#i'm mostly better now

[rezcowgirl]

Images from The Vault. Considered and described by me, 20 years later.

Selected things I thought were worthwhile and important to share on my LiveJournal as a 13-18-year-old (2003-2008).

Terrible. Fascinating. I hate her. I love her.

Pupe Girl screenshots with their titles because I thought they were funny. Pupe Girl completely consumed my life. I never got into Gaia Online like a lot of my friends did, but jfc Pupe was everything and I HAD to have that stupid pixel Lacoste alligator bag. I eventually got it. That was a good day. I insisted on entering the contests naked. I never won. No emojis, just >U and :U (2007)

A bandaid I took the time to scan and share? (circa 2005)

Fanart of 15 year old me!! From online and IRL friends. I had pink hair and it was my whole personality. (2005-2007)

My School Is Crap phone background from a time when you had to pay to download any new backgrounds. (2007)

A picture of two of the most important things in my life: LiveJournal and Pikachu. I designed and coded that layout and was really proud. Remember when putting "don't steal my codes" was a thing you did in your bio? (March 7, 2005)

Hanging out in the basement of the Regina Gay Bar for Gay Youth Group, eating candy, talking shit. Look.at.my.phone. on the right. Flawless. (January 4, 2005)

My favourite book and manga at 15. I've been meaning to re-read Kazuya Minekura's works again. I ended up sending 2 copies of Good Omens to 2 of my LiveJournal friends to make them read it. I wish I still had my first Good Omens. Love how I'm still weird about it 20 years later. (circa 2005)

Listen. Being 13 and gay was gnarly. (I ID'd as a lesbian back then) Being a little queer going to Catholic school, I was completely obsessed with t.A.T.u.. I knew all their songs in English and Russian. Even Lena's version of Yugoslavia. Taken with my first cell phone ever. (circa 2005)

Self portrait lmao. Pokemon. Pokemon everything. Forever. (2005)

Making Indigenous themed gingerbread with a semi-famous ndn chef and I HAD to weeb it up. (December 2006)

My sacred Mashimaro socks that @ayecaptain stole from me. It became a thing to say: "give me back my mashimaro socks bitch" for years. They eventually gave them back when the elastics were all worn out. (2006)

It's so strange and bittersweet to see screenshots of bizarre and highly-specific inside jokes from my online friends that I can't even remember the names of. I remember what your friendship felt like, and that's what matters I think.

fuck my stupid baka life

[egophiliac]

Hi it's just to let you know that the official romanization of Revaan's name is Raverne ! Also they have romanized Baul's name to Baur !

Twst coming back at us again with the least expected romanization! thank you everybody (oh god my inbox) (no it's great, I literally asked for this and the reactions have been INCREDIBLE, thank you all!)

I do like Raverne though, I think it's got a nice fancy sound to it! (I had kinda suspected it was going to be an R instead of an L, so the fact that it's SO close to Laverne except for that is hilarious to me personally.) and Dragoneye Duke is honestly probably the best translation for his title, I wasn't envying the localizers that one. :') Baur instead of Baul I was NOT expecting, but in retrospect I think his name's supposed to be a reference to the Bauru crocodile, so that actually makes way more sense!

someone else also said Meleanor has become Maleanor, which is the REALLY weird one to me, because I was so surprised it was written as Mel instead of Mal in the first place?! oh god no I can't decide which one I like better. 😭 (I wonder if they might change it to Mal...they have made romanization changes before) (like I remember House of Distraction being corrected to House of Destruction in Playful Land) (I did check and she's still Mel for now, but I dunno, they might Mal her up and some point and save me from having to make a decision about which one to use) (HECK I CAN'T DECIDE)

uhhhh thank you for letting me ramble about anime names, let's just say MONOGRAMMED SWEATERS FOR EVERYONE

[mattodore]

theo’s bedroom is slowly coming together

[front-facing-pokemon]

[turtledotjpeg]

when ur squad is size small-medium-large

[thedragonhermit]

First of all, surprise! More Person of Interest! Wow!

Second, my brain would not let go of trying to form a PoI x Fallout AU, and for a while I didn't think I could make it work (ie: how do you get a franchise dependent on stuff like the internet and phone booths to work in one with neither), until I had an actual shower thought about it being specifically a Fallout 4 AU!

Basically it's just Fallout-y versions of the PoI main cast, with Fallout-y versions of their backstories, and following a Fallout-y version of the show's plot, but the plot of Fallout 4 is also happening at the same time with John filling the role of the Sole Survivor (except Harold got him out of Vault 111 instead of Father, and John isn't Shaun's dad lol). Oh and the Institute's surveillance of the Commonwealth is provided by the Machine, and yet Finch has ensured they don't have full access so he can use it the way he wants to: to help improve the lives of the people of the Wasteland!

[screwpinecaprice]

I woke up feeling like I was crying to sleep when I wasn't??? And my dream was about Mei from Turning Red riding a snow sleigh. Um There's nothing sad about that??? Lol

Anyway, the warm up sketches. The colors were added in Medibang. It was pretty fun, might do that technique some other time. My body still refused to recover from being bummed out throughout the day so I did house chores instead of commissions. 😅 Will try again tomorrow.

[transmascissues]

i totally understand why some people have read my posts about my recovery experience and been a bit freaked out by it if they haven't gotten top surgery themselves yet, and i also totally understand other people who have had top surgery wanting to reassure those people so they don't get scared out of having top surgery.

what i don't love is when, in an attempt to be reassuring, other people who have had top surgery say "well, my experience was much easier than this and yours might be too. don't be scared of having this kind of recovery, because you might not!"

if you had a super smooth top surgery recovery, i'm so happy for you and i'll be the first to admit that i envy you. i'm genuinely glad you got lucky! but i also know that, when i was preparing for top surgery, i wanted to know how to prepare for if i did have a rougher time and need more support, because being pleasantly surprised by a better time than you expected is much easier than being unpleasantly surprised by difficulties no one prepared you for. trying to find out how to prepare and being met with varying degrees of "don't worry, that didn't happen to me" was infuriating. the chorus of "that didn't happen to me" didn't do anything for me when one day post-op it took three people to figure out how to lift me into a sitting position without hurting me, and i never want anyone to find themselves in a situation like that totally unprepared. i worked really hard to get ready because i'm disabled and knew my body never has a chill reaction to anything, and i want other people to be able to prepare themselves too, whether they have a specific reason to or not.

not to mention, nothing in my experiences so far has been some worst case scenario that you should pray never happens to you. none of the things i've described in my posts have been complications; it's all just natural parts of recovering. every single time my surgeon has seen me, she's assured my that i'm healing perfectly so far. so yeah, things have been rough, but this isn't a horror story that i'm telling. it's not a warning or a cautionary tale. it's all totally normal and expected, even if it is more intense than some people's experiences. it just doesn't feel great to have my experience treated as something awful when it's all just part of the process.

the confidence that comes with knowing what could happen and feeling ready to face it is such a powerful thing, and i want people to be able to have that going into their surgery. i want them to be able to trust in their knowledge of what could happen and feel equipped to handle whatever comes their way. i want them to know that it'll be worth it in the end, even if it's hard for a while. i want them to know that top surgery is a wonderful thing and is worth doing, even if it's a rough experience, and that they can have a hard time and still come out the other side thrilled with the outcome. i want them to be able to look that fear in the face and say "yeah, maybe it'll suck for a few weeks, but then i'll be so much happier for the entire rest of my life, so fuck it, let's do it."

if i've learned anything over the past week, it's that top surgery is scary but it's also so worth it. if it would make your life better, go for it. i promise, the fear will be worth it. and honestly? a lot of the scary shit isn't nearly as scary once you've experienced it and learned how to work with it.

[deoidesign]

Just a reminder, I have a patreon!!!

I've been working on actually making stuff to post more often for the lower tiers, and have been consistently doing so!

I post at least a few sketches and drawings every month for the $1 and up patrons

and I've been working on episodes and sharing some updates with my $5 and up patrons

And I have a merch club for $15 a month, but there's still some $10 slots left! I design and send usually a postcard and some stickers to my patrons every month, but sometimes I'll do some experimental stuff; last month I did foil prints, for instance, and a few months before I made magnets!

It also gets you access to private channels in my discord server, where I ask for patron input on things like the merch or drawings, and where I sometimes stream while working :)

Buuuut also, even if you don't want any of this stuff, it's a great way to support me directly if you like my work! I'm still on hiatus so I'm not making any money from work at the moment, but I'm working hard and my patreon enables me at least to buy my groceries!

Here's the link one more time, no pressure of course but I need to promote my patreon more so people actually know it exists haha

[winchestersheaven]

me: i’m gonna read Rodney McKay fics

fandom: we have lots of McShep

me: McShep is good, i like that ship

me: so, McShep fics with Rodney feels, please

fandom: sure thing, lots of Rodney feels here 😇

fandom: *bombards me with unexpected John feels*

me: hey, uh. why is my heart all fucked up?

[aurosoul]

Figmin XR is now a top-selling app on the Quest store and my favorite part about it finally blowing up is seeing Random Tech Dudes who just do NOT get it all:

"oh no, a whimsical environment full of rainbows, unicorns, fairies, and other stereotypically feminine and/or childish imagery. DISGUSTING. better compare this to the Vapid Youths and their Myspace pages"

like sorry you hate fun I guess??? (the person this guy was talking to responded with "this is appealing to children, who also use technology", which is the correct answer, btw)

[hominivorax-hematovore]

The Cooper Howard brainrot is SO deep-seated at this point. I just cracked myself up with the idea of a Ghoul edit, but set to "Why'd You Come In Here Lookin' Like That" instead of any of the stuff people have already used to death. Give that sexy irradiated cowpoke some country besides Save A Horse, Ride A Cowboy, y'all.

[booigi-boi]

Love how most Joey characters nowadays are some guy with either long hair or a mustache, or gasp! Both ✨ /pos

Keep it going, more characters I get to draw with some rapunzel swag, nyeh nyeh >:)

[ofpaintedflowers]

postcards for my new upcoming jewellery collection ft. the femc girlies ;w;

[mango-mya]

Lmao a sudden headcanon pops out of my head. What if emperor awesome and Elora used to be exes?. Wonder what peepers reaction to that.

This probably

[silawastaken]

WE'RE SO FUCKING BACK LET'S GO ‼️‼️💪💪