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#i really need to go be productive now lmfao
frostbite-the-bat · 2 years
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hey so um aside from like, art posts i want to take another break from this site a bit. ive been fucking rotting my brain with it and wasting my time there constantly checking in and yeah thats fucking unhealthy im wasting my time and making my already horrid attention span even worse. if anything im on discord most of the time even if i dont respond right away. if you notice me like, late night posting when im tired feel free to send me a friendly ask to remind me and nudge me off but ill try to not let that happen.
ive also been slipping into bad thoughts on occasion again and i barely caught myself impulsively oversharing abt it again - even if i did mention it briefly at some parts i could've been rambling abt it elsewhere or to myself only making me feel worse which...is not good. i gotta get better and before school starts again i wanna get at least the tiniest bit better. this isn't anyone else's fault, just me placing priorities in the wrong places. but um yeah. im still around ofc!!! and i love talking i want to talk about stuff i like a lot!! im very happy to have ppl to talk about club penguin with... but ya ! ill try to not. check in here every 5 fucking seconds on god damn impulse
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astrxealis · 2 years
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OH MY FUCKING GOD I AM. very happy. my speech i had to give that i crammed on bcs i was really anxious about even just thinking it and i had to deliver it memorized and in front of the whole class for the first time in years? i only got. minus 1.25
#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚#i was really anxious uhh even like. now. a whole month after? egeshbgjh like damn what if i get a bunch of mistakes#but nah apparently i did really well !! proud of myself oh my god#i'm much better at speaking than i probably seem often irl. i'm just shy and anxious and need a proper environment#me at home i can talk with an incredibly loud voice for hours. unfortunately lune knows this very well LMFAO#my dad also has a loud voice but sometimes i even speak louder than him. so. yeah. really loud voice#i'm good at speaking aaa idk i keep putting myself down sometimes even if i am confident and i know what i can do!#anyways i also think i am more. less confused on course choices :] i want bs psych fr aaa i want to help people a lot in that regard#i'm going to look up more on it tho! compsci i'm good actually as a 2nd choice. i'm more feeling > thinking but i am a huge thinker lol#hashtag i love math LMFAO i just haven't been putting in as much effort but i do believe in myself! so. yeah#miss ty for the comments LOL i agree a lot. too much unnecessary movements. i always speak like that eee oops#i have my next speech uhh... next tues actually! also really anxious and stressed but less so. i'll just need to work on it asap and prepar#.75 minus for delivery makes sense! uhh .5 minus on content. i think i get it but i'll just keep it in mind as i make my next script#tbh i get so anxious too reciting during class but i have a lot to say usually and the teacher often says exactly the same idea or aka#i'm correct. so. raghhhhh i will recite more !!! almost end of the sy but it's never too late to improve. even if i recite wrong its still#added to my grades. so yeah. anyway uhh !! idk i love speaking a lot actually lol i'll try my best to be diligent productive etc#raghh i will do my best ... i am very smart ive just been slacking a bit since the pandemic bcs constant state of Tired. + anxiety#okay i don't really get the minus on content uhh is it bcs i didn't really have sources LMFAO it was a personal speech anyway but#im good at writing and good at speaking i will just do my best and uh. goodbye. not cramming#I ALSO EXERCISED TODAY. like. yeah. i should exercise a lot daily. also i did finger exercises hashtag guitarist era <3#my fingers and hands are already very flexible lol i'm double-jointed and always played w my hands even now! but i forgor warmups existed#the amount of mistakes i got for my speech really make sense lol i should really prepare more in advance! procrastination is my enemy
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lomltrentarnold · 1 year
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my number one — trent alexander-arnold ₊˚ෆ
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summary : the boys tried to surprise y/n with her celebrity crush but it didn't go as planned.
warnings : long fic kind of, half written, half smau, fem!reader, yeah just ignore anything that doesn't make sense okay babes <3 awkwardness, um yeah <3
🍓hana’s notes : okay!!!! it’s finally done!!!! im very happy how this turned out <3 let me know what you think and if you want something like this more cause i really enjoyed making it :))))) | MAIN MASTERLIST
( BETA SQUAD : GUESS THE FOOTBALLER FT TRENT ALEXANDER-ARNOLD )
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“Turn right.”
You followed the directions of your phone and turned right into a street. A small box of cupcakes were sat at the passenger seat of your car as it filled the car with its vanilla scent.
Sharky texted you and said to come by at 12 but you felt nice all of a sudden and decided to come by early with the homemade cupcakes accompany you.
The boys didn't give you much information as to what they were doing today, they only said they were filming another Guess The Professional Footballer and that was it. You didn't think about it too much though because whatever the boys are planning its always going to come out a banger.
You arrived at the driveway of the building that they said they would be filming, you parked your car and took your bag — not forgetting the cupcakes too of course.
You opened your phone to look back at the text that Sharky has sent you about how to get in and where to go.
to sharky 🦈🤳
Y/N 💌
sharks, i just arrived at the place 🫣
sharky 🦈🤳
YOU'RE WHAT?!???
Y/N 💌
im at the location u sent 🤨
why you seem surprised???
sharky 🦈🤳
I told you to come at 12
And now its only 9
Y/N 💌
i got bored and wanted to see you lot
and i bought cupcakes <3
sharky 🦈🤳
HOLD UP
CUPCAKES??
YOUR CUPCAKES??
Yeah okay hold on I'll come and get you
Y/N 💌
nah its fine i can get there just wanted to explore for a bit
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You put your phone in your pocket and walked to through the doors. Following Sharky's direction to their spot, you took your time glancing at the venue. It was an open space that leads to multiple football courts, some more bigger than the others and you were hoping the boys got a big venue for the Guess The Footballer video.
When you came close to the set you see a glimpse of someone you recognised and let out a breath of relief, "George!" you yelled out.
George turned his head at the voice and grinned, but for some reason it completely dropped. Now, you're confused. Why is everyone acting weird?
When you got to him you, you gave him a side hug as your other hand held the cupcakes. "Hey." you smiled. "Where are the others?"
George ever the sweetheart took the tray of cupcakes from your hand when he sees you struggling to hold it and answered, "They're getting mic'd up. I think we should wait before going in."
That made you furrow your eyebrows because you always sneak into their recording sessions without a problem but you understood either way.
You nodded your head, "Oh okay, let me put the cupcakes at the food table. Where is it by the way?"
George pointed the way, "Just around the corner. But before you leave—" before you could take back the tray, he sneakily (not really) took one of the sweets, "Thanks, Y/N. You're the absolute best!" he gave you a smile which make you chuckle.
You exchanged smiles with some of the camera and production crew, some were new and some aren't as you introduced yourself to them.
When you were at the table, your phone dinged as Niko's name flashed on the lock screen.
niko 🕶🦒
Y/N where are you?
Y/N 💌
at the snacks table
i'll be with you guys in a few
niko 🕶🦒
Y/N I need you to go to George right now.
Please!!!
Y/N 💌
lmfao why???
you lot are acting so weird today
weirder than normal
niko 🕶🦒
Please!!! It's important!!
Y/N 💌
OKAY OKAY RELAX
i’m going rn 🙄
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You sighed and turned off your phone, not thinking too deep about it but then you suddenly felt someone tap your shoulder.
"Excuse me."
Your head has never turned so fast you think your meck cracked. Cause that voice. That scouse accent. You don't want to be delusional but you know exactly who that sounds like.
There’s no way.
Absolutely no way.
You quickly blinked. Your eyes must me deceiving you because there is no chance that the Trent Alexander-Arnold is right in front of you right now.
"No way." you breathed out.
"Sorry, what?"
You stare at him, mouth agape, "You're Trent Alexander-Arnold."
"That, I am." he nodded, his famous smirk coming into full motion and you can make out his dimples. Yeah, it’s definitely Trent.
Your mouth opened and close like a fish, "Am I dreaming? Is this a dream? Can you pinch me or something?"
Trent looked at you weirdly, and that only fuelled your embarrassment, before a knowing smile made its way to his face, "You must be Y/N, right? The boys told me a lot about you."
"Trent Alexander-Arnold just said my name. What the fuck?"
A deep chuckled rumbled in his chest, “Language.”
Your whole body was on fire. What is going on.
Trent leaned towards you, “May I?” he said, sending you an awkward smile.
“What?” your whole brain was mush. He was too close.
He gestured to the box of sweets, “The cupcakes.”
“Oh! right. Sorry.” you moved aside, eyes flickering all over the room instead of staring at him. But he’s so pretty and he smells nice and— That would be weird! Staring at someone without saying anything? Creep.
“Y/N!”
Multiple voices screamed your name. You turned your head only to be met with five familiar faces.
When you heard the sounds of footsteps running from behind you, you were more than thankful for the intrusion.
“Oh, hey.” you breathed out, still trying to calm your heart beat down knowing that Trent was hovering beside you.
“Damn it.” Chunkz was the first to say after they regained their breaths.
Niko slapped Sharky’s back, making him wince, “We told you to be in charge of her location!”
Sharky’s mouth gaped open, “I was! She suddenly decided to come early!”
“Damn.”
You looked at the boys weirdly, “What’s going on?” taking a few steps towards them, “And why didn’t you tell me your professional footballer was Trent?!” you harshly whispered. There was no need tho, Trent heard everything.
Kenny stepped beside you, “It was supposed to be a surprise.”
“Surprise!” AJ cheerly exclaimed.
Shaking your head, you sent the boys a small smile, “Thank you, guys.”
Trent was silent the whole time this went down, which made you avert your eyes to him. Only to be surprised when his eyes were already on yours.
“Hi.” you softly muttered, hand shyly waving at him.
“Hey.” Trent sent you shy smile as well, your finished cupcake wrapper in his left hand as he extends his right, “Nice to meet you, I’m Trent.”
You introduced yourself, as your hand went to shake his. You could physically melt when his skin touched yours. This doesn’t feel real.
The boys looked back and forth between you both as they send knowing looks to each other when they noticed your lingering eyes and hands and how it was longer than necessary contact. What’s happening? Maybe this wasn’t a fail after all?
“Alright, then.” Niko cleared his throat, “We need to get filming.”
You nodded your head, deciding to walk beside Sharky and AJ.
“So?” AJ asked, looking at you with a questioning look.
“I am freaking out.” you whispered, hands clasping on Sharky’s hoodie.
They both laughed at your ‘trying to keep cool’ reaction.
You build up the courage to glance at Trent. He was talking to Chunkz, his side profile glowing with his dimples showing and you could feel your face became warm, and your sweaty hands where you both touched.
What the fuck is wrong with you. Stop looking. He’s gonna think you’re weird.
Trent turned his head, when he felt someone was looking at him. Your eyes widen when he looked at you, before swiftly looking away. Cute, Trent thought. Very pretty.
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betasquad Beta Squad FC’s newest signing 😍 plus we made a fan very happy ❤️ Check out our new vid!!!!
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niko You’re welcome @yourusername
⤷ yourusername i dont know who you are
sharky You owe us 😚
⤷ yourusername HELLO?? the surprise was a fail???
⤷ user5 babe you still met him 🤣
chunkz She was fangirling hard guys 😂😂
⤷ yourusername HUSH
kingkennytv I’m just happy I got the cupcakes!!
⤷ yourusername ken you’re an angel i love you
ajshabeel she was a make a wish kid guys!! we were nice enough to give her an opportunity of a lifetime 🫶
⤷ yourusername i actually hate you
user1 OH MY GOD
user2 Trent is soo fineee
user3 HOW DID Y/N REACT?????
user65 Y/N’S COMMENTS GOODBYE
user4 Did Y/N freak out?
⤷ user7 you need to watch the vid!! and stay until the end!
⤷ user8 they showed Y/N at the end
user5 the crossbar part was 😳😳😳
user6 Y/N didn’t post anything yet, is she okay????
user9 LMFAO THE END BIT
⤷ user13 IT WAS SO CUTEEEE
⤷ user10 im confused can someone tell me what this means?
⤷ user11 they asked Y/N to say play the trailer with Trent!!!!
⤷ user12 she was so shy 😭😭😭😭 it was so cute
⤷ user13 omg Y/N being shy???? this i have to watch
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betasquadfan OKAY before i talk about how good the new vid is can we please acknowledge how the boys tried to surprise Y/N with her celebrity crush but failed 😭😭😭 and how trent kept looking behind ONE SPECIFIC CAMERA THE ENTIRE TIME?!?!! and how her and trent said play the trailer together 🥹🥹 the boys are actually so sweet for that!
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user98 omg i thought i was the only one who noticed!!!!
user76 he was def looking at Y/N which- same Y/N is pretty asf
user09 And the crossbar part 😍😍
⤷ user18 the first thing he looked was AT THAT CAMERA which i am 96% sure Y/N was behind
⤷ user5 bye thats so hotttt
⤷ user16 he was trying to show off 🙄🙄 trying to win our mother over 🙄🙄
user6 Trent is so obvious that you’re in love with Y/N like we are 🤣🤣
user24 Y/N was so shy in the vid PLEASE I HAVE NEVER SEEN HER LIKE THAT
⤷ betasquadfan FR!!!! like babe you’re the baddest bitch around?? but also IT WAS TOO CUTE
⤷ user4 it was weird to see Y/N like that since she’s always so confident but it was also nice to see her smitten 🫶
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trentarnold66 replied to your story.
It was nice meeting you ☺️
Your cupcakes were amazing!
Maybe we could meet again for coffee?
As a date? ☺️
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reblog to support! <3
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1800-page-not-found · 2 years
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hello author (^▽^)
can I ask you to write vampire reader x human Yjh and Kdj relationship hc i thing it's would be interesting
HI!! THIS IS SUCH A CUTE RELATIONSHIP!
btw this is going to be a healthy relationship, im not a huge fan of writing toxic/abusive relationships ykyk
HELP I DIDN'T REALIZE YOU SAID HC AND IM ALREADY 3/4 IN WRITING EVERYTHING...ITS OK ILL JUST DO BOTH LMFAO
human yoo joonghyuk, kim dokja (separate) x vampire reader
summary: the awful sun...it burns! thus, your lover decides to (somehow) give you a coat that has sun resistance so you can finally step out.
Yoo Joonghyuk is a ruthless man. However, during his regressions, he came to find you, a vampire. And what was so interesting about you is that, you were a vampire before the apocalypse. At first he brought you along only because he found you useful. But then, when he was able to clear more and more scenarios with you, he started to develop these 'strange feelings' he calls them.
Being a vampire was a struggle for you. After all, there were so many people around you, it was hard to resist. you usually drank animal blood from the nearby butcher, but when the apocalypse hit, you lost your supply. But when you met him, Yoo Joonghyuk, everything changed.
Blood is like wine. The more it ages, the better it tastes. So, as a regressor, Yoo Joonghyuk's blood was amazing. Of course, he killed you the first few times he met you, but started warming up.
Now, as the relationship developed, and when you two started dating after, what, 7 regressions? Well, he realized it was hard for you to join him completing scenarios with your weakness of the sun.
He scoffed, "weak." he muttered under his breath as he turned away from you.
His actions were very different though. A week later, he brought a coat that looked almost identical to his, except in a beige color, and with different attributes. Yours made you gain sun resistance.
You cried when you stepped out in the sun, feeling warmth from the fiery ball for the first time. You hugged him dearly, thanking him over and over again.
Yoo Joonghyuk was shocked to say the least. As a man who's unfamiliar with such emotions, he awkwardly patted your back. He never realized how much this meant to you. After all, vampires have feelings to.
headcannons here
he definitely gets the coat first thing when he regresses
since the scent of blood is so strong to you, he will use his coat to wrap you up and calm you down
Where SP exists, YJH definitely gets jealous whenever SP gifts something to you at the exact time you need it.
ur blood bag, he volunteers
every time he regresses, its really weird
like just imagine some super over powered hot guy comes to you and says like-
"Let me be your blood bag i love you" or something LMAOOOO
Nah he wouldn't do that (he probably might)
It would be really awkward though because he'd try to like move the relationship really fast cuz he just wants to date you and hold hands and other lovey-dovey stuff
he's awkward in general
definitely has killed before to give you blood
brought back a bucket of blood once
you didn't drink it because like STDs yk
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Kim Dokja was like a child asking Santa Claus questions about Christmas when he first met you (pre apocalypse btw). I mean, you're just like the characters in his favorite novel!
It was an accident when he found out. I mean its not normal seeing your co-worker drink animal blood and eat raw animal meat is it? And i mean... it was pretty odd everyday when you came to work all bundled up.
When the apocalypse hit, the two of you were both on the train/subway. You were breathing heavily, trying to control yourself. He gave his coat to you and put it on top of your head, blocking your vision. Few minuets later, he gave you a grasshopper to kill.
Later on, after he became 'Demon King of Salvation,' he met 'Mass Production Maker' at the Gourmet Association when they were viewing the scenario and talking.
(I cant remember all they way how Mass Production Maker acts fyi)
"Mass Production Maker sir, I'd like to ask for a favor." It was rare for someone like the Demon King of Salvation to ask for a favor, well unless it was you. "Oh? And what may someone like you ask for from an old man like me?" Mass Production Maker did not take his eyes off the scenario, but you could tell he was listening to the rather newly born constellation.
"There's someone very dear to me who needs a rather special coat...I know you don't really do commissions but-" The Mass Production Maker laughed an old hearty laugh. "My, my, what young love folks like you have! How enjoyable! I like you young man, make sure to stay loyal, I'll do it for free as you helped me earn so many coins from the bet!" (I think that's what happened if I remember correctly?)
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when you two finally met again, Kim Dokja wrapped you in a lovely beige coat, just like his. "What is this?" you asked curiously. "A coat for you to step out in the sun!" You gasped. "R-really?! I can finally go outside?.."
He nodded and dragged you right next to where the shadows met the sun. You stopped, nervous to if this would work or not. Kim Dokja turned around and held your face. "Hey..It's going to work, I promise." He assured you.
[The constellation, "Demonic Judge of Fire" squeals in happiness.]
[500 coins have been sponsored]
"Alright then..." You slowly stepped out in the sun, eyes shut as you waited to burn but-you didn't? You slowly opened your eyes, your senses feeling the warmth on your face. "I'm-I'm in the SUN!" You jumped and hugged Kim Dokja. "Thank you Thank you!" You cried, tears running down your face. You could finally feel the warmth you longed for with him under the sun.
Headcannons!!!!!
Likes to give you blood
wants you to just drink all of his blood, i mean its not like he can't revive
Flabbergasted when you cried when he was dead for 3 days
He likes to hug you because you're always cold (cuz ur a vampire...ykyk)
Had a HUGEEEEEEE cultural (or vampire) shock when you didn't bite his neck but his hand instead
and the silver thing
and garlic
becomes a huge vampire nerd
will correct people when they say something wrong about vampires
outsiders will think HE'S the vampire because of how much he talks about them
likes to be carried bridal style by you with your super strength vampire abilities
first time you two ate together at a restaurant when he knew you were a vampire, he asked for a raw slab of meat with lots of blood
the waiter looked at him weirdly
everyone in the restaurant stared at the two of you
you guys got banned from it
THE ENDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
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happy74827 · 2 months
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I Can’t Get Enough
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[Colt Seavers x Female!Reader]
Synopsis: Fast relationships aren’t always a "bad" thing, especially when you understand the circumstances involved.
WC: 692
Category: Fluff? Spice/Lime? This is just babble honestly LMFAO
I needed to get this out of my head (and it’s my birthday 💃), so I apologize for how short it is 😅
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Relationships become something special really fast if they have a common passion and share the same dream. And I know that's cheesy, but it's also true.
You and Colt were living proof of this. Friends at the start of production, friends through Jody, and friends still. But not the same friends as you were before. No, because an incident brought you two together—and in my experience, nothing else does that.
It happened like sparks or firecrackers. There was a spark of attraction, and then one day, you looked at him, and your heart went boom. You'd never been with another guy before, but with Colt, it felt so natural. Like he was made for you, and you were made for him.
And when he came to your house dirty, bloody, and wet like a dog, you knew right away. It didn't matter what the cops said. It didn't matter how many times the local sheriff assured you he'd handle it. That night, in your house, you knew without a shadow of a doubt that Colt was innocent. And you did everything you could to help him, even if it meant breaking the law and committing a felony.
And Colt...
Colt, for his part, did not care what you were doing when he came back. He just wanted you. And after all, it wasn't the first time that you'd seen him bloody and bruised. He was pretty realistic with his stunts, and you were used to seeing him come back from work covered in fake blood.
But when you saw him there at your doorstep, hands grasping the door frame, blood on his shirt, his eyes wild with panic... you knew.
And you couldn't let him go.
So you grabbed that shirt of his, and you kissed him.
That's the way it was between you. There was always something there. But it took a tragedy for you to notice it.
In my opinion, that's the best kind of romance. When it comes to relationships, I like it when the guy and the girl are in a crisis. That's the time you find out what someone is really like. What are they really like? Are they going to be there for you, or will they run at the first sign of trouble?
Colt ran into the rain. Colt ran to your house, and he trusted you. He trusted you to help him. That's why he went to you. Because he knew that you would be there for him and that you would be willing to do whatever it took.
He was right, too. Because when you saw him there on your doorstep, you didn't even think twice about it. He probably didn't predict that reaction, but was he complaining? Not in the slightest.
His hands went around you, and he pulled you in. He kissed you hard, and you could taste his blood and feel the coldness of his body. You knew you needed to get him out of the rain, so you pushed him into your house and locked the door behind you.
Everything after that? It was a blur. You didn't remember where you were. You didn't care. You were lost in him.
All you knew was that while you were holding onto him, and you were kissing him, and you were looking at him, he was the only thing in the world that mattered.
Nothing else was important.
Nothing.
You and him, and the love between you, it was like a light that burned brighter and stronger than anything else in the universe.
And in the darkness of your living room, your clothes now soaked through from him, your heart pounding like a drum, you held onto him and refused to let go.
Just like that, you couldn't get enough of him.
So, yes, relationships do develop fast in these kinds of situations. I believe it's because the heart wants what the heart wants. And when the heart wants, it doesn't let go.
It won't be persuaded.
It won't be reasoned with.
And it won't stop until it gets what it wants.
And, evidently, you and Colt are no different.
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thepunkmuppet · 11 months
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just finally got to watch workin boys and OH MY GODDDDDDD I HAVE THOUGHTS
SPOILERS AHEAD
jeff as hidgens is so. he’s just so
chad’s name stayed the same even though it was changed to workin’ girls everyone clapped
🎶 JUST ME AND MY SIX BOYFRIENDS 🎶 WE WON WE WON WE WON
hidgens backstory oh my fucking god. what the hell this man has suffered more than jesus
the songs are amazing I wasn’t expecting to want to buy the album but now I actually need it their vocals are all SO GOOD mariah bryce and kim are absolutely incredible
bill and ted are on a date and you cannot convince me otherwise (I am delusional). also I love that ted loved it bc he was fucking INTO IT in tgwdlm
still need to know why hailey was dumping ass so much
EXCUSE ME WHO ARE YOU
I love the detail that paul didn’t want to go with bill lmfao
ted got brutally murdered again. I knew they would do it but it’s still hilarious
they really said ✨dutch angles ✨ huh
their real stage manager played the stage manager 😭 I love it he has a self insert hatchetfield oc
linda’s the only person who auditioned but didn’t get in lmfao hidgens really said #eat the rich
I love ruth SO MUCH rip queen (again). lauren managed to make her even more cute and pathetic than she is npmd, what a top notch blorbo 100/10
COURTNEY THRASH’S GIRLFRIEND AS A WORKIN’ GIRL SHE’S COME SO FAR
bailey wearing his uniform and taking his gun to a community theatre production why is he a himbo and why do I love him
I know I’ve already said this but sweet jesus mariah and kim’s voices are actually the best things ever they are so perfect in every way
grace just cannot do anything without discovering her passion for violent murder and lethal weapons and honestly girlboss
“our wet sinewy bodies” “I just came”
UP TO MY AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSSS
hidgens’ death scene was absolutely stunning oh my god
the fact that richie and grace went together to support ruth?? so cute to me. this obviously isn’t in the npmd timeline so it’s just adorable to me that they actually became friends in this timeline, I’m obsessed.
also they had an opportunity for pete and steph and tom and becky to be there on dates but OH WELL
THE ZOMBIES WERE TERRIFYING. OH MY GOD I AM LOSING MY MIND OVER HOW AMAZING THAT SCENE WAS THE MAKEUP THE VOICE EFFECTS I JUST I C CN AHSNJDJSKUDEJ
ALSO THE FACT THAT YOU HAVE NO IDEA IF THEY REALLY ARE GHOSTS OR IF HIDGENS IS JUST CRAZY AND HALLUCINATING OR IF THEY’RE DEMONS IN DISGUISE AND “CHAD” IS A LORD IN BLACK OR A DIFFERENT BEING OR WHAT LIKE YOU HAVE NO IDEA. OPEN-TO-INTERPRETATION PLOT POINTS YOU WILL ALWAYS BE FAMOUS
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meraki-yao · 4 months
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RWRB Script: Meraki Thoughts and Notes, ACT II
Part 1
Here we go with the rest of the movie!
Highlight:
Red: Deleted Scenes
Yellow: Different from the movie
Blue: Fun/Interesting Movement Descriptions
Green: Extra Information of character/set
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Three deleted scenes! Straight out the gate!
According to the people who went to the early screening, I think either 66 or 67 is a screen of Ellen's female staffers greeting her
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One of these deleted montages was Alex on Zoom in a suit and his undies
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"Something Wonderful from Henry" I wanna cry
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"Trying to chill his excitement" to "going at each other" yeah dude you have no chill when it comes to your man
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This is different: In the movie we don't get this; Alex blinks away and gradually sits up, and this is super minor but he just went "wake up, shit shit shit"
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So these two lines aren't in the final product. Kinda glad, cause Alex my dear, there is nothing more glaringly obvious that someone is here than you saying "no one is here" before Zahra actually does anything
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The entire description of Henry in the closet lmfao: "crimson with embarrassment", "But he is a prince after all"
This is the word/description Sarah was talking about during panels
"barely lucid" yup
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What the fuck could have been deleted here? Also it's 87A?? A???
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Two more??? What the fuck???
We lost Ellen kissing Alex's temple :(
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This line was not in the movie, but confirmation that Oscar was told before the Texas vacation
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"Young and tanned and free" my heart-
Another one
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Okay I get that when you do a montage you get a bunch of footage and then pick and choose the ones that suit the final product the most but COME ON FOUR??? FOUR???
Confirmation that 1, Henry was wearing Alex's clothes in the bar scene, 2, He was drunk
"He looks like a true Texan" does he? But "completely charmed" awww
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"Tiny stage" ... I mean yeah
"his most royal Freddie Mercury" lmfao bet Nick had fun with that
"giving it his all, having the time of his life", "smiles deliriously" 🥹
"with eyes that can only be described as love" Taylor took that line and wrote it into his eyes
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One of these is the fireside "Prince with his heart on the outside" monologue
What the fuck is the other one, but which one is it
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"He knows it will always matter" Henry :(
"tightens into a grimace of emotional pain" "as if all the joy is draining from his body"
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"the faint tendrils of daylight still visible"
so in the movie we just hear one "Henry" and not the rest of the line, kinda prefer it that way
Now this is weird: there's supposed to be a deleted scene of Henry lying on the bed and Alex checking on him, kissing his forehead where 99 is, but we don't have that: then 101 is deleted scene after Henry already left the house?
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"Of course he does" 😭
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Again, I understand how montages are designed, filmed and edited, but THREE? THREE
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I... don't really have words. It speaks for itself.
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"stopping at his favourites", "Henry is more peaceful and contented than we've ever seen him", "Alex watches him as if seeing him really for the first time" I wrote that in one fic lmfao
Again the "look that can only be described as love"
"The glowing statues surround and protect them"
"as if trying not to break the spell"
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Henry was supposed to stand in place?
Ok this was meant for a shorter Alex, I fucking wonder if they cast TZP, look at the boy's height and went "welp"
"Their hope filling this vast and holy space" I CRY
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WHAT THE ABSOLUTE FUCK, I KNOW THE KENSINGTON BREAKFAST IS HERE BUT WHAT THE FUCK, WHY ARE THERE THIS MANY
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So in the movie we got Henry trying not to cry, instead of actually crying. Don't really know which one hurts more
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"His world imploding" oh my love...
In the movie it was "I need to call him"
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We were robbed of a Henry Bea moment :(
Again with the deleted montages!!!
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Alex's inner voice lmao
another deleted montage, but this is right before the speech? What would it be???
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What a description of Pip lmao
Love the (lecturing) in brackets
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Awwwww 🥹
Hang on I reached my limit again fuck
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vasito-de-leche · 5 months
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crawling back from a hole to GEEK about suitcase gang members that would get along the best 💁‍♀️
- x, medicine pocket, and sotheby: lethal IRB nightmares
- med poc and sotheby: explosive concoctions
- centurion and tennant: harbingers of serial bankruptcy
- mesmer jr. and 6: orderliness
- dikke and 6: law and order (dun dun)
- melania and bkornblume: the thief and her gal in the chair (they're a ship too)
- eagle and shamane: shamane is MAD impressed at this girl's wilderness skills + will also be willing to teach her stuff
- horropedia, an an lee, and blonney: it's always horro and blonney / horro and an an but never these three together. you can bet that blon and horro surrounds an an to ask about her ghost vacuum
- blonney and desert flannel: she's in patch 1.5 but her design tells me that she's rocking her closet which is a bonding topic with blonney
- lilya and jiu niangzi: girl is in patch 1.6 but all that is known for now for global players is that she makes killer alcohol. cue lilya as her willing taste-tester
- sputnik 1 and 37: just 37 marvelling this perfect sphere
- alien T and 37: this girl again eyeing the ufo's circumference
- kaala bauna and voyager: kaala has a question or two about the heavenly bodies
- dikke and knight: s w o r d
ohhh fun! here's a few dynamics and characters I think would get along since you've shared your own!
Baby Blue and every character younger than her--especially Balloon Party
Baby Blue is just 17 but I do like to think that, bc of her connection with Wonderland and innocence, she would act as a big sister for many of the younger arcanists. especially Balloon Party since the two reject adults or the idea of growing up!
Blonney and Bunny Bunny
both characters have a focus on movie or hollywood as a concept, both are also girls around the same age range who know what it's like to be put into very restrictive stereotypes (the blonde bimbo, the southerner). I think they'd get along, and it's very funny to think about Blonney go straight to Bunny Bunny for help if Jessica ever needs help, since Bunny Bunny's family had a farm lmfao
but I also just rlly love girls who are total opposites on a surface level being close friends bc of the small little things they do have in common
Sweetheart and Bette, following the same reasoning as the Blonney and Bunny Bunny
THE MOST FAMOUS ACTRESS AND A STRUGGLING ACTRESS...BEING FRIENDS... SEEING EACH OTHERS PERSPECTIVES....
sorry I'm very passionate abt Sweetheart being so jaded and tired of the way hollywood treated her and warped her image to be nothing but a product for the audience's consumption. and very passionate abt Bette near-delusional hope of making it into the industry
Sonetto and Zima, both being poets
I could've added Charlie or The Fool since the idea is similar, but I feel like Zima would work best?
all three of these characters cherish the power of the written word and have used it against injust systems, but I think that Charlie's insecurities would hold her back a lot from truly bonding with Sonetto thru poetry, and The Fool is too much of a revolutionary--his very open and vocal "down with the monarchy, every person in authority is a fucking fool" vibe would clash with Sonetto's obedient dog aspects. Zima, however, feels perfect to act as another poet for Sonetto to befriend and a mentor to slowly introduce her to more open ideologies
SURE hes a recluse and socially inept bc of the years of isolation in exile, BUT HES NOT SHY WHEN IT COMES TO SHARING HIS VIEWS AND THOUGHTS OR WORK. hes the perfect idea of subdued and quiet strength, I rlly think Sonetto could really benefit from having him as a mentor or responsible adult figure
Pavia and Centurion
YES, I KNOW TENNANT IS VERY OBVIOUS FOR CENTURION BC SHE SCAMS PPL AND CENTURION IS VERY LUCKY SO SHE WINS AT EVERYTHING AND PUT MANY PLACES INTO BANKRUPCY
but I'm NEVER letting go of casino dealer Pavia from the artificial somnambulism stages. these two? theyre ABSOLUTE MENACES together, the luckiest girl in the world addicted to adrenaline and thrills? with the most deranged "who gives a shit" mafia guy who does whatever he wants?
they'd be playing an extreme version of buckshot roulette together, they'd ruin the economy together just bc its funny. they dont know each other's full names. they hang out and bitch about life together. they dont care abt their respective life stories. they're the first person they call when they're bored. they've been in many many life threatening situations. they dont know each others favorite colors
do you see my vision!!!
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yuurivoice · 5 months
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Heyy!! I've noticed in your spicy audios you don't really tend to use SFX and barely use it all? Is there a particular reason behind it or something? very curious
A few factors are involved.
First off, a preface of saying it's been a lot more common and frequent more recently because now that I'm medicated it's feels a lot less like work to add at least some squishy noises. That's going to be a recurring theme moving forward.
The straightforward answer? It's a huge pain in the ass to make it sound good and there's a big fuckin difference between a ~1 minute clip with a full suite of sounds and a 10+ minute audio. If there are folks out there producing that level of intricate audio smut regularly, without a sound designer, good on em. Making a convincing and accessible AMBIGUOUS fuck scene with sfx and the like is a challenge and I don't often feel equipped to tackle it. Plus, I've been pretty damn successful without doing all that...so, that hasn't exactly felt like a huge flaw or missing piece.
Now, meaty plaps and squishy fuck sounds is pretty easy and is something I'm doing regularly now vs only on occasions. So I'm excited for that.
Then the deeper answer that applies in some cases is that I like the idea of the literal listener making their OWN accompanying noises. There's a sort of fine balance between immersion and immersing someone in an experience that doesn't quite match their own needs or expectations and takes them out of it. There's no one size fits all solution.
So that has always factored in heavily with my consideration. There are some times where specific sounds feel logical and it definitely enhances the experience.
There's certainly room for more that falls into my specific wheelhouse, which I feel much more capable of adding to my workload now.
Also, funny enough, I've actually been exploring some spicy SFX packs to do some more intricate scenes that lean more heavily into them. Or at least do a special series of shorter audios with higher production just for fun.
Sort of a if it ain't broke don't fix it situation in the end, but I am eager to step things up more and more as I'm feeling more capable and willing. It can't really be overstated how much of my content was created by dragging myself to the both and fighting myself just to get shot done. "I am mentally ill" isn't a very satisfying explanation but uh, in retrospect, it was pretty fucking hard to accomplish much of anything without holding myself hostage and bargaining until I overcame every instance of procrastination. So, under those circumstances, you'll have to forgive me for not wanting to break out the lube and fingerfuck my fist before hitting the post button. Lmfao
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HELLO YES ITS ME IM COPY PASTING THE THING HERE:
YOU JUST MADE THE CHILD IN ME BLOOM. THE QUESTION LIST (THIS IS THE FIRST TIME IM SEEING THIS AU BUT GOD FORBID):
× Who's Hoodie
× Is it in the same time setting as MH
× Who PLAYS AS ALEX
× Did it start the same way as a dumb school film project?
× From what I understood Scar takes the role of Tim, is bro a chainsmoker too LMFAO.
× Is Grian canonically gay too
× Would it be a wild correct guess that Amy is Lizzie and Alex is Joel since yk based from obvious plot points?
(before I start, placing this disclaimer here at the top since I have friends who don't frequent mcyt and might get confused, but when I talk abt this au I'm specifically talking abt the characters, not the content creators themselves. Anyway)
SO IM GONNA GO AHEAD AND SHARE WHOSE WHO FIRST
Jay- Grian, it made the most sense in my head, but I actually flip flopped on this so many times bc he also works so well as Tim or Alex, but at some point I went "wait it's an au, we can see how the story changes with Grian as the protag" so Grian's the protag now
Tim/Masky- Scar, I'm a transparent desert duo enjoyer and had a similar flip flop with him as I did Grian bc he'd also work as Jay but I was halfway through that drawing and had a similar thought process to the one i had abt Grian
Brian/Hoodie- Jimmy, I wanted to keep the cast focused to life series and evo members and he made the most sense to me lore wise, especially with the idea that in this au he was one of the ones with the earliest exposure to The Watcher (bc I love Canary Curse symbolism)
Alex- This one was the toughest choice bc no matter what a fav is going to loose it. Good thing this based on the Life Series! As much as I Love the idea of Joel and Lizzie as Alex and Amy, I actually went with Martyn. Again, the character is pretty involved with the Watcher Lore so it made the most sense as the character that is arguably most effected by it. (Although for a brief moment I considered Mumbo Jumbo bc,,, how fucking funny would that be)
Jessica- Jessica's gotta be Pearl right? It makes the most sense for it to be Pearl, I don't even need reasoning for this it makes sense
Amy- So who's Amy then? Scott actually! He's not Martyn's boyfriend in this, he's just a really good friend of his who was super involved in the production. Also like in mh, he's Pearl's roommate.
Sarah- Ren. Can't have a life series au featuring desert duo and not have some renchanting. Who else would be one of the leading actors in Martyn's short film?
Seth- Big B, again Evo connection made sense to me, and depending on your own personal theory on who the third person running the totheark account is, both Big B and Ren have interesting implications, even if both their rolls are p minor in this au
With the cast out of the way other questions !!!
It's set in a kind of nebulous time frame that's probably a little closer to present day, but it does still start with a student film project. When asked Why Martyn chose to use tapes he says something about wanting a more authentic feel to the film but in reality he just thought using tapes was a cool idea and doesn't want to admit that it's kind of impractical now.
In this au Scar doesn't smoke, but instead I like the headcannon that he just has boxes of candy/bubblegum cigarettes on him at all times. He'll pull one out, pause, and offer one to someone and when they say no he's just like "Okay, your loss" and watch as they get all confused when he starts unwrapping it asdfghkgkdjhfjsh
Is Grian gay in this au? Whose to say. (Real answer tho, I'm a notorious Jam shipper and while I'm not an active shipper when it comes to hermitcraft or the life series, I don't really mind it so the relationship is left kind of ambiguous)
But yes THANK YOU DO MUCH FOR GIVING ME A CHANCE TO TALK ABT THIS IVE BEEN RAMBLING TO MY FRIEND WHO DOESNT UNDERSTAND ANYTHING IVE BEEN SAYING FOR DAYS
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dumbgutt2 · 2 months
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some of my thoughts on season 4 (possible spoilers ahead also wall of text ahead LMFAO)
it was a pretty good season, but even if it wasn't i was gonna watch it anyway. theres def things i would've done different. i feel like nothing was really done? like it felt like nothing happened but lots happened at the same time.
i would've liked to have seen more of the boys mainly, i feel like we never saw them!!! i wish hughie was less of a punching bag with no real conclusion, like let the guy breathe. the stuff with frenchie and colin was alright, but i think frenchie could have come to the self realisation on his own without needing someone as the catalyst? after the tekknight episode its like everything from the first few episodes were just put on the back burner and forgotten about. there was a lot of stuff that could've been developed but weren't. maybe in season 5 we'll get more answers to things but thats just what i'm hoping. like what was going on with annie's powers? hello? cate and sam from gen v were just....there? idk i haven't really watched gen v tbf but they just appeared, stood around, vanished then came back briefly for the finale. also just the tekknight episode. what did we gain other than shock value? and the fact they killed tekknight off so fast too felt so lacklustered. there could've been so much done with his character but there was nothing. the episode itself felt aimless really, and it could've been condensed into half the episode it was instead of the full hour. i would've been more effective if things were more so implied instead of shown outright for the le weird freaky shock value, and that would've cut so much time. it just wasn't funny???? made me roll my eyes a lot like we get it, we don't need to see all this. also neuman's death??? i was so mad. i did like some things though were the storylines involving MM. he's been a fav of mine since the start and i think everything that was going on with him made a lot of sense. i did like as well the brief (and i mean extremely brief) glimpses into hughie and annie's relationship and how its developed over the years. sage and firecracker were interesting, mainly sage since i feel like we didn't see that much of firecracker other than her being like a starlight hating past groomer who is obsessed with homelander. sage was fun, i liked a lot of her scenes. again though, i felt like there just wasn't enough. in the past seasons when a new character is introduced by the end of the season we know them pretty well and have a good understanding of them, but this season it felt like we didn't really get to see anything. maybe thats just me.
overall it was a good season. i did enjoy it like usual there were just things i wish were different. now to ramble about production because i'm a lame little film student. from a production standpoint it was very strong, like the other seasons. the effects were great, i do love the practical effects used in the show. good soundtrack, great costume design on the new characters. everything looked great. as someone who wants to specialise in production design i always love the effort put into the set design of the show, and i feel exactly the same about it this season.
i just really hope that season 5 wraps everything up, since season 4 felt like it was just an introduction of the 5th season. these are just my thoughts of course and i've probably forgotten a lot, let me know what you think.
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Glad someone acknowledges that what Mabel did is morally reprehensible, and what bothers me is people defend it by saying "she's 12". I mean idk about ya'll but when I was 12 I wasn't risking my family's lives to a nightmare demon for a dude, I was doing my fuckin homework lmfao.
I love Gravity Falls to death but the way they turned Mabel from a silly kid to an actual horrible person speaks to how badly the writers can't write female characters to save their pissholes, and fans defending that shit annoy me to no end. They do the exact same thing when the fucked up shit Princess Bubblegum did is brought up
I’m gonna co-opt this ask because this lets me talk about two things regarding criticism that I find really interesting in the internet world-that being “perception of wrongness” and “heart moments”.
Perception of Wrongness:
I can actually understand why people had a hard time calling Mabel poorly written by the end of series, because this is a trend that happens a lot when talking about media criticism as a whole, and it is the subconscious concern that one is going to be perceived as morally wrong for taking umbrage with a character or product that concerns a well poisoned topic.
Mabel is a girl. And because Mabel is a girl, there was no shortage of bad faith arguments regarding Mabel from episode 1 on as being anything from obnoxious to a Mary Sue to an actively bad person (before doing anything that one could call actually wrong).
So, when a fandom space is poisoned by arguments that boil down to “Mabel is a girl and I hate women”, people have a tendency to overcorrect in the other direction and decide that the character is without flaw.
You actually see this a lot with the infamous movie “Fight Club”, which garnered a fanbase of pathetic Andrew Tate wannabes slobbering on Tyler Durden’s knob. So now if someone (especially a guy) says they like the movie most peoples reaction is immediate disgust even though the movie itself is a blatant critique on toxic masculinity based on a book written by a gay man inspired by a hate crime he was a victim of. Well poisoned arguments made the thing poison, so anyone who touches it must be a poisoner. You don’t want to be perceived as condoning the the former-perceived as morally wrong.
I myself had issues with this actually, leading up to Nathan and I watching through the MCU I had an instinctive reaction to be disdainful of his opinion that Captain Marvel was a bad film even though I know Nathan is one of the most “girl movie” positive people on the planet. When we talked about the movie as we watched it it became clear that the problem was that Carol didn’t get to be a cool superhero because they spent so much of the movie proving she “deserved” a spot in the MCU when none of the other heroes needing such proof. Which I agreed with!
It’s hard to untrained yourself from internet discourse brain, but you’ll be better for the trouble if you do so.
On the other side of the creator/consumer spectrum!
Heart Moments:
Creators love the things they make. That is an obvious and redundant statement. But the love of that creation goes through a lot of changes. We’ve talked before about how creators will often insert characters from early drafts of projects into the final product even if the product doesn’t fit with them anymore (see Hunter from TOH), but we don’t talk as much about a similar phenomenon wherein a creator has a burst of inspiration and they can see so perfectly a moment in time for their art that rests heavy on their heart.
This moment could be a cool shot, an impressive piece of cinematography or animation, an actor giving a specific delivery, or a line you want more than anything. But as you write that moment is no longer viable. It doesn’t fit with the greater piece or writes a character out of character.
This is what happened with Mabel in Sock Opera. Alex saw the ability to have Bill say a line about siblings and sacrifice, which would allow one of the twins to say a big line that when the Stan twist was revealed everyone would go “OHHHHH SHIT SO WHEN HE ASKED WHY SOMEONE WOULD SACRIFICE EVERYTHING FOR A SIBLING AND SHE SAID DIPPER WOULD IT WAS ACTUALLY A PARALLEL AND-“. Mabel and the ramifications of the scene to make that heart moment realized were disregarded in its addition.
I actually noticed this for the first time in a Rooster Teeth show I’m fond of called “Camp Camp”. In the 4th season, fan darling David has a solo adventure in “The Forest” where he’s lost in the woods and struggles to survive leading to a nervous breakdown wherein he near kills a wolf, decides against it, and learns a lesson about the importance of kindness in the face of misery.
Problem being that if you know the show at all, David is literally the worst person to do this episode with. David is not only a skilled and experienced outdoorsman who made it his life goal to become a camp counselor as a child and loves the woods, but he’s also the only character who’s primary trait in unrepentant kindness to anyone no matter the cost. To the point that it’s actually his largest vice as it gets him and his loved ones in dangerous situations.
But nobody cared because David has a breakdown was something that looked good in gif sets. It was an episode built around a “Heart Moment”-this one being everyone’s favorite blorbo screaming and crying while emotionally collapsing. And that was a Rooster Teeth cartoon that’s messy as hell-Gravity Falls is groundbreaking shit! But both still suffered at the same root issue.
It’s hard to let go of the scenes on your heart. When the thing you’re creating means so much to you, and that part of it rests on your heart so heavy, it’s hard to bring yourself to remove the latter. But you have to ask if the character you worked so hard to bring to life is worth potentially sacrificing to get that one moment off your heart.
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ofmdee · 3 months
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been having some thinky thoughts today, and for a while, rly, abt my Feelings abt breathing underwater and i tried to type something up on twitter but that jsut was not letting me think my thoughts correctly
i love BU........... so goddamn much. it started out as nothing more than a silly idea abt little mermaid ed meeting stede and kind of ballooned into what ive built it up into today. it's so important to me... but it's making me a little miserable right now?
miserable because i dont want to work on it, but i WANT TO want to work on it, i want to tell this story and read the finished product, ive got so many ideas, but i just. cannot get myself to do the actual WORK of making sentences and then staging all the pics........... what used to be a fun little pastime now feels like a chore, an obligation, a compulsion almost. it sucks, but it sucks more NOT doing it, you know what i mean? idk.
i know ive built it up into this big THING to myself, like... idk, i do this so often, i have big ideas and love to plan and organize them and then i get going with such intensity until i abruptly fizzle out. i start things and dont finish them, and i guess i just rly dont want this to be another thing that gets thrown on my unfinished projects pile :/
i have the next 2 parts drafted, but every time i go back to poke at them and edit them i just get so disheartened because it's obvious that my heart wasn't really in writing them, and it's difficult to salvage a rough draft like that. part of me wants to just delete those parts entirely and say fuck it im taking an indefinite hiatus, and i will start fresh when this is fun again! which would probably be the best thing, actually, but... i am reluctant to do that, because i just dont have anything else to rly fill my time rn.
i havent been getting a lot of joy out of... anything, rly, for a long time now, im so bored and apathetic and even my normal go to things arent cutting it anymore. and idk if it's a depression thing or if im truly outgrowing some interests, but either way i know i need to get more Things in my life somehow, because writing and sims are my two biggest pastimes, and then i combined them, and then i got sick of both so ive got so little to go on! so i keep poking at the things that i used to love, hoping to find that spark again 😪 i love these little guys and their little world!!! and it makes me sad that im not actually having Fun with the PROCESS.
it doesn't help that i am constantly torn between man i wish more ppl read my fic!!! i work so hard on it!! and man i never want anyone to perceive me or my writing ever it's so amateur!! idk what i want and idk what i want to DO about it!!
so, idk!! idk where this is all going, lol, i just... wanted to try and organize these thoughts somehow.
trying to reason w myself that at the end of the day, i am writing a fanfiction. that's it. it's not that big of a deal, and yet it feels huge to me, somehow. I don't wanna let down the ppl who are reading it, and i dont wanna let myself down again, either.
BUT it's not supposed to make me feel miserable it is supposed to be fun i am lowkey crying rn because like urghghghgh why isnt it fun?!!?!
so. i think i gotta do some more thinking, because not making any kind of decision is making things worse! and idk, if all of this hasnt put u off of the idea of my fic, here is the series page lmfao i could use some encouragement i guess......
but i am going to seriously put more thought into an official hiatus, because i think i am getting Too preoccupied with it again and it's messing with me!!!
i actually had a decent time doing those kitty ed pics today, even tho they didn't do so hot, so maybe i am just gonna try to focus on that kind of thing, doing stuff that actually catches my attention, and also doing things without the intention of sharing them at all. allowing things to be messy. i get so caught up in the thought of someone else seeing my work that i paralyze myself trying to make it PERFECT.
i had a decent time doing that oneshot from ed's pov as well. so maybe i need to work on projects that are a bit smaller scale. i dont have to say goodbye to BU stuff forever, but i am just so ALL OR NOTHING that it feels like a way bigger decision than it actually is 😓
so i guess....... im gonna sleep on it for a while. think about it and try and come to a firm decision. because if i take a break, i need to REALLY take a break, which includes not thinking about it all the time and constantly beating myself up for not doing it 😅
idk, thank you if you read this far, here are a few kitty pics of ed for ur time:
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nereidprinc3ss · 3 months
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ok im gonna complain abt my adhd meds
so im on vyvanse and i’ve tried like every stimulant under the sun and unfortunately none of them work that well for me so i just gave up and started taking vyvanse which was the last one i tried on a very long list and it makes me so full of vigor and excitement for life and i wanna be so productive for like the first 2 hours after i take it and then i feel myself crashing and like getting into my existential dread bag and i just get this anxious pit in my stomach and its terrible i really wish i didnt need medication to function, cause it just makes me so depressed for a significant portion of the day but without it i will just lay in bed and do nothing but idk
and also cw for mentions of suppressed hunger/food stuff/weight fluctuation PLS don’t read if that’s not good for u, i am by no means promoting unhealthy eating habits but just ranting abt my own that i have no control over and would not wish upon anyone lol
it also fucks with my appetite a lot and like all stimulants do but it just makes me really really anxious in general but then the added anxiety of reaching the end of the day and being like i know i’ve had nowhere near enough calories today and that is scary cause i literally need calories to be alive lmfao but like i just can’t stomach anything and like being aware that im starvinf myself and feeling so powerless to do anything about it bc food makes me genuinely gag sometimes when i take it is not a good feeling at all!!! and like i can feel my pulse in my whole entire body and my heart is beating so fast its just terrible and there’s nothing i can do bc without it im nonfunctional and will do nothing with my life!! and ny weight fluctuated so drastically throughout high school that now im really hyper sensitive to weight/body changes and I don’t own a scale or anything but I just get so paranoid about gaining/losing weight, i just don’t wanna go through all that again, and it sucks to have the most all or nothing eating habits I hate it
and i also have pots so like i pass out when i stand up enough as it is i cant afford to not be eating as well😭
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hiii!!!! im back girliee :) sorry i fell of the face of the earth for a little bit. no pressure to answer this fast its not super important lol
the last few chapters have been so delectable!!! love getting kyle action but also ghoap/gazsoap/ghostgaz was YUM!!!! 🤤🤤 I'd be lying if I said I wasn't excited to get back to the camera/Simon's bond conflicts too tho lol 😅
haven't been able to play much COD recently due to being busy :( (+ I've been playing The Last Of Us and I may be a bit obsessed with Joel Miller.....I really need to stop playing multiple video games at once lol) (also actively playing Genshin Impact)
I HAVE FUN HEADCANNONS
idk where this idea came from but I have a headcannon that the TV in the rec room is just lowkey the worst. Old, slow, and the base is out in the middle of nowhere so it limits a lot of their TV options.
Don't have streaming because it requires a payment/subscription and something about not being able to hook it up to an account/being on a military base/not safe to have clues to their money or personal lives (I know nothing about the military forgive me). They do have cable but because their base is in the middle of buttfuck nowhere they get only the strangest, most low-production channels out there.
I saw a youtube video a while ago about a British reality TV show where a female contestant is shown a bunch of dicks, nothing else, and she has to decide who she'd want to go out with based on that alone 😂😂 it was completely uncensored, so dicks would just be fully hanging out there. that's the type of shit that they get on the cable in the rec room LMFAO
feel like the only option for personalized TV/movies is the old DVD player hooked up to the TV (that was there when they moved into the place 😭) so the boys constantly have a collection of DVDs they're always rewatching, or they buy new ones/ship them in when there's something new they want to watch
I'm the type of person who will watch bad movies or reality TV shows just so I can giggle at them, so I FULLY believe that the pack would find some shitty knock-off reality TV show and lock in to watch the new episode every week together
if the boys and/or 'mega ever want to watch something popular/that would usually be on streaming they just have to get it off some backstreet website or something like that (they have burner laptops specifically for this purpose)
hope you're having a good day/night/afternoon and that you have a good week as well :) stay safe, slept, and hydrated!!!<3
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Aww no need to apologize!! Things happen, people get busy. I'll always be here, hanging out (well, not quite as often right now but i'll see stuff eventually!!)
Aww thank you, thank you I'm glad you enjoyed them!!! They have been rather delicious, but don't worry, we will be getting back into the fluff and ANGST very quickly. I've been dragging the plot out more than I wanted to so now I'm rectifying that lmao.
I own The Last Of Us (it came with my PS4 when I bought it four years ago) but I still haven't played it because I suck at playing games lol. I either play all the way through at once or I play for an hour and then turn it off and don't touch it for months lol. Same even with the Sims. I go through cycles of playing for hours everyday and then not touching it for weeks and weeks.
No but like that idea would be so true lmaoo. Just an old fuzzy TV that has no streaming capabilities. They have a very vast collection of DVDs (organized by Simon of course) which is how they keep themselves sane lmao. They get like ten channels and flip between sports and daytime TV and game shows 😂 it's a routine now, sitting and watching some random game show at night.
Hey, they break a lot of laws already, what's the shame in playing pirates? 😉
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