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lovelaceisntdead · 1 month
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I don't think I will be able to sleep tonight if I do not figure out what to do for Mabel cover.
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barbieaiden · 9 months
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1.
Aiden: So, what happens if we want a divorce?
Sam: We haven't even gotten married yet.
Aiden: Hypothetically. Say you brought divorce papers home and I don't sign them. What then?
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Sam: I was five years old when my parents got divorced, I don't know.
Aiden: No, I'm not asking because your parents are divorced, I'm asking because you literally know everything.
Sam: You severely overestimate me.
Aiden: Would we, like, go to court?
Sam: Why are you thinking about this?
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Aiden: It might be useful to know. Not that I want to get divorced, but, you know, things happen. Well, actually, if you want a divorce I'll just give you all my money, we don't have to fight.
Sam: Wow, I could buy a whole loaf of bread with that money.
Aiden: Ouch.
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Sam: Really, Aiden, what money?
Aiden: Well... I don't know, you could have all my belongings and sell them.
Sam: That sounds like labour that won't be worth it in the end.
Aiden: Double ouch. You're always so mean to me.
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Sam: This is a very grim conversation to have before we've even gotten married.
Aiden: Would you rather have it after?
Sam: I'd rather not have it at all. We're not getting a divorce.
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Aiden: I don't think people go into marriage expecting a divorce, do they?
Sam: Apparently you do.
Aiden: Actually, you're right, this is a really depressing conversation. What if we just promise to force each other to stay in an unhappy marriage if something happens?
Sam: No?
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Aiden: What if we do it in a sexy way?
Sam: What does that even mean?
Aiden: Sam, baby, you can't expect me to know what I'm talking about.
Sam: Whatever, just... Will you stop talking about this if I say yes?
Aiden: Maybe.
Sam: Fine, then, we'll force each other to stay in an unhappy marriage. That sounds healthy.
Aiden: Exactly.
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Sam: Are you regretting this?
Aiden: Regretting what?
Sam: Getting engaged.
Aiden: No. No.
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Aiden: Of course not. You're literally perfect. Obviously I want to spend the rest of my life with you.
Sam: What's the issue then?
Aiden: Nothing.
Sam: Tell me, baby.
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Aiden: No, it's nothing, really, I just... you know, I just want to make sure you want it too.
Sam: I'm 25 years old, Aiden, I think I can make my own judgement on who I want to marry.
Aiden: I'm not questioning your judgement, I just...
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Sam: What, Aiden?
Aiden: Forget it. It's stupid anyway.
Sam: Yes, it is. I can't believe you're this insecure after three years.
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Aiden: It's pretty cold here.
Sam: I told you to bring a sweater.
Aiden: Well, I brought you instead.
Sam: Do I look like a sweater to you?
Aiden: You look like my super nice boyfriend who'll feel really sorry for me and wrap your arms around me and warm me up?
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Sam: You're so weird.
Aiden: It's your fault.
Sam: My fault?
Aiden: Yeah. I wasn't like this before I met you. If you hadn't made me fall in love with you so hard I still wouldn't be like this.
Sam: Okay. Of course. Yes. It's my fault.
14.
Aiden: I love you. So much.
Sam: I love you too, baby.
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"i mess up things and then i don't have the energy to fix them up" yes brain true sentence but no brain the appropriate response is NOT "therefore i should kill myself (and here's how)"
#tw suicide#i wish i was joking#i am just so so tired of keeping myself alive! can't someone else do it for a change? or better yet kill me??#said something to the emergency room psych#she queried it and i confirmed i had said precisely what i intended#she blinked and said 'i usually hear that from jaded forty year olds not twenty year olds'#i won't share what because it was a highly specific explanation of precisely how i might see myself suiciding or how/whether i thought i#could. she asked me and i answered. apparently she wasn't expecting that level of detail and confidence#is it funny to anyone else that i always struggle with confidence but i can confidently tell her specifics about suicide thoughts?#this is reminding me of the fifteen year old yesterday i was conversing with and he randomly started listing all the suicide methods he#could think of and i was internally like you missed a dozen i can think of. didn't say that obvs#i don't know i am. tired. of everything. and i had a long and good conversation with an older woman from church last night (mother of the#boy. i have confided in her before she's great)#she's hte only person irl who now knows about the second suicide attempt (tho she doesn't know it was the second) and she was encouraging m#to see the psych and escalate care#but all day ive been regretting telling the psych or bro or anyone honestly#it would be so much EASIER to have said nothing and gone through with my plan#i wouldn't trust myself not to rn if i had access#i mean. i know multiple ways in this room i could kill myself. but i won't#there's a couple of specific methods that are most of the thoughts usually so they're the specific ones i gotta watch out for more if that#makes sense#ooh gosh im rambling i should shut up xD#personal#puddleglum hours
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jestroer · 3 months
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Thinking about getting a drawing tablet with a screen......... Oghgghhhh.......
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steakout-05 · 6 months
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//ableism mention tw
ok just gonna say something really quick: i absolutely hate Abe's characterisation in the reboot of Clone High because it is nothing like how he acted in season 1 and it just. isn't funny. they've turned this good-intentioned but flawed loser kid who just wants to be like the original Abraham Lincoln but doesn't know how to, into a self-centered and arrogant asshole who literally almost said a horrible ableist slur twice in the first episode. like. i'm being serious, he almost says the R-slur twice in the same minute and i dunno about you but i really don't find it very funny when a) the only "joke" behind it is "oh look at how bad Abe is compared to the more progressive sensitivities of the new generation of clones, isn't he just terrible", and b) they felt the need to completely rewrite a pre-existing character that fans are already attached to to do something against his own morals for the sake of a shitty joke, and c) TOPHER WAS RIGHT THERE!!! isn't he supposed to be the asshole or am i missing something?? like...
i'm not saying you can't have "edgy" or "dark" comedy or whatever, but personally, i don't find it very funny when a character that actually means quite a lot to me and is one of my favourites is twisted and rewritten into an arrogant asshole in an apparent attempt to appeal to the people who hate Abe for his flaws in the original show. especially when he's rewritten to be someone who would say a slur that's literally been used against my fellow disabled peers, myself included. it just feels... wrong. it actually hurts a lot to see a character i once loved and found to be one of the funniest and most important characters in the show be turned into an arrogant dick, with barely any thought or meaning put into him. i don't like what they did with the rest of the OG cast as well (such as Joan making a complete 180 in her entire character, JFK's character assassination, the removal of Gandhi, Cleo barely being in it etc.), but to me, they did Abe the dirtiest in this season and i'm really disappointed that one of my favourite shows had to continue like this :(
#clone high#abe lincoln#rant#sorry this post is a little heavier than what i usually post on here but i just felt like i really needed to say this#abe from clone high is actually quite an important character to me and i'm still upset that he's been written so poorly in season 2#like he's a silly parody of a teen drama protag but honestly i think his struggles in the original series are actually really meaningful#like he's a little shy and doesn't exactly know how to express his ideas in the best way but wants to help and i just think that's so real#especially as someone who struggles with that myself#he has so much pressure to live up to the OG abraham lincoln and he really wants to be like him and tries but doesn't get it#i mean he even says something like that in episode 2 when joan and gandhi come to see him in his room and that's really relatable#so to see him so horribly misinterpreted as a selfish asshole really hurts me.#they've essentially done the thing where a fandom will tear apart the neurodivergent coded character#and write them off as selfish and arrogant and completely misinterpret everything about them#not saying that Abe is written to be neurodivergent but you get my point#it's kinda like that#he's relatable to me as an autistic person and a lot of his struggles are similar to what the autistic community experiences#also i'm sad that gandhi had to get removed because he's important to me too#he's actually one of my favourite ADHD reps on tv i've seen and he's just really funny#i know he was removed because people in India got offended and they probably don't wanna cause another incident like that again#but still it's such a shame he couldn't be included because he was a great character#also slightly unrelated but i think turning characters into a moral debate it stupid and often results in stuff like this happening#ableism mention#tw ableism mention
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mooifyourecows · 7 months
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could i ask another one for the wip ask?
15. royal pain in the ass ?
of course 🥲
that one is my daisuga fantasy/royal au in which Adventurer Daichi becomes the personal guard of Prince Koushi who just so happens to be half siren and horrible at controlling his power. RIP daichi's sanity
here's a little scene excerpt:
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pinkysberg · 10 months
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is anyone else keeping up w Jettro's rdr2 playthrough on youtube? i haven't enjoyed a rdr2 playthru quite this much before.
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t4twnyclaw · 4 months
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asc wind spoilers for the allegiances + sunbeam my scrunkley
sunbeam is already a tragic character as in she's given up so much of herself to please others, lightleap, blazefire, nightheart, her mother. shes a people-pleaser, she moves clans more-so for the sake of someone else-- if nightheart was willing to try and join shadowclan then she should try to join thunderclan- right?
i wonder if she had stayed in shadowclan if she would've had the opportunity to mentor birchpaw- she's always wanted to mentor apprentices. She *did* go on that journey to try and save birchpaws sibling, rowankit. She did want to help lightleap save her brother, she wanted to console and repair her relationship with lightleap and mentoring birchpaw could've allowed that.
the amount of growth and reflection and general relationship building and community building, if she had the chance to mentor birchpaw, would've been crazy.
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dummerjan · 9 months
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Top 10 female characters
tagged by @die-schwanenkoenigin thank you <3 (glad to know I am not (yet) blocked :D)
rules: name favorite female characters from 10 different fandoms, then tag 10 people This should not be this hard but my fandoms mainly revolve around men. Schande über mein Haupt. I also don't have many fandoms. Plenty of pieces of media I love but my interaction with them is more superficial and I associate frequent engangement with fanworks with being in a fandom, not just liking something a lot. Therefore I will just interpret it more broadly. 1. Villanelle from Killing Eve. I mean, look at her! She's magnificent and I am in love.
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2. Morgana from Merlin
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I never actually finished the series so this is largely based on Merthur fanfiction (and maybe also a bit on me finding Katie McGrath unreasonably attractive 'cause other than that Gwen is a strong contender).
3. Nadja from What We Do In The Shadows
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4. Paa from Bad Buddy
5. Wen Qing from The Untamed (though it is more of a toss up with Jiang Yanli)
6. I really, really can't decide between Rose, Donna and Martha from Doctor Who. They are all amazing.
7. As for Teen Wolf, I never really cared about the series beyond 3B and it was already bad before, so this is also primarily based on the potential they had and fanon, and I can't pick one definitive favourite either: Lydia, Erica, Cora.
8. Lindsay from Queer as Folk (US)
9. Alana from Hannibal
10. Orla from Derry Girls
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tagging @bisexualbard @majestictortoise @revengeisalwaysanoption @tessaaaaa @antique-forvalaka @saturnskyline @sitron-sunni @scarefox @booksnchocolate @theoryofarson and whoever else feels like it. Absolutely no pressure. :)
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july-19th-club · 1 year
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me age seven being sat down in front of the school’s district child psych lady and being given strange, simple spatial puzzles to solve and then long, complicated worksheets and hammering my way through them at the speed of light while having zero comprehension what their purpose was or why i was here: this is urgent! i have to get a good grade in Weird Puzzles, Or Else, something that is both normal to want and possible to achieve,
#kjalkjsdalkjasdl mrs button was a nice lady but not one adult in my childhood ever seemed to notice what to me now seems like#a pretty obvious case of the autisms#then again maybe they just didn't look as hard unless it was *really* obvious back then . it was like. what. 2000? a couple years later#everybody was talking about autism but not when i was six or seven then it was usually just when it was Very Visible#a couple years later my cousin who's more visibly on the spectrum than me got her diagnosis so young that she's pretty much always had it#which is...well i think it's just made her life difficult in a different way. people underestimate her or don't treat her like she's her age#but then she's always had the opportunity to get accommodations and people are sometimes more forgiving when she can't do something#whereas i got labeled 'kid that should be ahead of the game' from a pretty young age and then when i struggled adults either ignored it#or it was just a huge hassle to them and even i could see it exasperated them to have to work around me#but because mrs button (nice lady but what were you thinking) hadn't told them to treat me like a kid with a developmental disorder#they didn't do that in good OR bad ways . so i never got any accommodations with school stuff i struggled with which was a fair bit#i wasn't supposed to need extra testing time in a quiet room or tutoring with math or help organizing my abysmally scattered things#the only time i DID get that was in sixth grade when i was sort-of friends with this kid jonathan who was Very On The Spectrum#he wasn't really a talker unless it was about whatever he was reading which suited me fine so we just kind of existed in each other's space#and his TSS was this very smart and nice lady who had clearly clocked that Something Was Going On With Me and even though it wasn't like#her JOB she made a little bit of time for me. mostly with emotional stuff (i think i was under the impression she was a therapist?)#but if i had some problem with being unable to keep friends or being frozen out by the kids i wanted to be liked by (happened often)#she'd be able to just like. be there she'd make the time . wish i could remember her name
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witchwhaat · 3 months
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na co mi to było kurwa XDD
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oupycoded · 1 month
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AT THIS POINT I NEED TO MAKE A PRIVATE TWITTER TO VENT OR SOMETHING??? because i don't think journaling can fix this, gang
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meganechan05 · 11 months
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What if, for a silly episode, instead of a bodyswap episode, it's a personality swap episode?
Take it a step further and it's the team trying to take care of an extremely bubbly and emotional Rita.
And have no idea how to talk to them because they almost never hear them talk for more than ten seconds.
Do yall see the vision??
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softshuji · 5 months
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Sometimes it feels like my mom punishes me for things I can't control and it's actually kinda really upsetting.
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oceansquill · 2 months
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Me watching Q's stream:
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sparky-is-spiders · 9 months
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Hi! I’m here suffering from lack of good Archivist!Sasha content as well 😭 On that note, do you have any fic on that topic you would recommend? Or just good Sasha fics in general, (or Jonsasha, if that’s your cup of tea)? Thank you in advance 😊
Tragically, I think there is a general dearth of good Archivist!Sasha content (and just about none of it Jonsasha content, as far as I can tell (and not only is Jonsasha my cup of tea, but the ONLY thing standing between it and the #1 OTP spot (currently occupied by JE) is the fact that the Jonsasha that I desperately crave exists in my brain and nowhere else)). Admittedly, I haven't looked very far into her tag yet (I should rectify that at some point tbh) but I've dug around the Jonsasha tag when I first got into it, and I know at least one fic where Sasha drifts towards Beholding through an interest in office gossip.
In terms of Jonsasha Ao3 has:
This very good Sasha lives fic where Jon shows up to Georgie's with an unconscious Sasha and everyone involved is very confused.
These two fics are cute also. The former is by @/suttttton and is them getting together, the latter is established Jonsasha from @/dickwheelie.
Eyevatar Sasha might actually be thinner on the ground (outside of fix-its where she solves everything and her canon reckless curiosity is completely ignored). Ao3 has:
This fic, which is Jongerry with outsider PoV Sasha. Just barely has the implication that she might be shifting towards the Eye (via prying into the lives of her coworkers) but gets a mention through sheer force of Excellent Sasha Characterization. I read this and I feel like I'm reading a fic from a Sasha Understander.
There's also this fic, which looks very promising but which I haven't actually gotten the chance to read yet, so I can't speak to its quality.
Unfortunately I've only gotten into Sasha fairly recently (especially as compared to Jon, who my brain latched onto in a deathgrip from the start), so I haven't gone through her tag yet. A scroll through the Archivist!Sasha or Beholding Avatar!Sasha tags pulls up a lot of fix-it and J//mart, which isn't really what I'm looking for from the concept. I'm sure there's more out there, and if/when I find them I'll come back to this ask probably, but I lucked into Reverse Nighthawks (I was on a Jongerry kick).
But god every day I wish that I could write romance and/or longfic, because about a year ago I read a Jonmichael fic that, when discussing alternate universes (where Jon ended the world) it's revealed that he once did an apocalypse out of love for his Archivist, Sasha James. And it was one (1) single line, but it struck me so hard because god. A perfect concept I think. The potential dynamics of Archivist!Sasha/Assistant!Jon are enthralling to me. Jon destroying the world (or helping her destroy the world? Cute date night I think: bringing about armageddon with your eldritch monster partner) for Sasha... anyway mostly I mentioned that one because My God if I have to live with that tantalizing AU rotating in the background of my mind 24/7 so do the rest of you.
#also I'm very sorry how much this was About Jon#I really /do/ love sasha it's just that jon lives in my brain literally all the time#I am incapable of making a single solitary tma post that is not like 50% about him#not a Single One#every character and relationship and dynamic must somehow include jon to interest me. I struggle to care about jon-less anythings#it's a Problem#anyway I really really love sasha and want to write her one day but I need to finish my JE stuff first#the thing is the sasha in my brain is in zero other places#I extrapolated some stuff from canon to create a Blorbo but I don't think many other people interpret her the same way#I have some sasha and jonsasha stuff lying around somewhere but the gist is that I think sasha should become a morally questionable eyevata#who feeds the eye by invading people's privacy ''accidentally.'' based on her actions in the s1 finale she's probably a good person usually#but is reckless when protecting those she cares about and ESPECIALLY when curious and I want her to be a lil freaky with it#too tired to string my sasha thoughts together properly but they're mostly about how she should have a fun corruption arc#I want her to end the world in s3. I want her to have extremely difficult and complicated feelings about leaving the institute. about being#an eyevatar also. I think she didn't get enough screentime to say a lot for certain but she has enough interesting and complex things in he#brain that she could offer an interesting perspective if she survived or was the archivist. I also think she and martin should've switched#places. sorry martinlikers but she had more stuff going for her and also her perspective would be unique and interesting instead of yet#another 'the Eye is Bad.' that's actually the jonsasha thing I like the most. reading her statement and there's so many parallels between#her and jon. I think they'd compliment each other in a way literally no other jonship could manage#anyway sorting tags#jonsasha#asks#thank you for the ask btw!! I am. VERY. passionate about this subject. sasha has so much potential and stuff going for her but I get so#bitter because nobody is willing to engage with the stuff I find most interesting about her. probably another reason it took me as long as#it did to get Attached to her. I spent too much time with fanon sasha who's had the potential and complexity and points of interest#stripped away so that she can fix the world for jm to get together which is so much more boring than whatever the hell was wrong with her#(affectionate) (I like my characters a lil weird and fucked up. a lot weird and fucked up even)#ok veryvery tired need to stop rambling and think about sasha some more.#oh wait one more thought actually she's autistic and trans (projecting but also. like. tell me i'm wrong) thank you and goodnight
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