dashes of glittery pens to make it look like confetti accompanied by capitalized words spelling out “Levi’s birthday.”

You knew Levi didn’t really care much about his birthday, why would he when no one celebrated it with him? You wanted to make Levi feel special, let him know that his birthday could be a wonderful thing. You knew he wouldn’t want a party or for everyone to get involved so you created a day for you and him, a day he could enjoy to the fullest.

Knowing that Levi woke up fairly early, you woke up an hour before him to wake him up with breakfast in bed. You made him crepes filled with a vanilla filling, topped with neatly sliced strawberries. You proceeded to make him favorite tea since you gained the knowledge on how to make the perfect cup of tea for him. You placed the plates in a small tray you had bought at the store last week for such occasion, balancing it in your hands as you carefully walked to the room keeping watch on the tea to make sure you don’t spill it.

You stepped into your shared room, glancing up with a small smile forming on your lips as you saw the bundle of blankets wrapped around Levi’s sleeping body. You placed the tray on his bedside table before sitting comfortable on the edge of the bed slightly leaning over to him. You placed your hand on the bed beside his abdomen to hold your weight, using your other hand to rub your fingers through his hair. You watched as he slowly woke up, his sleepy eyes fluttering open as he took in an inhale of air. There was a small smile on his lips as he looked at you, he reached his hand up to grab your hand gently rubbing his thumb against the soft skin on the back of your hand before bringing your hand to his lips to press a lingering kiss.

“Good morning darling, happy birthday!” You spoke softly, leaning forward to press a quick kiss to his warm lips causing him to let out a small hum as he mumbled a small thank you against your lips. “I made you breakfast, you sir, have a long day awaiting you.”

“Is that so? What are the plans for today Y/L/N?” Levi replies back, grabbing onto the hand you offered him to help him sit up on the bed as you placed a pillow behind him to make sure he was comfortable.

“Why thank you for asking Mr. Ackerman,” you spoke, a quiet giggle escaping your lips, “you shall eat the breakfast I had made you your majesty, then you will open some wisely chosen materials that have been placed in a gift bag as a surprise for you, also known as your presents my lord. Then in the afternoon we shall enjoy our day doing whatever you want and then we will go eat dinner at one of the finest restaurants near by.” You spoke, alternating your voice to make yourself seem classy and as if you were indeed speaking to a king.

Levi chuckled through a mouthful of crepes, his eyes not leaving your face. “You know you didn’t have to do that Y/N, a happy birthday would have been enough.”

You let you a sigh, a small smile on your lips as you placed your hand on his cheek rubbing your thumb against his cheek bone. “I wanted to make it special, something you would remember and hopefully look forward to for the next years you will be with me.” You spoke quietly, looking at him with pure adoration.

“And it’s highly appreciated pretty girl,” Levi leaned his head towards your hand, placing his hand over yours as he turned his head to press a kiss to your palm.

You giggled before making it to your side of the bed before bending down to grab the bags full of gifts that you had hidden before placing them on the bed and scooting them closer to him. You sat on the bed crisscrossed, a bright smile on your face as you waited for him to open them.

Levi clicked his tongue as he watched your expression, jokingly shaking the first red bag while mumbling a “I wonder what’s in here” before removing the colorful tissue paper and peeking in the bag. A big smile was plastered on his face as he pulled out a brand new tea set with baggies full of loose leaf teas placed neatly inside the cups with his favorite flavors and new ones you thought she would enjoy. You remembered that Levi was complaining about how tea cups losing their color and slightly chipping from how much he used them.

Levi leaned forward and pressed a kiss to your lips, humming a “thank you.” You pulled away and pushed the next back close to him, a cheeky smile on your face.

Levi arced an eyebrow at you as he cautiously opened the medium sized bag. Inside was a new pair of trousers from his favorite clothes store with a white dress shirt with elegant designs aligning the cuffs of the sleeves and collar accompanying the trousers. You had remembered the way he looked at the shirt and he hesitated to buy it just because it wasn’t what he normally bought but you knew he loved them.

Levi let out a small sigh, a small smile on his lips as he ran his fingers over the embroidery, “you pay so much attention to detail,” he spoke softly, gently placing the gift back in its bag.

“Maybe you could wear it tonight when I take you out to eat,” you scooted closer to him, smiling as he placed his big hand on your cheek. “And I know you prefer somewhere quiet and with less people so I decided that maybe we could order the food and go somewhere else, maybe to the roof top. I’ve already set up a table for us if you don’t want to eat at the restaurant darling.”

Levi stared at you with pure adoration, he loved how much you cared for him and how attentive you were to his wants and needs. He would mark this down as his best birthday, hopefully there would be so many more to come.

“Why don’t we go on a picnic? It’s still early and we can just enjoy a nice lunch.” Levi suggested, leaning forward to press his forehead against yours. “That way I can have more time with you enjoying our time. I truly do appreciate it Y/N, I love you.”

[talkfastromance4]

For Your Eyes Only-- bodyguard!Ashton [Chapter One]

Summary: Ashton Irwin is the head of security for Princess Alouette who is a kind, gentle young woman. Secretly pining for one another, those feelings will soon come to light as an occurrence will change Alouette’s life forever, and Ashton’s.

Word count: 2k

Warnings: none :)

Author’s note: The title is actually from a 1D song called If I Could Fly lol, while I was listening to the song it made me think of Ashton and Alouette. I don’t mention where she’s a Princess of, somewhere in Europe I suppose. This story is near and dear to  my heart, please give it a chance!❤❤❤❤❤

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Ashton was head of security for Princess Alouette for three years now. Whoever came in contact with her was cleared through him first and foremost. The Princess was seen as gentle throughout the country and to most on the outside world, they perceived her as naïve and weak. She was loved by many and hated by more who wanted to rule over her but she was as strong as she was gentle.

Being head of her security meant he was with her 24/7 and always in constant contact with others on his team who were surrounded the perimeter of her palace day and night. He ran checks on every single person before they traveled somewhere and Ashton’s circle of trust was small but he trusted them with the Princess’ life.

Those four he trusted were Calum Hood, Luke Hemmings, and Michael Clifford who grew up with the Princess. Michael always referred to her as ‘Alou,’ his nickname for her since they were young because it was too hard for him to say her name.

Alouette has a small circle of people that she trusts as well, and Ashton is at the very top of that list. She trusts her maids and ladies in waiting and her royal visors, but Ashton made sure she was safe wherever she went—even if that meant tight parole and limited restrictions on traveling on her own.

This weekend she’d be traveling to Spain to celebrate one of her dear friends 25th birthday, Neva, a model. It was to be a momentous party lasting a whole weekend and Ashton was already on top of all the travel plans. The flight has been cleared, the cars have been cleared and when they arrive at Neva’s villa he’d speak with her head of security and do a full sweep before letting Alouette set foot out of the car.

“The plane is ready for takeoff when you are, my lady,” Ashton announces rapping his knuckles on her opened cream colored door.

He’s only entered her bedroom twice since he became her security detail; the first was when he heard a loud crash only to find her bookshelf fell into her window. She was in hysterics because some of her book fell to their demise from the 4th floor and Ashton rescued each one. The second time was when she cried out in pain from an illness that caused a very high fever and Ashton carried her all the way down to the car to rush her to the hospital.

Alouette flips her golden blond curls behind her back as she straightens herself from her aquarium, she absolutely adored her fish and all of her other pets.

“Remember to feed them every night before bed, Rosa,” Alouette reminds one of her maids kindly.

“I won’t forget your majesty,” Rosa beams then gives her a quick hug. “Have a safe flight and a fun weekend.”

“I will thank you,” Alouette turns to Ashton and smiles as the other guards grab her luggage. “I’m all set, let’s go.”

Ashton steps aside letting her brisk past him as he follows her down the hall and down the flights of stairs to the main foyer. Her three dogs, Benvolio (German Shepard), Daisy (Rottweiler), and Duchess (Golden Retriever) leaped at her as she passed by. She gave each one her love before promising to be back soon and to be good.

Ashton even patted Daisy on the head, he’s always had a soft spot for her, before continuing his trek to the black Mercedes waiting for them. Andy opens the door and Ashton holds Alouette’s hand as she steps up into the vehicle. Ashton always drove.

The drive to the private jet was also well coordinated. Three other Mercedes accompanied them as decoys, each guard was armed and on high alert as they drove through the city to the Royal Hangar. Alouette has to wait in the car while her luggage is loaded onto the plane and then Ashton and three others surround her as she makes her way to the plane.

“Hello Lou,” Alouette greets the pilot.

“Hello my Princess,” Lou smiles warmly, his round spectacles glinting in the sunlight. “Fine day for flying today.”

“That’s good to hear,” Alouette smiles and moves to her seat in the middle where sweet iced tea is already waiting for her.

“Mr. Irwin,” Lou nods to Ashton.

“Hullo, Lou, glad to hear conditions are good,” Ashton nods then takes his seat opposite Alouette across the aisle while the other three sat near the cockpit.

Once everything is settled and Ashton hears confirmation in his ear pieces he waves up at Lou who closes the door and begins his flight controls. His voice is low to his co-pilot as they go through the controls and Alouette smiles at Ashton.

“Take off is my favorite,” she tells him like she always does when they fly.

“I know it is, my lady,” Ashton grins buckling up. “You have your gum when we reach the altitude?”

Her ears always pop and she snaps open the small compartment near the window to show her stash of gum then gives him a narrowed look.

“You’re the one who makes sure this is stocked,” she teases.

“I know,” he replies smugly, his hazel eyes glinting and she snickers before kicking off her sandals and gets comfortable in her seat.

•••

Alouette waits patiently but grudgingly while Ashton speaks with the villa’s security. She stares out the window with her chin in her hand, gazing at the beautiful plants and trees and counts silently in her head. 

Ashton’s magic number is 270 seconds until he’s appeased with the safety and security before retrieving Alouette from the car, but each time it feels longer than the last.

It feels longer because she’s stuck in the vehicle and she can only watch Ashton rather than be with him. That’s the hard part, he’s with her constantly that it feels weird when he’s not right within arms’ reach. He’s become a constant in her life and it makes her uneasy every time he’s gone for those 270 seconds.

“What’s the number?” Luke, the curly blonde guard in the passenger seat asks.

“Two hundred,” Alouette responds dully.

“I give him 50 more seconds.”

“Nope, it’s always 270. I tell you this each time Luke,” Alouette shakes her head. She’s staring at each entrance of the villa waiting to see Ashton’s tall frame emerge.

“And each time I know he’s going to beat it,” he smiles at her through the side view mirror and she scoffs with a smile.

“Two sixty-five . . . two sixty-six . . . two sixty-seven . . .” she sing songs still watching the entrance, “two sixty-eight . . . two sixty-nine . . .and here he is!” she sits up straighter clutching her bag and phone tightly to her body as Ashton approaches the car, he’s buttoning his suit jacket with one hand.

“Damn,” Luke mutters just as Ashton opens her door and Luke gets out as well.

“And each time you’re wrong Luke,” Alouette says matter of factly standing in front of Ashton.

“I appreciate your devotion Luke,” Ashton says, “but my schedule is never altered.”

“Gotta make my own bets,” Luke shrugs and then there’s shouting in Spanish as Neva makes her own appearance as usual.

“Mi Alondra!” (my lark) Neva exclaims her nickname for Alouette who side steps around Ashton and welcomes her best friend in a hug.

Alouette hugs her tightly and breathes in her tangerine perfume. She misses Neva so much when they’re apart and can’t wait to celebrate her birthday this weekend. They immediately begin gossiping to each other as Ashton watches them fondly. Luke shakes his head slicking his hair back before clapping Ashton on the shoulder so they can unload the car.

The connection between Ashton and Alouette was so palpable Luke couldn’t believe neither one of them has made a move. It was insane but at the same time Luke understood the risks. Ashton would lose his post and Alouette would be in complete danger without him.

•••

That first night, the girls are going out for dinner---which Ashton had already cleared before they even landed--- and his mouth went dry when he first laid eyes on Alouette’s outfit. 

She had on a form fitted maroon velvet dress with lips painted red. He cleared his throat and blinked a few times to gain his composure before they went to the car.

Ashton never sat with Alouette or her friends while they were out in public, he never wanted to intrude but he was always near. He stood a good distance away so he could have eyes on other patrons and every entrance.

Throughout dinner he kept a count on how many drinks Alouette has been consuming, he had to bite his tongue each time she drank on a night out. Usually she was pretty good but when she and Neva were together all bets were off.

He was speaking quietly to Luke when Michael’s voice spoke clearly through their in-ears about a woman and child approaching the girls’ table.

Ashton immediately turned his attention back to the table and took a step forward until he saw it was an elderly grandmother and a young girl about 5 years old. The elderly woman spoke to Neva quickly in Spanish while Alouette smiled at the little girl who appeared to be very shy by half hiding behind the elder woman.

Alouette listened to Neva’s interpretation and nodded happily before holding out her hand to the little girl. Ashton watched in awe yet also awareness as Alouette smiled and took pictures with her.

“Tan Hermosa que eres,” (so beautiful you are) the elderly lady holds Alouette’s face in her hands and kisses both cheeks.

“Muchas gracias señora,” Alouette beams up at her then clutches her hands. She waves to the little girl before she scurries off with her grandmother.

“Te amo princesa!” the little girl squeals just as Ashton approaches the table.

He bends down to Alouette’s head and speaks calmly in her ear, “I saw what happened but are you alright, my lady?”

“I’m great, Ashton,” she smiles up at him and he nods.

“You’re one drink closer to six,” he taps her glass and she scowls playfully at him. “Remember your twenty-first?” he warns with a quirked eyebrow and a small smirk before retreating back to his post.

Ashton remembers her twenty-first birthday vividly.

 She had a club rented out for her and her friends along with other royals that traveled near and far to celebrate the Gentle Princess’ special birthday. Celebrities attended as well and the party was a huge spectacle. Any other head of security would have hated the safety protocol but Ashton was on top of it like always.

There were two guards at every entrance, walk through metal detectors were placed in the main entrance and the bouncers were even armed in case something were to happen.

Before it was time for her to make her appearance Ashton took her aside and handed her a small gift box wrapped in silver paper and a blue ribbon.

“What’s this?” she asked looking up at him with her big blue eyes.

“It’s your birthday, my lady, it’s customary to receive gifts,” he smiles softly.

“You didn’t have to—“

“Just open it,” he chuckles interrupting her.

She sighs and unties the ribbon carefully before ripping into the paper to see the signature Tiffany and Co. blue box. She pulls off the lid and flips over the tissue paper to see a silvered bangle with intricate designs of small diamonds and rubies accented all around the band. Alouette gasped and looked up at Ashton because it was such a lavish gift.

“Ashton! This is really beautiful but completely unnecessary,” she shakes her head watching him as he takes it from the box and unlatches it.

“A Princess always need a signature jewel and what better one than your birthstone?” he hooks the bangle around her right wrist and clasps it shut. “It looks lovely on you.”

“I love it, thank you so much,” she beams.

“Happy Birthday, my lady,” he says sincerely and puts the box safely away in his jacket pocket.

The party went off without a hitch but towards the end of the night Ashton had to carry Alouette to the car because she had one too many shots and too many drinks. He tried getting her to walk to her room but she kept falling against him so he had no choice but to carry her again and make sure her maids helped her in the bathroom.

She was in bed for three days recuperating.

•••

Back to the present, Ashton is walking behind her back to the car and sees the same bracelet he bought her three years ago dangling on her wrist. It warms him whenever he sees it because she’s never taken it off.

The girls have an early night in and Ashton does another walk through of the grounds and checks all the security cameras. He very rarely sleeps, maybe 2-3 hours at most because he’s always on high alert. If anything were to happen to the Princess it would be catastrophic. 

He would go to the ends of the earth to make sure Alouette is safe.

[bitterxweetencounters]

2020 Vision

It’s currently 11:12 on the night of the 25th day of May, in the year 2020. As I am typing this, I have a cup of warm peppermint tea in my left hand. My room is quiet, aside from the buzz of Netflix Kdrama playing from the living room TV, and my parents making side remarks or laughing occasionally as they watch. My mind is peaceful, my bed is warm, and my room is the cleanest it has ever been in a while. 

Yes we are still on lockdown from the corona virus pandemic. It has been around 2 months now since it was first implemented, and to be honest it has been quite lonely. Life as we know it will never be the same way again. But on the other side of all the chaos, has been a gradual and unanticipated awakening. A mental clarity that I haven’t experienced before. 

I turned 25 earlier this year. Which is (if I’m lucky) around about 1/4 of my whole life. I’m single again - it’s been a good few years since the last time. Honestly, it’s been great. Being isolated from a romantic relationship and from people in general has helped me get in touch with myself and my self identity again. I have been taking small but consistent steps in taking care of and treating myself (such as buying a silk pillow case, buying new personalised PJ’s, buying a jade roller, buying a scented candle, exercising everyday, eating healthier, snacking less). I spend around 30-40 minutes everyday on my skincare routine and now include my neck and décolletage area. At the age of 25 you really start to notice your wrinkles more and the physical ways you’re starting to age. :c 

I drink peppermint tea almost every night now before going to bed to help curb my cravings and prevent late-night snacking. I am now also obsessed with taking walks around the neighbourhood. I made a weekly routine for me to follow and it has been working out really well. My Dad and I take turns in washing the dishes everyday so when my Mum comes home from work (my Dad and I work from home) the kitchen sink is spotless. 

The lockdown life, along with the minimal to zero disruptions to the day, has really allowed me to establish a routine. It has gotten to the point where I have become so accustomed to the rhythm of my life now, that I don’t know how to feel about going back to the way things were pre-COVID19. But anyway, the restrictions are slowly getting loosened bit by bit. Around 2 weeks ago, they have allowed 5 guests to be invited to houses. A few new covid cases have sprouted here and there but nothing too dramatic which is a relief. Hopefully we won’t have to deal with a major second wave. Today, a few of us went over to my parents’ grocer shop to celebrate a friend’s 21st birthday. It was really nice seeing familiar faces again, I went home tonight with my heart feeling full. 

There were nights, however, when I allowed myself to just feel. Crying over the things in my life that were causing or haven’t properly been grieved over (the recent break-up, my great grandma’s death years ago, everything and anything really). It was a relief to not have to worry about rocking up to work or church the next day with puffy, obvious eyes. I would explode in tears at the most random times. Like while I laid on my yoga mat after a workout listening to rain/piano sounds. I remember crying for the longest times. Until eventually the crying stopped, but the things I did to better myself did not - I became stronger each day not only physically, but mentally. That’s just how it works huh. Sometimes the sadness just needs to be felt and released to make way for better feelings. 

Although it makes me a bit anxious imagining life “resuming” to “normal” again (whatever that will mean), I am excited to be given another chance to live life with a clearer perspective and a sense of solidarity and trust in myself I hadn’t possessed before. Months of being forced to confront my insecurities and deal with all aspects of myself, especially those that have laid dormant or avoided, has led me to now be more confident in my own skin. 

Also did I mention I went to Japan earlier this year right before this whole corona thing blew up? LOL I’ll talk about it in my next post.

[seinafukufuku]

Toyonaga Aki - Ameblo | 28 Jan 2020 | Pom and Calico and Fox

Hello!！

It’s already been so long since I’ve made a post.

In the meantime, many different things have happened so, today I’ll make a new update!!!

In 2020, constantly, I want to write about things of no consequence as well...

And so and so, setting aside that aim, the 25th!!

I was able to appear in Homma Hinata-chan’s solo concert, “It’s here! Hinatafes”!!

The dream Janken Event unit “Pom and Calico and Fox” could finally!!!

Be on stage!!!

To those who do not know of it, I will provide an explanation,,,

🐶 The Pomeranian-like Homma Hinata,

🐱The Calico cat-like Toyonaga Aki,

🦊 The Fox-like Fukuoka Seina,

It’s a unit made up of these people!!

🐶🐱

At the place of her debut opening performance, the NGT48 Theatre, 🐱fell in love at first sight with 🐶 who was there on observation. Afterwards, through mutual staff, they exchanged video letters (scary), and at the 2016.12.24 handshake event, they had their first meeting. And so they hit it off. At the first Unit Janken Event, they formed “Pom and Calico”. The same age, with birthdays which were also close, spending their first day as 20 year olds together etc, it was a one and only unique connection.

🐶🦊

Their positions in the U-17 Senbatsu “Houteisokudo to Yuuetsukan” were parallel to each other so they became close. Also, it seems a long time ago, actually it was discovered, 🦊 had called out and taken a photo together in a toilet when they had a shared appearance on a music show. (Still, it seems 🐶 has no recollection of this.)

Afterwards, during the Fresh Members Concert, the 2 of them also performed “Avocado ja ne~ shi...” At 🦊’s 18 year birthday celebration, the two 🐶🐱sent letters to her. Even though she’s younger than those two by 1, she’s the number 1 senpai.

🐱🦊

🐱’s favourite author was Tsujimura Mizuki and she received news that it seemed someone in 48 was also a fan, so in 2017 she called out to 🦊 at the yukata festival. Afterwards, even though 🦊 invited her for the Janken Unit, because 🐶🐱 had already submitted their application, those plans were abandoned. A year later, the “Pom and Calico and Fox” unit that was their heart’s desire was formed.

In 2019, 🦊 coming to stay over at 🐱’s house etc, the new density(?)was higher than expected.

And so in that way, the 3 of us, each in our own way became close, so the unit could be complete!!!

Because our groups were all different, the 3 of us could not easily come together, but since our values, our tastes, we had many things in common, so for me, aren’t we the strongest unit?? Is what I think about constantly.

But,,,

We lost in the preliminary round of the Janken Event!!!!!

Because of that, without costumes as well, the 3 of us were unable to stand on stage!!!!

But, as I said earlier, there were plenty of episodes for us because we were all friendly with each other. That’s why, just by popularity, the rate of penetration among each fan is high!!!! (??) .............. right??

What should we do huh, we were always saying, but the timing and the location were always not readily available, and because there wasn’t a Janken unit event last year, what should we do, we thought, then Hinata said “Even though I want the three of us to sing at (my) solo concert” “I want to use this opportunity to spread the word about Pom and Calico and Fox” so we were able to perform!!!

We were allowed to perform No3b-san’s “Kuchibiru Furezu...”! It was Hinata’s decision.

Each of us danced so that we would match on the day itself, but more than nervousness my excitement won out!!!

It was re-ally fun!! I’m really so grateful to Hinata.

Until our turn, we watched from backstage.

Because it was cold, we were wrapped up in Seichan’s coat.

From the opening, the chaotic 20 song medley was accompanied by the staff’s commentary!! (Laughs)

Behind the stage, the staff(-san) were all, hurry, it’s time for the exchange~~!!! Do your best~~!! I’m bringing the water!! Calling out.

It was filled with so much love. And so all of that, is the result of Hinata earnestly facing her surroundings, is. What I feel. What did she do when she was in Tokyo? Was what I thought when I heard she just had rehearsals dancing as usual, how hard did she work to prepare, I only know a little bit so, really I like this kind of thing, yeah! (???)

Above all else, she was really attractive!

She was cute, she was sexy, taking into account every single thing, she was really attractive!!!

From Hinata’s family, I received Murakami tea!! The tea leaves I’ve received before as well, I still have them at home you knowww~~ 🥰🥰 I want to go one day!

The love from Hinata’s fans, the love from all of the fans, the love from the hometown, the love from the surroundings, because of all of you enveloping it, it was a wonderful concert!!!

Once again, thank you for calling me.

And so, thank you so much for your hard work!

In 2020, once again, please watch over Pom and Calico and Fox!!

Red and Blue ToyoFuku-san

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Thank you for reading this all the way through! I did my best to translate this, but I’m really just an amateur so I’m sure I didn’t get a lot of things right.. To be honest, I wanted to just translate the parts about PMK, but to properly support the trio,,, then I guess a bit more effort is ok..? To be honest, I think their goal of becoming a Sashi, Mayu, Yukirin trio is pretty impossible lol, but what is an idol if not someone who chases impossible dreams in an earnest manner right? 

Do your best Seichann~~

[ikonct95]

Happy Birthday!

A/N: It’s my birthday! :D

I decided to gift myself with this little one shot. I used a Korean name because I didn’t feel comfortable sharing my name lol. Also, I major in American English Linguistics only but everything else mentioned in this fic are facts. Another thing, I’ve never been to Namsan Tower and only mentioned things I’ve read in blogs and seen in that one NCT ep where the foreigners line went to Namsan.

I hope you enjoy! ^^

Also, please ignore any spelling or grammatical errors! 

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“Sorry! Pardon me! Excuse me!” Hanbin panted as he bypassed the sea of people while rushing towards the subway. He was on his way to Seoul National University to meet up with his best friend at exactly 1 pm. It’s 12:40 pm and it takes about 25 minutes to reach the street across the university.

“Damn it!” Hanbin cursed beneath his mask at the sight of the long line where people scanned their cards to access the metro. Checking his watch, he cursed when he realized he only has 20 minutes left and the bus leaves in 5 minutes. Inhaling deeply, the Korean idol pushed his way through, ignoring the curses and angry shouts of the people.

That all didn’t matter to him. Let them swear or curse at him. Today is a special day and he’d be damned if he missed it this year…again.

You see, Hanbin had met his best friend about four years ago at the Seoul National University library while he was reading through poems to find some inspiration to write the lyrics of iKON’s debut song. He went down isle after isle, hoping to find the right book when he suddenly bumped into someone who let out a loud squeak.

“I’m sorry! I didn’t see where I was go-” His words died on his lips as he watched the person in front of him stand up after picking up her books.

“It’s ok.” The woman said in accented Korean. “I was looking through the nombers.” She replied while holding up a piece of paper that had the number of the book required for class.

“Numbers.” Hanbin instantly closed his eyes. He didn’t mean to correct her mispronunciation but it just sliped.

Luckily, the woman took no offense and smiled up at him, “Right, numbers!”

Hanbin couldn’t help but return her smile while a sense of relief washed over him. “Do you study here?” He asked her and watched as her eyes lightened up as she answered his question.

And since that day, they’ve been best of friends. The woman’s name, Hanbin learned, was Eun Jung. Though, that was not her birth name since she was not Korean but an Arab. She explained that international students were encouraged to adapt Korean names to make things easier. Eun Jung explained that she didn’t mind the Korean name that much but she made sure when introducing her name, she would say both her Arabic and Korean names.

Hanbin also learned that she is currently studying Korean Linguistics with a minor in English Literature. She is also Muslim and that her birthday is on Feb 25th.

Eun Jung was a happy-go-lucky girl who tried as best as she could to be optimistic. She said her teen angst exhausted her and she wanted to move on from that lifestyle. Eun Jung also spoke two languages and can speak conversational Korean. The two couldn’t meet very much in public since Hanbin became so busy with his idol life but he made sure to meet up with Eun Jung at least twice a month to catch up. Eun Jung understood his lifestyle and never judged. She eventually became a fan of iKON despite already being a fan of several other groups. But what’s nice is that she never befriended him for his fame or money. She’s his friend because of he was and Hanbin is thankful for that.

Hanbin checked his phone again and inwardly cursed once he realized that he only had ten minutes to make it to the gates of the university where he had promised to meet her at.

You see, today was Eun Jung’s birthday and every year Hanbin missed it. It was either a recording on her day, a photoshoot or a performance that he absolutely could not miss. Thankfully, Eun Jung never seemed too upset with him missing out on her birthday even though he is her best friend. Still, Hanbin felt very guilty since Eun Jung always made sure to celebrate his birthday with him either on the day of or the day before or after. So this year, Hanbin wanted to make it up for Eun Jung by clearing out his schedule two weeks in advance. He made sure that he had the whole day free just for Eun Jung.

So, he called her up two days before her birthday and told her to wait for him at the gates once she is done with classes. Hanbin had a special day planned out and he was already screwing it up by being late.

“Right on time.” Eun Jung greeted loudly as she watched Hanbin jog up to her by the gates, “Only two minutes late.” She smiled at him. Over the years, Eun Jung’s Korean improved and now she has a native like fluency when speaking the language.

Hanbin’s reply was a big exhale of air, causing Eun Jung to chuckle at him. Her teeth as white as snow.

“Ready to go?” Hanbin asked while holding his arm out for her.

“Oh, my!” Eun Jung said in mock astonishment, “Such a gentleman.”

“Har har.” The Korean idol replied while his best friend linked her arm with his.

“So, where are we going?” Eun Jung asked after a moment of walking and catching up with Hanbin.

“A little birdie told me that you wanted to try this new Indian restaurant that opened uptown.” Hanbin said with a smirk.

“Donghyuk, that snitch!” Eun Jung said playfully with an adorable pout on her lips, “Are we really going there?” she then asked with hope in her voice.

Hanbin tried very hard not to coo at her cute antics. When it comes to Indian food, Eun Jung turned into the cutest thing ever and wished he could put her in his pocket.

“Yes, really.” He chuckled instead.

Fifteen minutes later and the two arrived at the restaurant. It was a cozy restaurant with beige, gold and red decorations. Although it opened recently, there weren’t a lot of people there. Which the both of you were thankful for because then you could eat comfortably without worrying about fans and paparazzi swarming Hanbin and bombarding him with questions about his relationship with you.

“This is nice.” Eun Jung breathed out while they’re being led to their table in the corner by the window.

“Just for you.” Hanbin said in sing-song voice, beaming at the tiny blush on Eun Jung’s cheeks.

The food was amazing. The whole time Eun Jung kept moaning and chewing loudly at the delicious food. She once told Hanbin that Indian food is similar to a lot of Arab foods and she grew up eating both so she’s thankful that there are Indian restaurants when she’s feeling homesick.

“Ahh, that hit the spot!” Eun Jung stated while patting on her tummy, chuckling down at it.

“I’m glad you enjoyed.” Hanbin felt so warm inside. It felt so long since he’d seen Eun Jung happy. She’s been feeling homesick lately and stressing out about school that her personality changed a bit. It was nice seeing her happy again.

“Alright, ready to go?” Hanbin asked after paying the bill.

“Go?” Eun Jung asked in confusion as she watched Hanbin stand up.

Hanbin nodded as he slid on his coat to protect himself from the cold February air, “There’s one more place to go to.”

“Oohh where are we going?” Eun Jung asked this as she put on her own coat and gloves, linking her arms with Hanbin as they excited the restaurant.

“It’s a surprise.”

Hanbin chuckled at Eun Jung’s slight whine, “You know I hate surprises!” She reminded him with a playful annoyance in her tone of voice.

“I know, but this will be worth it.”

They had to take the subway to their next destination and halfway through, Eun Jung quickly realized where they’re going and felt her stomach clenching, “We’re not really going there, are we?” Her voice was shaky and she began to sweat a bit.

“I know that you don’t like heights, Eun Jungie, but you always wanted to go there.” Hanbin replied as they entered the cable carts building and bought their tickets. Once he noticed Eun Jung turning pale, he wrapped his arms around her and rubbed her shoulders.

“I will be here with you all the way through. But if you don’t want to go, we can go somewhere else.” As he said this, Hanbin’s voice grew soft, his breath brushing her ear while he pressed her closer to his side.

“No,” She spoke up minutes later, “I want to go and this is the only chance.” She tried to give a confident smile but Hanbin could tell she was still scared.

“I’ll hold your hand, ok?”

Eun Jung nodded and grasped his hand tightly before entering the cable cart. Her heart began to beat quickly as the cable cart jerked into movement. Hanbin’s hand was clutched in a vice grim while his other arm rubbed up and down her shoulder. At first, Eun Jung didn’t look up from the ground, too scared to see how far up they were and imagine how they wires would snap and they would plummet to their deaths. But once she noticed that the cart was going in a steady pace and nothing happened so far, she risked a glance at the window and became breathless.

Seoul was covered in a blanket of snow and the view was magnificent. It was as if they were gliding through smooth ice cream rather than being in a small box traveling through the sky.

“Wow.” She breathed out, inching closer to the window.

“Yeah.” Hanbin agreed. Though, his eyes weren’t on the window.

When they reached the top, Eun Jung gradually calmed down and her energetic nature took over. She felt giddy and excited. She never had the opportunity to visit Namsan Tower due to her very busy schedule and she felt a bit jealous whenever her friends went there. That’s why she forced herself through her fears and made the journey.

The first thing they did was wear traditional Hanbooks. At first, Eun Jung didn’t want to be a Koreaboo but Hanbin assured her that she wasn’t being one and that she enjoy it like everyone else. After they got dressed, they went to various places: the K-Star Gallery, the LG 3D zone, the LED tunnel, the Hello Kitty Island, the Ssen Toy Museum and the Teddy Bear Museum. Eun Jung’s smile never once faltered and her eyes shone brighter than any star Hanbin has seen. And when they went through the historical areas, Eun Jung shared all of her knowledge on how the Korean language was formed, changed and evolved through the years. It was nice listening to her for hours. Once they were done, Hanbin suggested they changed back into their everyday attire and buy locks to hang outside with all the rest.

“Regroup in 15 minutes?” Hanbin suggested once they stepped into the store. And with Eun Jung’s nod, the two went on their way, looking for perfect lock. And 15 minutes later, they regrouped by the exist, each holding a plastic bag. “Did you write on yours?” Eun Jung asked her best friend. Hanbin nodded then asked her the same question. After that, they went outside and searched for the perfect spot to hang their perfect lock.

“Here’s one!” Eun Jung stated loudly several feet from Hanbin’s right. It was by the corner, on the second row. Satisfied with the location, Hanbin took out his lock. Simultaneously, they leaned forward and hooked the metal onto the bar before locking it shut. Stepping back, they both read each other’s locks.

Celebrating the world’s most lovable person on the planet. I love her so much and I’m thankful she’s in my life – Hanbin

I was blessed to celebrate my birthday with someone dear to my heart. I will always love and support him – Eun Jung

The two were blushing a bright red color once they’ve finished reading each other’s little notes. They glanced at each other with a shy smile playing on their lips.

“Ready to go home?” Hanbin asked quietly as the sun behind him lowered, the sky a mix of dark blue, purple and bits of orange.

“Yeah.” Eun Jung answered just as quietly. Her eyes darted downwards and shyly held Hanbin’s hand and made their way home.

It’s safe to say that this was the best birthday Eun Jung has ever had.

[theroguequeenaniki]

I like it I’m 25~ 😊 Today was my 25th birthday!! 🎉 My celebrations were “chill” this year, on my actual birthday, b/c we’re gonna celebrate when we’re in Corpus Christi this weekend(for a family vacation). So we didn’t go out to Buffet Palace like we usually do(we’re gonna go for Chinese in Corpus though, don’t worry lol), Gwen made a lasagna and we had Madeline brownies & sugar cookies that Gwen put sprinkles in! @right_in_the_crystal_feels made me a card featuring @redvelvet.smtown and they’re giving me a present on Friday (that I am SO curious about!!) Gwen and I also went to Target today and she bought me this @sally_hansen nail polish that is so nice, I’m not sure if you can tell in the picture, but it makes your nails shiny. Hehe. I also got my birthday @starbucks drink, I tried the Mango Dragonfruit Refresher(it’s good, but I like the Very Berry Hibiscus Refresher better), plus I got a free blueberry scone from @panerabread (birthday freebie). I have a few other birthday freebies to claim, but they don’t expire for a few weeks. Hehe. And I’ve been quoting IU’s Palette all day and have had Pretty Age 25 by Song Ji Eun (of Secret) stuck in my head all day. #birthday #itsmybirthday #25thbirthday #me #myface #im25 #ilikeitim25 #iu #redvelvet #friend #selca #selfie #starbucks #panerabread #scone #brownies #cookies #pillsbury #love #happy #music https://www.instagram.com/p/ByEjZoJnh9S/?igshid=1pu77ndpp82yx

[pastelpastryblog]

DEAN  scenario- What on earth did I do to deserve this?

Requested: Dean looks like the guy you see at the gas station at 3am after the club that you trynna fuck but you cant tell your friends cause they gonna judge you. Sooo many bad but good decisions. Someone should make a scenario out of that lol. via @icygrrlnat by @otheruponrother I really hope that you like this scenario. It was a bit hard to make but I hope it turned out good for you :)

Word count: 3,473

Genre: Angst,Mature, strong language, suggestive content

*Wednesday*

Its F/N birthday in 2 days but I really don’t want to go out clubbing with her and the other girls. The past 2 months has been very rough for me. Whether it is my personal life and my professional life, both was rough for me, but this week has honestly been the worst of it all. My high school bully, Yucky hyuky…. I mean Kwon Hyuk, has now been appointed as my new supervisor since June and he has been putting me through hell. He always tells me to do the team’s dirty work and he always takes his anger out on me when someone else in our team messes up. All the women at work find him attractive and they all flirt with him. If only they knew him personally. I also feel so depressed lately and Friday and Saturday are my only days off this week, so I want to spend my day in bed, and have my phone switched off because I also don’t want to go out with my co-workers Friday, because they are all going to watch Kwon hyuk perform at an event. I honestly don’t want to be reachable. Like honestly, what on earth did I do to deserve this type of treatment from him. Like, the only bad thing that I have ever done is have a crush on yucky hyuky when I was like what? 16? 17?

My friends never let me live down the fact that I had a crush on a school bully that looks like he bathes in mud. All my friends hate him because he used to bully them too, but not as severe as my bullying. He was known for being the first guy in our grade that lost his virginity, was always fighting the older boys of our school, known for sleeping around with the older girls from different schools and older women from universities. He was also popular for leading on the girls in our grade and giving them false hope. He even had an affair with one of his girlfriend’s mom. There even were rumours of him having an STI or an STD, and him getting a married university lecturer pregnant but those rumours could be fake. But in other words, he was a full-blown hoe, a dirty one. If you were associated with him, you automatically became a dirty hoe by association, so everyone that had morals, tried to stay away from him because he was trouble.

~2 days later, Friday~

It is F/N birthday today and they all pleaded me to come and celebrate F/N 25thbirthday. I really didn’t want to, but then I remembered that she always comes to my birthdays, even when I don’t do anything on my special day she manages to bring me a birthday cake and a present. So technically, I HAD to go out. We pre-drink as we get ready, and we have a pre-party before the turn up at the club. We all dolled up for our girl’s 25th. Everybody looked like they could be in movies, while I opted for a lowkey option, a black strapless pvc bodycon dress, off the shoulder denim jacket, and black barely there heels with a small black clutch bag. I even wore makeup for the first time in months, a light Smokey eye with dark plum lips and I even took my messy bun down and straightened my hair. Basic but cute.

~

It’s 1am right now but we have been in the club since 10pm. Some of the girls are drunk, and some are one more shot away from being completely drunk, like myself. I guess hanging with my girls is like therapy to me. I get to just let loose and have fun, I feel like I deserved this. I deserved to not think about my love life, debts, my bills and my demon supervisor. This club is too lit and so are the people that I am surrounded with, the birthday girl is getting all types of attention because she looks beautiful with her face full of glam makeup and her sparkly dress and her figure 8 body shape. Its so good to see everybody having fun and enjoying themselves. 30 minutes into sitting and sipping our drinks at our VIP booth that we had reserved for the bday girl, the DJ stops the music and announces that an upcoming R&B singer is about to hit the stage so me and my friends head off to the stage to see the show but for some reason I see my co-workers, so I try to hide from them, but they see me and I get approached by them.

“hey Y/N, what are you doing here? I thought you didn’t want to go out “

“Hi, um…. its my friend F/N birthday today so were celebrating here. Why are you guys here? I thought you guys were going to see Hyuk, I mean Mr Kwon perform somewhere. Did you guys not go?”

“LADIES AND GENTLEMEN, UPCOMING R&B SINGER, DEAN” says the DJ.

Oh boy…….

“yeah we ARE here to see Mr Kwon, DEAN is his stage name.”

“Ooh, he’s starting. Bye Y/N see you at work”

“We’ll tell him that you were here, say happy birthday to F/N for me. Bye!”

F U C K.

“Erm, wait. Is that fucking Yucky Hyuky on stage? Says friend #1

“WTF, isn’t that Hyuk? The dirty one from school? Hes trying to be a singer now? Wow” says friend #2

I honestly did not expect to see this beautiful demon slut here. I came out with my girls to have fun, to forget about all the shit that is troubling me. Not for me to hear his angelic voice.

Pause. Did I just call this man beautiful? Angelic voice? Pfft. As if!

Seeing Hyuk on stage was, well… different. He is very charismatic on stage and he looks and sounds like he knows what he’s doing, which is a great thing for him I guess. I don’t know why but seeing him on stage is kind of making me feel some type of way and I really don’t like it. 30 minutes into his performance, while me and my girls standing in front of the stage, I notice that Yucky Hyuky kept looking in my direction, but I kept brushing it off. Maybe he was looking for the other co-workers, maybe he’s trying to identify and remember my girls, maybe he’s thinking of more ways of ruining my work for me tomorrow. No way is he staring at me because he thinks I’m cute. It can’t be. But for some reason, this look was one that I have never seen before. It was a soft yet sexy look. I don’t know, maybe the drinks are hitting my brain right now.

So, at this point, me and the girls split up to do our own thing while still being on the dance floor. I was vibing to hyuk’s music with a drink in my hand, while also ignoring the long stares that he is giving me from across the stage. All of the sudden, I get bumped into. Somebody accidently spills a drink on my dress (thank God, it’s a pvc dress so no damages were made), I turn around and I notice that it is my ex-boyfriend, Juno. I froze, I didn’t know how to react, so he just pulled me by my hand and took me out. He takes me to the unisex bathroom starts wiping the drink that he spilt on my dress.

“I’m so sorry for spilling my drink on you, Y/N. You look beautiful by the way” he says as he looks me up and down while licking his lips.

“why are you doing this to me? And what do you want from me?”

“I’m just trying to get you clean Y/N, I spilt my drink on you. Did you expect me to leave you like that?”

“spilling a drink on me is nothing compared to what you put me through. “

“I just wanted to check up on you, to see how you’re doing”

“You broke my heart, you damn idiot. How do you think I’m fucking doing?”

“look, I’m sorry Y/N. I didn’t mean to hurt you. “

“Save it Juno. You used to cheat on me whenever I wasn’t around, especially when you went on tour. Then you cheated on me with your so called “best friend” Hyorin from college and got her pregnant. Whenever Hyorin did something bad, you would always stick up for her and put the blame on me instead. Whenever I would confront you about it, youy would always say that shes been your friend since day 1, so you had to do what you did. You never had my back. The reason why I am in debt is because of you. You made me feel horrible about myself by body shaming me, always lying to me and you were just verbally and mentally abusive to me. So, what do you mean by saying that you are sorry and that you didn’t mean to hurt me. You are not sorry, and you definitely meant to hurt me. You knew damn well what you were doing, Juno”

“Y/N, look, I’m so- “

“Oh, shut it Juno. You know damn well you don’t mean it. What? You’re Sorry? You didn’t mean to hurt me? Are you fucking kidding me right now? You’re only apologising because I look good tonight. You’re only apologising to me RIGHT NOW because you want to take me home and get in my pants. But guess what Juno? That can never be me. Not anymore. I am not falling for your bs again. You are the worst. Thank you for ruining my night Juno. Have a great life, bitch.” I started to walk off and then I turned around to him again and I say “Oh, I forgot something. Congratulation on your baby by the way, and tell your side bitch, oops, I mean tell your baby moms that I said hi”

I walk out of the bathroom and leave Juno in there, but I notice that Hyuk was standing outside the bathroom, but I don’t care. I don’t care if I’ve missed him performing his last 4 songs. I don’t care if he finished his performance. I don’t care if he heard us.  I don’t care if he thinks that I look stupid right now. In fact, since when did he ever think I was not stupid? I don’t care at all.  I need to get out of this club asap. I head back into the VIP booth and I grab my purse, go to the bar one last time and I get two glasses of henny and a shot of Vodka and I gulp it all down in one go. After that encounter with Juno, I really needed that.  After I finished my drink, I leave without finding my friends anything because I didn’t want my girls to fight Juno. Its F/N special day after all, no need for her day to get ruined by me.

~

I get out of the club and I walked to the nearest gas station so that I could wait for my uber there. I get a notification on my phone and the Uber driver says that he will get to me in 55 minutes. So out of nowhere, tears just start falling down my face. I was having such a good day today but out of nowhere, I see my co-workers from work, hyuk, my ex and now my uber basically cancels on me. How can my life be so messed up? What did I do to deserve this?  

Its been 20 mins and I’m still at the gas station crying. But this time I’m crying, curled up in a ball on the side curb and I took my heels off because they were hurting my feet. Out of nowhere, a car pulls up, but I had no energy to look up. Someone finally opens the car door and yells my name. still crying and still not looking at who the person is, I feel someone’s big, warm hands putting my hands away from my face and I notice that the person is Hyuk. He then goes inside the gas station store and comes out with a packet of tissue paper that he just purchased. He approaches me and doesn’t say anything. He just wipes away my tears with the tissue paper and out of nowhere he picks me up and puts me in the passenger seat of his car. We get in the car and he covered my legs with his jacket and places the packet of tissues that he bought for me on my lap. The car ride was not silent at all, because all I did was cry and sniffle. I cried so hard that I ended up falling asleep during the other half of the car ride.

I wake up when I feel Hyuk placing me on something and covers me with something warm and fluffy. I get up and I see that I am in a clean yet modern studio apartment.

“where am I?” I ask.

“you’re at my house, so don’t worry. But are you okay?” he asks me as he is taking pillows and comforters out of his wardrobe and placing them on his sofa.

“I’m a bit dizzy and I have a pounding headache. I feel a bit nauseous too, I think I’m going to vomit. Are you moving the bed?” I say as I sit up from his bed as I place my arms around my stomach.

“No matter how hard a situation is, you should never drink that much for you to be feeling the way you feel right now. How much did you even drink?”

“A lot”

“that’s very irresponsible of you, Y/N”

He quickly runs into his kitchen and gets me a bottle of cold water and some pills for me to take, while he got himself a Jack Daniels bottle.

“here, take it”

*giggles* “thanks” *giggles.

“Don’t ever drink like that again and wonder off yourself. what if a creepy man was to put you in his car instead? Do you know how dangerous that could have been?

“Wait. Since when did you ever care about my wellbeing, Mr Kwon? And why do you look so sexy tonight?”

“Since forever. Huh, wait what? Did you just call me sexy?”

“huh? What the fuck?” I chuckled as he looked at me.

“Look, when I was on stage performing, I was so shocked to see you in the crowd. I was not expecting to see you because you told all of us at work that you had other plans.”

“Great, this whole situation is going to get me in trouble on Monday isn’t it? I’m getting fired” I sigh.

“No Y/N, when I was performing I kept staring at you because you looked beautiful today. In fact you look beautiful every day and – “

“Look Yucky Hyuky, you still are the same, aren’t you? Are you saying all of this just to get my hopes up and laugh at me at the end? You used to do that to all the girls in our grade. I had a crush on you for like 2 years but thank goodness I didn’t confess to you or you would have embarrassed me in school”

“Y/N, did you just say that you used to like me?

“I used to but then I hated you but seeing you on stage kind of changed my hate for you. It kind of made me have a crush on you again”

“Y/N, I think its time for you to go to bed, you’re still drunk”

“No, I really mean it, Yucky. I was the ONLY girl that you never asked out as a joke or led me on. That made me feel really weird and top of that, you used to bully me for no reason!”

“the truth is that I have always had a crush on you. I have always had a crush on you, Y/N.Infact, I still do. I made you feel that way because I thought that you would never ever like me and you are just to good for me. You made me want to be a better person so that I could finally approach you, but I was unconfident and scared of being rejected by you and that is why I started to sleep around with a lot of girls, it was to get my mind off of you, but it never worked. You have always been on my mind. When you joined the company, I was really excited to see you and I wanted to show you an upgraded version of myself, but you didn’t like me from jump which is totally understandable for the way I have treated you in the past. My immaturity got in the way, and I messed up again. I am really sorry for making you feel worthless and miserable. This information may not fix what has happened between us, but I just really wanted to get this off of my chest. I really hope that you can forgive me.”

“Wow, I don’t know what to say”

After hearing all of this, I honestly know how to react. Like should I be happy? Should I cry? Be angry at him? Like what should I do?

So, I ended up getting out of the bed and walked past him on his sofa so that I could go into the kitchen and throw my water bottle in his recycling trash.

While you were in the kitchen recycling Hyuk’s bottle, Hyuk had just finished his bottle of Jack Daniels. After hearing your confession to him, he really wanted to get another bottle in the kitchen. You finally finish sorting out his other bottles, so you start walking back to the bed, Hyuk was walking towards the kitchen to get himself another bottle. Without looking were you are both walking, you both bump into each other pretty hard, so hard that you tripped, and he caught you in his arms.

While still being in this awkward position, Hyuk would not let go of me. He was looking into my eyes and he was giving me the same look that he was giving me at the club. I honestly don’t know what it is about that look, but it drove me crazy. So crazy that I got closer to his face and kissed him on his lips. His lips were very plump but also tasted bitter because of him drinking the Jack Daniels earlier on. He kissed me back and out of nowhere we were making out in the middle of his studio apartment.

You and Hyuk both started to get carried away while making out and before you knew it your hands started to wander on his body. You started to unbutton his silk shirt, while he was taking off your jacket, your hands caressing his chest while he unzips your dress. Both just left in your underwear, Hyuk pushes you on the bed while still making out and says “we don’t have to do this Y/N. I’ll fuck you if you let me”. You nodded in agreement to what he said to you and you proceeded to let him do what you wanted him to do to you.

~ 8 hours later~

“Morning, Y/N”

“morning Yucky-“

“Okay, can you quit calling me Yucky Hyuky now? All of those rumours of me having STD’s and STI’s are fake. Same goes to the one about me having multiple babies by older or any woman at all.”

“I am so sorry, I’m just so used to calling you that. I didn’t mean to hurt you by that”

“its fine Y/N. Look, I’ve been thinking. Do you want to go out on a date with me? I want to make you my girlfriend”

“Yeah sure, I would love to go out on a date with you. “

I ended up going on a few dates with Hyuk and me and him ended up becoming boyfriend and girlfriend after 2 months of dating. I was ashamed of telling my friends because they all hated him and because of all of the things that he has done but because he became my boyfriend, I can’t hide him. I ended up telling my friends about everything and for some reason, they reacted more positively but it took them a few months to fully approve of Hyuk. Mine and Hyuk’s relationship improved throughout the months and my friends were always supportive of me too. Honestly, what on earth did I do to deserve this?

The end.

[quaintrelle-on-the-loose]

A Weekend in My Life vol. 3: Spending the Long Weekend at Home!

It was a long weekend in celebration for the All Saint’s Day. Thus, I grabbed this opportunity to go home in the province and spent my long weekend with my family and friends. The commute trip to Pangasinan was so tiring and stressful but it was all worth it when I got home.

Day 1 | My Baby Brother, Yves

Every year, the family always sees to it that we go to the cemetery to visit the grave of our deceased loved ones and relatives. We (Mama, Papa, Jessa and I) first went to Malasiqui to pay some of our relatives a visit at our house there, and went to the cemetery there to visit my grandparents’ grave. We then went back home in Lingayen and the whole family on my mother’s side visited the grave of our Lolo, tita Jocelyn, and my younger brother, Yves.

This is one thing that majority of the people who “know” me doesn’t really know about me — that I had one more younger brother who passed away at the age of 4. Yves had a Down’s syndrome, a syndrome that’s caused by an extra chromosome 21 (thanks to my Bio prof, Sir Aris, who taught this in class on my first year in college lol). I was 6 and was on my first grade in elementary, when he suffered from measles, brought to the hospital, but then passed away due to complications. I was still young when all of those happened but it’s still clear in my memory how I was at home that time when I saw and heard Lola Ba bring the news to our relatives that day --- March 3rd of 2003. I saw how Lola Ba and Tita Ems cried while talking about what happened.

It was hard losing someone. I may have not felt the pain as much as my parents felt it way back, losing a jolly child who brought so much happiness and light in our lives, but I miss him. He loved dancing to music, Jollibee’s spaghetti, sweeping, and he loves Mama so much. He was a very sweet child. And I know that everything happened for a reason. He left us so soon but I know that it was part of God’s plan. The whole family and I know that Yves has served his purpose. He’s now our sweet angel and he will forever be in our hearts.

 Day 2: Long Over Due Jog with Rose

Rose and I have always planned to go on a jog since we were still in college. Every time I go home from Baguio for vacation, we always make a plan to go jogging but we already graduated and all and it never happened until today, November 2 (LOL). I invited her for a jog at Narciso this afternoon. Papa wanted to drop me off so I decided to fetch Rose at their house. When we were on our way, I also informed Clyde just in case he wanted to go and jog, too. He went there too but he just watched us the whole time. He also tricked us. He treated us with a lot of food after our run (so useless din yung itinakbo namin!!!).

Day 3: la vié est belle — the gifts of family and friends

Just like the old and usual bonding that we do in the family, we had a picnic at the beach this morning. After a very long time, I got to enjoy the beach again (for real!). 

Before the day ends, too, an unplanned meetup with the grade school friends happened. What we talked about was to meet and chill at Capitol beachfront but we ended up going to the town proper and ate at McDonalds instead just like the old times. It was a time well spent again with these friends. It’s always a blast (of laughter and mockery) with these people even after a long time of not talking and seeing each other.

Day 4: Blogging Time!

After spending some time with family and friends these past days, I allotted today for my blog. I have to catch up with my pending blog post entries and so I wrote and publish two volumes of my A Weekend in My Life series today.

 A Day in My Life vol. 1: The Girl Who Wears Her Heart on Her Sleeves (plus, Christmas is Here!)

(November 10)

It was a hard and an emotional week for me so chilling out today was what I really needed. I already took the day off from work yesterday because I wasn’t really feeling well and I wasn’t sure if I could still take another crap without snapping out. I needed to breathe and to take a pause (Read on a blog post I wrote entitled, “To The Girl Who Always Wears Her Heart on Her Sleeves” to know more). And that’s what I exactly did today.

Christmas is here!

The plan was to chill at Starbucks to do some journaling and blogging with Jessa and JM. We spent the rest of the afternoon at SB and the night chilling, eating, and listening to the live bands.

Greenfield District’s already ready for Christmas and the ambiance in the whole place made me so happy and relaxed today. Christmas is my favorite season and having to watch the fireworks display, and seeing the Christmas lights and the giant Christmas tree made me so giddy. It was a day well spent!

 A Weekend in My Life vol. 4: A Day at Divisoria (ft. My First MRT Experience Alone) and a Date with the Homies at Greenfield

Nov 17 | Divisoria Day and Riding the MRT by Myself

Today’s the day that Roel and I had set to go to Divisoria to canvass and buy some of the props and costumes that we will be needing for our New Hire’s Presentation. We agreed to meet at Magallanes MRT station so I didn’t have a choice but to ride the MRT alone to get there. It was the third time that I tried riding the MRT but it was the first time that I didn’t have anyone with me. There were a lot of funny and epic fail moments about today but thank goodness, we survived. It was a very tiring day!

Nov 18 | A Date with the Homies

After Jessa and I went to the mall to buy some stuff, we met with Ate Mae and Ynah, our cousins, at Greenfield. They went to Church and wanted to meet with us so we decided to chill at Greenfield. It wasn’t that long since they still had to go home to Cavite and it was starting to get late so we decided to part ways after an hour or so. It was a short date but it was great seeing these homies again.

A Day in My Life Vol. 2: Pizza Night and the Ayala Christmas Lights

(November 22)

Since it was ate Cami’s birthday last August 15th, her squad, surprised her today. I got invited to join them for a Pizza Night at S&R and have decided to see the Ayala lights afterwards too. It was nice watching the lights tonight.

A Weekend in My Life vol. 5: NHP Rehearsal and a Dream Come True

NHP Rehearsal

The group set a practice last November 24, Saturday, since there were only a few days left before the Year-end Party and we still had to polish our choreography and finalize the blockings. I never expected that I would enjoy this thing this much. I’ll miss this crazy bunch afterwards, that’s for sure.

“Teacher Jelyn”: A Dream Come True

This year’s really been about stepping out of my comfort zone. Today, November 25th, it is my first official day as “Teacher Jelyn” in the KIDS Ministry at Church. My heart is very full.

PS. Also tried ZARK’s Burger for the first time today and tasted their Three-pointer.  

The 2018 Year-End Party White Mayhem

Last November 29 was the company’s year-end party. The party was held at the Green Sun hotel. Aside from dressing up, dancing to the music, and having fun with the colleagues, for me, the highlight of the party was really the New Hires Presentation.

Months ago, I remember saying that I was not excited about this whole presentation thing. But guess what? After months of rehearsals and being with my groupmates (Team Queen), surprisingly, I enjoyed the entire process. I enjoyed performing and sharing the stage with these wonderful and amazing people that night. And it was an honor to share the second place-win with the team! Even if we didn’t bring home the title of being this year’s champions, we still feel like “we are the champions of the world.” We did our best, invested our time and efforts on this, had entertained the audience, and made new friendships and these for us are priceless. Team Bon Jovi really deserved the win too!

[obies-trauma-diary]

Dear Diary,

(December 22, 2019)

Today, my mom, my fiance and I went out for my birthday. We went to the movies and watched Cats. I honestly really liked it. I cried alot and really loved it so so much. I don't understand why so many people hated it. I guess they don't understand they're suppose to look more human, I mean?? It's based on the okay that's based on the book?? I grew up watching the play and ADORED it. People are so cruel for no reason...

Then we went to the mall and just walked around a bit looking around. We got Cinnamon buns as my birthday cake, lol. Mom bought me a pride flag from Spencer's.

This was a pretty decent birthday for once.

-Obie

Dear Diary,

(December 25,2019)

Today was Christmas. I call it Yule because I'm a witch and I don't follow the bullshit Christian beliefs. They stole Yule from pagans. Anyway. I celebrate Yule Dec 21-23 but I still call The 25th Yule and celebrate that way too.

For Christmas I only got one thing, art supplies. I don't mind much tho. I wish I'd gotten new clothes, cause I only have one pair of pants and a few shirts... Then we went over to my stepdad's parents' house for second Christmas. And there I got more art supplies, and socks. I kinda hate that family because they're always judging me and asking me invasive questions. And they are super homo/trans phobic....

-Obie

Dear Diary,

(December 28-30)

My fiance's mom and her boyfriend drive 5 hours to come visit us. They gave us presents and I gave them a painting I'd painted. They gave me a long pillow cat, a new mermaid backpack, a new Sketchbook, a journal, and candy.

The next day, they picked us up and we went to stay in a near by town about 2 hrs away. We went to the river and walked, and then to the hotel and Hibachi Express to eat. It was awesome. After that, it was night time, but my fiance and I stopped by a thrift store and got some vintage stuff and some books.

Then, we slept and the last day, we packed to go home and stopped on the way at an Asian store and I got Ramune and Pocky. Then, we went to a park called Flat Rock, and it was beautiful! I got some moss from there too that I'm growing.

(after thought) Though, when we got home, I had made sure I had everything in my bag. And I remember seeing my wallet. But now a month or so later, I still can't find it... oof...

-Obie

[lettersforcharlotte]

dear Charlotte,

it’s January 23 2020 when i’m writing this, so at the moment you’ve just had your 24th birthday, but i’m hoping you’re reading it around about your 25th birthday of 2021. 

if it is your birthday today, happy birthday!!! i hope that it’s filled with wonderful things. i wonder if you’re going out or doing anything to celebrate. 

for my last birthday i went to an animal rescue centre. i don’t go to zoos or aquariums any more. i went vegan about a year ago from when i am writing this and having done research i don’t think they’re good places to visit now ): it made me think of kelsey and how she worked at an aquarium but i think i’d change that now, i think instead she’d be a wonderful marine conservationist :) perhaps she’d work at a rescue centre for marine life. 

i can’t believe you’re 25? and that we were 12 and 13 when we started talking. time goes insanely fast. i wonder what you’re doing now, if you’re still doing your phd or something else (i’m confused about when it was you started) but i hope you’re enjoying it. 

i wish we’d have the tumblr queue feature back when we used to write letters to each other because i have a cONFESSION: i used to cheat and read ahead!!! i mean i wouldn’t just read every single letter at once but occasionally more than i was supposed to (what a rebel i was). it’s just that they were the highlight of my day and they were so nice to read it was hard to wait lol :)

i’m going to queue these letters so you can read one each day (if you want to). it’s okay if you don’t though, i like writing them anyway. you’re probably really busy and i hope you’re enjoying life because you’ve had more than your share of sadness and i want you to live an extraordinary life full of happiness. ✨

all i’m doing tonight is watching a series of unfortunate events on Netflix. i loved the books (remember how i used to call my poor teacher count olaf) and i don’t think the series can ever match up to them but it’s still really good and sunny (the baby who is insanely intelligent and can play poker??? i’ve still never played that but it looks fun) is adorable. i’m up to part 2 of the grim grotto and they’ve cut out my favourite character??? he was called captain widdershins and he loved to yell AYE!!!!!! at people for absolutely no reason idk why they wouldn’t include him ): they just said he went off to rescue a manatee and never came back??? i mean i’m all for rescuing manatees but i was so looking forward to seeing how they’d adapted him bc he reminded me of katarina a bit but with less fury and more submarine-captainy

anyway it’s really funny i wish we’d had Netflix party years ago so we could’ve watched it together and laughed at it

i’m going to stop rambling now but goodnight and if it is your birthday i really really hope it’s wonderful ✨

love from Libby xxx

[yotsutama]

Hello Sendai!

This is the translation of Visual Board Tour Event Story (not voiced). Special thanks to Edmund (@iamtheoceansgaywaves) for proofreading♡

Visual Board Tour Event: Sendai | Sapporo

Mitsuki: Today, we’re starting IDOLISH7’s new web program, named…

All: Kimi to ‘Ai'dolish Nai to~! (1)

Riku: This web program is presented by the popular idol group, IDOLISH7!

Yamato: “Popular idol group” but you said it by yourself?

Riku: It-It’s written on there! Yamato-san, you can see it there, right?

Yamato: Well~ Onii-san has bad eyes, you know… Even now, I can’t see Riku’s face clearly… (2)

Riku: You can’t even see my face!?

Mitsuki: No no! What’s the point of wearing glasses, then!? Riku, don’t let him fool you!

Tamaki: Rikkun, Yama-san often tell lies so be careful. Even this morning…

Iori: Yotsuba-san, we don’t have much time, so save unimportant topics like Nikaido-san’s lies for later. First is the explanation of today’s project.

Tamaki: Ooh~ Iorin is serious.

Yamato: Isn’t “unimportant” a bit cruel..?

Tamaki: This is what they call ‘karma’, Yama-san.

Mitsuki: Stop making that smug face, Tamaki! Let’s get to the point, the explanation of today’s project! Umm…Nagi, I leave it to you!

Nagi: OK, leave it to me! This program, “Kimi to ‘Ai'dolish Nai to!” is a talk show that is airing at same time as our new project, “VISUAL BOARD TOUR 2017”. VISUAL BOARD TOUR is a project where we, IDOLISH7, will tour and put our photos on billboards across the country!

Tamaki: Vijaru…?

Mitsuki: Nagi’s English is just too good! Tamaki couldn’t even keep up!

Sougo: It’s Visual Board Tour, Tamaki-kun.

Tamaki: I know already!

Riku: Tamaki, your English is great when you sing, though~!

Iori: So good that it can cause a misunderstanding.

Tamaki: Am I being praised?

Nagi: It’s true that Tamaki’s singing technique is magnificent.

Mitsuki: You teens over there! That’s cute but stop! You’re going off topic. Let’s move on to the next corner! “Confess Your Love In Dialect!” (3)

All: Ooh~!

Mitsuki: Sougo, explain the rules, please!

Sougo: Yes. Just as the title says, one member must do a confession using the dialect of the city we’re currently visiting. The confessions are our staffs’ acquaintances’s choices, so if the confessions are not actually used that often there, we’d be grateful if you could forgive us.

Mitsuki: Thanks, Sougo!

Riku: Iori is in charge of the Sendai area, right?

Iori: Please leave it to me.

Mitsuki: Okay, let’s have Iori’s confession challenge soon.

Iori: Yes.

Tamaki: Ah, there’s a new note from the staff.

Nagi: “Don’t just read it! Please say it to your fellow members so we can get the full emotions and atmosphere.”

Iori: Huh?

Yamato: Seriously? Ichi, try saying it to Onii-san here.

Nagi: I agree. Say it to Yamato, please.

Iori: Can you please stop continuing this without my consent!?

Mitsuki: Calm down! Looks like deciding who will receive Iori’s confession will take some time…

Sougo: Ah, another note  arrived. “There’s no time so please do it to your unit partner.”

Mitsuki: Staff-san, you’re just having fun, aren’t you!?

Tamaki: Iorin’s unit partner is Rikkun, right?

Riku: Me!? I’m going to receive Iori’s confession!?

Iori: I won’t do it!

Yamato: Seems like if you don’t do it now, we can’t move on. *smirk*

Iori: Nikaido-san, you can put that facial expression on now, but in Sapporo it will be your turn…

Yamato: I’m going to have some talk with the staffs before we arrive in Sapporo, so it’s alright.

Mitsuki: What the heck, Ossan! (4)

Iori: Uh, are we really doing this…?

Riku: I’m ready anytime!

Iori: Why are you having fun with this!?

Nagi: Iori, sometimes it’s better to just give up and do it.

Sougo: Iori-kun, do your best!

Tamaki: Iorin, fight~!

Iori: Uuh…

Mitsuki: Ok then, let’s get to the point, “Confess Your Love In Dialect! Iori version!” 3, 2, 1, action!

Iori: ……… I……

Riku: Iori, speak louder! Put the mic on!

Iori: ………….. I, I love you! (5)

All: Hyu~ hyuu~!

Mitsuki: Ioriii!! I love you tooo!!

Riku: Me tooo!!

Iori: Don’t tease me, please!

Tamaki: Iorin’s blushing (lol)

Nagi: Iori, if you blush when you say it, you won’t be able to stay cool! So be careful!

Iori: I already did it, so there’s nothing I can do anymore!

Mitsuki: Ahaha, Iori did wonderful as the first batter up! Let’s move to the next corner, “Talk About Your Memories in That City!” (3)

All: Ooh~!

Mitsuki: I leave it to you, Tamaki!

Tamaki: Ok. In this corner we, IDOLISH7, will talk about when we visited the city?

Mitsuki: Why did it turn into a question!? Don’t just say what’s written there! Yamato-san, do you have any?

Yamato: If we’re talkin about Sendai…it has to be THAT…right?

Mitsuki: That? What do you mean?

Yamato: “IDOLISH7 Rokuya Nagi’s one ho~t night in Sendai”

Tamaki & Riku: Ooh!

Tamaki: That was scandalous, huh? (6)

Riku: It really was!

Sougo: The two of you, don’t say such misleading things! Everyone, there’s a photo that caused some gossip about Nagi-kun spending the night with a girl. But the truth is…'the girl’ was actually Mitsuki-san! So don’t worry!

Mitsuki: Sougo, that “the girl was actually Mitsuki-san” sentence…don’t say it ever again.

Sougo: I-I am so sorry!

Yamato: Mitsu, don’t blame Sou~

Mitsuki: Damnit, don’t laugh at me! Ok moving on…Nagi, do you have any other topic?

Nagi: For me, it’s the one ho~t night I spent with Mitsuki…

All: Hyu~ hyuu~!

Mitsuki: Don’t “hyu~!” me! Leave that topic alone! We only went to a game center together, that’s all! Next, Riku!

Riku: The Nabe was delicious!

Tamaki: The Ikura was the best.

Iori: Sendai’s seafood isn’t really popular, so we didn’t know it was the new trend when we visited there.

Mitsuki: It was delicious~

Tamaki: I’m hungry now.

Mitsuki: Wait a moment! Oh…looks like it’s okay to read it now. Then Iori, I leave Sendai’s detailed announcements to you.

Iori: Yes. At the same time as this web program, IDOLISH7 will be touring seven cities for the “Visual Board Tour” which starts today, January 25th. There will be posters, CM, and merchandise will be available that is designed to be like Sendai’s image. Please looks forward to it.

Riku: Also, our photoshoots from Sendai will be uploaded on to Twitter, so look forward to that as well! Ah, right, Iori’s message will be on the billboard at Sendai Station, so don’t miss that either! Right, Iori?

Iori: Yes. They gave me a chance to write a message to the Sendai people, I’d be happy if you would look forward to it.

Mitsuki: Our picture’s theme on the billboard is Sendai’s famous Tanabata Festival. It would be great if Sendai’s people were pleased with it!

Sougo: I agree. With the Tanabata Festival as the theme, the picture looks nice and refreshing. I’m sure Sendai’s people will be happy with it. 

Riku: We made the ornaments together!

Tamaki: We did~

Nagi: For me, I’m thinking…”what if I accidentally steal all Sendai people’s hearts?”…that’s what I’m afraid of. *smirk*

Yamato: You won’t, so don’t worry.

Mitsuki: What a fast response (lol). Nagi, don’t be so sad! By the way, January 25th is Iori’s birthday, and 26th is MEZZO”’s new song release date, right? Lots of things to be celebrated~!

Riku: Right! Iori’s photobook is being released, too!

Yamato: Our collaboration with that famous department store also starts on 25th.

Sougo: That’s true. There really are a lot of nice things coming soon!

Mitsuki: I know, right? Sougo and Tamaki, this is a nice opportunity to do your new song’s announcement, too!

Sougo: Thank you very much. Then, Tamaki-kun…

Tamaki: Ok. MEZZO”’s new song “Tsukiakari Illuminate”, will be released on 1/25, so look forward to it.

Sougo: It’s a bittersweer love song that’s perfect for this season, we’d be happy if you would listen to it.

Nagi: As expected of two super good friends of MEZZO”. Their announcement was perfect.

Tamaki: Sou-chan asked me to practice together…

Mitsuki: The practice gave a nice result! Okay then everyone, lots of things have been announced! Please take care of us from now on! 3, 2, 1!

All: The next “Kimi to ‘Ai'dolish Nai to!” don’t miss it!!!!!

T/N

(1) “Kimi to ‘Ai'dolish Nai to!”… I leave it as it is.

(2) I know everyone already knew, Yamato calls himself ‘Onii-san’

(3) “Confess Your Love In Dialect!” and “Talk About Your Memories in That City!”. I know the titles sound like crap but the romaji Are like “Gotoji no hougen de Ai wo sakebanai to!” and “Gotoji de no Omoide wo Shaberanai to!”. They’re similar with “Kimi to ‘Ai'dolish Nai to!”

(4) Ossan means old man, yeah.

(5) Iori said “I love you” in Sendai dialect. The romaji is “Su, Suki daccha!” (so cute)

(6) Scandalous. The raw says “yabai” so I didn’t know how to translate it.. thx to Edmund!!

[convictmannequin]

Not sure where to start with this... my aunt passed away from cancer yesterday and today is also her Birthday. So HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my aunt Sonja aka my secret mom. I would jokingly say she's my secret mom because we would more than often share the same ideas and opinions. This is extremely tough for me. I'm okay one minute and the next completely heart broken and can't keep from crying. My aunt played a huge part in my young adult life. Guiding me with my business and giving the best advice on life. It became a tradition of mine to celebrate my birthday in ATL and also staying with my aunt Sonja. I celebrated my 21st birthday with both my Aunt Sonja and my aunt Pam. Then again bringing along my best friend to celebrate my 25th golden birthday. And not that long ago my 27th Birthday. Now on my birthday I'll always remember my aunt and the amazing memories I'll cherish forever. I remember the day my aunt found out she was diagnosed with cancer. I was meeting with a friend for a sip and paint event. I painted a lovely piece and was able to gift it to her when I came down to visit soon after. If you know my aunt, she's a neat freak and a minimalist. Hardly anything on her walls. She has no children so not many family photos hanging. But it was so lovely to see my painting hung on her wall in her guest room. lol I was like oh yeah I made that! And also the many outfits you had me designed for you on that vacation you took, you truly supported all of me, I'll never forget :( I'm happy you always enjoyed the flowered I would always send for special occasions, and how we both agreed that the bricks on the family house she be black to match the shutters. I am truly going to miss you! Love your favorite and first nephew! 😍😉 Todd

[wonderlandentertainmentllc]

Life & Sunshyne

It’s Memorial Day and I have been just sitting around the house today. Basically just a chill day. I realized I haven’t written an actual blog in a while. I know I usually post the verses. They keep me going on a daily basis. I’ve been pondering about a lot today. Pondering about the many conversations I’ve had with different people over the past several weeks, months even.

I still tell my “Faith doesn’t panic” story, testimony, whatever you want to call it. It still has the same effect on people. It always draws some sort of emotion out of people. A couple of weekends ago, I spent it with my dear friend Nikki. It was the beginning of her month long celebration for her birthday. (lol) We were going to see Aaron Lewis.

Anyway, to make a long story short, that Sunday when I was going to leave, she said something that has stuck with me. Shoot! The people in my life, always getting me good with the things they say to me!! She told me that weekend I had made her feel the most human she had ever felt in a very long time. You would have to know her and her story to know that her saying that was very meaningful to me. (I love you Nikki!)

I’ve made several new friends during these past few months. They’re pretty darn cool, amazing people. I have Nikki to thank for these friends. I swear, that girl knows a lot of people. She always picks on me telling me I know a lot of people. LOL!

Days like today, I needed a day like today. I needed  a day to rest and chill. WE ALL NEED DAYS LIKE THIS! Do not fool yourself. We all need mental health days, “me” days, whatever. Lemme tell ya, when I go, I freaking go! Nikki knows this because we work together. Nikki, Morgan, Cynthia, even Gracye has seen me in a go, go, go state.

The past month, this entire month, I have been in a go, go, go state of mind. Physically, mentally, emotionally, all of it. It was nothing but on full throttle. It was nothing but work, senior end-of-year activities for Gracye or me and Gracye. On May 25th, it all came to a screeching halt for me. Well, except for the emotional aspect of it. 

You see, my Gracye graduated from high school on May 25th. I’m not going to go into everything that she got here. I’ve already splashed it all over social media. I’m one really proud mama, give me a break! LOL  Seriously, I am super proud of her and her accomplishments. I know that kid of mine is going to do something spectacular with her life.

But now, Summertime is here. Brody is out of school. Gracye will have one summer class (Trigonometry), good look kid! And she’s probably going to be working full time at her job. Life goes by so fast. I suppose that’s what I’m getting at. Brody will be a freshman in high school come August and Gracye is a freshman in college.

Gosh, it’s like a kick in the gut to even say that! Wow!! 

After getting Covid and almost dying, I think it made me realize, after everything that I’ve been through in this life, and trust me I’ve made tons of mistakes in my lifetime and been through some doozies, it made me realize that sometimes we just need to stop. We need to stop and enjoy each other. We need to enjoy our surroundings. We need to spread love. We need to appreciate. We need to forgive ourselves for our mistakes. We need to enjoy life. Be yourself and the right people will still love you. We need to especially enjoy the sunshine....