was it ever casual?
part 1
✮ pairing : billie eilish x reader
✮ cw: nothing too heavy, angst (kind of)
ᡣ𐭩 a/n: sorry for the wait!! my tumblr hasn’t been letting me post anything! but we’re here now and that’s all that matters. thank you sm for all the love on part one, it means everything to hear you like my writing 🥺🥺
the rain pitter patters on the window of billie’s car, it was pitch black with the exception of a few small streetlights in the empty parking lot.
it was damn near silent in the car, only the sounds of soft music playing were heard.
at least it was, until you got a notification.
you pick up your phone from the console, seeing a text from some random person you gave your number to at a party last week because he wouldn’t stop bugging you.
“hey, wanna meet up soon? still in la for the week.”
the text read.
billie’s eyes glance over at your phone, out of your peripheral vision you see her brows furrow at the message.
your eyes dart to billie, and you immediately put your phone down. not wanting her to see the message.
this just makes her brows furrow further, and her face contort a little.
“who’s that?” she asks, her voice stern. the hand that was once on your thigh moves back to her own, silently telling you she’s suspicious.
“don’t worry about it.” you say, glancing over at her and putting your phone under your thigh. you didn’t intent to mock her statement from the last meet up you had, but it just came out.
these past few times you’ve hung out with her, you’ve been noticing the abundance of notifications she gets while you’re together. you try to comfort yourself by saying it’s just her friends, or her family blowing up her phone. but you know, you know it’s other girls.
“im worried about it, who else is talking to my girl?” she states, the smallest hint of playfulness in her voice.
“my girl.” the nickname always seemed to find its way into her words while she was with you, but the once meaningful nickname that used to give you butterflies has lost meaning. how many other girls does she call “my girl” ?
you look away, you find yourself feeling annoyed at her words. she does the same shit to you, so why should she be mad about it?
“it’s not like we’re dating.” you say, glancing over at her only to see her brows raised at your comment. you were never this feisty with her, what did she do?
she moves her head just enough to look into your eyes, her brows still raised in surprise. “yeah, we aren’t. but i wanna know if my girl’s talking to someone else.” she says coldly.
your brows raise, matching her expression. you shake your head in disbelief, how could she be so dismissive?
“billie, you do the same fucking thing.” you say, your voice seems to have lost that soft, sweet, gentle tone it regularly has when you speak to billie.
“that’s- that’s different ma.” she says, feeling like she’d just been called out on her bullshit.
you shake your head once again, your hands fiddle with themselves in your lap.
“how is that any different? they blow up your phone constantly and when i ask you about it you brush me off.” you say softly, turning your head to meet her gaze.
she rolls her eyes at your response, starting to get agitated with you.
“because you’re my girl y/n. no one else’s.” she says, her eyes shooting darts into yours.
that doesn’t sound very causal, but to hell with causal at this point.
“i wish i could say that about you billie.” you say, shooting her a glare.
“oh my god- baby. we’ve been through this a million times. they don’t mean anything to me.” she says, her voice starting to get more cold by the second. how could she just lie to you like that?
you turn to face her, you can’t hold back anymore.
“bullshit.” you say coldly, her eyebrows raise in response.
“if i meant anything to you i wouldn’t be sitting in your car at 1 in the morning- let alone letting you eat me out in your car, or only meeting with you in secluded places, or the fact you won’t text me back for a week. it’s like im only here when your bored.” you ramble, finally letting your feelings spill out. it felt nice to call her out, even though you knew she wouldn’t tell the truth.
“baby- y/n- you know damn well it’s not like that.” she says, looking at you with furrowed brows.
in all honesty, billie didn’t know you felt like that. so what she’d talk to other girls, you were still the one she saw the most.
“so what is it then?” you ask sharply, furrowing your brows at her. you had to swallow the lump that was forming in your throat.
she looks away, trying to think of a way to possibly answer that question.
“we’re just- a casual thing y/n, don’t act like it’s more then that because it’s not.” she says coldly, her response shooting daggers into your heart.
a moment of silence falls between billie and you, neither of you knew what to say, or what was the right thing to do.
but you knew one thing, you couldn’t keep doing this with her. if that’s how she really feels, then you two aren’t on the same page.
it’s not causal when you look at her like she hung the damn stars every time she speaks.
“just- take me home billie.” you say, looking into her eyes. you were so tired of begging for her to choose you. it’s all that you’ve done is beg for her attention this whole- situationship. or whatever the fuck you wanted to call it.
she scoffed in disbelief, shaking her head. her hand went down to the shift and put the car into drive.
“god damn it- fine.”
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LOGAN SARGEANT X ALEX ALBON ♡ jpg.love
logan works as a videographer for shawn mendes,the falling in love part was just a bonus.
🫀 pairings ▪︎ alex albon x logan sargeant a.k.a sargebon and galex as teammates
🤍 face claims ▪︎ shawn mendes, logan sargeant, alex albon + george russell
this is my first tumblr smau fic, don't judge if it's bad 😭🙏
will do a part 2 / make this a series if people asked !!
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coming soon... 💐🎸✨️
👥️ shawnmendes
shawnmendes one of my fave shoots we've done brother 🫶✨️
↳ logansargeant always magic with us broski ✨️
user1 NEW SHAWN MUSIC?!?! 🙏🙏
oscarpiastri lookin fire brother 🔥
↳ logansargeant thanks bro 😜
aaliyahmendes ooh this aesthetic 🤌✨️
user2 KING OF POP IS BACK BABY
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👥️ logansargeant
SUMMER OF LOVE OUT MIDNIGHT
user1 SHAWN IS BACKKKK
logansargeant magic as always ✨️👏
↳ shawnmendes only because of ur wizardry with a camera 🙄
user2 OH IM IN LOVE WITH THIS ERAS AESTHETIC
alexalbon can't wait to hear this tunneee 🙌
alexalbon and georgerussell
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teammates for the 24 season 🔥
user1 GALEX ON TOP
georgerussell they ain't ready for our chaos
↳ lilymunihe if ur gonna make my job harder, i deserve a raise 😤
↳ alexalbon already in the works 💪
user2 since when was logan an f1 fan?!??!
shawnmendes @logansargeant meet alex
↳ alexalbon hello logan 🫡
↳ logansargeant um hi 👋
↳ user3 not shawn trying to set up videographer 😭😭
↳ shawnmendes drastic times called for drastic measures 😉
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user1 OMG LOGAN AND ALEX MEET UP?!?
lilymunihe so this is why u veoted all of my photographer recommendations
↳ alexalbon well yeah u caught me
↳ georgerussell SIMP
logansargeant thank u for allowing me to take part in this 🤍💚
↳ alexalbon always but this does mean ur on speed dail for future projects tho
user2 WOW shawnmendes really did it 😭😭
shawnmendes everyone say thank u shawn !!
↳ logansargeant yeah no (thanks ig)
↳ alexalbon thanks bestieeeeee 💚🤍
[INCOMING CALL FROM LOGAN SARGEANT 🦅]
AA: hey loges, wasn't expecting to hear back from this quick *alex chuckles*
LS: did u mean it when u said im gonna be on speed dial for future projects??
AA: um yeah I did, i can take it back if ur uncomfortable with the idea?? *alex inquired*
LS: no no im glad u like my work and everything, it's just ur the first to say that to me other then shawn so i just needed to clarify ig
AA: oh yeah yeah i meant it completely and once again thank you for everything
LS: ofc alex, it's helps when u got such a cute photogenic model too
AA: u think im cute??
LS: shit i-i sorry im gonna now bye
...
THE END !!
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OMG HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! I JUST DISCOVERED YOUR BLOG LIKE A FEW DAYS AGO BUT I LOVE YOUR ART SM OMG 😭😭😭💕💕💕
I LOVE YOUR UTY AU TOO!!! KEEP UP THE GREAT WORK & CONGRATS ON TURNING 15!! 🥳
BLOW OUT YOUR CANDLES & MAKE A WISH! >:3
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Gosh i said i wasn’t gonna post this week and here i am, making ANOTHER drawing for another tumblr ask („•v•„U )
little rant under the cut ;3
I might be overblowing it but i mean, i’ve been getting a lot of love for this au these last. two weeks i think? gosh time moves so slow…
I even got my very first commission! and i’ve gotten so many likes and heard so many people say they love little Clover up there and it really means the world! I’m so happy, even if it’s to a handful of people, to share something that im passionate about and has been keeping me sane for the past month or two, alongside it being undertale, one of my earliest special interests and biggest passions.
I’m planning on making a C!overtale comic, starting at some point in the next few months, if not by winter break. If i actually end up finishing it, and all its routes, you might even be able to expect an Overtale proper comic ;]
I’m just happy that people care about my art so much, and that i can enjoy my birthday knowing people care as much about Clover as i do.
Sincerely, Indigo :]
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