#i think i really do need to crown his NA </3

[2-cute-4-school]

𝚗𝚌𝚝 𝚍𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚖 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚌𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗 𝚝𝚘 𝚊 𝚌𝚞𝚍𝚍𝚕𝚢, 𝚎𝚡𝚑𝚊𝚞𝚜𝚝𝚎𝚍 𝚜/𝚘

a/n: hiiiii so i decided to make this a 2in1 reaction; basically i just put together 2 of my requests that were *in my opinion* closely related. hope y’all don’t mind and enjoy!! ( ˊᵕˋ )♡.°⑅

requested by annonies: ‘Hey.. could you please do nct dream reaction to s/o having high fever and just wants cuddls? 🥺 like how would they take care of them.. make it fluffy please.’ & ‘nct dream reaction to their s/o being EXTREMELY tired and then like ummmmm cuddling and stuff maybe?? *uwuing in the distance*’

Mark Lee

okay but just imagine this (๑◕︵◕๑)

cuddle sessions when you’re both stretched thin and overworked

even though we all know he isn’t big on skinship i think he would throw all reticence out the window when it’s crystal clear that you both NEED each other ꒰๑˃͈꒳˂͈๑꒱ﾉ*ﾞ̥

so you just crawl under the bankets into his arms and you both just lay together in silence just enjoying each other’s presence

bonus points if he runs his hand through your hair and you trace shapes with the pads of your fingers on his skin (´,,•ω•,,)♡

it would probaby take a couple of lazy kisses and if you’re really really soft he might just hum some song lowly in your ear

just a lil heads up:

you ain’t getting out of his arms ‘til next morning so better hope you peed beforehand and have a bottle of water in reach (ಠ‿↼)

the only thing that would make him get up without a second thought?

if you’re feverish because of your exhaustion

his worry wouldn’t allow him to settle down until he’s 110% sure he made everything in his power to keep you comfortable 

“cold towels, water, painkillers just in case, is there anything i’m forgetting? babe, should i make you some tea-”

“mark, you know what would make me feel SO much better?”

“huh?” ｢(ﾟ<ﾟ)ﾞ??

“CUDDLES, BABE, CUDDLES!!” (╬ Ò ‸ Ó)

you don’t have to say that twice, your man is tucking you into his side in an instant flash ain’t got nothing on mark, he’s a man on a mission

he’ll try to stay awake long enough to make sure you’ve fallen asleep properly since he knows your fever won’t go away without proper rest

might hover over you the next morning too!! ( ≧Д≦)

Huang Renjun

this boy would FRET like CONSTANTLY

especially if you develop a fever 

he keeps piling up a lot of stuff in your room, anything he deems would be potentially helpful at some point is surrounding your bed

“jun, why tf is a cactus on my nightstand?” Σ(-᷅_-᷄๑)

“what if haechan walks through the door?”

“... understandable” ¯\_( ◉ 3 ◉ )_/¯

your room looks like a deposit at this point and you’ve tried to drag him to bed more times than you can count

but he’s restless ༼ ಥ ‿ ಥ ༽

until your frustration topples over and you’re on the verge of tears as you ask him for ✨cuddles ✨

he might actually feel bad for not joining you earlier so he’s gonna be EXTRA soft with you enjoy it while you can

he’s gonna pepper kisses all over you as he encases you in his lil arms and nuzzles his face into the crown of your head (っ˘з(˘⌣˘ )

he’s ready to offer free massages or head scratches!!!! LIMITED OFFER DON’T MISS OUT!!!

also he’s ready for literally anything

fever? medicine and wet towels nearby. thirst? 4 bottles of water AND gatorade. hunger? your favourite take out is waiting. any intruders? cactus is right by his hand. cuddles? CUDDLES!!!!! (۶* ‘ꆚ’)۶”

i think he’ll probably stay up even after you fell asleep, reading about how exhaustion affects one’s body and how to help i just think he’s a really wholesome person despite his all ‘don’t talk to him he angy’ character

but he’s still SO attentive to you!!

he’s down to anything that would make you feel better and if that means 20 hours of non stop cuddling so be it (๑•̀ㅂ•́)و✧

Lee Jeno

i think he’d be REALLY clingy with you even in normal circumstances kind of like how he’s with mark ya know

so your affected well-being will just give him an extra reason to evolve to his ULTIMATE LEVEL OF PHYSICAL AFFECTION◝( ′ㅂ`)و ̑̑

he won’t let you lift A FINGER

my man is cuddling you even while standing up (灬 ♡ ω ♡ 灬)

he’s also going to insist on carrying you anywhere even if it’s just from the bed to the bathroom this boi is strong you have no excuse to shy away from him he won’t let you

you have no chance at escaping him btw his arms are made of iron when it comes to cuddles good luck prying them off you

and even though he’s clearly focusing on your requested cuddles, he’ll ask you from time to time if you need anything, how you’re feeling, if you’re comfortable

lowkey uses the excuse of checking your temperature to give you endless forehead kithes cuz he can (*＾∀ﾟ)ъ

he also becomes kind of hyperaware of every little move you make

you shiver? he’s cocooning you in yet another blanket. you’re becoming restless? he adjusts your cuddling position until you’re fully comfortable.

NOTHING gets past him ┌༼ σ ‸ σ ༽┐

idk why but i have a hunch that jeno sleeps like a rock

so if he happens to fall asleep too and you need to get up? pfft yeah sure better call for a crane to lift you up from the bed  ૮( ᵒ̌ૢꇴᵒ̌ૢ )ა｡

he’s also going to be EXTREMELY cranky if anyone dares interrupt your extended cuddle session this is strictly ‘only y/n and jeno time’

he might also entertain you with a few pictures of his cats if you’re feeling soft or ugly pictures of his members if you need a good laugh

would totally recommend leaving yourself in jeno’s care!! ♡(.◜ω◝.)♡

Lee Haechan

he would LIVE for your cuddle sessions (●♡∀♡))

despite that, he WOULDN’T STAND you being uncomfortable for a single second if he can do something against that

i think he’s the type of person who wouldn’t leave even the smallest of papercuts untreated when it comes to his partner so exhaustion? fever? yeah no. frickin. way. ┐(;Ծ⌓Ծ;)┌

and after he’s absolutely sure he has everything you might need nearby and put a cold cloth on your forehead and made sure you were hydrated and well fed

he finally climbs into bed with you and just SMOTHERS the shite outta you i’m not even kidding ꒰๑*´ᗜ`*꒱*›◡‹꒱꒱

he’s full on *leech mode*, kisses and nuzzles and gentle caresses

and best part of the package? this man is a walking spotify premium!!

you get to choose whatever song you want and switch with no ads and he has no complaints since his payment is already made in cuddles

you thought this was the end of it?? SIKE

also an entertainment king!!  ୧༼✿ ͡◕ д ◕͡ ༽୨

we all know he probably has shit on all of the members and he’s not shy to do some harmless story telling to put you in a good mood

so just imagine and try coming up with anything better

sleepy you engulfed in the sunshine himself’s arms, tightly cradled against him with his soothing honey voice murmuring and humming to you and only you ˭̡̞(◞⁎˃ᆺ˂)◞*✰

his protective side might surface too btw

no one is allowed near you and if someone somehow managed to bother you? oh hell naw  🙃

now they’re on hyuck’s black list good luck mate

his babie gets the royalty treatment in those times guaranteed

Na Jaemin

he’s a doting boyfriend either way i think we can all agree on that

but you clinging to him and asking for cuddles? you not feeling well?

yeah not on his watch mother hen in action part the sea (ﾉ･ｪ･)ﾉ

i don’t think he’d panic tho, his only struggle would be postponing the cuddles you’re asking for while he prepares something to eat and a tea and fluffs up the pillows and blankets he’s gathered (oꆤ︵ꆤo)

but once he’s done?

yeah you’re bundled in a mountain of softness and most importantly? our cuddle bug jaemin (♡ >ω< ♡)

he’ll keep you propped up against his chest while he feeds you himself, proper care is something unskippable in his agenda

but after that any cuddling position is FREE REAL ESTATE!!

anything his baby wants, his baby gets ෆ╹ .̮ ╹ෆ

but for the sake of his mental stability he’d prefer to be in a position from where he can see you

boi is too worried to let you out of his sight so he’s aiming to be the big spoon or facing you directly 三 ( ◜◡‾)っ)⁰▿⁰)

he’ll help you fall asleep in any way he can

he’ll caress your back, your arms, he’ll softly massage your neck and shoulders, he has a playlist ready for sleepy moods

he is PREPARED ٩(๑•̀ㅂ•́)و

he checks your temperature every so often and he grumbles with a pout if it doesn’t seem to be going down

but if it comes down to it he won’t hesitate to ask someone to bring some medicine and if your exhaustion and/or fever doesn’t relent he’ll insist on getting checked by a doctor

it would break his heart to see you so weak and no ammount of cuddles could repair it until he sees you up and healthy again (◕⌓◕;)

but he’ll do all the pampering in the world so don’t worry

Zhong Chenle

i think he would hesitate at first but only because he’s kinda scared he’ll only make it worse and he WOULDN’T want that ( ⚆ _ ⚆ )

eventually i guess he’d step out to call his mum for help before he pulls some bull like ‘let’s do some math it’s gonna be fun’ and you lose your shit like no thanks fam i wanna live (┛ಠДಠ)┛彡┻━┻

he’ll listen RELIGIOUSLY to his mum’s advice 

makes you some chamomile exactly how you like it, probably pulls together something small to eat but won’t force you

what he will force you to take is some medicine you ain’t dying on his watch (๑･`▱´･๑)

and most importantly... DAEGAL CUDDLES!!!! imagine getting to cuddle every nctzen’s bias

he might get *a little* jelly tho if you pay too much attention to her tho

so he makes up some dumb excuse about dog hair aggravating your fever or some dubious other reason why you have to let go of his puppy and cuddle HIM!! ೕ(•̀ᴗ•́)

he’ll do that cute thing where he leans his forehead against yours to check your temperature he has to be extra until the end

and before you go to sleep he’ll  try to prod at you to tell him what caused you to be so exhausted that you developed a fever might nag at you too about how unheathy it is to let it get to that point

he just wants to help okay? baby is worried in his own way ( •́ ∧ •̀ )

if there’s ANYTHING he can do to help consider it done by the time you wake up he’ll ALWAYS go an extra mile for you

and chenle wants to make sure you are aware of that and can lean on him so it never gets to this point again

but for the time being... it’s cuddles and relaxation time!! ✧(๑✪д✪)۶

better believe he’s already preparing a spa day for both of you to enjoy like the  ✨spicy ✨ bitches you are

Park Jisung

his heartbeat accelerates

and unfortunately it’s not because he’s flustered shame (#ﾟﾛﾟ#)

his only thought when he sees you with bag under your eyes and a cold wet cloth on your forehead is ‘shit, they’re dying wait no censor the first part i can’t get my mouth washed with soap but... poop, they’re dying’

ONE step away from calling for an ambulance or morgue in his mind

he SWEARS he’ll let you teach him how to ride a bycicle as long as you get out of this safe and sound (╬⁽⁽ ⁰ ⁾⁾ Д ⁽⁽ ⁰ ⁾⁾)

he’s a bit of a mess, but he’s your cute mess

it would take *quite* a bit of reassurance that you’re going to be fine after a good night’s sleep and some jisung time for him to somewhat relax

his cheeks will flush once he curls himself around your form no matter how many times you’ve cuddled before

but once you sigh blissfully once he wraps his arms around you, it’s game over for him ε=(｡♡ˇд ˇ♡｡）

he MELTS against you

he’ll caress your head and gently scratch your scalp, lays kisses on your cheeks/forehead/crown of your head

but he will also fret every time you toss and turn or you make any sound that seems ‘distressed’ to him

we all know he can sleep anywhere under a frickin carpet so he won’t have any problems adjusting to whatever works for you since all that matters to him atm is that you’re comfortable (♡ >ω< ♡)

he just wants you to get better faster

he’ll talk to you in a hushed voice, encouraging and praising you and assuring you that once you’re all better he’ll help you with whatever you need and EVERYTHING will be well in the end ٩(ó｡ò۶ ♡)

he’s a senstitive person so he just wants to be there for you in any shape and form he can be

[walkwithheroes84]

Rest of 2021 Watch List

With only six and a half months left of 2021, it’s time to get serious about my drama watching habits. I’m so behind and there are several things that are (supposed to be) coming out in the later part of the year. So, here is my list of things that I want to start/am interested in. Granted, some of these things may change as more information comes out about them. Or I may just decide not to watch them. And some may get pushed back into 2022. 

Already Aired:

Lucifer: season 5b (USA) - Though the first half of season five left us on a cliffhanger, I just cannot seem to sit myself down to finish out the season. It may be the mixed reactions of long time fans or the knowledge that season six is the last, either way, I’m having a hard time getting back into the show. 

Youth of May: (South Korea) - This romantic, moody, slice-of-life drama. I was waiting for it.The ending is going to break my heart, so I have to be ready for it. I hear the preformances are amazing, but I know I’ll be crying. 

Word of Honor: (China) - Everything I’ve heard about this drama makes it sound amazing. And while I know things will be heartbreaking - I just need to prepare. 

Currently Airing:

Doom at Your Service: (South Korea) - I watched the first four episodes (I think?), but I am waiting to binge it after it ends. Why? The first few episodes were so good, I want to be able to watch it all at once. 

The Penthouse: War in Life, Season 3: (South Korea) - I was super excited for this one...then I heard about Logan’s “brother” and, uh...maybe I’ll just watch the clips of my favorites?

Mad for Each Other: (South Korea) - I know very little about this drama, but it looks amazing and I’m hearing good things. 

Mine: (South Korea) - So, it sounds like two daughter-in-laws of a rich family work together to get what they want. It looks good.

My Roomate is a Gumiho: (South Korea) - It just looks fluffy and adorable. And I need that. 

Coming Soon:

June:

Ancient Love Poetry: (China) - It just sounds sweet and sad and I love a good Chinese drama that will make me smile and eat up the angst.

Nevertheless: (South Korea) - Honestly? The Netflix trailer looked interesting. 

July:

The New Version of the Condor Heroes: (China) - I love this story and the 2014 one was a hotmess. The promo pictures look good, though they were released in 2018. Rumor is the drama has been shelved, but we’ll see what happens. 

The Devil Judge: (South Korea) - You have Ji Sung staring in a dystopian drama, where he is the as the head judge of the highest court in the land. The court has become a TV reality show, with viewers invited to participate in a live. The one person looking to take him down is Kim Min Jung as the director of a corporate social responsibility foundation. And then you have two childhood friends: Park Jin Young and Park Gyu Young, idealist who want to make their world better. I look forward to Ji Sung and Kim Min Jung battling it out, and maybe corrupting the idealist cop and younger judge.

Boku no Satsui ga Koi wo Shita: (Japan) - This one may not ever get English subtitles, as Japanese dramas aren’t really subbed anymore...however, the story sounds amazing. A young man finds out his dead foster-father was a professional killer and this young man decides to take up the “family business” to avenge for the father.  The young man approaches a womanwho is his assassination target. Despite his skill as a hitman, he can’t ever kill her, not matter how hard he tries. Instead, he ends up protecting her and the two fall  in love. This could go so many places and I want to see it.

August:

Red Sky: (South Korea) - A beautiful and genius painter meets a blind officer in charge of astronomy, geography, art of divination, and meteorology. The two fall in love. And it’s marked as a “historical romantic fantasy”? Yes, please! 

October:

The Red-Stained Sleeve Cuff: (South Korea) - The story of Sung Deok Im, a court lady.  She catches the eye of Crown Prince Lee San. Once the prince becomes king, he wants Sung Deok Im to become his concubine, but she refuses. Yet, Sung Deok Im becomes the concubine of King Jeongjo. This could be angsty. Also, it stars Lee Jun Ho (who you may remember from Just Between Lovers) and Lee Se Young (who always brings it). 

December: (or 2022...?)

Twenty-Five Twenty-One (South Korea) - The love story of two people, who have really bad-timing, told over the period of four years. Personally, I’m hoping for a poignant human drama ala Just Between Lovers or Come And Hug Me. (Minus death and murders),

Return: (South Korea) - This is literally described as: “A fantasy drama about the stories of young magicians who deal with heavenly spirits.” It will be on tvN, which usually has really solid dramas. There is a cast of talented up-and-comers: Lee Jae Wook, Arin, Park Hae Eun, and Hwang Min Hyun. There are also some talented vets in the cast: Yoo Joon Sang, Oh Na Ra, and Joo Sang Wook. It’s beingdirected by Park Joon Hwa Everything looks great on paper. It’s just - the drama will be written by the Hong Sisters. During my early days of Kdrama viewing (way back in the mid 2010s), these ladies wrote some of my favorites. And while I did love Hotel de Luna and A Korean Odyssey - it has become very clear over the years that these writers don’t do well during the second halves of their dramas and they aren’t always great at endings.

Snowdrop (South Korea) -  It takes place in 1987, and follows students at a prestigious university in Seoul. It will be written by Yoo Hyun Mi, who wrote SKY Castle and The Bridal Mask. I’m looking forward to it, even though I heard there was pushback (which has resulted in the show airdate being moved back a couple of times) from the South Korean citizens'  who believe that the drama distorts facts related to the pro-democracy movement of the 1980s in favour of the authoritarian regime. This was based on an incomplete version of the plotline that had been leaked online, which describes one character as a “spy” and another lead as working for the NSP. We’ll see

At Some Point in 2021/early 2022...?:

The Witcher, Season Two

The Umbrelllla Academy, Season Three

The Boys, Season Three

[aynanasstuff]

Hi! I started a Sam Wilson library account. To make the library I need your help. SO

Your favourite Sam Fics (written by YOU. SELF PROMOTION Woooo╰(*°▽°*)╯)

and 2-5 fic recs for other writers (❁´◡`❁)

Oh this sounds so good! Thank you for doing this!

(Self promo is going to make me feel really conceited hehe, but I'll do it!)

Abhi Na Jao Chhod Kar (this is my first ever fic so it'll always be close to my heart 🥺)

Dance For You (For my little dancer heart)

Blissed Out (18+ but still really fluffy)

The Way You Look At Me (an ode to my brown eyed babies <3)

Who's the Bionic Staring Machine Now? (It's a Biker!AU and while I'm not too confident about it, I LOVE that i wrote something outside my comfort zone)

There She Is (I realize I write a lot of hurt/comfort sksksks)

The Wilsons' Residence (I don't think I'll ever stop writing for this series, I love it so much)

(Here's my masterlist ? If you wanna check it out :3)

For other amazing Sam writers:

The Sammy Sundays masterlist - @ambrosiase

@marvelmaree has some pretty amazing Sam stuff <3

Til Death Blooms Us Art by @divine-mistake

Flower Crowns by @turbolisedcomet

Four Men and a Wedding - @musingsinmoonlight

Hope this helps <3

[jenonctcity]

Charia Kingdom - Masterlist

An NCT Dream Fantasy Series.

Charia Kingdom - A place that has equal amounts of sunshine and rain, hot and cold, rich and poor, and, humans and creatures that couldn’t be identified as that of human status. Ruled by the Lee family with a king whose cutthroat and unforgiving nature is feared by many. The poor not cared for by people who have everything, where disease takes the lives of those unfortunate enough to not have the funds to purchase medicine. A place where humans live among  creatures many would find terrifying. It’s no secret that Vampires, Werewolves, Wizards, etc live amongst them like normal people. Unless you murder someone, you’re considered normal. Everyone lives their own lives, whether it be a happy life, or a sorrowful life...

Mark Lee - Born into a family of renowned witches and wizards, there came a time for Mark to fly the nest. The nest being their comfortable home in the middle of the bustling kingdom. After the death of the castle’s witch, 17 year old Mark was brought in to take her place. He lives up to his family’s name and has impressed the royal family with his natural talents. Now 20 years old with the trust of the royal family and kingdom, shy, quiet Mark is given a new obstacle when a new maid is brought to work alongside him in the castle. Granted she’s mostly there to clean up his mess, but he finds she plays a much bigger role in his life than just that. With the new light in his life, Mark faces a new task at hand. Keeping her safe from the horrors of the castle. 

Perils Brewing - [S], [A], [F]

Huang Renjun - Being chased from the royal family’s castle at the age of 16 was never something Renjun hoped for when he was growing up. Having lived in the castle since his birth, his mother, the castles witch, raised him alone. After finding out a huge secret and confronting the king, the king has Renjun’s mother killed, leading Renjun to use the dark powers he never knew he had to curse the Prince of the kingdom. After a bounty is put on his head for his crimes, he lives his life on the run, burrowing away in a cabin far out in the depths of the dangerous forest. A place where many lethal creatures live. Now 19, Renjun has lived in solitude for 3 years, and never expected a girl to break into his home in the dead of night. The girl he encounters is on the run herself, but refuses to tell him why. The stubborn, mentally strong, and brave girl persaudes him to let her stay with him. Can he live alongside another being when he’s still got dark magic flowing through his veins and a huge secret heavy in his heart?

Running From The Dark - [S], [A], [F]

Lee Jeno - Being the crown prince of Charia Kingdom was never something that worried Jeno. He was raised by his mother to smile when talked to, and to have a kind heart so that he would rule the kingdom differently to how his father had. At 16, he’s unexpectedly hit by a powerful curse after hearing a ruckus going on in the echoing halls of the castle. It flips his life around, his new status as a werewolf being a challenge he hates with all his heart. It turned the kingdoms sweetheart into an angry, brooding boy. Now 19, Jeno has learned how to control when he phases with the help of the remedies Mark brews for him. The only thing he can’t control is bursting into a gigantic wolf every time a negative emotion takes over his mind. No one apart from the workers of the castle know that he’s a wolf, it being kept a secret from the public. He runs in the forest in his wolf form calm him down, until he comes face to face with a rogue wolf who threatens his life with her piercing glare. After imprinting on each other, Jeno has to learn how to balance his new love, his duties as prince, his burning rage, and a secret that is revealed to him that changes his life once again. 

Stepping Into The Moonlight - [S], [A], [F]

Lee Donghyuck - Donghyuck the cheeky, charismatic boy who wasn't born a demon. As a human Donghyuck was known for his greed and crimes. So when he died at the age of 19, Satan offered him an eternal life in exchange for completing tasks. At the age of 79 he was banished from hell for failing to take the life of someone he decided upon himself didn't deserve to die. For his sin, as punishment he was sent to live on earth forever. Being immortal and watching people you make connections with die from illness, old age, or suicide was a far bigger punishment than dying. Currently 128 years old, he’s seen many of his peers around him die in many ways, and every time it happens it chips away at his sanity and positive attitude. He swore never to fall in love, but upon meeting the princess of Charia, he can’t keep away from her. After falling in love with her, it’s becoming more likely that she will be ripped away from him sooner rather than later. With his emotions flipping completely, can he manage to stop himself from sinning to save the woman he loves?

Coming Soon...

Na Jaemin - At the age of 19, Jaemin was brutally beaten by a knight of the royal family and left for dead. He was found by a creature of the night and turned into a blood craving vampire. Many years later, he’s now 210 years old and lives life one day at a time. He’s rather peaceful for a murderous creature, only being considered dangerous when he’s starved of the only thing he needs; blood. Before his death, he was an orphan, abandoned with only a pile of letters telling him of his true heritage. Something that’s always planted in the back of his mind. After hunting one night, he hears screams coming from the kingdoms small hospital. There he finds a nurse being attacked by a patient. After defusing the attack, he has no other choice but to help the wounded nurse, not being able to leave her there half dead as he was once before. The addicting scent of her makes him keep her around despite the danger that he poses to her by having her in his home. He finds himself doing something he never would have dreamed of doing to keep her around. After finding out about his true heritage, she changes, for the good or bad? Will this be a love story, or a tragedy?

Coming Soon...

Zhong Chenle - Born as an angel in heaven, Chenle had always been obsessed over how humans lived on earth. But forbidden to step foot on earth he had to always watch from above. Turning 18 he decided to take a risk. A risk that lead him to be ripped from his family, forced to live his life on earth like a mortal human. He has his halo taken from him, but is plagued by the wings that have a heavier feeling on his back than what they used to in heaven. Living the life he always wanted, he’s a happy soul, rarely being sad even if he can’t leave the house as much as he would like. His wings are hard to conceal, and with fallen angel’s being a more than rare thing, he’s scared he will be killed for his wings. You’d think if he was killed he would go to back heaven right? Wrong. After being thrown to earth, he had no means of survival other than stealing to stay alive. One night he meets the hyperactive, bubbly girl who works in the local bookstore. A friendship immediately occurs between the two. He soon finds himself falling for the girl and has hopes of living the normal life he always wanted. As he gets used to living as a human does, will life pan out the way sweet Chenle wants?

Coming Soon...

Park Jisung - In human form, Jisung looks like the worlds softest boy. His shy, slightly awkward persona often tricks people into thinking that he couldn’t even fight off a new-born baby. So why has the royal family put this lanky, slender 17 year old boy in front of the castles main gate as its protector when the rumours are that a terrifying dragon is the guarder of the castle. Well, something not many people know about the boy is that he’s a dragon hybrid. And can turn into an overwhelmingly huge dragon that has even the bravest of knights quivering in their chain mail. So far no one has ever gotten past the boy, and he intends on keeping it that way. So when a girl who looks around the same age as him slips past him and is found stealing from the castle, he’s not too impressed. She’s locked away in the dungeon, and the curious boy has to meet the only person to ever get past him. She’s sentenced to death but after pleading with his friend Prince Jeno, her crimes are pardoned, but only if Jisung keeps her with him as his assistant. He encourages her to change her thieving ways, but will he ever be able to change the hard-headed girl he argues with daily? What if you add strange feelings of love into the mix and a promise that one of them doesn't intend on keeping?

Coming Soon...

(A/N: Hi! I’m so excited to for this series I hope you enjoyed the teasers! whose are you most looking forward to? I worked really, really hard on these so please let me know your thoughts and give it loads of love! Also as all of this series hasn't been written yet, things may change in the plots and summaries but it shouldn't be anything too drastic. Also this series will contain smut, angst and fluff. Obviously no smut for Chenle and Jisung, and each story will get warnings and categories marked on them when they’re published.)

[moondustaeil]

If your moots (or blogs you want to be mutuals with) were fanfics, what would they be? I personally think you'd be a 'royalty au, protective brother king!Kun × princess/prince!reader × suitor!Sangyeon' fanfic! 📚

You just seem very mature and put-together to me.

hihi, my love!! This was so nice to do even if it took a long time, I loved it so thank you. Also thank you for saying what fic I would be, I wish I could live in that fic 🥺💙

If you’re not in here, I’m so sorry, I’ll still add you if you want or next time someone asks me this, I’ll add you!

you can find the fics and moots under the cut! I didn’t go in any particular order, just who popped in my mind at what moment and émi last bc she’s my world yes. This is way longer than expected

@sunhyuck

Au: soulmates 

Pairing: wanderer!Haechan x Kei 

Backstory: ever since Donghyuck accidentally met eyes with a stranger on the street, he is greeted with sunflowers scattered along his path. Young sunflowers dance under the sun, turning to the source of warmth and light. Just like the sun is all you've been gazing at ever since you walked on the same path as your soulmate. 

Why: because I truly think of Kei as one of the people I'll always go to and when thinking about soulmates, I think of people who find each other and accept each other despite different lives. That I will connect to the weird variety of subjects we talked about. I love you, my angel (if you're reading this). 

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@neo-cult-ure 

Au: demonic entities , haunted house , roommates 

Pairing: composer!Taeyong x journalist!Ley 

Backstory: Taeyong has been shouting over his music to you for over half a year, almost begging you to dedicate a column to him and his music. When his equipment starts picking up the strange noises coming from the house, it becomes clear that the clock hasn't been stopping at 3:19am for nothing. With Taeyong discovering the entity living among you, you decide to dedicate the article to Taeyong and your invisible roommate. 

Why: do I even need to explain, this queen owns horror and the horror concept. She's the one I'll bow to because I owe her a lot and she's freaking talented.

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@ceruleanskies 

Au: secret relationship 

Pairing: soloist!Yuta x stylist!Kai 

Backstory: ever since Yuta appeared on the red carpet with a short haircut, fans hunt for the person that made the decision to get rid of his mullet. All fingers point towards you, stylist of Nakamoto Yuta, from each finger a new opinion flows into your ears: too short, not the right colour, better looking with the mullet. Though one finger shoots the arrow right in the heart "they're dating." 

Why: because I truly adore Kai even though I'm way too scared to actually tell, I don't want to mess up and make her think that I'm some kind of weird person. In my eyes, she sparkles through my screen. 

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@neonun-au 

Au: dating app 

Pairing: photographer!Johnny x Mads 

Backstory: just like he with a button alters between the different pictures on his camera, Johnny alters between the different profiles, swiping them in his desired direction. That's how you strand in his life and mostly his camera roll: the pictures he takes, one by one, capture you. 

Why: because even though we don't know each other well, I truly want to capture her in my memory and think about the smiles I had on my face when reading her messages. 

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@flowerhyucky 

Au: arranged by fate (you can call this soulmates but I'm calling this arranged by fate)  

Pairing: Hendery x Ana 

Backstory: one day, the flowering plant amaranthus caudatus settles itself in the middle of an empty field. Another day, someone else's birth flower is planted next to the amaranthus caudatus. The young miracles of nature grow just as their owners do, however, they don't bloom until the love between you and Hendery starts to bloom. 

Why: I really like Ana and her URL actually inspired the story, I could write so many adorable aus to fit her but nothing would compare. I truly like her vibes and her personality is so beautiful, like wow. 

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@smileyjaeminies 

Au: university , writer 

Pairing: writing student!Jaemin x student!Alex 

Backstory: exam season is closer than expected for you, with only a few days to go until you scribble your knowledge down on the exam sheet and a week to go until you need to hand in your paper. However, someone is willing you help you with that paper. Na Jaemin, student and writer who seems to have more control over his life than the earth has over global warming. As the word document increases in pages, so does your liking towards the young writer. 

Why: I met Alex thanks to thesunnyshow that we're both co-admins of, and it immediately felt as if we were friends. Alex helped me through the screen when I fell off my bike (yes haha, a 21-year-old one took the wrong brake) and I try to make it work when she's busy with uni but we have a shift. So I think we're a great team and that's why I picked this au. 

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@fruityutas 

Au: broken relationship 

Pairing: Taeil x Emily 

Backstory: "Can I go on?" Taeil asks himself every morning, gazing upon your sheet-covering body as you drown in the world of sleep. The wind howls outside the window, and Taeil wishes the wind would push you towards him, but the soft blowing only pulls you further away from him. You feel a soft breath against your neck, the soft lips murmuring "without you, there's no way." 

Why: I don't know why I chose this particular plot, maybe it was because I was listening to a song and based it on that. Initially, I wanted to go for a cheerful and happy plot that reminded me of her URL, but I ended up with angst. I remember we had this talk about angst and went from that. Also, I adore her so much, I probably expressed that once in a gc already but I'm saying it again. 

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@afishcalledfatin 

Au: friends to lovers

Pairing: Jungwoo x Fatin 

Backstory: for as long as you can remember, you've been friends with Kim Jungwoo. In your childhood and teenage years, the term BFFs would be engraved in each object you gave to each other, but now that you two are adults, life is different. You want to give him the world because he deserves everything, he wants to give you love because his heart is longing for yours. 

Why: because she feels like a friend that I've had for years, we don't always talk but when we do, it just feels like we've been friends since forever. I love that a lot about her and I love how easy she is to approach and talk to, she's a true darling. 

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@heartyyjeno 

Au: strangers to lovers 

Pairing: Sungchan x Alesha 

Backstory: trainee life is tough for Sungchan, even thinking about having to walk for over half an hour to get to the dance studio is something Sungchan stopped looking forward to. However, he meets you on his way, walking along the same path to get to a different location. One step a day with you along his side is all it takes for him to look forward to it again, to walking with you and getting to know you better. 

Why: because Alesha is a great friend and we, unfortunately, don't talk as much as we used to, but that doesn't take away I'm always there for her and she's always there for me. Sungchan's walk resembles the many different talks that we had together and not all of them were fun, but we walked the path together.

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@jimjamjaemin 

Au: youtuber , vlogger 

Pairing: vlogger!Mark x vlogger!Mona 

Backstory: Mark and you have been a couple for over a year, with the growing interest in your relationship, you and Mark start a YouTube channel. From a look in the life to fun challenges, you and Mark take over the crown of cute YouTube couples. 

Why: Mona and i didn't meet in the best situation, we started to talk when there was quite some drama in the fandom. But I love Mona and the thing she made me for my birthday reminded me of an editor which led me to a youtuber au!

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@chaoticdeobi 

Au: bakery/coffee shop (bc how can I not, she kicked me out of the coffee queue) 

Pairing: soft-spoken!New x coffee shop owner!Bea 

Backstory: the coffee quote that hangs inside your coffee shop, is something that Chanhee cites every day. With a soft voice, he orders his coffee and then flashes you his smile when you proceed to tell him that the cookie is on the house. As you bring the coffee to his table, the last minute of your shift ticks by, and when you sit with him, you start your shift as girlfriend. 

Why: I literally love love love Bea, sometimes she reminds me of a soft-spoken person and other times she reminds me of a chaotic deobi. I still laugh to myself thinking about our talks, thinking about having fun together. We don't get to talk as much as I'd like, but when we do, I wish we could talk forever. 

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@juyeonzz

Au: criminal , badass , something chique  

Pairing: criminal!Jacob x partner in crime!Qiu

Backstory: pointing the gun at his future victim, Jacob awaits your return. You explore the house: tugging at knobs of money-filled drawers, opening jewellery-clad treasures. But you are looking for the key to Jacob's heart, a golden key dusted with scratches, poisoned with old blood from when someone else locked his heart and pulled the key out harshly. 

Why: because Qiu really gives me chique and sad vibes, when I think about her, I think about a longing feeling described with poetic words. Qiu wasn't my first mutual but if I need to mention my first mutuals, there's a big chance I'll include her because it feels like she was one of the first people I got close to. 

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@atbzkingdom

Au: dream 

Pairing: Haknyeon x Dee

Backstory: if Haknyeon were to have one more day on this earth, how would be spend it? He would make a timetable of which you are the only returning factor, because he would like to drown himself in time with you. Twenty-four hours in which he is the sun that illuminates each part of the world, the world that is you, rotating until the sun is replaced by the moon. 

Why: I don't know Dee that well because we haven't talked overly much, but whenever I think about her, I think about references with the earth, sun and moon or natural things. She's just a sweet person, and it seems really natural to talk to her! 

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@127-mile

Au: muse , painting 

Pairings: Ten x Émi (but there's also Renjun in here)

Backstory: from the brush that Renjun manoeuvres, droplets of paint colour the blank canvas in a self-made story. Ten, the master that learned Renjun how to portray his muse, is now standing next to Émi, the young woman returning in each painting of Ten. Never had they stood next to each other: artist and muse. Never had they consciously smiled at each other. Never had they been real. Until now. Immortalised on the canvas, Ten hugs his Émi, they might both be droplets of paint with a shadow, but behind the canvas Renjun bids farewell to his last painting. His tear streaks the painting, blurring the line between reverie and reality 

Why: because Émi and Renjun are both my muses in life and writing, creatively but also in daily things. I proclaim my love for Émi a lot but that never takes away how genuine it is, because I genuinely love her and sometimes it seems so surreal that she's in my life. Sometimes I'm afraid that she's a dot, a droplet of paint that will fade by time until I have no more remains of her. But however long we have left, I will cherish and love her each day just like she loves Ten (isn't that a sad love story, I literally cried for like five minutes after this 😂)

[kissesandcream]

this is like my second ask in your inbox, im writing this right after I requested Jean for your minigame LOL but anyways- have smiling kaeya with taroumaru!! :D Bro I miss the good ol' days when we were new players :(( The sole reason why I made my NA account is to witness the start of the game again but it doesn't feel the same anymore😔 but putting the nostalgia stuff aside, the soundtrack in the game is beautiful, one soundtrack that scares me though is when you get near Cuijue Slope and it sounds like a whistle - aaa cuijue slope is alrdy so creepy but that sound makes it worse😭 dang you have a lot of favorite characters, mine are diluc, kaeya, jean, thoma (tohma??), zhongli, yoimiya, hu tao and Bennett bb <33 You can say that I have a slight attraction to the color red hHHHhhH red is a pretty color (*. .)♡ ,,can I just ramble about Zhongli real quick. inhales. I WANT HIM TO BE MY DAD😭 he doesn't even need to be my dad, just a father figure will do TT no bcuz Zhongli would be such a good dad and it makes me happy, I take interest in learning about lore and history stuff and I really want to listen to Zhongli's rambles jsdvshf zhongli pls be my dad ;;; AND THE SAME GOES FOR BENNETT TOO, I want Bennett to be my little brother omg, I'll be in his adventure team,,, ;;

LOOK AT HIM 🥰 kaeya <333 i love him sm <333 he was the first character i built and is currently the only one at level 90 with a crowned talent <333 probably not a good thing at ar 55 and will probably get outbested by kokomi. but he can have it while it lasts <3

no same i have like three accounts made just to experience the opening scene 😭 i remember the osial boss fight and how it literally took me by surprise,,,,, i was really new to the game and didn't really follow it on social media or anything so it was so thrilling

idk if im talking about the same one as you are but the sountrack at wuwang hill is sO EERIE,, ESPECIALLY AT NIGHT KJKKJH

i was grinding genshin past midnight one day and i literally had it on mute bc the noise was scaring me so much 😭

yeah i adore an unhealthy amount of people 😃 but HU TAO!! i didnt really feel anything for her when she came out mostly bc i was still salty about not getting xiao but i love her so much !! pls i feel u with the red thing all of the pyro characters are just <333

YES DADLI. I FEEL THE SAME WAY ABOUT HIM TOO JUST. he'd be the BEST at bed time stories and everyone knows bedtime stories are the number one father figure requirement

will they be peaceful bedtime stories? debatable. will they probably be about the numerous things he killed? possibly. bUT STILL

imagine him telling us stories about guizhong :,) bye ill cry if i think about it :,,,)

and bennett!! baby!! i really wanna be his friend, hanging out with him fischl and barbara sounds so fun bc it's fischl being dramatic, bennett getting hurt but not realizing it, and barbara trying to keep everyone alive 😭

[sunflowerhae]

butterflies by Kacey musgraves with jeno pls 🥺 I was LITERALLY listening to this song while I saw your post and took it as a sign 🥺

|📣 ▹▹ it WAS a sign my love! Enjoy! Also, I will say this is a bit longer than the others, so yeah lol🦋

Send in your own request!✨🍰🌙

|⚠️ caterpillar’s unfortunate death

“I was just coasting, never really going anywhere. Caught up in a web, I was getting kind of used to staying there”

You’ve known you didn’t like Lee Jeno since you were eight years old.

It was October; the leaves on the ground made loud, crunchy noises that were music to your ears when you walked home, and the weather was just cold enough for your mother to pack you into a light blue jacket and pull a beanie over your head before sending you off with a kiss and your peanut butter and jelly sandwich.

It was the day you had been waiting for, for what seemed like weeks; Miss Stacy’s First Grade Class was going to start raising butterflies.

You had been paired off into groups of four kids to one butterfly. You were in a group with a young girl named Yeri, and two boys named Renjun and Jeno. You would sometimes play tag with Yeri, and Renjun was your tetherball partner. You hadn’t had many interactions with Jeno; the older boy was always too busy playing kickball with the other boys to play with any of the girls - let alone you - but it didn’t matter to you; nothing did. All you could focus on was your beautiful caterpillar, and the excitement you felt about raising and then releasing it.

You had a routine.

Everyday, Renjun and you would come into the class and check on your caterpillar; change it’s water, give it more leaves; anything it needed, you gave it. In the afternoon, after lunch, Jeno and Yeri would do the same. However, that day Yeri had left school at lunch; her retreating figure slumping along as she did the walk of shame to her mother; anxious about the dentist appointment she had. You didn’t think twice before getting up from your spot under the tree and walking to the sand field not far from you; Jeno’s figure in your line of sight. He was waiting for his turn up to kick, laughing at something Na Jaemin had whispered to him, when he felt a small peck on his shoulder.

“H-hi Jeno oppa,” You shyly mumbled while looking down at your light up sketchers, not used to interacting with the elder boy.

“Hi.”

“So um, Yeri unnie left for the day, so I’ll be helping you with your caterpillar duties.”

Jeno gave you a confused look. “Oh, Why did noona leave?”

“Um, a dentist appointment I think.”

He shrugged his shoulders and gave you a weak, “okay,” Before turning back to the game.

You thought it was okay.

But clearly, it was not.

“I don’t understand why we even have to do this.” Jeno whined next to you as you wrote down how much the caterpillar had eaten since this morning to now (2 WHOLE leaves).

“Because, well...it’s cute” you shrugged.

“Well, I don’t want to do this lame work. We wouldn’t have to if we just killed the bug.” You couldn’t believe what you were hearing. Kill the caterpillar? Not on your watch.

“N-no! We can’t kill it! It’s a living thing! Would you kill a cat?”

Jeno’s eyes went wide, and he frantically shook his head. “No! But this isn’t a cat, it’s a caterpillar!” He laughed.

You didn’t think this was a laughing matter, so you gave a small ‘humph’ and turned your head so you weren’t looking at Jeno anymore. Jeno, wanting to play a small joke on you, took this opportunity to silently open the caterpillar's cage, take out said caterpillar, and hide it in between his hands. He thought it was so funny; seeing you turn and freak out because the caterpillar wasn’t there anymore.

What wasn’t funny was when Jeno totally forgot living things need air to breathe.

It was quite a scene to behold; you were standing by the teacher's desk, sobbing so hard that snot came out of your nose, while softly holding the dead caterpillar's body in your little hands and caressing it with your left index finger. You couldn’t help but feel absolutely terrible. Somewhere out there, a little mommy butterfly is wondering when her baby will be home from his adventures in human children's land, and he’ll never return. He’ll never get to turn into a beautiful butterfly, and fly in the wind; spreading his beauty.

Jeno was also trying not the cry. He didn’t mean to kill the caterpillar. He just wanted to play a small prank on the girl he thought was pretty like his mommy. He did actually want to see the caterpillar turn into a butterfly. Renjun tried assuring him that it wasn’t a big deal, but Jeno still felt guilty. Especially when you wouldn’t stop caressing and petting the caterpillar, saying that, that way it doesn’t feel scared, or lonely. Saying that out loud to your teacher made you cry even more, and you didn’t stop crying until you were safely in the arms of your own mommy, while she pet your hair and held you while walking to the car.

The next day, you saw Jeno laughing and playing with his friends; seemingly having forgotten all about the caterpillar incident the day before. Your blood boiled. In the end, you got put into another caterpillar group, and got to release the butterflies anyway; but you never forgot about that one caterpillar incident with Jeno, and you vowed to never let your guard down around the older boy, and to always hate him.

And you had perfectly upheld that vow until sophomore year of high school.

“Now you're lifting me up, instead of holding me down Stealing my heart instead of stealing my crown Untangled all the strings round my wings that were tied”

Week 1

“It’s your fault we’re in here, so shut up!” Jeno had been nothing short of annoying for the past week while you both sat out your punishments in after school detention.

Why were you in after school detention, you ask?

It was no surprise that you two went the ways you did after elementary school. Jeno, being the most popular varsity soccer player by sophomore year - and you, being a valued member (gunning for president by senior year) of the photography club. It was because of the ways you two went, that you ended up in the position of taking the soccer photos for the yearbook. You had to stay at their practice for the whole two hours, but took a break halfway through to catch up on a bit of homework. Jeno, wanting to always be the center of (your) attention, thought it would be a hilarious prank to kick a soccer ball at you while you were looking down at your homework. The first time was harmless. It landed at your feet and startled you, sure, but you just glared at a laughing Jeno while throwing it - albeit, weakly - back. However, the second time he kicked it, neither of you got so lucky.

And that’s how you ended up with a broken $630 camera, Jeno with a bruised (you weren’t that good at punching) nose, and the both of you with a months worth of after school detention.

“My fault?! You’re the one that punched me!” You both sat at opposite ends of the classroom, but that didn’t stop you from fighting. The teacher had walked out to go get more coffee, so you two were free to argue.

“And you’re the one that broke my camera!” You fired back, which initiated you both yelling on top of each other in anger. Jeno wouldn’t usually be too upset about a small incident like this, but after school detention collided with his soccer schedule - which meant that for the next month, Jeno was off the team.

And boy, did he hate that.

“ENOUGH enough! Listen, I really don’t want to talk to you, so you stay on your side and I’ll stay on mine, deal?” You offered, already tired of yelling. Thankfully, Jeno mumbled out a,

“Fine,” and turned his gaze out the window with a sigh, just as the teacher was walking back in.

Week 2

“I need help with my homework.” Many people thought you were an easy A kind of person. You came off as a smart kid, but you secretly kept it in that your grades were genuinely terrible, and just prayed that no one found out.

Usually you would be with your math tutor, but with after school detention, that wasn’t possible. The teacher was, once again, not in the room (that happened a lot, although the times she was there, she was sleeping), and so your only hope was unfortunately, well, Lee Jeno. You knew he was smart - sports kids had to have good grades. You really hoped that he would help you, and wouldn’t laugh, and wouldn’t tell anyone that he did.

When he heard you, he was so ready to laugh in your face and spit out a “no way”, but when he looked up and saw your pouty gaze, well, he was sold. So, instead, he mumbled out a small, “yeah sure” - to which you smiled and took a seat next to him.

It was only once you were already out of the school building did you realize that not only did you two not fight that whole time, but you actually made jokes with each other, and you sat with him the rest of detention.

Shit.

Week 3

“-And so I quickly grabbed her and said ‘no yeri, those aren’t eggs!’ And she spit them out onto the floor while yelling!” The milk Jeno was in the middle of downing quickly flew from his nostrils as he broke out in laughter at the climax of the story you were telling him. You quickly had to shush him while laughing yourself; making wide eyed glances back and forth between him and your detention teachers slumped figure.

It wasn’t that you two were friends, oh no, definitely not. You just had no one else to talk to in detention, so Jeno and you found yourselves sitting next to each other and actually having civilized conversations that didn’t end in having to be separated. The thought of you two being friends still disgusted you, and you refused to admit that you were becoming close.

This is as far as I will get you told yourself.

I only have one more week, and then I can go back to hating him.

But do I still want to?

You didn’t know this, obviously, but Jeno was thinking the same thing.

Week 4

You and Jeno were slowly walking down the empty hallways of your school after your last detention together. Not a word was said between the two of you; both afraid of what might be shared.

You didn’t want to stop talking to Jeno. In the last four weeks, you’ve come to actually enjoy your time together - finding that you had more in common than you thought. While you never would have admitted it before, you’ve always kind of wanted to get to know Jeno, even if you did think he was a jerk. So the idea of not talking to him made you quite upset, though you tried not to show it.

Finally, the two of you got to the entrance doors of your high school, but neither pushed them open. You both just stood there, exchanging awkward glances back and forth, and hoping that the other wouldn’t leave. This went on for around a minute, before something was finally said by Jeno, “y/n, can I be honest,” you nodded, “I don’t want to go back to hating you.”

“Same!” You exclaimed a bit too quickly, the both of you giggling messes at the fact.

“Actually, if it’s alright with you, I was wondering if you, maybe, I don’t know, wanted to see a movie with me tomorrow?” He awkwardly scratched the back of his neck, and in the pit of your stomach, you could feel a lonely little butterfly begin to flap its wings as you nodded at his offer with a smile on your face.

“Now I remember what it feels like to fly You give me butterflies”

The breeze from the open windows pulled and pushed your hair every which way as you closed your eyes and smiled from your spot in the passenger seat.

The speaker was blasting with Kacey Musgraves, and you almost felt yourself falling asleep, but the hand that slid into your own had you opening your eyes and glancing at the boy occupying the driver's seat. He was glancing back and forth between the road and yourself with a smile on his face, and you couldn’t help the content sigh that fell past your lips.

“What’s up, baby?” Jeno mumbled, always worried when it came to you.

“Nothing, you just make me so happy.”

Jeno’s smile widened, and he brought your interlocked hands up to his lips, and kissed the back of your hand, before looking at you and saying, “happy three year anniversary”.

First, your mind is occupied with that little 8th year old girl, crying while glancing down at the dead caterpillar in her hands.

Then, you think back to that moment in front of the entrance doors to your school, where that little butterfly in your stomach popped up for the first time, and your heart warms at the thought that that butterfly lives in a garden of its own kind now.

[kaahaani]

I cannot believe TPC has ended…I need a moment…because I am crying like it was my babies that had their first birthday party and are growing up too fast. This one’s gonna be long SO BUCKLE UP BITCHHHH.

The first part being Lady Noh’s POV had me catching feelings. I love her so much and the way she thought about the past and the present to tie up the last chapter. I HATE YOU SO MUCH FOR THIS SHIT LIKE HOWWWWWWWW EVEN. You know makes me really sad…thinking that as both Gon and Taeeul get older that Lady Noh is also getting older and might just not be around one day. MAKE HER IMMORTAL PLEASE?

INNA WALKED THIS LITTLE DRAMA QUEEN JUST UP AND WENT “I CAN DO THIS NOW BITCHES”. Loved how you explained the first birthday party and the traditions, Inna picking out the crown like the queen she is along with an airplane – JETSETTING FUTURE VIBES. The way you write these babies make me want to have 100 of them, she picked up food and fed it to her brother? I knew Dahn would pick out a book but they money was a nice touch esp w. him giving it to Nana based on what you have him do as an adult…once again bitch your brain!

NANA AND DAHN WALKIGN AROUND THAT VIDEO KILLED ME THEY DO LOOK LIKE LITTLE DRUNK PEOPLE WHEN THEY WALK AHAHAHAHA THEY STOLE HER TAMPON BOX I LOVE THESE KIDS AND THE SLIPPER. I love how soft and cute LG and JTE are with each other and they still bicker so cutely GOALS AS F I FEEL SINGLE AGAIN

That video of them dancing and the clip of Gon and Taeeul dancing killed me. I AM WRITING THIS FROM MY GRAVE. The thought of the four of them just walking through the palace…the little drunk people walk and the way Gon and Taeeul are probably walking behind them kills me also. LOL LOL LOL LADY NOH LETTING THE PRINCESS JUST CALL HER “NOH” I AM SO DEAD

The feeding scene killed me…I really enjoyed all the feeding and bath time scenes idk why its so domestic and makes me feel so single

ROFLLLLLLL YEONG FAINTED AGAIN I LOVE IT ITS LIKE A FULL CIRCLE AHHHHHHH THE MIDWIFE POV IS BACK AGAIN I LOVE YOU SO SO MUCH. The labour chapter was my fave because of the way she viewed the king and queen and to hear her talk about them again and also talk about Yeong and Seungah along with their baby was so perf. AWWWW THESE TWO BRO-HOES GOING THROUGH THE SAME “YOU’RE MY ONLY FRIEND” THING

LOL NANA SNIFFING THE BABY IS SO CUTE AND THE “soft pat pat” BITCH WHO GAVE YOU THE RIGHTTTTTT TO BE THIS CUTE AND DAHN BEING GENTLE WITHOUT BEING TOLD ITS SO CUTEEEE

THAT ENDING WAS PERFECT AND MAKES ME SO HAPPY I LOVE YOU BUT I HATE YOU FOR ENDING THIS WRITE THEM MORE.

I stopped and composed myself so I could make some sense when I tell you that I love TPC so much, the whole Happily Ever After series is cannon in my head. I remember back in the summer when you said that you had all these ideas about their kids and I was amazed by all the ideas. The Royal Family edit was so fun to make with you and it’s amazing how I can ACTUALLY see these babies grow up to be the adults you picked. Nana being a fashionista and exactly like Gon, Dahn being the calm sarcastic one, and their friendship with Chinhae. In my head, this is cannon. I can’t think about LG and JTE having any other children, it’s always gonna be Nana, Dahn and whatever cute nickname you give Seojoon. Thank you so much for this you fluff-smut hoe, stay writing always!

Oh hi again! Yes, TPC is over, it's done. I also cried and I miss writing them already. Glad you liked Lady Noh's POV but WHY would you say that you bitch, now I am crying. She will be immortal forever.

In-Na is always gonna be a drama queen! Thank you, I am glad you liked the birthday part! LOL, don't have a 100 babies...that's just not normal. Maybe like 1-7? Thank you for being so sweet ahhhh. Lmao, the Preity Zinta gif. I love her.

I love that video so much, they're so cute! I dieeeeee! Aw, thank you, I am glad you liked that part. Ew Ross Geller, I hate him.

I was like doing an evil laugh while editing that clip because I want to see in real life. Sigh. I also died. LOL, LG is probably like "wow she can call you just Noh" but it's so cute I can't!

I love how everyone liked the feeding and bath scenes, they were fun to write! Lmao, yes, I thought it would be a nice closing to make him faint again, I love the thought of it idk why. Aw, thank you, the labor chapter is my fave too! Lmao, "bro-hoes", I can't with you! Hehehe, the babies make me soft it's not even me.

Noooooo, Beaaaaaa why are you being so nice?! I cannot with you. Thank you so much for your kid words and for listening to all the weird ideas and for all the help from finding the babies to the edits and being my soundboard. I love youuuu! <3

[they-write-once-in-a-blue-moon]

A Moment Alone

Remus x Reader Fluff

Words: 1293

A/n: A bit dialog heavey, mostly at the end. My dudes I posted a fic! If you like this let me know, I have an idea for a part two, but I only want to do it if people will actually want to read it

Feedback is always appreciated!  Any interaction makes my grinch heart grow 3 sizes larger reblogs make it burst!

Sending love from the moon

- Blue

You and Remus were sitting at the black lake dipping your feet in the water to help cool yourselves from the summer heat. You had your fingers interlaced and his head is resting on your shoulder.

You two had been dating for almost three months now. But you haven't told anyone, not even your twin brother James knew. Lily had her suspicions, but she also thought James and Sirius were dating for a while, so no one really took her predictions into account anymore.

You and Remus had decided not to tell the others (at least not yet) as you thought James would turn to hate you both or make you two break up. He was very protective of you (even though you were older than him) and Remus is one of James's closest friends.

So you guys just spent time together when you could, everyone saw you guys as best friends, which you are, but you two saw each other as more.

The pair of you were taking it slow, for several reasons. The main being because Remus has his self-hatred thoughts like you deserved more, that he's not enough, that you shouldn't be dating a monster.

You would shut those thoughts down instantly, you made him feel loved, and he was so thankful for that, thankful that you saw the good in him, you’ve helped him out of his shell. And he does the same for you, helping you with your insecurities and problems. You can't ask for a better best friend, let alone a boyfriend. 

The other reason was, your friends are the marauders. It's hard to have alone time together. So you both treasure these moments. When it's the weekend and most students are at Hogsmeade, including James, Sirius and Peter.

“I wish we had more times like this” You broke the silence “Where it’s just us and the boys aren’t blowing something up when it’s just peace.” Remus hums moving off your shoulder “Even though I bloody hate the heat” you smile at him

He smiled “If I’m honest, sometimes I just want time away from them in general. Don’t think the heats helping that, we need a more..effective...way to cool down.” You grin at him.

“Likeee, this?” you kick your feet flicking water at him “Oi!” he puts he kicks some back “Remus!” you squeak

“Don’t dish it out if you can’t take it.” He smirks at you. You knew that smirk, he’s plotting something and it can’t be good

“Oh is that how it’s gonna be?” You reach into the water and splash some at him getting it all over his shirt, and a bit on his face and hair

“Oh, you’re so gonna get it!” 

He gets up and you instantly know what he’s going to try and do “Remus John Lupin don’t even think about it!” You playfully glare at him getting up and walking backwards away from the water

“Too late!” 

He runs after you as you go further up the grassy hill, abandoning your shoes and bookbags. As he’s quite a bit faster and stronger than you. He catches up quick and scoops you up “Remus!” You laugh struggling in his grip as he carries you over to the lake

“Re! Please no don- “ before you can finish he’s thrown you into the cold water and you scream laugh before you hit the water. As you come back up, he’s standing at the lake's edge dubbed over laughing, now it’s your turn to smirk when you get an idea.

Diving down you swim back to the bank, you look up giving him your best pouty face “You're so mean.” “You started it, love.”

“Whatever, can you get me out?” rolling your you lift your hand from the water out to him, smiling

He looks up at the sky pretending to ponder the predicament of pulling you from the pond “Please.” you let out in a very fake small voice “Fine! Just cause it’s you.”

He reaches his hand down to you, you grab it with both your hands and with all your strength you pull him into the water, he splashes him with a “Merlin!”

He comes up from the water shaking the water from his hair like a wet dog (your glad he doesn’t smell like one though)

“Ok, that was smart.” he grins at you as you make your way over to him.

He holds his hand out to you, taking it he pulls you to him, effectively trapping you to his chest, not that you're complaining. You have your hands resting on his chest, feeling his soft and steady heartbeat made you smile, knowing that he wasn’t stressed or anxious was such a lovely feeling.

The warmth of his embrace mixed with the coolness of the water was practically heavenly. You lean your head just below the crook of his neck and he rests his on the crown of your head. If sitting at the edge of the water was peaceful, this could be close to serenity.

Pulling back a little just to look at his face, you give him a soft smile, as he returns it he flicks his eyes from yours to your lips, and back. Seeing him do that brought heat to the apples of your cheeks. It was like you read eachothers minds as you run your hands from his chest to the back of his neck, you both lean in eyes gently closing.

CRASH

“Moony! Y/n/! C’me!” James practically screams in your general direction. You sigh putting your head down onto his chest

“Do you think if we ignore them, they’ll go away?” Remus jokes, a slight bit of hope they actually would. “No, cause if we do they’ll just come to us. And I’d prefer to not get drowned by James” You roll your eyes “Let’s go” You give him a soft smile.

“Race you back!” He calls diving under the water before you finish processing what he said

“Moony get back here!” You laugh going after him.

He got back first, unsurprisingly, and he shakes his hair again once he climbs out of the water, flicking water onto the boys. ‘By accident’.

“Get outta’ the water li’ sis I got some news!” “James, I’m older than you” you roll your eyes.

“Na-uh!” he calls down to you “Oh please, even if you were older you still act like you're five.” You snap back smirking.

“Just get out of the water already!” 

You go to get yourself up, but the same thought you had a while ago popped into your head. “Can you help me out?”

Remus holds back a laugh knowing you were gonna pull what you did to him on James “Nice try y/n/n, I know that trick.”

“Yeah, yeah” You make your way out of the water pushing your hair from your eyes “At least I tricked the smart one in the group.”

“Wait, Moons, you fell for that? Even Wormy knows better than that!” Sirius laughs and Remus shoves him with his elbow “Ok, what was your news?” Remus changes the subject

“Lily said yes to a date!” The whole group was shook (even James) “A real date or one where you force her to spend time with you?” you question

“Yes, a real date! Pads was there and can vouch for me” “I’m so proud of you little bro!”

You go over to him and hug him from behind, drenching his shirt with cold water. “I know you meant that to bug me, but the water is nice, so thank you.” he fakes politeness as the group snickers.

“Ok guys, let’s go back to the castle so me and y/n can change."

[lions-arch-chronicle]

Issue 9

WARNING: Major spoilers for the end of LWS5 in the headline, the rest of the paper is spoiler free 

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Title: The United Legions put Dominion on ice

Subtitle: WARNING: Major Spoilers for the end of Living World Season 5

Story: As a part of our continuing coverage of the Charr Civil war and the fight against the Elder Dragons, we have finally obtained another update from the front. Former Blood Imperator Bangar Ruinbringer has been reported to leading his Dominion followers to unthinkable ends in pursuit of victory. Reports of charr being transformed into ice brood known as the Ice Legion have been flooding in as the Ice Legion has begun to work with the Sons of Svanir in communing and serving the elder dragon Jormmag. United Legions report that all attempts at negotiation have failed and Jormagg has awakened and has chosen their champion. However, there has been an unseen turn in events. Despite the former Blood Legion Imperator being vocal about his goal of becoming the Elder Dragon’s champion to bolster the charr, reports have come in that the dragon has taken none other than Blood Tribune Rytlock Brimstone’s son and Dominion Tribune Ryland Steelcatcher. Reports say that neither the dragon nor the tribune has been seen since the United Legions and the Commander lead their strike on the Frost Citadel. Ruinbringer is reportedly being held by the Dragon’s Watch guild in the Eye of the North the status of the former Imperator is speculation at best and we cannot report more detailed information at this time.

Title: Community Event: Tyriaslibrary first anniversary

Story: Our lovely friends over at Tyriaslibrary are coming up on their first anniversary. For those unacquainted with the blog they are “A place to promote the many talented writers in the Guild Wars 2 fandom.” Where they reblog and promote the fan writers within the community in one place for people to browse and find content. For their first anniversary, they are hosting a community event from Aug 30 through Sept 6 where writers are encouraged to participate in writing for a specific prompt every few days.The prompts listed from the blog are as follows: 

August 30-31: Visiting the library. Write about your characters visiting the library and enjoying some books!

September 1-2: Tyrian book excerpts. Write what you think you’d find inside a book from Tyria! Someone’s got to compete with Snargle Goldclaw, right? 

September 3-4: Anniversaries. With the game’s anniversary happening too, celebrate by writing about any type of anniversary. 

September 5-6: Relaxation. You don’t need to curl up with a good book to relax, but it does help! Write about what your characters do when they get that well deserved break.

They are also hosting a meetup for the community on Saturday, September 5th at 3 pm pst on NA servers. The meeting will be on the second floor of the Minister Wii’s Mansion poi in Divinity’s Reach and look for or whisper Librarian Ink! And finally for content creators that aren’t as involved in writing they are also encouraging people to participate in the #tyrian book hunt where players take screenshots in areas with books to be shared on the blog.We here at the LAC would like to say congrats to the Library for a year of awesome content for their support of us as well!

Title: No Reservations: The GroveBeautiful as a garden but boring 

Story: The Grove is pretty on the outside, sure, but what is it like to visit? I will tell you! It’s very humid. There are lots of weeds everywhere to trip on so be sure to watch your step! I hope you like bugs because this place is full of them, you can’t go anywhere without a creepy crawly walking across your feet. All the residents are related too! Must be really hard to date here because everyone is your brother or sister. I will say it is a lively place and it stays green year round. On the very bottom level of The Grove there is a beautiful pond with lily pads that would be a great place to stay if you were a frog! I mean seriously, would it kill them to put in a mall and a McDonalds or something?Editor’s Note: We are unsure what Kittyblog means by “A McDonalds” when asked she wouldn’t clarify so your guess is as good as mine.

Title: The Boasting Hall, Hot Spring and Swing

Story: With everyone running around at the festivals lately, I’ve been running dry of sparring partners at Zelechor Hot Springs! Those of you who have run into me before know I follow a two-part spring strategy. I sit in the steaming waters and let them soak into my pores. Then, I get out in the cold, and fight something. It keeps me young. Come here and let me fight you. You’ll see my wisdom.  The festivals are nice and all but all of that food? All of that running around and the food and drink will weigh you down after all that time. Water washes the surface. Battle alone and cleanse your insides. Come visit me at the hot springs then you can truly be cleansed. Title:  The Shadow Behind the Throne: is Queen Jennah a Cat?

Story: Like many of you, I paid a visit to the Crown Pavilion recently, partially for the event, but mostly for the hors d’oeuvres. While I was there, I decided to take a gander at Queen Jennah- I mean, what self respecting gossip writer wouldn’t at the very least check to see if she really walks around barefoot! She does. But that got me thinking. While I was enjoying my light dinner, as well as the truly spectacular show, I realized something. Isn’t it quite the risk for the Queen of Kryta to be just… sitting in public like this? Besides, I’m sure she has plenty to do, even in a time of festivity, but as far as I could tell she’s been there since the party started! So, how could this be? Well, my first thought was mesmer clone, of course. But could you really trust a simple illusion to be so close up with the people? Of course not! It has to be a disguise, and it has to be someone she trusts with her life… That’s when it hit me. The Queen Jennah we see sitting in the Crown Pavilion is… the Queen’s beloved cat, Shadow! Call it far fetched all you want… But I’ve never been able to put shoes on a cat.

[oswildin]

Bonded {Part Nine} ~ Dhawan!Master x Reader

~ The story is nearly complete... ~

Summary: You try to reason with the Doctor, trying to be there for her, but she isn’t having any of it. You and the Master find comfort in each other.

Warnings: Angst, more fluff as you asked, bit steamy

You headed down the corridors of the TARDIS. You felt better after showering and changing your clothes, finally feeling fresh. Of course, your mind was still full of thoughts and emotions, but you knew you had to try and be there for the Doctor. You dreaded to think what state she was in.

The TARDIS seemed to understand your intentions as she guided you to where the Doctor was hiding. You stopped in front of a door, the TARDIS humming as you understood what she was telling you. You hesitantly reached out, twisting the handle, as the door slowly opened. You furrowed your brows, seeing the library. You swear it had moved position... Perhaps the Doctor had asked the TARDIS to keep it hidden... You stepped in, seeing the Doctor sat by herself in the darkness, surrounded by pages of books.

“I always rip out the last page.” She told you as you watched her, biting your lip. “That way the story never ends.” She explained as she looked around at all the pages sprawled about the place.

“Oh I don’t know... sometimes stories need to end.” You offered as you approached her. “I’m guessing the Master didn’t find you.” She shook her head. “But you let me.”

“No, the TARDIS did.” She almost frowned at her ship as you laughed lightly.

“Maybe she’s just worried about you.” You told her as you went to sit beside her. “I am.” She didn’t look at you.

“Don’t be.” She gave you a sharp smile, not reaching her eyes. “I’m fine.”

“You don’t seem it.” You sighed. “Doctor, I don’t want you going back... You’ve come so far... Please don’t shut me out again.” You almost begged as she felt guilt pang in her chest at your words. “Remember when you lost Clara.” You said, as you saw her flinch at the name. You looked at her sadly. “Remember what she told you?”

“This is different.” She argued.

“Is it?” You raised a brow. “You again lost something dear to you. But remember how much good there still is in the universe. You’ve got Yaz, Ryan, Graham... Me...” You trailed off, seeing her face soften. “Even the Master seems concerned. Although, you didn’t hear that from me.” You teased as she turned to face you. “Actually he’s helped me... a lot...” You realised. “Perhaps he could do the same for you. Maybe you could help each other...” She shook her head.

“I don’t need help. I’m fine. See!” She jumped up, putting her jacket back on. “Let’s go for an adventure! I can pick up the others and we can go somewhere new.” She exclaimed as you sighed, standing too.

“Doctor, you can’t keep ignoring this.” You told her truthfully.

“Yes I can.” She argued. “I’ve ignored things half my life, and I’m fine.” She told you before walking away, leaving you alone as you felt defeated. You didn’t know what else to do. Perhaps you needed to be harsher? More brutal? No... you couldn’t do that to her. You sighed, sitting back down as you felt a presence appear in the room.

“Didn’t go to plan then?”

You shook your head, turning to see the Master stood in the doorway.

“She’s impossible to deal with when she’s in this mood.” You said exasperatedly.

“Perhaps she needs to do this alone.” He offered, walking into the room as you watched him. “And when she wants help, you’ll be there to give it to her.”

“I guess.” You said, defeat evident in your tone. “Why does she have to be so stubborn?”

“You’re asking the wrong person.” He joked as you gave him a small smile. “King of Stubborn here.” He sat beside you as you shook your head at him.

“Funny, I could see you in a crown and a big robe.” You joked.

“So that’s what you’re into.” He teased, smirking as you rolled your eyes.

“I’m scared.” You suddenly admitted, causing him to narrow his eyes. “I’m scared what this all means... How this changes everything...” You drifted off, gaze ahead.

“You were the one giving the speech yesterday.” He offered. “Maybe you should take your own advice.” He shrugged as you scoffed.

“It’s easy to dish out the advice, but to take it yourself is another thing.” You retorted as he nodded slowly.

“That’s a very human statement.” He commented.

“Na...” You shook your head. “It’s a very universal one.” You gave him a small smile.

“Hmm, along with a leopard never changes its spots.” He added as you pursed your lips.

“I don’t know about that one...” You gazed at him. “You’ve changed.” It was his turn to scoff.

“I’ll never change.” He said defiantly. “It’s in my nature. I love the chaos too much.”

“Or is that just what you keep telling yourself?” You raised a brow. “Cause if you keep feeding yourself that narrative, you’re going to continue to execute it.”

“Maybe, I enjoy that narrative.” He argued, as you saw his walls begin to build back up.

“Will you stop?” You shook your head. “For one second, let your walls down. Not everyone is out to get you.”

“Don’t lecture me.” He snapped, eyes turning dark as he pushed himself up. “You know nothing.”

“I think I’ve seen enough in my time.” You told him. “Or have you forgotten what I’ve been through already?” You stood too, staring up at him. “You’re not the only one with issues, so stop acting like it.” You told him sternly as he growled under his breath.

“Humans, always sticking their nose into other people’s business.” He spat. “Has it ever occurred to you that perhaps there are just bad people in the universe? Born sick and twisted?”

“No.” You furrowed your brows. “Things in their life have made them that way. There’s always hope.” He groaned.

“You’ve been with the Doctor too long.” He rolled his eyes.

“Maybe I have! Or maybe she’s actually right?” You argued, stepping towards him. “You aren’t the only one with issues. Accept it. Embrace it. It may even help.” He looked down at you, the rage in his eyes lessening as you looked at him. You relaxed him. It was an emotion he’d never really truly felt before. It was... nice. But also scary. “You can always start again.” You said in a softer voice as he tightened his jaw.

“Can I?” He raised his brows.

“Yes!” You laughed lightly. “Of course you can. If you allow the change.” He stared into your golden eyes as he stepped closer to you, his face close to your own. You could feel your heart beating in your chest.

“What if I don’t want to change?” His voice was low.

“Then... You’ll live a lonely life.” His eyes flickered down to your lips as you felt warm under his stare.

“I don’t think I can ever be alone now.” He said quietly. Before you knew it, his lips had crashed to your own, as your bodies melded together. He had grabbed either side of your face, holding you gently as he kissed you. You were surprised at first, but as soon as the electricity flowed through your veins, you gave in to the feeling, clutching his jacket with your hands. You felt complete with him. You’d never felt like you belonged, but in this moment, you felt what you had been longing for. Acceptance.

You hadn’t realised he had backed you against a book shelf, drinking you in as he pulled you as close to himself as possible. You gasped for breath as you hadn’t broken away. You saw images of golden energy in your mind at the touch. It was electric. He finally pulled away, resting his forehead on your own. Both of you were breathing heavily as you stared into his eyes, searching for anything.

“That was...” You breathed out as he couldn’t help but smirk.

“I know.” He whispered. “We could just leave.” He spoke lowly. “Run away. Take a leaf from the Doctor’s book.” He raised his brows. “What do you say?” You felt your breath hitch, unsure on what to say. You couldn’t leave the Doctor... could you? Was it time? Your life had been consumed by the Doctor and your adventures, was it finally time to move on?

You didn’t answer, but pulled him back close, moulding your lips to his own once more, feeling the rush once again. His hand moved to your waist as he gripped you tighter than before, almost urgent, desperate.

~

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[2-cute-4-school]

Evanescent

Group : NCT

Pairing : Na Jaemin x Reader (+ the rest of the Dreamies)

Warnings : blood, death, a few curses

Genre : fluff, angst 

Word count : ~6300

M.list

Life was such a cruel, sick joke. When people think about their teenage years it’s all about dumb high school crushes and sneaking out to parties to get drunk. It’s never been about killing, running and surviving. It shouldn’t be. They should think about how they’re going to pass that Chemistry test next week, not about running out of food. It wasn’t the case for the silent group of five kids hiding in the shadows.

Jaemin often swore he was a step away from losing his sanity. He sometimes thought it would have been easier to just give up, end his own suffering as not to give those brainless, disgusting creatures the satisfaction to rip him to shreds. His eyes shone with pure anger and hatred for the poor excuse he calls his life. He has been on the run for the past 3 years, ever since he was barely 17. He never got to experience real life. He didn’t get to debut with his friends at the school’s musical event or get his driver’s license. But what he regretted the most was not getting to tell his parents how much he loved them before this madness began.

So what kept him from ending it all? Maybe it was the warm eye smile Jeno would bless him with from time to time. Or Renjun and Donghyuck’s playful banter that would often light up the depressing mood that fell over them. But the one thing he knew for sure was that it was her all along.

It was her soft touch on his cheek when she reassured him, it was her firm grip on his hand when she got restless, it was her strong spirit that kept them all going through this hell and her brilliant mind which amazed the other 4 boys.

It was Y/N, Jaemin’s childhood sweetheart. They had been attached at the hip ever since they were in diapers. They were each other’s entire world, the center of their Universe. It’s always been like that, even when it wasn’t just the 2 of them anymore. They were all so different, but they fit together like pieces of a puzzle. They completed each other and brought out the best one from the other. And the other boys also cared for her in their own ways. Donghyuck was fiercely protective of her, he always had her back. Jeno has always been like an older brother, despite being the same age, offering her piggyback rides and the occasional bickering. Renjun was her advisor, reminding her she was only human in the end. And Jaemin... it was useless saying he would have done anything for her at any time of the day, no matter what.

“Jaemin!”

‘Huh?” the said boy raised his gaze to meet Renjun’s exasperated one.

“Were you even listening to what I was saying?”

Renjun didn’t need an answer to his question, it was already obvious. He sighed and repeated himself, knowing now he had the younger boy’s attention.

“We’re running out of food. We have to find the nearest form of civilization and restock.”

Jaemin stayed silent. He knew what that meant. They were going to encounter those ugly bastards again. He hated to admit it, but he was scared. The last time they approached a small town they barely got out of there in one piece. What if they weren’t going to be so lucky again? What if one of them was going to get left behind? No..no that couldn’t happen, he couldn’t let that happ - 

“Jaemin-ah?” a soft whisper came from the side. His head snapped towards Y/N, wide and alarmed, only to be met with deep orbs which only reflected calmness and slight concern. “It’s going to be alright”.

She could read him so easily, it was like he was an open book for her to read.

“I know, it’s just the usual worry.”

She sent him a small smile and moved closer to him. She leaned her head on his shoulder and interlaced their cold fingers. He slightly turned his head to leave a butterfly kiss on the crown of her head and he felt a million emotions running through him : love for the only light in his dark life, anger to the world for making them go through this and melancholy. Such a deep longing for the old days when they’d lay on a sofa in this same position, under the warm blankets. Jaemin hated that he could do nothing to give her a better life.

“Stop overthinking and let’s get some rest, we’ll need it” 

She griped his hand tighter for a moment, before she got up and moved to the couch where Donghyuck was already sprawled. Jaemin heard Y/N silently nudge over the boy and slip beside him with a creak from the wooden floor of the incredibly small but convenient cabin they found a few kilometers away from a village.

Only then did Jaemin realize just how tired he was. With a huff he walked to the mattress laid on the ground a threw himself on it beside a sleeping Jeno. He took a last look around the room to see Renjun dozing off on the armchair in a slouched position and the other two, lying knocked out on the sofa.

He took a deep breath before closing his eyes and slipping off into a dreamless sleep.

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“Bloody hell, Y/N!” 

Jaemin ran his fingers through his hair furiously. He was so frustrated he couldn’t even put it into words. The other guys were tense, angry and scared in their own ways.

“Look, guys, stop it, nothing happened”

“How can you just say that Y/N?! Are you even in your right mind?”

Renjun put a comforting hand on Jaemin’s shoulder, interrupting him.

“Look Y/N, I have to take Jaemin’s side this time. It’s not about what happened, it’s about what could have happened. And we both know it could have ended in a disaster.”

“I think we shouldn’t linger on this”

“Y/N stop! You’re being stubborn, you know we shouldn’t take this lightly” Donghyuck tried to reason with her. She sighed and lowered her head, avoiding everyone’s gazes.

“I..I’m sorry, okay?.. I’m sorry.. It was an accident.” Her voice was weak, almost a whisper. Jeno shuffled closer to her and linked their pinkies together as an act of reassurance. She tightened her grip on his finger and he could tell she was just as shaken up as the rest of them.

It really was an accident. But an accident that already ended one of their friend’s life almost a year go. He was a senior from their school, Mark. They were in the same group of friends and he was the one who always took care of them, even during this dark period of time in their life, after everything was switched up in the most sick and twisted way. Mark was their protector, their anchor, their lighthouse where they felt the safest. He was the reason their group stuck together through thick and thin and for a while after his shocking death it seemed like everything was about to fall apart even more than it already had.

No one really expected it. The most common answer to “Who do you think will survive this shit?” was always Mark. So it came as an even bigger disaster when it happened. How could their only hope vanish so fast, right before their eyes and at the hands of the creatures they swore to destroy?

Despite everything, he died a heroic death. He took his promise to protect his friends with him, six feet under with utmost honor. During a run for food, their younger friend, Chenle rushed to gather everything he could put his hands on. He didn’t bother to check the balcony above the box he was searching through in the small house’s yard they decided to loot. It was already too late to move out of the way when the undead fell right towards his from a few meters above. And Chenle wouldn’t have escaped if it wasn’t for Mark’s vigilant eye. He slammed into the younger boy, trying to get the both of them out of the way, but the creature had already latched onto the fabric of his hoodie. Mark kicked him with everything he had, using the bat he had found at the beginning of the apocalypse.

Even in the mild panic, Mark’s brain still worked logically as he sternly told Chenle to get the rest and get the hell away from the house. The Chinese boy trusted Mark with everything he had so he did as he was told, believing his senior must have had a plan, as he always had. Only when they were already too far to do anything did he realize just how much chaos they had caused and just how much unwanted attention they had attracted from the other brainless things around them. Only then did Chenle realize Mark’s only plan was to buy enough time for the others to get away. 

They returned to the damned house a few hours later, when the place was as empty as it was before everything happened. Everyone held onto their last glimmer of hope that Mark was fine. He had to be fine, right?... He wasn’t.

They found him in the same place he tried to fight, under the balcony. He was disfigured so badly it was almost impossible to recognize him, blood pooling everywhere, staining the once green grass into a sea of angry red. His signature bat was lying bloodied just a few centimeters away from his outstretched hand, as a last impulse of desperation a brink away from the terrifying darkness that was slowly and agonizingly swallowing him up.

Chenle’s knees bucked under the pressure of pure devastation. He could barely register Y/N dashing to the what was left of their older friend, throwing herself beside him and curling her fists in his ripped jacket, shaking his body and screaming in false hope.

“Mark! Mark Lee! Mark, stop this stupid joke! Mark! Oppa, wake up, this isn’t funny! WAKE UP!”

Donghyuck ran to her side, bitter tears running down his face, and wrapped his arms around her torso. He buried his face in her neck, trying to soothe her and move her away from the disturbing sight.

She collapsed on her elbows, her forehead touching the shining red grass below and slammed her fist against the ground, heart wrenching sobs violently shaking her body.

“No..no please...PLEASE...this can’t happen, this isn’t real, that’s it, isn it? I’m finally going crazy is that right? Right, oppa? Oppa? Mark...please”

She was gently picked up from the ground and in Jaemin’s warm arms. She could feel his body tremble as he held her head pressed to his shoulder. Still, her hand extended to where Mark laid now in Jeno’s unstable arms as the younger boy picked his senior up on their last trip together.

They buried him hours later in a field with heavy hearts and breaking souls. The 2 youngest were huddled up, using each other as a comfort blanket. Jaemin couldn’t watch the entire thing go down so he waited a little away crying as he heard his friends’ heart breaking murmurs of last goodbyes. Jeno helped bury Mark, even though he could barely sustain himself he insisted on doing everything right, out of gratefulness for everything the elder has done to them. Renjun tried to toughen up and just be there for everyone. Now he was the eldest one so he had to fill in Mark’s place as best as he could. It was what his hyung would have wanted. Donghyuck was simply heartbroken, he couldn’t understand how this had went down, how they could have just lost him, their best friend. Renjun had to unclench his fingers from around Mark’s hand, he just couldn’t let him go. Not now, not ever.

Y/N stayed glued to her spot beside his fresh grave until the others had to haul her up to keep moving. She sat there the entire time, with her knees to her chest, begging anyone and anything for something to happen, to bring her life support back. His death took a tool on her. She lost her joviality, the light in her eyes, gaining cruelty for everything other than her friends. Her sole purpose became their survival. 

Despite everyone’s efforts, the group fell apart, they just couldn’t function properly. And before they regained their rhythm it was already too late, as their group lessened and lessened. That’s how big Mark’s spot in their lives was.

And now, that they were about to lose someone else in a similar way drove them crazy. While passing through a garden, one of those creatures fell from the roof, right beside Y/N and attacking her. She barely got out in time.

The boys were shaken up to the core. If they had lost her, what would have happened? They would have lost everything. No one wanted to think about the ‘what if’s’.

Donghyuck could tell what she was thinking about. It wasn’t hard to guess. With the same thoughts in mind he approached her and caressed her head with gentle fingers.

“I’m sorry for yelling, we know it wasn’t your fault. Everyone’s just on edge and what just happened can’t be a repeat”

“I know” she looked up at him with glistening eyes. He hasn’t seen her so emotional since Mark’s death.

Renjun sighed and rubbed his temple with a shaking hand.

“Let’s just go to sleep for now. We need rest, especially Y/N. We’ll talk about this in the morning when everyone has calmed down a bit.”

They all nodded. Jaemin trudged to the other 3 standing and put a hand on Donghyuck’s shoulder.

“Can I sleep on the couch tonight?” he whispered. Donghyuck understood the real question and nodded patting the girl’s head one more time and bidding them good night. Jeno kissed her head and also retreated to his sleeping arrangement.

Y/N kept her head low. Jaemin just couldn’t stand seeing her like that so he took her hand and slowly guided her to the couch, motioning for her to lay down first. She did and he followed her, but the moment he closed her eyes he could see and feel everything again. His blood freezing in his veins when seeing that monster on top of her and his Y/N struggling to avoid its sharp teeth, holding it back with everything she had. Everyone rushing to her aid and himself ripping it to pieces in a blinding wave of rage. Their run back to their little cabin and the haze that followed during the next half an hour. He was sure he was in shock. He could hardly believe he let this happen. But when thinking of it he didn’t see Y/N standing in front of them trying to keep herself calm. No, he saw her body torn up, a resembling image of Mark’s. And that terrified him, how close she was to that.

He flinched awake and turned his trembling body to face her. She was there, alive, breathing, with her back turned to him and her hair sprawled around the cushion under her head. At first he put a shy hand on her waist, just to feel her side rise and fall with her soft breaths. But then, his raging emotions and past turmoil overcame his rational mind and he wrapped himself around her, nuzzling his face in her shoulder, finally feeling at peace.

“Please Y/N, never again, okay? I..I need you, so stay by my side” And he fell asleep with his word barely leaving his mouth in a whisper.

Unknown to him, she gripped his hand back and caressed his knuckles with her thumb lovingly.

“I promise.”

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“Well fuck you”

The small flower slipped through the slight gap between Y/N’s fingertips, emitting a huff and a whispered curse from the frustrated girl. It just wouldn’t stick the right way and it frustrated her to no end. 

“Language, miss.” she heard an amused voice scold her from above.

She raised her head lazily and met eyes with Jaemin, who wore a smirk on his face. She hasn’t seen him so playful in a long time. She’s missed it.

“Shut up” Y/N retorted with fake annoyance.

Jaemin took a seat beside his best friend, watching Y/N’s nimble fingers trying to mold the flowers into a pretty crown. She had already done one, she had 4 more to go, including the one currently in her hands. She knew she didn’t have enough plants for all of them and she also knew the boys weren’t going to be happy with her reason to go out, but that was a problem for another time.

“What are you doing?” Jaemin asked as if it wasn’t obvious enough.

“Have you also gone blind after you lost all of your brain cells?”

“Ha ha,Y/N, very funny. The real question is why are you doing this?”

“Boredom. I had to find an occupation so I don’t go crazy. I think it would also make a great accessory for you guys”

“Fair enough, I’d look fabulous. When did you gather all these though?” He asked gesturing to the flowers laid beside her on the couch.

“Why so many questions? I just made a quick stop when I was returning from the lake with Renjunie”

He hummed and continued watching her work.

“Where have you learned to make these?”

She released an airy laugh at his oncoming questions and Jaemin couldn’t help but grin like a lovesick puppy at the sight of her so relaxed and happy. He would sell his soul to be able to keep her like that. If he could have bottled her laugh and got drunk from it every night, he would have done it with no hesitation.

“I learned it back in sophomore year for the kids at the center.”

Jaemin froze. He knew the children center she used to volunteer at during high school has been a sensitive topic for her. She loved the kids there so much and dedicated a large part of her time to them. Y/N was like a big sister for all of them and a sibling bond formed between all of them. The staff there always told her she was a miracle for the young children but Y/N always shook her head and concluded that they were her guardian angels and her time at the center had always been her healing time when she felt her happiest.

Jaemin’s grin dropped as he watched Y/N. She had a dreamy look on her face. A slight smile lingered on her lips and her eyes twinkled with adoration for the fond memories. Her mask was wearing off, breaking in tiny shards, baring the girl’s true feelings to Jaemin’s eyes for the first time since Mark’s death. 

He shifted closer to her and picked up a bright yellow flower, sticking it in her hair and smiling at her when she turned her head to look at him with wide surprised eyes.

“Yellow suits you”

She smiled back and continued her work with him stealing glances occasionally.

“This really sucks” She broke the silence after a while. She didn’t have to explain furthermore. Jaemin snorted.

“Tell me about it.”

“No but really. I had such high expectations of the future and this...this just isn’t it” Her voice lowered, just above a whisper.

“What is the future you dreamed of?”

“I wanted a family above all. I wanted to get married to the love of my life as cliche as that sounds. I wanted a big family with at least three kids and a few pets” she chuckled at the mere thought, him following along.

“But you do have a family. We are your family, aren’t we?”

She looked around and caught glimpses of Donghyuck and Jeno playing some dumb game they probably invented out of boredom and Renjun curled up on the armchair reading a book he had found when they first discovered the cabin. Y/N read the book too after Renjun first finished it. She found it boring, but Renjun insisted she just had no taste for the real gems out there. Y/N vaguely remembers this being the seventh time he’s absorbed in the pages of the worn out book. She could really find some resemblances between her dream family and what she already had, she definitely could.

“Now that you put it like that I guess you are..” 

Jaemin was lost in thoughts for a few moments before he quickly snatched a flower and turned his back to Y/N, ignoring her questions. Barely a minute later he faced her again with a weird expression on his face.

“Give me your hand.”

She watched him a little tentatively as she slowly extended her arm. He grabbed her and quickly slid something onto her ring finger. Y/N examined it and beamed when she saw a flower twisted into a ring adorning her slim finger.

“Aren’t you moving a little too fast?” She teased him.

His face reddened, the blush spreading to the tips of his ears.

“Oh shut up. I know it’s shitty and it can’t compare to what you actually want but it’s better than nothing, right?”

She stopped his rambling with a kiss on his cheek.

“It’s perfect. Thank you, Jaemin”

The color of his ears darkened even more as he shrunk in his seat, toying with his fingers and a coy smile spreading on his face. They both knew she wasn’t thanking him only for the stupid ring he had made. She thanked him for being by her side and not letting her lose herself between tunnels in the twisted labyrinth of her mind. She thanked him for loving her as she is.

“You’re welcome”

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“Jeno!”

He barely turned around before a smaller body slammed into his, sending him face first into the couch, a weight falling on top of him, a contagious laugh echoing right beside his ear, making him mimic the delightful sound.

She gripped his waist, raising him slightly to cover herself from the oncoming laughing Jaemin.

“Help me, Jeno, he’s being mean again” Y/N whined, cowering behind Jeno’s broader body.

Jeno tried to contain his laugh as he raised his hand to stop Jaemin from reaching behind him and gripping Y/N’s squirming frame.

“No can do, young man. Duration and purpose of the visit.” He tried saying in the most serious tone he could come up with, lowering his voice.

“It’s tickling payback.” 

Jeno grinned at his younger friend’s words.

“Then count me in!” He exclaimed, twisting around and gripping the girl’s sides and wiggling his fingers, emitting the sound the boys loved the most in the world. Her laugh was so loud, a clear happiness brought in everyone’s hearts and a healing medicine for their souls. Jaemin leaped at the chance to tease his best friend alongside with his other best friend and for a while it seemed like everything was right, as if the world was as it should be.

Both boys tickled Y/N to no end, basking in the girl’s laugh, bringing smiles not only to their faces, but to the other two guys too who watched them fondly from the other side of the room.

“Yah, rascals! Leave the little bub alone!” Renjun playfully scolded, despite fully enjoying their little tickling session, distracting Jeno’s and Jaemin’s attention long enough for Y/N to escape their hold and dash to Renjun’s side. He engulfed her in a protective cocoon of his arms, glaring at the other boys.

“Aigoo, Renjunie, always had a soft spot for your precious princess am I right?” Donghyuck teased the older while sporting a shit-eating grin.

“Don’t be a little bitch, Hyuck-ah. Stop pretending you aren’t wrapped around her finger. You’re basically her puppy by now.”

“At least I’m cuddly and soft and she likes having me around.”

“Ah, stop spewing shit, being fat doesn’t make you more likeable.”

“What did you say?!”

“What you just heard, you fluffy pillow”

Y/N felt Renjun’s chest rumble with laughter as he fought with Donghyuck like elementary school girls or a pair of angry cats in a park lot, squishing her in the middle of them.

“Yah, let me out! Guys! Hey! Hyuck, what are you doing?” She tried to make her way out of their awkward, too energetic hug. Then, Donghyuck, wrapped his arms around her and snatched her away from Renjun, turning around and hiding her from the other’s view, smothering her.

“See, she only wants me.” He sassed, sticking his elbows backwards to softly push away Renjun, who was reaching out for the girl.

“Onlyyy meee~” He sang, kissing the top of her head. “Only your Hyuckie~” Another exaggerated *smooch* left on the crown of her head as he swayed her from side to side with Renjun laughing at the ridiculous scene Donghyuck was making and side eyeing Jaemin who was dreamily staring at the pair before Jeno slapped a hand on his shoulder.

“You know, you’re absolutely whipped, dude.” Jeno whispered in his ear, smirking at his friend’s poor try of covering his feelings.

“What? No, it’s just..I haven’t seen her like that for a while.”

“It’s nice isn’t it?”

“Of course it’s nice. It’s always nice to see a friend recovering and acting like themselves again.”

Jeno called bullshit.

“Dude don’t try this with me. You should just tell her, it’ll make things easier for everyone, honestly.”

“Tell her what?”

Tell her that she’s the most amazing person he’s ever met and that she doesn’t deserve any of this thrown into her face? That without her none of them would have made it this far, especially himself? That she’s the last thing he thinks about before falling asleep and the first when he wakes up? Tell her he’s madly, irrevocably in love with their guardian angel?

Jeno just sighed, as if being able to read Jaemin’s thoughts. He patted the younger’s shoulder, before running to Y/N and sweeping her out of Donghyuck’s arms and into his own, throwing himself on the armchair with her on top. He cuddled her, squeezing her tight to him, enjoying the long lost feeling of holding one of his most precious people so close.

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‘Keep calm and quiet, find the others whenever uneasiness sets in’

Jeno knew the rules better than anyone, but he couldn’t help the strange feeling drowning his heart in fear. He had no real reason to be afraid or alarm the others, he was just paranoid because of a bad feeling he’s been having since the beginning of their run in a nearby village for food.

He gripped his handgun tighter, his hearing heightened. He was walking carefully, barely putting any pressure as the soles of his shoes touched the creaky floor. His eyes darted around the living room he was in, checking the windows and the front door from time to time. There was really nothing out of the ordinary, but he was unusually tense that particular day.

“I will be damned if I let this madness get to my head” he muttered to himself while quickly looking through a drawer. A sigh left his lips as he straightened up after finding nothing useful. He rolled up his shoulders in hopes of relieving the tension that crumpled him like a piece of thin paper.

The others weren’t even far. Donghyuck was upstairs, rummaging through the bedrooms. Renjun was in the garage with Jaemin and Y/N was in the backyard. But everything was just so silent, it almost seemed like time has stopped. Jeno could almost hear the blood pumping through his veins and the irregular beating of his heart.

‘Maybe I should go find someone, better a coward than dead.”

Just as that thought invaded his head, he heard the faint sound of a door opening. The long moan it emitted froze Jeno’s entire body. He swiftly hid himself behind a corner, holding his breath. He prayed Donghyuck would remain silent. He could hear footsteps slowly walking towards his, the old floor slightly bending beneath the intruder. 

Jeno’s index finger hovered above the cold trigger of the gun, waiting for the right moment to make his move. He had to be quick and finish it with one shot. He couldn’t afford wasting any more bullets seeing as they were already low on ammo. The creaking was nearing his spot, it was so close now and Jeno was turning purple from the lack of oxygen. He even forgot how to breathe from the horrible waiting he had to endure. 

Just one more second.

The moment the last creak resounded against the dirty walls of the house, Jeno’s body swirled around and his finger pushed the trigger without hesitation. 

He froze in place. The breath he just inhaled was knocked out of him as his hold on his gun slackened, letting the heavy object fall to the floor. The deafening sound the shot created covered his broken cry as he rushed forward and dropped to his knees beside her fallen body.

He just shot his friend, his best friend. He shot Y/N.

“No no no, this can’t be happening! Y/N come on, I’m so sorry please!”

He couldn’t stop the salty tears trailing down his cheeks as he pressed his hands over the wound in her chest. She didn’t even have enough time to let out a scream or move out of the way. 

“Jeno, why..?”

“I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I-I just... I-”

“Jeno?” Renjun’s voice echoed.

“Renjun! Renjun, help! Help please!” Jeno begged his friend.

As soon as Renjun laid his eyes over Y/N he rushed forward towards them, crouching besides them and removing Jeno’s hands from the girl’s wound before quickly covering it himself. He was no specialist, but he knew enough to be able to tell that Y/N was in serious trouble.

“Fuck, what the fuck happened, Jeno?”

“I don’t know, I thought she was- I don’t know Renjunie, please just do something, please..” He cried in such a heartbreaking way that it brought tears to Renjun’s eyes too. Jeno carded his bloody hands through his hair and over his face in such a raw desperation. They couldn’t lose her. Not like this, not at all.

“Jaemin-ah...Where’s Jaemin?” Y/N barely got the words out. Even when going through such pain, she asked for Jaemin, as if she could take everything away and mend her in a blink. But he couldn’t.

“He’ll be here in a second, baby, just try to keep your eyes open, okay? Breathe in and out, follow me.”

Renjun leaned her head on one side as a thin stream of blood trailed out of her mouth. His entire body was shaking and his heart was clenching. Jeno was curled up, sobbing and Renjun was a moment away from knocking him out. Sounds of hurried steps followed by the backdoor opening barely switched Renjun’s attention from Y/N to the other two boys arriving at the scene.

Donghyuck froze as soon as he saw Y/N’s small body crumpled to the floor, her skin and lips becoming paler as every second passed and crimson blood staining her clothes and spreading across her chest. Her lips were parted as it became hard for her to breathe properly. Her eyes were slightly unfocused but somehow they calmed Renjun down, they anchored him down to Earth the same way they lulled everyone in an eerie sensation night after night as she listened to their worries and remembered the good old days together. They still held their warmth, even in those moments.

Something in Jaemin broke at the sight of Y/N. In a fraction of a second he pushed Jeno away and smothered Y/N’s hair out of her face while his other hand tightly gripped onto one of hers. His eyes barely looked over her wound for a second without retching his guts out. He looked into her eyes as if he found his world again with all of the stars that shined through the dark sky, as if he saw them again for the first time. But his face was contorted with hopelessness despite his try to mask it.

“Y/N, I’m here, you’ll be okay, do you hear me? Y/N!”

As if in a lost moment of sanity, her eyes found his and Jaemin felt like he found home. A warm home with no pain or sadness where he could be himself and love as hard as he could.

“Jaemin” She gasped out his name and it sounded like the last ounce of light in her life, saved by her hero, a lifeline keeping her from drowning before she could get rid of her main regret.

“Yes baby, I’m here. I’m here, I’m not going anywhere and neither are you ,hear me Y/N? You’re not leaving me, we didn’t come up to this point just so you can fucking give up” he chocked on his words as his voice broke under the pressure of the world, his world vanishing under his fingertips “You can’t Y/N. You can’t, please...”

He wanted to scream, to clench his eyes shut so he wouldn’t have to watch the light leave her eyes. But he knew he couldn’t afford losing a second with her. 

“Oh God, no” 

Jaemin could hear Donghyuck’s whimpers and his begging for this to be only a cruel nightmare and Jeno’s sobs as he teared at his hair. He didn’t miss Renjun shaking his head in despair when he locked eyes with Donghyuck who collapsed a few feet away from them.

Y/N’s hand lifted slightly. It was barely a flinch, but Jaemin didn’t need anything more. He gripped her cold hand and brought it to his wet cheek as he gave her a weak smile. The corners of her lips curled weakly as another trail of blood left her lips. Jaemin had to choke back a sob as he leaned down, closer to his first and last love.

“I...love you” the silence was deafening, no one could move a muscle. Her half closed eyes moved from Jaemin’s cloudy ones and racked over the rest of her small family almost blissfully “..all..”

And that was all. Her eyes closed and her body fell limp. Their souls hit rock bottom, the bottom of the darkest and deepest oceans where hope had no way of growing and their nightmares became reality. Monsters were real and they ate away at them with such hunger it wasn’t in their power to stop them and neither did they have the motivation to try. They had no guardian angel for she had gone home, away from such cruelty.

“I love you. I love you more than a sunflower loves the sun, more than a bird loves its freedom, I just love you” 

Jaemin knew it was too late, far too late and his hidden confession fell on deaf ears, only the wind could hear his hopeless love and whisper it to the moon which would cry with him at night, They’d cry for their lost lover, one they couldn’t get back. She slipped through his fingers like sand and her warmth vanished, leaving him in a cold, lonely hell.

The next minutes were a blur, the way his mind went blank as he jumped at Jeno, letting out his anger on the boy who couldn’t feel anything anyway. The anger who was actually directed to himself for being a coward, for leaving such regret behind. The way Renjun gathered Y/N in his arms, cradling her like a mother to her child, almost like comforting her “It’s okay now, it’s over”, words which only comforted himself. The way Donghyuck found her flower ring in her pocket and shakily slipped it over her finger. She had her ring, a brutal irony to the broken promise that shattered in a million tiny pieces and pierced their hearts until there was nothing left of them.

The way home was silent, the longest journey and the last with their fallen angel. Jaemin insisted on carrying her all the way, despite his unstable form. He kept talking to her in a whisper, as if he was spilling his secrets hurriedly to his best friend before parting for a while.

Lowering her into her place of rest was exhausting. Exhausting for their numb souls, shells of what they used to be, shells in which the desperate echoes of the sea resounded with pleas of turning back time. Their tears left tracks which burned their skin with ashes of crushed wings.

Night came and they each battled their demons which slashed and screamed at them in their own minds, but Jaemin couldn’t. He couldn’t stay there. He couldn’t watch their home : the couch where they shared parts of themselves, the carpet where they laid surrounded by laughs, the window she always stared out, like a caged bird, because that’s what she felt like. A bird locked into a living nightmare, trapped with demons and lost children.

So he left. He packed a bag, in the silence of the night. He packed his memories and her only trace, a flower crown, wilted, resembling himself. Jaemin stopped by her. He crouched down and looked toward the sky where he knew she was finding her home, a proper one where all she felt was serenity. They would meet again, in a better world and with a better him. But for now, he was left alone, with the moon as his only listener. He traced the words engraved on the stone over her one last time before bidding goodbye to his lover.

“Only love can save us”

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Y/N's eyes snapped open. Her entire body felt so heavy, as if tons of bricks dragged her down. The lights in the room blinded her and she had to struggle to be able to open her eyes properly. It took a while before she was able to prop herself up on a shaky elbow, looking around the almost empty room.

She was surrounded by white. The walls were as monotone as the rhythmic beeps coming from the IV connected to her right arm. What was happening?

She remembered everything vividly, her life, with both good and bad moments, spent with her best friends. She could remember the butterflies fluttering in her stomach whenever Jaemin touched her or the warm feeling spreading through her chest at the mere thought of her boys. But she could also remember her blood soaking her clothes and her friends' hands as she took her last breath. Was everything just a dream turned into a nightmare?

A loud bang resounded around the room and the door snapped against the wall. Y/N flinched as the strength in her arm was barely enough to hold her upper body up. She barely looked up before she froze in place, confusion and shook seeping deep into her bones. A messy head of black hair slipped inside and towards her with almost inhumane speed as firm arms wrapped around her body and pressed her against his warm chest. It hardly registered in her brain who was hugging her so tightly, almost leaving Y/N out of breath. She inhaled his familiar scent, finally having the most desired feeling : that she was finally home.

Reality or not, she finally had him back, she finally had Mark back. She was so drunk in her happiness she didn't even hear him thanking any deity that the brought his Y/n back to him, along the lines letting out the sentence that would change their life forever.

"... you're finally out of the simulator"

[wongiemei]

2. Fear

a/n: aNgST wHO?

The Underworld was, ironically, above water. 

Situated on the vast Pacific, a large island, about twice the size of the United States of America, is known as the Capital. With spells and magic, all of the Coven kingdoms were hidden in plain sight with one being in the Atlantic, some scattered near Antarctica and one at the Indian Ocean. 

One of the famous ones that humans might recognize is the Bermuda triangle.

There are 3 kingdoms at the Atlantic Ocean: House Inure, House Languo, House Vermille.

House Languo is situated right at the middle of the Triangle, luring many pilots and shipmen to become their next meal. 

This is why House Languo is one of the richest houses as they are the known sellers of authentic blood and would even send you a drugged human, bounded and ready to be eaten. The profits kept coming in and they were it so fast that humans started to suspect and created the legend of the Bermuda, calling it a cursed and a haunted part of the world.

In truth, it’s just a part of the Underworld but with frequent unwanted visitors.

But the 2 biggest kingdoms, Kalon and Orenda, rest on the Pacific Ocean with the Capital on top of the Ring of Fire, known in the Underworld as the Entrance to Hell.

Some say it’s unlucky to have a vampire kingdom so near the thing that could kill them but some say the reason they’re so respected is that they are so near it and could withstand it.

But who really knows the answer.

Waking up from the bright sunlight, you squirmed and accidentally rolled out of bed, dragging the sheets and covers. At this point, you were so tired that you were willing to fall asleep again but as you settled on your back, your eyes snapped open and you blinked, surprised, when you saw a head of blonde hair peer over the edge of the bed.

“And you call yourself a queen.” 

His smirk after the insult made a growl escape your lips and you sprang back up to the bed, sitting on his bare torso and pinning his arms beside his head. Jaemin smirked up at you and unknowingly licked his lips at your bare chest with the sight of purple and red colors left from last night.

You scoffed slightly at the look on his face until you noticed his line of sight and shook your head, disappointed at your perverted husband. Releasing his arms and leaning back to place your butt on his lower abdomen, you quickly shifted away, feeling it poke your back.

With an irritated look, your eyebrows knitted together, “As if you didn’t use me enough last night, you still want more. How much more do you still want me from, Orendian?” 

Jaemin smugly placed his left arm beneath his head and his right hand drifted to softly grab your chin, “We were married for an alliance and children symbolize that it is official, don’t you think?”

“I will not become your birth factory. As much as you don’t want to, I intend to rule beside you and I will voice out my opinion if it’s needed. I will not hesitate to put you in your place, king or not.”

Thinking that your statement would make him angry, instead it made his grin wider. His right hand wandered down to your waist and his left arm left its spot from his head to place it to the other side of your waist. You looked at him curiously, guarded and not knowing of what his true intentions were. Through half-lidded eyes, Jaemin looked up at you and his grin turned lazy.

“You are quite bold, woman. Aren’t you afraid that one day, you say the wrong word and I rip out your tongue from your mouth?”

With a defiant glare, you responded, “What I said last night still remains true today and for eternity. You will never scare me, Na Jaemin. For you are only a puny prince whose future will bring the Underworld farther than Hell itself.”

Although his smile remained, Jaemin’s eyes visibly hardened and with all of his strength, he forcibly pinned you to the bed, red eyes glazing over your face. Lingering on odd places like your cheeks or your neck, Jaemin blinked slowly at you, anger radiating from his form.

“A puny prince, huh? My wife, my queen, seems to think that I am not capable of leading our country for the better. Should I teach her a lesson? Should I fuck her until her legs are shaking and mark her dry until all the blood is gone from her body? Or should I just hand her over to my men and let her experience a second without her title,” he sneered. 

Fear bubbled inside you but you forced it down and you cursed the weakness of your mind.

Even though vampires were mostly indestructible on the outside with cement-like skin, they were very prone and vulnerable to normal emotions. The absence of the heart meant nothing as the blood of humans carried something that fueled their existence and it traveled inside. But normal emotions was normal and could easily be felt, vampire or not.

A small but cold laugh escaped your lips, “My bloodline runs all over the kingdoms. If you should even do that, they are obligated to ruin Orenda due to their association with me. So try it, my king. For it will be the last time you’ll ever see your country and your family, alive.”

The threat clearly affected the boy but you were taken aback by his response. A pair of cold lips smashed to your own and you responded just as harsh, biting his lips and drawing his blood.

But when his lips left yours to bite on your flesh, a soft whimper filled the room as the razor sharp teeth roughly attached themselves on you and the abuse was something familiar yet unfamiliar to you. The fear of being trapped and so helpless that you couldn’t even push him away because you were weak.

He was taking his anger out, on you.

And there was nothing you could do to defend yourself.

You cried on the tub that day.

Paris was unusually cold during the summer month of June.

You bundled up in a beige trench coat with a black baker boy hat and a pair of vintage oval sunglasses from the 60s. The sunlight did little to nothing as it was still near 40 degrees and it didn’t warm the air. However, the sun’s fiery rays were still felt by sensitive beings like you and vampires were very prone to being cautious and try to stay away from hot things like those.

“Dear cousin, I take your honeymoon with the prince did not satisfy you as you are here shopping with me in Paris when you could be busy making love to your new husband.”

“Jaehyun, do watch your mouth. As much as I could care less for him, insulting his manhood is enough to cause that wretched temper of his into launching a seige to Metanoia and I do love you and Uncle and Aunt but your kingdom is far smaller and weaker than his army. You are one of my favorites and I’d rather love to watch Hoseok for his coronation to his kingdom that is still there.”

Jaehyun watched you with an amused look as your answer was said as you flicked through the coat racks full of Louis Vuitton coats, joining you with the inspection of the clothing. You were so nonchalant over the whole thing and he can really see the amount of training your parents have put you through to prepare you for your marriage to Jaemin.

“You know, sometimes I forget that you were the same girl who cried because I wouldn’t let her put a flower crown on my head,” he chuckled causing you look at him with a nostalgic look on your face.

“Oh, yes. I was quite naive back then.”

Jaehyun sighed as his eyes continued to look up and down on this particular honey mustard coat, “I remember you being scared of the most childish things. Johnny surprised you by the garden and you cried your little eyes out until your mother threatened to beat you. I guess that’s why you’re not really scared of anything now, huh?” He turned to look at you with a boyish smile, implying your easy agreement to the marriage.

“But the difference was, everything was perfect back then. We were young and we didn’t have anything to fear except for bath time. Now, we worry over who we’re expected to be and who we ought to marry for alliances.” Jaehyun’s fingers froze and he looked off into the wall. “Our lives have slowly become purely our parents and it fucking scares me that one day, we will be like them too. That’s my fear, Jaehyun. My one fear.”

Turning away from the horridly bright colors of the clothing, Jaehyun looked back at you and he felt sadness swelling up inside at the sight before him.

You’ve managed to fool everyone with your bravery and courage for your parents’ favor. However, there was a time where it wasn’t all an act and that you really were ready to risk it all just because they asked you to. 

A naive little girl.

But now that you’ve been exposed to everything and anything, Jaehyun saw the little girl crying behind those scarlet orbs, not because of his strong refusal of the orchid covered crown, but with fear of the world and no one to defend her for what’s to come.

a/n: oof sorry for making jaemin look like an asshole but hey, we need a plot line!

might start updating once or twice a week, usually monday. i have about 2 chapters written out just not fully written out, yknow? hard to explain but here’s your update!! so sorry for making yall wait without a schedule 🥺 ayo, send a few of yall names so i can use your name for an oc in this series. i feel kinda bad bc y/n’s friends needs some names

last also. if yall didn’t get it, jaehyun’s birthday is valentines day and she’s in paris and paris is known to be the city of love so paris is a part of metanoia, which is jaehyun’s kingdom, and Hoseok, J-Hope, is with the last name of Jung so I made him jaehyun’s older brother. a lot more characters will show up in the next chapter so don’t worry!!!

here’s a taglist, (just tell me if you want to be added!):

@bobohu-s-ane-yeobo​ 

[biconicfinn]

7, 8, 20?

first of all thank you for the ask nati!! i’m sorry this took so long, i’ve been swamped with family stuff lately <3 just a heads up! all the links are for spotify!!

7: A song that you love from a genre you don’t usually like

a genre i dont actively listen to is country music bc it’s usually very us american-centric and i personally can’t relate to a lot of the songs that are more patriotic/americana/us lived experience ish? but i have three (3) country songs that i will go hard for no matter what because they are incredible

1. jolene by dolly parton - okay so this song just slaps i dont know what else to tell you; it has a very fun beat and the lyrics are so good and intriguing??????? also it’s so cute that dolly parton titled the song after a little kid who was a fan of hers i find that so adorable 

2. daddy lessons by beyoncé ft. the chicks - DO I EVEN NEED TO EXPLAIN???????? beyoncé first released this song in the lemonade album and it was already amazing; it gets you moving and dancing and instrumentals alone would make it incredible but the VOCALS????????????? QUEEN BEY REMINDED EVERYONE WHY SHE WEARS THE CROWN ESPECIALLY WHEN SHE TOOK THE COUNTRY MUSIC AWARDS BY STORM WITH THE CHICKS!!!!! 2 iconic af artists sharing the stage for that performance was incredible and the performance alone is one of my favourites but everything about this song makes me love it more and more also the outfit she wore for the awards? amazing

3. old town road (remix) by lil nas x ft. billy ray cyrus - love it or hate it this song is amazing and it changed the way people looked at country music, it set records like no one else has ever seen and it’s genuinely a fun song. love the cowboy vibes especially because cowboys in the us were typically black and latino men (and iirc many of them were gay right?) so that’s fun! lil nas x is hilarious and i can’t wait to see what else he’s going to do with his music

8: A song that you liked when you where 10 that still slaps

so i’m going to restrict this to songs that came out when i was 10 that i still love because i have a huge soft spot for the 2005ish to 2015ish era of music if not this would be super long dkbjvksfjgkdjfhgkdsjg (un)fortunately the list is still long af because so many good albums came out in 2011 i’m gonna start right off by saying that the best album of 2011 hands down was beyoncé’s 4 album. it is a masterpiece both instrumentally and vocally and it crosses so many genres and is abso-fucking-lutely ICONIC and there are zero skips on this album even today no i will not be taking criticism <3 next i’m gonna just say that one direction’s up all night was released in 2011 and it too is total POP PERFECTION! it has so many fond memories for me and the songs still slap another great album of 2011 is rihanna’s talk that talk!!! so many incredible songs and it’s just one banger after the other ugh your fave could never!!!

okay quickfire round: avril lavigne’s what the hell, lady gaga’s judas and born this way, selena gomez and the scene’s love you like a love song, adele’s rumour has it

20: A song from the soundtrack of a film that you like so much after the film finished you immediately looked for it okay this is easy, spider-man: into the spiderverse has such a great soundtrack that i IMMEDIATELY saved it on my spotify on the way out of the theatre because holy shit not only was each song so good, but every song was used so perfectly in the movie that you couldn’t really want to replace it with anything idk how to explain but oh you know how people like to replace immigrant song in that ending fight scene in thor: ragnorok with other songs to match the beat or give it a different vibe? i feel like for itsv, you can’t separate the two like that because of how connected the music is to the storytelling. it’s one of the most complete soundtracks i ever heard in a movie ever! 

i’m not going to add movie scores because i don’t think that’s the point of the ask meme? and also i would be making this ask longer than it already is dkfndkjfgnakdjfgk so sorry this is so long and i hope you enjoyed!

[dearvodudoll]

🎵 PLAYLIST.

Shantal é uma personagem complexa, com camadas a serem desenvolvidas e cada resposta das interações dela exige um tipo diferente de música. Aqui estão algumas das canções que eu uso enquanto respondo as coisas dela, seja porque me deixam no humor que preciso para chegar ao nível da personalidade da personagem, seja porque a letra remete a alguma característica da história dela ou da conexão que ela tem com outras pessoas dentro do jogo. Algumas destas músicas abaixo, entretanto, são outras que eu acredito se encaixarem bem na definição de quem eu acredito ser Shantal Asabi, ainda que ela não demonstre muito disso nas relações num geral:

-- ROCK YOU

🎵 1. BROKEN CROWN -- MUMFORD & SONS.

My heart was flawed I knew my weakness, so hold my hand, consign me not to darkness.

🎵 2. GOING TO HELL -- THE PRETTY RECKLESS.

You know, I know, yes, I've been told I redefine a sin! I don't know what’s driving me to put this in my head, maybe I wish I could die, maybe I am dead.

🎵 3. THE NOBODIES -- MARILYN MANSON.

We are the nobodies, we wanna be somebodies, when we're dead they'll know just who we are.

🎵 4. PARADISE LOST -- HOLLYWOOD UNDEAD.

 All the pain ain't the same when it's your turn to burn.

🎵 5. MAYHEM -- HALESTORM.

A little mayhem never hurt anyone, where’m I gonna get some? A little bedlam ‘til I'm coming undone!

🎵 6. HELLS BELLS -- AC/DC.

I'll give you black sensations up and down your spine, If you're into evil, you're a friend of mine.

🎵 7. LOST IN PARADISE -- EVANESCENCE.

I have nothing left and all I feel is this cruel wanting, we've been falling for all this time and now I'm lost in paradise.

🎵 8. YOU CALL ME A BITCH LIKE IT’S A BAD THING -- HALESTORM.

I think you hate me 'cause you want me, you only want what you can't have. I'm just being who I want to be, but you can't deal with that.

🎵 9. NEMO -- NIGHTWISH.

This is me for forever, one without a name. These lines the last endeavor to find the missing lifeline.

🎵 10. SAVE ME -- HOLLYWOOD UNDEAD.

People might think I'm problematic, fuck it I'm alone in a world of static [...] Maybe I was born just a castaway. 

🎵 11. NATURAL BORN SINNER -- IN THIS MOMENT.

Did you really think by hating me I'd open up, I'd just hand you the key? I know you're scared and don't understand that this is my life, this is who I am.

🎵 12. HOPELESS WANDERER -- MUMFORD & SONS.

Hold me first, hold me fast, 'cause I'm a hopeless wanderer. I will learn to love the skies I'm under.

-- POP BABY

🎵 1. MY PREROGATIVE -- BRITNEY SPEARS.

Everybody's talking all this stuff about me, why don't they just let me live? I don't need permission, make my own decisions.

🎵 2. LOOK WHAT YOU MADE ME DO -- TAYLOR SWIFT.

But I got smarter, I got harder in the nick of time. Honey, I rose up from the dead, I do it all the time. I've got a list of names and yours is in red, underlined.

🎵 3. CRY BABY -- MELANIE MARTINEZ.

You take things so hard and then you fall apart, you try to explain, but before you can start those cry baby tears come out of the dark.

🎵 4. BORN TO DIE -- LANA DEL REY.

I was so confused as a little child tried to take what I could get, scared that I couldn’t find all the answers.

🎵 5. ARMY OF ME -- CHRISTINA AGUILERA.

Well I know what you were thinking you thought you'd watch me fade away, when you broke me into pieces, but I gave each piece a name.

🎵 6. MANiCURE -- LADY GAGA.

Put some, lipstick on, pefume your neck, and slip your high heels on. Rinse and curl your hair, loosen your hips and get a dress to wear.

🎵 7. GLAMAZON -- RUPAUL.

She's so wild, so animal, she gonna work that sexy body, so sexual. She's like a female phenomenon, she's a glamazon.

🎵 8. MATERIAL GIRL -- MADONNA.

Some boys try and some boys lie, but I don't let them play (no way). Only boys that save their pennies make my rainy day.

🎵 9. COCKINESS -- RIHANNA.

Suck my cockiness, lick my persuasion, eat my poison and swallow your pride down.

🎵 10. FLAWLESS -- BEYONCÉ.

You wake up, flawless. Post up, flawless. Ridin' round in it, flawless. Flossin' on that, flawless.

🎵 11. BOSS ASS BITCH -- NICKI MINAJ.

Said, rule number one to be a boss-ass bitch: never let a clown nigga try to play you, If he play you, then rule number two: fuck his best friends then make 'em yes men and get a dick pic, and then you press send.

🎵 12. WASABI -- LITTLE MIX.

Lick me up, I'm sweet and salty, mix it up and down my body. Love to hate me, praise me, shame me... Either way, you talk about me.

[therappundit]

***The Best Rap Songs of 2019 - A Pundit PlayLi$t***

THE YEAR IS 2019.

The rap music genre has splintered multiple times into sub-sub genres, and the line between what is considered “real” hip-hop and what is considered 🗑️ begins to grow sharper and sharper. Hate grows on both sides, as heads - both old and new - collide over which rap songs should be considered worthy of praise, and which ones may be merely capitalizing on the social media trends of the day...

Enter THE Rap Pundit, a purist that is open to all lanes of rap music - provided those lanes are well represented with quality. That Pundit is me.

This year was harder than most because it was a mix of so many different impressive styles...with the exception of mainstream rap music. No Drake, no Kendrick, no Hov or Nas on the list this year, but what you will find are a ton of talented young artists inspired by them, and many other first ballot rap hall of famers. So while the mainstream waned, the underground absolutely feasted in 2019.

Here is the criteria I tried to use for this year’s rankings:

the song had to be in my regular rotation by 12/20/2019 (otherwise, I simply could not have had the time to truly experience it)

I aimed my rankings with the following prioritization in mind: 75% of my decision based on personal favoritism, 20% based on overall quality within the sub-genre regardless of whether or not I listen to it regularly  (is it a vapid strip club joint? Then be the best strip club joint you can be!), and 5% based on overall impact (YES, how often a song comes up in conversation with my fellow peers does make a difference - welcome to the culture)

believe it or not, there was an honest attempt at making the most diverse list possible (because in reality if this list was just personal favorites, then the whole list would consist of Griselda, Roc, Mach, Mutant Academy & other underground all-stars from all over the east coast...but seriously, the underground straight massacred the mainstream biz this year)

Again, I have 200+ additional songs I love that I could easily have added on top of this one, but I think this list is plenty long enough as it is, am I right?

Enjoy...because I know I certainly have enjoyed listening to this unparalleled lengthy scroll of dope rap songs that dropped in 2019. 🙏

1. “Palmolive” - Freddie Gibbs & Madlib feat. Pusha T & Killer Mike

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NSn_r2w-idg

(A terrific verse from Freddie, a great hook from Killer Mike, and a verse of the year calibre contribution from Pusha T, all over a soulful Madlib back-drop?? Yikes. Freddie Gibbs & Madlib made all rap fans very proud in 2019.)

2. “Ricky” - Denzel Curry

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3WHm6tfvKlk

(As soon as you press play, you can feel the humidity coming off of this song as if we were in the crowd with Curry down in Florida. Denzel delivered a wonderful homage to his father, and to the Carol City of which he hails.)

3. “Crown For Kings” - Benny feat. Black Thought

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AtTu_TC3f6A

(Black Thought and Griselda?? Bars on top of bars on top of bars…two verse of the year contenders, easily.)

4. “Glorious” - Skyzoo & Pete Rock

https://soundcloud.com/skyzoomusic/glorious?in=skyzoomusic/sets/retropolitan-1

(Want to hear an impressive way to kick off a great album? Look no further than Sky’s scathingly hot verse on “Glorious”, a track that lives up to its’ name.)

5. “I.G.W.T.” - Roc Marciano

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bz5W9LztqZs

(The instrumental alone makes for a quintessential Roc Marci soundtrack, an early standout off of Marcielago. That first beat is magical.)

6. “Crime Pays” - Freddie Gibbs & Madlib

https://soundcloud.com/gangstagibbs/crime-pays?in=gangstagibbs/sets/bandana-16

(So quintessential to Bandana’s vibe this thing feels like it has a pulse. I was listening to this on my walk home the other day and it put me in such a breezy headspace...I can’t even describe it any other way than simply saying it’s another classic Madlib production.)

7. “5 to 50” - Benny feat. India

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QQGRPxrHtjI

(Captivating. Benny and The Alchemist join forces to concoct a song so real it makes 90% of drug dealer talk in rap music sound phony.)

8. “Thank God” - Tree

https://soundcloud.com/mctreeg/thank-god?in=mctreeg/sets/wegrownnow

(Tree’s We Grown Now is such a great album. This song perfectly captures the gifts of the legendary Chicago MC, who I consider one of the genre’s unsung special talents. It’s worth a New Year’s Resolution to get familiar with Tree’s catalogue.)

9. “Funeral March (The Dirge)” - Your Old Droog feat. Mach-Hommy

https://soundcloud.com/your-old-droog/funeral-march-the-dirge-feat?in=your-old-droog/sets/it-wasnt-even-close-1

(One of the hardest sounding songs in recent memory. I can hear these two do this all day, a great example of the tremendous work both artists put into 2019.)

10. “Freestyle Shit” - Freddie Gibbs & Madlib

https://soundcloud.com/gangstagibbs/freestyle-s-t?in=gangstagibbs/sets/bandana-16

(Pffffew, that Gibbs delivery….right from the get-go with the album’s first song, it’s so clear that Bandana is a special project.)

11. “Ephesians” - Roc Marciano feat. Ka

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7pWWHYd_SBI

(METAL CLERGY RAP.....if I need to say anymore about this joint, than you and I simply don’t roll in the same rap circles.)

12. “It’s All Good” - Skyzoo & Pete Rock

https://soundcloud.com/skyzoomusic/its-all-good?in=skyzoomusic/sets/retropolitan-1

(The gorgeous first single off Retropolitan feels like liquid nostalgia and summers in NYC, without sounding the least bit dated.)

13. “Situations” - Freddie Gibbs & Madlib

https://soundcloud.com/gangstagibbs/situations?in=gangstagibbs/sets/bandana-16

(One of Bandana’s more minimalistic instrumentals, and it takes off thanks to the jet pack provided by Gibbs and his sensational performance on this one.)

14. “There U R” - Tree

https://soundcloud.com/mctreeg/there-u-r?in=mctreeg/sets/wegrownnow

(Give this man his flowers now. There are a lot of talented artists in rap music, but none tackle a song like an old Blues man…none except Tree, that is.)

15. “Pete’s Sake” - Conway & Benny

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=njNKcQx7NSA

(Quite simply one of the most raw beats I have heard in some time. And my favorite Conway verse of 2019.)

16. “Massage Seats” - Freddie Gibbs & Madlib

https://soundcloud.com/gangstagibbs/massage-seats?in=gangstagibbs/sets/bandana-16

(Smooth as Helllll. “This ain’t for soccer mamas this is for the underground” is right.)

17. “Flights” - Tree

https://soundcloud.com/mctreeg/flights?in=mctreeg/sets/wegrownnow

(Tree kills it with the autobiographical joints, and this soulful walk down memory lane is as enthralling as an audio diary.)

18. “Dr. Bird’s” - Westside Gunn, Conway & Benny (Griselda)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8sc3WbLz2IY

(It’s no secret that Griselda Records had a sensational 2019, and no posse cut personifies that better than “Bird’s”.)

19. “Cokewhite” - Goldlink feat. Pusha T

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8zCGiHhTxMM

(Another spotlight stealing verse from Pusha Ton, who in limited work, managed to appear everywhere this year in music.)

20. “Funeral” - Tree & Parallel Thought

https://parallelthought1.bandcamp.com/track/funeral

(I hope with all of my heart that songs like this aren’t part of Tree’s process of letting go of the music biz, but even if it is, what a beautiful way to go out.)

21. “Bandana” - Freddie Gibbs & Madlib feat. Assassin

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yWCciqqzno4

(While it may not have made the final cut of the Bandana album that shares its’ name, this reggae-tinged, Madlib blessed riot starter has been one of my favorite songs of the year since it dropped and it keeps feeling better to me.)

22. “Homegrown” - Skyzoo & Pete Rock

https://soundcloud.com/skyzoomusic/homegrown?in=skyzoomusic/sets/retropolitan-1

(Another incredibly soulful standout from Retropolitan. When Skyzoo & Pete Rock are performing at the top of their game, both are as potent as it gets within their respective lanes.)

23. “El Toro Combo Meal” - Earl Sweatshirt feat. Mavi

https://soundcloud.com/earlxsweatshirtmusic/el-toro-combo-meal-feat-mavi-prod-by-ovrkast?in=earlxsweatshirtmusic/sets/feet-of-clay

(Two MCs vying for the lo-fi crown are Earl Sweatshirt and Mavi. It is beginning to get confusing to figure out who is the student and who is the teacher here, but regardless, both talented artists flashed a ton of skill in 2019.)

24. “To Whom It May Concern” - Jim Jones feat. Cam'ron, Guordan Banks, Benny The Butcher and Conway

https://soundcloud.com/jim-jones-capo/to-whom-it-may-concern-feat-camron-guordon-banks-benny-the-butcher-conway-the-machine?in=jim-jones-capo/sets/el-capo

(A Dipset and Griselda collaboration is enough to make someone like me get emotional…anyone have a tissue, this Benny-Cam’ron-Conway back to back series is too much to handle!?)

25. “Under The Sun” - J. Cole, Lute & DaBaby (and Kendrick Lamar?)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eUUuI--jAlM

(The best song off of Dreamville’s Revenge of the Dreamers 3 is the first track. It’s just a straightforward soul loop, but Cole and Lute really shine...but then DaBaby comes through to shine hard enough to blind the first two verses.)

26. “Sunday School” - Benny feat. 38 Spesh & Jadakiss

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0ero1Xexyhs

(Spesh really killed this great cut off of Benny’s The Plugs I Met, but all three really did their thing.)

27. “Dominate” - DJ Muggs & Eto

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DxjTKqpMHIE

(Straight menace music. Muggs & Eto would have made Mobb Deep proud with “Dominate”…especially Muggs, this beat is brutal!)

28. “Lucha Bros.” - Westside Gunn feat. Curren$y & Benny

https://soundcloud.com/westsidegunn/lucha-bros-feat-curreny-benny?in=westsidegunn/sets/hitler-wears-hermes-7

(Another crazy banger from Griselda, off of Westside’s fantastic Hitler Wears Hermes 7. Don’t let the smooth vibe force you to overlook the bar-fest on this one.)

29. “Obamacare” - Quelle Chris

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L-F19d5PcJY

(Another year, another thought provoking Quelle Chris project. He seems to be getting better with age, is that possible?)

30. “Big Uzi Vert” - Fly Anakin & Big Kahuna OG

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-CxWj6g0DnU

(As with 2018, some of the best rap songs of the year are collaborations from the mighty Mutant Academy. Virginia’s Fly Anakin and Big Kahuna OG both clocked in ready to work in 2019, and they have stacks of great joints to prove it. Anakin’s “I’m from the projects, I don’t skateboard” helped this one push to the front of the Mutant pack.)

31. “Daylight Savings” - Mavi

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iZTI9YkK_1w

(Mavi really captured the attention of fans and critics alike with Let The Sun Talk. His flow on “Daylight” proves that Mavi is so much more than the copycats you may stumble across on Soundcloud these days.)

32. “Chasing Ghosts” - Your Old Droog feat. Roc Marciano

https://soundcloud.com/your-old-droog/chasing-ghosts-feat-roc?in=your-old-droog/sets/it-wasnt-even-close-1

(What a great example of why these two are so good at what they do. Eerie underground hip-hop at its’ finest - and Roc’s best guest verse of the year.)

33. “Cubicle” - Buddy feat. 03 Greedo

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nZ9Yw7i_Fo8

(What a slept-on smash from Buddy and 03 Greedo. Both artists do the West Coast proud with one of my favorite cuts off of the deluxe edition of Harlan & Alondra.)

34. “Education” - Freddie Gibbs & Madlib feat. Yasiin Bey & Black Thought

https://soundcloud.com/gangstagibbs/education-feat-yasiin-bey?in=gangstagibbs/sets/bandana-16

(As if that line-up isn’t enough to make any hip-hop head salivate, it’s even more impressive that the final product manages to meet expectations.)

35. “Wild Minks” - Quelle Chris feat. Mach-Hommy

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4dQmPX1C0Vk

(Quelle and Mach make beautiful music together, and they don’t come much more beautiful than this one.)

36. “IMG” - Nolan The Ninja

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8vNvRLIQHVs

(Nolan has blessed us with a number of great songs in 2019, but I think this one epitomizes just how much he has progressed as a rap artist.)

37. “Splinters” - Fly Anakin & Tuamie feat. ANKHLEJOHN & Al.Divino

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZWORdUQAEcc

(Just a chilling collaboration from some of the best artists that underground hip-hop has to offer, that’s all.)

38. “Spider Hole” - Billy Woods & Kenny Segal

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t1WBEi5LlkI

(Beautifully bleak music from Billy Woods and Kenny Segal, who demonstrate brilliant chemistry throughout Hiding Places.)

39. “Deadass” - Kemba

https://soundcloud.com/kembaland/deadass-2

(Unfortunately, in any other era this could have been a hit rap song. But fortunately, in this era it can be praised as one of the best underground smashes of the year from a very good album. Keep an eye on Kemba...)

40. “Dynasties” - Tedy Andreas

https://soundcloud.com/tedyandreas/dynasties-prod-graphwize

(Dope beat, dope MC and a killer hook. I can’t be the only longterm fan that Tedy earned with this one.)

41. “OD” - Earl Sweatshirt

https://soundcloud.com/earlxsweatshirtmusic/od-1

(Say what you want about the length of Earl’s songs, but he can accomplish more with a minute and a half on a record than most rappers can with an hour.)

42. “Still” - Maxo Kream

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o3Tza0cGrQk

(Maxo may have just dropped the best project of his career, and this woozy thumper is one of his hardest tracks yet.)

43. “18 Wheeler” - Benny feat. Pusha T

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JdZC8uBwJ4Q&list=PLVipAi3U-JouPCQvz3KoH2B1VAKAZc7m4&index=6

(At this point, what else needs to be said about the potency of these two rap-writers? Calling it “coke rap” wouldn’t even begin to explain how good these two are when it comes to the art of rapping.)

44. “ZUU” - Denzel Curry

https://soundcloud.com/denzelcurryph/zuu?in=denzelcurryph/sets/zuu-3

(A rousing intro to what I would consider the best “mainstream” rap album of 2019.)

45. “Flat Tummy Tea” - Freddie Gibbs & Madlib

https://soundcloud.com/gangstagibbs/flat-tummy-tea

(I liked it when it first dropped, love it even more now. Freddie straight MURDERS this one...)

46. “Broke Bitch Dreams” - ShooterGang Kony

https://soundcloud.com/shootergangkony/broke-bitch-dreams

(I knew nothing about ShooterGang Kony at the start of 2019, and I don’t know much more now. But I know that this song has smash written all over it, one of the best ‘cruising with the top down’ joints that I have heard in recent memory. The hook is an ear worm to the point of concern.)

47. “Tito’s Back” - Conway  feat. Benny & Westside Gunn

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YGqViFucmJ8

(Griselda’s top two lyrical assassins doing what they do best, but going back and forth in a manner that not even Styles & Jada could touch.)

48. “Attics” - DJ Muggs & Eto

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1UmYxcv4YTs

(Sure Muggs & Eto dropped a banger of an album with Hell’s Roof, but “Attics” has the strength to be a career defining track for Eto. This is dark poetry from one of the hungriest parts of upstate NY.)

49. “Under The Train (Transporting)” - Your Old Droog

https://soundcloud.com/your-old-droog/under-the-train-transporting-1

(Droog’s Transportation album may be the perfect traveling companion for moving through the streets of NYC, and this song may be the projects’ crown jewel. This has the feel of a classic New York anthem and I am crazy for it.)

50. “Know The Type” - Lansky Jones feat. CJ Fly & Mr. Muthafuckin’ Exquire

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=riRJk2QiROI

(What happens when a collection of some of NYC’s most talented, but least heralded MC’s join forces to deliver what sounds like a classic mid-90′s throwback joint? They create one of the smoothest rap songs of 2019.)

51. “NINA” - Rapsody

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=54yOD994ors

(Eve raised Rapsody’s discography to a whole other level. A brilliant, pro-woman battle cry that somehow manages to ether the industry while still radiating positivity, Rap pulled together a beautiful collection of songs with this album - and verse of the year contenders, beginning right here with her opening track, the impressive “NINA”.)

52. “Spongebob” - billy woods + kenny segal

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=83F4JpVu61k

(Segal’s production is perfect background for woods to go to work. If Hiding Places isn’t in your collection, that must change immediately.)

53. “Cash War” - Gunna

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ObdMBhfySMI

(Gunna has had a fantastic year, and this song shows why he is a natural hitmaker. Drip or Drown 2 is one of mainstream rap’s finest records of 2019.)

54. “May Store” - Westside Gunn, Conway & Benny feat. Keisha Plum

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x6kMBwNCAyw

(More dazzling lyrical chemistry from Griselda. Damn Benny, why do you have to murk beats like this? Not even fair to other MC’s at this point.)

55. “HolOnHolOn” - Fly Anakin & Tuamie

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SCbgGn2BXUc&list=PLAfLqY9BQJkyjUuDAEn7cehQ3DZWAZogX&index=4

(Another fantastic track from Mutant Academy. Is it me or does Tuamie channel some Jay Dee-esque vibes with this one?)

56. “Bad Boys” - Pivot Gang (Joseph Chilliams, Saba, MFnMelo) feat. Smino

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UCaBVqi4Rag

(This one didn’t blow up - at least not yet - but I have no idea why!? This track, like so much of Pivot Gang’s You Can’t Sit With Us album, is such a fantastic showcase for Chi-town’s deep hip-hop scene.)

57. “Pop Out” - Polo G feat. Lil TJay

https://soundcloud.com/polo-g/polo-g-feat-lil-tjay-pop-out

(HUGE hit, and rightfully so. So much more than a typical baller anthem, the hook - and more specifically, the performance of Polo G - makes “Pop Out” easily one of the best rap songs on mainstream radio in 2019.)

58. “Field Negro” - Royce Da 5′9″

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zK7N63lsoRE

(An unorthodox production anchored by one of the best writers in the history of the genre, that’s all. Royce murders this thing with so many quotables…yet you’re still somehow sleeping on Royce???)

59. “Nobody’s Favorite” - Rick Ross feat. Gunplay

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xMzfaCskeGo

(At the top of 2019, would I have predicted that Ross and Gunplay would have dropped one of the best rap songs of the year? No. Is “Nobody’s Favorite” a seriously dope rap song? Without question.)

60. “WYRM” - Quelle Chris

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5DNS1pXDec0

(Another gorgeous track from a man that low-key has one of the strongest discographies in rap music, Detroit’s Quelle Chris.)

61. “Memorial” - MIKE

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w0czotN8EXQ

(If the lo-fi movement in rap music was a sports team, MIKE deserves to be the team captain. Tears of Joy is an intensely personal album, but amongst the tears there is much to feel joyful about after listening to MIKE’s latest collection of gems.)

62. “4 Clove Club” - Wiki

https://pitchfork.com/levels/wiki-4-clove-club-new-song-listen/

(Few MC’s as unique as Wiki manage to actually create music that is enjoyable to listen to while they are attempting to color outside of conventional lines. Somehow, Wiki seems to get better at this rare skill with every project. An autobiographical album that feels like a disjointed, but musically cohesive diary, what Wiki manages to accomplish with Oofie is wildly impressive.)

63. “PTSD” - Omen, Mereba, Deante' Hitchcock & St. Beauty

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yWbjiP50Nbg

(One of the most beautiful songs off of ROTD3, but it’s Omen’s verse that tugged most on my heart strings, and snagged a spot on this year’s Best Of list.)

64. “Giannis” - Freddie Gibbs & Madlib feat. Anderson .Paak

https://soundcloud.com/gangstagibbs/giannis-feat-anderson-paak?in=gangstagibbs/sets/bandana-16

(One of the funkier standouts from Bandana, and album full of standouts. Paak and Gibbs tap dance all over this one.)

65. “Baby” - Lil Baby & DaBaby [Quality Control]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0GbwYFqN1iE

(A collaboration that at one point, most would have joked about off of name alone, the joke is now on the doubters because both of these Babies can really RAP.)

66. “The Old Groove” - Westside Gunn, Conway & Benny feat. Novel

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eo-E6Nl-aoE

(Somber - even by Griselda standards - this collaboration off WWCD feels like a victory lap from the best group of gritty MCs since Mobb Deep, Boot Camp, and the Wu Tang Clan.)

67. “The Norm” - Von Pea

https://soundcloud.com/vonpea/08-thenorm

(Von Pea’s City For Sale deserves to be mentioned as another great release in the growing sub-genre that is “rappers warning the rest of the world of the dangers of gentrification”, this record right here captures the message so well and he knocks the production way out the park.)

68. “The Routine” - Wiki

https://soundcloud.com/wikset/10-the-routine

(A bouncy standout from Oofie that has really climbed my own rankings in recent weeks. I love what Wiki was going for with the production aesthetic on this one.)

69. “Playground Bench” - Raz Fresco feat. AZ & BriskInTheHouse

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M-4wzn2KRVQ

(Bonus points to anyone that caught this joint! A way under the radar AZ feature that warrants more shine. But don’t sleep, Raz Fresco dropped *multiple* dope projects in 2019.)

70. “Smallsteps” - Medhane

https://medhane.bandcamp.com/track/smallsteps

(Another rising star from the depths of the lo-fi underground, Medhane’s Own Pace project is an easy but by no means basic listen from start to finish on the strength of his solid production choices and candor.)

71. “No Love” - Maxo feat. lojii

https://soundcloud.com/rundatbacc/no-love-feat-lojji?in=rundatbacc/sets/lil-big-man-1

(Maxo’s Lil Big Man has made 2019′s ‘Best of’ lists on more than a few sites, and thanks to smooth joints like “No Live” it’s certainly not hard to understand why.)

72. “CLONES” - Tierra Whack

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9-8qrzg-vgQ

(Walking the fine line between truth and song parody, Tierra may have been imitating her peers with this one, but nevertheless the final result is catchy as hell.)

73. “2/5” - Jay Bel

https://soundcloud.com/groovyxjay/6-2-5-flip-gawd-dre?in=groovyxjay/sets/4wurd-an-anti-gentrification-project

(A lot of folks might not be familiar with Brooklyn’s Jay Bel yet, but that’s going to have to change soon because this kid is too talented to stay under the radar too much longer. 4wurd made for a fantastic introduction.)

74. “Meet Again” - Maxo Kream

https://soundcloud.com/maxo-kream/meet-again

(Another dope Maxo Kream song, another great example of this superb story telling skills.)

75. “Everything” - Little Brother

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=krnOMqDjB0k

(A dope Little Brother album in 2019 was not something that anyone had on their itinerary heading into the year. Pooh and Phonte haven’t lost a step, and there are plenty of cuts on May The Lord Watch that feel like classic LB.)

76. “Proceed On” - Fly Anakin

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FO2mRZTX8XM

(A slick loosie from one of Mutant Academy’s finest.)

77. “Suge” - DaBaby

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YPpmGHn6gB8

(What DaBaby lacks in depth of content, he makes up for with his recognizable flow and sheer charisma.)

78. “Monica” - Flatbush Zombies feat. Tech N9ne

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o0db9NJhVEA

(One of the more recent additions to this list, it has slowly creeped up the charts on my end - and reminded me of how contagious a Flatbush Zombies joint can be.)

79. “NYC” - Jim Jones feat. Fat Joe

https://soundcloud.com/jim-jones-capo/nyc-feat-fat-joe?in=jim-jones-capo/sets/el-capo

(Just one of a cornucopia of classic-sounding Heatmakerz firecrackers off of Jim Jones’ surprisingly potent El Capo.)

80. “Murray’s” - Fly Anakin & Tuamie feat. Skyzoo

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lYyGTepAhM0&list=PLAfLqY9BQJkyjUuDAEn7cehQ3DZWAZogX&index=8

(Good things happen whenever Skyzoo connects with rising underground stars. Ask Griselda, and now you can ask Mutant Academy, too. This joint might sound basic to the uneducated listener, but for me, Tuamie provided Anakin and Sky with an ideal minimalist back drop to wax poetic over.)

81. “$ream - Rigz (Da Cloth)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=piGwjW27ZRQ

(Not just one of Rochester’s finest, Rigz is quite simply one of hip-hop’s finest MC’s. Major props to Da Cloth’s Rigz and Mooch for dropping some tremendous work in 2019.)

82. “Voodoo” - Rome Streetz

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6g4tfLwlODo

(I don’t know if I have enjoyed any full Rome Streetz project as much as last year’s Street Farmacy, but he has incredible rap music scattered all across 2019. I’m currently enjoying his latest work, Joyeria, but his collaboration with Sadhugold remains my favorite Rome joint of the year...but he absolutely owned anything he spit on. A future NYC MVP right here.)

83. “Scotties” - Westside Gunn, Conway & Benny

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fn3S89vi_L0

(An off-kilt head nodder off WWCD showcases the unparalleled chemistry of real life brothers Gunn and Conway, and finishes strong with an impeccable verse from cousin Benny.)

84. “Tom Chambers” - Roc Marciano feat. Knowledge The Pirate

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MB6No8zPsU0

(Roc and Knowledge pass the mic back and forth and completely bar-out on this Marcielago banger...one of several slick tracks off the album that switch-up the beat halfway through the song.)

85. “Big Tipper” - Young Thug feat. Lil Keed

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CYO28vD5N2A

(Thugga’s So Much Fun was the first Young Thug project that I truly enjoyed. I think it all came together for Thugga on this album, and it’s chockfull of singles. Most folks would tout “Hot” as the early standout, but “Big Tipper” was the one that stood out to me as having the greatest smash potential.)

86. “100,000” - NYM Lo feat. Smoke DZA & 183rd

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tukJUizDj_g

(I would describe this sound as “underground bop”. NYM Lo and DZA show some great track chemistry here, the hook is a dope homage, and 183rd brought his sharpest production tools to the table with this one.)

87. “Lupos” - CRIMEAPPLE

https://crimeapple.bandcamp.com/track/lupos

(Not many MC’s can claim they had a stronger year than New Jersey’s CRIMEAPPLE. Multiple dope projects, some fantastic feature work, and a stack of quotables to his credit, “Lupos” is my top pick from his recent catalogue off the strength of bars like “I hear biting was the best form of flattery, now I’m glad to see some teeth marks in my strategy.”)

88. “Oaks” - BULLIES (Denmark Vessey, DrxQuinnx and Azarias)

https://fxckrxp.bandcamp.com/track/oaks

(A criminally underrated project that stands amongst this year’s finest, Denmark, Quinn & Azarias have fantastic musical chemistry that can be found all across the Bullies album. In another time and another place, Bullies would fit in well alongside Def Jux’s starting line-up.)

89. “Intro” - DaBaby

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YpR0gTQG8FI

(What a year for DaBaby. Entering the year with mainstream potential, and leaving 2019 as a flat-out star, all he really needed to do to extend his career trajectory at this point was prove that he also had substance as an artist. Well, say hello to the Intro to his KIRK album and consider all questions answered.)

90. “Protons Electrons Always Cause Explosions” - Al.Divino & Estee Nack

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bkpPdfNfneg

(One of the more interesting contributions by two of underground hip-hop’s most prolific and exciting MCs’. The duo of Divino and Nack don’t need to back down from any other duo because they are gifted at what they do: hitting fans over the heads with their consistently dope brand of raw rap.)

91. “Skimmin’” - Apollo Brown feat. Nolan The Ninja & Dopehead

https://apollobrown360.bandcamp.com/track/skimmin-feat-nolan-the-ninja-dopehead

(With Sincerely, Detroit, Apollo Brown pulled together one of the strongest compilations of his career. I could have saluted a handful of joints off of this album, but “Skimmin” was my personal favorite, thanks to a great subdued performance by Nolan The Ninja.)

BONUS TRACK: “Mister” - Young Nudy & Pi’erre Bourne feat. 21 Savage

https://soundcloud.com/youngnudy/mister-feat-21-savage?in=youngnudy/sets/slimerre-2

(Just a fun, bouncy collaboration from two of the game’s most unpredictable trap flows. Nudy is Pi’erre’s greatest collaborator - if you were thinking Playboi Carti, there’s no way you read down this far - and there is really something to be said for any rap artist that makes it hard for the listener to guess what they’ll say next. What Savage & Nudy may lack in clever wordplay they make up for in flow, charisma, and catchy hooks.)

***HIGH HONORS [songs that definitely belong in the top 91...so while they might not be the first item packed, consider these joints worthy of smuggling on board the plane for any trip]***:

https://therappundit.tumblr.com/post/189803686616/honorable-mention-the-best-rap-songs-of-2019