#i think i might be a glutton for punishment idk

[15000bugs]

rereading some old posts and i just realized on one of my dr posts from like 7 months ago someone commented asking who my favorite character was.. theyre the same person who used to comment on all of my dr fics on my old ao3 pseud when i was in like 9th grade 😭 i didnt respond to the tumblr comment bc i was too shy but like. Wow i cant believe theyre still active in the fandom five years later

[jupiterpiss]

SIGHHHHH

Roman Roy brain rot has me in a chokehold. SOMEONE HELP. I did a brief read through. This probably has a thousand grammar errors and stuff. this isn’t my best work. Sorry bout that. This is short. Might make this into something else.. idk. We’ll see. Sort of x reader.. but no use of “you” or anything. It’s a fem!reader btw!!

On one hand, Roman could name a few things he genuinely took an interest in. He couldn’t name them now, as his mind is always juggling fifty different thoughts, and he’s certain that if he were to try and focus on one he would have an aneurysm.

Though if he thinks hard enough the list goes something along the lines of “petty drama” as third or “the latest headlines about either him or his father” as second.

If he thinks harder, somewhere in there his father’s approval sits as fifth. Something he wishes was further down.

Then somewhere else, squeezed between his desperation to know what his father thought of him and what others thought of him, was her. As first. Or fourth. Right in the thick of it.

He thinks of it as a piece of popcorn lodged in the gaps of his teeth, something his tongue pokes and wiggles but can never slip out. He could use his fingers or a toothpick, metaphors for the obvious solution of just letting her go and moving on with his life, but he was never a fan of picking the easy way out.

“Aren’t you just gluttonous for punishment?” He scoffs at Kendall’s words now, pushing away the fact he was correct. Of course, he was. It was a fucking obvious thing.

It was exactly why he never strayed away from her.

Being hated wasn’t new for Roman, if anything, it was the ‘normal’. Being ‘nice’ didn’t get anyone far, at least that was the idea rammed into his head since childhood. It was why he never looked for anyone sickly sweet, never fell for someone who didn’t have some bite to their bark.

It was why he never bothered to tug loose the leash that was strung snug around his neck, tied neatly by the very woman he should’ve despised years ago.

He couldn’t though. Hate her, that was. He couldn’t. Physically, mentally, emotionally something inside him tug deep into his bones and ripped out any anger he could feel.

Whether it was possession or his inability to accept the fact he deserved better, something held him back. He didn’t really know, and in all honesty he didn’t really fucking care.

“You’re a sick pervert sometimes, you know that?” She tilts her head at him, brows furrowed as her eyes flicker between his. Seeking from something he isn't aware of, but is certain she’ll find.

She always did.

He smirks, “Maybe,” He shrugs, “Reason for everything,” her gaze only makes him nervous, forcing him to cast his gaze somewhere else.

“Right. Your pervy nature is just a part of something bigger,” she presses.

And just like wet clay under moist hands, he gives in, “something closer to a lawsuit than a ‘higher being’ nature sort of deal. Right? That’s what you always joke about?” She stays silent, he only continues, “fuck- Jesus, staring at me like my creepy pervert uncle-“

“Just trying to give you the ‘Roman Roy experience’ you always gift me,” she argues which only makes him sputter, “oh fuck off.”

“Can’t, you’ll only follow,” and god damn it, isn’t it just funny? Because he would follow, he would follow in a god damn heartbeat. Probably like a sad kicked puppy too. Fuck.

“Don’t you have some businessmen to jerk off? Someone to give the old ‘slip and slide’ too.”

He hopes for some sort of response, some small jab and maybe some banter that would fill the void of a conversation they never have.

But he doesn’t get that, he only gets the continued ‘creepy uncle stare’ as she peers into his wandering eyes. She’s still searching. It’s only when brow twitches and a pout forms on her lips that he realises she found what she was looking for.

“Right, something you’d only wish for,” She backs away from him, “Should really stop speaking your imagination out loud. People might get the wrong idea. Might think you actually want to fuck me,” she pauses, “But I highly doubt your rat dick can handle anything past your hand.”

She walks away, leaving him standing like an idiot.

Later that night he looks at engagement rings.

[carphoegras]

I don’t ship most of these myself , but your rant/ramble posts on Les Mis ships are funny so I genuinely wanted your opinion on these 👁

1. Enjoltaire

2. Valvert

3. Enjonine

4. Marisette (or whatever Marius x Cosette was called)

5. Javonine (Javert and…Eponine 😭)

6. Marionine (A name a just guessed for Marius x Eponine because I wasn’t bothered to look it up)

7. and uhhh.. Granjonine (I think that was the name)

well hello darling! i live to entertain lol lets get into it i might have to put this under a cut because i think its obvious i have a rambling issue

Enjoltaire : a classic for good reason. they seemed really base level to me at first because i watched the movie first, but once i read the brick and really saw their dynamic i fell for them HARD. for me the beauty of this pairing is really rooted in the substance of their individual characters as opposed to like a romantic relationship. idk its so difficult for me to verbalize why i love them so much i think i just love the idea of finding common ground despite difficulties. enjolras and grantaire mirror each other in such a beautiful way that i feel the musical/movie couldn't really capture without demoting it to a puppy love grantaire/mean enjolras dynamic idk i have such an issue with some portrayals of them because i feel like they create a victim/abuser situation where there wasn't one but that's like a whole post within itself anyway i feel like im getting incoherent i love exr with every fiber of my fucking being just read the brick if you don't get it ok the movie and musical just dont do it justice and for the love of god avoid the fics written in 2012/2013 after the movie hype its all wRONGGGG (i love you george blagden but you created a twink grantaire movement) (they pull each others pigtails okay its a mutual obsession) (enjolras why don't you just ignore him baby? glutton for punishment my dear we all know if you hated him you wouldn't let him hang around) (anyway) i should make a seperate post about my exr feelings bc i could talk ab them for hours

2. Valvert: okay this is where i feel like i can be unpopular with the fandom. i fucking hate this ship. like physically, spiritually, all that. its one of those that i kinda lose respect for the person bc its literally a cop/prisoner thing. its not enemies to lovers. its not a hate love thing. javert's a fucking cop. valjean is his victim. the whole idea of people romanticizing this makes me feel so insanely icky and i think the point of the story has just gone RIGHT over some folks' heads please take a step back and think about it. neolib behavior sorry not sorry

3. Enjonine: enjolras is gay. just like, straight up in the brick enjolras is a gay man. this ship is spawned from straight girls who saw aaron tveit and use eponine as their not like other girls posterchild. just a whole bunch of hetero nonsense. same behavior as the joseph quinn enj x reader bs. honey thats a homosexual man and can we please stop reducing eponine to needing a boyfriend she needs a stable home and a goddamn therapist fucking hell

4. Marisette: okay. i LOVE THEM. i'm a cosette stan myself, and i'm a huge fan of a gooey love at first sight situation. they contrast my love for exr in the sense that they're a very easy love. their parts in the book literally make me SWOOOOOON i can put aside my beef with marius as a combeferre kin to appreciate how sweet they are

5. Javonine??: im sorry wh aht. did the snape x hermione shippers leak into the lm fandom or am i being fucking punked im not discussing this its obvious why this is wrong please tell me its obvious y'all are NASTY

6. Marionine: eh. eh. i mean, like i said with enjonine eponine's problems are not gonna be solved with a dude. i'm really not opposed to them, persay, its just that eponine's love for marius is so incredibly dependent and rooted more in her personal trauma than actual love, so i feel a little weird with them sometimes. sometimes it just gives anti cosette vibes (cough cough bc of the bullshit love triangle angle that the musical markets cough cough) so i tread very carefully with them

7. Granjonine: again what in the damn hell. i'm not dignifying this shit they could be besties but for the love of god george blagden did a number on the straight girls. STOP PROJECTING ONTO EPONINE IM GONNA LOSE MY FUCKING MIND LEAVE HER ALONE

thanks for the ask lovely, i do love rambling even though these ships are baffling lmaoooo

[esmeislewd]

Estimate on the calories you’ve eaten so far? Also, what have you been snacking on?

I love it ❤️I love that you want this worse for you. If you’d like even more of a humiliation, get on all fours in front of a mirror. Edge while you stuff that mouth and moo like our good cow 🐄 that’s all you are isn’t it? You’re just here for our amusement and to debase, degrade, and torture yourself. How pathetic is it that you actually asked, even begged for this?

I think the best thing you can do now is just accept your fate and forget release today. Perhaps if you meet your weekly weight goal? Ohhh or perhaps since you have an easyish weight goal every week, you can have a second, more difficult weight goal that would allow you a release😈 I think I like this option, maybe you could put it in your bio even. “Denied until I hit __”

Devious but fun, let me know that you think and I just might allow you to do this for me 😉

-🍪

Ah I'm really bad at guessing calories, I never really measure anything when I cook so it's kinda hard to get a good estimate XD Probably >1500??? idk....

I'm a glutton for punishment not just food~ I love letting people take control of me and use me for their entertainment ^^ It's pathetic how much I enjoy being a pig anons can play with and tease but I can't help myself sometimes~

As for weekly weight goals I don't really have one, so long as I hit 2lbs a week I'm happy~ Not sure if that's enough to deserve release or not though :p

[mischief-lies-and-stories]

Reacting to Animated Marvel Shows 1/?

Taking a break from my Loki rewatch to react to another animated Marvel show because I saw SIGYN in the thumbnail of this episode and got excited. Is Loki going to treat Sigyn poorly? Almost definitely. Is Marvel going to treat both of them poorly? Almost definitely. Am I going to watch it anyway because I'm a glutton for punishment? Absolutely. Let's get started.

[Post-watch edit: Sigyn is NOT in this. It is a case of mistaken identity in the thumbnail because this is the only episode of this show I've watched. I've been bamboozled and I'm still pissed about it. Sorry if I got your hopes up. I got mine up too.]

Spoilers for Avengers: Earth's Mightiest Heroes 2x15

Okay so already in the recap I'm seeing they buried the lead and this is NOT the only episode of this show Loki is in. So once again I will be consuming Loki content backwards. Cool.

Fuck yeah Surtur, crush Amora in your fiery hand!!

Okay recap over

New York always just has tanks casually rolling around

Fuck no I SWEAR TO GOD IF I THOUGHT AMORA WAS SIGYN IN THE THUMBNAIL I'M GONNA BE SO PISSED

Loki that was the most chill groan of pain I've ever heard. Isn't this shit supposed to HURT? It seems like you're more annoyed than anything else.

Fuck I'm sorry y'all. Sigyn is not in this. Goddammit Marvel. IT'S THE VENOM MYTH [not Venom like the character] AND YOU PUT AMORA THERE INSTEAD OF SIGYN??? THE BITCH WHO BETRAYS HIM TIME AND AGAIN INSTEAD OF HIS WIFE. FUCK Y'ALL.

How fucking rude to replace Sigyn with AMORA. Just add to his fucking torture, Jesus.

Amora has Maleficent horns. Bitch take those off you ain't shit. You can't hold a candle to Maleficent. Get the fuck out of here and go get Sig.

Wait why does Thor still get to be buff but not Steve?

Dude the theme goes too hard for this show

The balls on Thor to call his fucking bodybuilder shit a frail form in front of Cap's asthmatic, wrinkly ass

Eew Amora stop touching Loki's face

WHERE IS SIGYN MARVEL I'M STORMING YOUR HEADQUARTERS

SHE JUST GAVE HIM THE ARMOR SIGYN WENT TO GREAT LENGTHS IN THE OLD COMICS TO GET FOR LOKI'S SOUL TO INHABIT (I mean it might be the Destroyer armor but I'm angry anyway so I'm going with the first option)

THEY JUST TIT FOR TAT REPLACED SIGYN WITH AMORA FUCK THIS WHAT THE HELL

Goddammit am I gonna have to write an AU for this episode specifically, where Sigyn shows up and punches Amora's lights out, like Get away from my husband, bitch!

Cap looks like he's both eleven and ninety

Damn it is the Destroyer, but I think Loki possesses it which is the thing that happens in the old comics? Idk, I only know this secondhand.

Steve I'm begging you to lose your temper just once. Thor is towering over you, at least twice your body mass, can still walk with a broken leg and hasn't once complained of the pain, but anytime the fucker opens his mouth it's to complain about how weak he is. Meanwhile you could drop dead any second, polio has been eradicated in the US and you've already gotten it, but you could probably breathe wrong and immediately need an iron lung in 2010 with your luck.

Thor says "That voice" like he didn't grow up for thousands of years with Loki by his side. Like this isn't fucking, I don't know, Ultron, someone you've fought once (I know they tend to fight him more in the comics and animated shows), that's your BROTHER

Tony saving Steve was cute

THOR FUCK OFF DID YOU JUST PLACE THAT VOICE YOU DUMBASS

Good job, Clint. You helped.

Well do we call that Sigynbait? Healthy relationship bait? Whatever it is I'm fucking pissed and I'm going to have to change my intro for this post to reflect it because I don't do clickbait (which you already know because you aren't reading my draft).

[wanderingjedi77]

Might be a strange request but I've loved every Bo-Katan x Armourer x Reader so far and I'm really craving an angsty hurt/comfort style scenario, like reader does something that angers/annoys both Bo-Katan and the Armourer and they get really mad (akin to like damaging the Forge or something) then they have to resolve things when reader gets upset/sad.

Idk I'm a glutton for punishment

Hmmm, I think I can do anon. I have to think about how I would go about it, though. Thank you for the ask.

[howlinchickhowl]

2021 Fic Year in Review

@captainjowl tagged me this morning, and also @squidyyy23 ​ a little while ago threw my hat in the ring, sorry squid - I know I’ve seen your name somewhere but also there is some real joy in calling you squid I hope you don’t mind - I’m working my way through my mentions! 

So, without any further ado, let’s review... (you took a rumour a few, maybe two people knew etc etc I’m a nerd ok let’s all turn our eyes away and pretend we do not see it)

Total Number Of Completed Works:

5 on a03 + 3 little tumblr only ficadees

Total Word Count:

60,926

Fandoms I’ve Written In:

Shameless (US)

Looking Back, Did You Write More Fic Than You Thought You Would This Year, Less, Or About What You’d Expected?:

I started the year expecting to write no fic, so, on balance I’d say a lot more.

What’s Your Own Favorite Story Of The Year?:

This is tough! I love them all in their own way. The other day I reread Love, Like a River and I actually really like that one. It changes day to day, but today it is maybe that.

Did You Take Any Writing Risks This Year?:

Posting a WIP, what if I run out of steam?? (I have no plans to, but what if, you know?) 

And also I feel like gunpowder onto liquor was something of a risk for me, it was kind of experimental and florrid, had no like, purpose? really? was based off a spoken word poem, was formatted like a 19 chapter behemoth despite being really just a decent sized one-shot. I don’t know entirely what I was thinking, but it was one of those projects that just took me over and demanded to be written that way. If I was more skilled in the visual arts I would love one day to make some kind of multi-media version of it, but I think that might be one that just lives in my brain. 

Do You Have Any Fanfic Or Profic Goals For The New Year?:

Finish Ristretto, that’s project number 1! And then I have a few ideas in my little planning doc that I would like to hope I can do in this next year, but time doth fly. 

Most Popular Story Of The Year?:

Difficult to know what metric to use, but if we go by hits-per-unit on ao3 (because multi-chaps have naturally more hits because people are coming back to read the next chapters) it is far and away Song of the Hearth. And that is also the one that I have seen people recommend out in the wild so I think that is probably right.

Story Of Mine Most Under-Appreciated By The Universe, In My Opinion:

idk I think I’m pretty fortunate in the amount of appreciation my work gets shown. Maybe Found Wanting, but it was my first shameless fic while I was still getting my bearings and before I knew anyone, so it makes sense for it to be the least read/kudosed/whatever. And I haven’t read it in a while so maybe it’s no good! 🤷🏻‍♀️

Most Fun Story To Write:

I am really having fun writing Ristretto. I love silly flirty idiot boys and I am giving myself plenty of opportunities to write that shit right now. Also 13 mugshots[...] was a lot of fun, I remember feeling very dumb and gleeful while I was writing that. 

Most Unintentionally Telling Story:

I don’t know if I’m self-aware enough to know. You tell me?

Biggest Disappointment:

Missing self-imposed deadlines, even though I know in the grand scheme it doesn’t matter at all, it bothers me to lose a goal. 

Biggest Surprise:

How I apparently write fluff and happy stuff now? I haven’t written for fandom in a long while and in previous incarnations I have always considered myself a glutton for punishment. I’ve never been into angst necessarily, or at least not angst conjured solely for the fic, but the beauty of anguish has always appealed to me and characters who suffer have always been like magnets to me. So to show up at Shameless which is so ripe with opportunities to luxuriate in agony and then just, roll around in the marshmallows instead, that was a shock for sure! 

My Favorite Part Of Fandom This Year:

Being in it! I haven’t actively participated in a fandom for about 6 years and it has been such a joy to jump back in and get involved again, get to know people, make new friends! And we’ve all said it many times but this corner of the internet is such a haven of friendliness and openness and supportiveness and joy. I have loved going from total newbie happy to be noticed by even a couple of people to established clown ushering in the new wave as they arrive. I have loved watching new writers/creators shy about sharing their work being bolstered and enouraged and gaining confidence and finding their voices. I have loved watching people jump onto ideas offered by others and collaborating together to create something (this is an aspect of fandom I have only really seen here, the ease with which people just start vibing together, the complete willingness to share ideas and ‘yes, AND’ the post, elsewhere I find people are quite territorial about their ideas and their ‘things’, here it’s just like, yes, join me in my madness. I am begging you! So yeah, my favourite part is all of it. I don’t care if that’s cheating. 

Once again, this was going around when I wasn’t here a lot so I don’t know if you have done it already, but I would love to hear from @catgrassplantdad @sunoficarus @iansfreckles @unbridgeabledistances about their year of fic writing 🙃

[kanmom51]

I was with that anon right up until they said they thought jungkook was too late in returning jimin's affections. Jimin would be cruel to still act the way he does with jungkook while denying his advances.

But what I really wanted to say is that I agree that tae really might have felt something more than platonic for jimin at one point. This is the most delulu feeling argument I slightly believe lol but I think it's a possibility.

Jimin is careful with tae in a way that suggests this is a best friend that he loves platonically who might have some feelings for him and he let him down gently because he values the friendship.

I also disagree that they're the second closest behind jikook. I actually think hopeminkook are the next closest. But shrugs idk these are all just musings that I don't feel too strongly about and could one hundred percent be wrong about and probably am lol.

I actually answered a previous ask about how I think the dynamics are with JM & Tae. If there were 'feelings' involved at any time we can't know, but I really don't think there were. If Tae did have 'feelings' for JM I don't think he would continue with this constant teasing of "I like you really a lot" or "I like you the most"... and yes, I think that's him teasing JM, trying to get a reaction out of him, because he knows it will most definitely get a reaction out of him. 2021 season greetings and the latest sit down are only two examples. As I said, JM draws the line there, and Tae knows it, so he does it to draw that reaction. If he was really attracted to JM or in love with him he wouldn't keep setting himself up for failure, all in front of the cameras. He is not a glutton for punishment.

I don't like to compare who is closer to whom, other than there being a couple in the group, that is.

Close doesn't mean they have to see each other every day (beyond work) or even speak to each other all the time. Close is someone you know you can rely to always be there for you, that when you are down they will be the ones to stand by your side and make you feel better, they are someone you can confide in and so forth.

People build different relationships with different people according to our needs. We could consider them all close friends, but each and every one of them tends to a different need we have. A close friend to play around with, a close friend to confide in, a close friend that can cheer you up etc. Sometimes you will find all of the above in one individual, but sometimes it takes different people to fulfill those needs, each close to you but in a different way.

Each and every friendship within that group of 7 is different. What JK has with Jin I cannot compare to what he has with Hobi or with Tae or with RM. What JM has with Tae I can't compare to what he has with Jin or Hobi or Suga, etc.

The only coupling that stands out to me is obviously the actual couple in the group. Other than that, they are all close in different ways.

[tinyarmedtrex]

I 1000000% understand if you want to leave the cafe reddie fic as it is, and idk if anybody else has asked for it, but do you think there'll ever be a chance of a part 2 in the future? It was just god tier, it gave me whiplash my neck? In pain. Hotel? Trivago. Anyway, it was really good, I'm just a sucker for a happy ending and thought I'd chance my luck and ask. Ty for all the amazing content btw!!!

I mean, how can I say no to an ask like that? :P

Read Part 1 here

The following day Richie found himself standing outside the Burnt Bean, though he wasn’t exactly sure why. At first Richie had thought that he wanted to confront Eddie, to make him fully explain himself. Then he thought that maybe he wanted Eddie to say everything out loud, to not hide his betrayal in a note. But he knew that wasn’t quite it either. Now, after three cigarettes from his emergency ‘god you were supposed to quit two years ago’ pack Richie really wasn’t sure what he was doing. He didn’t even know if Eddie was working. What he did know was that he was leaving town soon and he needed to see Eddie before he did. 

Almost on queue the other man stepped out from the coffee shop, an adorable beanie pulled over his hair. It took him a second to notice Richie, he was too busy pulling on a pair of gloves and flipping his coat collar up. Richie knew the instant he was spotted. Eddie stopped in his tracks, his eyes growing wide. Richie swore he heard a quiet ‘fuck’. Then he watched as Eddie’s head whipped around, looking like he might just run away. 

That was when Richie decided to walk closer. 

“If you called the cops, I didn’t actually do anything illegal. I didn’t take anything.” Eddie said, frowning at Richie. 

“I didn’t call the cops.” 

“Were you planning on getting me fired then? Want to tell my boss my plan to get back at me?”

Richie shook his head.

Eddie’s frown deepened and he looked confused. “Then why are you here? I already apologized. Did you need to confront me too? Look me in the eye and tell me I’m trash?”

“No I-” Richie wasn’t sure what the next words were going to be until he said them. “Missed you.” 

Eddie’s eyes grew wide then narrowed again. “Are you wearing a wire?”

At that, Richie laughed. He couldn’t help it. The ridiculousness of all this was really getting to him. Eddie was clearly deeply skeptical of him and Richie didn’t blame him. Logically He should hate Eddie, or at least not want to ever see him again. But logic was never Richie’s strong suit.

“No wonder you’re single.” Richie said. “Do you ask all the boys that?”

“Hey! It’s my choice!”

“Yours and every man who has ever been insulted by you.” 

Eddie scowled and Richie dropped the insults. “I don’t know what to tell you. I’m serious, I missed you. And no,  I’m not wearing a wire.”

“Why?” Eddie sounded genuinely confused. Richie didn’t blame him. He was confused too.

“I have no idea. Because I’m a glutton for punishment probably. Ask my exes. They would happily agree.” 

They regarded each other for a minute, both looking like feral cats that would run at the slightest provocation.

“Was it all an act?” Richie blurted out, voicing something that he’d been thinking about since reading the note. “Did you lie about all those cute stories about wanting to run track and dreaming of being a nurse? Did you lie when you kissed me?” If it was an all act then Eddie was an even better actor than him. And then Richie was a real sucker. He’d been falling for the other man but he was worried that the Eddie he liked wasn’t real.

“I didn’t lie about anything.” Eddie took a step closer then stopped, not looking at him. “But I’m- less nice. I’ve been told I’m not a team player and that I need an attitude adjustment.” 

Richie wanted to touch Eddie, wanted to kiss him again. Which was insane. All of this was insane.

“I figured, since your original plan was to sell drunk photos of me.”

At this Eddie flushed, looking guilty.  “Richie-” 

He raised a hand, shaking his head. “I’m not here to yell at you Eddie.”

“Then why are you here?” The tone was a little accusatory but also questioning, Eddie really did want to know.

Great question. He looked Eddie over, still unsure if he was a total idiot for this.

“I want you to make it up to me. Take me on a date. Show me the real Eddie.” God he was definitely an idiot. He was going to get mugged and left in an alley and the cops were only going to laugh at him. But fuck, he wanted to get to know the real Eddie, wanted to know if what he felt was real. 

Emotions flitted over Eddie’s face and Richie thought for sure he’d refuse. Because he should refuse. Just like how Richie should have just let it go. Their interactions should have ended and both should have moved on with their lives. That was what was supposed to happen.

But instead Eddie gave him a small smile and nodded. “Deal.”

@wheezyeds  @constantreaderfool  @jem-carstairs-is-perfection  @moonlightrichie @lifesucksheres20bucks @thorn-harvester-ven @eddiefuckinkaspbrak @andaleduardo @xandertheundead @s-s-georgie  @roobarrtrashmouth @njess04 @gczebos @kasp-brakz @sourmoist @playing-jim @princesass-theresa @mimiharu @kaspbrak-tozier-reddie @no-she-wasnt-reddie  @oldguybones @sloppybitxch   @sedanleystanley @kaspbrak-king @ticomat @hadererer @da-damned @purplepoisonedgem @sparklingrainbowdragon @richietoaster @sxndythinkstoomuch @overcastedhills @trashmouthtozierr @blondekasp @richiezvoid @thebriarpatch

[pynkhues]

What’s you top 5 unpopular good girls ships?

I am eternally blessed, anon, because all my ships for Good Girls are pretty popular, haha. I’m all about Beth x Rio, Ruby x Stan, Dean x Suffering, Boomer x Grievous Bodily Harm! Even my non-canon ships like Annie x Nancy or Annie x JT are pretty popular! 

So instead, I’m offering you five crack ships and I’ve written the scenarios where I think they could work, because I am a glutton for punishment, haha. One of them I actually want to write, but I’m not going to say which, because I don’t want anyone to peer pressure me into writing it, hahaha. (I have way too many WIPs!)

Below a cut to save your feeds.

1. Krystal x Lucy

Okay, SO, I accidentally wrote them into the pornstar au, and ever since the thought came to me, it’s latched on like a parasite! I love the thought of them both having someone in their corner in the way that we sort of know they don’t? Lucy really needed somebody who could fight for her and was more clued into the world than either herself or Max, and Krystal pretty clearly needs someone who’s kind to her. Plus Krystal would edge out some of Lucy’s cutesyness, while Lucy would ground Krystal, and idk! I just think they’d be cute!

Okay, scenario though – I’m thinking the Hill’s have a Christmas party. Lucy and Max have recently broken up and Beth feels bad for her, so invites her to be her plus-one (or, well, plus seventh after Rio and the kids), and the gesture’s a nice one, but Beth is instantly distracted by helping Ruby get the food out or with Jane and Marcus inevitably causing havoc, and so Lucy ends up wallflowering, watching everyone else just - - know each other, right? 

And maybe Krystal sees her and maybe she’s a few drinks in already, so it’s not like it takes much to grab another cup of spiked eggnog and tumble against the wall beside Lucy. And maybe it’s awkward at first, because Lucy’s sort of weird, but maybe Krystal kind of likes that, and maybe Lucy compliments Krystal’s ugly snowman earrings, and Krystal really does think Lucy’s reindeer sweater is cute, and maybe Lucy falls a little in love when Krystal sings bawdy Christmas songs, her arm slung over Ruby’s shoulder, and Krystal falls a little in love when Lucy is unfairly good at drunk pictionary, and maybe it feels like they’ve known each other a lot longer than a night (and maybe they want to make sure they will). 

2. Mick x Mary Pat. 

Okay, okay, okay. Hear me out. 

So it finally happens. Rio finds out who Mary Pat is, what she’s done – that she’s Beth’s rotten egg – and y’know, Rio isn’t playing around anymore. He wants to send Beth a message, and what better way to do that than to handle the third person she couldn’t after Turner and Boomer? So he sends Mick off with an order.

And so Mick watches for a few days – keeps an eye on her schedule, her routine, carving out a plan to handle her as smoothly as possible (he’s not Rio after all, he doesn’t hand guns to women he’s just kidnapped, y’know?) – and starts to get a sense of her. Sure, maybe he feels a little bad. She has a lot of kids, y’know? And always seems pretty frazzled, at the end of her rope, but sort of sweet. She goes to church, sings in a choir, makes pancakes from a box, sure, but she adds both choc chips and blueberries which is a pretty good combo, and maybe it’s hard to believe she’s swept up in all of this, but then it was hard to believe Mrs Boland and that sweet girl from Paper Porcupine had been too. 

Still, Mick knows what he’s doing, y’know? 

He’s not Rio. He’ll finish the job.

So he steals into her house late at night, moving down to her bedroom, intending to take her outside, handle her away from the kids at least, when suddenly a wild Mary Pat appears! Brandishing a huge knife. 

Mick staggers back! Alarmed, and Mary Pat thrusts it at him, knowing exactly how long he’s been watching her and what does he think she is??? NEW to this??? She worked with the FBI! Okay, not --  not worked with them, but y’know, an agent was on her case for a while, and Mary Pat is not as stupid as her Uncle Larry told her that one time, and okay, Mick thinks, staggering back into his seat, eyes fixed on the knife Mary Pat is waving around at him. 

You wanna talk this out? 

It’s the wrong thing to say, because no, she doesn’t especially, and they just sort of stare at each other for a minute, trying to figure out what happens next when Billy wakes up and trots down the hallway, and he’s had a bad dream about the bad man, and for a minute, Mick thinks he’s talking about him, but then Mary Pat says something about how Boomer won’t ever step foot in this house again, and with the way she’s holding that knife, Mick is inclined to believe her. 

And then, well, Billy asks for pancakes. 

So that’s how Mick ends up eating pancakes with Mary Pat and three of her four kids at 2 in the morning, and y’know, he’s not a total asshole. He’s going to stay and help her clean up afterwards, and maybe it’s sort of nice, now that she’s put the knife down (although it is still in reaching distance, and honestly, he respects that), now that his gun’s back in his pants. 

And well, he can’t exactly kill a woman who just made him pancakes, so he figures next time, only next time, Mary Pat’s already cooking, and then the time after that, she’s already set him a plate, and maybe the time after that, she kisses him, and maybe the time after that, he kisses her first, and at least when Rio asks, Mick can just give him a look, because it isn’t like he doesn’t have his own batshit crazy mother of four he can’t kill. 

3. Rhea x Phoebe. 

So, y’know. Phoebe’s good at her job. 

Phoebe knows how to do a stakeout, to keep tabs, to collect intel. She revels in every part of the chase, every part of the puzzle, every part of the game of it all, because she knows that what she’s doing is right, she’s cleaning up the streets! Making the world a better place! But - - okay, she’ll be the first to admit that she already finds her marks exhausting.

Not so much Hill and Marks. They’re sort of fun to keep tabs on (and lowkey, Phoebe really does maybe daydream sometimes about what it might be like to sit on the couch and watch bad reality shows with them, drinking cheap wine and creamy, herb crusted cheeses). Even Boland is kind of awesome when she’s not with him. 

Because the thing is, as soon as Boland and the Big Kahuna are together, everything just gets a little - - hm. What’s the word for it? 

(”Nothing like watching a crime lord pull pigtails,” Henry had said on one stakeout, headphones on as they’d watched from afar as Big Kahuna had swung in close to Boland, said something that made her flush red and try to stamp on his foot. “Can’t wait until they graduate to passing notes. At least then there might be something we can use.”) 

And, well. It’s not like he’s wrong.

So maybe she starts to get bored of watching the highschool antics of them (as has everyone else, she thinks, if the looks on their faces is anything to go by - including the hitman clearly trying to take one, or both of them out [and please, a little part of Phoebe thinks, watching as Big Kahuna drags a finger across the back of Boland’s knuckles, and Boland wait until he’s gone to order the most expensive liquor in the bar to Big Kahuna’s tab]). Maybe that makes her dig a little deeper. 

Maybe that’s how she finds herself watching an under-9′s soccer game in a fold-out chair beside Big Kahuna’s baby mama. (She tells her she’s researching, so it’s not technically a lie, even if the cover of starting to coach a team of her own in the fall is a thin one).

And okay, maybe they hit it off. Which is kind of cool, Phoebe thinks, because it turns out Rhea is kind of cool (how she put up with Big Kahuna is a total mystery to her), and y’know, she’s actually pretty? LIke, pretty pretty. And nice, and totally normal, and maybe they get a coffee after the game, and catch a movie on the weekend, and maybe sometimes Phoebe forgets to fish about Big Kahuna at all, but that’s an easy mistake to make, and maybe Henry gives her a Look when he hears about it, but it’s nothing, Phoebe thinks.

She’s just doing her due diligence. 

Being thorough, y’know? 

I mean, who even knows when information could come out, and Phoebe’s just laying the groundwork anyway, she thinks, watching the line of Rhea’s neck, the purse of her lips, blinking rapidly when Rhea leans across the table, the curve of her breast visible beneath the thin fabric of her shirt, and says: “I know you’re a fed.” 

And Phoebe splutters as Rhea keeps leaning forwards. 

“I’m not going to tell you anything about him.” 

And what can Phoebe say except okay, something in her chest tightening at - - at what, Phoebe has no idea. Just knows that Rhea’s so close she can feel the other woman’s breath on her cheek.  

“I just want to be clear about that,” she tells her. “If we’re going to do this.” 

And Phoebe blinks, owlish at Rhea, pulse rapid and mouth dry as she asks: “Do what?” 

And well, it turns out Phoebe likes Rhea even more when she’s kissing her.

4. Greg x Dr. Josh.

Okay, so maybe two things happen. 

Maybe it’s a party of something when Annie finally turns around and tells Greg about kissing her therapist, and honestly, Greg shouldn’t be surprised. This is what Annie does, after all, and telling her off never really gets him anywhere, so he pours them both another drink, and - - sure, maybe another. 

Then maybe a few more. 

Because it’s just like they’re in this loop, y’know? Him and her. Like she fucks up and it’s not like she expects him to clean up after her (he’s not Beth), but it’s like there’s something in Annie where she needs him to know about it, and that just really gets to him sometimes, because like, Annie’s not his responsibility just because they have a kid together. Besides, he has Nancy now, so it’s not like he needs Annie, and even thinking about Nancy sort of makes him want to go and find her, so then he’s drunkenly stumbling around this party, looking for that cape of perfect blonde hair, and okay, maybe that’s when the second thing happens.

Annie. Nancy. Closet. Necking. Maybe a shirt’s off? There’s a lot of like - - like mouths and hand stuff and Greg slams the door shut and maybe goes and lies on the grass outside for a while. 

And okay, maybe it’s not a surprise either. Maybe this is also what Annie does too, but still, he stews on it, and then stews on it some more, and so what if he interrogates Ben for this therapist’s address, because like - - hadn’t Annie been going to him for months? How could this guy make everything worse. 

And sure, maybe storming into the guy’s office, drunk on anger this time instead of beer, isn’t the best idea, but he’s just - - pissed, y’know? And maybe he yells at the guy about where he gets off, kissing patients. Making his patients kiss his wife, and okay, the guy’s pale at first, but then is sort of nice, and they sit on the beanbags and talk for a bit about Hurricane Annie, and actually, he’s finished work for the day, so maybe they should go get a beer or whatever? 

And maybe later, when Josh drops a nervous hand to his knee and awkwardly closes the distance between them, when Greg’s kissing back, he does sort of wonder if he and Annie won’t always be pulling from the same pool. 

5. Turner x Noah. 

Come on. We all saw s2. There’s no way Turner didn’t offer a, ahem, hand to help Noah get over Annie. 

[liesyousoldme]

29. “I’m not going anywhere.” (reddie 😎💖)

this accidentally got kind of angsty? it has a happy ending but it’s all over the place idk what happened here

also i used the prompt TWICE so idk extra credit or something

“I can’t sit still for more than a few hours or everything will get stiff and it makes the stitches hurt twice as much. Also I can’t fly, even on a shorter flight. Basically I’m stuck in Maine for the foreseeable future.”

“That’s rough,” Ben said with a sympathetic frown.

“Why don’t you find a nice airbnb in Bangor? That’s only, what, a half hour drive? And you’d be closer to better hospitals,” Beverly suggested.

“And you’ll be the fuck out of Derry!” Richie added with a fake grin. 

“If that’s not what you want, I can wait to leave -”

“Fuck no, you can’t,” Eddie said, interrupting Mike’s offer. “You should be the first one out of this fucking town. I’ll find an airbnb in Bangor and catch an Uber once I’m released.”

Bill frowned. “W-what about your wi-wi-wife? Couldn’t she take care of getting the house and picking you up?”

Eddie scoffed, staring down at the hospital blanket covering his lap. “We had a fight, so... I’m on my own for now. Honestly, I don’t know if I even want to go back to New York at all.”

“I have no idea why I live in Chicago,” Richie admitted with a small shrug.

“I have a giant and beautiful house and I’ve hated it for years because it’s empty,” Ben said softly. Beverly grabbed his hand.

“It’s like I was just coasting,” Eddie said, looking down at his lap. “I never felt in control of anything. Which, like, obviously my mother has a lot to do with it, but I also just... Let things happen to me. Myra wanted to date so I dated her. She wanted to get married so I married her. She wanted kids so I - I paid for the most expensive fertility doctors out there and they all told her the same thing, our only option was a surrogate but no, she refused to believe that, thinks somehow it would be less her baby if somebody else had it. And of course it was all my fault. Which is fucking stupid, because if I literally never make any choices how can anything be my fault? I’m not doing anything!”

“Hey, bud,” Ben said softly, putting a hand on Eddie’s shoulder and slowly guiding him back to a lying position. “You’re gonna fuck up your stitches, dude.”

Eddie huffed but accepted it, crossing his arms over his chest.

“It’s just fucking stupid. And now that I remember everything about my mom... Like, fuck it, I knew she looked like her. I’m not fucking stupid. But Ma had just died and I... I didn’t remember I wasn’t sick. Suddenly I was alone in the world and I was sick so I needed help and - and Myra was just like her, you know? It didn’t have to be any specific illness or injury. Just delicate. A weak system. Stay away from fucking everything, Eddie. Wear your coat or you’ll die of pneumonia, Eddie. Don’t play with your friends or you’ll break a bone and then bone fragments will travel up into your brain and kill you, Eddie. Don’t get near an x-ray machine, it’ll give you cancer and you’ll die, Eddie.”

Eddie sniffed, wiping his nose angrily. Everyone sat close around his hospital bed. Bev’s eyes were wet when she grabbed Eddie’s hand and squeezed.

“But she’s not like her, at the same time,” Eddie continued. “She doesn’t... She’s not doing it on purpose. That’s the difference. Ma was... Ma was the sick one. But even past that, that thing that made her keep me weak and delicate and sick for whatever fucking reason she had... Even more that that she wanted to control everything. I mean, you guys know, she yelled at every one of you, some of you on multiple occasions,” he paused, looking distinctively at Richie who opened his mouth to make an I fucked your mom joke and stopped when Eddie glared at him. “She would do everything she could to keep me from you guys. She’d cry and scream and say I didn’t love her and that I was killing her. I always felt so guilty for like... Existing outside of her presence. Aside from that summer, I never really learned how to be my own person.

“I just want to make my own decisions and not be questioned about it. I want to figure out who I am when I’m not trying to please somebody else.”

“Fuck yeah, Eds,” Richie said, holding up a hand for a high-five.

“Don’t call me Eds.” He smiled, slapping Richie’s hand. 

“Are you okay with being alone in Bangor for so long, though?” Beverly asked, corners of her mouth twitching downward. “Not that you’re not capable, but you have some extensive injuries and it makes me nervous to think of you trying to take care of them yourself.”

“Th-th-there are home nursing ser-ser-services you could hire,” Bill suggested.

“I could stay with you,” Richie said quietly, almost hoping his voice wouldn’t be heard. Eddie turned to him with wide eyes. He looked at those, and not Bev’s, who were sympathetic. He could hear her voice in his head saying Honey, don’t do this to yourself.

Fuck it. He’d always been a glutton for punishment.

“Seriously?” Eddie checked, hint of a grin forming on his face.

“Yeah, dude, a little bro vacation!”

Eddie grimaced. “Don’t call it that.”

“You’re real fuckin’ picky about names, Eds.”

“Don’t call me Eds.” Eddie sighed. “But really, you don’t have to do this. Or you can fuck off after like, a week. Don’t feel obligated and don’t put your life on hold for me.”

“I’m not going anywhere,” Richie promised, then cleared his throat when he realized it sounded too sincere. “Where would I go? Chicago? I don’t give a fuck about Chicago. We’re both starting over, I guess.”

“Might as well do it together,” Ben said, then smiled. “Kind of like me and Bev.”

“Well I never wrote Eddie a poem and kept his signature for 27 years, so...”

Eddie frowned and despite his red cheeks said, “Why do you get to be Ben?”

Richie looked at him. “Honestly? I shouldn’t be either of them. I can’t even decide which one is hotter. Ah, the perils of bisexuality.”

The room was quiet.

“Did you just come out by calling our friends hot?” Eddie asked, a hint of shock and awe in his voice.

Richie shrugged. “Guess so, Eduardo.”

“Jesus Christ, Richie, stop objectifying people. And also, no offense to Bev, but it’s clearly Ben.”

Richie’s jaw dropped. Eddie’s cheeks were bright red but his eyes were defiant. 

“Did you just come out by calling Ben hot?”

“You’re absolutely wrong, Ben,” Mike said. “They’re not like you and Bev. There’s... There’s nothing that compares to whatever the fuck this is.”

Eddie hid his face in his hands and Richie laughed with his friends, breathless.

“I’m tired now, everybody go home,” Eddie grumbled from behind his hands. He accepted hugs from everyone but when Richie leaned down for a hug he held him tighter, a little longer. “Not you. You stay.”

“Course,” he said, sitting in a vacant chair next to the bed. “I’m not going anywhere.”

[makeste]

BnHA Chapter 234: Tomura Flashbacks and Giganto ex Machia

Previously on BnHA: Re-Destro lost his temper and hulked the fuck out and started breaking off Tomura’s fingers like a goddamn Kit-Kat bar. Elsewhere, (1) Twice cloned Toga in order to give her a blood transfusion, unaware that Skeptic was heading their way; (2) Spinner’s quirk of being a Gecko Man was revealed and he attempted to wall-crawl his way over to Hanabata only to be assailed by a bunch of redshirts fired up by Hanabata’s Trumpet quirk; (3) Dabi continued to battle Snoopy Sno-Cone Machine offscreen (I assume); (4) Compress was also probably doing something but who can be sure; (5) Giran was running off to safety with one of the clone Twices, and finally, (6) Gigantomachia Goron-rolled his way towards the action while Slidin’ Go stood there nervously, probably sensing that his number is coming up on the great cosmic roulette wheel. All of this happened two whole weeks ago because the manga was on break last week! But it’s finally back now, so leeeEET’S geeet ready to rrrruuuuUUUUUUUUMMMMMBLE.

Today on BnHA: RD continues to get handsy with Tomura until Tomura starts to disintegrate one of RD’s own fingers to see how he likes it. He does not, in fact, like it, so he flings Tomura away and starts thinking all of these shocked antagonist thoughts about how Tomura is stronger than he expected and his powers are ~awakening~ and blah blah blah. Meanwhile Tomura hops back onto the Flashback Train to Feels City and recalls how AFO gave him his family’s severed hands to make sure he stayed good and pissed!! And he also remembers more about his sister and how much she loved him! And his mom and grandparents who were also super nice and are now fucking dead and it’s a lot! Horikoshi is pretty fucking ruthless! Anyway so RD decides he’d better go all out and wrap this up, but before he can deliver a killing blow, Gigantomachia finally makes his entrance. At the same moment, Tomura finally remembers “everything” (?? ???!?!?), which, holy fucking shit you guys.

(All comments are my unspoiled reactions from my initial readthrough of the chapter. I did a quick edit for grammar and clarity immediately afterward, and added one or two ETAs in the process, but aside from that there are no changes.)

okay so let’s see what gruesome things are in store for our intrepid villains this week

“destroyed memories” oh? come again? you don’t say?? fancy that?? goodness me???

so is this referring to Tomura? or Dabi? if it’s referring to Re-Destro or one of his gang, I swear to god...! nobody cares about your memories RD. you’re a jerk and you suck

lol what the

aww. is this a “real” in-universe children’s book, is that what this is. did all the lil U.A. dumplings read this when they were small. and was there also a similar book called “don’t judge people by their lack of quirks” and if so why did no one read it to lil baby Kacchan hmm

anyway now we’re cutting right back to this unpleasant image! and not only that, but in the two weeks we’ve been gone things have even escalated!

we’re up to two hands being grabbed now! um. he’s really going to need at least one of those? probably?? please don’t Overhaul my deranged villain son fffff

reminder that Tomura needs to touch something with all five fingers in order for his quirk to activate (or he did before at least), so even though he still has... two...? fingers remaining on his left hand, that hand is still effectively useless as far as quirking goes. so if he suffers even the smallest amount of damage to his right hand as well, it’s basically all over for him. unless he actually was using his quirk with his feet in the previous chapter. I’m assuming not because he presumably would have decayed his way all the way down to the center of the earth if that was the case. I think @khorale mentioned this in a comment on my last recap, but yeah, seeing as the ground’s not disintegrating underneath him, it’s safe to say it’s Hands Only here

anyway I got so caught up in being calmly horrified over the current situation that I didn’t even read the dialogue. so RD’s saying that superpowers are linked to personality, and so that “don’t judge people by their quirks” stuff is in fact bullshit

um, source? are you a psychologist? in general I try to take things with a grain of salt when they’re said by pieces of shit, so yeah

fffffffff noooooo Tomura’s face sob Horikoshi you bastard

he looks so freaking young here. okay, shit. I’m starting to think I need to make plans to unwind after I finish reading this chapter. maybe get an Enya playlist in the works. diffuse some essential oils. find some cute baby animal videos

but on the plus side, it’s looking ever more likely that his are indeed the Destroyed Memories in question omg. so I will continue to get hype while also feeling very guilty and stressed

you guys I’m actually really glad RD is feeling like he has the upper hand now, because he’s starting to waste some valuable time monologuing, and with every second he babbles on, Machia is getting closer and closer to whooping some ass

so he’s asking Tomura what he’s trying to create

and well, actually, he’s not really that far off

I mean. does it count as nothing if he wants to destroy the whole world? one could argue that would be “creating” a new world in which everyone is fucking dead. idk. I might have to give RD this one; his whole point of “quirks are linked to personality and you have a quirk that destroys everything you touch so you probably just want to destroy shit” is holding up surprisingly well to scrutiny thus far

yeah so now he’s yelling “YOU ONLY LUST FOR DESTRUCTION! AM I WRONG?!” and nope. but even a broken clock, twice a day, etc.

oh shit OH FUCKING --

um, okay, (1) NO IT’S NOT, SHE WAS A LITTLE GIRL, NONE OF YOUR HANDS BELONGED TO A CHILD YOU GULLIBLE RUBE

and (2) MY FUCKING FEELS. why am I even surprised. what the fuck. I knew more angst was coming and yet it still...

just, god. okay fine Horikoshi I’m a glutton for punishment, please continue then

HAHA SOB IT’S A WHOLE FUCKING FLASHBACK OKAY SURE LAY IT ON ME!!

this really is the wildest shit though you guys. I still can’t get over it. “hello little boy I’m sorry your family is dead but don’t worry I’m adopting you and here are all of their severed hands. with little plugs on the end too or some shit. just, you know. souvenir”

I can’t fucking believe AFO played this so straight. maybe that’s why it worked. it was just so fucking out there that Tenko wound up buying it hook line and sinker. “hmm, seems a bit shady, but then again why else would a strange man I met only yesterday just randomly up and give me a dozen severed hands”

I don’t know if any of this shit is important, but it’s probably good practice to just post every mysterious thing that AFO says

yes you really did a great job healing this guy’s wounded fucking heart, Dr. Phil

oh wow, never fucking mind, even

I see, so that wasn’t meant to be a reassuring “in time you’ll get over it” speech; it was meant to be a cautionary “you’d better surround yourself with reminders of your terrible pain at all times or else you might actually stop feeling fucking miserable and WE CAN’T FUCKING HAVE THAT” speech. holy shit

I’m seriously having trouble wrapping my mind around just how terrible this is. like, it’s nearly impossible to fathom that level of cruelty. this is a four(?)-year-old child. he tracked him down, gave him a quirk that would kill his family*, sat back and watched it happen, and then let him stew in the horror of it all alone until he finally swooped in and claimed him and then raised him with the express purpose of keeping him sad and scared and angry and depressed at all times, all so he would eventually grow up and, with any luck, murder the man that his grandmother thought of as a son!

(*this is just conjecture right now, admittedly, but until I’m proven wrong I’m basically operating under the assumption that it’s true)

just. “fucked up” doesn’t even begin to describe it. god

anyways, let’s continue to read more about young Tenko’s extreme emotional abuse at the hands of the final villain I guess

OMG HANA

okay so I can’t remember where we left off on this last time, but a bunch of people said they suspected that the young Tenko wanted to be a hero when he was a little boy, and that’s why he was always clashing with his dad, because his dad’s own experience with heroes was pretty sour on account of the whole his-mom-gave-him-up-when-he-was-little-and-then-later-died-horribly thing

so yeah, I assume that’s what Hana is referring to here with the whole “I just tell Dad...” bit. so they both wanted to be heroes! how perfectly fucking tragic! great!

Tomuraaaaaa

KEEP IT UP TOMURA YOU CAN DO IT!! YOU CAN REMEMBER! YOU’RE DOING GREAT. aside from the whole “this really big man is killing you slowly” thing

yeah, this whole deal

but aside from that. doing great

!!

OOOOOOOOOH SHIT, THIS MUMMIFIED LITTLE PUNK’S STILL GOT SOME FIGHT LEFT IN HIM YOU GUYS

YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

he got him to fling him away! YESSSS TAKE THAT YOU ASSHOLE. FOOL HIM ONCE, FUCKING OUCH, BUT FOOL HIM TWICE, AND LET’S SEE HOW YOU FUCKING LIKE IT YOU BIG WAD

so now Re-Destro is belatedly realizing that Tomura is going through a very weird leveling-up process and taking advantage of the fact that he’s temporarily become the main character of the series and thus possesses all of the narrative powers that come with that venerable distinction

...that he’s the main character? yes

anyways lol there’s some real good crazyface action going on here guys

did Horikoshi take the extra time just so he could devote a little longer to nailing down panels like this because if yes, A+++

SDSKJSODIFHOIESJ

it’s mom!! wow!!

DSLKFAJSLDK ARE WE GETTING BACKSTORY ON THE FUCKING SCARS OMFG I CAN’T THIS IS TOO MUCH

SOB YOU GUYS I’M CAUGHT UP IN THIS WEIRD CROSS BETWEEN BEING HYPED AF AND ALSO CRACKING THE FUCK UP NOW THOUGH, BECAUSE:

ALL OF THIS WAS SO FUCKING BADASS, AND THEN THAT LAST FUCKING PANEL, THOUGH. LMAO WELL HE’S ON THE BRINK OF SOMETHING, BUT WHO CAN EVEN FUCKING SAY WHAT

ANYWAY HE’S ZOOMING TOWARDS RD AND RD’S THINKING “HE’S FAST!” AND YEAH, BITCH, YOU SCARED??

WHAT ARE YOU THE PRESIDENT OF HIS FANCLUB NOW OR WHAT

you guys this is the most I’ve ever liked Re-Destro. there’s something about evil nemesis characters being begrudgingly impressed by their enemies that just pleases me, idk

LJSDFIJWEOF

WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED TO HIS FACE HE LOOKS LIKE ONE OF THE SCARY TREES FROM SNOW WHITE

OH SHIT YOU GUYS WE’RE BREAKING OUT THE TROPES

so do we get 100% when he goes up against Machia, then? smdh, fucking power levels. well I guess Deku technically uses them too. but still, it’s not something we see in this series too often aside from that

holy shit you guys

honestly, I guess this should be really intimidating or whatever, but all I can think is that it’s about time this guy finally started taking this “pitiable gang of thugs” seriously. even if that does mean Tomura is probably about to fucking die, barring some Giganto ex Machia. that guy really needs to get a move on

oh hey

[RAISES EYEBROW AT GIGANTOMACHIA AND JABS FINGER TOWARDS WRISTWATCH] cut it a little closer next time why don’t you??

(ETA: also I didn’t notice all of Tomura’s other hands being flung away from him by the impact, but whoa. so now he’s just got the Papa Hand left in his pocket, along with whichever hand is grabbing the back of his head. and that’s it. I don’t think it’s a coincidence that his dad is the only remaining family member whose face we still haven’t seen yet. some big reveal coming up with that soon, I bet.)

oh and also guys here’s some more flashbacks. this time with loving grandparents. because Horikoshi just really wants to make sure our emotions are good and churned about

okay guys, Tenko’s very dead flashback!grandma and grandpa telling him not to cry and giving him yummy food so he won’t be sad is pretty much close to the limits of what I can take, angst-wise. I don’t know why this is hitting me so hard! this is hardly my first anime flashback! I should be a pro at this by this point, the fuck is wrong with me

but on the other hand, I think a big part of it is that I’m not just sad about Tomura’s past, but also angry. because none of this is just coincidence; all of it is actually stuff that was done to him very deliberately, and the worst part is he doesn’t even realize it. and so in addition to the usual rush of protective feelings, there’s also this sense of outrage about it all too. and I think that’s the harder part to deal with. here I am, a grown adult, getting really mad over the staggering cruelty of what was done to this fictional character when he was a child. it’s possible there’s some real-life anger and frustration over certain real-life horrific cruelties and injustices that may be bleeding over into this, idk. just, the world is a fucked up place, and my emotional support manga is currently being less than supportive and it’s a struggle sob

anyways sorry about that. meanwhile while I was having a mini breakdown, possibly the most pivotal character development in Tomura’s history was happening and HOLY SHIT THOUGH WAIT UP GUYS

sdfkdsfjwoilkkj BOY!!!!!!!

SOB HOW ARE THERE ONLY TWO PAGES LEFT I’M GONNA CRY THIS CHAPTER WENT BY SO FAST

-- HORIKOSHI WHY ARE YOU CUTTING AWAY FROM THE FLASHBACK OH MY GOD I’M GONNA!!!

FUCK ME, THIS IS WHAT I WAS WAITING FOR SO IMPATIENTLY, SO OF COURSE HORIKOSHI JUST HAD TO FINALLY MAKE IT HAPPEN RIGHT WHEN I WOULD HAVE GIVEN ANYTHING TO NOT CUT AWAY FROM THAT SCENE WE WERE JUST ON. THIS SADISTIC SON OF A...

...hee. but it’s hard to stay mad, though

... :)

:D :D :D

lol what. recall, if you may, that you guys are the ones who basically forced them to come down to your mountain city and kick your asses you dickasaurs

HAHAHAHAHAAA

SDLFKJLSDKFJ AND ALSO OH NOOOOOOOO

OH MY FUCKING GOD. AND THAT’S IT. THAT’S THE FUCKING CHAPTER. WHYYYYY

EAT IT YOU PRICKS, I HOPE GIGANTOMACHIA FLATTENS YOU ALL INTO NEXT WEEK

Tomura looks so freaking sad, you guys. he’s just standing there completely still and he looks like he’s just completely destroyed emotionally

and he said he remembered everything!?! so what the shit am I supposed to do, Horikoshi?? my boy is just standing there with seven fucking fingers and one shoe and so caught up in his sad reverie that he’s seemingly oblivious to the fact that the long-awaited cavalry has finally arrived. kid is maybe 2-3 chapters away from finally triumphing over this bald Disney tree man who talks too much. and not only that, but he’s more than likely going to finally win Gigantomachia’s loyalty in the process. which in turn means he’ll have access to Ujiko and all of his resources

so in short, this boy is minutes away from becoming one of the deadliest and most powerful forces on earth... and I’m pretty sure that right now, at this moment, none of that matters to him one iota

you guys. so what does this mean for future developments?? I’m really going to need him to define “everything” ASAP, for starters. that’s a very vague statement, and its implications could mean the difference between us just having a sadder-than-usual Tomura from this point out, or a Tomura that’s sad but also realizing for the first time that there’s a lot about his past that doesn’t quite add up, or hell, even a Tomura that’s actually out for fucking vengeance against AFO. that last one seems like too big of a jump to happen right away, but dare I at least hope for the second option though? god that would just be the icing on the cake for this fucking perfect arc

now if you’ll excuse me, I’m off to go do some yoga or chant some mantras or something holy shit. this fucking manga

[thekraziesreside]

OK hopefully this will be the last sketchy post about Boku No Hero Academia / My Hero Academia Em’s background and information 

Also like help me decide who to ship her with and like idk @doodlingclown @baileythebailer am I too much? Yea? Ok I’ll bury myself k bye 

Name: Em Hyde Saiaihime  Aliases: Zentai Sato (as UA student) Pre Mo (Previous Villain before All Might injury)  Eyes: Blue (green/brown) hazel Height: 5′6″  Weight: 130 lbs  Age: 27 

Short backgrounds on her Aliases

Pre Mo:

A villain given a Premonition Qurik [functions by being able to predict one move forward of the opponent that they are looking at and can look at up to five people’s next moves] 

The villains thought the reason he didn’t get negative affects was perhaps he had special DNA that allowed it to bond without draw backs to the new quirk

His job with the “league of villains” was to gather information about heroes, rogue villains, or anyone of interest who would not be easy to fend of if they caught you following them. 

History goes that he attacked a hero (the hero ended up making up this story but most people believe the hero over rumors) 

He did kill a few people: but they were intense situations one of the people he did kill was a hero who Pre Mo tried to help but they refused and backed up into more villains who killed him but he took the blame. The others were people he was stalking and the cards were not in his or his prey’s hands because he tried to save them but still failed. 

Faked his own death shortly after the supposed death of All Might’s foe because he didn’t want to be under the rule of the villains any more. 

His death basically annihilated his body so investigations didn’t think it was strange when they couldn’t find a body. But because most of his body was annihilated the dna with the quirk was gone. 

Villains did not know his true identity, no one was ever able to tie him with the Em Saiaihime. They also thought Pre Mo was quirkless before given the quirk which he gave himself the villain name from. So no one had a second thought when he died because a blast like that, even if he saw it coming he probably couldn’t avoid it. 

It took a while over 6 months for Em’s body to regain it’s complete functionality after basically destroying it. 

Zentai Sato: 

Applied for UA saying they had an “invincibility” quirk and was put into one of the other classes (and transferred to class 1-A *see 6) 

The school did find it strange that Sato didn’t have much educational history but it was explained away by him being an orphan and it getting lost because it was viewed as unimportant. 

Even if she had solid answers for everything while she was hiding in plain sight she was so anxious and seemed pretty aloof until people started opening up with Zentai first. 

Though one of the things that made other’s more comfortable was when someone pointed out his name was basically Hentai, and seeing his react as not some scary dark dude made the other students feel like they weren’t a threat. 

Some of the teachers found him suspicious, but they thought it would be easiest to keep a watch on him at school so they let it slide. 

They were only transferred to the class due to recommendation 

The transfer date was one day before the USJ attacks 

Reasons for going to UA were to honestly try and start over, because she knew what she did was wrong, though not all of the deaths were her fault the blame was put on her and she’d take the downfall for it even if it wasn’t true. I’d say she’s kinda a glutton for punishment because of how lowly she views herself, but she just wants to do something right. 

Reveal of Em Hyde Saiaihime: 

When Nomu was crushing Aizawa Shouta Em’s instincts were screaming at her to do something but she was trying to help the other students with the villains at hand but as soon as Tomura reached for Sue’s face she snapped [ and example it would look like is this . 3:00 to 3:15 ] 

She didn’t care if she had to reveal herself and her back story she couldn’t let people die, not again, that’s the whole reason she came to this school. To do better, to do good things. 

The students were obviously probably confused, like “dude why is one of our class mates trying to fight that thing and his boss when it just crushed sensei?” And Thirteen had a bad feeling, also where did he get that power? Like he’s just invincible not super strong? 

Continuity: When Shigaraki is talking to All Might how it’s not fair that hero’s can be violent and how Midoriya was going to kill him but to Em hopefully All Might wouldn’t get involved in this weird AU way of looking at it.  Em would be the one he’s talking to and she just snarls and tells him he’s wrong. “Because I’m not some kid who is trying to be a hero who went to attack, I went to make you go down, because you’re trying to hurt the people I want to protect.” 

She’d have to go all out to beat Nomu and get the villains to retreat as the pro heroes are on the way and man is she hurt but her [quirk makes wounds heal / time and energy build up too] body had healed enough on the outside to where when the heroes came in to help clear up the other villains and help the students she ran away. 

A note about her quirk:  She’s indeed invincible / indestructible (to a point I mean) but her quirk is more so time/space so her body still takes the damage but it heals quickly. The pain does not, so sometimes the pain is enough to make her black out and half the time its just determination that keeps her up. She’s usually in so much pain and especially in battles where she get’s banged up like that, the pain only stacks, but she has to stay conscious to keep fighting. If she even relaxes for a moment she basically passes out again. Her wounds can reopen too, so like a stab wound, while it will go away in a few moments she’d still cough up blood. It’s not a fun time and she’s not really built for endurance fighting but that’s still what she does.  The extent of her physical attacks would be that in the above clip, like strong, could kill a person but not that strong that someone who is trained to fight cannot stand their own against her. 

Reveal Part 2: 

She makes it back into the school, her id still worked to get her in because they suspected she’d try to come back and play it off like Zentai. 

Instead she came back as herself and sat in the class room before class started and formally apologized to the students for deceiving them and explaining that it’s what she thought was the right thing to do for herself and that she’s going to accept any form of punishment that the school will go through with. All this before Aizawa makes it into class. 

She doesn’t resist at all when the students are asked to get help, she doesn’t want to fight. As a few students are standing off as defense and others get help from other pro heroes and teachers she apologizes to Shouta [there are tears but she doesn’t even notice she’s crying] 

Could she easily get out of being captured? Very well, like escape artist hero is something she could very well be but she looks so down on herself she’d not even try to fight to defend herself against the heroes who she looked up to and care about. 

She offers herself up to go on a trial (ok now here’s a head cannon / idea for someone to take as an OC if they want to like hit me up) by the quirk of someone else.  Their quirk is like a lie detector but rather it makes you tell the truth about what ever question is asked [also think Truth or Punishment Star Vs the Forces of Evil] but like even if you tell the truth it’s still really painful and dangerous like #bitch you could die from your injuries. And if you try to fight the truth it’s like your body being torn apart. So it’s not a fun time but she assure them that it’s the quickest way to prove she’s not lying about certain past events. And the only reason they agree is because she says that being indestructible it won’t do much damage. 

When in all reality it hurts a whole lot, like she’s coughing up blood because she doesn’t want to say anything about her past and try and excuse herself like “yeah my mother, the one person in the world who is supposed to care, hated me.” She refuses to let them know that, she doesn’t deserve their sympathy right. So she’s crying and bleeding and in a hell of a lot of pain but the trail started and she “tricked them into it” (They probably wouldn’t have agreed seeing as how inhumane it is). 

After the trial it turns out that, yeah she’s done bad things, and she’s still got a lot to learn but she’s not a villain, I mean, not really? 

She has to spend like a week in Recovery Girl’s office, the first two days she’s still occasionally spitting up blood and in so much pain that she’s crying and doesn’t notice (because the trail happens after she fights the Nomu too so she’d still be healing from that too because her quirk doesn’t make the pain heal any faster than it would for most people so she’d probably be in that pain for a month or two the most severe being then) 

Another note on her quirk:     Certain physical wounds/injuries don’t get undone (physically erased like when she gets a cut and such her skin will heal and the bleeding will stop but still holds the pain). Like a burn doesn’t threaten your life so she’d retain it like any other normal human. Same goes with if she loses an eye, her eye will probably not come back unless it’s a fatal wound. She can scar, bleed, break bones, and such as long as it’s not fatal her quirk won’t fix it.     Then again if the limb with the scar get’s cut off, and it comes back (through basically regeneration due to space rewinding/loop/worm holes) then the scars that would have been on it are gone because it’s a new limb basically.     I’m not sure if her quirk makes sense, the only reason it would be time/space correlated is like a the pause in a game or a save point would be her healthy body parts. So like if she gets an injury it’s like you reload the save but the codes still have the idea that the body is in pain. So she’s back to physical standards if she has to “recall” to it, but the pain doesn’t change and can stack. That’s why wounds that aren’t severe won’t activate her quirk to go to the “Save” because she can’t just control her quirk like that. The one thing about it she can control is ignoring the pain with her determination to protect those she cares about but her body will eventually have to face the pain and actually heal.  An Angsty Idea:     There is a point where the Villains get her, they cut her head off (it comes back, but the pain would be something kind of unimaginable, she might not be able to feel her body/ be kind of paralyzed. Her motor skills will be like a new born, trying to relearn and stuff. It might not take as long as other wounds to heal but it will be an awkward couple weeks for her and her pain would probably come in waves and make her pass out /spinal injury ya know?). They probably torture her, and end up brain washing her, she becomes a puppet, and loses her eye somehow (but not being such a deadly wound her eye would just reform and she’d have to tend the wound).     The heroes probably won’t have a choice other than killing her at some point. Or maybe the refuse to kill her but the small part of sanity she has finds a way to make them kill her. (Like someone pulls a sword away and she’d just follow through and kill herself either way, she does this in the Bleach AU). Either way, she somehow manages to get her head re-cut off. Her eye would be normal because again, “a new limb” kinda of deal, and the same goes for her brain. So she wouldn’t be brain washed anymore. But I mean, just imagine the toll of injuring your nervous system like that twice in the span of maybe a month. She’d need a lot of help, rehabilitation will probably be a must if the heroes got her back.     There’s an old myth that your birthmark is how you died in your past life, mine and hers is on the back of the neck under the duck tail part of hair. So like neck injuries scare me, but what scares me the most is like, the myth doesn’t say it would take the shape of the wound. If it did, then I’d say it was a shot to the back of the head, but if not, it could be any neck injury, like getting it cut through by a sword in the Bleach AU. 

[halfincubus]

tagged by @soulfulspikethekiller tagging: @whoawhatwhoa @ghoshts @pauldrons

1. Which book has been on your shelves the longest?

It’s either my Famous Five collection or my Agatha Christies. My grandad gave me both around the same time, so I’m not sure which I started reading first.

2. What is your current read, your last read and the book you’ll read next?

The last book I read was The Knife of Never Letting Go (And I’m never going to let go of the shitty way that book killed the dog, not touching that pointlessly miserable series again) and I’m probably going to start reading Cormoran Strike next because my friends recommended it and I’m a glutton for murder mysteries.

3. Which book does everyone like and you hated?

I have a fair few books that still make me Angry, many of them from the Victorian novel period I was forced to study in uni. Madame Bovary stands out as a novel full of boring twats who don’t know what they want and all they do for like 300 fucking pages is have their heads in the clouds. Why is it a fucking classic, it’s so damn irritating. If we’re talking about more modern novels I particularly despise that Fever series by Karen Marie Moning. The ‘romantic’ lead in that is honestly such an arrogant unloving knobhead I don’t understand why he’s allowed to exist. To say nothing of the GROSSNESS of many different aspects of the way females are treated… yeah I would say if you value yourself as a woman just don’t read it.

4. Which book do you keep telling yourself you’ll read, but you probably won’t?

I bought the first two instalments to Anne Rice’s vampire books since I loved the film Interview with the Vampire. I remember trying to read it at one point but I think I got bored 1/5 of the way through and never tried again. I think I’ve grown too out of my vampire phase to read it now.

5. Which book are you saving for “retirement?”

War and Peace, Crime and Punishment, Les Miserables. Any one of those massive classics that everyone is supposed to read but is just too long and requires too much brainpower after a long week at work to bother with.

6. Last page: read it first or wait till the end?

Let it be known that I have never once looked at the end. I am pure and disciplined in this. I’m not even tempted.

7. Acknowledgements: waste of ink and paper or interesting aside?

They can be interesting, and lovely. Karen Chance’s recent one was for the fans and I loved it. Same for the last Harry Potter book, however many years ago it came out, I remember it because it included an acknowledgement to the fans. Definitely worth perusing when you’ve finished an amazing book and don’t know what to do with yourself for like a week (which is when I start absentmindedly flicking through the entire book).

8. Which book character would you switch places with?

It would have to be a character that can do magic and cool stuff like that, but without all the difficult lifeyness of a Harry Potter character. I think I’d be someone from The Worst Witch, like one of the minor characters that never gets in trouble.

9. Do you have a book that reminds you of something specific in your life (a person, a place, a time)?

Yeah, who doesn’t? All my Cassie books remind me of summer holidays because that’s when I like reading them the most. My Japanese murder book Out reminds me of the girl in my history class who lent it to me. My Agatha Christies remind me of my grandpa (who still loves the odd Poirot episode). I have lots more, too many to list.

10. Name a book you acquired in some interesting way.

I entered a random giveaway and won an advanced reading copy of RTS. I don’t know how many people entered but I was one of the first to win, which is pretty cool.

11. Have you ever given away a book for a special reason to a special person?

No. I lent my sister When Hitler Stole Pink Rabbit once and she left it on the plane. I’ve never let anyone have one of my books since.

12. Which book has been with you to the most places?

I think my Catch 22. Before I got my Cassies, that was my go-to book to read on holidays and any free time I had. I don’t even know how many times I’ve read it, it’s so good.

13. Any “required reading” you hated in high school that wasn’t so bad ten years later?

I thought Winter’s Tale was stupid for the longest time (and I still think Leontes is a massive idiot) but when I had to study it again in uni I found its familiarity oddly comforting. It wasn’t ten years, but hey, I’ve only just reached that milestone.

14. What is the strangest item you’ve ever found in a book?

I can’t remember that sort of thing unfortunately, even if I did ever find anything. I’m sure I’ve never found anything odd, I mostly buy new books.

15. Used or brand new?

Brand new. I don’t have anything against used books but I guess it’s just easier for me to buy new?

16. Stephen King: Literary genius or opiate of the masses?

Never read one [shrug]

17. Have you ever seen a movie you liked better than the book?

Lord of the Rings might actually be better than the books. You know what, it is. The books had some funny things that weren’t in the films, yes, but they also had useless stuff like Tom Bombadil that were thankfully cut out. The films made me FEEL SO MUCH. I FEEL SO ALIVE WHEN I MARATHON LOTR.

18. Conversely, which book should NEVER have been introduced to celluloid?

I’m gonna go ahead and copy Mai here because I TOO LOATHE ‘2005 Pride and Prejudice’ WITH EVERY FIBER OF MY BEING IT WAS TERRIBLE THE CASTING WAS TERRIBLE IT WAS ALL WRONG WRONG WRONG WHY DOES EVERYONE LOVE IT IT WAS AWFUL COLIN FIRTH IS THE ONE AND ONLY SUPREME DARCY. Also Northern Lights (Golden Compass) was so perfectly casted (except for Lyra) and then they just fucked up the entire film’s adaptation idk I think maybe the book was just meant for TV more than film, like Harry Potter.

19. Have you ever read a book that’s made you hungry, cookbooks being excluded from this question?

God all of the Famous Five books ALWAYS had food and even though it described stuff that was gross in theory like ‘tongue’ I would get hungry and salivate because it was so deliciously and meticulously written.

20. Who is the person whose book advice you’ll always take?

Oh man any one of my supertrash gang are 100% trustworthy.

book meme 2

1) Do you have a certain place at home for reading?

My bed, most often.

2) Bookmark or random piece of paper?

I have homemade and bought bookmarks, I practically collect them.

3) Can you just stop reading or do you have to stop after a chapter/a certain amount of pages?

It’s very difficult for me to stop reading once I get a good rhythm going. It’d be like stopping your dinner in the middle of your meal and going out for a walk or to do chores and it’s just weird I can’t do it. If I’m really in love with the book I’ll go without food and sleep lol

4) Do you eat or drink while reading?

Depends how much I’m into the book. If I’m really enjoying it, I’ll forget to do basic human functions like that haha (see above). If I can manage to tear myself away for a few minutes I’ll grab some easy insta-food like bananas or snacks and eat while I read.

5) Music or TV while reading?

NOTHING. THERE MUST BE ABSOLUTE SILENCE. But once I get into the book you could fly a plane into my room and I wouldn’t notice.

6) Reading at home or everywhere?

Has to be somewhere I can be mostly by myself and I’ve got at least an hour of peace ahead. If in public, only on a long journey and I have nobody sitting next to me on a seat.

7) Reading out loud or silently in your head?

Silently. I don’t think I ever read out loud, even when I was a child.

8) Do you read ahead or even skip pages?

I might sometimes come upon a scene that makes me go UUUGGGGHHH but I will struggle through it rather than skip ahead. I might read it faster and with less attempt at full comprehension though (rest in pieces Mircass scenes)

9) Breaking the spine or keeping it like new?

Fuck keeping it new, you need to break in the spine so your hands don’t hurt when you’re reading it.

10) Do you write in your books?

Nope. They made us do it for high school but it always felt wrong to me on some level. I couldn’t just 100% focus on reading if I had a pen in my hand the whole time. I’m starting to do it with my kindle though, I like it there.

[violetemerald]

1,2,3,4,9 ships meme!

http://lovesjustachemical.tumblr.com/post/157357970101/40-questions-meme-for-shippers

1. Talk about the first ship you ever had.

It's somewhat impossible to really know what my actual first ship was, likely a bunch kind of happened simultaneously at once since it's not like I ever only watched one show at a time. I'm pretty sure Ross/Rachel on Friends I was shipping hard before I knew what a ship was though, before I ever really used the internet even, like they were my main motivation to keep watching the show, to see what happened next with them. I've answered other things other times I've answered this question but I think they might be my actual first.

2. Talk about three of the most important ships throughout your life. There are so many"important" ones lol!! But gosh it's also such a thought provoking question, because what makes a ship "important" anyway? It's also hard to narrow down to 3 when I have so many that shape who I am today or what I've spent my fan effort on, etc etc. I also hate to list only het ships as the three "most" important ones but...

Literati aka Jess/Rory - Gilmore Girls. So much energy and effort has been expended in my life thinking about them. I watched everything Milo ever did for years because of this ship, hey Alexis too now that I think about it. They were the reason I was so invested in and so disappointed by the Gilmore Girls revival. They were the first real "ship" I vidded, repeatedly, and one of few first ships I consumed fanvideos of en masse. They really pushed me through the door that was me getting into fanfiction; while other fandoms may have crossed my path, this got me there. They are one of the first things I think of when I think of the word ship.

Clana aka Clark/Lana - Smallville. Ah I have more feels than I know what to do with for these two?? Weirdly I never got into fanfiction for them or done much like here on tumblr about them but I have probably vidded them more than any other ship. They have more total scenes than any other OTP of mine and I'm a vidder who lives off watching and creating fanvideos, so that kind of matters a lot. I got two of my most amazing online friendships out of this ship, the three of us were friends with each other for years and knew a lot about each other's personal lives and stuff, were the biggest fans of each other's vidding, made dedicated vids in a variety of fandoms for things like birthdays, made collab vids together, etc and even if we're not as close now, if Clana is not a main ship really for any of us anymore, we are all still friends and it's been like a decade OK? ALSO... Like I am still vidding this ship, that has never stopped, I still like thinking about Smallville as a whole, and... Idk. Both this ship and Literati have a lot of songs in common that work, have a surprising amount of parallels, and yet... The thing that's so special about Clana is that neither is clearly the dreamer vs the realist, there is no "bad boy" or "cold hearted bitch/bully who thinks she's too good for someone" to be redeemed/changed/saved, both characters have their fair share of trauma in their past but are genuinely sweet people all along and care about each other all along?? Like idk. OHHH and one huge thing that's so important about Clana as a ship to me is that all along I knew they weren't endgame. Don't ask me how just generally existing in American culture had me aware that Clark was destined to end up with Lois even before I saw a Lois on Smallville, when Smallville was my first ever actual Superman based piece of media I consumed, but I knew OK? And I think it means something huge about how I ship to know that i never was rooting for them to end up together and overcome those odds. Not at all. I just really wanted to see the journey, the validation that it can be amazing And real love even if it's not forever? I wanted to relish in the angst trainwreck too. I'm a glutton for punishment sometimes.

And for #3 I'm gonna have to go with LoVe (Logan/Veronica) - Veronica Mars. Like... I helped fund the Veronica Mars movie Kickstarter campaign and I'm pretty sure at least 50% of why is that I needed them to have a happier ending. If you look at my fanworks, I haven't written fanfiction for LoVe yet but I've planned out a fic about their hypothetical future daughter so like, I was close lol... Also I have podficced this ship, multiple times, something I haven't done for the other two ships on this list... I adore Logan/Veronica, vidding them, engaging in meta about them, etc. These two characters are so amazingly complex and I relate to a lot when it comes to each of them.

3. What’s your current OTP? Really hard question to answer. Honestly I'm not even sure if I have one per se.  It changes with the tide, you know? Lol OK so like... I have extremely hard shipping-esque feelings for Mario/Angus on Code Black which is part of why I've kept up with that show when I still fall behind on others. I internally squee when they have moments. I don't even know if I really ship them in a slash way but I need more people to know this show and care about how much amazing love these men have for each other (even if it's platonic love??) and oh I'm already grieving the show's likely cancellation. I also am feeling too many things for Dana/Lara as I watch season 1 of The L Word for the first time right now on Netflix? I don't even care if you spoil me, just like... They just broke up and I really want to know they're gonna get back together?? I also am feeling so many Karma/Amy (Faking It) feels lately as I brainstorm how to vid for the current femslash multi-round contest I’m in...

I’ll answer the other two questions... “4. What’s your current NOTP?” and “9. Do you have many ships that never got together at all?” later, as soon as I get a chance lol. This post is long enough now and I have to leave the house!!