#i will make a silly little post when im done bc im rly happy w it 👍 wiped the prev owners faceup bc man it did NOT fit and it was a never+

[volfoss]

Doing different things w a faceup is resulting in me just being like yeah. The under eye bags r not dark enough I need to keep putting more grey on those bad boys

[stanharu]

beastars episode 24 thoughts!

this post got kinda long i have Many Thoughts on this one

Overall I had fun watching this ep but I could really tell it was rushed and there was so much that got cut, which makes me super sad. our fears about the finale having pacing issues due to all the added scenes & rearranging were confirmed & it rly sucks, but i'll elaborate more on that in a bit.

this week's ep covered the end of chapter 92, chapters 93-97, and included small bits of chapters 98 & 99.

so the ep starts with the ED and the latter part of the tunnel scene with ibuki and louis. i liked the visual effect they used to show that they were in the dark. louis' voice acting was also On Point. for the most part i think this scene was done pretty well but I can tell it's being rushed also. I really wish we got more buildup and narration instead of just jumping straight to ibuki telling louis to shoot him. the way it is in the anime feels less impactful imo.

also im sad we didnt get to see this in the anime

before i move on, i wanna talk a bit about louis and his relationship w/ the shishigumi and ibuki. i feel like in the anime quite a few of the lil moments that really endear you to the shishigumi and also ibuki were either cut or kinda glossed over, which is strange to me considering how much effort and care went into the ED. it's very emotional and good but i feel like maybe anime onlies are missing out only seeing the anime and the MV. but idk.

legosi and riz's fight was quite rushed as well. there's so much narration and dialogue missing from it and that really rubs me the wrong way. It wasn't all bad but compared to the manga I just don't think it's as good. I will say tho that I really liked the sequence w legosi and the moths. I thought it looked really nice and was pretty well done.

also i liked how the backgrounds had some anti-yahya graffiti, its a nice touch imo

it says "high quality horse meat"

I was happy to see legosi do the "tell me more" pose but I'm honestly disappointed that the anime took out the whole exposition about why legosi did it. like i feel like without that it's just legosi being weird when he has a reason for it!!! This is just one example of the anime taking out crucial narration during the fight.

I also think it's kinda weird how they changed how louis shows up at the fight. im not sure how i feel about riz just charging at him like that, but i liked how legosi kicked him before they ran lol.

i dont have much to say about pina's small scene but I did wanna say that during my first watch thru of the ep i was too distracted trying to read the graffiti behind him that i didn't notice him getting his phone out of the dumpster and calling the cops lmao

it says "devour yahya"

and now... here we are... the predation scene.

overall i thought it was pretty well done but, like the rest of the ep, i could tell it was also being kinda rushed. some important beats werent given enough time to really sink in, and there's a few bits of narration taken out of this part as well that i find disappointing :^(

tho i did like how the anime called back to this scene in s1 when legosi mentions utilizing his strength.

also this part where louis is remembering ibuki had me like😭

I also really liked seeing louis cry. I was crying too sjdflskjdflsjkdf. i thought that scene was really good, its prolly my favorite part of the ep tbh. getting to hear the whole predation scene voiced made me kind of a mess lol. i really liked louis' expressions throughout this whole ep too. studio orange used their whole louis expression budget on these last 2 eps lmao.

seeing legosi instantly get all beefed up was great too. he looked a little ridiculous but i kinda loved it lol. he's so huge and poofy. i love him.

big pomeranian

anyway, im also sad they took out louis' line about being reduced to a flashback character lol. instead he tells legosi "be a hero" again which... im not sure about that change. i liked the part with riz thinking back about tem tho. tho imo the way riz realizes he's in the wrong feels pretty sudden. again adding to how rushed the whole ep feels.

before i move on again i just wanna say legosi looks so cute. even all puffed up and covered in blood. how does he do that

baby boy baby. i wanna ruffle his cheek floofs.

i think one of the things im most disappointed about from this whole ep was how the fight got wrapped up. i really like how the cops show up and totally shift the tone in the manga jslkdfjskljdf. im also really sad we didnt get this interaction

tthe anime really took out most of the sillier moments from the finale, which makes me pretty sad to think about. i know the anime and manga have different tones but pls let the boys be silly sometimes!!

the next part where legosi and louis finally establish their friendship was really cute tho ❤️ even tho it was pretty different i enjoyed it a lot.

BABIESSSS 🥺😭❤️❤️

the wrap-up for this arc and this episode gave me whiplash sdjlfkjsdf. it literally speedruns thru legosi's predation conviction, being released, louis & haru's graduation, and legosi deciding he's going to drop out of school. that is SO MUCH AT ONCE. also i was holding out hope that legosi would have his new years call with haru after the fight instead but that didnt happen!! so it just got cut!!! kinda mad about that tbh. legosi and haru having a lil scene at the very end made up for it a lil bit but that's still one of haru's few moments in this arc that's just not included.

we didnt even get the part wher legosi learns he can't marry haru bc of his conviction.

ive been really hoping for a season 3 announcement once this season ended. with all the background allusions to yahya, the added plot point of someone stealing elephant tusks, and sebun and melon's lil cameos in this season, it seemed to me that studio orange was kinda teasing a 3rd season. but now, with the dismissive way the anime ended, and paru's note from earlier today, im less sure about the possibility of a 3rd season. i'd still like to see the rest of the series animated, but i guess we'll just have to wait and see if more anime is announced in the future.

if we do get another season in the future i just hope that we swing back around and actually address the things that got completely glossed over in the last couple minutes of this episode instead of charging forward w/o touching them again.

i really think the finale for this arc should've been two episodes at least. not including the tunnel scene. i think then things wouldn't have felt so rushed. people have been saying this season really would have benefitted from at least 1 extra episode and i cant help but agree. some have even suggested a whole 24 episodes just for this arc, but i think that this arc couldve been done properly with 12 or 13 episodes if there was some better prioritizing on what to include and what to cut.

like i dont mind not getting the parts about legosi's family if they can be addressed somehow in a future season (or if theres no more future anime seasons thats a plot thread that doesnt have to be worried about). i could have lived w/o seeing sheila & peach's chapter animated if it meant more time for the focus of this arc. and was the kangaroo red herring really necessary?

adaptation wise, i dont think this season was as good as the first. i still think it did fairly well, but i know that it could have been much better. ive been excited to watch this season with my friends once the dub releases, but now im wondering if i should just tell them to read the manga instead. sighs idk. perhaps it comes thru better as a bingewatch, or perhaps im being a bit too harsh. idk. at some point ill do a rewatch and see how i feel about the season as a whole, but that wont be for a while.

if you've read this far, thanks for reading my ramblings!! it's been fun to make these posts every week and im gonna miss getting new episodes every week.

[ursoself-satisfying]

do you think eugene is maybe scared of long boat trips? i was thinking about it the other day, maybe he plans on going on holiday with his s/o and the only way to go abroad would be on a boat right? but maybe he would get a little (a lot? im not an expert on this) ptsd while being on the boat and his s/o supporting him but not fully understanding because lets be honest, no-one apart from the soldiers fully understand this sort of stuff, and maybe there's another veteran on-board who helps him?

Before we get into it I wanna say I totally agree n that unless u actually have experienced that ur rly not gonna understand what the person is going thru n this applies to all kinds of trauma but just bc u dont understand doesnt mean u cant do ur best to or that u cant still love support n help them handle it n it doesnt mean they're not gr8tful for ur involvement even if u dont understand,, writing for post war eugene is always tricky cus I dont wanna assume ik how any of this goes or the extent of what it entails i havent done this I've barely done any research its heartbreaking tho n unfair n I just wanted to say all that before u get into this cus it's a combo of both asks but also more of a touchy subject than I feel like I've addressed here so that's just a heads up but enjoy!!

Omg eugene my bby

I def think hes still afraid of boats big time,, so when the two of u decide to go abroad for ur honeymoon it's a big decision for u two to make one w lots of beforehand discussions n considering all ur other options but in the end the push of ur families n the pull of the convenience of a boat eases u both into the decision, even tho nothing about it u kno is going to be easy,, Eugene is p nervous cus I mean the nightmares have lessened n u both have been learning how to handle his flashbacks n the like but u had never tried anything like this yet so on one hand it could be a good time to test the waters but on the other hand neither of u have any idea how itll actually go

Even just in the car on the way there he starts to get shakey n then on the dock it gets a bit worse but ur hands r on him somehow the whole time either locked in his or on his leg or arm or stuck in his pocket n that comforts him, ur touch anchors him n keeps him from drifting to worse thoughts it keeps him thinking about u instead,, its till hard tho just thinking about it being back on that boat forcing himself to remember hes going to France n it's not occupied n hes not alone n hes going to get to see the sights w his wonderful wife n thoroughly enjoy those bright French mornings n that it's going to be quiet, no more bombs or raids or alarms just u n him under thin sheets hot n sticky n just together n safe

But first,, the boat

On the boat? It was rough,, every bit of turbulence n every odd sway made him anxious n as much as u tried to entice him to enjoy more of the boats activities like a cabaret show or even just playing some chess out on the deck n tho u could get him out a few times n he did enjoy himself,, he spent most of his time in the cabin trying to ignore the fact he was on a boat at all,, the rest of his time not being coaxed out by u he spent napping in a deck chair w u often lounging beside him n watching over his sleep carefully, also making sure he didnt burn n lathering her exposed skin in sunblock as much as u could as he slept

U two kept busy in the cabin tho I mean it was ur honeymoon after all ;;;))) so he ravaged u as often as he could bc not only were u a comfort but also a distraction,, u did other things as well tho like laying n listening to ur favourite radio shows or playing guitar to him or sketching him or dancing together or once even doing a silly little fashion show where he def tripped after putting on ur heels

He did have a few attacks tho but u had prepared as best u could n even if some of ur cabin took a beating in an outburst u had always managed to talk him down n he spent a lot of time in ur arms

His breakdowns btw would come suddenly when something would trigger him like a sudden movement or a splash against ur window n then he would get angry n scared n become protective of u until his aggression bubbled over into hot tears drowned out by ur soft words of confirmation trying to tell him u were on a modest cruise liner n u were going to Europe n that the guns n the bombs n the tropical climate were all far away n u would pull him into a cold shower w u n he would often (fuck u hard first then) just cling to u n cry until he could calm down n fall asleep n if he stirred in his sleep u would repeat the process until he could sleep soundly

He was gr8tful to finally be off the boat n back on land tho n once in Paris the two of u could rly enjoy ur honeymoon beginning w breaking in ur hotel bed ;;;)))

But then the two of u got to see the Eiffel Tower n the Seine n the Louvre n Notre dame n it was all so amazing!!!! U spent half the time w ur head in ur sketchbook n he spent all his time taking photos of u w ur head in ur sketchbook lol

The photos were brilliant n sweet n excessive n there were def a few of u bare n freshly fucked (pardon my french) w the Parisian skyline out the window behind u, the morning like shining thru ur messy hair like a halo,, but there were also many of him from the perspective of u kneeling over him n many more of both of u playfully holding up the tower or picnicking in front of a cathedral w u plucking at ur guitar or him w a bottle of wine at his lips

It was all v picturesque n romantic n perfect n u thought he deserved nothing less n he thought the same for u ::""))

U spent about 4 weeks there together n he had throughly used his time to fuck u in every way possible n use every toy u brought with but then it was suddenly time to go home n u were concerned about eugene being back on the boat but he seemed less nervous when u got on n he admitted to feeling a lot better after the first trip n this time he actually went out w u n u played board games w other passengers n danced in the halls n sang w the cabaret n he still sunbathed n napped n made love to u n wrecked ur cabin n u still listened to all ur radio shows n drew n sang but ur lives felt more full somehow after this experience

Oh n u def showed off everything u had bought is Paris n as much as he loved that silk dress on u he loved peeling it off u even more ;;;)))

He rly did feel better when u were finally home to ur little cottage for the first time together as a globetrotting married couple ::"")) he felt better that he hadnt handled it nearly as bad as hed expected n urs n his trip abroad left u feeling loved n cultured n more experienced in life plus u both had taken a huge chance n now u were better for it n felt more capable n confident that he was getting better n it was an affirmation that u would take care of him n that u would always be there for him, just as u had said in ur vows ::""))

He was happy to consummate ur new marriage in ur own bed for the first time tho lol n on top of that gr8 feeling it was just gr8 that he felt less held back w u there w him especially after the boat experience

So yeah a quick note I rly do think he would be terrified of ever stepping foot on a boat again n would refuse it n be vvv adamant about not doing it again for a vvv long time but I think he could be worn down n would EVENTUALLY be ok w it but maybe not this fast n tho I dont feel like I go into much detail here he def has a hard time on the boat as well like hes just agitated the whole time n probably was prescribed some medication for it if just some motion or sea sickness meds n maybe anxiety but i would say it prolly makes him drowsy so hes kinda out of it which keeps him calm but doesnt stop certain flashbacks n maybe he lashes out n hurts someone once in a while cus it's incredibly traumatic returning to that environment but anyway yeah he would be v fidgety n not like it but in this scenario hes willing to take a chance given how well hes been recovering n how much he trusts u n how much u have helped him n the option had pull so that's why but rly I dont think irl he would have gone back on a boat anywhere near that soon but this is romantic fiction so ::))

Also I have a v specific image of who eugene is w if u cant tell lol so I'm sorry for that specificity but I'm so whipped for him n his gal I lov sm I hope u enjoy n guys I'm so motivated to finally write out the storyline I have for him I'm gonna finally get out his fic ok I promise

[gukiee]

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Lmaooo OH boy okay have fun w/ this

@bluekyun SO I’m sure u already know my feelings 4 u since im emo almost every day of my life BUT i’m gonna tell u again anyways. I’m kind of surprised by how quickly we became really close and how much we have in common i swear to god we’re the same person it’s almost weird @ this point. The fact that you’ll watch all my conspiracy/murder videos n talk to me about it like wow queens of friendship can u believe. You’re the one person I talk to from the second I get up to the second I go to sleep and honestly idk what I would do without you. You’re always able to calm me down when im having a bad day and are one of the only people who can still manage to make me smile n laugh when I’m at my lowest. every time i talk to u my heart quickens a little bit because you’re such an amazing person and will ALWAYS put others before yourself even if you’re drowning in your own stuff. You’re one of the most selfless, thoughtful people I’ve ever met in my life and I’m so thankful to have you. ALSO your writing is phenomenal? you put SO much time and effort into everything you do and are so hard on yourself it’s actually really inspiring to me and pushes me to always work harder and do my best. If I could put even HALF of the time, effort, n heart that you do into things I’d get so much accomplished. Thank you for being such an amazing bestfriend I truly love you with every single inch of my heart 

@hyungsk marissa...... my angel..... my lov... honestly together we’re the sour patch kids bc ur honestly my bitter queen n if i ever need to rant i know i never need to filter myself around you because ur just as bitter as I am and will always listen n be understanding (you’ll also make me feel better when ppl r doing me dirty smh). You’re SO easy to talk to and make me so happy. Honestly like? it was meant to be considering we were reach other’s valentines before we were even friends like? queens of friendship? wow. Even tho u think ur bad at expressing emotions you’re always so so so good to me and are really a lot more kind hearted than I think you even know. I lov u lots!!!!

@floral-hobi DANI okay wow u r? the sweetest honestly wow I love being friends with the sun. You always tag me in some good guk and yoonseok posts and every time I see you in my notifs I get really excited. I’m really so thankful that we actually talk now because I feel like you’re someone I can go to if I need a pick me up or if I’m having a long day because you’re honestly? So refreshing. You make me feel SO good about myself n give me so much happiness. I love reading ur tags when u reblog stuff from me u honestly make me laugh so hard (tbh we’re talking as i’m writing this and i’m laughing as we speak). I lov u so much i’m really thankful we’re friends!!! Thank you for always listening to me and cheering me up after long work days! 

@1una CARLY MY ANGEL honestly ur so fun to talk to (even tho we don’t talk much because school/work plus timezones ugh) BUT whenever I talk to you I always laugh so hard. You’re another person who is SO understanding n ur also a lil petty like me when it comes to things n I feel like I can talk to you about literally anything n you’ll always listen (like when we talk abt gg’s and shitty record labels lmaooo). You always tag me in SUCH sweet posts n r the only person who tags me in dog pictures/videos n I’ll forever be grateful for that. You’re SO friggin beautiful it’s unreal like i love being friends with a queen??? i lov u! 

@taekookiesandcream kia you are !!!!! so great honestly, I know I don’t tell u enough and I’ve been really busy so I’m sorry for that but you’re honestly such a good friend? you hype me up SO much my heart is always so warm talking to u. your snapchats always make me laugh SO hard n the memes we send each other are sgfhjkdgf too much. The fact that you message me to check up on me when I’ve been a little MIA is so thoughtful and I really appreciate it more than you know. You’re so kind hearted n gentle n silly I love you so much. Thank you for putting up with me even when I’ve been super busy and haven’t had the chance to speak to you as much! I promise I think of you daily and love u a lot!!!

@jungkookio okay ik it said 5 but i needed to add u in here because ur so gr8 omg dghfjk I remember I used to look at ur blog from afar and always think abt how cool u were and how I wanted to be ur friend. Now that we snapchat n speak more regularly i really honestly wouldn’t trade you for the world! Even if we don’t talk much I honestly appreciate you so much. You’re SO pretty omg dshgfj every time u tag me in a selfie game I honestly die, you’re also so sweet and kind like you rly have a heart of gold and I’m so thankful to have u in my life

SO ya anyways I’m sorry I haven’t been around as much BUT I love u guys all so much wow okay 

[astralgaytower-archive]

tracer (do u still ship widowtracer bc that too)

tracer

how i feel about this character: my gay daughter i love her. i would die for her. i will protect her forever. im so happy shes happy.

all the people i ship romantically with this character: emily, widowmaker, mei, zarya...? as long as its gay(tm).

my non-romantic otp for this character: wiiiiiiiiinston!! their friendship is so cute and previous and i love it. winstons a good egg. im glad they are friends and can protect the world together.

my unpopular opinion about this character: i love all her silly skins (altho i do think she has too many lmao).

one thing i wish would happen/had happened with this character in canon: take emily on a romantic date on a swan boat.

my otp: emilena

my crossover ship: she had a supernatural fling w emily kaldwin and cirilla of cintra bc they are all gay manipulators of space and time.

a headcanon fact: she knows the crocs are ugly but theres nothing she can do... so she puts up with it.

widowtracer

when I started shipping it if I did: after the cinematic trailer bc i am boring and predictable. i mean i am also gay?? yeah.

my thoughts: i do like the enemies-to-lovers trope and thats what i envision it as. theres some meta abt lena knowing amelie pre-widowmaker. theyre cool ideas but idk if theyre canon, prolly not.

what makes me happy about them: widow getting love and support and not having to work for talon anymore?? this isnt rly a ship thing its a general thing.

what makes me sad about them: widows entire backstory rip. also tracer and her phasing in and out of time post-slipstream.

things done in fanfic that annoys me: god i havent read widowtracer fic in forever... like i honestly dont know. i guess fanfic that shunts emily off to the side for the sake of drama or angst?

things I look for in fanfic: happy endings, no angst plz.

who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other: widow could date sombra, tracer could date mei or zarya. emilena is canon tho and that is otp rn.

my happily ever after for them: no more talon brainwashing?? lena in a poly relationship with emily and amelie, maybe.

who is the big spoon/little spoon: i dont think theyd spoon that much.

what is their favorite non-sexual activity: they watch bad comedies and widow tells tracer abt her pet spiders