#i think i have ocd

[melynnwater]

Ikarus

(sorry for no alt text. not able to right now. remind me later?)

[wispforever]

hey this is going to be a weird post, but I’m looking for a movie I watched years ago, some time after 2018 and before 2021, I’m almost certain. Gonna describe it under the read more.

warning for addiction themes, death, suicide and suicidal ideation, and divorce

so I don’t remember a lot of things about this film, but there are a few scenes that have stuck in my memory, so I’ll put them here. Generally, this movie was about a dad with an adult (or at least and older son), who was getting a divorce for a reason I can’t remember. He really wanted to reconnect with his wife and kid, but wasn’t able to for whatever reason. I don’t remember anything about him being abusive, but I do remember him drinking and just making generally questionable decisions about his relationships.

one scene I remember: Father gets super drunk at some point after the divorce happens, and forgets he no longer has permission to go home (where his wife and son now live alone or with a boyfriend). He doesn’t mean to scare them, but of course he does, because it’s late at night and he isn’t supposed to be there. They tell him he has to go and he’s confused as to why because he’s wasted. Can’t remember if he leaves or not, or they’re forced to deal with him another way like let him stay on the couch or something. There may or may not have been another man in the house by this point (wife’s new husband/boyfriend). I also remember the house being pretty spacious, maybe fancy even but maybe not.

second scene I remember: this may be closer to the end of the movie. Father has still failed to reconnect with his wife and son. He somehow runs into a friend of his son who his son either went to high school with or just knew through school somehow. This kid is deeply suicidal and is dealing with addiction. The kid and the main dad end up doing drugs together on the kid’s parents’ boat (??), and also the kid shows him comics he’s drawn or has of Laika, the space dog, dying in space. They have a somewhat philosophical conversation about the metaphorical implication of Laika’s death. Seems to be foreshadowing, because the kid dies the following day. The main dad wakes up, sees the kid is gone from the boat, assumes he just left. Finds out later that the kid wandered off into the woods and either overdosed purposely or was under the influence and died of exposure or accidental overdose. Some time later the father’s family finds out that he did drugs with the kid the night before he died and they’re SUPER pissed (understandably)

third and last scene I remember: following the death of the kid he went to high school with/knew through school, the main father’s son goes on an angry drive. He has also apparently been battling alcoholism like his dad, and pulls over before walking into the woods(?) and having a relapse. He drinks a whole bottle of some kind of brown liquor

I’ve tried everything to find the name of this movie and haven’t had any luck. Might have been a Netflix or Hulu original and now doesn’t exist anymore, but it might be something totally different. If anyone knows anything, I would really appreciate a comment, tag, or ask. Thanks friends

[didiwaffles]

You think you're fine and doing well but in reality you're one minor inconvenience away from realizing that you in fact was never fine

[h3xactinellida]

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[aropride]

[midwestqueer]

i miss enjoying food, i wish i could just be Normal and not have extreme food aversion

[teaboot]

Not to be absolutely unhinged but I think that if I buy enough tiny plastic tubs to continue breaking down every possession I own into discrete categories then eventually I will live in a home where I don't constantly have a large pile of completely miscellaneous nicknacks in the middle of the floor constantly and forever until I die

Current box count is 56

[h3xt0r]

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[lucabyte]

A belief in Nominative Determinsim

[turtletoria]

one downside to digital mediums of art is that you cant see the tear stains (they just slide down the screen)

[bogkeep]

thoughts, repeating.

[beebfreeb]

In one of my older Judgement Boy posts someone left the tag "Oh this guy has DID for sure" and at the time it was not intentional but *grits teeth really hard* now it is. Don't worry about it.

[madrevolting]

[fleshprofessor]

Jon doodles :] some headcanons (or facts if this is my interpretation of the character??) in the tags

[polinsated]

appreciation post for colin luke's lip

[yogorlhilanne]

I like the fact Sunday canonically has OCD but unfortunately, most people have probably forgotten that trait about him.

While OCD and being a perfectionist are really two different things, I think both of those traits fit Sunday.

Listen.

(OCD) Sunday does EVERYTHING in his power to keep things in HIS control and I think the obsessive mindset to having everything in his control triggers his compulsiveness to do what he thinks is "right" to meet that certain obsession or else some bad will happen (EX: Penacony being destroyed or Robin will die)

(Perfectionist) If Sunday doesn't meet his goals or fuel his obsessions, then he thinks he's failing the legacy of the Oak Family/Penacony. And if he fails, he is wasting what Gopher Wood had told him that will bring joy to the Family and Penacony. Which then TRIGGERS his obsession more and then causes his impulsive actions more until he is officially satisfied with the result.

And it's just a repeating cycle of doing his best, not being enough to reach or fuel that obsession/goal, and doing more until he is actually satisfied.

And with the fanfics on ao3 that have that tag that says "Sunday has OCD" but don't even put actual effort on show he has OCD is so saddening.

I really recommend finding videos on YT about OCD, they're really helpful and give quite a big picture on what OCD actually is and how it affects people IRL.

Also condone your own research about OCD too!