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why not mix the old with the new! mercedes and santana if they were wrestlers, mainly based off of much older drawings i did of mercedes wrestlinG.. FULL CIRCLE!
#doodles#i should find those drawings agaIN#im sure i still hve eM#glee art#thats all ya get SEE YA#also these are based off my own headcanons visually
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Was Celia drunk as fuck or is this something supernatural?? 👀
Who the fuck is Jack?? 👀
Alice is such a delight, I love her!
Oof so one or both of them have trauma involving grandparents then.
I love Samama & Alice so much. 💜 They have a great dynamic!
Oh shit, right, Gwen is probably still getting over Mr. Bonzo too. 👀
"I just… I dunno. When I left the coffee shop, it felt like someone was following me."
Please don't take away Alice, she's one of my faves! I hope this post doesn't age poorly. Watch me have to quote this post very soon.
OH NO, is it that [ERROR] following her??? 😰
"Don’t joke about that, mate. I was dreaming about it all day." Okay, yeah, that's a creature.
Sam & Alice are both about to run into a creature... 👀
"Classifying unspeakable horrors all night for no discernible reason?" @/entities-of-posts & @/which-entity-this-post-serves is that you? :]
Hmm, now why is this episode called "marked?" I assumed Mr. Bonzo was gonna find his mark, but maybe Alice is marked by an entity/creature that was locked in the Magnus Institute?
"giving up the ghost" okay so someone saw an apparition? Honestly not sure what entity this episode is about so far.
It's giving The Corruption ✨🧟♀️⚰️ (maybe The Buried)
"It’s just that one of the graves had a body in that was too well-preserved for the age it should have been." 👀👀👀
This thing is about to jump out of the grave & run off, isn't it? 🏃♂️
"The back was completely covered in this complicated tattoo of a ship sailing across an open sea towards an open horizon." Peter Lukas?!?!?
Oh 100% The Buried, without a shadow of a doubt.
Lots of tattoo & carvings in walls imagery in this sequel prequel sidequel, isn't there? 👀
Hey wait, that's Ink5oul from episode 2, isn't it? 👀 Ink5oul definitely feels like a conduit or vessel for The Flesh or some other kind of entity.
Okay, there's something weird going on with this place, the salt water & waves near this cemetery are kind of seemingly enticing them to come drown in it's waters. In the very least it's messing with these guys' mental states! Pretty freakkyyyy! 👀🌊
Also the repeated emphasis on dreams is interesting this episode, wonder if that'll play a part in something later on. 👀👀
"If it’s any consolation, he’s with the sea now. The deep will care for his bones." I literally called it!!
I think Gordon Alan Johnson also wants to be with David. 👀🌊🌊
I think Gordon Alan Johnson also wants to be with David. 👀🌊🌊
I don't know, Gordie, I think you did it! Unless Ink5oul is collecting tattoos like an alternate universe version of the Leitner books. Wait yeah, what if the tattoos are like conduits for the entities of this world or even the original one? 🖌
Another way to look at this is asking... Is The Deep a new entity/fear or is it a servant of a fear like The Vast? I stg there was a colossal water monster at some point in The Magnus Archives!
Okay so yeah, there's already a precedent for this. Also feels like The Lonely, The Buried, The Corruption, The Vast, & maybe even The Flesh are all involved in this one though I don't know if Flesh (Ink5oul) is working with or against the other fears at this time.
Gwen, you can tell your coworkers what's wrong, oh my fucking god. Please. Celia, you have me so invested in whatever is going on with you.
Weird unexplained noise at 17:44 too as Celia enters the office. Wonder what that's all about, maybe it'll come up later on.
"He is one of our Externals." Okay; so, there's more of them & they have their own secret hitman title too!
Mr. Bonzo when he was on TV
"And they usually like it." I bet fear creatures do like it when you scream. That makes a lot of sense actually.
Also what's that weird "boowomp" noise as they're talking or is it just the OST? 👀
Is Gwen going to be turned into something not quite human at some point? Just throwing darts at a board with that speculation, but wouldn't that be wild?
Okay; so, these little digitized noises are absolutely important!
I wonder how many times & when people have lied so far throughout this season. 👁️👁️
#someone should draw those two ( sam & alice ) in the style of that show at this rate. I have more questions every week i stg#is mr. bonzo gonna find his mark or is Alice dyer marked by [ERROR] place your bets!#okay so themes of coffins; decay; & rotting things; feels like the corruption or maybe even the buried#I stg if that weirdly aged guy is Peter Lukas somehow I'm gonna scream; it's an AU; anything can happen#Love seeing Ink5oul again; it's cool that they aren't just a one off character & are getting involved in the greater story#leitner tattoos canon??? maybe?? is this the equivalent of jurgen leitner books?? perhaps#the big water monster is giving The Vast energy; a lot of these feel like fear entities collaborating in this world#now I'm curious who the other externals are... is ink5oul one of them? They seemed to delight in reactions.#is this government organization called the magnus institute or what do they call themselves now? also who is mr bonzo after?#I wonder if the black ops guys that showed up to that charity place on hilltop were a counter organization or the government?#mine#op#tmagp liveblog#tmagp 11#tmagp spoilers#tma spoilers#tma#tmagp#the magnus archives#the magnus protocol
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watched a majora's mask analysis earlier today with my fiancee. my verdict is that I actually really enjoyed the op's interpretations, but that I wished that they talked more about mm's literal level and what one can get from it, rather than talking about those events as if they are strictly metaphor. yes, of course the metaphorical layer of the game is rich to dig into, but it's also such an open-ended and surreal game that it's difficult to nail down every single distinct metaphor that can be derived from its events. which is why I consider it necessary to discuss the way the literal layer presents itself and what sort of motifs and ideas exist there as a baseline before you begin looking at it as metaphor
#narrates#zelda#^ longwinded way of saying that i think that both the impeding inevitability of death#the way the characters react to it#and the question of whether or not termina is even 'real' or can be saved are all intensely interesting aspects of the game#regardless of metaphor. you are existing in a world where you empirically cannot change anything permanently until your very last cycle#and in a world that is potentially not real or is doomed in other ways. but your task is still to help these people and save it#which is interesting even before you get into the symbolic spiritual and metaphorical reads of the game#again thats not to say those reads are bad. i think those reads are what people find the MOST meaningful about mm#most of mm's strength lies in its atmosphere and its ability to convey all these overlapping ideas#its surrealism and the richness of its ideas is what allows for an audience to draw all sorts of meanings out of it#it's just also very meaningful in its LITERAL events and I enjoy that quite a lot!#also... I feel like you heavily have to acknowledge death of the author when dealing with mm#you cannot rely on what you think the author intended. because thats both unclear and does a disservice to the games open endedness#which means that your analysis tends to be far more meaningful when you discuss how IDEAS are embedded in the game#and how you personally constructed meaning out of that#rather than relying on your ability to convince me that your specific read was completely what the devs were thinking#idc about the devs tell me about YOU!#this video was way better than most at doing that but I just prefer mm analysis that is heavier on death of the author#edit: i don't mean you should discount cultural context. thats part of the ideas embedded in ths game#i just mean that I don't like arguments that rely on the idea that the devs INTENDED that cultural context to shape the games metaphors
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#i've never had a job in my own field that i've liked as much as i've liked my current one#the semester is ending soon and today i heard my contract will not be renewed bc the person i'm substituting will return to work after all#i've been feeling so tired and a bit poorly after the nokia arena show and i probably should have called in sick today#as i was absolutely useless today#and then after my only class today my students came to me with a gift?? 😭#a pink enamel moomin mug and some chocolate and a paper on which they had written nice things about me + a drawing of a dachshund 😭#and i burst to tears right there in front of them because i was so touched (and also because i'm just really really tired and emotional)#i'm so tired about having to apply for new jobs and having to start all over again#i'm so tired of having to do shitty short-notice substitutions again#i feel like i deserve better than that but on the other hand i fee like life's giving me exactly what i deserve and maybe this is it#i'm dreading the summer because idk if i'll have a job to go to in the autumn#and even if i did find something it won't be like the job i have now#also. it's may day eve and the weather's lovely#and i'm hiding in my apartment with the curtains closed so i won't see all the people going out and having fun with their friends#for me may day eve has never been like that. i've always felt so very excluded from those celebrations#on top of that i got yelled at by a bus driver and i'm the worst friend that ever existed#i'm trying to quit on whining about my sad little life but it gets so lonely#please know i'm not writing this for attention or pity. i know y'all have problems of your own and i'm just being a dramatic crybaby
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Anyone out there got a solution for when you're feeling really stuck with your art and everyone and their mother tells you the solution is to do studies and figure drawings and other such things but even just thinking about doing those things makes you Spiral and want to Kill Yourself?
#monster noises#it's 1am no one will see this it's fine#it's a genuine problem though i Wish i could be aotherfucker who found it engaging and satisfying to do figure drawing#but i both A) had some bad experiences with this type of learning in highschool that i guess kinda make them triggering for me i guess?#and B) my brain doesn't seem to be able to like.. Learn Things.... That Way.... or at least not Obviously#i mean obviously i've improved as an artist over time in general#and i won't lie and say i've Never done figure drawing or studies or anything#but i never leave those situations feeling like i've Learned anything#mostly i've just sat for several hours growing increasinglyore frustrated#at my limitations and inability to achieve what i feel should come to me intuatively#and even if i Did feel like i've learned something i can seemingly never turn around and then apply it to something else#my brain does not make those lateral connections#it's why i can't do word problems in math.#and plus i also find stuff like figure drawing especially Rarely helps me make progress on the parts of my work i Actually want to improve#fluidity/mobility/stylization and surrealism#and only reinforces practices i want to pull away from#realism/'correctness'#all this combined leaves me just kinda stuck because i really can't power through my fear of these practicing methods#because i also don't find them useful#but i have no alternatives because it's like.. the only thing anyone suggests because theoretically is Does Work#but just not when you're Specifically Busted like I'm Busted#and so I just continue to stagnate until idk.. i find something else that can abruptly and suddenly launch me forward again?.#augh.. being an artist is The Most Enjoyable (_=<=)_
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found two two deaths thumbs I completely forgot while looking for something else hfksj. this is me sticking them somewhere I'll remember their existence
#first one was supposed to be something akin to a book cover#second one Dramatic view of the barrier#i still think they're both neat. i should pick one and work on something bigger again#two deaths related drawings#rough#digital art#krita#i wanted to find a sufficiently simple and far enough wip that I could finish it in 45-60 minutes#turns out. i don't have any of those so I'm just gonna head to bed now basically. goodnight#gotta sleep off the last bits of this week since I didn't get to do that during the gamejam
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Poll adventure (paventure? lol) Day 14: read the small story tidbit below the poll for more details, OR just vote based on initial impression
(✦ see past poll results + further information HERE (link) ✦)
Yesterday's poll decided that The Adventurer should relax by spending his afternoon shopping ..
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He trots down the mossy cobblestone walkway, gazing around in awe as he approaches the central hub of the small city. Tiny shops and stalls and carts are woven through the few clusters of taller buildings, with a modest crowd bustling back and forth between them. Despite much of the land being cleared for structures and pathways, it's still lush with greenery wherever it can be, every blank stone wall or street corner dotted with trailing vines and flowering fruit trees.
After spending a good 25 minutes trying to orient himself at the city map directory, he finally finds his way onto one of the primary shopping streets, eager to spend the afternoon lazily strolling about, trying to ignore his physical aches and just take in all the sights as he hunts for interesting items....
...A few hours (and multiple snack breaks) later, the streets begin to glow with a hazy warmth as lanterns are lit, marking the nearing sunset. Possibly because of the fight yesterday, he's felt shakier, more easily startled than usual, and suddenly realizes an urgent need to be safely inside his room at the inn before nightfall. He wanted to stay out longer, see the lights and the crowds, fascinating scenes of city nightlife he's never been exposed to before.. but, his nerves are impossible to ignore.
Begrudgingly preparing to slink off towards the inn in a sweaty anxious panic, he stops in the doorway, resolving to at LEAST buy himself ONE nice item before he leaves. He doesn't have much money, sure, but it'd be a shame to simply look around all day and not get anything. All travelers need to collect their souvenirs, right? But.. What should he get?
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(feel free to skip this part, it's just extra context for people who are interested lol)
just for record (in case it influences what people think he should buy), this is the adventurer's current inventory contents:
small journal + pencil to document his travels (and a few colored pencils for sketching plants or doodling)
a basic travel guide booklet
a simple map of the area
a small glass lantern case you can put candles in
fire starting materials
basic matches
first aid kid (a few bandages, simple antibacterial balm, some dried herbs that can be used for minor issues like stomach aches or nausea)
one metal cup, one metal bowl/plate thing, one metal fork/spoon, a cooking knife, and one metal pot for cooking over the fire
a basic toiletry bag (toothbrush, herbal mixture toothpaste type thing, bar of soap, one towel, a rag, a few disposable paper napkins, moisturizing oil, hair brush, a tiny cracked mirror)
three bottles of various spice mixes for flavoring the plain/bland food he usually forages on the road (+ plain salt)
a glass jar of berries
a container of plain dried oats
a container of dried beans
half a loaf of stale bread
one carrot he found
a bag of dried fruit
about 15 coins (maybe equivalent to $45 USD in our world money lol)
a basic fishing kit (simple lures, hooks, string)
two containers of canned fish just as a back up in case he ever can't find fresher food for the cat
a cheesy fairytale romance novel about people going on a grand heroic journey, to help give him inspiration to continue on his own travels and be the ultimate Super Cool Adventurer Hero
an old folded up letter from his family
a fabric pouch of cool shiny rocks + other trinkets he's collected
one change of underwear, one change of socks, + winter gloves
foldable saw
some twine/string
a basic sewing kit (2 needles, one spool of thread, a thimble)
lawyer's business card (from boat party)
lawyer's fancy expensive giant scarf (also from party)
1 lunchbox of vegetable dumplings (from Innkeeper)
2 canteens of water
a small dagger for cutting rope, vines, multipurpose anything
a little tin of mint & rose flavored candies for when his mouth gets dry
a box of cubed dried chicken as cat treats
a box of fancy tea
one large rope
a roll of fabrics (one thick blanket for padding when sleeping on the ground, some basic tent fabric to make shelter from, a few spare fabric scraps, 2 cloth napkin/towel things, two cloth sacks for extra carrying capacity if needed)
1 pouch of dried meat
5 candles
Innkeeper's hand-drawn map to her brother's hideout
and of course, the Mysterious Egg in a little wooden box
the adventurer's current main quest: follow his map to reach the abandoned castle ruins and see the rare animal specialist about the mysterious egg he has
#paventure posting#poll#polls#choose your own adventure#Just a fun shopping day! what shall he get? :0#Also the cat is riding on his head in the image but I picture more that the cat probably sits on his shoulder or just#follows him on the ground when he's walking around. probably shoulder is best in crowded areas so they#don't get separated. I just can't draw the cat on the shoulders because of the more like ''chibi'' art style. his head is so giant there's#no room for anything on his tiny shoulders that are covered up by his hair anyway lol#If I drew him in my own actual more realistically proportioned style then. maybe#I should do a ''normal'' drawing of him.#maybe like a a character sketch to show his outfit fully or something. But..eh#I finally made the writing shorter again. The past few days have been too long. but I'm working back towards like#3 paragraphs or less. Today is 4 but still.. better than some of the other days. Which those days I did also have to describe#more but still. I do these super super quickly so it's better for it to be shorter if it can be lol#the writing SEEMS longer since I did also include his entire inventory but jhjknk#I just LOVE thinknig about inventories. Part of the pictures I want to post on my main blog at some point if I ever finally#edit all of them is I gathered a few items from around the house and made little fake adventurer inventories#like just groups of things someone might carry around. This was months and months ago it just takes me THAT long to actually#find the time/energy to edit and post photos lol. But for whatever reason some of my favorite Unnecessary Details to fixate on#(and I LOVE fixating on small pointless details) is like.. what someone is carrying aroun with them. What they have in their bag#and why and what it says about them and what it looks like and the story behind it and where they got it and etc.#Of course his is pretty plain because he barely brought anything with him. but still lol.. I'm leaving his backstory up to interpretation#since he's kind of a character where most of the decisions are made by other people. so I'm not sure if he doesn't have much because#he used to be a poor farm boy or something. Or maybe he just was so overexcited to leave he forgot to pack enough. maybe he's just#bad a planning. maybe he's rich actually but his parents didnt want him to waste his time on adventuring so they didnt support him#or buy things for him and he had to scrap it together himself. etc. etc. Whatever the case. He has ENOUGH to be prepared#and to survive generally. but it's all very like. flimsy basic stuff. materials that tear easily. bent metal pot with dents in it. etc. lol#ANYWAY.. new poll adventure.. this one did take a little longer than I wanted but not as long as the last one. Trying to get back on track#I will hopefully have less dr's appointments in april. so.. aaaa
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always so funny to re-realize that my fixations evidently don't work like most people's. i'll see posts like 'that point in ur life ur between hyperfixations and u feel like ur just floating aimlessly' or ppl talking about like 'aw man i think my hyperfixation on x is fading' and i'll be like you can do that? that can happen? bc for me these things don't have an expiration date they always just keep going until they're replaced by something else. the only time i ever 'lost interest' in a fixation in a neutral way it literally took more than two years and it wasn't a gradual fade so much as a specific and sudden 'ok i want to do something else now'.
#that was annieblog btw. and then like a week after i quit i started fixating on my own oc's#which lasted about 3 years and then that only FINALLY just got replaced by pizza.#you have no IDEA how bad sth has to get me to throw me out of the oc groove. there were various smaller interests through that time but#pt is the one. one of those ones im gonna be on for years again.#i like to think when it's finally passed it'll be one of those ones where im like 'damn that guy was cool i should draw him again'#like how i do for bad batter and bec noir every couple years. prematurely putting fp in those leagues now.#bweeeaaahh#honestly feels so good to get back to doing fanart again#like dont get me wrong i love my ocverse to death and i will gladly spend 3 hours explaning all my complicated lore and mechanics#but fandom stuff is just. a different vibe yknow#i rly enjoy working with the restrictions of something having a canon that i don't dictate and seeing how far i can go within that#also i dont gotta be the center of my own shit here. way easier to find community and bounce ideas around w other people
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Mmm Jeanne
#servants cant learn new stuff (i'll talk about jalter in a second) therefore#jeanne shouldnt know how to read or write#we actually Dont get a confirmation that she can do those things in summer 3. because the book that jalter thought jeanne wrote#was actually Her own book#jeanne works with marie. maybe she comes up with the ideas and does rough drawings that marie would be Delighted to bring to life#marie reads to jeanne is my image#jalter taught herself how to read and write and i think that was possible because of the unstability of her existence#if you try to teach jeanne how to read and write it will stick for a second but if like idk 15-20 min pass she would likely find herself#unable to read again and her writting to be suboptimal#she can sign her own name ofc thats historical#she can recite the bible from memory iirc#i love jalter's ability to be her own person even if it comes with the fact that she is very much. an ephemeral dream#like her FCKING SKILL IS CALLED.#WHY MUST YOU HURT ME LIKE THIS FGO#anyway. now jeanne again but physical#oughhh thank u for the support in the tags when i said jeanne should have self image issues because she looked different in life#i hadnt fully talked bout it i just went with hair but yeah. i need to check again because im pretty sure her body wasnt Suuuper different#but i just gotta confirm#but im just so i love the idea of her just not liking the way she manifested abd not knowing Why she manifested like that#when there are Countless depictions of her with her short brown hair#sieg looks to the side whistling (its not his fault but he knows the pseudo servant part#and its probably a mix of . fate apocrypha's manifestation and of how some people imagined jeanne looked like#but it still upsets her#not that she'd ever complain to people#you can probably get it out of her tho#unrelated and only to those who reached this far: im thinking of a singularity set in 15th century orleans in the Middle of the hundred year#war. but the difference aint “oh jeanne d'arc came back to life evil” rather than “there seems to be a battle here where it shouldnt and oh#my god is that jeanne- oh god jeanne d'arc fucking died--#and chaldeas has to try and fix the war without living breathing jeanne d'arc#actually thats not the middle of the 100yearwar but yknow what i mean. also haha jk unless...
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#theres probably more people i would like to draw... but rn thats like. in my brain#those are the. main four IK I ALREADY DREW CELINE BUT IM LIKE hm! do it again!#its more like i just wanna try my hand at drawing them#(ive drawn kagetsu before. like counting twice ???? now???? but i just havent shown it here.)#idk if that matters at all but like go wild !! i will check back tomorrow#thursday i have more time so i hope to do it#also like nighttime is my winddown anyways so thats usually when i draw more#(will take forever for me to get these out jsyk bc my brain does not like me :') )#clover speaking#wahwah i should make a tag for polls for myself just so i could find it again. in case i get. chatty >_>#cloverpolls#ill stick that there for now >_>#anyways thanks everyone who responded at that earlier post!! ; v; ur v nice
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I think i’ve finalized the hollowknightification of my bug god ocs (they usually look more like this, or this) so ofc to celebrate i gave them a sad story that ends in separation !
Sol (small fella) and Lune (big fella) are traveling siblings who happened to be passing through Dirtmouth. The knight (or ghost? can the player character be considered “the” or “a” “knight”? i guess i’ll find out) encounters them a few times while traveling through Hallownest, always at deeper and deeper levels. It seems the siblings encounter harsher and harsher struggles, for the deeper they go, the more bandages Sol wears, around their face and body, as if they haven’t had time to heal from one enemy before the next is on them. And yet, somehow Lune remains unscathed...
oh and then i guess there’s an infected Sol boss fight (i just think it would be neat) and then Lune would hate u for forever </3
#my ocs#hk_ocs#tbh their names should be changed i dont feel like sol and lune are very hollowknighty names#they r two travelers who were passing by dirtmouth ig idk#and then somehow sol got infected#they had old injuries (lost wings + 3 arms on their left side + left w a big scar across their body OH and also lost 1 eye)#og sol had a better time of it since they didn't lose any arms lmao#and like the infection used those to get in or whatever idkkk im just trying to stay on theme with og sol's injuries#then they stayed bc they maybe heard a little of hallownest's history and were hoping to somehow find a cure? or something idk#idk how the infection/radiance/whatever it is works#and idk what bugs know about it or not#but yearh...maybe i'll try drawing infected sol's boss form#the infection gives them back their wings but it's like. goo wings so it's all fucked up#and at the end they say something about having wanted to fly again#doesn't that just sound fun!#hollow knight fanart#hollow knight fancharacter#artists on tumblr#hollow knight comic#traditional art#oh and later i wanna try drawing hollow knight characters in my bug fellas style#technically it doesnt make sense since all my bug fellas are actually gods but we r going to pretend it somehow does make sense
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where.... the fuck is my dip pen nib
#the problem with telling yourself youll be able to find it later is that no u wont. where is it#discovered a full thing of ink i was like huh. maybe i should try drawing with those again
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Fancy fluff and fuzz (Patreon)
#Doodles#Original#Felt like doodling some animal-heads#I was struck by the image of the sheep profile but I wasn't quite able to capture what was in my head hmm I might have to try again#I am happy with what I ended up with tho ♪ Fluffy lad!#The shading turned out a bit intense so it's hard to see his sideways pupils but they're always fun to draw ♪#I just like all the little details hehe his dark nose and strong cheekbones and wool scarf hehe ♪#I should bring back my old sheep character I'll have to find his old doodles - sheep are just fun to draw!#And then the business professional hawk lol#I don't know why I wanted to draw him but I wanted to Very Much so I did#I got the proportions of his face a little skewed - overly large eyes in proportion to his head mostly - but hawks do have gigantic eyes!#Need that good vision#They've also got lovely eyelashes haha ♫#The suit was just regular type doodling I didn't grab any references for that one#Handsome fitted look ♥ Darts and pleating are always pretty ♪#And a watch for a change of pace! He's got very important business meetings to catch so he needs a big bulky watch!#He could probably have a tiny one with those eyes tho lol
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also i still believe those low effort paintings, that i dont even know what to call them cause "modern art" apparently isnt accurate, is rich people nonsense.
preface, i dont have any specific paintings in mind. dont come at me pretending i do.
im talking about those paintings that are just simple shapes, or lines, or paint splatters, that end up in museums or going on auction for thousands if not millions of dollars.
i dont care about the meaning behind them. i dont care about "the skill it takes to make a perfect line with oil paint without using tape" and no i cant do that because thats not my medium? i dont have the money or space to get canvasses, dude. especially not the amount id need to even get decent at painting. sue me, i guess, for being a critic.
i find it specifically insulting that me and tons of other people online spend hours on a single drawing that is full of heart and beauty and joy, and its often for little amount of notice, or money if any at all, while these things that look like they only took a few minutes to do, maybe more to fill in with paint, are put up for the eyes of thousands and given thousands.
yes, ive seen jacob gellers video, yes i liked it, it changed my brain for a little while but my brain reverted even when i watched the video again.
i despise that peoples response is always 'its made to get a reaction out of you!' or 'youre not supposed to understand it, its art!' ... that is the most immature reason ive ever heard for something worth apparently so much.
people would never say that stuff about the classic paintings we all know from older times of human beings in action or even just sitting still. would you say that about the birth of venus, or the mona lisa? school of athens? youd sound dumb.
i admit it, i dont understand it. i do have a reaction.
i wouldnt dream of telling people to stop making that stuff, more power to you if thats what brings you joy, but it just makes me mad the way it goes up in museums and gets sold for so much money when i could make that stuff in mspaint in 5 minutes.
and i swear to god, if you say "if you could make it yourself, why didnt you?", i will stab your asshole through the screen.
rich. people. nonsense.
#my post#vent#like... im not some random guy who cant even draw a stick figure critiqueing this shit. ive drawn hundreds if not thousands of times#in my whole life.#someone who spends hours staring at cartoony characters making sure the coloring is right. the shading. the lines.#should i probably not take so long? i wish dude idk how. but thats not the point#my art is my life. every medium i work in i find so much joy and love in#creating things makes me feel whole#creating things is my purpose fr#i also just dont care for rich people nonsense#now. not to make a claim without evidence but like. dont they literally make that shit for money laundering??#i wasnt gonna say that in the post cause again. i dont got no evidence lmao. but. dont they???#ignore me#tempted to turn off replies and reblogs but i dont turn off reblogs but if people reblog instead of reply i cant delete those...#ugh whatever#DO NOT INTERACT WITH THIS POST PLEASE
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yearly summary of art
#'maybe next year i'll start drawing again' i say and when that next year comes i almost leave 7-11 months blank ha ha hha ha .... . .#im surprised i found even one sketch for those spring months#i mean if not counting art fight month pretty much all of these are the only thing i drew that month h eh. .. . .#....maybe next year??#maybe i should buy a new computer i could use for other things than drawing then i would accidentally start drawing when doing something els#maybe i should finally get an actual desk for my computer so i wouldnt murder my back every time i even looked towards my computer#maybe i should start being creative at other hours of day than after midnight which is pretty inconvinient if u have to wake up before six#summary of art#no but actually if i wanted to start drawing again i really probably should get back into rping so i could get back into thinking only about#my rp characters which would make me draw my rp characters#or i should get like Super Obsessed™ with some piece of media again that might work too#pity there currently isnt really any finnish forum rpgs that i know of that interest me and idk how to find that Next New Piece of Media#it's not like i control what i latch onto so i could start watching/reading something with that on mind
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do you mind if i ramble in the tags about my weird relationship with making art in fandom for a second
#as someone who is studying art as a career one thing i have realized and also been explicitly told by various teachers#is the fact that having a 'consistent' art style is so overvalued sometimes that it ends up limiting you as an artist#literally i'd say 99 percent of the stuff we do in uni doesn't require consistency. it's actually valued when there isn't one#after all it is about learning and honing skills isn't it#so it has kind of put my personal conflicts in a different perspective#because before i started this degree i used to struggle so much with creation in non-academic spaces (which is pretty ironic. i know)#because the ppl and art i admired was mostly composed of art in fandom spaces#and the most appreciated artists in these spaces tend to be the ones who have a nice defined unique style#which isn't bad. i actually do still wish i could reach something like that#but it made me not want to create as much as i desired because i felt 'inconsistent' and i took that as a negative quality in my art#and it was so frustrating because nothing i tried seemed to 'stick'#which was also due to the fact that none of the varyingly different styles of drawings i posted seemed to reach many people#and yes i have heard time and again the whole schpiel of 'creating for yourself is better and quantity of likes/notes shouldn't mean as muc#to you as long as you're satisfied with your art blah blah blah'– c'mon. we all want our creations to be admired i'm tired of pretending#like i don't. i put it out there for a reason and it is for people to at least acknowledge it. it's the point of fandom. it's community#it's interaction. or at least it should be. that's another conversation though#so anyways since i started uni some time ago this frustration has been receding but it's very much still present#even more so when i get excited about doing/drawing something and then halfway through i get that pull in my chest of like. i'm actually#starting to hate it bc i can't reach what i want to#and so there's this disconnect that happens because i have many ideas and desires to create but i feel (even if it might not be true)#that i don't have the skillset to meet those ideas#which literally happens to almost if not everyone i know i'm not alone in this. it still sucks though#so i end up with about a dozen unfinished works monthly bc i start it/i reach halfway and hate it/i look at art and get inspired bc artists#in fandom are SO talented/i go back to it/i still can't reach the skill level i desperately want/i abandon it indefinitely#it's a horrible cycle that i really haven't been able to escape lately#it's also worse when you're at a time in your life when you don't actually have the opportunity or the time to try to achieve consistency#because you really just physically don't have the time to practice. which is the number one advice every good artist will give you#i am running out of tags but the point is. i hope we stop subconsciously putting consistent art styles in a higher pedestal bc it can be#very stressful for artists who struggle to find that in their creation#art related
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