#i really feel like i'm forgetting something but yeah hahah

[itsallaboutzayn]

About Louis' concert last night ❤

okay so i'm gonna try to put into words what i'm feeling about the concert.

First of all i just wanna point out that i went with the lovely @deludedandlostcause and i couldn't ask for better company 🥰 she just gets what it's like being old and not having much patiente hahah especially for people in general and young girls with too much energy 😂😂

And now Louis... God. Saying the show was perfect is not enough. it was more than perfect!!

The 1st opening band (The Academics) were 4 cute little ireland crazy boys hahah loved them!! very catchy songs too! 🥰 2nd opening band (The Lathums) were cool too. not really my style but they managed to be entertaining hahah

And then HE came. And he absolutely KILLED it!! 🔥🔥 The atmosphere of the whole show, him, his voice, his accent (tho he didn't talk that much 😒😅). Everything was on point. The lights in "she is beauty we are world class" 🌈🥰. HE SANG PARADISE!!!! One of my fave songs ever (even if it's not on the album or anywhere 🤦🏽‍♀️). Out of my system is one of the best songs live! There, i said it. Chicago and Holding on to heartache are just so beautifully beautiful live 😭. The whole vibe of the show is perfect. He truly KILLED it!! 🔥👏🏽

What a night. i'm pretty sure i'm forgetting to talk about something but well. it's pretty much this i guess 😅

The point is that i absolutely loved it and i can't wait for the next tour 😅 I am SO SO proud of him. To see where he is now and to be able to watch him grow into the man he is now and the songs he's making 👏🏽 I feel like a proud mom ❤ I love him so very much ❤❤

PS: it's no coincidence that i get to watch his 1st solo concert here in Portugal while i'm 28yo. just saying, just saying 🤷‍♀️ it was meant to be 😅❤

[mwalani]

Charlie, Angel Dust, Adam and Emily X Reader - (Charlie, Angel Dust - part 1)

︴Notes - Hello! Again, not a request but I'm having a boost of ideas HAHAHS anyways yeah uh this is more of a self insert because the reader is basically me but uhm yeahhh I hope anyone can read it 🙏

︴Content - Charlie, Angel Dust, Adam and Emily headcannons with a reader who has insomnia but likes to sleep during the day, dislikes studying, forget things often, is distracted easily, is shy but gets talkative once comfortable around them, gets easily angry, is an ambivert and likes to do art.

Charlie would be worried about your health, especially since you don't sleep a lot at night.

One thing she noticed is that when you're awake during the night, you go and find something to do.

Most of the time you're drawing, writing or just playing games while listening to music.

Charlie understands that you have difficulty in falling asleep and all but she'd still insist on trying to help you.

You agreed even if you knew it wouldn't change a lot without proper medicine for it.

Charlie also saw that you usually didn't slept at night no matter what happened, but ended up sleeping during the day.

That made you not interact with a lot of them too often because they're usually sleeping when you're awake.

But there's always someone who woke up or didn't sleep yet to talk to you.

Sometimes you liked it, sometimes you didn't. Depended 100% on your mood.

One thing Charlie is a bit confused is when you told her that you didn't like studying.

That's not a problem, the thing is that you spend a lot of time on random things and then say you hate to study 😭

She understands you though, I feel like math isn't something Charlie really likes.

But she loves history, and it seems that you like it too!

Charlie never touched a video game before, but for you she'd try to learn just to make you company.

Also, she tries to only call you for hotel activities that doesn't require a lot of effort to do, because she knows you don't like it a lot.

Something that she can't help with, is how you get distracted easily and have a poor memory.

Charlie can't help because she's literally the same!

So you two end up forgetting a lot of things. But hey it's fine! It's not like someone remembered it to be mad!

Charlie was really happy when you finally got comfortable around her because she noticed you were really shy.

Which made her try to get you to participate on more activities with the other residents, but once she saw how uncomfortable you looked she gave up on that idea.

Though she's trying to make you be less shy! Even if it's with little progress.

Charlie sometimes get taken back by your coldness because you're usually chill and happy around her.

But when she asked you about it, she learned that you randomly get grumpy and tired of everything and that makes you get a bit sassy towards others...

That makes you feel guilty and she tells you it's totally fine, she doesn't take it to heart!

Probably gave you an anti-stress ball or something to fidget when she saw you scream at the couch because you accidentally bumped into it.

She loves to hug you, especially when you get angry and instead of screaming or whatever you just start crying.

It breaks her heart seeing crying like that, so it's her job to go and comfort you!

Angel Dust is worried about you, but he isn't the best example himself..

I mean, he's either doing drugs or coming back from his work during the middle of the night so he doesn't really have a sleeping schedule-

That doesn't mean he isn't going to try to help you.

Angel Dust isn't one to invalidate people's feelings, so if you got angry at him trying to make you go to sleep he'd stop.

But instead he would love to just, stay there, awake with you doing whatever.

He's genuinely interested on your hobbies, especially the drawing and playing games one.

Angel Dust probably wanted to try games but never had the chance you know? So when you find out about it, you ask him to play with you.

He'd be really happy with it, but also get (jokingly) mad at you for making fun of him for when he died to a zombie on Minecraft.

Angel Dust notices after some time how easily distracted you are, and honestly, it's a bit funny.

You're there telling him a random thing that happened to you, and then you stop and change the topic to why Charlie was running around the hotel.

Even forgetting about what you were saying before! Which makes him also notices that your memory is shit.

Like, I feel like Angel Dust's definetly going to help you with it, even if it's just placing some notes on your desk with things like "Finish that drawing" "We're playing tonight ;)" or things like this.

Angel Dust knows that you are shy, because when he went to talk to you he thought you were going to run away from how nervous and red you were.

At first he even thought you had a crush on him! I mean not like you don't but 🥰

Now you don't even shut up! And it's definetly a good thing for him, Angel loves to listen to you babble about any of your interests.

He also knows how to see when you're in your "Good mood" or "Bad mood".

When you're in a bad mood, you're usually more cold and sassy to everyone, but you apologize right after you come back to the good mood again.

You have a bad temper, and Angel Dust remembers to not get on your nerve because he doesn't want you to get even more stressed.

I mean, he saw you lose a pencil and then yell at nothing just to find the pencil right after.

But when you just, cry instead of scream, that makes him really worried.

If you allow, he's going to pull into a hug, or a cuddle. Whatever makes you feel better.

He even let you pet Fat nuggets because he knows how much you love him😭

[heroicleader2763]

[ not long after leafy's death. ]

HAHAH, did he REALLY say that??

“yeah! gelly is really odd sometimes, i'll tell you.”

i think i already knew that. you two have so many goofy stories together!

“hehe.. how's it been there?”

at home? well, so far, so good.

been taking care of the lizards! pin's been out for a while now...

“do you know where?”

she was.. i don't know, actually. she waas....

uhhhh.. i think he went.. to.. hmm..

“..coiny, you good? you look zoned out.”

oop. my bad. my head feels a bit weird, i swear i heard something.

“huh?”

yeah. it sounds kind of freakish, even. like.. some distant wailing?

“yikes. is it in the hotel? nothing bad is happening in there, right?”

nah, it's outside.

“you sure you didn't forget to take your meds today?”

shut up, idiot. of course i did!

uhh, i really don't like what i'm hearing.

“is it too close?”

no, not at all. really distant, in fact. atleast that's how i hear it right now.

“are you sure it isn't some animal?”

..hm. could be. i have no idea...

“you shouldn't really worry about it then.”

i suppose.

it's just... it sounds..

agonized.

it's giving me chills.

i hope pin's doing alright, wherever she is.

i kind of miss her.

[ladysomething]

hi lovely! I hope you're feeling okay now. ngl you had me worried when you said you were like really sick. but hopefully you feel better now. what was it, if I can ask? I wanted to ask earlier because I'm a nosy bitch but also because maybe I had something from my nonna's remedies book to perhaps help you out a bit. then I decided to forget tumblr existence altogether for my own sanity.

(I kinda think you're not a Lando girle so hopefully I'll not be carved to death if I say that Lando has been getting under my skin lately and so have some of his fans because the cazzo succhiare has been insane sine Zandvoort. anyways)

brother and roomie send their best get-better wishes as well. and, so does the nosy lady that happens to be my neighbour, because, funny story, she heard me telling my brother that you were sick (the walls in my block are thin, okay?) and she thought we were speaking about our cousin(?) and said that she would dedicate some prayers and a Catholic Mass to you. so. yeah. that. get better 😘

a catholic mass for moi??? this must be what Charles felt like after Monza.

but thank you for your thoughts! I'm not entirely sure what it was, though I suspect just the flu perhaps? idk, the doctor didn't really say, and the antibiotics didn't seem to work, so I think the flu is a safe bet. it's been a bad season here - most people I know who've gotten sick have also been extremely ill and it's lasted weeks as well.

ps no I'm not a Lando girlie at all, but I don't want to spread my negatively publicly hahah. but feel free to message me if you want to bitch about him in private 😂

[goodboyaudios]

i’m evil like that muahaha~ also!!!!! congratulations on 40k!!!!!!!!!!!! i’m sure you’ll be getting way more recognition in the future:D

since you gave permission:

you said you’re finishing off uni, did you always know what you wanted to study? i’m at the (depressing) stage in life where i’m fully realizing how many curve balls life throws at you:) the path to success usually isn’t linear, so i’m curious about your journey!

it seems like you’re always asking for feedback or addressing issues, etc. do you have any feedback for us (as in, the community)? most people i’ve interacted with are pretty chill, but idk maybe there’s we could improve on?

this one might be a bit personal, so feel free to ignore! do your friends or family know about your channel/work? i’d imagine it’d be nice to have someone you could bounce ideas off of before publishing stuff! if not, how do you manage to hide all that stuff hahah~. you’ve built an entirely different universe, so i refuse to believe a sane man can keep all of that in his head and live a normal life simultaneously:p

if you could befriend any oc of yours, who would it be and why?

i’m not sure how to word this question properly, but are there any endings/plot points that you had initially envisioned differently? like, did you think a story was going one way and changed your mind half ways through?

you don’t have to answer all of these! you did ask for it, but i hope i’m not overwhelming you haha~

Absolutely not. School didn't do anything to prepare me for the world. My college has done less than nothing in preparing me to get a job in my field, YOUTUBE HAS DONE MORE FOR ME THAN COLLEGE AT THIS POINT and if I'm completely honest with you? That's fuckin sad. No, I had no idea what I wanted to do and I wish I was that kind of person who knew right out the gate. (lucky bastards) Okay, I'm done with my rant lol

I didn't know what field I wanted to study in, so I took a chance and jumped into something I knew I had some knowledge in and hoped for the best. Really that's all you can do. I have learned that, when you get out of highschool and you don't know what to do, do everything until something sticks. Trial and error. It's not the most efficient, but it works!

Any feedback to GIVE to the community? Let me think. Honestly, the community has been very wonderful to me. Occasionally something pops up, but it's usually squashed. The discord server is full of wonderful and creative and talented people who have always had my back and support the work I do. I hear all the time about drama in fellow creator servers and toxic behavior in the communities, etc...but my end of things has always been super nice! (that might have something to do with my lack of NSFW content) But yeah! No notes really! Everything good in our little neighborhood!

My family is aware AND so is my extended family lol! They are supportive, but they don't really give me ideas to bounce off. I have other fellow writers and creatives or that! And I do write everything down and go back to it in case I forget something. But typically speaking its all in my head, yep! I just...don't know how to do other things! Like...dress fashionably or...function in a normal society...you know useless stuff like that!

Zed. He needs a friend lol

Only with Bastard Warrior actually! Every story, I envision how I want it to end first, but with Bastard Warrior, I had thoughts of changing it because it was supposed to be enemies to lovers, yet the canon ending isn't Albus getting with Faith. So, I made 3 endings to appease everyone lol

Hope I got all of the them lol!

[i-sveikata]

Oh GIRRRLLLL

I honestly expected angst but got such soft interactions from this chapter! I mean, yes, Vegas was very filthy in his thoughts but also very sweet? I love him even if he doesn't love himself. Vegas feelings about himself are something we all assumed so no surprises here. It still hurts how badly abused he was and how it all turned him how he is now. Our childhood creates what we are in the future. It's another reason why I'm glad his father is finally dead.

I knew Vegas was in love with Pete. But OMG. His thoughts are so sweet and wholesome. He is so smitten 😂 If he could tell Pete he loves him, he would every hour. The complements!!

It's also nice to really see how he regrets all the hurt he has done to Pete. His confusion in the shower was really worrying. He is scarred as well by this time in the safehouse and will never forget. But I admire his determination to not hurt Pete ever again. Just this shows how much he means to him. I hope Pete's grandmother sees it too 😭

I hoped so bad that the talk would happen in this chapter. But ah, it's okay. I can wait 😩 But I know the conversation is not going to be pleasant. If Pete feels safe enough to sleep side by Vegas it should convince her it's okay?? Right?? 😭

After these few chapters with constant action, danger and sex, it really feels so calm. I loved their conversation about the future. They really needed that. And omg, finally they realized they can just lay together, talk and feel satisfied with it too. Vegas needs to learn he doesn't need to perform all the time to keep Pete's time and attention. And I loved Pete's reassurance that we won't leave. He doesn't want to leave. And that Vegas is more than that.

This chapter left me with this warm feeling. Not counting the dread of the upcoming confrontation 😅

Thank you for this! I loved it so much! 😊❤️

Ohhhhh right I guess I meant more internal angst?? Rather than relationship angst lol the only yikes moment was when Vegas thought they were back in the safe house and freaked Pete out too

Omg but yesss so much softness between them this chap they really are just so relieved that they’re both alive tbh haha yeah Vegas is a mixture of horny and romantic devotion for sure. Ahhh yeah we all saw that coming from the way he already treats himself having no concern for his own life and body his pov is really not all that surprising. Ugh yeah his dad sucks so bad we are very glad that he’s dead

Yesssss as soon as they get the I love yous out Vegas is going to be a totally menace like constantly telling Pete how much he adores him. Pete is going to be low key flustered for the rest of his life hahahah

Oh yeah that moment in the shower was VERY bad for him because Vegas’ low self esteem is already telling him that he’ll never deserve Pete and that he’s going to lose him but Vegas so desperate for his love that he wants to try anyway!!!! Despite!! Despite!!!That promise to himself not to physically hurt Pete again is just another way that Vegas is trying to prove to himself that he might be able to be good. That he can control his worst impulses. That maybe despite everything his father has told him he could somehow get this one thing right for pete. That’s why he freaked out so much about Pete’s wrist. That was his last hope going up in flames before his very eyes!!!

Oh lol the showdown with Pete and his grandmother feat drugged up Vegas is going to be VERY interesting hahah but they are going to find some kind of common ground don’t worry!

Yea was very important that they get the chance to just slow down for a second and be together (even if they had to be physically unable to move around in order to make that happen lol) but yes they are both steadily learning that they’re good for each other in these moments. That they both know how to take care of the other person (and that they understand each other enough that they can recognise when the other is holding on by a thread and needs that support) Whatever this fucked up thing between them is it seems to be working!! Not withstanding having to talk to Pete’s grandma about it hahahah

[x-amanda]

Hi, this is my first post ever on here, I don't use this app a lot, mostly to download stuff for TS4 lol but I thought, since I have an account and the app downloaded, why not post something?

I am a 15 soon 16 year old girl, my life has been kinda chaotic, lots of family issues like fighting and verbal abuse, even alcohol abuse. Growing up in that environment wasn't fun and it did fuck me up mentally I'd say, it made me feel unsure about myself which then led to me finding out about things 8 year olds shouldn't know, like NSFW sites, drugs etc, younger me didn't understand that stuff, whenever I'd ask someone about it they'd laugh or yell at me or ask "How do you know what that is?!". I don't remember how I found those sites because like I said, I was very young and my memory is pretty bad hahah.

I did eventually stop asking people about that stuff and just keep it to myself while also over-sexualizing myself, making myself look more "sexy" and "cute" the older I got, mostly for male validation, I wanted men to notice me, I didn't care if they were a lot older or not, it was attention from them that I was after and it did kinda work but I did also end up getting groomed numerous times because of it, but before all of that stuff happened, I would get bullied, people would make fun of the way I dressed, my at home problems, how I was always sick and worst of all my teeth, they were never perfectly straight or pearly white, they still aren't and it's my biggest insecurity along with other things we'll talk about later.

I decided to stop caring about what others thought of me, sure I still do take some things to heart and they make me sad but not as much as before, but I guess that depends on what is said, and I think we all know that a lot of toxic stuff is said online. I firstly got Instagram at around 8, not a lot happened there, I would post every now and then, and then there was Snapchat.. oh what a mistake that was, I'm pretty sure 99% of people who have snapchap have been sent a dickpic atleast once if not more, and I am part of those 99%, it usually starts when a random guy adds you, he doesn't even say hi and goes STRAIGHT to the point and sends you a fucking picture of a shrimp, it's so disgusting but also so fun to make fun of them, I know that's wrong but sending random people (including KIDS) pictures of your manhood without consent isn't any better and you deserve to be punched in the face atleast 5 times a day.

Moving onto the era of Tiktok, I've had it since musically, I do miss those times, funny/cringey clips and dancing videos? Fucking amazing but now it's just toxicity, you can't have an opinion anymore without getting death threats or in a worst case scenario, doxxed but luckily, that has never happened to me, just mild death threats which I don't really mind, I find it funny as fuck ngl because it will most likely not happen, people just try to come off as scary when they're probably on the other side of the screen drooling and thinking "Oh yeah I got them with this one!!".. buddy you didn't get anyone with that, and no job either because of your digital footprint and especially if you talk like that to a bunch of other people, good luck in the future pal!!

--This is all for now, I still have a lot on my mind, there was one thing that happened tonight that made me want to write all of this but I'll save that for next time, (It's about me Feeling dumb (sped) so I don't forget!!!!!)

Cya next time!

// Amanda - Aug 24th 3:45 am

[askdannysroleswapau]

ignore the fact that i'm 2 days off schedule LMAOOO

sorry abt the wait folks. i feel bad abt how late i am so the next chapter will be uploaded tomorrow.

also this one has a mini spoiler about Robin, but its not groundbreaking. with that out of the way, here's chapter three!

missed the last one? click here

“Gumball…”

“Gumball…”

“Gumball!”

Gumball startled awake. He was lying flat on his back and leaning over him was Rob, who looked uncharacteristically concerned. For a brief second he forgot where he was, why Rob was here, why he felt sore all over—but then it all came flooding back. The portal. The pair of bizarre pair of people that had stepped out of it. The explosion that had followed.

The explosion. Gumball quickly sat up and looked himself over for burns or wounds. 

“With how close you were standing to the machine when it blew up, you're really lucky you didn't get hurt,” Rob said earnestly. Judging by the reddish scorch marks on Rob’s arms, Gumball could tell he hadn't been so lucky. “You feel alright?”

“Yeah, I...” Gumball took a few deep breaths, smoothing his rumpled fur down.  “I think I'm alright.” Gumball looked around, a small part of him hoping they were the only ones in the warehouse. That hope was quickly squashed, however. 

The stranger from before was next to the machine, intermittently switching between inspecting its various mechanisms and scribbling things down on a small notepad. Not-Rob was there too, pacing back and forth in front of the dark wall of TV screens. Most of everything surrounding the portal was either scorched or laying on the ground in pieces. 

Rob must have noticed Gumball staring at them. “I don't know when or if I'll be able to get the machine working again,” he said. “For now, they're stuck here.”

Gumball rubbed his eyes. “So they're our problem, then?”

“I guess,” Rob said.

Gumball tried to collect his thoughts. Everything was happening so fast. He didn't know how to feel.

“Hey, uh, I'm sorry about earlier,” Rob said hesitantly. “I forget that the end of the world is really upsetting to most people.” He looked at the floor, seeming ashamed.

“Yeah,” Gumball muttered, pulling his knees up to his chest.

“Alright, buckerino,” the stranger said to Rob as they walked over. Gumball noticed they also had burn marks on their arms. “Number one, your Portal machine looks WAY cooler than mine. How dare you, that is SO unfair.” They hit the notepad with the back of their pencil. “But, number two, my Portal machine was better ventilated. I think that's why yours went kablooey.”

“Huh,” Rob muttered. “I didn't take that into account.”

“Clearly,” they said with a chuckle. They snapped the cover back over their notepad and smiled at him. “Your machine is built differently from mine, but I think I could still lend you a hand if you need it.”

“Huh. Okay,” Rob said.

As the two departed, discussing quantum physics, Not-Rob walked over to Gumball. He sat down on a wooden crate next to him, sighing. Gumball crossed his legs and tapped his fingers together anxiously. It took a little while for either of them to say anything. 

“So, alternate universe, huh?” Gumball said awkwardly. “What's that like?”

“I could ask you the same question,” Not-Rob replied. 

“Hahah, right, yeah…” Gumball mentally kicked himself. “So, um… Is there something I can call you besides Rob? Cuz, like, I already have a Rob, so it would be confusing to have two Robs to keep track of.”

“You can call me Robin, if that helps,” he said. 

“Cool,” Gumball sighed in relief. ”How's your life?”

“Pretty good, I think,” Robin said, seeming relieved by the change of topic. “I have a boyfriend named Pebble, he’s pretty awesome.”

“Oh, that's nice,” Gumball said. “I have a girlfriend, her name’s Penny.”

Robin looked at him strangely. 

Gumball’s ears flicked back. “What?” 

“What’s her last name?” Robin looked like he was trying to puzzle something out. 

“Weird question, but okay,” Gumball muttered. “It’s Fitzgerald. Are you okay? Do you need a drink of water or something?”

“No, it's just that...” Robin made a face. “My boyfriend’s last name is Fitzgerald.”

“Huh,” Gumball said, blinking in surprise. He scoffed nervously. “I-it's gotta be some kind of coincidence, right? I mean, what are the odds that YOUR boyfriend is MY girlfriend?” 

The two of them shared a moment of dread.

“What does he look like?” Gumball asked quickly, though he dreaded the answer. 

“Well that's kind of complicated,” Robin said. “I mean, he used to wear this shell all the time, but now it kind of depends on how he feels. Most of the time he’s a cool gold color, and he’s got wings and these cute little antlers.” Robin smiled dreamily. 

Gumball’s stomach dropped. “That's how it is with Penny.” 

Robin snapped out of his dreamy trance. “So does that mean-”

“Hey, blue boy!”

Both of them turned to look at the direction of the voice. It was... wow, Gumball really needed to ask them what their name was, this was getting ridiculous. 

“What in the world made you think that work?” Rob said to them, amused.

“Hey, cut me some slack here, skyscraper,” they joked, nudging Rob with their elbow playfully. “You know how often I'm in a room with more than one blue person? The answer is not often, my friend.”

“What do you want?” Robin groaned. 

“Can you get me that wrench?” Rob asked, pointing to a wrench on the ground next to Gumball. 

“Oh, and those ropes,” the other person chimed in, pointing to some ropes hanging down from the ceiling. “Oooh, and that tiny screwdriver! And that tire, while we’re at it.” They rubbed their hands together, smirking impishly. “I could use a tire.”

“Just the wrench will be fine,” Rob said. 

Gumball picked up the wrench and walked over to them. He held it out to Rob, but then the stranger snatched it from his paws and scuttled away to the other side of the machine. Holding the wrench between their teeth, they clambered up over the side of the machine, clinging to the vertical surface with their claws like a spider. When they reached the top of it, they took the wrench out of their mouth and unscrewed some bolts on one of the metal panels. Gumball looked to Rob for answers, but Rob just shrugged.

“Hey, ummm…” Gumball spoke tentatively to the stranger. They looked over their shoulder at him, polygons flickering unnervingly. Gumball resisted the urge to shudder. “Do you have a name?”

“Oh, don't get him started,” Robin warned.

“Oh hush, you're just jealous that your name isn't as cool as mine,” they said smugly, pulling a panel off of the machine and rifling around inside. They pulled out a fistful of wires and tossed them aside.

“You literally named yourself after a food,” Robin said in a way that gave Gumball the sense that they’d had this conversation before.

“Exactly,” the apparently food-named person said, grabbing the wrench and sliding back down over the side of the machine. They landed on the floor with a thud. “I named myself after something sweet. You are named after a felony.”

Gumball smothered a laugh and nudged Rob with his elbow. Rob looked unimpressed. 

“Oh my gosh.” Robin stood up. “For the last time, “Robin Dis Bank” is NOT A VALID-”

“Hey, no offense, but can you two please stop squabbling like an old married couple so they can tell me what their name is?” Gumball said.

“You hear that? I could divorce you a second time,” the food-named person said with a smirk, dusting themselves off. 

Robin sighed. “Just tell him what your name is.”

“Fine, fine,” they said, waving a hand dismissively. They took a deep breath, as if the notion of sharing their name with new people was a rare occurrence. 

“I am Gumball.”

[End of Chapter 3]

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bonus: here is what i actually wrote in the google doc directly after this line

yeah i write everything in comic sans. what are you gonna do about it?

[visionthefox]

So yeah nice eclipse lived.

Eclipse is dead he really sounded tired and Solar Flare was like " let it go and let's move on" or something along those lines (notice I'm not that good at remembering the correct words but it get the idea through) but still Eclipse was trying to explain to moon what is going to happen if he didn't kill Lunar but didn't listen he was being sassy towards him, moon also mentioned that if he wasn't the cause of everything he could still have his memories and magic. Eclipse proceeded to tell moon like "you need to understand if sun dies it's on you" idk if he was trying to make him feel bad in that aspect but moon didn't budge in. Once dead Solar Flare told him that "He was just like old moon he cared in his own way, and that if he was nicer or tried to change people might've listened to him" also the star is destroyed and like nice eclipse said he can literally build a new one to which moon replied with a no.

Now Eclipse mentioned that Lunar was going to be screwing things up with moon, sun and others, my question is what did he see?

mmh honestly, I feel like I would have a hard time paying any attention as my braid gets fried hahah but when you guys explain it, it make it sound way cooler than may really be! sdsads so .. Eclipse is gone - part of me think he will come back. other thinks they will use Ruin as the new bad guy.. in any case.. I feel like, even IF - Eclipse saw a terrible future.. he cant be stupid enough to think anyone will trust him, no matter how desperate or scare he sounds - he should know better.. maybe use a puppet, a shadow, a forced vision into Moon's mind to make HIm see what will happend.. but nah- also, I undertand if Solar think that way - but also, ppl seem to forget Eclipse was also infected by the Kill code, that and lots of reason more as to why Eclipse was that mess up (then again, what he did is terrible, but not out of the blue- the dude is mess up no matter what sad BG he had - but the BG is important to understang what he did) expecting a bad person to one day - change - is not that smart..if anything, being left alone - with no one to be there for him - maybe in pain from the star -slowly dying- maybe alone with guilt, and just seeying how even if he Won. . he is not a winner.. maybe that finally took Eclipse to think "maybe... I can do things better" as for Lunar.. all I know is that Puppet put him back together.. now.. who is Puppet in this universe? is Lunar the real one? or someone made to trick ppl? I feel like whatever Eclipse saw.. may not be actually that bad - but the VA need to hype things up haha I really hope they get rid of the magic too.. is never used in a natural way.. or logical way.. anyways, thanks you for your ask and time!! <3

[sowaran]

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//Trigger Warning// VENT WARNING.

Contains vomit I dont know what to put in here. Beware?. Pls.

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Uhh. I vomited without warning today, because I didnt eat in a big while. I didnt knew that was a thing that could happen so it was really weird. But, now I feel like, 10 times better.

I mean, better than any other time in like, this year.. or like, the year before.

Every time i vomit to the point I start shaking it feels like, I'm a better person.

Like if I got the toxic stuff inside of me out of me. Quite literally haha.

I don't like to vomit. I dont do it often. I hate it, I hate the feeling of a raw throat with an unbearable texture of what used to be food. The taste is the worst. Bitter Bitter and more Bitter. My vomit filled saliva rolling down my shirt as I try to not get my hands in there but failing miserably by the instinct of cleanliness.. and the snot being pushed out of my nostrils by pieces of food that was chewed a long time ago.

I dont like any of that.

But it makes my mind..

Nicer.

Like, if i can view life in a more.. kind approach.

Like if all I need to do is to console myself, feel the compassion of a warm hug while I fall asleep to a better rest of the day. I almost always vomit when is really early in the morning. So I would enjoy a good nice afternoon that has nothing wrong later.

I feel weaker, but that's okay. I just need to eat nice good food. I just need something to make me feel better. And all that junk that got out of me. Got out of me for good.

It's like if I go back into a more.. childish state of existence. Where all I need to do is focus on myself, what I really want, not whatever anyone else tells me but also be smart and not eat the same junk that will probably make me sick again.

I stop worrying about morality and more like "okay, I decreet day of sandwiches and juice for today, Sleep and be tired today. No walking, no thinking, no complaining and nothing weird, only peace fill me up and maybe also water, but only after the taste of bad food is gone".

Is a predictable day where I need to get out of the bullshit I went through and stop overthinking things. Is like a removal of all anxieties being replaced with weriness of things that actually make sense.

Is like if I'm whole again. And then, all my thoughts of self deprivation turn into compassion as all of them unanimously agree to go to sleep in the middle of the day.

I dont like vomiting but I do need that compassion every once in a while.

Is like " just be patient guy, later you'll go back to walking and talking to yourself and drawing or whatever, right now it hurts but like, chill, sleep don't worry eat a sandwich (be careful with that) and juice and yogurt" oh yeah, yogurt man, I want some peach yogurt I want some omg. But maybe tomorrow.

Today I have cereal and I'm prolly gonna eat it in a big while later. Sleepy time now. Patient ramiel, dont let the bad things you've eaten discourage you, the getting them put of you hurts but, oh well, you can fill yourself with love filled peach yogurt and give yourself a kind hug dude chill chillllll sleep sleep..

Damn I've gotten a week trying to hear 'sleep by mcr' but I keep forgetting..

Maybe when I wake up I can do that.

Aughhhhh my tummy hurts time to sleep. Bye. Hahahs.

Should I even post this?

Ah fuck you why not?

[dream-meister-translations]

THE TALE OF FOOD

LAMB PAOMO - STORY #1

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MUGWORT RICEBALL : Baa-a. Baa-a.

LAMB : Baa. Baaa.

MUGWORT RICEBALL : Heheh. The lambs are singing with me. They seem very happy, and that makes me happy too!

MUGWORT RICEBALL : Master, Lambert! I'm heading over there with the lambs~

LAMB PAOMO : Hahah! Don't stray too far, Mugwort Riceball!

LAMB PAOMO : Master, are you tired? Do you need some water?

LAMB PAOMO : Heh! Thanks to the Universal Formation, I can let my flock graze here. They really like the alfalfa grown in this place.

HANGZHOU NOODLES : Hey! Both of you must stop this lovey dovey stuff at once!

HANGZHOU NOODLES : Lambert, you told me that your home is nearby right? Take me there at once! I need rest! I wouldn't have come to this place if not for my desire to study the flour-based cuisine of the north.

LAMB PAOMO : My home? This is it!

HANGZHOU NOODLES : Do you think I'm blind? I see nothing but grass and a few trees. And your goats. Where is the house?

LAMB PAOMO : House? I don't have a house!

HANGZHOU NOODLES : What?! You spent ages at this place and didn't even bother building a house? Geeze, you're poor!

HANGZHOU NOODLES : You're a Food Soul! Fine, you might not make a fortune out of that, but can't you sell some Lamb Paomo or start a food franchise?

LAMB PAOMO : Poor? I'm actually pretty content with what I have...

LAMB PAOMO : Look! The sky is my roof and the grass is my mattress. My home is HUGE!

HANGZHOU NOODLES : Yeah, keep feeling good about yourself. Imagine living out your days like this...

OPTION 1 : "With A Jug Of Water, A Whip, And A Flock Of Sheep" LAMB PAOMO : Indeed! It's exactly as you've said, Master! I prefer a simple and carefree life! LAMB PAOMO : I think living this way is comfortable enough and free from any shackles!

OPTION 2 : "Sounds pretty romantic." LAMB PAOMO : Master, what you said just made me blush! LAMB PAOMO : It's not really romantic, and I don't really know what it means to be romantic! LAMB PAOMO : I just feel that a simple and carefree life is what makes me comfortable and happy!

HANGZHOU NOODLES : Hmph! When you start making a fortune, you'll never think that way again!

HANGZHOU NOODLES : But I don't think you'll ever enjoy a life of wealth!

HANGZHOU NOODLES : Forget it! You don't look smart enough to understand...I'll just go rest over there. Don't bother me unless something comes up!

LAMB PAOMO : Master, let's go rest over there as well! We should find a place with plenty of sun and take an afternoon nap.

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LAMB PAOMO : Hmm. This place won't work...

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LAMB PAOMO : This won't work either...

The youth tried laying down at many different places while mumbling to himself. I had no idea what he was trying to do. The youth finally smiled with great satisfaction after lying down on a particular patch of grass.

LAMB PAOMO : Heh! This is it!

LAMB PAOMO : Master, I know you're used to soft mattresses so lying on the grass may not be too comfortable. I tried a few places and this patch has the softest grass that won't prick at all!

LAMB PAOMO : Come! Try it out!

OPTION 1 : "I guess I'll try." LAMB PAOMO : What do you think? Is it as soft as a spring mattress? To be honest, I was really surprised when I laid on a spring mattress for the first time. I felt as though I was being sucked into it. LAMB PAOMO : I originally thought there was a Universal Formation within the mattress trying to suck me to somewhere else!

OPTION 2 : "You remind me of Dumpling." LAMB PAOMO : Oh! That's exactly what Dumpling did when he played pranks on the Food Demon! LAMB PAOMO : Ah... LAMB PAOMO : Ah! Sorry! I was not trying to say that you're a Food Demon, Master! LAMB PAOMO : No food Demon would look as nice as you!

LAMB PAOMO : ...

LAMB PAOMO : Master, get closer to me! I need to talk to you!

LAMB PAOMO : Actually, Hangzhou Noodles said I'm poor. But I actually do own entire hills of gold and silver!

LAMB PAOMO : Take a look at the hill slopes basked in the sun! All the leaves have turned gold! Heheh! That's my golden hill!

LAMB PAOMO : Once night descends and the stars rise to the sky, we will be seeing heavenly lamps shining brighter than gemstones...

LAMB PAOMO : And the hill slopes will assume a beautiful silvery coat, and turn into my hills of silver.

LAMB PAOMO : Oh, when night comes, perhaps we can watch the stars together at the hill slope, Master! We did that before at Kongsang, right?

LAMB PAOMO : Let's see if the stars here shine brighter than those in Kongsang!

The afternoon breeze swept across the pastures. The bed of grass was soft and warmed by the sun. It gave off a strong, sweet smell. The breeze, the smell of grass it brings, and the sound of the youth formed a warm, cozy current that swept across me. It was a comfortable feeling that immersed my soul and body...

??? : Lambert, Master~ Wake up! It's time to wake up!

??? : Are you going to keep sleeping?

??? : Whoah! What are you trying to do, Hangzhou Noodles? ??? : Baaaa--!!

[rjschoicesstuff]

from [♡~OC Asks~♡]

for ripley: 🧿Do they have a superstition or belief? Such as "black cats bring bad luck", belief in ghosts, tarot, crystals, meditation, etc. (<- additionally, does she develop any after being turned?) 🔪Say they were put in a classic 80s slasher/horror setting, who would they be? {Example: The killer. The dude who dies first. Etc.}

for rex: 🎀Do they have something they collect? {Stamps, rocks, stickers, etc} 🍋Do you have a song that you associate with them?

nsfw for either/both: 🐹What "pet" names do they like being used for them? {Babe, Kitten, Puppy, Mutt, etc.}

thank you 💐

Thank you for sending questions!

For Ripley:

🧿Do they have a superstition or belief? Such as "black cats bring bad luck", belief in ghosts, tarot, crystals, meditation, etc. (<- additionally, does she develop any after being turned?)

Ripley genuinely believes in aliens, like she'll fight ppl on that LOL, she used to just like vaguely believe in certain cryptids and supernatural creatures, like sorta like where she doesn't Really believe, but she enjoys acting like it's real anyway, if that makes sense? Once she learns vampires exist she 100% thinks there gotta be more out there tho. She will force Cas and Gabe to go look for werewolves with her lol.

I loveee that u asked about after she was turned because YES!! I'm still working out the whole situation with the ley lines, but as of now it's that as soon as the Creator started dying, some of the energy he absorbed from the leylines, went into her. And Ripley experienced this as like this warm power that Wanted her to survive and in that brief moment soothed her and made her feel like she was going to be okay and she was going to survive this and she did well. And soon after waking up she feels this energy stayed with her and guides her. And she believes the leylines are like alive and some sort of deity/entity basically.

Idk there's more but I really wanna sit down and think it all over sometime and give it it's own post once I've made up my mind, because I don't like having to go back and be like 'um actually forget about all this' hahah

🔪Say they were put in a classic 80s slasher/horror setting, who would they be? {Example: The killer. The dude who dies first. Etc.}

The first person who dies probably lol 😭

🐹What "pet" names do they like being used for them? {Babe, Kitten, Puppy, Mutt, etc.}

I think in general she's v neutral about pet names, I feel like being called angel would make her feel some type of way but idk if anyone would call her that tho LOL

And anything that's more like feminine I think she would like, she loves beign referred to as 'my girl' and stuff too, idk if that necessarily counts as a pet name but yeah.

I feel like because Cas rarely actually calls her by her name she sometimes explicitly asks him to call her Ripley.

For Rex:

🎀Do they have something they collect? {Stamps, rocks, stickers, etc}

I can see her collecting seashells and pretty stones maybe hehe

I think in the present time she might still have an appreciation for cool weapons, but I feel like in the future she might want to sorta distance herself from anything like weapons/whatever she associates with fighting/violence but at the same time collecting weapons n just appreciating the craftsmansship behind it might be some way to 'reclaim' it idk

🍋Do you have a song that you associate with them?

Tbh not really, if I have to pick Something this sorta fits her vibes for my idea of her for what she/her life is like after the story is long done

🐹What "pet" names do they like being used for them? {Babe, Kitten, Puppy, Mutt, etc.}

Idk does uluvalir count 🤔

And also just love/my love

[heartsoftruth]

yeah, lando has his moments when he looks really pretty so that gets him a bunch of fans, but you know what makes him get even more? He's the most relatable and "approachable" driver right now

lewis makes zero content, charles and carlos just drops some vlogs from time to time, GR and max also nothing, lando engages a lot with his fans. He does hours of streams, his friends too and they talk a lot about their activities, he has that quadrant stuff of his that has a bunch of videos, he showed to fans his spotify wrapped and his actual account is public, this stuff feeds people

im not saying other drivers have to do content like that, just saying that is a good way to get/keep fans and bonus that is something he likes to do, so he's using it to his advantage, hate to say it but hats off to him

I'm gonna be honest anon. I was thinking about that whole Quadrant group of him the other day and thinking: do they even do anything anymore? I feel when that started it was a hype and now I don't see much about it? I saw that girl the other day in a Sideman video, but not much else... When was the last time he live streamed then? I feel if anything he's being a bit more distant (also because he's like a Bieber/1Direction of F1 it seems with cray fans).

I know he has merch like Lewis - because I follow a few of his fans on my private Insta - and I think that goes well. I think besides Lewis's, Lando's also does well (sale wise).

What I will say is at the tracks/hotels etc he almost always tries to make time for his fans and I think that's very good. We might find him annoying, but for other people he's their Lewis. So I'm very happy if those fans get the chance to meet him and I know he's approachable. For example: if you're a fan of Alonso/Stroll/KMAG you can almost forget it if you want something signed/photo. Probably only when you're decked out in their merch. It would be cool if Lewis would do vlogs again like back in the days. I'm sure he's aware of how interested we're all are in his life, but I'm also sure with all the 84348 projects he's involved most of the time it will be "I can't show you this yet. Or this. Or this. Or GUESS WHAT? I also can't show you guys this!" But then maybe like Charles does a couple weeks - or with the projects Lewis does months/year(s) - later. To see his collection come to life, his Almave journey, script reading etc. Music won't be apart I'm almost 100% sure hahah.

[huggingkoalas]

Pleasee real friends would never think of you being a burden!

Ohhh thank you for explaining me more about how you feel about it. I'm ngl in some ways it felt weird because I'm kinda of opposite of it.

I appreciate the idea of being independent and not relying so much on any person, It's a security that in the end you only have yourself and that should be enough.

Most of the time I take time to trust someone and be total comfort with them but I know I have a tendency of getting attached easily. So you saying that you start to distance yourself from people who you feel are getting closer would be like a nightmare for me. We would be in some totally opposite thoughts, you would think it's getting a real commitment so you have to back off and for me I would think you just don't feel anything at all so I need to forget about you. Hahah god how feelings hit different from people to people.

For my mental healthy I try my best to always feel the balance of any relationship I'm on, it's like I'll give what I receive. But sometimes my carrying side speaks louder and I put so much effort in something that deep down I know it won't worth it. And when it happens I know I'll suffer later, we ain't perfect after all.

Thank you again for exposing how your feelings works in a way, I know there people who feel the same, but maybe working on being more open for something new and really let someone in wouldn't be that bad..

(I accept the hugs)

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yeah, i’m a literal nightmare when it comes to friendships and relationships lmaoo :’) it’s hard to understand at first, but yeah. gotta love having emotional trauma from my childhood :’)

the “friend” i was talking about in the previous ask you sent also had “anxious attachment” — she was more clingy and desperate because of her strong fear of abandonment. and, well, when you mix someone with an anxious attachment and another with avoidant attachment, it really doesn’t end well.

mhm, being independent is great, but it’s also like... i don’t crave relationships, in a way? because i don’t need someone else to make me happy, if that makes sense. which is like... kind of bad, technically? cause damn, i might be single forever lmaoo

yeah i guess we’re total opposites. it’s honestly weird how the brain works for different people. and having my avoidant attachment isn’t something i want, too. i hate how destructive i get in relationships and it’s just... i’m scared of commitment. yeah. i’m not an easy person to love :P it’s why i try to steer far away from relationships if possible. i don’t want someone else to be hurt because i haven’t healed from my emotional trauma.

“i’ll give what i receive” hmm... i did try to do that too, but i genuinely got so drained with that friend and i just... i felt like i was destroying myself by staying with her. and the friendship/relationship got so toxic that i knew that i had to be the one to leave. i knew she wouldn’t leave. it really sucks, but we both weren’t happy. we were both human who couldn’t satisfy each other.

and no problem! my feelings and thoughts are pretty... intense. i’ll take to anyone that’s willing to listen lmao :P yeah... maybe letting someone new in is good... but i don’t think i’m ready for that yet. i’d like to work on myself before i choose to become social again :) i don’t enjoy hurting people’s feelings...

[hischierlovebot]

Right?! I loveee it! Hahah same girl same! Seems to be so 😂👌🏼

Guess some things just aren’t meant to be. I studied something completely different as well. 🤷🏼‍♀️

I know, makes me sound so old hahah but I was very young when I started and then just never quit. Awh thanks! I’m not good at it either but as long as you have fun it’s all good.

Goodie 😉. Yes just keep the faith! In the end things always have a way of working out.

Hahha omg the plane crash episode 😂 yeah I can see how that would be confusing. Yes there’s a lot of season but honesty’s the earlier ones up until like 7 or 8 are my favourites. Prime era, as with a lot of shows in my opinion. The earlier seasons is always where it’s at. Ah yeah I’ve heard a lot about orphan black but never watched it myself. Never heard of Fringe.

I did have a nice weekend, thanks! I hope you did too! My Monday was a typical Monday but we’ve made it haha.

The ‘I had you in my mind I hadn’t forgotten to reply’ tag just got me all 🥹

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I guess they aren't! I might go back to uni and study some more once I forget the Experience tm that was studying there the first time but it still wouldn't be forensics or anything like it 😂 art history my beloved, may we reunite one day

Ballet I feel is one of those things you do for very little time or a lot ngl I "only" ended up doing for like 8 years, which was half my life at that point, and if I had continued I would be at 16 or so :') I think it's very cool when we can continue doing the things we love for a long time, having fun with things you enjoy for +20 is the dream honestly

It'll be a matter of carrying on doing it, no one will be as annoying as I will and maybe that will pay off 😎

My personal theory is that most shows should end after 5 seasons, 7 max for some of them, so I'm not surprised that's where the good things are! I will keep it in mind too, I need to pick another TV show I can have as background noise while I embroider or do something else 👀 Orphan black is really cool honestly, and Fringe is too, but I'm not surprised you don't know it, I feel like it was a very niche TV show that I probably shouldn't have been watching when I was 10 😂 it's half cop show half science fiction and it is very disgusting at times but it's so incredibly good, it's been my fave show since I watched it. It's not for everyone though but I managed to somehow get all my family on board 😂

I'm happy to hear that! A typical Monday is probably the best thing one can ask for ngl. I had a nice week and went with my sister on a trip so I wasn't too much on my phone but it was really fun ^^ do you have anything exciting coming up? ❤️

[kenobster]

For the ask game! 💫 🎉 💞 🍭 🎙️(Hope that's not too many 😅 I love your writing!)

It's never too many, it fulfills my lust for validation, as does your very kind compliment. XD Thank you for the ask! ❤️

💫what is your favorite kind of comment/feedback?

Unfortunately, my favorite kind of comment is one that can't be easily replicated, hahah. XD I get a sense of whether my writing is good (aka effective at what I was attempting to convey) if the comments match what I expected readers to feel. For example — since I expected people to feel horrified and anxious while Obi-Wan's shock collar was activated in chapter 7 of Five Peggats Each, the terror in almost everyone's comments was very emotionally satisfying to me. For an example of the opposite — in chapter 2 of Every Shadow, I was actually really surprised that nobody mentioned how hard Anakin was trying; thus, I started to wonder if I hadn't properly conveyed that (or if him whipping out his lightsaber had contradicted it to a greater extreme than I originally planned).

Note: I loved all the comments on chapter 2; this is just a gauge I use to understand the effectiveness of my writing and how it's being perceived. Any failure to portray Anakin correctly to my vision was mine lmao; no one can take that away from me. XD

In other words, my favorite kind of comment is the one that manages to pierce through the veil and speak to my very soul. My favorite kind of comment is written by someone who has literally read my Brainthoughts™ unfiltered via my writing alone. So, if you're aiming to regularly give me my favorite kind of feedback, good luck with that, hahaha. (Though honestly, I really appreciate knowing how people react, even if unexpected, because then it helps me improve my writing for next time! So even if a reader can't telepathically communicate with me lmao, literary analysis is still very favored.)

Also I can't be asked this question without stating my favorite comment ever lmfao which is: "Anakin, I mean this in the most understanding, empathetic way possible… You’re an ungrateful little bitch." Which, if you've read chapter 2 of Five Peggats Each, this is fucking hilarious. 🤣 I'll never forget it. ❤️

🎉how often do you celebrate completing & posting a work? how often do you give yourself the credit/validation that you seek from others when you post? (if you don't, you should!)

Never lmao.

One time, when I was younger, I read a writing craft book by an author I found pretty humorous. One chapter asked the aspiring writer to consider what they fear. "Some people fear failure. Others fear success... yeah, I still haven't managed to figure that one out." Ten-year-old me found this hilarious. Joke's on me though because now, twenty years later, I am exactly the kind of writer who fears success. :') And I, too, haven't managed to figure it out.

I'm insecure; thus, I crave validation. If I don't get validation when I post something, I will cry ugly crocodile tears. (In other words, please don't think the solution to what I'm about to say is to stop commenting, lol; I'm a ho and I love you.) At the same time, I am anxious! So, if I do get validation, I will cry ugly panic-attack fears. It doesn't matter if the feedback is positive or negative — the more I get, the more the terror paralyzes me. For the life of me, I do not know why this is the case. I love comments, I want comments; I love feedback, I want feedback. For some reason, my body just immediately goes into fight-flight-freeze-fawn, without my brain's consent lol.

Luckily, after the first week or so, the anxiety fades, and I feel very proud while I remember every single kindhearted and wonderful comment I got — without feeling like my heart is gonna skyrocket into the astral plane. By then though, the celebration period has passed lmao. So yeah, I don't really do that part. Though, I guess I do have a ritual of sending my chapter to my mom and hearing her thoughts while we get ice cream after... So that's pretty nice, and I like it. :')

💞what's the most important part of a story for you? the plot, the characters, the worldbuilding, the technical stuff (grammar etc), the figurative language

Really, I couldn't care less about things like grammar and typos lol.

For me, the most important part of a story is that it's doing something different. In some way, it has to be doing something that hasn't been done before. There are so many ways a story can do this and many times it can be done purely just by being your own unique self. In other words, this is not a contradiction to the "two cakes" logic. Unless you're literally plagiarizing someone else's writing, the way you have made the second cake will always be new and different, purely because it was made by someone who is new and different.

I do think people often shy away from their own uniqueness when they're writing. There are an unfortunate amount of jokes about fic being "too self-indulgent," and many novice writers seem to think that their oddities and quirks make them weird or unpalatable to readers. They are absolutely wrong — those oddities and quirks are actually what make their writing most appealing! Being self-indulgent should be the goal. If you're not weirding the fuck out of people by being bizarrely interested in one specific thing, then what you're actually doing is trying to fit yourself, as a triangle, into a circle mold. If there are no triangle molds in existence, that's fine — carve one out for yourself. :)

In short, be a freak. Be a weirdo. The weirder and freakier you are, the more readers you will draw, and the more passionate your writing will become. Absent of passion, stories are bland and dull and tired. For me, the most important part of a story is the way it lets me empathize with an author who is radically different from the rest.

🍭why did you start writing?

I started writing the second I knew how to hold a pencil — like "yeah they knew I was a creep, since the day I was born" lol. Maybe instead, let's say why I started writing fanfiction. I've written fic since I was a teenager but the last few years, I've grown an intense appreciation for the genre. Ursula K. LeGuin is an author whose style is so wonderful to me, mostly in that she revisits and revisits and revisits and revisits. Truly, her work was very much like fanfiction of her own past work in many ways. The freedom of fanfiction to innovate and improvise the structure of a story (even one's own story) without the approval of a publishing company (or societal expectations) is something that's really hard to find in other spaces. So I like fanfic, and, though I sometimes cycle through fandoms, I'm very much here to stay.

🎙️which one of your fics would you like someone to make a pod-fic of?

The prose in Five Peggats Each is actually something I've worked very hard at — particularly in giving a rhythm to the words. One that is easy to hear and audibly pleasing. I would love if someone was interested in doing that. :') Especially because then I could listen to the total whumpiness of chapter 7 with my own ears. It's my favorite. I've forever peaked lol.

Relevant sidenote: I sent my brother some excerpts of my writing recently (specifically the excerpt in the summary of Every Shadow and the musician/cantina paragraphs near the beginning of chapter 6 of Five Peggats Each), and he was like "dude, this would be an incredible audiobook" which made me super happy. :')