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What if this travel show debunks whole Jikook ? Imagine Jimin saying 'it's been long since we slept together in same room' 'it's been long since I heard his snoring' or something? If they are a couple they'll be sleeping together right ? Why would Jimin say that ? Well, it's kinda debunked already because Jimin said 'I got used to your snoring because we spent time together few days before aka their travel show shoot'. He only got used to it now because he had to sleep with JK for a schedule ? Also they are acting like Jimin bumping JK in sleep is a funny moment as if it never happened before. RM asked a question like that too 'did you elbowed him this time' as the last time it happened was when they together for NYC schedule.
Anon, I have several questions in response to your rather silly message. Why does it bother you that people like me think that perhaps there's something more than just friendship between Jimin and Jungkook? Why does it bother you to acknowledge, understand, accept that Jimin and Jungkook have always been close, probably the closest in the group? Unless you're a tkkr, it doesn't make much sense, or is it simply homophobia? Though I suppose it's not that simple. Or is it the parasocial relationship you have with one of them? What's the reason?
You clearly aren't a true fan because a real fan wouldn't be desperate to confirm that two members of their favorite group aren't or weren't close. That they had problems, etc. But you know what's funniest about all this? Your argument falls apart with the simple fact that Jimin and Jungkook enlisted together and not only that, but they applied to a program that guarantees they'll be together throughout their military service. That doesn't prove they're a couple, but it does confirm how close they are and that their relationship is different. And I know that that fact, that reality, eats away at you and at everyone who thinks like you. And I also know that you're terrified of seeing or knowing what they filmed before their military service. People like you, cowards like you who hide behind a screen and the option of anonymity, are embarrassing because it's obvious how empty and sad your lives are and that the only thing that makes you feel... something is being a horrible person.
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Just like Jimin rubbing his own head and being shook instantly, we will have many instances where we will be reminded of them... see a photo or a video, hear their voices or a song and instantly be shook that we won't be seeing Jimin and Jungkook much in the next 18 months.
Not gonna lie, it is rough for me to watch Jimin’s live. The level of vulnerability is just too much for me to handle. His uncertainty, his dismay, his level of discomfort and self-consciousness... humiliation(?) over the loss of his beautiful hair, I can't watch it yet. His own disbelief at looking at his own shaved head...
He is facing something unknown and unfamiliar. He's learned a lot over the past year diving into the appearances he had to do alone for his ambassadorships for Dior and Tiffany. I say "alone" but he wasn't alone, he had his manager and staff by his side.
He won't have them when he enters the military base.
I already said in a previous post that Jimin is disappointed that he must, once again, stop doing what he loves and do this instead. He’s just hitting his stride and he has a lot he wants to accomplish. All that, in addition to his habit of self-criticism and his anxiety issues, it is HUGE that he will have someone there who knows this about him and can help him redirect and calm down. He will beat himself up, put himself down and not allow himself to give himself credit for doing as well as he thinks he should. Jungkook will remind him that he's amazing and help him overcome all that noise in his head.
And keep in mind that Jungkook is a level of introvert that requires some amount of "alone time". This "alone time" is when this type of introvert “recharges” or “decompresses” in order to settle or center one’s self. We all see how different he is during group lives versus when he is alone. His introvert thrives by himself. The situation of being with strangers for such long periods is CHALLENGING! Without his fidget spinner lip rings, and again, staff and manager beside him facing something new by himself, he'll be ADHDing all over the place. Knowing that Jungkook has someone he is comfortable with, who understands this about him, is HUGE. He has a habit of tuning out, zoning out and withdrawing and Jimin can help him stay put in the moment.
Besides genuinely missing performing and his fans, it is no wonder that his frame of mind during his last live with us was downhearted.
This is not a situation where one needs the other more... it is a situation where they will both mutually benefit from having the other present.
These guys are not like us. These two have lived the past ten years in a world that is NOTHING like ours. They've grown up and matured living a life that we can't possibly know and understand. Jungkook has several $1000 bottles of whiskey chilling in his refrigerator that he mixes with Cloop soda water and drinks like its kool-aid through a straw. THEY ARE NOT LIKE US.
They've succeeded beyond all expectations, even their own, and had to deal with all the extreme ups and downs of all of that... and now they must put everything they know aside to step into a completely different world with the eyes of the world focused on them. The pressure to not fuck up has to be enormous. Everything they do is amplified. Its not fair, really.
Physically, they will have advantages over their younger fellow soldiers in that strenuous work is not unfamiliar to them, they are accustomed to pushing themselves and they know what it takes to master something that requires a lot of physicality. They are strong and athletic.
And now, emotionally and mentally, they will be fine because they will have each other.
I will miss all of them and be so very excited to count down the days to Jin's discharge... but I will be the most bereft waiting for Jimin and Jungkook.
#jimin#jungkook#bts military service#i understand parasocial relationships now#except its not all that one-sided#they will miss us too
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i'm not telling anyone else what to do but I am personally forgiving Neil Gaiman for two of his sins and begrudgingly appreciating his commitment to the bit. He identified the funniest thing possible & then he did it. Was it to make people wail on the internet or because he likes it when people say he's good or because his friend Michael Sheen would not shut up or just genuinely sitting down and being like 'the story has evolved'? don't know don't care. The Angel is gay AND homophobic. Literally and then metaphorically. Good for him.
Right like I can’t forgive him for past comments but you really DO have to hand it to him. This world is filled with people who miss every shot they’re are presented with and this guy saw the opportunity to do one of the Most things in the world and knocked it out of the park
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sex is very funny. and i guess it is. i don’t i don’t remember it - martin scorsese
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I don’t like seeing irl beeduo on my tl ahahaha! it’s just really quite awkward because um like move on! sorry… no, I don’t think I am sorry actually eheheh! Maybe I do feel just a little guilty for thinking like this but bro…. reminiscing on a friendship that wasn’t even yours???? Sorry…. !
#this is my hot take sorry guys#may be a little controversial on this one#it’s just oh so so so parasocial and it reminds me of why I stopped watching them all together#makes me a bit embarrassed to still be here if I even count being that these characters are basically ocs now#when I even open a stream the first thing I do is close chat because I absolutly cannot…. it’s so embarrassing grah sorry#I’ve always had a strong opinion on parasocial relationships. ranboo is also very parasocial btw… I don’t think it’s very quite healthy ☺️☺️#I don’t know them and they don’t know me!! and that’s always been that for me#I understand that everyone has different ways of attachment and fixation so I’m sorry if this comes across as mean and attacking
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Me: *reading everyone’s takes on Twitter about the playlists Taylor released on Apple Music*
Me: You’re all so fucking stupid.
#I’m going back to bed now#imagine thinking every single on those playlists was written for those exact reasons#lads#she’s just making playlists here#she’s not rewriting the narrative about certain songs like yall are saying#this is just how she sees the songs now#ffs soon you’ll get better is on there and that’s not about Joe#these songs just relate to how she’s feeling#the same way we all make playlists#there’s songs from 1989 on there too#and red#you’re going to tell me those were written for Joe as well#if you actually look at the songs on the playlists#it’s p clear they’re about the specific stages of grief alone#not about those stages in their relationship#NOT TO MENTION#oh my god let that goooo#she’s not your bestie#she’s not blorbo#stop dissecting her last relationship#stop talking about it like that#I didn’t understand how bad parasocial relationships between fans and celebrities were until I got on Twitter a couple months ago#personal#tswift#fucking banger playlists tho
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temporarily back with one post. i am not ready to fully come back.
all the stuff you need to know about the future of this blog are in the tags.
#sunrise thoughts#after i thought a lot i made multiple choices#i am still going to post about dsmp#i am still going to post about cwilbur#dsmp has been my biggest special interest ever#and i cannot move on from cwilbur in a day or week#i obviously won't talk about the cc anymore duh and to me the cc and c are extremely disconnected from each other#i will do all my screaming and kicking and nasty emotional stuff in private#i got fucking blasted by the consequences of forming a parasocial relationship!! ouagh!!!!#if you're uncomfortable following me for my dsmp posting you can obviously unfollow me i completely understand<3#i will be tagging everything with my usual tags and you can filter them all you want if you decide to stay for other things! and uh—#i am so proud of shelby for speaking about something so terrifying and painful and i wish them the absolute best#i hope they will find a wonderful support system and get all the help they need and want and recover in a good safe environment.#(now back to blog related things haha!!)#i will try to be more multi fandom#you will still see from me a lot of minecraft smp silliness!!!#uhhh i'm talking qsmp life series and hermitcraft stuff!! (i'm gonna check season 10 very soon!)#as for non related minecraft things uhhh idk yet!!!#(btw don't expect me to reblog posts about the situation because the subject itself is so fucking uncomfortable for me)#(i am myself a victim of abuse [very different type but yeagh] + i am a mess atm for many different reasons)#(remember to always believe victims and such. [you probably heard the whole talk from people who are so much better at words than me#so i won't repeat things in a badly worded way]#anyway#(i am so sorry that this whole thing is messily written and in a bad order i am writing everything at like past 4 am)#(and i really really don't want to go back and rewrite tags in the right order)#(but yeah. erm.)#this is all you will hear from me for a while#take care everyone
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how it feels to chew five stickmen. stimulate your senses
#avm#read this if you dare#this doesnt even come CLOSE to explaining everything goin on inside my head#but i guess i can note some stuff#firstly blue is such a little hater because he REALLY isnt cool with people who have hurt his friends#its like they get all older brother about it so thats why they still hate mango's guts#two a lot of the color gang consider red as a younger brother/just a sibling#and three the romantic relationships; purple might've sorta developed a crush on green but he doesnt know that#so he thinks of them as a friend and they dont wanna mess things up so to the friendzone they go#next endie and red have a thing for each other but endie is so dense about it and they dont see each other enough to go anywhere#so they stay friends for now but the others all know endie has a massive crush on red#and lastly vic has given mango the tittle of hot guy i wont shut up about except he doesnt know them so its a bit weird and parasocial#you know the drill#and all of these. arent fully canon in my mind it depends#im not one to genuinely believe in ships in canon unless stated otherwise by the media#maybe purple is the exception cus i see him doing that thing where someone your age shows you a pixel of kindness and you're head over heels#animation vs Minecraft#i actually reccomend doing this even if its not understandable too#its fun to think about#OH and green has a complicated relationship with mango because he isnt sure he's good for purple yet he has to prove himself#but he wont tell him that#on the other hand mango respects him as purple's friend#im not tagging all of these#avm ships#i guess
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The homoerotic rivalry between the only two authors in the tag on AO3 (it's entirely one-sided)
#parasocial relationship but it's a kismesis#god bless SunSnake for carrying the Yuusha Yamemasu tag on their own before I got there#my ambition is to write more and better fics than them. They have four fics so far and I've got two. Unacceptable#They are a formidable and worthy rival with a fantastic writing style#i have NEVER written so much in such a short span of time as when inspired to surpass them#i understand now that it is only with a worthy rival that one can reach their fullest potential - Technoblade. Potato War 3#yuusha yamemasu#i'm quitting heroing#ao3 writers be like#ao3#writing#fanfiction
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#if you were to tell me at the beginning of the year that i would develop an actual parasocial relationship with a 26 year old korean man#like if you told me i would spend three straight months of my life reading real person fanfic of two kpop idols#i would have laughed in your face#i would have told you you were silly and that i would never have real life emotional attachment to fucking jungkook of bts#because thats Insane and i know better than to project Actual Fondness onto a person i have never met whose job is to make you love him#like bro i did not understand it#i did not get it like the whole idea of it skeeved me out i still don't get it and yet here i am#three years ago i was like 'that jimin is pretty and i like the one with the eyebrows'#and now i watch taekook videos on youtube and analyze new tik toks like i'm trying to solve a fucking murder#what am i going to do when they go do their military service#anyway this brought to you by having an existential crisis after watching that man dance shirtless as a 32 year old asexual queer#i am going to have to tell people that my book is inspired by fucking abo taekook fanfiction#like real people i will have to tell#never stop taking your meds kids or you'll develop an unhealthy obsession with a kpop boy#learn from my mistakes
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kim namjoon for world president when
#half of my entertainment analytics class FOR SOME FUCKING REASON was about NFTs#these 2 bros from the industry talking about how nfts were the future of entertainment or whatever the fuck#pretending like it was good for fans and had nothing to do with corporations wanting to profit even more#they had the audacity to say that FANS ACTUALLY WANT TO PROFIT OFF THEIR INTERESTS#i was like have you been a fan of a single thing even once in your life#fandom is so special to me and it's one of the sincerest purest forms of appreciating something#i feel real anger at billion dollar companies trying to monetize this space till only the rich can afford to like things#like every other fucking part of society#this isn't even considering the negative impact they have on the environment#this is purely from a moral standpoint about appreciating art#anyway. all this basically to say that when hybe announced the bts nft thing last year#i literally felt a pit in my stomach like something i had just started loving was being taken away from me already#reading that namjoon made a presentation to convince their executives not to move ahead with the plan.....you literally don't understand#i owe kim namjoon my life lmao#i hope he knows how much i appreciate him i'm so glad i picked the right group to stan#anyway. none of this matters i'm just feeling a lot of things rn and i want to say once again that i love bts#every single one of them they just mean so much to me#ik it's some form of a parasocial relationship or whatever but i don't care right now#i feel so grateful to him ik it's dumb but it is what it is#to delete later
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its like. i am crazy about this music yes. but its also like imagine if you started a band and it was fun and weird . and what if you and your band started your last album together with a song about how you were still in fact the same band and then you broke up. and then you eventually disappeared forever. and then you had a gaggle of weird lesbians holding on to what they thought you were when they were teens asking you when you would come back.
#i am too tired and tipsy to articulate this in a better way. but you understand.#my point is. listen to ryan ross im down on youtube right now before i exlplode something with my mind#my other point is that were so starving is a sick joke. and no one involved is seeing heaven. and also. the parasocial relationships#// patd
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Here's the thing. I appreciate all the social awareness that's going on, but y'all need to stop turning it into extreme individualism (not sure if it's the correct word, not my first language).
Let alone the fact that that you shouldn't burden your friends or people close to you or shitty stuff like that, because guess what? Friendships are exactly that, people who in honour of the love they hold to each other chose to share the burden with and for you. I want your burden and I want to be your burden. And if you drop your friends as soon as they say or do something not perfect you're a shitty friend.
But also all the stuff like "don't offer food because that person could be allergic or go against their religion and shit". If I knew I wouldn't, but given that I don't know them that well as to know those things I am going to offer. It's up to them to decline, I'm not holding a knife at their throat, I'm in a position of abundance and I'm offering to share it. It's up to you to set and respect your boundaries, if you can't do that I can't do it for you, I can just respect those you give me.
And people are gonna fuck up, we are humans, that's what we do, and you should allow people to fuck up in order to become a better person. And throw your fucking puritanism out of the window because if somebody said something controversial 10 years ago it's their fucking business.
#also stop giving the shits to religious people who wish you well through their beliefs#they come from a good place and wish you well#you can appreciate their will and still tell them to not pray for you or whatever#without going on a war against everything#I'm the first to shit on Christianity because history is fucked up and i think i would autocombust as soon as i step in a church#but i can still use my fuckung brain to understand when something is not being weaponized against me#and stop it with the parasocial relationship they're a fucked up thing that benefits nobody#ok I'm done with the rant#now go and love your neighbor#nobody is perfect#and oftentimes it just comes from a place of missing information#and if you can go to therapy#life update#rant
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to all of my mutuals that know jack shit about marvel and associated fancasts i desperately need you all to check out gratiela brancusi cause not only is she a great wanda fancast shes also just amazing like wtf
#i understand why yall develop parasocial relationships now !#jk jk but seriously shes so cool#one of the few ppl ive seen who deserves to be famous i truly hope she starts getting more roles#also hope wendy dies a horrible death and we get a recast with gratiela god bless
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ੈ✩‧₊˚ CRASH LANDING (LN4)
pairing: lando norris x f!reader
summary: lando accidentally hits a stranger with his car — the internet can’t stop referring to it as a meet cute. (un)fortunately for lando, mclaren agree.
genre: comedy, fluffy
authors note: a continuation of the ending to beached! you don’t need to have read that to understand this, however it will give some insight to the mclaren matchmaker jokes <3 also in light of that, this is set a few races in the future! *oscarsgf user refers to the character in beached!
*faceclaim: keeahwah on ig (but please imagine her as you see fit!)
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user you are so unserious sir
user SOOOO IS THAT THE GIRL HE HIT BC
user no clue but she’s CUTE
oscarpiastri @/fia look here
landonorris i will literally remind your girlfriend of your murder attempts when you first met
user it’s giving meet cute
user i’d read a fic on it
yourusername you literally drove off BEFORE I WAS EVEN IN THE CAR
landonorris IT WAS AN ACCIDENT I WAS DISTRACTED
user ASSUMING THIS IS HER???
user @/user CLICKING ON HER ACCOUNT IT DEFINITELY IS
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yourusername monaco recap🇲🇨 successfully didn’t get hit by too many cars!
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user AS IF LANDO HIT THE HOTTEST PERSON IVE EVER SEEN
user nah this is actually a full meet cute i’m sorry this is the shit you see in romcoms
bestfriend still can’t believe you didn’t take compensation but accepted a lunch date instead
yourusername can you blame me
user @/yourusername oh girl no one can you are so real for that
friend1 wait till everyone finds out you’re only there for another 4 days
user WHAT. i can’t have them separated already😶
user parasocial relationship with lando ended y/n is my new idol now
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yourusername final days in heaven. i’ll miss so much about this place
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user wait she doesn’t live in monaco?? she’s leaving??? just after i’ve gotten attached to her and lando???
bestfriend please come back to visit asap i cannot go too long without my y/n cuddles
landonorris seconded
user um lando sir,,, seconded the whole thing? cuddles included?
user this cannot be the end of the meet cute i refuse to
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landonorris safe to say i’ve had a pretty good break between races
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user a whole post dedicated to her with THAT caption? oh yep they’re whipped
user please tell me y’all are going to stay in contact?
user my heart is shattering already
mclaren 🧡
user MCLAREN PLEASE YOU’VE DONE IT ONCE BEFORE
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o: safe to say you’ve had a pretty interesting break before this race
l: hey let me remind you what happened for you over winter break!
o: okay but i didn’t literally hit my girlfriend with my car!
l: oh so you finally asked her out officially?
o: stop deflecting!
l: okay okay! yeah safe to say i had a nice time. always need a bit of a change in life!
o: so how are things going now?
l: (awkwardly) well you know how it’s… yeah
o: ah i get it. quite literally been there done that got the t shirt. but hey you did say all that when i got my big moment about mclaren—
l: no no no don’t give them any ideas! they’re listening!]
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mclaren the boys are back! don’t forget to check out the new interview on our channel where lando and oscar talk all things hopes for the second half of the season, workouts and… girls?
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user mclaren. mclaren look at me. you know what you have to do
mclaren 👀
user when oscar asked him about y/n… i wanted to cry he looked so sad are things over between them?
oscarsgf @/oscarpiastri you’re such a gossip
oscarpiastri you love me for it
oscarsgf @/oscarpiastri you know what i’m thinking?
oscarpiastri @/oscarsgf plotting?
oscarsgf @/oscarpiastri plotting!
user what on earth is going on…
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user you are so ! gorgeous !
user i can see why lando is obsessed
user speaking of… where is our favorite brit in the likes☹️
oscarsgf pretty girl!!!
yourusername oh?!? thank u cutie!!!
user ^ oh their plotting is in progress???
mclaren you’d look good in orange👀🧡
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user WHO IS THE GIRL
user IS THAT WHO I THINK IT IS
user PLEASE TELL ME THATS Y/N
user LOOK AT HER STORIES ITS DEFINITELY HER
user SOMEONE WHO IS THERE KEEP US UPDATED PLEASE
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yourusername i don’t know guys, do you think he’s cute?
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user OH MY GOD FINALLY
landonorris i will hit you with my car again
yourusername is that a challenge mr. norris?
landonorris @/yourusername oh you better run fast
yourusername @/landonorris well duh cause you don’t know how to do the speed limit
user i love them. i love them so much.
oscarsgf omg can we force the boys to do mclaren double dates
landonorris leave this comment section now
yourusername @/landonorris too late we’re already texting
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landonorris we are successful victims of mclarens matchmaking services
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user THEYVE DONE IT AGAINNN
user new fav couple fr
oscarpiastri oh how quickly you all forget me
user @/oscarpiastri WE COULD NEVER
user clearly i need to work for mclaren to get a cute gf
oscarpiastri @/oscarsgf is the second photo giving you flashbacks as well
oscarsgf they’re stealing our thing
yourusername thank you for posting the nice park date photo of me
landonorris well in all the others you’re mid cartwheel
mclaren glad to be of service🧡 anyone else? @/patriciooward how are you doing?
landonorris i’m gonna stop you right there
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a/n: WELL. hello friends. i said i wasn’t gonna post a one shot for a while, then this happened. i just hope its up to standard! i’m a little rusty in my writing considering everything!
in regards to new works, gonna be working on getting my wips out soon, and maybe popping some new smaus out at the same time as they’re easy and quick-ish for me to work on considering everything going on! do forgive me if i do some random family orientated stuff — pregnancy hormones are giving me baby fever for everything (is it still baby fever if you’re having a baby?)
let me know your thoughts in the comments/reblogs/asks — i’ve missed talking to you all sm! i have anon emojis available if people wanna chat too🤍
for the first time in a very long time,,, love, giselle xx
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i need so much time to process the information i have encountered today. i'm gonna be away for a bit.
#sunrise thoughts#i do not have the stability for this.#call me a coward and an imbecile who fell to parasocial relationship stuff i get it i get it#also people keep saying to not speculate but they're doing so so much speculating and i'm so confused and lost#and i'm aware i should watch shubble's stream and such#but i am not stable at all. i am not capable of watching something that will deeply fuck me up.#i'm not ready and i don't think i will be ready for a LONG LONG while.#if you follow this blog or/and you're my friend you know why.#i am so so sorry for shubble and what she went through is horrible and i'm so fucking sad for her#but i cannot process some of the information that's happening right now.#i am aware shubble has decided to not share names for her safety which i very very much understand.#and i know when i say this it's extremely selfish and so fucking bad but i am begging i am genuinely begging#that everyone who seems to have 'guessed' who the abuser is to be wrong#i know it's extremely bad to say#but i am entering denial mode of the grief processus right now.#and like i said. i will need SO much time to process things.#i've had such a massive special interest on this man's content since 2021. it is my strongest special interest ever.#a literal pillar of my life is crumbling down in a completely unexpected way#so please don't yell at me for not being able to watch this stream and such#i need time#plus the topic is very very sensitive to me for personal reasons too#anyway. that's all i will say. and i said way too much already.
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