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life-of-eris · 1 year

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I just did some quick math and the motherfuckers I work for pay me literally exactly enough so that I don't qualify for medicaid. Bastards.

#life of eris #work update #real asshole behavior honestly #considering the manager #not the owner the manager #told us unprompted that he was going to make a payment of nearly 100k on something is january #this bitch has 100k to drop as an expected expense and he isnt worried about it #meanwhile the girl who trained me was deciding between groceries and carpooling or gas and only eating at work this month #i hate it here #i processed literally a dozen orders that cost more than my daily pay #that doesnt count all the others that were almost there #all the sit-in customers #the delivery app orders #we bring in enough to pay all the workers decent money #but gods fucking forbid the owners have to live in a slightly less fancy house #fuck #like this pay level seems specifically designed to keep us struggling #cant afford healthcare don't qualify for assistance cant pay a mortgage and rent requires housemates #they take 5 dollars for food even if we dont eat it and the owners wife wont let us take it home if she catches us #i need this job so i cant say shit about it #and i cant burn the bridge when i leave because its a very well-liled place and if they tell my next employer i have an attitude #it could seriously jeopardize my chances of getting hired somewhere else #evil fucking behavior frankly

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milf-harrington · 1 year

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where im at mentally these days: my mum hugged me and said im doing a good job and i burst into tears <3

#i mean it was a little more fleshed out than that #i asked for a hug and she asked if i was okay and i didnt say anything so she said something about me feeling like #untethered. just kind of floating through life. and i said yeah. and she told me im doing a good job like. getting through the day basically #and i cried about it because i dont even know why its so hard #and i feel so shitty all the time because i just feel like a shit person like i dont try hard enough with my nephew #and hes so little and so smart and im so awful and every day im worried hes going to stop liking me bc im still learning how to be. gentle.#because i grew up with yelling and a locked pantry and an older sister who had to raise me #so i dont know how to not yell and not escape into my own world when i cant be bothered #and i have really good days and really terrible days and hes not a Job hes my nephew and i want to treat him like my nephew #and it feels so selfish to say im tired and that its hard and stressful and i dont know what im doing #bc my sister has to do it too and she doesnt get breaks like i do #she doesnt get to just decide to leave for the night - and i mean i dont do that but i have the option #and everyone keeps. like. telling me im doing good and im helpful and my sister especially tells me often shes grateful for me #and it makes me feel Awful bc i feel like i dont do enough and that the stuff i DO isnt good enough and just argh #anyway #vent over i need to go to bed its 1am and i have to get up in 5 hours #captain speaks

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botseeksbot · 9 months

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#we are so fucking back . we are so fucking back ive missed drawing brock bio parent shit #was gonna post this w other art im working on but i need the tags to talk about other stuff <- guy who uses his art to just write essays #everyday though i think that hes only 21 when the boys are born .#smth smth . why does rusty keep boys bio [parent] a secret . i do think realistically it would have repercussions for an osi agent do like #get their client pregnant ? LOL #''wouldnt it be obvious theyre brocks'' <- yes but osi knows hes transgender . they dont need to know what transexual sciences rusty did #i think like hunter would have ideas but wouldnt ask but if brock ever told her she would be so fucking mad . and send him to another job #all this to say . there are subtle differences to brock when hes younger (except the college ep LOL but thats s1) and i think he should be #freaking the fuck out during early relationship/family stuff . but mostly internally . but sometimes he cant keep it internal #my art

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killjoy-prince · 5 months

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Vendors at my job love me so much there's fighting amongst them in one company over who gets to deliver to my store that week

#prince's talk tag #my secret is i dont wanna deal with people any longer than i have to so i get them in and out as quickly as i can #and the vendors and drivers love that bc they got other places to be #the vendor that told me this said the other receivers will take their time and dilly dally too much leaving a line of trucks outside #but im usually on top of that #there are days where i cant help it but i go as fast as i can bc i really dont want to deal with people #and i can avoid that by taking them in check in their product sign the receipts and get them outta there #vendor also said at least with his company the dispatcher will be like 'here this store needs a delivery done'#and the vendors will go 'no im not doing that store' which will make the dispatcher go to one & say 'well its your route so you gotta do it'#and it was like that for my store before I took over #now the dispatcher will be like 'hey Prince's store needs a delivery' and the vendors are actually fighting like #'ill do it' 'no imma do it!' 'no me!'#ngl it made me happy. i didnt think i was that well liked #like some drivers have showed their appreciation to me about my speed and ability to handle the job but to have people fight over me? wow #and this was like an hour after a manager complimented how i run shit around here bc i know what im doing #and when im not here it all falls apart #which does suck bc i wish the mess wasnt left to me to clean up if im not here #but i am training someone rn who will cover for me when im not around so hopefully that helps a little

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orbmanson7 · 9 months

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Very bad grade in therapy today

#thought i could make progress this year and yet here i am having done jack shit by now #what has even been the point #i just wanted to do something today that didnt feel awful like try to encourage people to watch a show or play a game #and now im just right back to Why do i bother staying alive? im never going to make any progress #and even if i do I'm going to just be worthless the whole time and waste precious resources others could be using #oh yes just try saying a nice thing to yourself for once! yeah sure that will help when i cant do anything worth a damn #i want to help people but i have no skillsets and no money to further my education and teaching myself gets me right where i already am!#continuing like this is like spitting in the face of anyone who is actually out there pursuing their dreams and thats not fair to them #they put in all that hard work and im over here being a whiny ass bitch bc i want so badly to do better and learn more #but the only thing holding me back is that im a dumbass who cant do anything right and no one will ever think differently #why am i trying to make myself something i can never be? what is goddamn point if its just a waste of everyones time and effort #i just... it feels like the least i can do is just stop taking up space #free up some oxygen for someone who really needs it and shelter for someone who truly deserves it #i shouldnt even have these things and yet i complain about how much gas i have to pay to commute to my jobs #like such an asshole #and i said i so much in these tags bc im such a selfish jerk who coearly doesnt care enough nor has a worthwhile vocabulary to say otherwise #theres just no fucking point to any of this #...#its cold today #might be a good day to do my favorite plan #actually yeah fuck it im gonna go #hope you all stay kind to yourselves and enjoy your 2024 #you absolutely deserve it and everything you can get out of it #keep being amazing yall #see you on the flip side or whatever #orbs thought bubbles

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kiras-monkey-bum-face · 9 months

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being a TA helping the class gain confidence, learn from their mistakes, build bonds and help educational progress:

being a TA that has no choice in having to do whatever the fuck an off timetable child wants to do, who's guardian said "good luck" as soon as they drop them off in a violent mood

#i have too much shit to do i need to start charging babysitting rates #i know im being so damn harsh but my god PLEASE i hate going into work knowing i have to just let them do what they want #i have mental issues. i dont get free passes to do what i want.#'oh but youre an adult' trust me weve had enough training about windows of tolerance and its reiterated people under 25 can be pushed #the same way was a 10 year old. i have worked with this kid for over a year and no matter what we do fuck all works #even the therapists my work has say the child manipulates everything in their favour #there are other sen kids in my class that desperately need support but i cannot be there because you wants to play chess and bake cookies #anyway if you cant tell im reconsidering my job #stop talking helena

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jvzebel-x · 9 months

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#just binged through buddy daddies (i love that name. literally could not have picked a better name.)#&it made me cry lmao sometimes it hits me that ill never have kids&its like.#i told my mom once that i shouldnt have kids bc the world didnt need another me in it #&she screamed at me for an hour then didnt talk to me for a day bc it was insulting to her as my mother to say that.#&i look back on that basically every time i think about never having kids&its like.#the universe agreed w me mom lmao i guess you did a shit job raising me after all.#im being so dramatic.#im v sad that ill never have a child-- adopted or not. lmao.#i hate the dark. i hate the fucking cold lmao. im so ready for the world to be sunny again.#... buddy daddies was a dope show tho lmao highly recommended for sappy found family vibes. protect rei at all costs.#... this ultra sporadic thought process shit is why i cant hold a fuckin convo lmao.

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inkats · 9 months

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in preschool i stopped playing with other kids because the adults kept saying shit and i thought it just wasnt worth it. and im realizing i mightve kept those beliefs until now.

#no amount of socializing is worth some 3 decades overgrown fuck child being a bitch to me about. sorry.#also really wild seeing all this blame the kids its ok that teachers arent doing their job shit.#i will not say my controversial views on teachers + the education system here. but god. ugh. i hate. grown ups. so much. i think they shoul #all. i think lost should happen in real life.#but also man. other people. who needs them. theyre just like us.#^my mom thinks my only friend should be the rab #fuck punjabi really does not translate into latin letters. but i cant read or write punjabi oTL. yknow #god. god should be my only friend. she genuinely thinks this. like when she thought i was fr possessed cuz i didnt want to go to the gudwar #(i was actually. surprise surprise. pretty tired and self isolating (no friends. havent made any since) and her. well. what she did didnt #help. at all.)#i understand that religious people can be. nice. apparently. according to religious people. however in my experience they want me dead.

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seilon · 1 year

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kinda hate that my go-to non-merch clothing store choices are vans and hollister like we GET it im fucking californian

#their shit is surprisingly good quality and they often have good sales what can I say #but yeah also it’s a style thing. if I’m not dressing like a scene kid im dressed like a california santa cruz ass sk8r boy or surfer boy #i just ordered a few new things from hollister and im looking forward 2 it because the ripped jeans I got last year from there are like.#the best jeans I’ve owned since outwardly transitioning #which. I guess doesn’t say much on the surface cause I’ve only had like. three pairs of jeans in that time. but LOOK it IS significant #because finding jeans that fit right as a trans guy- even one who’s almost 2 years on t- can be a Struggle.#that + my weight = it’s difficult to find places that carry men’s pants in my size a lot of the time (26w x 30l)#sometimes a 28w fits depending on the place but. yeah it’s usually closer to 26. I have a tiny waist and decently longish legs #not complaining I like that about myself generally and I’m definitely thankful I’m somewhat close to average male height (only 2 inches #under the average in the us- im 5’7) but still #in other news I still need a new binder (preferably two really) but now I’m worried I spent too much money on the pants and stuff #I need a fucking job. so. bad #at least I have excuses for the hollister order- really good sale + I needed new pants and a business casualish shirt for job/job interview #related stuff. I cant keep wearing my fucking funeral clothes to job interviews and the pants I was using fit Bad #kibumblabs #no one needed to know all this I am just rambling in my diary that is tumblr dot com don’t mind me

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halo-eater · 11 months

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#the thing about me is that I'm a lot more mentally ill than most mentally ill people #and I'm not trying to do some weird suffering one-up shit #i literally receive disability and i havent been out of inpatient psych for more have two years at a time since middle school #and like. it's so fucking lonely. i know that even among mentally ill people I'm weird and severe and people Don't Get It #my brain is on the edge of a meltdown at any moment and i cant hold a job and i need hours and hours a day to just stare at the wall #and I'm literally properly medicated and post recovery. it was so much worse before. it's Not Getting Better Than This for me.#bleh #idk what I'm saying i just feel really isolated even in spaces full of people who share diagnoses with me #and it sucks

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marsixm · 1 year

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tried out being more assertive at work today and just bluntly stating things and i def was helped a bit getting things done by my dept head being there all night but! i think it went good! i def feel a lot better about my ability to do my fucking job and run a tighter ship.

#only time it fucked me was when i asked the new manager to make 1 small change #bc that man treats every conversation thats even .1% conflict like an argument #and then he apparently turned around and told my direct boss about it and said i was the one confused and things needed to be cleared up #motherfucker nothing needed to be cleared up you just have to listen to me #like this dude had come into my department and tried to do my job #then when i have a single issue he goes right to my superior #like zero respect for me at all its actually insane #but im done w trying to reassurance seek. talking to my dept head about it was enough. i know whats up #im trying to make peace w the fact that i cant fix this shit and dont need to worry abt it outside work tho #i was briefly also mad at my work bestie/work wife bc he said i didnt care about a specific task getting done #and i thought he was talking shit but its bc he was ALSO saying he didnt care abt it either LMFAOOO #i did briefly get so angry i couldnt eat #anyway things were not good but in a different dimension they were good #they were good in terms of my personal growth lol

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hellfireeddiemunson · 2 years

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beating my mother to a pulp in my mind

#i’m so sick and tired of her shit #stop asking for money by saying it’s barrowing and then not ever paying me back #or stop paying me back just to ask for it back the same or next day ????#also stop lying about what it’s for and get a better fucking job that pays you on time and the amount they owe you stupid bitch #god i cant fucking stand her i want to punch her repeatedly so bad fuckfuckfuckfuck #i literally want to fucking scream until my throat bleeds lmao #also maybe if she spent money on what she needs instead of c**** maybe she’d have less of a problem with having no money #like bitch i have bills too and mine are higher than yours. get your fucking shit together i hate you

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sick-as-a-dog · 1 year

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#guess whos sis might be pissed off at them despite me begging for help and explaining that im struggling and in pain #nobody gives a shit about me and my needs do they i never ficmong asked for his bullshit it wasnt supposed to he like this #stepsis promised she wouldnt flake but that stupid fuckong asshole hasnt responded to any messages im so done #she hasnt payed me for taking care of her cat AT ALL even tho ive been holding her for longer than was agreed on #it was supposed to be a simple job only take care of them until they were weaned and rehomed #she was supposed to get her cat aleady she keeps saying she has homes for them and changing her mind why the fuck is she doing this shit #plus the damn cat chewed my headphones in half so she owes me a new pair but i fuckong know she wont pay that back #tempted to rehome her cat since she ONLY asks for kitten pics and doesnt contact me for anything else not even to check in on her cat #im so fucking tired and done with everything especially since its gotten so much worse since the toe infection #i tried and tried and tried and tried and tried and tried and tried and tried and tried and tried and tried and tried and tried and failed #and now moving at all is pure suffering so i definitely cant keep up cleaning after her asshole cat who apparently likes to shit everywhere #im tempted to hunt that stupid bitch down and force her to clean up every mess her fuckong cat made im so fuckong done with everything #doenst help i barly have any ebergy eber since he doent wanna be maets anynore xant even eat or sleep mucj cnat even love rogjy #so tired so pain juat eanna die i cant keep this shit up nothing is worth living for anymore tbh and now my sis is gonna make me feel worse #im going to lose my own cats befause of that atupid shitstain of a stepsister and uer cat im going to fuinkig vomit and kill so dnoe

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keydav · 2 years

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Sometimes I see the most garbage, zero-nuance, strict label definitions, queer takes and I usually go to their profile on whatever app I'm on to block them, cause I don't need to be able to come across that shit, and so often they have their age in their profile and they are a ~literal teenager~ or at the max maybe 20 years old and my response is always "oh, it's because you are a child, just a little baby child" (and still block them, cause whatever the reason I don't need those takes in my life) and sometimes I feel kinda bad about that cause I know when I was that age I hated being called a child or older people treating me like I didn't understand the way the world worked cause I was younger but, honestly, 1) I didn't understand the way the world worked and 2) if they didn't want me to treat them like a child, they shouldn't have childish opinions, like grow up and learn that the world isn't black and white and there's a lot more nuance to life than you apparently think

#personal shit #lgbtqia+#'ew trans men cant be lesbians'#'uhhh just cause you're a lesbian doesnt mean youre not fetishizing your girlfriend when you think about how attracted to her you are'#GROW UP AND READ A BOOK #or just reckon with the fact that the world doesnt adhere to these miniscule labels #this is a big reason why the older i get the less i use bi or pan to describe myself and just opt in for queer #im also mad cause im only 28 im not a queer elder by any stretch but these fuckin kids are making me feel like it!#and just to be clear i dont say this to them #like im not about to harass a young person on the internet or anyone for that matter #and i recognize that they just need to learn #but this is why i block and move on #cause its not my job to educate them thats not what i want my internet time to be spent on #and i dont want to have to see those takes all the time #so instead i scream into the tumblr void or talk about it with my queer friends #*edited: fixed tags #hopefully at least lol

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bitegore · 2 years

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very important question. what various decepticon teams could use one (1) frontliner speedster

eta: i need at minimum four of them for this to work lmfao

#may or may not have evil plans for drag strip today #i just cant figure out which team leaders would have plausible uses for him #im sure almost any decepticon team lead could be like 'well everyone says your boss rapes you. i wanna see what all the fuss is about'#'hey actually hang on a second this is kind of fun. you did a good job'#and then accidentally gives drag strip like. just enough positive feedback that when he gets put back on his regular team #and back with motormaster who is like 'hes so egotistical. never say anything nice to him ever or he'll be even more insufferable'#hes just like shit. i need to go back to this other team. i liked them better. hello mr ex boss pweasies fuck me im miserable now'#and then the entire team can be like 'wait a second. what the fuck did you do to OUR fucktoy. we treat him better hes ours now. asshole"#extremely important to the genesis of this idea is that under no circumstances did drag strip want to have sex with any of them at first #but he's so absolutely twisted out of shape by motormaster's whole nonsense that hes just like 'oh ok so THIS rape was BETTER than that one #and i liked it more. so now that i feel genuinely miserable as opposed to like confused and only half miserable i think i need them again'#his life fucking sucks #red rambles #lemon #literally just for the tags

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orcelito · 2 years

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From a scale of 1 to "ritzy orphanage", what level of bullshit have you read today?

#speculation nation #saw in main tag an akechi take that was So fucking foul lmao #someone mad about how fandom largely likes to make goro and futaba friends bc they dont think she should have to forgive him #which like. fair. i can understand being put off by that.#but THEN. they start going off on how we dont see akechi's childhood so all we know it wasnt that bad #vs futaba's that we Did see how bad it was #& how ppl largely make it a thing with her forgiving him due to sympathy & his trauma getting more attention than hers #which i would agree with if it were just a matter of ppl belittling futaba's trauma in comparison to akechi's #but you DONT. HAVE TO SAY. HIS WASNT TRAUMATIC FOR THAT TO BE TRUE.#his mom literally KILLED HERSELF bc of shido. goro's anger at him is far more than 'daddy didnt pay enough attention to me 😢😢😢'#(direct quote there. them belittling his anger down to daddy issues. ugh.)#but the RICHEST thing is them saying that for all we know shido paid for akechi to live at a 'ritzy orphanage' like WHAT????#say you know nothing about the japanese alternative child care system without saying you know nothing about it #listen ive been researching this shit a lot lately. japan has one of the Worst child care systems in the world.#11% foster home rate. majority of children shunted into institutions that are overcrowded and underfunded.#and get the word i used. institution. not orphanage. everything ive read about it calls these places institutions.#they literally institutionalize children. and that in and of itself is a trauma. not having adults you can learn to actually depend on #bc that is their Job. they cycle out. majority of them do care but they just cant give the child the attention they need #and fucking. 'ritzy orphanage' literally WHAT??? in what fucking world would RITZY ORPHANAGE be something that exists???#paradoxical phrase. if a child has a parent to pay for them theyre not going to live in a fucking orphanage. what the Hell are you on #there was more to it but i honestly stopped reading i was so angry.#you dont need to belittle his trauma to say that futaba's matters. what the fuck.#and YES his revenge plot against shido is childish and poorly thought out. but thats bc he made this when he was Literally a child.#it's not just him throwing his life away on a whim bc of 'daddy issues'. what the Fuck.#anyways this person made me so mad i blocked them #for someone who claimed to love akechi u made the WORST fucking take ive seen on him in a while #absolutely fuming. 'ritzy orphanage.' thats some real bullshit #suicide ment/#also THIS ISNT EVEN TOUCHING on the problems within the institutions #ive run out of tags so i cant go into it. im just so fuckin pissed off lmao

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