#i simply Couldnt Be Fucked!

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

When you made your NSFW account, was it a side blog or a completely new account and email address?

I'm taking notes in case I decide to make my own private space for spice.

oh no yeah it's just a Side Blog!

[autisticaradiamegido]

day 38

it was 3 hours. i had to lay down immediately.

[teethkid67]

CROW ^^^^

[thevampirearchive]

There’s something I've been meaning to say but I haven't had the words till now. There is something that deeply upsets me about witnessing stories where villains, who are literal killers, fall in love and somehow become good or act outside of what is expected from them. I love love, love is beautfiul, it is powerful and it can truly change a lot. But to sit, and write a killer suddenly go "actually, this one can stay because I am in love for the first time" is such a weird concept to me. Is this happening because as a sociaty we're trying to convince ourselves that deeply disturbed people can be cured by the power of love? That if they just find the right person, they would stop the masacer? or at least no longer feel the need to kill how they were or at least let their person live? And I am not mad at the love, I do belive anyone can fall deeply in love, but my issue is with how it ends. I want to witness the unthinkable — I want to see is exactly what we expect but hoped won't happen, happening. A gut wrenching truth that stays true to who we have been witnessing, despite the "I can change them" dance. And perhaps people hate this idea because they want to belive that anyone can change if only they meet the right one, or that we can change the monsters in our lives with affection, but trust most likly is that they cannot be changed. And I can understand that to some this is then seen as an illusion. "oh then this was never true love", why can the two not exist? Do we not hurt those we love? Maybe not kill them, but someone elses hurt could feel like a small death to me, and vice versa.

Examples, so that you are not confused as to what I am reffering too;

Killing Eve; I stopped watching when Villanelle was shown shooting Eve. It felt true to her character, even if it hurt. She is a killer, we knew that and so did Eve. Regardless of her love, that was what was always going to happen so why were we given additional seaons of this fanatsy of a declawed Villanelle?

Hannibal; It should have ended with the death of Will, and possibly Hannibal consuming him. Didn't Hannibal say that the consumption of Will would somehow join them in a deeper way?Something so disturbing that only could make sense to a serial killing-cannibal. And I would have watched with wide eyes, and gone to sleep staring at the ceiling.

Interveiw With The Vampire; Louis' death in the hand of a Lestat would have made sense, and despite his dramatics, Lestat would have not committed suicide but instead burried himself in deep regret untill he was too numb to his own feelings that he could return to the world of the living. He would have never forgotten Louis, nor what he did, but he would have moved on beause Lestat is not a good person. He's deeply disturbed and Louis knew this. I don't even aknoclege that beatdown episode because Lestat may be a killer, but he's a drama queen first and formost. Louis' death would have been poetic, beautiful and grusom like a greek tragedy without an audiance.

Bonus - Twilight; I could not end without adding my own favorite, and despite this path never being teased to the audiance the same way the other's were, I would have loved the book simply ending because Edward did as he said he would - drained Bella like a Caprisun on a hot summer day. Because what is love agaisnt animalistic urgase (I understand why it is much hotter that he is simply so retsrained and devoted that he resists her, but I'd pay good money for an AU)

At the end of it all, I think want I want is for sociaty to get over the idea that a good woman, love or any form of kindness can change who some people are. Love can do many things - look at crimes of passion! And to some extend I belive that these villain's love were true, possibly not the way we imagine them - which is less so "I love you too" and more so, "wow, finally someone I can manipulate and obsess over. Someone who I can mold, someone who is alone in the world like me" only to realize that is not true.

So why do we make love into what it isnt? Even when the scene is set for us to be shown the truth, writers and the audiance always make the plot lean towards whatever fits so that we can have that "happy ending".

Honorable mentions;

God should have killed Lucifer, I know the bible and christianity is not technically fiction for all, but the idea that he is forgivin but lets the biggest meanness HE CREATED terrorize everybody is evil. Take him out or let somebody else do it homie.

[terracyte]

when. when old fashion pet name. when whenw ehwnewhewn 🧎‍♂️🧎‍♂️🧎‍♂️

[vero-niche]

happy nyaoi friday

[dekarios]

i didn’t know you also played ff14! are you going to play dawntrail 👀

yes i have played the hit mmo final fantasy 14

i have definitely not played it for 11 thousand hours .

and yes i will be playing dawntrail . i dont think my soul would allow me not to

[philzokman]

idk how people can listen to classical music to study i always end up stopping and just listening to how pretty it sounds </3

[dreamsy990]

apple juice but its in a tiny carton

[vanweezer]

fucking whatever ok. OK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

are you really besties if you can't share a joint

[fefairys]

MAN. just finished the elements arc of our AT rewatch and watching ice king say like "listen lady im sure this simon guy is cool and all but im ice king, im a special person and i deserve respect!" and stuff hurts real bad man. he kinda was happier as the ice king.

[rosykims]

lvl8 assassin astarion just casually dealing 72 dmg to yurgir in a sneak attack. its actually so embarrassing for the rest of this party who are managing 40 dmg on an exceptional day 😐

[this-should-do]

Freeman has neither the time nor the patience to deal with cowards who wont do their job, especially when they stop him from doing his

[randomositycat]

Oh so... okay it IS the inferiority complex... wow.... it's okay man :(

Maybe one day she'll want you idk chin up brother

[mochapanda]

its actually an accessibility issue that so many jobs require you to exclusively stand or sit for long periods of time not only bc its not natural at all for people in general but bc lots of physical problems make that literally impossible for a lot of people but you know this is the country of "disabled ppl r just lazy" so now kids working retail dont get chairs