#i wish i got more drunk today but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[baby-prophet]

I got three hugs tonight including from that girl I developed a crush on a couple of weeks ago LOL

[heli0s-writes]

(Inspired by this post: https://kate-victoriax.tumblr.com/post/648528536884445184/like-imagine-being-slightly-wine-drunk-and-having) I wish you would write a fic where Bucky or Steve take their girl to the fields and, you know, ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Thank you for the prompt! It got... angsty :’) 1.1k words of Endgame Steve feelings and vague smut. The title is from this poem by Paul Éluard 🍊

brooklyn after dark masterlist

“all the solar joys”*

Springtime overtakes the broken world in a burst of unwelcome colors.

Days stretch long as nights wane. Withered pasture shoots up boldly and fields of buttery wildflowers reappear like magic overnight, drawing out diligent honeybees. Birds return to trees. There’s music in the fields.

Steve takes a small comfort in being out of the cold—out of the frosted and stagnant earth. He loses the fleece under layers and the heavy grey coat. He cuts his hair and shaves his beard, and stares in the mirror a long, long time.

He looks 24 again, almost hilariously. Still blue and still blonde, but the hollows of his cheeks and jaw are finally exposed, their newly shorn tinged pink horizon glaring in the mirror as if saying, hi, remember us?

Barren and bared, his wretched face reflects how he feels all over again. Lost. Useless. Almost vengeful.

“I remember you,” your voice calls from the doorway. Steve blinks away from himself, sending his gaze past his ear, finding you leaned against the frame to get a better look. “Boy wonder, finally chipped out of the ice.”

“Feels weird,” he returns bitterly.

Boy wonders are 24 and green. Sparkly-eyed, alert, thrust into an incandescent, sleepless city with awe in their chest and excitement in their veins. An enormous new world beyond their imagination suddenly at their fingertips.

He was never so much awed as petrified. Never so much excited as aching, angry, confused. Fumbling for months to find his footing—the carpet yanked out time and time again beneath his clumsy feet.

You know.

You snake towards him carefully, like you might spook him if you moved too fast. It’s welcome today, and he leans into your reach. You touch his arm, his shoulder, the stitching of his undershirt lying flat on broad muscle. A knock on his chest that thumps solid and firm, not yet hollow.

“Shed your layers, huh? Need some sunlight like me?”

He rests his stinging face in your hand, pressing sad lips to your palm.

“Need a lot more than sunlight.”

-

There’s sweetness in the air like an aftertaste of brown sugar.

Steve flattens the quilt with his long limbs, placing rocks on each corner to keep it weighted against the fluttering wind. The basket by his foot gets nudged to one side, takes up the responsibility of having two jobs for the time being.

You begin retrieving the items from inside tattered brown wicker. Soon enough, containers of fruit and bread are spread out around him. Jammy toast, yogurt parfaits, diligently sliced variety cheeses and even a bit of chocolate.

You’d done everything. Asked him to shower and wash off those small bits of hair, soak a little of his hurt away, if he’s able. He swore it wasn’t long, but then he emerged damp at the fingertips and collar and everything was packed up by the door, waiting. He made himself useful by nudging the basket out of your hands—the least he could do.

Steve watches your strong fingers pluck from the pile a vibrant clementine, cupping it gently like growing a flame. You press your thumb to the rind, peeling until it curls into your palm, exposing ripe fruit. Frayed chalky veins are swept from its thin membrane, bright pulp encased and awaiting.

One section is split and slipped into your mouth first, pink tongue darting out to lick the juice threatening to spill.

“Open up, Steve,” you say next. Then, you hold the rest out to him with a grin, tenderness in your eyes cleaving him to pieces.

You look so pretty smiling at him. Wind dances over your cheek and tickles your lashes, your sweet brow. Out of all the things he thinks doesn’t deserve, he might deserve you the least.

“Don’t,” you scold sharply when he habitually finds the tree line, verdant flecks of it bouncing off his quickly misting irises, red veins beginning to crawl from their corners. “Don’t start that.”

You read him like a book. Known him long enough now to hear between the beats of his timeworn heart.

“It’s spring now, Steve. The world doesn’t stop spinning for grief, so you keep spinning, too.”

He’ll always be radiant, you say. Every little thing about him—the tips of his hair, his lashes, his nose. Despite the sorrow, the anguish, the colors all faded, he still glows. Even when he forgets it. Even when he tries to smother himself.

He makes a weak noise of dissent, brow furrowing, but you yank him forward. Steve braces himself above you and stares— almost angry, then afraid. He’s nearly extinguished now. So tired and pained he can hardly hold it in. His brave, smooth, wonder boy face splintering apart.

He breaks, then. Under observant shadows of leaves and birdsong, he shakes quietly in your arms. Heavy droplets rain on your collar and chest, pattering your shirt until he leaves a small dark puddle.

“Watering me?” You tease, peering at his sodden face in earnest, eyes thoughtful and searching. “Need a little more than sunlight, huh?” He does. “Want to go back in?” He doesn’t.

He doesn’t care about being in the open—not like there’s anyone around to see—hah. He's outside and witnessed by nothing but the changing season. What a vicious truth.

His heart is sore and iron-wrought, but his hands work. He says no, stay there. He breathes slow. He pulls and tugs until you’re out in the open, too, moving how he knows best. Steve roams the curves of your chest, your waist, the apex of your thighs and the tender skin on the back of your knees. His half-lidded eyes are still damp and slightly swelling, but he searches blindly, pressing them on the cool balm of your exposed legs, noses his way to the core.

Neither of you speak during this. It’s a desperation that can’t be dissected, can’t be explored. Only felt and finished and savored until it hurts too much again. He reaches in you and pulls out velvet moans, breathy whimpers, the slightest trembling cry. You grasp the quilt, pressing until the fabric is diving itself into dirt.

He drinks like a man parched, like a dormant plant revived with each thrust of his tongue into morning dew. The salt on his naked cheeks melts into your taste, birthing new life in his throat. You arch and gasp, and Steve only buries his face again and again until he’s approaching frenzy, until his neck hurts so much he can’t think about anything else.

Afterwards, you urge him up, panting heavily, a blur of tears pooling in your eyes. You tuck yourself into him, murmuring, “Did I fix it?” And laughing despite being on the verge of falling to pieces yourself. You wipe your face, fist his shirt and hair—smiling routinely, spinning on.

Steve nods. Stays quiet. Holds your tight smile even tighter.

On his lips is the caress of bright citrus and a something that’s entirely your own. Blissful, like light and fire and the most earnest love.

Collapsed beneath an orange afternoon, Steve kisses you again and forgets the broken world, your taste a warm sunset come home.

[metaphorical-love-for-a-car]

Heaven of a Human Spirit-- Aziraphale x Reader

Request; “Can I request an Aziraphale x fem!reader where he's drinking with Crowley in the bookshop and when she enters he just confesses his love to her in a very poetic and theatrical way (Aziraphale style) and then kisses her out of blue. Like, I image her completely shocked but pleased and Crowley surprised while cheering for his angel friend.” (anon)

Warnings; bit of swearing, specified fem! reader

Word Count; 1.4k

Notes; reposting this old fic cause it got taken down for “violating the terms of use” or some shit like that and has been under appeal for the last few months... highly doubt they’ll release it any time soon so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

You had first met Aziraphale when a friend of yours had dragged you to his bookshop. Your friend kept telling you about how weird the little shop was and how all the Yelp reviews were terrible. Hardly anyone seemed to be able to purchase a book there. So, as soon as your friend noticed that the shop was actually open for once, they were forcing you to go in with them.

At first, nothing seemed out of the ordinary. It was a cute little shop with dozens of books scattered about. There was a bit of an odd smell, but you shrugged it off. It was a used book store. Old books can sometimes bring strange smells. The two of you browsed the shelves, and your friend read some of the Yelp reviews to you. You both found a book that interested you. Deciding to take it home, you two began to hunt for a staff member. According to Yelp, workers at A. Z. Fell's bookshop are reclusive creatures that are often incredibly hard to locate.

When your friend finally spotted Aziraphale, they made a beeline for him. It was apparent he didn't want to sell the book to them, constantly haggling for a higher price. Your friend finally got frustrated and put the book away. They made a comment about how they didn't have time to stand around and argue about book prices. They wished you good luck on purchasing a book then left.

You had a different strategy than your friend. Instead of just going up and asking to buy the book, you'd ask his opinion on it. He seemed a bit surprised that you just wanted to talk about the book but was eager to tell you his love for it. You ended up spending hours in the little shop, just talking to Aziraphale about books. He even confessed to you that he hated selling the books because he loved them all too much. You joked about how he should have opened a library instead of a shop, which made him look quite offended.

That evening, you left with a book. Aziraphale had loaned you one of his favorites, with a piece of paper stuck inside that had his number scrawled on it. You made a point to go back and visit him whenever you had the opportunity. The two of you were constantly trading books, and it felt like a sort of personal book club with just the two of you. He enjoyed your company, always looking forward to your next visit.

Armageddon was just beginning to peek over the horizon. Both Crowley and Aziraphale knew that it would arrive in the blink of an eye. Neither of them wanted it to happen, but what could they do?

The answer, of course, is get drunk. They chugged down bottle after bottle of Aziraphale's finest wine collection. The two of them could hardly even walk, let alone finish a sentence without stumbling over every other word, but they babbled on anyway. Well, Aziraphale babbled about you, and Crowley just listened, occasionally nodding or inserting his own comment.

"For Satan's sake, Aziraphale. You're obviously madly in love with her. Just fuckin' tell her already," Crowley groaned. Aziraphale looked at him with wide eyes.

"What? I'm not madly in love I just... I just— er— I enjoy her company." Crowley pursed his lips and raised a brow at Aziraphale, who was now blushing something fierce thanks to both the alcohol and embarrassment. "Alright, alright! Say hype— hyper— hippo— WHAT IF I am in love with (Y/N). How do I know she feels the same?"

"She does," Crowley answered without hesitation. Aziraphale scoffed. Crowley rolled his eyes and leaned forward. "Have you seen the way she looks at you? I mean, the moment she lights up as soon as you walk into the room? Plus, she talks about you almost as much as you talk about her." Aziraphale gave him an incredulous look.

"How do you know that?" Crowley opened and closed his mouth, stuttering nonsense as he tried to find the right words.

"Not important. I just know that she does, okay? I mean, I keep tabs on everyone. You should know that by now." Aziraphale nodded, taking another big sip of his wine. "The point is... uh... the point is that..." Crowley pinched the bridge of his nose. "The point is that you need to tell her how you feel. 'Cause you might not get another chance, ya know. With Armageddon and all that." On that note, Crowley downed the rest of his glass and started to pour himself another. Aziraphale stared into his own drink. A quick rasp on the front door startled him out of his thoughts. A smug grin formed across Crowley's face. "Showtime." He leaped out of his seat and dashed toward the door. Aziraphale sank further into the chair.

"I'm too drunk for this," he grumbled.

You smiled as the tall, lanky demon swung the door open, shouting your name. He quickly ushered you inside. "How much have you drank?" you teased, poking him in the side with your elbow. Crowley stopped and furrowed his brows. He slurred something about losing track after the third bottle and continued to stumble through the bookshop. When you walked into the back room, you found Aziraphale glowering at the full glass in his hand. "Must've been a hell of a day for the both of you to get piss drunk." Crowley nodded, plopping back into his seat.

"We were talkin' about love." Aziraphale shot Crowley a look, but you missed it. You snorted, crossing your arms.

"Really, and who do you have the hots for? Let me guess... Beelzebub? No, no, no. It's Hastur, isn't it?" Crowley's jaw dropped, and he looked quite offended. Aziraphale laughed but quickly covered his mouth to stifle it. Crowley pursed his lips and leaned back into the seat.

"No, actually, we were talking about Aziraphale being in love." Your smile faltered for a moment, but you quickly composed yourself before turning to look at the angel.

"That so?" He nodded slowly. You waited for him to say something, but he didn't. "Well, who's the lucky one?" Aziraphale glanced between you and Crowley. The demon nodded and gave the angel a thumbs up. Aziraphale stood up from his chair and set down his glass. He muttered something about trying to find the right words to say, but you couldn't quite catch it because Crowley loudly interrupted.

"Why not something Shakespeare? You love his stuff so bloody much." Aziraphale's face lit up at the suggestion. Dozens of different quotes flashed through his mind.

"Yes, okay." He cleared his throat and focused his gaze on you. "Shall I compare thee—"

"No, no," Crowley groaned. "Too cliché." Aziraphale nodded. His brows furrowed as he tried to come up with something slightly more original. You awkwardly rubbed the back of your neck.

"Anyone care to tell me why we're coming up with Shakespeare quotes?" Aziraphale huffed and shook his head.

"Fuck!" You and Crowley stared at the angel in shock. Aziraphale hardly ever swore, and him using the 'F' word was an absolute rarity. The angel took a step closer to you and took a deep breath. "It's you. You're the one I'm in love with," he rushed out. You blinked slowly, taken aback by the sudden news.

"Me? You're in love with me?" He nodded. His eyes searched your face as various emotions washed over you. You shook your head in disbelief. "You're just drunk, Aziraphale." The angel cupped your face in his hands. On instinct, you placed your hands on top of his. There was a sort of urgency in his eyes that you had never seen before.

"No," he said firmly. "I sobered up before you walked in. I truly meant it. I'm in love with you, (Y/N)." Aziraphale pressed his lips to yours. You melted into the kiss, wrapping your arms around his neck. He pulled away and leaned his forehead against yours. "Doubt thou the stars are fire, Doubt that the sun doth move, Doubt truth to be a liar, But never doubt I love." A bright smile graced your features.

"I love you, you cheesy bastard." Aziraphale started to lean in for another kiss. The two of you pulled apart when Crowley started clapping.

"Wahoo. Now, how about we have a toast?" The demon reached for another bottle, but you moved it away from him.

"I think you've had enough for today," you laughed.

~*~*~

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[riveir]

not to be greedy but give me,,all the texts

✆ for a MORNING text.

[ sms → astrid sloan , 7:01 am ] morning captain’s practice ran late so i’ve gotta hit the showers and head right to first period. [ sms → astrid sloan , 7:01 am ] which means i’ll miss wishing you luck on that calc exam in person but i didn’t want to miss it entirely. [ sms → astrid sloan , 7:02 am ] you’ve got this! we studied enough for it, and you’re completely prepared. 

✉ for a TEXT THAT WASN’T SENT.

[ sms → astrid sloan , 3:23 pm ] my mom just called and said her and my dad won’t be back until late tonight. [ sms → astrid sloan , 3:23 pm ] do you want to come over? maybe stay for dinner? the house is feeling especially empty. this place is too big to be left alone in.

☎ for a RUSHED text.

[ sms → astrid sloan , 10:07 pm ] i’m coming i’m sorry i know it’s taking longer than i said it would [ sms → astrid sloan , 10:07 pm ] there’s a ton of people back here and teachers and stuff who are trying to catch all of us after the show and congratulate us [ sms → astrid sloan , 10:08 pm ] principal vaughn wants to chat but if you wanna just go ahead i won’t blame you i can stop by when i’m out of here or i can just see you tomorrow whatever’s easiest [ sms → astrid sloan , 10:08 pm ] i’m sorry again but thank you so much for coming i really appreciate it i know it was kinda long but it means a lot to me!!

⁇ for a DRUNK text.

[ sms → astrid sloan , 11:19 pm ] lax party getting out of hand [ sms → astrid sloan , 11:19 pm ] no danger just crazy [ sms → astrid sloan , 11:20 pm ] no driving for me tonigt i think im gonna walk home ill can see u tomorrrow

✿ for a SUGGESTIVE text.

[ sms → astrid sloan , 5:27 pm ] i'm just getting out of practice now and my parents are gonna be out until late [ sms → astrid sloan , 5:27 pm ] i just have to take a quick shower, but if you want to come over later and hang out you’re more than welcome to [ sms → astrid sloan , 5:28 pm ] or you could come over now rather than wait, of course ;)

ø for a LATE NIGHT text.

[ sms → astrid sloan , 2:28 am ] i can’t sleep and i think part of it is because i feel guilty about this student body president thing. [ sms → astrid sloan , 2:28 am ] shouldn’t i be trying to make impressions with these colleges based on things i’m actually passionate about? something that has meaning to me? [ sms → astrid sloan , 2:29 am ] besides, there are people who this stuff actually really matters to. why should i threaten to take that away from them? [ sms → astrid sloan , 2:29 am ] i know you won’t see these until morning. but i had to get it off my chest, if just in hopes that it’ll help me get to sleep.

✘ for a HATEFUL text.

[ sms → astrid sloan , 6:46 pm ] i know i don’t usually say things like this, and i don’t like to speak this way, but the way some people treat others at our school is disgusting. [ sms → astrid sloan , 6:47 pm ] that kid that lives over on hermosa, in our world history class? i was leaving our game and i just saw a couple kids on the football team picking on him and saying some pretty awful things about him and his family. [ sms → astrid sloan , 6:47 pm ] it’s hard enough for kids our age to make meaningful friendships in today’s society without this divisive culture of privilege our school perpetuates. [ sms → astrid sloan , 6:48 pm ] anyways i stopped to check on him and chat for a few minutes so that’s why i’m running a little late. i’ll be over soon.

# for a RANDOM text.

[ sms → astrid sloan , 11:07 am ] starbucks or dunkin this morning? [ sms → astrid sloan , 11:07 am ] i’ll stop for coffees on my way to pick you up, we can take it to the beach with us.

@ for a SCARED text. 

[ sms → astrid sloan , 12:17 am ] just checking in - haven’t heard from you tonight and i know you said you were on your own. [ sms → astrid sloan , 12:17 am ] i’m just getting back from that fundraiser with my parents, if you need anything give me a call.

& for a LOVING text.

[ sms → astrid sloan , 8:32 pm ] we just landed from italy.  [ sms → astrid sloan , 8:32 pm ] i can’t wait to see you :) i really missed you while we were away. [ sms → astrid sloan , 8:33 pm ] i thought about you all the time and how i wished you were there and all the things we could’ve been doing together.

% for a CURIOUS text.

[ sms → astrid sloan , 1:52 pm ] did you ever surf competitively? [ sms → astrid sloan , 1:53 pm ] i know you take lessons still but i was just thinking and i realized i don’t think i’ve ever asked.

ツ for an EXCITED text.

[ sms → astrid sloan , 10:24 pm ] good news - parents okayed renting that beach house for a weekend :) [ sms → astrid sloan , 10:24 pm ] if you’re still up for it, of course. no pressure, just wanted you to know they agreed and offered to cover it - as a birthday present.

$ for an ACCIDENTAL text.

[ sms → astrid sloan , 5:35 pm ] i didn’t realize you and dad were going out again, but next time maybe you could give me a call instead of leaving a note on the counter? i was kind of counting on us all having dinner tonight and i thought it would’ve been good for all of us to be together.

♀ for a HEARTBREAKING text.

[ sms → astrid sloan , 10:57 pm ] i’m still so sorry that you found out that way. [ sms → astrid sloan , 10:57 pm ] but i’m not sure i would’ve ever been able to tell anyone if it wasn’t just a spur of the moment kind of thing. [ sms → astrid sloan , 10:58 pm ] even thinking of telling just you was terrifying. [ sms → astrid sloan , 10:58 pm ] i was so scared of what anyone would say - not just you. [ sms → astrid sloan , 10:58 pm ] i can’t help feeling like i let you down, though. and i’m really, truly sorry.

text messages meme / accepting!

[ddaenggtan]

tag game

tagged by: @jungtaeyoongles​ and @hobisbeautifulass

:: nickname(s): bette-y boop, bette-y boo, bette-y bear, betet, babie, beepa (only by Fiance tho), bette in general is a nickname tbh as is my actual name, uhhhhh idk what else do yall call me???

:: bias: pls stop asking me this question i am an Anxious Libra i cannot make decisions

:: blood type: uhhhhhh i think like a+? maybe a-. definitely a.

:: favourite food: cake. mac n cheese. chickie nuggies. honestly probably chickie nuggies overall bc i could literally eat them every day of my life.

:: birthday: october 6th uwu

:: zodiac: LMAO im a walking libra stereotype

:: pronouns: she/her

:: hair length: like..........idk tbh its a weird mullet thing goin on rn bc i buzzed it funky and now its growing weird, but i think like. two and a half inches at its longest.

:: height: i am 5′8.75″ and yES that .75 is important to me

:: a crush: i mean i have a fiance so

:: what do you like about yourself: i like that i can listen to my friends and lighten their burdens some, and i like that i got long ass eyelashes for no fuckin reason, because this is the year of fucking loving ourselves

:: left or right handed: right

:: list of 3 favourite colours: blue, purple, pink. 

:: (right now) eating: uh......a burger?

:: (right now) drinking: sprite uwu

:: i’m about to: finish this and the other tag thing and then do fwl reblogs and then write that hanahaki fic lmao

:: listening to: my Get Hype playlist, which currently features like fifteen Black Swans and also some reggaeton

:: kids: none

:: get married: i’M FUCKIN TRYING, smh fiance keeps saying “taxes” and “insurance issues” like thats gonna make me wanna marry her less smh

:: recent phone call: cab company on my cell, guest’s room on the work phone

:: (have u ever) dated someone twice: no? i think?

:: been cheated on: lmao yea

:: kissed someone and regretted it: lmao yea

:: lost someone special: lmao yea

:: been depressed: right now buddy boi

:: been drunk and thrown up: literally once and it was the worst experience of my life

:: had glasses or contacts: glasses, that i lost like four years ago and can’t afford to replace

:: had sex on the first date: ...................does it count if it was before the date?

:: broken someone’s heart: lmao yea

:: turned someone down: truly an obscene amount of times, bc apparently hitting on people at work is a common theme among men :)

:: cried when someone died: uh yea

:: fallen for a friend: lmao that’s how i got engaged

:: (in the last year have you) made a new friend: so many 

:: laughed until u cried: did that literally yesterday

:: met someone who changed u: doesn’t everyone we meet change us in some way?

:: found out who your true friends were: lmao yea

:: found out someone was talking about you: lmao yea

:: lips or eyes: eyes, always, because as wonderful as lips are, there’s something different about it when the light hits their eyes just right and it turns into a kaleidoscope 

:: hugs or kisses: kisses always

:: romantic or spontaneous: romantic

:: hookup or relationship: relationship

:: first best friend: 4th grade, and we are in fact still friends

:: surgery: nay

:: sports i joined: lmaoooooooo does academic team count

:: do u believe in yourself: im tryin

:: miracles: sometimes, but never when you really need them

:: love at first sight: in a way, yeah. not that ‘i’d do anything for you and i wouldn’t even hesitate’ kinda love, but love is so fluid and dynamic and diverse, i fall a little bit in love with people constantly every day, so i don’t understand people who don’t believe in it

:: heaven: ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

:: do u have any pets: five of them, and they are all spoiled as shit

:: do u want to change your name: ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

:: what did u do for your last birthday: Fiance and I went up to my mom’s house (bc it was also my mamas birthday uwu) and we played a bunch of board games and hung out and it was super fun

:: what time did u wake up today: 12:57 PM

:: what were u doing last night at midnight: waiting for a fucking cab so i could go home from work

:: something i can’t wait for: finishing the fics im writing, MOTS7, the fics that emma and jane and lisa and reni and b and nell and sora and ellie and so many other fucking people are writing, going home god damn i wanna be home already, uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh Wednesday so i can preorder the full 7 set, uhhhh getting married, uhhhhhhh, listen i look forward to a lot of things, 

:: last time u saw your mum: uhhhhhhhhhhh the 1st? i think? im seeing her wednesday tho!!!

:: what is one thing u wish u could change about your life: that i didn’t have to worry about money and food as much so i could actually enjoy more of it lmao

I’d like to tag…. @personawife @strawbxxymilk @seokoloqy @peekaboongi @honiboyyoon @helpitskpop @gimmeyoon and literally anyone else that wants to do this 

[rawmeanderson]

bring you back to me ― part I

ft. jeff skinner plot: when your high school sweetheart gets traded to the same city where you now live and work, your best friend just can’t mind her own business ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ((i’m gonna make a gif for this tomorrow but it is late and i promised this to you guys tonight)) warnings. swearing; mentions of intoxication, drinking, and anxiety. word count: 5.8k i wrote 2k words today and whew i’m beat, but this is the first part of a longggg new series that i’m v excited for, so i hope you enjoy it!!!!

When your phone buzzes the first time, you ignore it. It vibrates against the heavy wood of the conference room table, your hand twitching slightly with the muscle reflex of reaching for it. Your eyes stay focused on your boss’s boss that was leading the meeting, trying to sit up a little straighter as if that would prove that you were paying attention.

Less than two minutes later, it buzzes twice in rapid succession, and you reach for it quickly as heat rises up your neck. Your boss is giving you a look from across the table, and you offered an apologetic smile before trying to refocus. When your phone buzzes again, it’s resting against your thigh, and keeping your eyes up, you flipped it screen side up before looking down so you could figure out what the hell was going on and why it was so important.

4 minutes ago ― Lydia: i know you’re in that meeting with Barry, but this is way more important 2 minutes ago ― Lydia: LINK: Sabres acquire Jeff Skinner in trade with Hurricanes 2 minutes ago ― Lydia: your boyfriend’s moving to Buffalo!!!! 1 minute ago ― Lydia: are you dead? Do i need call 911?

Your eyes are wide as you stare down at your phone in your lap, and color floods your face when you glance up again to notice your boss watching you from across the table. Clearing your throat quietly, you do everything you can to pay attention to what’s being said and ignore the buzzing in your mind.

Thankfully, the meeting ends fifteen minutes later, and you’re on your feet almost instantly. You try to rush to the door, but your boss catches you first, asking if everything was okay. Laughing it off, you assure her that everything’s fine, that it was just your brother being obnoxious, but you can tell she doesn’t buy it.

Leaving the conference room, you make a beeline back to your cubicle. It was like Lydia heard you coming, popping up from her chair as you passed with a wide grin.

“Did you look at your phone?” she questions, her tone teasing. You’re sure that from your expression, she’d been able to gather that you’d seen her messages, and she smirks at you.

“Hmm?” you hum, trying to feign disinterest and nonchalance. “I don’t know what you’re talking about.” That makes her snort as she watches you settle into your desk chair and turn so your back is to her.

Hearing her footsteps, you know she’s coming over to bother you more as you do everything you can to stop yourself from thinking about the news that had been dropped into your lap. Lydia helps herself to the empty chair that belonged to a vacationing coworker and slides over toward you. You don’t even have to look at her to know that she’s grinning ear to ear.

“So, are you freaking out right now?” she asks, moving close enough that she can nudge you with her elbow.

“Yeah, just because you won’t leave me alone,” you respond, glancing at her. You’re trying your best to look irritated, but with the way she’s grinning at you, wiggling her eyebrows suggestively, you can’t help but crack a smile.

“What are you thinking?” she questions, hand coming up to tuck her hair behind her ear as you try to make yourself look busy by replying to a couple of emails you’d forgotten about.

“Uhh, that you’re annoying as shit,” you murmur, eyes darting to the side in time to see her act just so offended by your words.

“You know, I’m just out here trying to reunite you with the love of your life, and this is how you treat me?” Lydia had always had a flair for the dramatics, over exaggerating every chance she got. Her hand was on her chest, like she was truly, deeply upset by your words, but the mischievous grin on her face gave her away.

“Jeff Skinner is not the love of my life,” you tell her with a loud scoff, despite the way heat is rising up the back of your neck. Lydia looks skeptical of your statement and you refocus your attention on your computer screen.

“Okay, fine then, I’m trying to reunite you with your high school boyfriend that you still get all blushy over anytime he’s mentioned, is that better?”

“No, it’s not,” you tell her, the words grumbled as you clench your jaw. The two of you sit in silence for a moment, waiting for one of you to break and say something. You cave first, knowing that she’s watching you for any sign of weakness you might show about Jeff. “Don’t you have some work to do?”

“Nope, none whatsoever,” she says with a nonchalant shrug, leaning back in the borrowed chair.

You respond with silence, clicking between two tabs in your browser, trying to look busy. Your mind was spinning and you wished Lydia would get off your back so you could process all of this on your own first, without such a dramatic audience such as her.

When you’d taken the opportunity to transfer to Buffalo from New York City a couple years ago, mostly so you could be closer to family, Lydia was the first friend you’d made. You worked in an office of mostly older people, so to find someone your age that you immediately got along with was a blessing. She was from Buffalo, an avid Sabres fan, and knew all of the best bars and taco shops around the city. Lydia had a tendency to drive you absolutely mad, but if nothing else, kept life interesting. In the early stages of your friendship, wine drunk on her couch, you’d let slip that your first kiss had been with a future NHL player, to which then Lydia demanded the whole story.

You’d practically grown up with Jeff. He’d played with your brother and your parents were friends, ensuring that you were both present through each other’s awkward phases. You were a year younger than Jeff and your brother, but that didn’t stop you from running around with them every chance you got. Jeff was 17, you were 16, when you kissed for the first time at a holiday party.

It’d been awkward, quick, but in the months that followed the two of you got better at it. When you started dating, it came as no real surprise to either of your families. It was short lived though. You and Jeff broke up on his 18th birthday, a couple of weeks before the draft, both of you knowing that the priorities in each of your lives were about to change. You had university to work toward, while his life was about to change completely, it was just the smart thing to do.

To say that you’d avoided Jeff as much as you could after that was putting it simply. The following Christmas, with you halfway through your last year of school, you made every excuse you could not to be at the usual get together your family had with his. It was easier that way. Your feelings for Jeff had felt so real at the time, you were young and crazy about him, and you didn’t know how much of that would linger as time went on. You’d been all but certain that he’d surely found plenty of girls in Raleigh that would’ve made him forget all about you.

The next couple of years continued the same way. You moved to New York for university and life went on. The only time you’d seen Jeff in all of the years that passed was over Christmas break of your sophomore year of college. A friend from high school was having a party, and you’d been roped into going, and the idea of Jeff being there hadn’t even crossed your mind.

When you saw him, you’d almost dropped your drink. You were already tipsy, and now seeing him, older and bigger was enough to almost have you running out the back door of the house. Instead though, you had another drink. You didn’t let yourself go overboard, just enough to have a buzz and quiet the anxious screaming in the back of your mind.

At one point, you made eye contact with him from across the room, and you smiled, feeling a shiver run down your body as you tried to figure out what the hell to say to him. He was a little drunk too, that much was obvious from the rosiness in his cheeks, the easy smile on his face. When he started to make his way toward you, you panicked a little, but talking to him was as easy as ever. Jeff hugged you and the reality that you’d missed him like crazy hit you hard.

The two of you kind of settled to your own little world for the rest of the night. You found a spot to sit and catch up, and once he’d sobered up, Jeff asked if you were hungry, admitting that he’d been craving a burger from the 24 hour diner in town. You guys had been there together so many times that his words made you smile and nod eagerly. Over burgers and milkshakes, you talked, joked, and remembered why you’d been so crazy about him.

He took you home, and parked in front of your parents’ house, it was so reminiscent of when you’d been together in high school that it actually made your heart hurt. Neither of you were in much of a rush to leave the other, so your conversation continued a while longer. It was nearly 2 AM when you couldn’t stop yawning, and when you leaned over to hug him and he kissed your cheek muscle memory stirred and you turned your head enough to kiss him.

You both seemed surprised but neither of you pulled away, just relaxing into each other easily. He was a better kisser then than he had been at 17, which came as no surprise, and you hoped he’d have the same thing to say about you. His fingers pushed your hair out of your face gently and you knew then that it’d be so easy to get lost in him. You made out in the front seat of his car for a few moments before you pulled back, yawning again and saying that if you didn’t head inside, you’d fall asleep on him.

Saying goodbye was a little rushed on your part, not wanting to linger and make it harder on yourself. He asked if he could call you the next day, and you’d nodded, not bothering to tell him that you’d gotten a new number at the start of college. A clean break was easier, that’s what you kept telling yourself.

That was all ancient history now though, but that certainly didn’t stop Lydia from teasing you about Jeff every chance she got. She’d all but begged you to go to the Canes/Sabres game last year, and instead, you’d offered to work overtime. Now though, Jeff would be living and playing in the same city as you and that alone had your heart racing like mad.

“So, are you going to call him?” Lydia asks, dragging you out of your own head. You’d been staring blankly at your computer scene, and you glance at her a second later. “Wait, does he even know you live in Buffalo?” Your response is to shrug, exhaling a heavy sigh as you push your hair out of your face.

“Lydia, can we just give it a rest for today? You know I love you, but this will be a lot easier for me to process without you being up my ass,” you say, pinching the bridge of your nose as you try to ward off the headache you can feel building behind your eyes.

The cubicle is quiet for a moment before Lydia clears her throat, and from the corner of your eye you see her straighten up. “Yeah, no problem,” she tells you, and when you meet her eye she smiles. As dramatic as she could be, you’re grateful that she knows when to quit. “Let me know if you need anything, okay? Like maybe one of those double margaritas from Los Gauchos? I don’t have dinner plans.”

The suggestion makes you snort softly and you nod a second later. “Uh, yeah, that sounds really good, actually,” you admit, your mind already drifting to their al pastor tacos. Lydia shoots you a thumbs up and a wink before turning to head back to her own work area.

The margarita certainly helped, so did the tacos. Making it even better, Lydia paid for your food. The drinking was a godsend after you’d spent the rest of the work day thinking about the news that had been dropped into your laugh. Even at dinner, it was still on your mind despite Lydia’s best efforts of distracting you. She asked if you wanted to come over to watch a movie, an offer you politely declined as she gave you an apologetic smile, knowing you were still thinking about the news that had broken earlier.

When you got home, you put on an episode of The Good Place in an effort to cheer yourself up, but in the end, it barely held your focus. You wish you knew why you were feeling like this, so you could stop it, but instead, the anxiety festered in your chest as you stared at the ceiling of your bedroom a few hours later.

You’d dated plenty since Jeff, you’d even lived with someone for nearly a year, but none of those relationships had felt as natural. Trying your best to rationalize those feelings, you’d told yourself that he’d been your first love, that you were likely embellishing the way you’d felt about him. It’d been so long ago now that you wondered if you’d still feel that way. After you’d last seen him, you’d barely been able to get out of bed the next day, both missing him and feeling guilty for the fact that he probably tried to reach you, only to find that you’d changed your number.

Giving up on trying to put this all out of your mind, you turn over onto your side, and try to think of what you’d even begin to say to Jeff if you somehow ran into him in the city. What were you even supposed to say to your high school sweetheart that you’d practically ghosted several years ago? Should you play dumb if it happened, say that you had no idea he’d been traded to Buffalo?

With a groan, you press your face into your pillow in an effort to clear your head again, desperately trying to silence the voice in your head reminding you that you’d always believed that things happen for a reason.

Eight weeks passed, and Lydia didn’t even once mention Jeff. The idea of being in the same city as him seemed to have settled a bit. Even so, there’d been a couple of times where you’d been in public and did a double take if you saw someone that looked anything like him at a quick glance. Your heart leapt and your stomach flipped over each time. Other than that, you tried not to think about him.

It was a Friday night when you pulled into Lydia’s parking lot, stepping out of your car after grabbing your bag and the 6-pack of hard cider you’d picked up on the way over. You were already in leggings and an old shirt from college, a cozy cardigan over your shoulders. Lydia had suggested you get together that night for dinner and movies, and you didn’t doubt you’d end up crashing on her couch rather than driving home. After taking the stairs up to the second floor of the building, you knock lightly on her door before letting yourself in.

“Hey, how’s it going?” Lydia says with a grin, stepping out of the kitchen. Dinner smells amazing already and your stomach growls, remembering that she was making stir fry.

“Hi! Holy shit, it smells so good in here,” you tell her with a laugh as you kick your shoes off.

Your words make her snort and she grins. “It’ll be done in about fifteen minutes or so, you can go hang out in the living room if you want!”  

Nodding, you head toward the living room to make yourself at home. You immediately drop into the corner of the sofa, leaning back as you fish in your bag for your phone. The TV is on, but you haven’t even glanced at it. Lydia’s cat comes sauntering down the hall before jumping up on the arm of the sofa to greet you. It’s not until your scratching below her chin that you look at the TV, immediately tensing when you realize that it’s coverage of the pre-season Sabres game.

Before you can even start looking around for the remote, Jeff is on the screen and butterflies flutter throughout your body. Biting your bottom lip, you find yourself staring at him as he’s interviewed ahead of the game. He looks good, happy. The Sabres colors suit him far better in your opinion and hearing his voice again made goosebumps rise along your skin. You’re not even paying attention to what he’s saying, instead getting lost in the sound of his voice. When you got a quick glimpse of his dimple as he grinned, you felt your heart skip a beat.

“Y/N!” The sound of Lydia’s voice makes you jump, head turning quickly to look at the her, standing just outside the kitchen.

“Sorry, what?” you question with a nervous laugh. Your cheeks are burning, and you watch as her eyes drift to the TV and she realizes why you’d been so entranced.

You know from her expression that she’s trying to hide a smirk, and she clears her throat before speaking. “I didn’t realize I’d left that on,” she says, and based on her tone, you’re not sure that you fully believe her statement. “I’ve been saying your name for like, a whole minute, but uh, I was asking if you wanted me to put your drinks in the fridge.”

“Oh...yeah, thanks,” you respond, flashing a quick smile. Just to break eye contact with you, you look away to reach down, picking the 6-pack up to hand it to her as she cross the room to take it from you. Your cheeks are surely flushed, and by then, Lydia’s not even trying to hide her grin. She retreats without a word though, and as soon as her back is to you, your attention returns to the TV.

A pang of disappointment strikes through you when you see the coverage has gone back to the commentators. It’s probably for the better you decide, leaning back into the couch and encouraging the cat to come closer to you.

Your heart settles after a moment and thankfully it only took a few more minutes before dinner was done. When Lydia calls your name from the kitchen, you get to your feet and follow the sound of her voice. She asks you to set the table and and she’s still got that knowing grin on her face. Barely even looking at her, you grab the plates and silverware she’d set out and hurry back out to put them on the table.

The game had started, and your attention snaps to the television when you hear Jeff’s name. You hadn’t watched a game in ages, and right now was not the time you needed to get transfixed on it. Taking a seat, you sit so your back is towards the TV, otherwise you knew you’d never be able to focus on conversation over dinner if you could see the game. When Lydia comes out of the kitchen, holding the wok and placing it down onto the trivet you’d put out on the table.

Your mouth starts watering at the smell of dinner, and as you sit up a bit straighter to get a look at the food, Lydia turns off the TV. Silence fills the room for a moment and your body relaxes. As Lydia sits down, her attention is on her phone as she starts to airplay the music to a speaker, and you’re reaching for the tongs resting in the pan.

To your surprise, dinner passes without a single mention of Jeff. The food was to die for, Lydia’s cooking always was. At one point though, you’d damn near dropped your fork in the middle of eating. I Won’t Say (I’m In Love) from Hercules started, and you felt rather attacked. You couldn’t prove that she’d masterminded it since she’d been known to pepper Disney songs into playlists before, but you were pretty sure she’d queued it up just to fuck with you.

Weeks later, you were starting to wonder if she’d forgotten all about Jeff. There’d been no mention of him, but he was seldom far from your mind.

You’re trying to get a bit of work done, sending out some emails when a rolled up ball of paper hits you on the shoulder before bouncing onto your desk. Turning around, it’s no surprise to see Lydia there, grinning widely as she leans against the cubicle divider.

“Did you see the email I sent you?” she asks, tone rather hopeful. You raise an eyebrow quickly and nod.

“What, for that pub downtown? Yeah, why?”

She shrugs and gives you a smile that says she’s got something up her sleeve. “They’ve got a breakfast burger that looks really good,” she says, wiggling her eyebrows at you. The words alone make you hum, as she knows that the best way to your heart is a good breakfast burger. “I was gonna see if you wanted to head there for dinner tonight?”

You take a moment before responding, glancing at the time and trying to remember if you had plans. After a moment, you nod with a grin. “Uh, yeah, that sounds good!” you say and she shoots you a thumbs up. “Did you want to head there straight after work? I can drive.”

Lydia agrees to that plan, and you then spend a decent portion of the slow afternoon going over the restaurant’s menu, taking quite a bit of interest in their drinks. You’d been planning on spending the evening at home, doing nothing, but dinner and drinks and being out with Lydia sounded far better.

Hours later when work was done and Lydia was guiding you through downtown as you drove, you stifle a yawn as you turn onto a one-way street. You hadn’t really been down to this area much, and you’re looking around rather curiously.

“There’s a garage up here on the right, I already paid for parking,” Lydia says, eyes on her phone as she pulls up the pass.

When you pull into the garage, there’s a sign for Sabres parking and you glance at Lydia quickly. “Are we close to the arena?” you ask as you roll your window down. She shrugs hands you her phone so you can scan the parking pass.

“Yeah, I just know this garage is pretty cheap, so I just stick to what I know,” she explains as you head into the garage, looking for a spot. You don’t question it and thankfully, you find a spot with ease.

When you’re climbing out of the car, a number of people walk by in Sabres shirts, and you glance at Lydia. She’s out of the car and digging in her bag, and you’re about to ask if she’s ready to go when she tosses a bundle of fabric at you.

“Here, put this on,” she says as you catch it. You hold it up and realize quickly that it’s a Sabres shirt, your eyes moving to her. She’s grinning like a cat that ate a canary and she’s holding up a shirt for herself as well.

“What’s going on here?” you ask, brow creased. You’re still holding onto the shirt, watching your friend as she shrugs.

“We’re going to the game.” Lydia says it so simply that you damn near guffaw at her. “Oh, come on! You have been tiptoeing around this for so long now that it’s making my heart hurt, okay?”

Your jaw is tense and you look at her with as much distaste as you can muster. “You tricked me with that breakfast burger...you knew I’d take the bait, hook, line, and sinker,” you grumble, arms crossed over your chest with the shirt still in hand. Your words make Lydia grin and she shrugs slightly, not even bothering to feign innocence.

“It’s gonna be fun, okay? I’ll buy you some drinks, we’ll watch the game, then I’ll buy you a breakfast burger, how about that?” she responds, a grin tugging at the corners of her mouth. She’s reeling you back in, paying her penance as she walks toward you.

“Fine,” you give in, crossing your arms over your chest. You irritation was starting to wane, but you weren’t quite ready to stop milking it just yet. With the shirt still in hand, you exhale a sigh as Lydia nudges you gently with her elbow.

“C’mon, we want a good spot for warm ups,” she says, looping her elbow through yours to start leading you toward the stairs to leave the garage.

“Warm ups?!” you question before exhaling another sigh. “You’re literally evil, you know that, right?” The sound of her laugh echoes in the stairway, making your snort along with her.

Anxiety bubbled in your stomach from there. Doors are already open when the two of you approach the arena, and you fell quiet. You let Lydia more or less guide you, considering you were in the middle of an out of body experience, and she promised to grab drinks for both of you as she pushed you toward the bathroom to change into the Sabres shirt.

When you reemerge, she’s waiting there for you, two cans of beer in hand as well as a cup of what you assume is a rum and Coke. “It’s a double,” she tells you with a wink as she hands the drinks off to you so she can use the restroom and change into her shirt as well.

Waiting for her, you lean back against the wall outside the bathroom and exhale a sigh. The last several months had just been plain weird. You’d grown up with hockey. Your dad’s family is from Boston, so you’d been raised as a Bruins fan, going to games when you’d visit relatives. Your brother had played with Jeff, and obviously, growing up near Toronto, you’d been surrounded by the Leafs.

Since college though, you hadn’t had much interest in the sport. You’d realized one night several weeks ago, as you’d stared at your bedroom ceiling, that you’d probably distanced yourself from the sport in order to put Jeff out of your mind. Admittedly though, you watched a Sabres game last week, curled up on your couch with some chocolate ice cream. You’d missed hockey, but damn, it was still weird as hell hearing Jeff’s name.

As you stood there, sipping greedily at your rum and Coke, your eyes survey the people moving around the arena ahead of warm ups. It’s still early, so not too crowded, and you see quite a few people in Skinner shirts or jerseys. The sight makes you smile, glad to know that he’s appreciated on his new team. You shift your weight from one foot to the other and try to slow the way your mind is racing.

Thankfully, Lydia comes out of the bathroom just as you’re about to launch into another existential crisis about the fact that you’re in the same building as Jeff Skinner for the first time in over half a decade. When she looks at you, the fact that your mind is reeling must be obvious because she looks a little amused, reaching for one of the beers you’re holding.

“Where are we sitting?” you ask, chewing on your bottom lip as she shoves her work blouse into her bag.

“Uhh, one of the back rows of the lower bowl. They’re good seats,” she says, taking a drink of beer as the two of you start walking. “For warm ups though, we’re going down to the ice.”

“Lydia, seriously?” you say, to which her response is to giggle softly with a shrug. She’s half a step ahead of you, otherwise your hand would’ve come out to smack her arm gently.

Time was passing so slowly. It felt like it’d been at least twenty minutes since Lydia coaxed you up to a seat at the glass, but really, it’s only five. Nervousness has set in, and now your mind is racing, wishing you’d know about the game, so you could’ve at least made yourself look better. Your hair was tied up in a bun and you hadn’t really put much effort into your appearance that day, at least not the amount of effort you’d put into seeing your ex for the first time in five years.

Lydia settles into a seat and looks at you as she sips at her beer. “Y/N, relax,” she says, voice low. You’re still standing, and you glance over your shoulder to look at her.

“Well, considering I’ve only had about fifteen minutes to process all of this and prepare to see him, I don’t think relaxing is an option right now,” you mutter before finishing off the rest of your rum and Coke. You turn to face her then, leaning back against the glass as you meet her eye.

“I mean, that’s fair,” she says with a shrug before cracking a grin. She leans forward in her seat then, glancing up at the jumbotron before her attention returns to you. “If you want to just go up to our seats, we can.” There’s a timidness then in her voice, as if she was worried that she’d pushed you too far.

You consider it for a moment, looking at the ice left in your cup as you think. When you meet her eye, you shake your head. “No, I wanna stay here,” you say as confidently as you can. Lydia looks rather impressed as she nods, and you grin then. Truthfully, you think the adrenaline of the situation is hitting you, like your fight or flight instincts were kicking in. You’re surprised that you’re choosing the fight side of that, but you were committed to it now.

“Let me know if you change your mind,” Lydia says, grinning at you then and you give an affirmative nod. You sit your empty cup down in a cup holder then turn back to the ice. Time is ticking down to warm ups, and you can feel that first drink starting to hit you.

Somehow, it feels like the last couple of minutes go by even more slowly than before, so you sip at your beer and scroll through Instagram idly. When the lights music starts and the players start coming out onto the ice, your heart leaps into your throat. You’re faintly aware of the fact that Lydia stands up, and as you’re about to take a drink of beer, you spot Jeff.

You pause with the beer can halfway to your mouth, and you know Lydia’s eyes are on you as you inhale a slow breath. His back is to you, but your stomach jumps, then flops back down just at the sight of him. Maybe drinking that double rum and coke hadn’t been a good idea. Before you’re able to mentally adjust to your surrounding, he’s glances up and you feel like you’re about to drop dead on the spot.

Jeff does an honest to god double-take, locking eyes with you the second time. A wide smile spreads across his face and he skates closer, like he’s trying to figure out if it’s really you. That smile of his was as contagious as always, even now when you’re barely standing up straight from nervousness. Grinning back at him, you finally take that drink of beer, and Lydia laughs beside you. Seeing him is just so surreal, and god, that blue really suits him. He looks so….grown up, but you’re sure you did as well.

He glances around quickly before pointing toward the bench then nodding in that direction. Clutching your beer and hoping your legs would work when you try to walk, you give him a quick thumbs up. You look at Lydia quickly to find that she’s watching on with a rather proud grin that you just want to smack off of her face, but there was time for that later.

Leaving your beer in Lydia’s care, you take off toward the tunnel, going up a row or two to meet him. Your heart is pounding as you chew on your bottom lip as soon as your eyes are on him again. It was good to see him, there was no denying that.

“Hi,” you say when you’re lose enough, not sure what else to even say then.

“What are you doing here?” he asks, grinning and looking at you the same way he had since you were teenagers.

“I, uh...I took a job in Buffalo a couple years ago,” you tell him, trying to resist the urge to fidget. You’d forgotten the way he looked at you, you weren’t used to it anymore. He nods as you speak, his smile somehow getting even wider.

He’s about to say something when someone on the ice shouts his name, and he swears quietly under his breath. “Did you have to leave right after the game?” he asks, pausing only to wait for your response. When you shake your head, he continues. “Can I give you my number? Just text me, and I’ll tell you how to get back to the locker room.”

Before he even finishes speaking, you’re fishing your phone out of your pocket as you nod. When you’re ready, he rattles off his number, and you save it into your contacts, still struggling to believe that this is all actually happening.

“I’ll see you soon, okay?” he says, meeting your eye with another smile that makes your stomach flutter.

“Yeah, I’ll see you soon,” you repeat with a quick nod. You’re smiling back at him, because how could not? He nods right back, practically beaming before heading back to the ice.

[milocallum]

All the texts for Vic!

Send “✆” for a MORNING text.

[to vic]: i stayed up all night watching a star is born and i don’t think i’ve cried so hard in my fucking life[to vic]: goodnight

Send “✉” for a text that WASN’T SENT.

[to vic]: i don’t know why you hate me as much as you do. you think i’m the only person who’s fucked up? i’m twenty six, not fifty, so stop trying like i’ve lived twenty years of my life doing shit to you

Send “☎” for a RUSHED text.

[to vic]: i signed one of the legacy records in Exiled and put it on instagram[to vic]: lol have fun

Send “⁇” for a DRUNK text.

[to vic]: do u everrr ge t off ur hi horse[to vic]: im the onnly 1 who knsws what its like 2 be perfe ct

Send “✿” for a SUGGESTIVE text.

[to vic]: do you have a hair pulling kink? because if i was getting fucked and i had the hair you did, i know i wouldn’t last long at all.

Send “ø” for a LATE NIGHT text.

[to vic]: you ever considered trying to play the electric guitar[to vic]: try it

Send “✘” for a HATEFUL text.

[to vic]: you act like you’re the nicest fucking guy in the world, but in reality, you’re always looking for a way to get ahead of me[to vic]: all this shit about me being the worst fucking person in the world is bullshit, especially because we both know how much of a dick you were once

Send “#” for a RANDOM text.

[to vic]: im pretty sure rabbits are possessed by demons

Send “@” for a SCARED text.

[to vic]: what is it about this fucking bathroom in your store[to vic]: i’m actually trapped inside please help there are about 20 vaginas waiting outside of it and i don’t look good enough to take pictures today

Send “&” for a LOVING text.

[to vic]: guess sometimes i wish i was more thoughtful like you. or i don’t know, i didn’t get as addicted to everything like i did. you always just understood me, and i miss that

Send “%” for a CURIOUS text.

[to vic]: do you even like working in a record shop? do you get a good discount?

Send “ツ” for an EXCITED text.

[to vic]: i’m headlining coachella, again, got you a pass because lady gaga is going to be there and i KNOW how you feel about her so take the handout and shut up

Send “$” for an ACCIDENTAL text.

[to vic]: i can’t remember where i put the keys to my car. where did you put the fucking car keys?[to vic]: wrong person. & they were in the fridge.

Send “♀” for a HEARTBREAKING text.

[to vic]: sometimes it go so bad i couldn’t remember how i got from one show to the next, y’know? i can’t even remember what i did last year for my fucking birthday because it’s just weeks of missing information. really teaches you how to live in the moment, and i’m sorry i missed so many.

[ahmuteun]

All pleease

1. Who was the last person you held hands with?

Uuuuhhhhh n LOL whoops

2. Are you outgoing or shy?

Depends on the situation but I think I’m more on the shy side

3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?

heheHEEHEHEHEH LET’S NOT GO THERE

4. Are you easy to get along with?

I mean I think so but idk

5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?

O boy

I mean he has the one time I died soooo

6. What kind of people are you attracted to?

Idfk man, I don’t have a type

7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?

LOL idk I’ll probably die single but I’ve been wrong before. H and t would probably say yes buT WE DON’T KNOW THE FUTURE NOW DO WE???

8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?

uuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?

It depends on the context/ situation

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?

Uummmmm I’m not sure, it was probably h or n maybe??

11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?

“When do u wanna go?”

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?

Moonlit lilac sky - jas

You and me - yoon mi rae

Countless - shinee

All night - soyou

History - rich brian

13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?

Yeah it’s nice

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?

Eeehhhhhh I guess I believe in luck but I do believe in miracles

15. What good thing happened this summer?

HAH

I mean I don’t know if I can list just one good thing that happened because, aside from all the drama and crap that went down, it was a good summer spent with people that I care about and created good memories with

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

I mean I plan on it so yes

17. Do you think there is life on other planets?

I do cause statistically speaking, it’s so unlikely that we’re the only living things in the universe, even if it’s just tiny little microbes

18. Do you still talk to your first crush?

Nah, I hardly ever spoke to him cause I was a shy little third grader LOL

19. Do you like bubble baths?

I don’t like baths at all lmao

20. Do you like your neighbors?

I mean I only talked to one of them but he seems chill so sure

21. What are your bad habits?

Procrastinating and making bad decisions™

22. Where would you like to travel?

Korea, but I still wanna go to Canada for spring break. Or just visit New York

23. Do you have trust issues?

Yep LOL

24. Favorite part of your daily routine?

Idk I don’t think I have a favorite part

25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?

Most of it LOL but specifically my belly and arms/ shoulders

26. What do you do when you wake up?

Wonder why I woke up before my alarm or snooze my alarm LOL

27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?

I’m already super pale and I’m fine with that so neither

28. Who are you most comfortable around?

My best buds: jen, cat, h, n, and t

29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?

Oof I mean I don’t really have one so nah

30. Do you ever want to get married?

Let’s cross that bridge when/ if we get there LOL

31. If your hair long enough for a pony tail?

I would cry if it wasn’t

32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?

Idk man I can’t be bothered to figure out two celebrities I would want to bang

33. Spell your name with your chin.

No

34. Do you play sports? What sports?

HAH no

35. Would you rather live without TV or music?

Tv, easily

36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?

O yeah

37. What do you say during awkward silences?

Idk I guess I just try to keep the conversation going however I can

38. Describe your dream girl/guy?

I don’t have one

39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?

Forever21, h&m, idk that’s it I think

40. What do you want to do after high school?

I’m already in college so

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?

No, it depends on the situation

42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?

It depends lmao wot

43. Do you smile at strangers?

Depends

44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?

Space cause that’s probably safer

Wait no, bottom of the ocean and I can just fuckin die LOL

45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?

The fact that I have shit I need to do

46. What are you paranoid about?

People finding out my secrets I guess??? Or something happening to the people I care about

47. Have you ever been high?

Nah, I mean I was once I got my wisdom teeth out but I don’t think that counts lol

48. Have you ever been drunk?

Yep LOL

Side note: my tolerance is not what it used to be :c

49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?

I mean people are already finding out so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?

HAHAHA pink lmao

51. Ever wished you were someone else?

Maybe when I was younger but not anymore

52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?

My body/ weight lmao

53. Favourite makeup brand?

Idk, I have a lot of tarte stuff so probably tarte

54. Favourite store?

Foverver21 probably

55. Favourite blog?

Idk I don’t have one

56. Favourite colour?

Blue

57. Favourite food?

KOREAN FOOD

58. Last thing you ate?

A sandwich

59. First thing you ate this morning?

A banana pancake

60. Ever won a competition? For what?

Idk I don’t think so

61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?

No, I’m a fuckin pansy

62. Been arrested? For what?

nOPE

63. Ever been in love?

I thought I was at one point but looking back, no

64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?

It’s honestly v underwhelming and not worth telling

65. Are you hungry right now?

I’m rlly full rn but h wants to go get pho with n later so hopefully by then I will be lmao

66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?

Nah, I don’t think I ever could cause my real friends have done so much for me

67. Facebook or Twitter?

Twitter

68. Twitter or Tumblr?

Idk both cause I use both

69. Are you watching tv right now?

Nah I’m watching youtube

70. Names of your bestfriends?

Jen, cat, h, n, and t

71. Craving something? What?

BOBA FUCK

72. What colour are your towels?

White

72. How many pillows do you sleep with?

Two if I’m at my own apartment LOL wot

73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?

Nah

74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?

Like three?? I had more but my mom got rid of them :c

75. Favourite animal?

My bb duke

76. What colour is your underwear?

Black

77. Chocolate or Vanilla?

Vanilla I think? It depends

78. Favourite ice cream flavour?

I’m too indecisive to have a flavor lmao

79. What colour shirt are you wearing?

Black

80. What colour pants?

Black LOL

81. Favourite tv show?

Grey’s anatomy

How to get away with murder

Brooklyn 99

Criminal minds

Idk there’s probably more but I can’t think of them

82. Favourite movie?

I have too many

The prestige

Star wars

Indiana jones

83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?

I never saw the second one so

84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?

I never saw jump street lmao

85. Favourite character from Mean Girls?

I don’t have one

86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?

I dunno, squirt was cute

87. First person you talked to today?

N LOL

88. Last person you talked to today?

Wait it was also probably n LOL

89. Name a person you hate?

I don’t hate anyone

90. Name a person you love?

My brothers

91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?

yES O MY GOD

92. In a fight with someone?

No not really???

93. How many sweatpants do you have?

Like one lmao

94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?

Well sweaters idk but I own like two hoodies but idk where one of them is soooo

95. Last movie you watched?

Uhhh venom I think?

96. Favourite actress?

Idk I don’t have one

97. Favourite actor?

See above

98. Do you tan a lot?

I’m called “ghost” for a reason so no LOL

99. Have any pets?

Yep

100. How are you feeling?

Very full lmao

101. Do you type fast?

I mean I can type at a relatively quick speed

102. Do you regret anything from your past?

Yep LOL

103. Can you spell well?

No not really lmao, but I’m not completely awful at it

104. Do you miss anyone from your past?

Uh, I mean if I can’t think of anyone I guess I don’t

105. Ever been to a bonfire party?

Nah

106. Ever broken someone’s heart?

LOL I mean apparently

107. Have you ever been on a horse?

Yeah

108. What should you be doing?

Going home and getting ready

109. Is something irritating you right now?

I mean kind of

110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?

Uh no?

111. Do you have trust issues?

Wasn’t I asked this already??

112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?

Everyone at tsdon lmao

113. What was your childhood nickname?

Uhhh “court” or “court court” as Jonathan would say lol

114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?

Ye, I go to school out of state

115. Do you play the Wii?

Not really anymore

116. Are you listening to music right now?

Still watching youtube lol

117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?

Ye

118. Do you like Chinese food?

Ye, I really want egg drop soup

119. Favourite book?

Idk man

120. Are you afraid of the dark?

Nah

121. Are you mean?

I mean I like to think that I’m generally a nice person or I try to be

122. Is cheating ever okay?

On tests/ assignments, sure. On people, no

123. Can you keep white shoes clean?

I just wash them lol

124. Do you believe in love at first sight?

No cause I’m not a fuckin idiot lmao

125. Do you believe in true love?

Idfk man

126. Are you currently bored?

Meh I’m not that bored

127. What makes you happy?

Spending time with my mates/ loved ones

128. Would you change your name?

Probably not

129. What your zodiac sign?

Gemini woooo

130. Do you like subway?

Ye

131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

HAH jokes on u, he used to but I already rejected his bitchass

He’s still one of my best friends tho, I’m really glad to have met him

Holy shit, that was like around this time last year woah

132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?

Didn’t I answer this too???

133. Favourite lyrics right now?

The lyrics from moonlit lilac sky by jas, you and me by yoon mi rae, and honestly by eric nam

134. Can you count to one million?

I mean I could but I don’t want to

135. Dumbest lie you ever told?

I dunno I can’t recall rn

136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?Open cause the ac unit is in the other room

137. How tall are you?

5’2, I’m smol

138. Curly or Straight hair?

My hair is straight/ kinda wavy

But if u mean preference then idk I don’t have one

139. Brunette or Blonde?

I don’t have a preference

140. Summer or Winter?

Winter, I hate the heat

141. Night or Day?

I like both

142. Favourite month?

Any fall or spring months

143. Are you a vegetarian?

Hell no lmao

144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?

I like dark and milk

145. Tea or Coffee?

TEA cause I’m a little bitch and I don’t like the taste of coffee

146. Was today a good day?

Yeah, I mean I hated working out but it was still a good day

147. Mars or Snickers?

I’m not crazy about either

148. What’s your favourite quote?

Idk, the quotes I used to really like don’t really apply anymore

149. Do you believe in ghosts?

Yes, cause I am one LOL

150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page?

I’m in the study section of the library and I can’t be bothered to go find a book in the stacks so I’ll pass lmao

[vanessaxyvonne]

Sugar Pink Liquor, Liquor Lips | V + NV

When: June 20th, 2021

Where: Circle Bar ; Vanessa's Penthouse

Warnings: Alcohol, Vomiting, Angst, Pregnancy mention (no, no one's pregnant)

Featuring: @niklausvondra

Texts from Circle Bar

Vanessa:

I know you hate meeee but I'm drunk rn

niklaus:

I don't hate you and why are you drunk?

Vanessa:

I’m celebrating!!!

I did a great thing again

niklaus:

Well glad to know that you're willing to text me drunk

but I don't hate you--my sister on the other hand

Vanessa:

I’d text you sober but like it’s complicated

I know I’m the treacherous slut

it’s why we can’t be together which isn’t fair but you know I’ll wait for you in the next life if you still like me

niklaus:

You're not a treacherous slut

there's just bad blood and nicole needs to get over it

You really think we will meet again in the next life?

Vanessa:

I am, Nick. That’s what I’ve always been. And she can tryy but she will always see me as the monster okay?

yeah, but!!!!! You gotta find me in the next life this time okay?

niklaus:

listen, Nicole is grown woman and it’s been years if she can’t get over it, then you move on. You have a company and better friends

Yes, I’ll find you

Vanessa:

that means I lose you too

I wish we were in our new lives right now, I bet it’s better. We’d be happy

niklaus:

news flash, I am my own person. If you cut ties with Nicole for good then you won’t lose me

Who knows, life could be cruel

Vanessa:

you promise???

life without you is crueler

niklaus:

yeah

Vanessa:

I almost did something stupid and my friends would’ve been so upset with me

niklaus:

what did you do

Vanessa:

well I did it anyways

I drank more ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

niklaus:

oh my god

why am I not surprised

you do realize you’re going to be hating yourself in the morning, right?

Vanessa:

I knowww

I gotta numb the existential dread somehow

can you pick me up? I promise I won't puke or hit on you

niklaus:

Where are you

Vanessa:

I'm at Circle bar

niklaus:

awesome, I’m down the road at a friends. I’ll be there in ten mins

Vanessa:

Okayyyyy

thank you nick

Nessa sat outside the bar in the waiting area and because of her charm, she made friends with the bouncer who kept her drunk self safe until Nick arrived. Of course, she was trying her hardest not to completely pass out when she perked up at the familiar green eyes and lop-sided dimpled grin. "Niiick!" She drawled out excitedly. "I'm so glad you're here!"

niklaus vondra.

After leaving a friends home, the disappointment in their eyes as he left made him chuckle, making way over to where Vanessa was at he walked along the side walk and saw her sitting there, he nodded his head. “I said I would come and grab you, I have an Uber waiting,” he held out his hands for her to take.

Vanessa grinned as she took his hands with a big smile. "My hero!!" She said with drunken excitement. "D'you know what? I left the fuzzy tiara that one of the really super nice bachelorettes gave to me. I'm so gutted but I can't go back," She rambled. "Also, I'm a bit tired."

niklaus vondra.

”You look hammered,” nick smiled and helped her up, reaching up to lightly pat down her hair and held out his arm. “We’ll get you some food and tuck you right into bed. Then you should be good to go.” He reached to hold onto her and lead them away from the entrance.

“Yes, yes I am,” She retorted. “I wanted to be hammered and railed but that didn’t work out. The gal had a jealous boyfriend. Who knew?” Nessa giggled as she took Nick’s arm and stumbled alongside him. “Ooh I really want bagels, are there any bagel shops open this hour, you think?”

niklaus vondra.

Nick swallowed down the jealousy, reminding himself he had no right and that he was just coming from one of his ‘friends’ places before getting her. “That lad is probably cheating on the side if he allowed you to flirt with him,” he pointed out and laughed, “Bagels? I highly doubt it.”

Vanessa looked over at Nick and laughed. "No no no, silly. I was hitting on his girlfriend and she flirted right on back and even held my face and called me a goddess but the lad got a bit butt hurt because I might've gotten her a bit flustered," She drunkenly rambled with the brightest smile. "Ugh. I wanted a bagel. What should we go eat, Niklaus?"

niklaus vondra.

”Oh, now that makes more sense, no wonder….” He thought out loud and laughed, “should’ve offered a threesome, a win for all three people.” opening the door and assisting her into the Uber. “We can always grab in and out?”

"It does, doesn't it?" Nessa giggled at the thought for a moment and sighed. "I don't like sharing, that's the issue. I've tried it before, it didn't work out," She shrugged and carefully slid into the Uber. "Hmmm, okay. Burgers sound great right about now, yeah?"

niklaus vondra.

”Really? I find it all the more fun,” he shrugged, but that was most likely due to enjoying the attention on both ends. He often wondered if it was due to his disorder or the fact he craved attention and wanted to try something different. “burgers and fries? Yes.”

"Well, that's 'cos you're you," Nessa poked at Nick's chest with a smirk. She then followed up with, "I just like the attention on me and I know the other person won't give me their full attention. So if it's just me and the other person, I'll command attention easier. Plus...makes the escape easier in the morning." She let out a small sigh and rested her head on Nick's shoulders. "Burgers and fries sound amaaazing! We used to do that all the time, remember?"

niklaus vondra.

Nick laughed, he remembered vaguely of her always wanting attention, especially in the bedroom but he wasn’t about to make that commentary. “Are we going to take a walk down memory lane?” He laughed and asked the driver if he could stop by in and out. He tried to not show affection towards her, to make it easier on both of them, but it was getting hard with her touching him and trusting him.

A giggle bubbled up from Vanessa as she said, "Well why not? I'm drunk and I'm feeling a bit nostalgic on the mention of In N Out. Besides, it's been years since I've last gone." There came the first admission there. Now the logical part of her wanted to sit up straight and shut up and opt to just go home, but between the mixed alcohol and her own emotions, things were bound to spill out of her. "Just humor me for a moment, will you?"

niklaus vondra.

Niklaus shakes his head and slowly caved in, “Fine…but just so you know, once we start bringing up embarrassing memories, I’m out.” He joking said as he pulled out his phone to see messages, ones he didn’t want to look at nor respond too, placing it back into his pocket, Nick glanced over at Nessa.

"I promise, no embarrassing stories, we'd have to mutually be drunk for that one," Nesssa pointed with a knowing grin. "Do you remember..." She began and then hiccuped, "Do you remember when we would sneak out at times just to get ice cream at that one parlour?"

niklaus vondra.

Nick laughed at the memory, “Yeah, I should have known you would be a bad influence,” he teased, “I do remember the sweetness of the ice cream that I don’t think I could eat today.”

"Me? A bad influenceeee? Poppycock! You were the one that convinced me to start sneaking out," Nessa nudged Nick with a cheeky grin. "Wait, really??? D'you lose your sweet tooth?"

niklaus vondra.

He laughed at her, “Oh please, one time and you’re a goner since then.” He shake his head toward, flashing her a lopsided smile and shrugged. “Taste buds change as you get older.”

"One time? Now you're definitely bluffing! You always pitched the sneaking around to get ice cream until I caught on!" She shot a look over towards him. Her own smile matching his lopsided grin...she missed that smile and all she wanted to do was kiss that smile, but luckily, she still had that sense to hold her back. "What do you prefer now?"

niklaus vondra.

”I think it’s a tie between crepes and lemon squares.” He admitted, it was wild to think he once had a sweet tooth and now, now it was like he didn’t care much for it, he placed it on it being an age thing but maybe once she left things just tasted bitter.

“Ooh very Parisian! You’ve got a bit of a tart tongue. I like that.” Nessa giggled as she went to reach for Nick’s hand, mostly to play with his long fingers. Any little detail or thing kept the drunken designer curious. “It’s your turn to say a memory and don’t say you don’t remember ‘cos it’s repressed. None of our experiences together was traumatic—well until the end. That’s definitely a bit fuzzy.”

niklaus vondra.

Nick smiled, “what can I say, if life is going to be bitter, at least make it bittersweet.” He shrugged, at least that was the motto he was going for in the least. As she played with his fingers, he didn’t pull away and allowed her to distract herself but when she asked to mention a memory, he stayed silent. He wanted to play it off, wanted to make some silly joke but knew that would be impossible. “I guess…when we were trying to reach Nicole how to drive and she almost killed us,” he decided to bring up.

“I like that motto,” Nessa beamed excitedly. “Reminds me of that one song…a spoonful of sugar makes the medicine go down. It’s bittersweet,” she nodded in agreement. She continued to play with his fingers, paying attention to every detail. It almost felt like a flashback to years ago. When he spoke again, she looked up to him and she giggled. “Oh bloody hell, that was terrifying. The way she slammed on the brakes and we went lurching forward. I’m surprised the seat belt didn’t strangle us!” She responded incredulously. “I miss those days.”

niklaus vondra.

Nick softly laughed, “Yeah and to think she got her licenses,” he let out a sigh and nodding his head. “They were good memories, but I have hope that one day things can go back to normal or at least everyone make up.”

"Oh my god, right? That's a miracle that she did, but I'm glad she did," Nessa giggled and let out her own sigh. "They were!! Wait really, you do?" She looked over at him. "What makes you so sure?"

niklaus vondra.

”I think at some point you just grow up and learn to forgive what you’ve done in the past. I mean it can be a lot to come to forgiving and I know my sister, she will come around maybe not right now but she will.” Niklaus held hope for Nicole to get over the past, especially after finding out the actual reason and perhaps get on good terms with Vanessa again. He knew that their breakup hurt Nicole a lot and he hated the fact it was because of his selfish reasons.

“Hmmmm, I’d say that makes sense yeah. She’s a bit stubborn but, she’s still got a good heart. It’ll take her a bit…when she’s ready. She knows where to find me so we can cry together,” Nessa pointed out with the most bubbliest giggle. It was a laugh that reminded her of her younger self for a moment but she shook off the thought. “By the way…I do have something to confess ‘cos there was this wild scandal of me and a pregnancy test and bloody hell, everyone thought I was expecting and d’you know what? I wasn’t! Trixie, actually had a pregnancy scare from her ex back in college. The paps spun it to a whole different thing, though.”

niklaus vondra.

Hearing her ramble, he had a soft smile on his face, it felt like old times when she was drunk and he was of course taking care of her. But hearing the confession had him stiffen, he remembered seeing the tabloid and did something completely stupid but he later found out why he made impulsive decisions. “oh…so that’s what that was…here I thought you got knocked up, guess it would’ve been better to ask you than assume.”

Nessa could feel Nick's body freeze up for a moment while she played with his fingers, so carefully, she linked her fingers with his and looked up towards him. She was crossing that line to comfort him. "Nuh-uh. Never ever. My career was just taking off, I couldn't do that, you know? Funny part is, I had just gotten my IUD implanted like days ago and I had to release those forms to the press. That was probably the most violated I ever felt in the spotlight, but you know," She shrugged.

niklaus vondra.

Nick nodded his head, he remembered that night clearly, recalled the tabloid days later and the sense of regret but now he just came to terms with everything. He was fine with being by himself, it was less of a hassle. He wondered if he would ever want a family, he didn’t exactly have the best role models but at least he could be the best uncle. “Tabloids would do that to you…I’m sorry you had to go through that by yourself.”

Nessa didn't bother mentioning the other specifics as to why she had the IUD because of her crazy obsessive ex who tried to anchor her down, she was far too drunk to care about that. However, she didn't see herself much of a motherly figure, especially after practically raising her little brother. The thought of motherhood terrified her...the thought of stopping her career for motherhood was even more terrifying. "They doooo sadlyyyy. Don't worry, I gave them another thing to talk about a week later when I dumped my ex during fashion week. I sound so jaded, I swear!"

niklaus vondra.

Nick couldn’t help but to laugh at her response, it appeared that nothing rarely ever stops her from reaching her full potential each and every time. “I mean, without that passion, you wouldn’t have made it to where you are.” He pointed out, “besides, nothing screams revenge than being successful.”

A giggle bubbled up from her lips and she sighed, “Ah, I’d ‘spose you’re right. All that passion became success and that was my most righteous revenge.” She sighed once more, “It sucks, sometimes. Cos everyone waits for me to fuck up. It adds this immense amount of pressure, you know?…I miss talking about these things with you. Our fears, our hopes, our accomplishments. I have to be bloody drunk to get all of this out of my system ‘cos my sober self would just…put up a wall.”

niklaus vondra.

He realized that he too missed these sort of talks himself, he once tried to hold a conversation like this with his sister but instead it turned more into a lecture. With Vanessa, it was a soothing moment where she didn’t second guess his choices and he didn’t with hers. “It’s okay, sometimes we are too afraid to admit things, alcohol just seems to enjoy bringing all that forth.”

Vanessa nodded in agreement to Nick. “Yes it does. Very much so!! So…I do believe it’s your turn again,” She giggled, wiggling her eyebrows. That was the dynamic she loved and missed between them two. There was no questioning, there was no judgement. There was, instead, encouragement and calm. It was what she missed the most with Nick.

niklaus vondra.

”My turn for what?” He jokingly said before stopping to hear the driver announced they were there to order, “what did you want again?” He asked Vanessa, his window rolled down to place an order.

“Ah ah ah, don’t play coy with me, Niklaus,” Nessa playfully scolded until they arrived to In N Out. “Hmmm I want a hamburger with fries and a sprite, pleaseeee,” she said with the cutest smile.

niklaus vondra.

Nick ordered their order and they went back to waiting in line, “Anyways, do you plan on going back to Paris for that fashion week or did it past? I feel like there’s always fashion week somewhere. Unless I’m just clueless.” He laughed, he knew that it was due to him not being able to stay on one subject for long, he kept the window down to breath in the cool air.

“Perhaps…it’s not until October and you know Santa Monica loves to go all out for Halloween. I’d have to see, but if I doooo, I’ll be sure to take pictures….or you know perhaps sober me will be on better terms with you and we could go,” Nessa drunkenly offered with a smile. “You’re not clueless at all, I’m glad that you keep up!” She beamed excitedly. “Ugh it feels so nice outside. I might fall asleep on the balcony when I make it back home.”

niklaus vondra.

”We are not letting you pass out on the balcony…that’s very dangerous,” he stated very firmly, the thought of her accidentally hurting herself or something worse. “We can leave the window open for you while you rest, I’ll stay until you are sleep talking, how about that?”

Her eyes widened at Nick’s quick assertion and she shrugged. “There’s a futon sofa I always collapse on that’s there, I never go near the edge,” She sighed, knowing there’d be no arguing with him in her state. “Okay, on one condition though. You have to play with my hair like you used to do when I was drunk to help me sleep.”

niklaus vondra.

Nick couldn’t help but to laugh at her demand, “fine, I’ll do just that so you can sleep. But please don’t puke, cleaning up after puke is the worse.” He jokingly stated, lightly caressed her hand in his and lightly patted the back of her hand.

“I won’t, don’t worry. It’s been a very very verryyyy long time since that’s happened. I think when the window opened it would’ve hit,” Nessa giggled. “Why are you so to me after all these years?” she asked as she rested her head on his shoulder again.

niklaus vondra.

Sometimes he wished that he didn’t have to speak, but here she was, asking questions in which he tried to divert everything. He didn’t have it in him to deny her the answers nor had it in him to even be remotely mean to her. “I’m not a complete dick head as to what people seem to believe I am.”

Nessa being Nessa always asked the hard questions whether she was sober or completely drunk off her ass. She wanted to know and dive deeper as to why Nick treated her so well even after all this time. She shook her head and sighed, “Nooo, that’s not what I mean! You’ve always been sweet, despite what anyone says. I just don’t get why now. I’d think you know, you’d hate sober me by now. I mean, well, me. ‘Cos I’m not the little princess I was and you fell for that one…well—“ she paused for a moment and then said, “At least I think you did. I dunno. Nicole said I was delulu about it.”

niklaus vondra.

”Delulu? Are you trying to say delusional?” He asked amused as hell with her drunk talk, the driver drove off once he got the food and he grabbed the bag, handing out food for her and looked at her, “if Nicole said those, you do realize she was just saying that to hurt you, surprised you haven’t noticed since you two were once so close.”

“Yeah! That word!!!” She giggled, shaking her head. Her eyes lit up at the food and she did an excited wiggle when she took the burger and carefully opened it up to take a bite. “I know she did, but I just wanted to know, since you know…we never got to say it. Tragic, innit?” She took another bite of her burger and sighed.

niklaus vondra.

Nick took a piece of fry and chewed on it, “Ness…why do you keep bringing up the past?” He asked, “I thought you moved on?” Maybe he was hoping she moved on, wanted her to not be stuck on him, he was nothing compared to the empire she grew. He had his own demons he had to deal with but it was a never ending battle for himself.

“Because it came back,” Nessa said as she took another bite. She wound up wrapping it back up as the question sank deeper. “I can’t let my past haunt me, so I ask questions so I can sleep at night. Soooo, if this is you’re way of saying you’ve moved on, then you know, we can be done with it and I can walk home,” She responded rather stubbornly. At this point, she wasn’t sure if she’d make it home walking but, the question stung. “I have moved on. Multiple times. Neither of them worked out as you can see. Thanks for the bloody reminder,” she huffed.

niklaus vondra.

He knew he should have kept his mouth shut but seeing her acting like this, it made him realize that they both were hurting. Just finding ways to cope differently, but almost similar. “I’m not saying it to get you feeling guilty or anything, it’s just…every time I see you intoxicated, you bring up the past. I don’t want to see you stuck in the past…as for you doing things multiple times…it just means you have shit taste in people.”

The logical side of Nessa knew two things, one, both of them were experiencing a nostalgic type of hurt and two, he was right. And even then, the drunk and incredibly stubborn side of her couldn’t see reason. “Because I’m drunk, Niklaus and the only thing I remember from us, is the past we have no present! So excuse meee for getting nostalgic but I’m not bound to the past,” She spat out. At his next comment she could feel the tears burning her eyes. It was true…but it didn’t hurt any less. She got quiet afterwards and unlinked their hands to wipe the tears that began falling. “Just drop me off here. I’ll walk. I don’t care how far I am, I’ll walk until I make it home. I’ll figure it out, I always do.”

niklaus vondra.

Nick silently cursed, the driver meeting his eyes in the review mirror, in which he shook his head as looked outside to see they were getting close to her place. “I’m not letting you walk home alone, especially at night.” He stated firmly, maybe he was stubborn but he would be stricken with worry of the idea something happening to Vanessa.

Nessa simply glared at Nick through her tears and didn’t say another word. She simply turned her body towards her own window. The drunken angry tears just kept coming and she kept sitting there stubbornly wiping them away and trying to even out her breathing. Sure, she was acting like her typical drunken primadonna self, but what he said really did hurt.

niklaus vondra.

Nick felt his high leave, and felt sobriety kicking in, in which something he wished he didn’t have to feel. But he did feel guilty for snapping at her like that, seeing her wipe away her tears stubbornly, Nick sighed as he placed all the food back into the bag and felt the car stop. He muttered thanks to the driver and go out to follow after Vanessa when he knew fully well she would tell him to leave her alone.

As soon as the car came to a stop and she heard the car doors unlock, Nessa stumbled out of the car and to her penthouse building as she continued wiping tears and stifling her sobs as she took a hold of the door. She could hear Nick’s footsteps behind her. She gripped onto the door handle mostly to hold her balance as she sobbed out loud now. “Leave me alone!” She could feel the anger rising in her chest, “It wasn’t my fault that you all pretended to love me!” She turned around, the anger and hurt apparent in her eyes as the purple stained tears continued to fall. “I’m put together again. I’m not broken. Yeah, I wanted to know why you hurt me and yet, you do it again! What did I ever do to you?!” She asked, stumbling towards him and poking at his chest. “I did nothing to you! I did nothing!!!”

niklaus vondra.

Nick held onto the food, he allowed her to lash out at him, he knew that she needed to get this off her chest. Yet he also knew, no he wanted her to hate him, maybe some part of him thinks he deserves it. He was the one to ask the questions, piss on her effort to fix things between them. So many maybes running through his head. “Did I say you were broken Vanessa? Fuck sakes, I just asked a simple question because you kept bringing up memories—which exactly what they were—memories.” His voice raising as he matched the same energy with her, Niklaus could feel those emotions he struggled to keep back, but seeing her like this…accusing him of not loving her, it pained him. “I moved on—I thought ‘oh we can be friends, it won’t hurt anyone’ but clearly we can’t even do that!”

Vanessa shook her head, "No, you said I just picked shitty people and I didn't pick to be heartbroken so many times! I never chose that, I never wanted that. You asked a simple question and I gave you a simple little answer and that was because that's all we have! We don't have anything else but memories!" She could feel her voice going hoarse from yelling, or was it from the crying, or maybe the alcohol. She couldn't remember, but all she could feel was this immense amount of anger. This is why she couldn't get drunk...she was far too vulnerable. "You can't be friends with people you hurt until you can be brave enough to face that you've hurt them and you can't even do that! You just fucking run!" She echoed right on back. She was going to make another statement until she felt her mouth water and she took a breath turned around, walked a few steps, towards the bushes, and puked.

niklaus vondra.

He was about to say something back when he saw her run off and the sound of puking made him wince. He knew that was going to kick her in the ass tomorrow. Sighing as he walked over towards her and set the bag down beside him and grabbed her hair, while rubbing her back with the other hand. “Vanessa, let me get you inside.”

All it took was emotions for her to get sick, how lovely, she thought to herself. She was just lucky enough to not have done it in front of Nick or on her outfit, at least. Even then just as she finished, she felt a hand take her hair to hold it back from it getting gross and a soothing back rub. As much as Vanessa wanted to protest stubbornly, she sighed. "Okay...fine," She said hoarsely as she lifted her head up pitifully and carefully reached over to the bag to grab a napkin to wipe her chin with a saddened look.

niklaus vondra.

He felt a small smile appear on his face at her defeat, he nodded his head and helped her up, walking them toward inside. “Okay, c’mon…”he said softly, his voice almost a whisper but deep enough, Niklaus could feel the urge to comfort her but the idea of taking advantage of her under the influence didn’t sit right with him. But he knew he wouldn’t be able too when sober. Once they reached inside, he helped her toward her bedroom, setting the bag onto the counter.

Nessa followed Nick inside, holding onto him to steady herself and keep herself from falling. It was a struggle, but she would make it there soon. It was a strange comfort knowing Nick was still there despite hurting each other’s feelings just moment ago. Once they made it inside her apartment and to her bedroom, she sprawled across the bed. “Thank you…” she muttered.

niklaus vondra.

He chuckled as he took her shoes off and nodded his head, “I wasn’t going to let you stay passed out in the streets, I’m not a complete dickhead.” He said and placed the shoes down nearby, helping her get comfortable before grabbing a trash bin and set it beside the bed. He got up to go into the kitchen to grab water and a bottle of pain meds before sitting down at the edge and pat her leg. “Okay, you should be set for the morning, garbage near you and water right on the night stand along with meds.”

Vanessa let out a rather dry chuckle and shook her head tiredly, "You could have and I wouldn't have blamed you." She watched Nick from taking off her shoes and getting the pain meds for her and water, and it didn't click to her as to why he was so nice to her, even after hurting her...even after she hurt him. She didn't say anything at first when he came back and told her the game plan, she just gazed at him, blinking slowly. She wanted to bring up the hair thing, but finally the sober part of her held her tongue in that aspect, which made the drunk part of her tear up again. She quietly nodded and curled up towards her blankets and turned away from him.

niklaus vondra.

He watched her turn away from him, a small sigh escaped his lips, he tried to say something—anything to make the matters less terrible then where they were at now. But words were said and he was at his limit from becoming a complete douche. “Feel better in the morning,” he said softly and stood up from the mattress, grabbing the food from the counter to place in the fridge.

There was a moment where part of her wanted to tell him to wait, but the other part wanted to tell him to fuck off. She was caught in between the two, but managed to softly mumble out a "thank you", as she sniffled lightly, making it clear she was still upset...but holding on strongly to her pride.

[the-punforgiven]

ALL OF THEM, 1 TO 150

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Aight, let’s go I guess

I’mma put it under a readmore since it’s pretty long lmao

1. Who was the last person you held hands with?My cat lmao

2. Are you outgoing or shy?Shy

3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?@cardiac-ossification​, someday

4. Are you easy to get along with?I mean once you get used to the fact that I barely speak and that one-word responses do not mean I don’t want to talk to you, I guess maybe?

5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?Most likely

6. What kind of people are you attracted to?Pretty much anyone who could kick my ass lmao

7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?I sure hope so

8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?@cardiac-ossification​

9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?Depends on who I’m talking about it with honestly, like for the most part yeah, but like if I’m really close with someone then that changes things somewhat lmao

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?….. Also @cardiac-ossification​

11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?Rad

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?

A Sound of Thunder - Hello Nurse

Whispered - Strike

Children of Bodom - All Twisted

Ye Banished Privateers - Lamentation of a Marooned Sailor

Arsis - Unwelcome (but like the whole album lmao)

13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?Yes

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?Yeah

15. What good thing happened this summer?Bold of you to assume I remember when anything has happened

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?No

17. Do you think there is life on other planets?Oh absolutely, whether that’s just like, microbes or something I dunno but thinking of the entire vastness of space I find it really hard to believe that this planet’s the only one with life

18. Do you still talk to your first crush?No

19. Do you like bubble baths?I guess? To be honest I haven’t had one since I was a kid Probably since I don’t actually even fit into the tub anymore lmao

20. Do you like your neighbors?I don’t think I’ve actually met them lmao, I’ve talked to them like twice when they asked me to help find their dog but they seem alright lmao

21. What are you bad habits?Procrastinating and just fucking forgetting literally fucking everything

22. Where would you like to travel?Norway and Wisconsin are my two big ones

23. Do you have trust issues?Yeah? I feel like I tend to trust people too easily lmao

24. Favorite part of your daily routine?Sending cute good morning messages to my girlfriend lmao

25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?Probably either my stomach or my body hair honestly

26. What do you do when you wake up?Open my eyes Roll around a bit and immediately grab my phone lmao

27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?Not really, I honestly don’t care, it’s gonna be gone soon enough anyway

28. Who are you most comfortable around?Fun game take a shot everytime I tag @cardiac-ossification​

29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?No

30. Do you ever want to get married?Maybe

31. If your hair long enough for a pony tail?Yeah.

32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?¯\_(ツ)_/¯

33. Spell your name with your chin.Today I have learned that I can’t actually lean that far down

34. Do you play sports? What sports?No? I mean I spar a bit and would love to try out the Armored Combat League, if that counts?

35. Would you rather live without TV or music?TV, I’d honestly probably die without music lmao

36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?Yeah

37. What do you say during awkward silences?bold of you to assume I can talk at all

38. Describe your dream girl/guy?Literally just @cardiac-ossification​ lmao

39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?Can’t say I really have any that spring to mind, honestly, like if they sell guitars, cd’s, or swords then I’m gonna be good but I don’t have an actual favourite place lmao

40. What do you want to do after high school?Visit my girlfriend, join a band, achieve omnipotence

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?I prefer to think of that sort of thing on a more case-to-case basis, but for the most part, Yes? 

42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?Extremely quiet’s just my natural state of being lmao Silent however usually just denotes that I’m in a horrible mood

43. Do you smile at strangers?I mean, I try to but I’ve also been told I’m like hella intimidating and I know I’ve got a pretty bad case of supervillain grin so I dunno it that’s actually the best idea lmao 

44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?If you’re offering I’d go with Space, since unlike the ocean I can’t just walk there

45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?Need for caffine and whatever the fuck you call those pills that stop heartburn I forget the name

46. What are you paranoid about?Everything. Though talking in my sleep’s a big one for some reason

47. Have you ever been high?No

48. Have you ever been drunk?Barely

49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?Yeah, though I mean someone already knows about it I’m just embarassed about that whole topic in general lmao

50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?I don’t actually remember since I like never wear hoodies anymore but probably Black

51. Ever wished you were someone else?Occasionally in a sort of brief non-serious way, but like intensely? No

52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?that’s really tough honestly, I’d probably want either more muscles or a fucking functioning brain

53. Favourite makeup brand?I don’t wear makeup lmao

54. Favourite store?Wasn’t this already asked?

55. Favourite blog?I’ve got a lot lmao, I can’t narrow it down to one, sorry…

56. Favourite colour?Black, if that counts, if not probably that one shade of purple

57. Favourite food? Spaghetti

58. Last thing you ate?Shepherd’s Pie

59. First thing you ate this morning?Bold of you to assume I’ve eaten today

60. Ever won a competition? For what?I honestly don’t think I have lmao, and if I did I don’t remember lmao

61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?I was suspended for like half my fuckin time in middle school because I’d just fuckin fight everyone if memory serves

62. Been arrested? For what?I haven’t lmao

63. Ever been in love? I am right now

64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?Uhhh, watching Tenacious D and the Pick of Destiny with my first girlfriend and I just kinda asked if she’d be down. She said yeah and… there we go. Fuckin… Great mood movie

65. Are you hungry right now?Yeah

66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?A lot of my real friends follow me on here so I’m not sure I can answer this lmao

67. Facebook or Twitter?I’m not terribly fond of either to be honest

68. Twitter or Tumblr?Tumblr, I guess

69. Are you watching tv right now?No

70. Names of your bestfriends? Thanks for pluralizing but I dunno if they’re comfortable with me giving out their names on the internet so I’mma err on the side of caution here lmao

71. Craving something? What?Uhhh meat lmao, I need the protien

72. What colour are your towels?We’ve got a lot of varying colours lmao

72. How many pillows do you sleep with?I mean there are two on my bed but I don’t actually use them they’re just kinda there lmao

73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?… Yes?

74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?Three? I’ve got a stuffed bear that I’ve had since I was a baby that’s just kinda rotting away in my closet, a stuffed hyena that I got from my wonderful girlfriend, and a plushie undead warlock that I got at a con lmao

75. Favourite animal?The Snow Tiger. Not only are they cute cats, but also majestic and aesthetic

76. What colour is your underwear?My what now Black

77. Chocolate or Vanilla?Chocolate

78. Favourite ice cream flavour?Cookie Dough I guess?

79. What colour shirt are you wearing?Black

80. What colour pants?Also black

81. Favourite tv show?¯\_(ツ)_/¯

82. Favourite movie?Kung Fury? I dunno I don’t remember like half the movies I watch

83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?I haven’t actually seen either of them lmao

84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?.. Haven’t seen 21 Jump Street either lmao

85. Favourite character from Mean Girls?Why are there so many Mean Girls questions

86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?¯\_(ツ)_/¯

87. First person you talked to today?My sister, who dutifully wakes me up every afternoon by destroying my fucking door jesus christ child calm down I’ve had to fix the thing like twice already

88. Last person you talked to today?I dunno, discord buddies

89. Name a person you hate?No one really springs to mind honestly, I don’t know if I’ve got anyone I really hate, y’know?

90. Name a person you love?@cardiac-ossification​

91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?Me

92. In a fight with someone?Also Me Not really lmao

93. How many sweatpants do you have?Exactly one that I made myself a few years ago. They’re falling the fuck apart and they’re pretty ugly since the only fabric I had available was that really gross camo green so I honestly don’t care lmao

94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?Like three? I think? I’ve kinda unofficially given them away to my brother and sister, but they’re still here so I dunno lmao

95. Last movie you watched?I don’t remember, I mean I was present in the room the other night while my roommate was watching the Hateful Eight but it’s a stretch to say I was actually watching it lmao

96. Favourite actress?¯\_(ツ)_/¯

97. Favourite actor?¯\_(ツ)_/¯

98. Do you tan a lot?No, I am disgustingly ginger so I don’t tan at all I just go straight to burning

99. Have any pets?I do! I have a cat, her name’s Groucho, and she’s the sweetest little thing! I live with another cat, two dogs, and a couple of birds but they’re not technically mine lmao

100. How are you feeling?Horrible, thank you for asking! I’m getting sick physically and I’m constantly reminded that I’m a defective fucking human being!

101. Do you type fast?Not really, like I type fast-ish in short bursts, but the space between them is regrettably long lmao

102. Do you regret anything from your past?Anything and everything! It’s only in the last couple of years have I really started to realize what an insufferable pile of shit I’ve been for my entire life and knowing that nobody’s ever gonna forget that really keeps me up at night!

103. Can you spell well?No

104. Do you miss anyone from your past?Not particularly.

105. Ever been to a bonfire party?I think so yeah

106. Ever broken someone’s heart?not that I know of?

107. Have you ever been on a horse?no

108. What should you be doing?Not being the most useless creature in the universe, contributing to society in literally any way, actually caring about my health, pursuing any hobbies, the list is endless!

109. Is something irritating you right now?Yeah!

110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?Also yeah lmao

111. Do you have trust issues?Yes, but I feel as if it’s more so in the sense that I trust people too quickly/easily rather than too little and- Wait wasn’t this also already asked?

112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?……. Also @cardiac-ossification​, kinda?

113. What was your childhood nickname?Uhhh, there were a lot and all of them were gross and insulting, so I’d rather not say lmao

114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?Yeah

115. Do you play the Wii?Back when we had one, yeah. I was a fucking god at Wii Boxing, and at one point had mastered getting that perfect angle to always hit strikes in Wii bowling. Fucking wish I could do that with actual bowling lmao

116. Are you listening to music right now?I am, currently checking something out that was in my recommended list, but I’m not sure if I’m really into it yet though

117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?Yeah

118. Do you like Chinese food?Yes! I especially love chow mein and ginger beef, the place in town that makes it is just the fuckin best. 

119. Favourite book?Overlord I guess? I dunno I barely ever read anymore

120. Are you afraid of the dark?Not unless I’ve been given a reason to be.

121. Are you mean?I… Try not to be…

122. Is cheating ever okay?No

123. Can you keep white shoes clean?no

124. Do you believe in love at first sight?Not really. I believe in attraction at first sight, but love’s something that I find needs to be built up over time? I guess?

125. Do you believe in true love?I think so, yeah?

126. Are you currently bored?Yeah

127. What makes you happy?@cardiac-ossification, music, art, and For Honor trailers lmao

128. Would you change your name?Maybe? I don’t really care about it enough to want to change it lmao

129. What your zodiac sign?Virgo

130. Do you like subway?Yeah! It gives me massive heartburn but it’s pretty great

131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?Calmly explain to them that I’m in a committed relationship already

132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?Say it with me now, @cardiac-ossification

133. Favourite lyrics right now?Not sure, I mean everything Gloryhammer’s ever written are great for a giggle but like on a serious tone, I’ve got nothin lmao

134. Can you count to one million?There is no way in hell I’d have the patience to lmao

135. Dumbest lie you ever told?There are way to many to choose, I am a fucking terrible liar lmao

136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?Closed

137. How tall are you?6′2

138. Curly or Straight hair?Is this question in terms of which I prefer or which I have? in which case I don’t really have a preference and mine is straight

139. Brunette or Blonde?Honestly I’m not sure? Like, my two favourite hair colours are like, jet black and blinding white lmao, all the rest of them I’m pretty neutral on lmao

140. Summer or Winter?Winter, on the sheer basis that I can be outside without having to sacrifice a good chunk of my flesh to the sun gods

141. Night or Day?Night

142. Favourite month?October, for obvious reasons

143. Are you a vegetarian?No

144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?Dark Chocolate, 100%. Milk Chocolate is a pretty good second place, but white chocolate just makes me sick

145. Tea or Coffee?Coffee

146. Was today a good day?meh, it had it’s highs and lows, so overall it’s about average I’d say

147. Mars or Snickers?Snickers, I guess

148. What’s your favourite quote?nothing springs to mind, aside from the super pretentious “Just because perfection is unattainable, doesn’t mean we shouldn’t strive for it” or however the fuck it went

149. Do you believe in ghosts?Yeah

150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page? “For this rough bunch who valued an adventurer’s strength above all, what he was saying made sense”

Thanks for the asks!

[raven-reyes-of-sunshine]

Would you looked at that, @dylanobrienisbatman is helping me procrastinate again! 

last (1-5)

drink - green cordial I think 

phone call - the power company, getting a restoration time 

text msg - ‘are you okay, bb?’ 

song you listened to - S-club Party - S-club 7 (that is the fault of my sister)

time you cried - in the terrible movie I watched last night!

ever..? (6-11)

dated someone twice - Yes, because I am an idiot.

kissed someone and regretted it - yes

been cheated on - yes (those last three are all the same)

lost someone special - yes

been depressed - yes

gotten drunk/thrown up - yes

fav colors (12-14)

Purple and pink and blue

in the last yr have you.. (15-21)

made new friends/mutuals - YES <3 <3 <3

fallen out of love - no

laughed until you cried - basically every day

found out someone was talking about you - yeah, probably. 

met someone who changed you - not hugely, but probably a little bit!

found out who your friends are - not in the last year, but definitely. 

kissed someone on your FB friends’ list - yes!

general (22-51)

how many of your FB friends do you know irl - most of them probably

do you have any pets - I have a cat and I love her! 

do you want to change your name - no, I like my name

what did you do for your prev. birthday - I went out for breakfast and then played arcade games because arcades still exist

what time did you wake up today - 10am-ish

what were you doing @ midnight last night - there is a definite possibility I was asleep, I’m not sure. 

what is something you can’t wait for - uhmm, quitting my job? 

what’re you listening to atm - whatever is on the tv currently. I’m not watching, but I can hear it.

have you ever talked to a person named Tom - several of them! 

something that’s getting on your nerves - the assignment I’m procrastinating. 

most visited site - tumblr and ao3, probably

hair color - brown

long/short hair - it’s short and I’m having another day where I wish I didn’t cut it.

do you have a crush on someone - I have a crush on Bob Morley

what do you like about yourself -  my new found ability to stand up for myself at the people I love

want any piercings - no, I’ve got the ones I want

blood type - I actually have no idea.

nicknames - Lyse/y, ‘you idiot’, work mum (by one of my juniors) 

relationship status - 💍💍

zodiac - Aries 

pronoun(s) - she/her

fav tv/on-air shows - The 100, Brooklyn 99, Criminal Minds at the moment

tattoos - I have a cat and a moon on my ankle, the word ‘Always’ on my ribs and I want to get some books and some stars at some point. 

rightie or leftie - a little bit of both

ever had surgery? - appendix, adenoids, sinuses and I know there is something I’ve forgotten

piercings - tragus, several more in both ears, belly button.

sports - good joke! 

trainers - like, on the off chance I go running I’ll wear them.  

more general (52-58)

eating - I just had a sandwich 

drinking - right now, I really need a coffee

i’m about to watch - apparently I have to watch Riverdale tonight and I am not excited. 

waiting for - the end of semester and the next episode of The 100 

want - a coffffeeeeeeeeee

get married - yeah :) 

career - early education or writing

which is better (59-65)

hugs/kisses - give me both

lips/eyes - sucker for some nice eyes, but give me both again

shorter/taller - taller

older/younger - older

nice arms/ stomach - arms

hookup/relationship - relationship :) 

troublemaker/hesitant - a little bit of both tbh.

have you ever (66-75)

kissed a stranger - yes

drank hard liquor - yes

lost glasses - every. single. day. of. my. life. 

turned someone down - yes

sex on first date - it wasn’t a date, but yeah  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 

broken a heart - it was mutual 

had your heart broken - ^^

been arrested - nooo

cried when someone died - yes

fallen for a friend - yesssss 

do you believe in.. (76-81)

yourself - for the most part

miracles - sometimes

love at first sight - I fell in love with Bellamy at first sight? 

santa claus - ofc, I spend all my time with children

kiss on a first date - yeah

angels - no, I’m a skeptic 

other (82-85)

best friend’s name - Mel

eye color - blue

fav movie - I hate this question, I can never answer it.

fav actor- Bob Morley obvi

I live for tag games and idk who’s been tagged and if you want to be tagged but hey, here we go! @to-the-bellindow-to-the-wall @granger--danger @dreamingofreadinggoals it’s the middle of the dsy but I am 3/4 asleep and can’t tag right now, so do this if you want and tag me <3 

[toukenra]

Merry Christmas Angels! 🎄💕

I wish all of you a peaceful and happy Christmas with your family and beloved ones and that you get to stuff your stomach with the most delicious Christmas roasts, cookies, gingerbreads and of course mulled wine hehe! (｡•̀ᴗ-)✧

I hope everyone will have a wonderful Christmas filled with a lot of joy and happiness and nice presents, after all all of you’ve been very good this year, right? (｡•̀ᴗ-)✧

Hopefully none of you will have to work all night long on Christmas Eve just like me, but at least I get to see my sweet little brother’s smile on Christmas Day again because we will be watching my all time favourite Christmas movie “A Nightmare before Christmas” oh I just love this movie!

Of course I haven’t forgotten about you, so as a little Christmas present from me, here are some Christmas headcanons on how Christmas would be celebrated in my citadel.. oh and trust me, there will be a lot of tears and chaos involved, because what’s a real Christmas without some chaotic mess right? ꉂꉂ(ᵔᗜᵔ∗)

To end this on a sweet note: Merry Christmas to all of you angels out there and a Happy New Year, I love all of you and hope you have a jolly Christmas! ଘ(੭*ˊᵕˋ)੭*

This got quite lengthy again so under the cut as not to blow up your dashboard..

A long time ago in a certain citadel far, far away (my nerdy self couldn’t stop herself from including this smol Star Wars reference forgive me) certain Sword Warriors were preparing for the most important holiday ..

being your attendants for the day Tomoegata and Hasebe forced you to stay in your room while everyone else was buzzing around the citadel to prepare for the evening

‘Aruji, please leave the preparations for this festive event to the other Touken Danshi. Your only task for today is to relax until tonight.’

even though you were more than thankful for this offer you couldn’t help but worry a little knowing them all too well 

…

… and rightly so because getting to celebrate a peaceful Merry Christmas in your Citadel? Dream on it’s more like a Merry Crisis

when the evening broke on they finally allowed you to leave your room and led you down the dining hall where a festival of dazzling lights and a Christmas Banner spelling something like ‘Marri Kurismas’ was awaiting you

your heart nearly lept out of your chest when everyone rushed forward and scream-yelled ‘MERRY CHRISTMAS ARUJI!’ at you

‘You did all of this for me? Oh my –thank you so much - everyone– I – just - Merry Christmas to you as well!’

you were nearly crying of joy when you realized just how much effort everyone must have put in decorating the Citadel for you

‘How much trouble did all of you went through to prepare this for me?’

Swelling with pride Hasebe grandiloquently waved your worries away ‘It really wasn’t that much trouble’ 

cue angry stares from everyone else and a more than grumpy Oodenta whispering ‘Yeah well not for you Mr. Loudmouth’ under his breath

now let’s rewind to the morning of Christmas Eve and what was happening while you were cooped up in your room wrapping your Christmas presents for everyone

…

…

let’s go back to the first crime scene: The Kitchen

it was quite obvious but calling the kitchen a chaotic mess was way understated

chocolate frosting and powder sugar was splattered everywhere but on the cookies (meaning on everyone’s faces)

Souza and Kousetsu were tasked with baking and cutting out cookies and Sayo decorates the most delicate and beautiful snowflake, flower and tanuki cookies fight me on this

Azuki was smitten with this tradition from the start, because now he could give everyone sweets and mother them to his hearts content and went into full sweets-making-mode while Kenshin was eagerly buzzing around him

being the Citadel’s own Grinch Ookurikara tried to escape just on the mentioning of another celebration but got hold back by a dangerously smiling Shokudaikiri who was holding a dough roll like a battle axe 

‘Kara-chan of course you’ll help too, will you?’ 😇 😇 😇

Translation: ‘Get in the fuck*ng Christmas spirit or I’ll cut you down’ 

Micchan vs. Kara-chan 1:0

cursing under his breath he and Yamanbagiri were tasked with hanging up the fairy lights 

which brings us to the second crime scene: The Dining Hall

poor men just wanted to be left alone but instead had to help hanging up chain of lights and garlands while some drunk on eggnog Fudou, Nihongou and Jiroutachi were singing some very disturbing Christmas canons they had composed themselves

cue Yamanbagiri muttering to himself: ‘Maybe I should hang myself instead of these Christmas lights’

bby no 

‘Even though I’m somewhat renowned as a sword who can cut through ghosts I’d rather not have to cut down your vengeful spirit on this festive occasion’ Nikkari was laughing cheerfully at him while reading ‘A Christmas Carol’ to Akita and Kenshin

way to get in the Christmas spirit darling

bigger swords like Tonbokiri, Oodenta, Otegine and Hachisuka were tasked with logging a fine Christmas tree and mistletoes in the woods (’Really? You’re making an original Kousetsu like me do something unspiritual like that?’)

If you’re asking what Jiji was doing then I can tell you that this lazy old man was sitting far away from the hustle and bustle and got himself pampered and entertained by Kogitsunemaru and Shishou

man just because you’re old doesn’t mean you can just ditch work to everyone else

i’m just kidding i love them very much and it’s probably good that Jiji wasn’t helping he’d probably just be in the way anyway lol

as usual Gokotais tiger cubs had escaped again and were leaving flour footprints everywhere, cue Ishikirimaru running like a madman to clean up behind them while poor Gokotai was bawling his eyes out again

they even left some on Kuniyuki’s face when they trampled over him but that lazy bastard was so busy sleeping he didn’t even mind that (how can anyone be so lazy, honestly? i am so in love)

meanwhile Kasen was in his room trying to write an elegant and refined Christmas banner but just couldn’t remember what this festivity was called like

‘Marri Kurismas. Yes yes, that’s what it was called like I’m sure of it!’ (almost honey, almost..)

after the Christmas tree had been installed in the dining hall (it only took 15 attempts to even get it inside and that one time where Kane-san and Mutsu nearly got buried under the tree because they were bickering who was stronger again) the Toushirous, Monoyoshi, Hyuuga, Aizen and Hotarumaru were decorating the tree with self-made ornaments out of little gems, shells, pie cones and candles

Ichigo and Yagen carrying every Tantou on their skinny shoulders through the whole citadel so they could hang up ornaments everywhere, can we agree on that?

they’re the best brothers in the world i’m sobbing why are they so perfect? 

in the meantime busy bees Horikawa and Urashima were running around and motivating everyone by serving Hot Chocolate whenever someone seemed tired out (these boys are angels guys, angels)

Namazuo and Honebami doing a leg-up so Honebami can be the one to put the star on the Christmas tree.. yeah that’s the kind of imagines I’m living for

sounds wonderful doesn’t it?

well it nearly ended in bloodshed when Tsurumaru and Taikogane who were throwing snowballs at each other nearly knocked down the Christmas tree the children had lovingly decorated

which leads us to crime scene number three: The Garden

unlike Germany for the last 10 years your Citadel had been blessed with a white Christmas and the Garden and roofs were covered up with a beautifully glistening blanket of snow

and what could be better than having a real snow fight and go sledding right?

since Tsurumaru got banned from helping he immediately had the glorious idea of having a snowball war in the garden

Tsurumaru, Sada-chan, Aizen, Hotarumaru, Koryuu were on one side while Kashuu, Yams, Yamabushi, Iwatooshi and Imanotsurugi were on the other team

and there were only some minor casualties like the snowball that flew right into Hasebe’s face when he was screaming out of your window

…

whoopsie  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 

run guys.. run as fast as you can, leave the country, get yourself a new identity but RUN 

.. yeah no big trouble at all ꉂꉂ(ᵔᗜᵔ∗)

back to Christmas Eve and handing out of presents

You had knitted everyone something warm like gloves and scarfs and little beanies for the Tantous so they wouldn’t get a cold when they have to battle in winter, and even stitched everyone’s crests on their scarfs

let’s skip the tearful and cheesy speeches of thanks everyone was throwing alright?

well but one moment was worth mentioning, and that is Hizamaru crying over Higekiri giving him a present even though he wrote his name wrong on the gift tag cue Iwatooshi patting both of them on their back ꉂꉂ(ᵔᗜᵔ∗)

at least he tried

of course Micchan surpassed himself by light years and made you the most beautiful yule log you’ve ever seen 

(my self indulgence is showing I’m sorry angels)

“You told me this was the season of giving your loved ones gifts right? So I hope you’re going to enjoy this I tried to make it based on your desciptions but it may not be sweet enough .. though nothing could be as sweet as you anyway.’

geez save the cheesy lines for someone else

I’M JUST KIDDING MARRY ME MARRY ME MARRY ME

maybe Touken Danshi aren’t the best at celebrating Christmas but they always have good intentions and it became a happy Christmas with a lot of laughter (and eggnog) because being with your loved ones is the most important thing on Christmas after all

..but wait, who’s going the wash the dishes ok i’m outta here ~

I hope you enjoyed it and Merry Christmas angels! (*˘︶˘*).｡.:*♡

-Mod Pancake 🥞

[erizee]

I got tagged by @snowie130 (aand I’m late)

Last:

1. drink: pepsi

2. phone call: either my friend or my driver’s teacher, not sure

3. text message: my mom telling me dad is picking me up instead of her

4. song you listened to: YMCA

5. time you cried: last sunday after the sport made me angry and i felt bad about it

Ever:

6. dated someone twice: lol I never dated anyone ever

7. kissed someone and regretted it: never kissed anyone at all

8. been cheated on: nope

9. lost someone special: yep

10. been depressed: not sure if u mean actual depression or just feeling terrible, but i spent last saturday and sunday mostly crying so

11. gotten drunk and thrown up: nope and I hope it won’t happen

Fave colours:

12. blue

13. light brown

14. purple

In the last year have you…

15. made new friends: yessss (friend-wise it was the best year of my life)

16. fallen out of love: the opposite probably

17. laughed until you cried: I’m not sure but probably yes

18. found out someone was talking about you: I’m paranoid enough about that already ok I don’t want to know

19. met someone who changed you: doesn’t everyone change u a little? idk bro

20. found out who your friends are: what

21. kissed someone on your facebook friend list: no kisses, no facebook

General:

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know irl: I don’t have facebook anymore so none i guess?

23. do you have any pets: i used to but they died 2-3 years ago

24. do you want to change your name: nah I got used to it

25. what did you do for your last birthday: saw lego batman with my friends in the cinema and ate pizza and got a lil drunk

26. what time did you wake up today: 6:00 am

27. what where you doing at midnight last night: I wish I could say I wasn’t on tumblr

28. what is something you can’t wait for: being done with school, moving out, starting university, not being single, my ships being canon (esp nygmob)

30. what are you listening to right now: nothing but my playlists are mostly musicals or 80′s pop music right now

31. have you ever talked to a person named tom: back when i was still religious there was a guy called tom at bible camp that led one of the groups and i was terrified of him

32. something thats getting on your nerves: the people in my school, maths, my maths teacher (sorry that was my last lesson today so I’m still annoyed)

33. most visited website: tumblr, ao3, youtube and netflix

34. hair colour: orignially middle brown, dyed it to dark brown

35. long or short hair: it goes down to my shoulders but I kinda want to make it shorter

36. do you have a crush on someone: i hate it but yes and i want to die

37. what do you like about yourself: my grades? idk I’m a really fast learner so that’s nice

38. want any piercings? nah but I think I might want to get a tattoo sometime

39. blood type: bru i have no idea

40. nicknames: connibal (cuz i bit someone that one time) and connickel (my name + bunny in german)

41. relationship status: single (pls kill me)

42. zodiac: aquarius

43. pronouns: she/her

44. fave tv show: gotham and hannibal are The Best, atla is eternal fave and brooklynn 99 + the good place + one day at a time are comfort shows (also sense8 is a+++)

45. tattoos: nope

46. right or left handed: left! :D

47. ever had surgery: wisdom teeth

48. piercings: unless the closed holes in my ears count no

49. sport: handball since I was like 5 years old and ice skating is rly cool (literally)

50. vacation: every summer me and my family visit a different place (+ visiting my grandma in eastern germany in autumn or spring)

51. trainers: … what

More General:

52. eating: everything salty or spicy is automatically fave

53. drinking: hot chocolate and pepsi are everything i drink (+ sometimes coffee)

54. i’m about to watch: nothing because I need to sleep soon and I’m running out of things to watch (help me)

55. waiting for: my next exams and gotham

56. want: to move out and have my own place with my own stuff in it

57. get married: yes pls

58. career: i’ll study history so i’ll do whatever I can do with that

Which is better:

59. hugs or kisses: I mean it’s not like I have much experience but hugs are nice

60. lips or eyes: eyes

61. shorter or taller: i don’t really care honestly

62. older or younger: as long as it doesn’t get creepy I don’t care here either

63. nice arms or stomach: ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

64. hookup or relationship: relationship

65. troublemaker or hesitant: a mix of both tbh

Have you ever:

66. kissed a stranger: nope

67. drank hard liquor: probably yes (baileys and cocktails and red wine are fave)

68. lost glasses: i don’t need glasses

69. turned someone down: if yes I don’t remember

70. sx on first date: hahahahaahahaha no

71. broken someone’s heart: I don’t think so??

72. had your heart broken: does finding out your crush isn’t single count

73. been arrested: nope

74. cried when someone died: yep

75. fallen for a friend: yea but I was at least 5 years younger than now and that’s basically a baby

Do you believe in:

76. yourself: I try but it doesn’t always work

77. miracles: nah not really

78. love at first sight: idk bro

79. santa clause: not since my childhood friend told me he’s not real when i was like 6

80. kiss on a first date: if u want to, do it? bru idk

81. angels: nope, I’m as religious as a lamp

Other:

82. best friend’s name: I can't if my friend is a best friend so (howw)

83. eye colour: blue/grey

84. fave movie: probably megamind wtf

85. fave actor: dgbjdnhekhbn bru i have no goddamn idea, it’s generally my favourite character of the thing I currently watch so everyone in gotham, hannibal, marvel and hamilton

tagging is hard but eh

I tag: @ravenwald @amt149 @kaykaymcdoogle @catcricket @roguepythia @wittygaypuns @idkjustbreath @coffeemaenad @god-hes-such-a-loser @enigmatickal (if you want to)

[lebanese-thespian]

So, @ethereal-anything keeps tagging me in these things so here we go ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Rules: answer these 85 statements about yourself, then tag some people.

I tag: @51potatoes

Last

1. drink - tea

2. phone call - my brother

3. text message - my friend Cat

4. song you listened to - If I Could Tell Her from DEH

5. time you cried - Last Friday

6. dated someone twice? - ha! I wish

7. kissed someone and regretted it - nah

8. been cheated on - nope

9. lost someone special - Dad

10. been depressed - a little but more anxious

11. gotten drunk and thrown up - no

fave colours

12. purple

13. silver

14. black

in the last year have you…

15. made new friends - you know it!

16. fallen out of love - nan

17. laughed until you cried - yep

18. found out someone was talking about you - no

19. met someone who changed you - yes

20. found out who your friends are - yep

21. kissed someone on your facebook friends list - most of my Facebook friends are related to me so HELL NO

general

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know irl - all of them

23. do you have any pets - my doggo

24. do you want to change your name - no

25. what did you do for your last birthday - went to dinner with friends and and then we just talked for like three hours, it was probably one of the happiest moments of my life

26. what time did you wake up today - 6:45

27. what were you doing at midnight last night - I loose track of reality around 11:30 so idk

28. what is something you cant wait for - acceptance letters

30. what are you listening to right now - the tv

31. have you ever talked to a person named tom - one of my mom’s best friends, my friend Jessica’s math teacher, and of Tommy counts, a sort of friend

32. something that’s getting on your nerves - this stupid cold i have, this paper I have to write, and the regular stresses of everyday life

33. most visited website - tumblr probably

34. hair colour - brown

35. long or short hair - long

36. do you have a crush on someone - ohhhhh yes

37. what do you like about yourself - I hot, smart, and talented (flips hair)

38. want any piercings? - have ear piercings and I’m good with that

39. blood type - o or ab (not sure)

40. nicknames - clarie, clarisse, cookie, éclair

41. relationship status - single

42. zodiac - Sagittarius

43. pronouns - she/her

44. fave tv shows - Grey’s Anatomy, The Good Place, Supergirl, Will and Grace, Timeless, and so many more

45. tattoos - no

46. right or left handed - right

47. ever had surgery - I think on my ear when I was super young

48. piercings - ears

49. sport - I hate field hockey the least and I like going to basketball games

50. vacation - last or dream? last is Utah to go skiing, dream is Austria and the Netherlands

51. trainers - Like the shoes? i mean i like converse but no

52. eating - kibbeh (it’s a middle eastern thing)

53. drinking - tea

54. i’m about to watch - idk

55. waiting for - audition week

56. want - to finish paper

57. get married - twenty-something

58. career - something STEM I think

59. hugs or kisses - kisses (not make outs though)

60. lips or eyes - eyes

61. shorter or taller - taller

62. older or younger - older

63. nice arms or stomach - don’t care

64. hookup or relationship - relationship

65. troublemaker or hesitant - depends

66. kissed a stranger - nope

67. drank hard liquor - where it’s legal

68. lost glasses - don’t have em

69. turned someone down - no

70. sex on first date - no

71. broken someone’s heart - idk - no i think

72. had your heart broken - nope

73. been arrested - no

74. cried when someone died - yes

75. fallen for a friend - a lil

do you believe in

76. yourself - yeah

77. miracles - sometimes

78. love at first sight - no

79. santa claus - no

80. kiss on a first date - cheek

81. angels - not sure

other

82. best friend’s name - Got a lot, probs Cat tho

83. eye colour - brownish greenish

84. fave movie - Pretty Woman or Sound of Music

85. fave actor - idk

Later ;)

[critical--veins]

Answer all the get to know me questions :)

oh jeez tht’s so many I’m sorry u all have to scroll past this but I’ll do it for u anon 

1. Who was the last person you held hands with?

I genuinely don’t even remember my hands r lonely

2. Are you outgoing or shy?

SO SHY3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?

my familyyyy & best friend when I go home for spring break :)4. Are you easy to get along with?

yah man I’m chill with everyone5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?

yes ! (I hope)6. What kind of people are you attracted to?

I like ppl who are genuine & kind!7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?

nooooo (I wish but no)8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?

this boy I’ve been talking to on & off cause he wants to see me when I come home :)) 9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?

not usually I guess it depends who it’s with tho10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?

my friend paulina last night at 2am after getting back from a party lol11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?

“yah girl what’s up”12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?

quixoticelixer- red hot chili peppers

hello euphoria- turnover

all my friends- knocked loose

hurt- trophy eyes

control- citizen 13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?

UH HUHHH 14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?

I mean this is an interesting question bc in the universe things happen that seem lucky or miraculous but are just due to chance so in a way yes, but NO15. What good thing happened this summer?

I met my family in honduras for the first time & they were so amazing16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

ooooh this questions fun idk maybe!17. Do you think there is life on other planets?

ABSOLUTELY18. Do you still talk to your first crush?

nope19. Do you like bubble baths?

hell yah soak me up 20. Do you like your neighbors?

my across the hall neighbors in my dorm building are mean21. What are you bad habits?

NEVER LEAVING MY BED22. Where would you like to travel?

alaskaaaaa I wanna hike around denali 23. Do you have trust issues?

a little24. Favorite part of your daily routine?

GOING THE FUCK TO SLEEP25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?

all26. What do you do when you wake up?

sigh rlly dramatically27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?

I wish I had pretty pale skin, but I like being tan too! so both28. Who are you most comfortable around?

my little sister29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?

nope30. Do you ever want to get married?

OH YES SO BAD31. Is your hair long enough for a pony tail?

yes!32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?

Harry Styles for sure, Awsten Knight from waterparks is also v dreamy33. Spell your name with your chin.

L.JCYH (mood) 34. Do you play sports? What sports?

I used to be a cheerleader !! (I competed so miss me with that not a sport shit) 35. Would you rather live without TV or music?

TV36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?

OH YES37. What do you say during awkward silences?

I don’t break awkward silences bc IM AWKWARD38. Describe your dream girl/guy?

someone smart! also just someone who can be chill all the time I hate fights & pettiness so like idk just be chill39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?

I luv going into furniture & decor shops like home goods or kirklands lol 40. What do you want to do after high school?

 I’m in college rn studying to be a conservation biologist!

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?

no some people are genuinely bad42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?

usually nothing bc I’m always quiet lol43. Do you smile at strangers?

yeah sometimes!44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?

space 100%, I wanna see the earth from outer space I think that would be the most life changing experience!!45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?

fuckin class I need to earn my degree46. What are you paranoid about?

never finding the love of my life 47. Have you ever been high?

yah like once lol48. Have you ever been drunk?

oh yeah49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?

nah50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?

grey!51. Ever wished you were someone else?

every FUCKING day52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?

one thing?53. Favourite makeup brand?

I dont rlly have one! but I guess I use a lot of it cosmetics 54. Favourite store?

there’s this record store called the sound garden & I used to go to it in baltimore all the time cause I live like an hour from there, THEN I FOUND OUR THEIR OTHER LOCATION IS IN SYRACUSE WHERE I GO TO SCHOOL so like idk I love that store cause it’s my lil home connection

55. Favourite blog?

too many! ily all56. Favourite colour?

green :)57. Favourite food? 

MAC & CHEESE TILL I DIE58. Last thing you ate?

toaster waffles I didn’t even toast I just microwaved bc I’m lazy59. First thing you ate this morning?

the toaster waffles60. Ever won a competition? For what?

yeah I’ve won a photography contest & a poetry contest, and I got second in an art show for my dorm lol61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?

I was suspended in the 6th grade for telling a boy I wanted to punch him in the face lmaoooo 62. Been arrested? For what?

nooo63. Ever been in love? 

I don’t think so 64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?

fucking awful cause it was new years eve so I knew it was coming but I didn’t rlly want to, so the nerves just built & built the whole night so yeah not good not good at all65. Are you hungry right now?

nahh66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?

ya’ll don’t talk to me (the ones that do I luv u)67. Facebook or Twitter?

twitter68. Twitter or Tumblr?

both!69. Are you watching tv right now?

no70. Names of your bestfriends? 

maddie & brandon71. Craving something? What?

affection always72. What colour are your towels?

blue72. How many pillows do you sleep with?

373. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?

nah74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?

I don’t think I have any anymore75. Favourite animal?

BEARS I WANT A BEAR TATTOOED ON ME RN76. What colour is your underwear?

dark grey77. Chocolate or Vanilla?

chocolate78. Favourite ice cream flavour?

cookie dough every time79. What colour shirt are you wearing?

black 80. What colour pants?

no pants! all day long!81. Favourite tv show?

friends is one of my faves, but I also rlly love rick & morty which is a lil embarrassing but it’s the best

82. Favourite movie?

ya know I don’t rlly have a fav movie83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?

mean girls84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?

mean girls85. Favourite character from Mean Girls?

the goth bitch janis 86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?

crush the sea turtle is the best character87. First person you talked to today?

a BOYyyyy who I’m rlly into 88. Last person you talked to today?

my friend paulina!89. Name a person you hate?

lol this girl me & my friend just started going out with, she’s so awful & we’re trying to figure out how to cut her off without being mean :/ 90. Name a person you love?

my parents91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?

myself?92. In a fight with someone?

nope93. How many sweatpants do you have?

I have like 5 pairs 94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?

TOO MANy95. Last movie you watched?

I watched nerve but I didn’t rlly like it lol96. Favourite actress?

¯\_(ツ)_/¯97. Favourite actor?

¯\_(ツ)_/¯98. Do you tan a lot?

not rlly but I tan easily so I don’t have to99. Have any pets?

I HAVE 3 CATS & THEY’RE ANGELS100. How are you feeling?

sleepyyyy101. Do you type fast?

yah 102. Do you regret anything from your past?

yes103. Can you spell well?

I tell myself I can but actually probably not104. Do you miss anyone from your past?

yeah my friend from last year who I kinda drifted apart from I miss her a lot105. Ever been to a bonfire party?

yeah106. Ever broken someone’s heart?

yes whoops 107. Have you ever been on a horse?

YEAH I LOVE TRAIL RIDES 108. What should you be doing?

writing my speech for my public presentations class & studying lol109. Is something irritating you right now?

no110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?

yeah 111. Do you have trust issues?

a little112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?

I mean my friend emily but I was laugh crying113. What was your childhood nickname?

 my friends in middle school called me Lulu lmaooo 114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?

yeah I go to school out of state!115. Do you play the Wii?

no I used to tho116. Are you listening to music right now?

yah dude listening to being as an ocean rn 117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?

yup118. Do you like Chinese food?

I fuckin LOVEEE chinese

119. Favourite book?

idk I haven’t read for pleasure in a rlly long time 120. Are you afraid of the dark?

yes lol121. Are you mean?

no I try to be kind as fuck122. Is cheating ever okay?

noooOoOooo123. Can you keep white shoes clean?

nOOOOOOO124. Do you believe in love at first sight?

NOOOOOOOOOO125. Do you believe in true love?

yah I want to126. Are you currently bored?

yesssss127. What makes you happy?

sunday phone calls with my parents128. Would you change your name?

nah my names pretty unique I’ve never rlly met another Lucy 129. What your zodiac sign?

leo!130. Do you like subway?

yah subways dank131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

uhhhhhhh idk that’d be weird132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?

my friend Paulina 133. Favourite lyrics right now?

”when I sit alone come get a little known but I need more than myself this time”

snow by rhcp is like one of my fav songs of all time & I just love that line idk 134. Can you count to one million?

who would ever135. Dumbest lie you ever told?

I DON’T LIE TO PPL BITCH136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?

closed ew wtf who sleeps with their door open137. How tall are you?

4′10138. Curly or Straight hair?

curlyyyy139. Brunette or Blonde?

brunette140. Summer or Winter?

summer absolutely141. Night or Day?

BOTH 142. Favourite month?

I like may cause the weather is nice & also I get to go homeee143. Are you a vegetarian?

no I’ve given up meat for a while tho & it wasn’t bad! also I eat vegan some days just bc I like doing it but I love mac & cheese too much for that shit (I know vegan mac & cheese exists but easy mac) 144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?

milk145. Tea or Coffee?

tea146. Was today a good day?

I didn’t leave my bed so yah147. Mars or Snickers?

snickers148. What’s your favourite quote?

anything carl sagan has said ever I fucking love him but one of my faves is from pale blue dot that says

”The Earth is a very small stage in a vast cosmic arena. Think of the endless cruelties visited by the inhabitants of one corner of this pixel on the scarcely distinguishable inhabitants of some other corner, how frequent their misunderstandings, how eager they are to kill one another, how fervent their hatreds. Think of the rivers of blood spilled by all those generals and emperors so that, in glory and triumph, they could become the momentary masters of a fraction of a dot.”149. Do you believe in ghosts?

idk I’ve never had a ghost experience but I like the idea of it so sure150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page?

“The plant cell typically consists of a more or less rigid cellwall and a protoplast.”

It’s the textbook for my plant evolution class lmaooo 

tht deadass just took me so long lol thanks for occupying me for like an hour

[southern-seasons]

every number please

1. Who was the last person you held hands with? steph..

2. Are you outgoing or shy? shy af

3. Who are you looking forward to seeing? nobody?

4. Are you easy to get along with? fuck no lmao

5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you? yes of course

6. What kind of people are you attracted to? I ain’t got no type…

7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now? ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind? gender doesn’t exist

9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable? nah bruv

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? linds as usual

11. What does the most recent text that you sent say? “trust me, I know”

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now? bulls in the bronx by pierce the veil will always be in my top 5, and then.. currents convulsive also by ptv, outlines by all time low, take me home by the after midnight project, and recall recede by grandview

13. Do you like it when people play with your hair? since when did I have hair

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles? not miracles, no

15. What good thing happened this summer? not a fuckin thing

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? maybe if we were both available

17. Do you think there is life on other planets? hell yes

18. Do you still talk to your first crush? I don’t remember my first crush

19. Do you like bubble baths? I mean I guess

20. Do you like your neighbors? not really lol

21. What are you bad habits? I have too many to list

22. Where would you like to travel? croatia?

23. Do you have trust issues? abso-fuckin-lutely

24. Favorite part of your daily routine? finally laying down after work

25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with? all of it

26. What do you do when you wake up? lay there and want to die

27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?I’m indifferent

28. Who are you most comfortable around? I’m not anymore

29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up? not as of yet

30. Do you ever want to get married? been there, done that, wouldn’t recommend

31. If your hair long enough for a pony tail? pffft

32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with? what are celebrities?

33. Spell your name with your chin. g oki c

34. Do you play sports? What sports? lol noo sports for me

35. Would you rather live without TV or music? tv for sure

36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?all the damn time

37. What do you say during awkward silences? some really stupid shit most likely

38. Describe your dream girl/guy? Large and In Charge

39. What are your favorite stores to shop in? I haven’t been shopping in years

40. What do you want to do after high school? I haven’t been to school in 10 years

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? yes, I do

42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean? that I’m overwhelmed

43. Do you smile at strangers? sometimes

44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean? space!!!

45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning? dat money baby money baby

46. What are you paranoid about? my interpersonal relationships

47. Have you ever been high? only a third of my life

48. Have you ever been drunk? many times

49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about? I'm pretty much an open book bruv

50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore? brown I believe

51. Ever wished you were someone else? only every day

52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself? my entire personality??

53. Favourite makeup brand? love me some Mary kay

54. Favourite store? uhhhh

55. Favourite blog? @southern-seasons

56. Favourite colour? purple

57. Favourite food? alfredo

58. Last thing you ate? half of a peanut butter sandwich

59. First thing you ate this morning? bowl of cinnamon toast crunch

60. Ever won a competition? For what? I won a poker tournament once

61. Been suspended/expelled? For what? suspended quite a few times

62. Been arrested? For what? 8 times, once for burglary, once for credit card fraud, once for petit theft, once for possession, the rest for violations of probation

63. Ever been in love? yup

64. Tell us the story of your first kiss? I was saying goodbye to my first ever girlfriend in middle school and I kissed her on the cheek because i was too scared to actually kiss her and one of her friends said something like “that’s it??” and I was like oh hell naw I got this and kissed her

65. Are you hungry right now? fuck yeah I am thanks for reminding me

66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends? I don’t have either so

67. Facebook or Twitter? facebook

68. Twitter or Tumblr? tumblr

69. Are you watching tv right now? never

70. Names of your bestfriends? Linds and Steph

71. Craving something? What? not at the moment

72. What colour are your towels? black

72. How many pillows do you sleep with? just one

73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? negative

74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have? maybe 1 or 2 from when i was smol

75. Favourite animal? kiwi bird

76. What colour is your underwear? blue?

77. Chocolate or Vanilla? chocolate

78. Favourite ice cream flavour? cookie dough mmmmmm

79. What colour shirt are you wearing? not wearing a shirt

80. What colour pants? blue jeans

81. Favourite tv show? ???

82. Favourite movie? ???

83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2? I haven’t seen either

84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street? I haven’t seen either

85. Favourite character from Mean Girls? ???

86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo? m mufuckin squishy

87. First person you talked to today? linds

88. Last person you talked to today? aly

89. Name a person you hate? I don’t know that I hate anyone

90. Name a person you love? linds

91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now? I’m sure there’s a list

92. In a fight with someone? not at the moment

93. How many sweatpants do you have? none

94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have? two?

95. Last movie you watched? uhhhhhh I cannot recall

96. Favourite actress? ??

97. Favourite actor? ??

98. Do you tan a lot? nope

99. Have any pets? a cat

100. How are you feeling? tired

101. Do you type fast? I typo too much on mobile to be fast but I’m quick enough on the computer

102. Do you regret anything from your past? most of it tbh

103. Can you spell well? more so than most people I know

104. Do you miss anyone from your past? there are a few

105. Ever been to a bonfire party? not yet

106. Ever broken someone’s heart? unfortunately

107. Have you ever been on a horse? nope

108. What should you be doing? sleeping

109. Is something irritating you right now? not particularly

110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt? lol yup

111. Do you have trust issues? only all the time

112. Who was the last person you cried in front of? aly

113. What was your childhood nickname? the dude lol

114. Have you ever been out of your province/state? multiple times

115. Do you play the Wii? no

116. Are you listening to music right now? well shit I should be

117. Do you like chicken noodle soup? it’s ok

118. Do you like Chinese food? name one person who doesnt

119. Favourite book? The Master and Margarita by Mikhail Bulgakov

120. Are you afraid of the dark? nah bih

121. Are you mean? I can be

122. Is cheating ever okay? fuck anyone who cheats

123. Can you keep white shoes clean? pfft no

124. Do you believe in love at first sight? lol no

125. Do you believe in true love? I’m skeptical

126. Are you currently bored? not too badly

127. What makes you happy? this is too deep of a question

128. Would you change your name? I would love to

129. What your zodiac sign? leo

130. Do you like subway? yeah

131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? I fuckin hope they do

132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? is it me or are these questions repeating

133. Favourite lyrics right now? “i held a diamond to the sun / to count the moments on account of the way you / smile for me / oh, we’re in slow motion when you / smile for me”

134. Can you count to one million? can I? yes. will i? fuck you

135. Dumbest lie you ever told? I’m sure there are plenty

136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed? what doors

137. How tall are you? 6'1"

138. Curly or Straight hair? straight

139. Brunette or Blonde? brunette

140. Summer or Winter? winter

141. Night or Day? night

142. Favourite month? november

143. Are you a vegetarian? yep!

144. Dark, milk or white chocolate? milk

145. Tea or Coffee? coffee

146. Was today a good day? it was my first good day in a long time

147. Mars or Snickers? uhhh

148. What’s your favourite quote? stop making me try to remember shit

149. Do you believe in ghosts? lol nah

150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page? bitch I’m not getting up