#i think im done now

[saltyloafy]

my thoughts on 'spoilers' and 'bad media' [ORV edition]

I think it was an Northernlion bit I got this from but. refusing to finish a piece of media just bc you got spoiled for the end of it is fr throwing all the hard work that the author put into building up to that ending straight in the garbage.

it's implying that a story is only worth value if it has a meaningful conclusion. but isn't the very act of reading the story and deriving your own meaning from it where the REAL joy comes from? you don't read a book or watch a series to reach the end, you read a book or watch a series to fall face first into a world that you never would have found anywhere else. you read/watch to fall in love with a world different but comparable to our own, and to watch these characters struggle and love and LIVE. even when a story doesn't stick the landing, that doesn't make all that came before it worthless. it still made you think, it maybe made you cry, and it certainly made you FEEL. that anger you feel when you finish a story and feel unsatisfied is proof that the story effected you, which means that it has just as much of a right to exist as any other, completed, "perfect" story

writing this made me think of a specific scene from the ORV novel that I'll quote here:

"'I don't think this story is terrible enough to get this score.' [...] 'In fact, I'm not sure why there is a score on the stories. Every story has value. It is a story that is interesting to some people and a salvation to others' [...] Everyone would think like me if they had endured a story like Ways of Survival." [omniscient reader's viewpoint, chapter 245]

dokja, who read over 1000 chapters of a novel that most people would consider repetitive and boring or even just bad, understands that ANY. STORY. no matter its apparent quality, MUST have value, because just like that "shitty" novel (ways of survival) was a salvation for him, a different piece of "shitty" media could be that salvation for someone else.

so that's why, even though I think the identities of the oldest dream and author were spoiled for me through browsing the ORV tag, I will absolutely still finish the novel. just knowing an aspect of the ending doesn't mean it will impact me less, because all of the specifics as to how we get there are still unknown. and hell, even if they weren't, I'd STILL finish the novel. bc you never know, I could reach the novel's conclusion and interpret it a completely different way than kimdokjaslefteyelash.tumblr.com (a made up name, if that person is out there.... good username). there is no one correct way to interpret a novel. and there is no one correct way to FINISH a novel either.

so that's why I think all media has a right to exist. your worst book, your worst drawing, your worst poem, could be the piece of media that pulls someone out of that dark place. you could be someone's Ways of Survival. your art could be reason that someone gets up in the morning, or the reason that YOU get up in the morning. the act of creating and the act of reading are not exclusive to those that do it "right." just the act of creating, or the act of reading, is enough.

surviving is enough.

[the-worms-in-your-bones]

how does one wait for things, i feel like worms are eating my brain

[ultramantr1gger]

actually im not done because THE MOST DISAPP[OINTING DOWNGRADE IN SONIC RACING GAME HISTORY IS SONICS CAR FROM ALL-STARS RACING TO TSR! THE MUTILATION OF THE SPEED STAR WILL NOT BE IGNORED!!!!! look

sonic & sega all-stars racing speed star, see how it is pointy, it has spikes just like the driver, truly a car fitting of sonic the hedgehog.... AND THEN THEY TOOK SANDPAPER TO MY MANS SHIT IN TRANSFORMED

BUT it still has those spikes on the back wheels and it has a cool upgraded design so i will not complain too much! its a cool car!!

NOW LOOK AT THIS BLASPHEMY THIS PATHETIC EXCUSE FOR A VEHICLE. THIS IS NOT THE SPEED STAR THIS IS SOMETHING I SHIT OUT THIS MORNING. they took away the cool mono eye headlights AND streamlined the back wheel spikes they are no longer sharp where they should be THEY TOOK SONIC THE HEDGEHOG POINTIEST GUY IN TOWN AND SMOOTHED OUT HIS CAR. WHAT TTHE FUCK

[sommerregenjuniluft]

if you saw me changing my profile theme 73372 times today, no u didnt

[i-dont-care-i-love-shiggy]

Yes..let me now just go back, continue bein sick, lay in bed like a lazy ass and do nothing cuz I have like no strength in me at all lol

Have a random also..

I can't draw, I can't do shit..I mean I can draw but my camera is fcked..I literally can go and go get a new phone but I think it's a waste of money to just change a phone cuz oh booho waa waa my camera is not working xdd

So I need to live with this shit..

So now it looks like...I do quick sketch in notebook, do a shit ass quality photo, redraw it all on my phone without any care in the world

It was all so quick it all took me like idk 10 mins???

Cuz I was also messing around with shit then trying some background but then nah and then just as u can see done the one colour background xdd

I hate doin digital art cuz..I just can't xD

I don't have that talent quality is also shit but still better than my camera and I have angy issues XD

I remember one time I was drawing smth took me two hours or smth cuz it was like a whole sketch with background, character was filled with colours and there was a glow like effect or smth idk..and then app crashed and I was left with blank page and just......oh boyyyy

Or yk the pain u have multiple canvas then u forget to change it u do the whole colours and shit and then u want to erase smth and u see it being removed with the sketch cuz u are an forgetful ass

Anyways in the end I looked at it said that I don't care cuz I really don't and just left it alone

Byeeeeee

[sunnetrolls]

essential additons: a second :D variant, mildly angy eyebrows, and both floaty hearts and spades

and now he can be exasperated but with ✨range✨

[cali]

sorry bro i lost focus and forgot where u begin and i end i hope nothing gay happened

[so-bitya]

[bartmobile]

this is literally the worst thing thats ever happened to me.

[ququoquaw]

yeah. ok

vampire yujin

[magentasnail]

drawing is hard so i tried to illustrate my struggles as video game bosses

[mawguai]

I want to go back and talk to you

[xerospaced]

The sad thing is you loosen up because you're getting comfortable

You get comfortable because you feel a closeness to that person

But the comfortability and looseness leads to their growing aversion

So as you lean in they pull back

And before you know it your heart is open and they've turned away from you

You're not quite sure how you got there

But you know it's on you

And it's hard to learn anything besides your joy leading to your loss.

[bksnie]

finally finished my p5 confidant postcard series!! i’ve been wanting to make this a proper series for close to a year now… and now im done!! im so excited to get these printed😭🩷

[bowser14456]

Fucking hell it's happening again.

[kokoasci]

so be a good person