#i'm only on book two of my reread and i am SO excited to get to Physik

[c4ts4ndstuff]

if you haven't read the Septimus Heap books by Angie Sage, i definitely recommend you go read them. there's no way she hasn't had the desire to go live in the woods

[monsterfuckerconfessions]

I've been rereading the hellhound post every night. i love the idea of being absolutely ravaged by a monster against my will. i didn't realize how much the idea of being raped by a hellhound (or any monster, really) would make me feel, but even the idea makes me tingly and so so horny. the word makes me excited, thinking of all the ways i can be raped, forcefully fucked by whoever and whatever monster decides to take me.

i love reading monster fics, and the best plots seem to be the ones where the monster stalks the main character and takes them by force until they eventually fall for the monster. the idea that a monster would be so overcome with need for me and has to take me right there, right then, even if i cry? Especially if i cry? if i resist and try to get away, will the monster fuck me harder? will they force me to the ground and make me take their giant cock as they thrust into me, pounding harder and harder until they release all their cum into my abused pussy? i can scream until it turns to moans, unable to move with their claws keeping me in place. They dont care if i come, in fact, they fuck me harder when i don't, wanting to pull every cry from my lips as they can. When i can't possibly take any more, will the monster fuck a different hole until they're spent? until they're satisfied?

i need to be raped. Need to be owned and claimed.

not all the fics i read are about monsters. but the danger, the instinctive, mindlessness of being forced to submit and take whatever werewolf knot or demon cock or tentacle decides to rape me relentlessly? ceaselessly? writhing on the floor, taking whatever the monster forces me to take? yeah. thats the only way i wanna cum. when it's forced outta me. and being gang raped by so many monsters and tentacles all at once? so many i dont know what direction I'm in or even who i am? 🤤 yes, please.

Rape and somnophilia are the two most powerful kinks for me to experience and getting to experience both through the hellhound fic was a dream come true. I wanted to be the girl so bad. but also partly the hellhound. To be so overcome with slavering instincts that i rape this girl over and over? incredible no matter the pov.

if anyone has any good cnc or rape fics or books (especially monsters but not necessarily exclusively) lmk.

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[campbyler]

(tldr, i love you guys🫶)

I would just like to say that there are no words in the english language, no emojis in existence, and no expressions I can record for you to know that chapter nine has me feeling like I am on top of the world. Everything I asked for came true in a way that I cannot explain. Every trope I hoped for was carried through, and as much as I was sure they'd be used, they still caught me so incredibly off guard in the remarkable execution and slight twists that made the trope unique. You guys are exceptional writers, and if you choose to go down this path and make a career out of it, I am more than positive great things are in store for you. Even if this is just a silly hobby, that already shows great talent and devotion in you guys. To have been reading this since chapter two and see it grow so beautifully is something I will never let go of. The bar of expectations was in heaven, and I'm very sure I walked through the gates. My autism cannot handle the magnificence you've displayed here, and I will be yapping my pookies ear off about it for decades to come. I SWEAR on my heartstopper book collection that when this is over, I will print it out, create a cover and add it to my collection of gay literature. Since it's going to be at least 27 years until the next chapter (PLEASE take all the time ever I am being so serious🙏), I'm definitely going to reread this story about ten times while listening to Conan Gray because I swear you can relate ANY song of his to them. ANYWAYYY, it's getting late and I stayed up to read this because how can you NOT, but I have to sleep now or else I'll go back to having the sleep schedule of a toddler who's drank fifty gallons of fruit punch flavored kool-aid jammers. PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE take care of yourselves and have the loveliest day. I love this story so much, and I'm beyond excited to see its sorrow but graceful end.

Also idk if this is bad but every time I read a new chapter I get tinglys all over my body and I feel like exploding, is that normal? (I'm serious about this, do I need to go to a hospital)

i genuinely do not know how to articulate a response to this that feels adequate but please know i am SO grateful for the time you took to not only read the chapter but also leave a comment like this <3 this is one of the kindest things anyone has ever said in response to any fic i've posted and i've been cherishing it since it came in. thank YOU 💗💗💗

[concerningwolves]

do you have any like, folkore book recommendations? it could be of any folklore! although, i mainly know about Greek & Norse. or maybe perhaps, books about witchcraft & demonology?

Anon I am kissing you on the forehead. thank you for this ask

If you like Norse myths, Norse Mythology by Neil Gaiman is a really good starting point – I adore how Gaiman weaves a narrative through the tales so that they feel cohesive. (I think this can be a slightly problematic practise, but imho it's also very effective if you want to just read and enjoy some myths). I read it in one day and then had Many Thoughts for the rest of the week.

Northern Lights: Legends, Sagas and Folk-tales edited by Kevin Crossley-Holland is a collection of Norse and Germanic stories. I've been meaning to reread this one because I don't think I was in the right headspace to really enjoy it the first time, so I can't give much of a review other than I feel it gives a really nice entry-point to anyone who wants to branch out beyond the more popular Norse myths. (Plus, it's up on the Internet Archive)

For a more scholarly deep-dive into Norse myths, I wholeheartedly recommend Gods and Myths of Northern Europe by H. R. Ellis Davidson. It's a deeply fascinating book which looks at the cultural history around Norse myths, then walks through how much we actually know about each Norse god and goddess. (I am still haunted by the fact Davidson says that Heimdall has been described as a "woodpecker god" and then doesn't elaborate)

Moving into Greek myths, I'm a big fan of the Mythos series by Stephen Fry. It's three books, one covering the cosmology of the Greek mythic world; one focusing on the myths around heroes and demigods; and the last telling the story of the Siege of Troy. Like with Gaiman's Norse Mythology, Fry brings a sense of narrative cohesion to the myths, but he's not just telling a story – he talks about the sources and different variations of the myths, which I find so fascinating. I've listened to the audiobooks three times now.

The folklore I'm most into is British Isles folklore. The Fairies in Tradition and Literature by Katharine Briggs is a fast favourite. Despite the title, she also looks at a wide variety of fairy-adjacent folkloric beings. I had so so much fun reading it.

(And on the subject of English folklore, two recent-ish favourites are The Folklore of Sussex by Jacqueline Simpson and the Folklore of Hertfordshire by Doris Jones-Baker; they're part of a collection of regional folklore books which I'm determined to read in its entirety. I really appreciated the way Simpson wrote about witchcraft and the kind of people most often accused of being witches).

I cannot talk about folktale books without recommending English Fairytales and More English Fairytales by Joseph Jacobs. I've only read More English Fairytales, but I've read it... so much. I killed my first copy with love and had to get another one. I picked up English Fairytales in a secondhand shop last week and I'm excited to start reading it. I think both are available online for free, too.

I'll have to go look at my cabin bookshelves tomorrow because I'm sure I'm forgetting some other favourites; I just wanted to answer this now before it got swallowed by my drafts forever

If anyone else has any recs of books on folklore, I would greatly appreciate them :3 (and I'm sure anon will too)

[fatuismooches]

SMOOOOOCHESSSSS!!!! AHHHH IM KISSING YOUR CHEEKS MY DOVE I AM SCREAMING!!!! ໒꒰ྀིᵔ ᵕ ᵔ ꒱ྀི১

PART 3 TO THE DOTTORE FIC WAS ABSOLUTELY LOVELY AND YOU RELEASED IT SO FAST I WASNT EXPECTING IT SO SOON!!! gosh the pacing of it was so well, and I absolutely adore how you write fragile!reader and Zandik. AND THE NUDITY SCENEEEE!! >w< it was so so soft I absolutely adored it words cannot describe how much I was smiling during it. AND THE LITTLE ZANDY SNEAK WITH HIM BEING ALLOWED TO SEE ALL THE PREPERATIONS COLUMBINA IS DOING FOR FRAGILE!READER AND THEIR OUTFIT <33 AHHHHH!!!! Also the book scene as well 😭 SOB!! poor reader getting exposed out of nowhere because Zandik was “curious”… AND THE WEDDING SMOOCHES OH MY GOSH!!! I wasn’t expecting to read them getting married in this fic but im overjoyed to see you write it!!! their ceremony being private and the clumsy dancing after they’ve been officially married made me giggle and kick my feet in the air!!! honestly the marriage reminded me of an old ask I sent MONTHS ago!! fragile!reader and dottore having a private ceremony and how Dottore would most likely keep his ring in his box, but fragile!reader enjoys wearing it everyday as it’s a sign that Zandik truly does love them for who they are, and they’re bonded for eternity. :((( I would absolutely LOVE to see what type of rings you had in mind for them and what kind of suit you portrayed Zandik wearing!! I love these two so much that im honestly scared for the fourth and final part. :( my heart is not ready for angst…I loved all the hurt and comfort in this fic it’s literally my favorite thing!! and to say I will reread this AT LEAST 5 times, (just like I have with the first and second part) is an understatement. I always appreciate seeing you also mention me in your notes it’s so cute mwa mwa!! <33 make sure to rest sweetheart alright? currently dying because of midterms but I know part 3 will get me through it. AND BEFORE I EVEN FORGET THE MENTION OF BATHING TOGETHER ADJNDJAIJSJDK!!!! still one of my favorite ideas EVER im so happy to see it being dropped for a second in the fic it made me blush <33

But I truly hope you have an absolutely wonderful day and week and happy December cutie!!! Christmas will be here soon and I honestly can’t wait to bake. always imagining m fragile!reader because of my condition >_< im very delusional for him I think of him every second, minute, hour, day, every week!!! not a day goes by where I don’t think of him AT LEAST ONCE! but ANYWAYS!!! I give you loads and loads of cuddles and chu chus <33 I love you so much I just wanna hug you so tightly and swell up your cheeks because of how many chus I gave you!!

-from your dear boo boo bear 🎐 anon! ౨ৎ

AHHHHH 🎐 ANON IM SCREAMING TOO!!! YOU'RE TOO NICE!! I'M SO GLAD YOU LIKE IT!! please, my weekend literally consisted of two things, writing that fic, and finishing a project for college, i kept alternating between the two 😭 I WAS JUST SO EXCITED I HAD TO! AND OF COURSE!! Bb Zandy gets all the privileges (he gets the last cookie in the jar too, much to the other clones' dismay) 😌

AND YEAHHH the book idea just came to me one day. i just thought it'd be not only cute but funny, since i also love thinking about the playful banter you two have 🥺 HEHE I'M GLAD YOU LIKED THE WEDDING SCENE TOO!! I JUST HAD TO WRITE IT SINCE I FEEL IT NEEDS TO BE INCLUDED IN THEIR LIVES!! and yeah i was thinking about your asks too, because i like to go back and reread the asks on your tag 😭💗 Dottore keeps his ring in his box so when he's stressed he can just pop it open and admire it, thinking about you if you're not around, and put it away again now that he's had some time to slack off thinking about you. You though? Oh boy everyone has every detail of your ring memorized by how much you've gushed about it (poor random Fatui agents)

AND I'm not gonna lie i didn't really picture the rings or outfits inside my head. 😭 but i did look up some rings rn to see if i could find anything that's cute!! (i think. I'm not very good at fashion/aesthetics and this stuff 😭) but i think these first three for reader are pretty!! i feel like they're pretty elegant but not too much at the same time! Dottore's as i said would be much simpler, i can't find a good picture but i feel like the last one would be similar, thin with fewer jewels though. But ngl, i always love this interpretation of the ring Dottore would give you!! It's so pretty and to think he'd make the ring yourself is so!! AND I WOULD GIVE YOU OUTFITS BUT IM SORRY IM SO BAD AT THEM. Honestly though. I'd probably imagine him in like, the classic black and white suit. Maybe with some pieces of blue here and there. There's a fanart i'd show you too but the comments are EXTREMELY down bad so yeah,,

🎐 ANON DON'T WORRY 😭 THERE WILL BE ANGST BUT HOPEFULLY THE FIFTH PART WILL MAKE IT BETTER!! AND OMG OVER 5 TIMES??? I'M HONOREDDD 🥰🥰🥰💗💗💗 MAKE SURE TO TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF TOO OKAY?? i know midterms are the worse but you got this!! And omg have fun baking!! I wish i could taste your sweets, they must be delicious!! AND I LOVE YOU MORE!! mwah mwah!!

[cloud-somersault]

Hey, how are you doing? I hope you’re alright. 💕 I’ve been reading your status updates on Constellations and the Epilogue, and I just wanted to let you know that I think you’re amazing. Your writing is incredible and I love it. Your stories are so well thought out and the characters are ✨on point✨, and the plot is complex and detailed and aaahhh! It has me hooked! 🤩

And I understand how it hurts when you put so much effort and love into a story, only to post it and not see others be anywhere near as excited or invested as you are. I know how discouraging it can be. And it may be a little silly, but I do want to apologize for not commenting lately—life took some difficult turns for me healthwise around the end of last year and I haven’t been able to catch up! I’m still on Chapter 4 of Constellations! 😭 BUT Chapter 5 is open on my phone, and I am READY to read it as soon as I have the time (and mental energy, but that’s a whole ‘nother issue 😩). Don’t worry that your writing isn’t enough, or be discouraged if some readers don’t catch hints while others are figuring it all out seemingly too easily. Everybody reads and comprehends stuff differently, and it’s not a sign that your writing is bad if they don’t catch it! Honestly, I’m pretty bad at catching hints the first time I read a story unless they’re pretty darn obvious. I don’t usually notice subtle hints until the second, or third, or even seventh read-through, haha! (on the bright side, rereading stories and rewatching TV shows is always fun!) 😅

I guess what I really wanted to say is… don’t give up hope. Don’t lose your love and enthusiasm for your works, or feel like they aren’t worth writing because others don’t seem interested in them. At the heart of it all… at the end of the day… write because you love to. Because it makes you happy. And know that it doesn’t have to be “perfect”—the main goal should be that you enjoy it. That’s something I’m trying to teach myself, too. 💕

Thank you for taking the time to write this message and send it. I appreciate you're very kind words 💕I'm doing okay, I just had to take a step back for a bit from socials and stuff. I'm gonna keep that up for a while.

Please don't apologize for not commenting or taking your time reading. Your health always comes first, and I'm sorry if I came off as childish or needy, that wasn't my intention. Two things just happened that set me off and the timing of it was incredibly poor 😓

Please take your time reading; none of it is going anywhere, and don't feel obligated to leave comments either. i'm realizing that, even if chapters are short or long, finding the time to finish things is difficult, and everyone lives different lives. And I'm sorry about all the spoilers on this blog, I'll tag that better from now on.

But I really do think I got confused or disjointed in my perceptions; everyone here knows so much because i've been asked questions and given answers and people have interacted, so people following me here have more context than the average ao3 user. But I've kinda been expecting everyone to be on the same page, which will never be true.

I'm also the same way where it takes me a while to pick up on hints. I actually changed my writing style to prevent this. I got tired of reading books in college where you had to dive into every little thing. the hints and clues weren't obvious to me. I decided then that, when I wrote, I wanted things to be bold, obvious, but beautiful. I didn't want to make readers feel like they're missing something. I wanted them to trust that every answer, every clue would be answered in time. I made that promise to myself a decade ago, and being reminded of how different people interpret things just...made me remember.

I take writing really seriously, probably too seriously, but I've been doing it for so long and I love doing it. I want to be good at it. When it feels like I've gone back on that promise to myself, I get frustrated. I think of ways I could've fixed things. But I also remember that those books and those writing styles just weren't for me. I wasn't the target audience.

Sorry to go off on a tangent, but I wanted to explain why I got upset. I still love Constellations and I'm posting it on ao3 out of convenience, really. It's easier to reference and search there in one "Entire Work" than to have 5 documents open. The fact that others can see and read and have fun is a bonus. But I'm committed to telling this story, and I'm gonna finish with a bang.

Thank you, I won't forget why I'm doing this and that my thoughts/feelings come first! 😤I hope your health concerns are taken care of soon. Take it easy, and thanks again! 💕

[vladdyissues]

Hi, it’s me, the asker who was so curious about Danny at school ✨

I got three things to say, silly thing first, 1. I’m so curious about what Danny’s diet is gonna be. I was rereading that chapter, and if Vlad has to eat meat to stoke the flames, does that mean Danny has to go vegetarian? That would be so fucking funny, I’m ngl 😂 but also sad, bc then he’d be thinking about Sam all the time 🥺 anyways, I’m just interested to see what you do with it 👀

2. You got me thinking about enemies to lovers, hardcore. And I realized, when I enjoy that kind of ship, I’m not here to see them become all lovey-dovey and domestic. I’m here to see the pain, and the toxicity, and the deep codependency of it all. The ‘I hate you, but I can’t leave you’, and the ‘you might kill me one day, and I embrace that.’ If you’ve watched Hannibal, you know exactly what I mean 😂 For Vlad and Danny, I don’t really give a fuck if it’s pompep or badgercereal, i just want angst and codependency 😈 I think that’s part of what I like about your story so much, is that it’s toeing the line between the two relationships. Halfway parental, and halfway toxic/romantic love.

3. You’ve fucking ruined me for other fanfiction rn 😭😂 I can’t read anything else for more than five minutes 🥲 Partially bc I’m so invested in the story, but also bc your writing style IS SO FUCKING GOOD. YOU SHOULD BE WRITING ACTUAL BOOKS, LIKE WTF. Anywayyysss, I’ll just curl up into a little ball of boredom on the floor till you update again 😂💕

Sending much looooove, 😘 I hope the brain to fanfic pipeline is working out for you 🤌

Hello and holy shit! What an ego-bloating kind and generous ask this is! Let me jump right in:

1. I don't want to spoil the plot too much, but Danny's diet is going to be key in unraveling a very important part of Vlad's enigma, and I cannot wait to get to that point. I've been sprinkling crumbs of information throughout the story thus far, laying down a foundation upon which to build this Big Thing, and the next chapter (14) will—or should, anyway—finally begin to deliver on it.

2. My friend, you've just given me an epiphany: it's not so much Enemies to Lovers that we adore, I suspect, as it is Enemies and Lovers. That's exactly the tag I'd use to describe Hannigram, and it's such a different and exciting dynamic. I've never quite—well, scratch that—okay, I've never written Enemies and Lovers in such depth as I am with Familiar. There's something darkly satisfying about letting lovers remain ugly; the notion that deep, abiding affection can exist in tandem with fear and disgust; that even monsters—in the very act of being monstrous, or perhaps because they are monstrous and not in spite of their monstrosity—are capable of loving and being loved.

3. Frhgahrglahrglahg I'm going to print and frame this one and hang it on my wall for days when I feel utterly inept. I've been writing fanfiction for a while now, and I've written volumes of silly, embarrassing, poorly-executed tripe, so if I haven't at least gotten a little bit good at what I'm doing, I doubt I ever will 😆 That said, I'm putting a lot of effort into Familiar, I mean pulling out every stop and employing every nut and bolt in my mental toolbox to craft a good story (and reading. Always reading), partly as a challenge to myself and partly out of sheer love for this great ship and its fandom. Everyone here is so nice and welcoming and awesome. I only hope my tiny contribution continues to entertain.

Speaking of which, the wait for this next chapter shouldn't be long. The feedback I've been receiving is phenomenal, and it's definitely helped to fuel me along when my mania wavers. I'm incredibly grateful to you and everyone reading enjoying this story. Thank you thank you ♥

[katnissdoesnotfollowback]

This week marked the 12th anniversary of The Hunger Games movie release.

What do you think about THG as a movie adapatation?

Do you think THG influence other movie (/book) in the genre? Yes/No? Why?

Is there any difference in your opinion about it between when you first saw the movie (/read the book) and now?

Thank you :)

@curiousthg

Ugh, it has been 12 years, hasn't it? Which means it's also 12 years since I first read the books. I may be old, but I do remember that I saw a Jennifer Lawrence interview for a different movie, but the interviewer asked her about The Hunger Games, and I'd bought an ebook version of them like maybe a year prior to that, not knowing they were being made into movies. So then I was like, well... better read the books now, because I always like reading books before the movie so I can be even more disappointed.

I think THG is an okay movie adaptation of a book. It's not great, but it's also not the worst. I do think that the books are still far better in terms of character development and maintaining the themes of the stories. And I get that Hollywood has to cut out something in order to fit into their allotted approximately two hour runtime, but that doesn't change the fact that there are plenty of movie adaptations that do a much better job, in my opinion, of maintaining the integrity of their source story. I mean, Clueless is technically a modern AU of Emma and I think that movie was a fantastic movie adaptation. And there are others that are different from their books but actually work equally as well as the source material, in my opinion (How to Train Your Dragon, and The Bad Guys both come to mind for this one).

I don't think my opinion of it has changed all that much. If anything, I think my opinion of the movies has gone down over the years. Part of that might be because I was in theaters as they were being released, so I was swept up in the excitement of seeing these books I loved so much being brought to life. I kept getting my hopes up that the adaptations would improve with each successive installment. And now... I'm much more likely to devote the time to rereading the books than I am to watching the movies again. Can't take the increasing disappointment, lol.

I think there is definite influence that THG had on the genre. You can see it in series like Divergent, and the literally hundreds of other YA dystopias that came out in the years following the "success" of THG. Dystopia turned into a cash cow for publishers after THG. I'm not yet convinced that any other writers managed to capture the kind of depth of character, story, or world building that Suzanne Collins did, tho I have to admit that there's only one other YA dystopia series that I've managed to finish. It honestly felt like watered down THG fanfiction and I just couldn't push the "I believe" button on the world building enough to really love it. I kept reading it, thinking I knew the direction it was going to take, but it didn't. The ending kind of...ruined it for me? I dunno. None of the others I've tried have caught my interest enough to get me past the first book.

Thanks for the ask @curiousthg!

<3 kdnfb

[bi-bard]

Cupid - Dream of the Endless Imagine [The Sandman]

Title: Cupid

Pairing: Dream of the Endless X Cupid!Reader

Word Count: 1,063 words

Warning(s): mention of loss of loved one

Summary: Cupid stopped doing their job. A disappointed God comes to question their decision only to find the being sinking in their anger and loss. Nothing encourages their anger more than an indifferent God that will not acknowledge where they went wrong.

Author's Note: This was inspired by a book that I'm currently working on. It's the same basic concept (Cupid stops working, God confronts them), but Morpheus will not be making an appearance. Sorry to disappoint.

Also, for the purpose of an x reader, I'm treating Cupid as a title more than a name.

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God was selfish.

Always looking for something new and exciting. Creating a story that would be entertaining. All at the expense of the very beings they created.

I had come to that conclusion long ago.

That was when I backed away from my job.

I was meant to create soulmates.

Not maintain them or write their stories. Just create them.

I liked to keep an eye on them. To know how their stories unfolded over time. I kept them tucked away in my library. Countless stories to go back and read through whenever I wanted. I enjoyed rereading them.

Well, most of them.

There was a section in the back. Marked by a flickering light.

I did not like going back there.

It was the bad ones. The stories of soulmates that had taken a twist so dark that I felt like I could not allow my eyes to scan the pages more than once. The ones that ended in something other than a happy ending.

I was happier ignoring them.

It took me a long time to make my way back to those shelves. Those stories.

I was intending to only read one story. But one became two, two became three, and on and on it went.

Soon, all I could do was sit by that flickering light and allow my eyes to scan the pages. Dancing from word to word as I was reminded of all the heartbreak that I had caused yet had no control over.

It was terrible. It was easy to forget the good when the bad was so awful. So much pain. Pain and disappointment. I did not know what else to do other than run from it all.

I stopped making matches. I hid away from the human race. I hung up my responsibilities. I spent my days among those stories. Never leaving them for a moment.

Time did not truly exist in my realm, but I assumed it had been a long time for humanity.

That was the only reason that God would ever bother to walk through my halls.

"Cupid."

"(Y/n)," I corrected. "I am no longer Cupid."

"I am afraid that you do not get to decide when you are finished being Cupid," God replied. "You have a job to do. A responsibility."

"What good has my job done," I asked. "Truly? What has been my positive impact on that little human race you created?"

"You have given them love."

"I have given them calculated matches," I shook my head. "Any story... any love... is a result of you and your desire for entertainment."

"You have never had a problem with that arrangement before."

"Because I allowed my eyes to remain closed."

God scoffed at me, as if they were not one for dramatic behavior, "You did nothing but carry out your designed purpose. A purpose that you cannot so easily abandon."

I looked at the books around me. "Do you know where you are?"

"In your library-"

"The failed section," I said. "All the stories that have ended in more pain than love."

"You have always held a disdain for this place," God mumbled, dragging their finger along the books' spines. "Probably why it is in such unfortunate shape."

"It was easier to hide from my failures."

"'Was'?"

"In my experience, it is always easier to ignore an issue that one is not directly impacted by."

I heard another scoff escape God's lips.

I ignored them.

"None of those failures were your own," they explained.

"You are correct," I muttered. "You also have guilt in this situation."

"Do I?"

"You are the one creating the stories. You are the reason that so many people experience so much pain. All for your sick entertainment."

"You never cared before-"

"-I always cared-"

"Why do you suddenly find yourself so worried about the state of the humans that you match?"

"Because I lost Morpheus!"

The silence that filled the library could have suffocated someone. God stared at me like at any moment I would be destroyed. I was never one to let my emotions get the better of me, but that felt impossible in that moment.

"You took him from me," I continued. "What did I do? How did I mess up so much that you had to pull away the one thing that I had for myself?"

God rolled their eyes and looked away from me.

"Morpheus loved me. Held me, danced with me, showed me around his realm. We were happy together. The two of us. I finally allowed myself something that was not a part of my job. You stole him from me. Why?"

God looked back at me with a clenched jaw. No explanation or apology. Just a clenched jaw.

I felt my heart breaking. "You were bored."

"Mind your tongue-"

"You were bored, so you took him in the hopes of the story being more exciting," I said. Tears filled my eyes as I watched no hint of remorse cross God's face. "You inserted yourself into one of the stories. Mine. You promised to never interfere in my existence. You promised to never force me into one of your little plotlines!"

"Shut your mouth!"

I suddenly could not talk. My voice was gone.

"I created you," God said, stepping toward me. "I created you with a job, a purpose. You will not abandon them. You now have two choices. You can go back to your job and do what you were meant to do. Or you can remain in your self-pity, among your sad stories, and watch as I turn every story you have ever created into pain. No more true love. No more happy endings."

"You would do that just because I no longer wish to fulfill your wishes?"

"I am God, my love. I can do anything I want."

"I will not continue to create pairs for you to torment for your entertainment."

"Then you and your realm will suffer."

God was gone before I could formulate a response. I felt a shiver run up my spine. I knew that this was not some cruel joke. God was going to destroy all that I had created.

I looked along my shelves.

I could not go back to who I was. I also could not run from the reality around me.

That left me with exactly one option.

Fight.

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Contrary to what might be expected, I am not an avid book reader. Regrettably, I have an incredibly hard time finding stories that captivate me, and am far easier annoyed with writing styles and far sooner bored with subject choices than, I'm sure, would better me. Herein, I'd like to add, not to sound too pedantic, it is mostly the weirdness of my own brain that hinders me. In constant world-dissecting contemplation, therein all too prone to jadedness and world weariness. A rather unruly mind that not only is weird, but also craves weirdness: surprises, sparks of curiosity, and above all confusion; logic in chaos, magic in reality.

Magical realism.

Two days ago I learned about this style of writing, and I'm excited. We had guests over, old friends of my mom and dad; a married couple with whose family we used to spend holidays together. Occasionally they drop by, or my mom and I go to theirs. After catching up, I had to go walk the dog, so I missed out on a lot of fun, and often inspiring, conversations, and when I came back we went from series and movie recommendations --- for which I am also rather useless --- to reading tips.

Now, I have reading tips, but I always add the disclaimer that my mind is weird and my tastes are based on vagueness and obscurity, definitely not for everybody. But as I was, I suppose apologetically, enthusing about Süskind's Perfume and Hesse's Steppenwolf, adding them to 'the borrow pile', the husband had been nodding and finally hummed:

"Magical realism."

Immediately intruiged, I asked him what it was, and he explained it was a certain writing style. He couldn't quite reproduce the exact mannerisms of the style, as it was part of his high school material, but when I spoke about my reading preferences one of his Dutch classes had randomly popped into his mind. And(!) there was a book. He grabbed his phone and searched both Google and his memory simultaneously, until his much anticipated: "A-ha!"

Hubert Lampo

The Coming Of Joachim Stiller

I ordered the book immediately. Today, it arrived, and this evening I started reading. 80 feverishly read pages in I can already say this is EXACTLY what my weird, food-for-thought malnourished brain had been literarily craving. Not only subject wise, but the Flemish Lampo, like our southern neighbours tend to do, writes attentive, therein striving for perfection. Then, Lampo himself treats the Dutch language as an artform. I have to reread bits because I get distracted admiring his craft.

There are so many mind sparkling sentences, and he strings them together without fearing any extra comma or conjunction. Some take up over half a page and I love it. I'll gladly admit it took me some pages to get used to reading such writing again, having solely read poetry and (news) articles for a year or two, but it is such a blessing to not be underestimated as a reader in both vocabulary and attention span.

I put down the book to write down this feeling of joy, and share it, but also to be able to relive the feeling when I head to my mom and dad's friends' place, as a guest, to properly express my thanks for the recommendation.

Don't you adore it when a great book just randomly comes into your life like this? When it finds you as if fated, because it is at a time in your life when you, in hindsight, direly seek its contents.

For obvious reasons, I do. It's one of the little magics I still have left. All my favourite books have come to me randomly, as such. However, two, maybe three years of waiting for such a moment is a long time. That's why I'm also glad that two days ago I got to know about the style. Magical Realism. I'll dive into that as soon as I finish reading, or, better said, consuming The Coming Of Joachim Stiller.

[desertfangs]

Book Meme Thing!

Tagged by @leslutdepointedulac

1) The last book I read:

Pandora by Anne Rice. I reread it for the first time in forever and forgot how much I love her.

2) A book I recommend:

Two of my favorite non-VC vampire books are:

Bloodshot by Cherie Priest. It's a fun story about a vampire thief in Seattle and her (very relunctant) found family. There's a sequel as well.

The Coldest Girl in Coldtown by Holly Black. Cool vampire lore, definitely some Ricean inspiration, great story.

3) A book that I couldn’t put down:

The Lies of Locke Lamora by Scott Lynch. It's like Ocean's 11 in a fantasy Venetian-style world.

4) A book I’ve read twice (or more):

Feed by Mira Grant (and Deadline and Blackout, the next two books in the series.) It's zombies, journalists, government conspiracies, and did I mention zombies?

5) A book on my TBR:

I've had Strong Female Character by Fern Brady sitting on my shelf since December so I need to get to that soon. She was so funny on Taskmaster but I'm also curious to read about her experiences with autism.

6) A book I’ve put down:

Pride and Prejudice and Zombies. See also Abraham Lincoln: Vampire Hunter. I don't know, these kinds of books just don't do it for me. Also, I gave up on ASOIAF in the middle of A Clash of Kings.

7) A book on my wish list:

asdfghjk; I don't know! I guess I'm exciting for Kathy Reichs' next Temperance Brennan book in August?

8) A favorite book from childhood:

Tales of a Fourth Grade Nothing by Judy Blume. I read that book and so many times.

9) A book you would give to a friend:

It depends on the friend! One that I would give to pretty much everyone is Last Chance to See by Douglas Adams and Mark Carwardine. It's a nonfiction book about their trip to see nearly-extinct animals and it's hilarious and heartbreaking. (The later documentary with Mark and Stephen Fry is also amazing.)

10) A book of poetry or lyrics that you own:

I have a book of poetry by Yeats. (I am not super into poetry, I appreciate it when it's shared with me but I rarely seek it out.)

11) A nonfiction book you own:

On Writing by Stephen King.

12) What are you currently reading:

Actually currently beta reading a friend's cozy mystery novel.

13) What are you planning on reading next?:

I want to reread TVA and Blood and Gold. I also have ten million audible credits I need to use so I can cancel audible so recommendations are welcome! I love non-fiction on audio especially (actually just got Loveless based on prev's recommendation.)

tagging: @rebel-revenant, @this-writer-needs-coffee, @uncivilcivilservice, @kaelio, @aunteat (But only if you feel like it!)

[quaranmine]

tumblr book report time

okay, I finished Last Chance to See by Douglas Adams earlier today! I did say in the post a few hours ago I only had about 40 pages left. I also reread about another 80 or so pages that I read last year just to refresh my memory. So, I'm now going to do the (potentially) depressing task of listing out the endangered species features in this book, and seeing if any are still alive. I don't know yet how depressing or exciting this post might be.

Madagascar

This part of the book is from a trip in 1985, where they went to try and find the aye-aye lemur. I am pleased to report that the aye-aye is still alive, although still endangered. Woo-hoo! The aye-aye is the world's largest nocturnal primate, and is so unique it has no taxomic family (no related species.) They are considered evil, or harbingers of death, in folk belief, so they face danger from being hunted and killed.

Indonesia

In this chapter, they travel to the island of Komodo to look at the Komodo dragons. Komodo dragons, thankfully, are still alive, but still endangered due to the fragility of their habitat. They're at risk of volcanoes, earthquakes, habitat loss, fire, tourism, loss of prey from poaching, and illegal poachnig in general. Climate chane and sea level rise also threaten their habitat. There are 1,380 mature individuals left in the wild and 3,400 total.

Democratic Republic of Congo (Zaïre at the time of the book's publishing)

In this chapter, they end up seeing two animals. They traveled to the country to see the northern white rhinocerous, but also ended up seeing mountain gorillas too because, as Adams says, "It is very hard to go all the way to Zaïre and not see them." Mountain gorillas, although listed as endangered, are still around. The World Wildlife Fund lists their population as just over 1,000 individuals. The specific area that Adams and Carwardine visit in the book, Virunga National Park, has seen an increase in population. When they visited in the late 80s, there was a population of 320, but as of 2010 there were 480.

Here's where my post actually gets sad. The animal that Adams and Carwardine actually planned to visit in the DRC was the northern white rhinocerous. In 1988 at the time of the trip (or perhaps 1990 at the publishing of the book), there were 22 individuals left in the wild, all in Garamba National Park. Twenty two. Douglas Adams writes about the sad state of their population, and compares it to the success of the subspecies the southern white rhino. He ends that section of the book with the sentence: "The point is, we are not too late to save the northern white rhinocerous from exctinction."

Feeling very energized after reading this, I had set down my book and pulled out my smartphone to google the northern white rhinocerous. The bad news is, the northern white rhino is functionally extinct in 2023. There are only two left in the entire world, and both are female, mother and daughter. Garamba National Park has suffered years of turmoil from politcal unrest, wars, insurgents, and poachers. In 2008, there were no northern white rhinos left in the wild and only 8 left in captivity.

There's some tentatively good news. Before the last male died in 2018, his sperm was collected. The remaining two living females cannot carry babies anymore, but the daughter's eggs were gathered. There's a team of scientists trying IVF, and since 2019 they've managed to get 24 embryos from one female and two males. They're planning on using another southern white rhino as a surrogate. Will this save the species? Who knows. Any babies that result will have to be inbred--either siblings or half-siblings. No genetic diversity remains in the subspecies. But it is interesting to me since this sort of thing used to not be possible at all for endangered species.

New Zealand

The first birds mentioned in this chapter is the Kea, which is also endangered, but this chapter isn't really about them. It's about the Kakapo. The Kakapo are probably my favorite animal described in this book, because they seem so silly. It's a wonder they never managed to go extinct at any point in history. I love them. Fortunately, there's good news for Kakapo: they're doing better!

Actually, I saw a tweet about them literally earlier today:

They're still considered critically endangered, but this is good news. As of 2023 there are 248, which is a significant increase in the ~70 that existed when the book was written. Yay, kākāpō! They're very cute.

China

Here is where the post gets sad again. In this chapter, Adams and Carwardine visit the Yangtze in search of the baiji river dolphin. It has been 21 years since the last confirmed sighting of the baiji, and 17 years since they were considered extinct after no trace of them could be found. I find this particularly sad, because part of the chapter in this book has Adams and Carwardine visiting with the Tongling Baiji Conservation Committee, and their construction of a nature reserve on the river. The end of the chapter seems hopeful based on this hard work, so I also feel quite sad for all these people in 1989 who cared so much and were still unable to save these animals :(

Mauritius

This is the final chapter of the book, and covers quite a few animals. The original intention was for them to be looking for the Rodrigues fruit bat. These bats are endangered, but with increasing population. By the time of the book's publishing in 1990, the population had just passed the 1,000 mark. The Philadelphia Zoo website says with breeding programs, there are now 20,000 left in the wild.

Another species mentioned is the Mauritius Kestrel. In 1974, there were only 4 individuals left. Now, thanks to breeding programs, there are about 400 left in the wild as of 10 years ago. That's amazing, but it is a bit worrying still--in 2005, there were 800 in the wild. So there was a wildly successful reintroduction and now the population is dipping again. But if they survived it once, I think we can help them survive it again.

Another bird mentioned is the pink pigeon. As of the publishing of the book in 1990, there were less than 10 in the wild. Now, thanks to conservation efforts, there are approximately 480. They've suffered some loss of genetic diversity, though.

Finally, the echo parakeet is mentioned. As of the time of the book's publishing, there were less than 15 remaining in the wild. I am happy to say that as of 2020 there are more than 800 birds left in the wild, and their status has been moved from endangered to just vulnerable--a step up!

That brings me to the end of my tumblr book report. I was actually mildly surprised and happy to see that only two of the species mentioned in the book are extinct/functionally extinct, and that the others were saved from the brink. I seriously thought while googling some of the birds at the end that they would be gone, but fortunately they're still around.

Goodnight! I spent way too long writing this!

[blysse-and-blunder]

in lieu of spring cleaning

11pm monday, april 3, 2023

family in town this week! i've been vacuuming! and cleaned the bathroom! funny how the title of these posts is starting to turn into a pattern, where the X in 'in lieu of x' is becoming an obligation more and more often...i guess as befits a fun little side project that i keep up instead of doing other things? even though it didn't start out with that sense in mind? curious. spoilers for some of the early episodes of dimension 20: neverafter, baru cormorant 3. and the first three episodes of ted lasso season 3!

reading having fun with baru 3 again. the masquerade ball (a masquerade ball! in a series about masks!) was v fun for me. the dialogue lately between barhu and heingyl and iscend and even aminata and shao lune has been great. seeing tau-indi back in action has changed everything. watching aminata fucking evolve and change her position and go against her earlier principles is so really excellently done. i hope to finish this up, since i have a backlog of things now on my phone and piling up next to my bed physically, nona (and rereading harrow) and jasmine throne and the golden enclaves and more, not to mention more victoria goddard and the rest of what we all long for and my various malingering libby loans which i keep asking to be delivered later....

watching caught up on the first new episodes of series 3 of ted lasso this weekend, and oh wow i've missed this show. i have inchoate emotional thoughts about roy + keeley, and about ted and his family shit, about rebecca and ted clashing over the need to 'fight back' as the season progresses, over the nate of it all, but i think none of that has surprised me? i'm here for it, but it's not unexpected (even the roy/keeley situation, that was flagged at the end of the last series). what has so far surprised me, in the sense that, i am pleased to see the show introducing new complications and layers and avenues of inquiry, has been shandy, keeley in management and how that's going, trent's book and watching him relate to roy (that scene with the review, aghhh) and watching them realize that they have the memory, the history of the sport, that beard and ted don't have, the roy and jamie scenes, the way jamie has been really great actually? especially seeing him react to zava? and finally, the chance to get to know colin. we've gotten to know isaac a bit, and sam a lot, and i am here for this deep dive into a new player. and it's not just because he's the welsh player, or the closeted player, i've always had a soft spot for colin and i'm excited to see more of him! and i'm worried for him now, but... not that worried because he is, after all, a strong and capable man. also, because this is apparently the final season, i have some...what's the opposite of trepidation. about how things will go. sure, there will be surprises and probably some heart-wrenching stuff but whatever will happen, will happen with a sense of finality, if that makes sense.

(this is a very silly picture, but it has trent and zava in it whereas most of the cast shots don't, so.)

listening an almost constant stream of dimension 20: neverafter, every time i'm outside the house. i'm still only just through episode 5, trouble in tuffeton, so it's a good thing i'm not waiting to watch these with the video-- having the dropout subscription has enabled me to stream just the audio, which is better for commuting and also is i think good for me this season-- as much as i'd like to see people's faces, the maps and whatnot, the minis are a little immersion-breaking. i may go back to watching alongside an hour or two of stardew, now that i have access to my games again, hooray. anyway i'm obsessed with lou, with zack, with noticing and really appreciating murph? all of a sudden? as a player and as someone playing a character who is flawed and still very funny. ally beardsley my beloved. the premise for this season was exciting to me, and then the multiverse / stories within stories flavor was...less so, it feels like well-trodden fairy-tale territory at this point to get so meta about storytelling, but the more i listen the more i am surprised and pleased by brennan's choices and how these reinterpretations are achieved. i love pitting the princesses against the fairies. i love the overlap between the characters' backstories (pinocchio's mother being the bad fairy!?) and everyone doing so fucking well at being both players who Know Things and unreliable narrators as their characters who Couldn't Know.

playing got to hang out with the lovely @floragraph and play a little stardew valley today! it's been so nice to dip back in, now that my laptop is fixed and functional again. also revisited pentiment with @dimir-charmer and we've absolutely run down the clock on this one bit without a satisfactory solution, and it's stressful! this is a good game!! and finally, d&d yesterday was a riotous delight, a run-in with the fantasy pinkerton detectives, and now a horse-chase. what a good game.

making fucked around in the kitchen yesterday while on the phone with an old friend, and together we concocted an interesting soup, using a quarter of a japanese pumpkin i had. roasted, pureed, mixed with sage and cream and ginger and a bit of roasted carrot...you get the picture. a solid B+ for totally improvised soup. totally improvising soup and adding little things to taste until it arrives at Pleasant, Actually always reminds me of my gran.

working on a bunch of things that aren't actually my work, which is starting to cause a bit of stress. applied for a funding award last week, while also sitting down with a couple of profs to talk about my rejected paper and where to send it next and how to amend it (which i have yet to do), though, so there's that. put several hours into paid work for my RAship though, that felt good. i also filed a bit of paperwork that ended up being easy but was frustrating in the moment, which i can consider a win. i need to finalize and book a bunch of summer travel things, start and finish my taxes, make these revisions and do so in a timely manner so that i can send the drafts to the people who need to read them.... but it all feels sort of far away and dreamy in comparison to the last few weeks of march, for better or for worse. instead, i have begun duolingo dutch and looking up travel phone plans in the netherlands...!

[ladyinbooks]

Hey, just wanted you to know I absolutely love your writting and your books and I always get so excited when you update any of your stories 🥺!! I read IB 2 years ago and I reread it again now, and I still can't believe this masterpiece is available FOR FREE for all of us to read!! So I wanted to thank you the only way I know and I drew Jason and Samiel (I've been sketching them from time to time because they live rent free in my head adfsfd)

I hope this brights your day a little bit! All my best wishes <3

Oh my god. OH MY GOD!!!!!

@mureh This is BEAUTIFUL! Thank you! ♥️♥️♥️♥️🤗🤗 (Please forgive the emojis, I'm just trying so hard not to start screaming over here.)

Firstly, I'm so happy you like IB, and I'm honoured that you've re-read it! It's really sweet of you to say you enjoy my fics - it made me smile so much to hear you've been sketching the boys from time to time because they live in your head rent free. (Seriously, I can't stop grinning - what a lovely compliment! Thank you!)

And now I'm sorry, but actually I am going to start screaming a little bit about your lovely art...

OMG IT'S GORGEOUS! THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU! ♥️♥️♥️

Can I just say I love their expressions?! I love how happy and full of life they both look. I love Jay's grin and the confidence in his posture and I adore the way he's just got an arm around Samiel's waist, and a hand on his own hip. Hellooooo confidence! This is such a wonderful Jay swagger! And his build is perfect. I mean utterly, utterly perfect. This is exactly what I was thinking of when it came to Jay. Alright, he's not as tall as Samiel, but yup. He could throw him over a shoulder if he wanted to. He just exudes a wonderful sense of cheerful competence in this piece - he's there and he's in charge and it's so wonderful. And his clothes! You've captured this fantastic military feel to him, that's still slightly outside the uniform rules (which yes, 100% yes!) and it works so well for Jay.

And then Samiel. SAMIEL! I adore how he's that little bit more reserved. He's calmly competent and his expression shows it - he's got Jay, and that's all that needs to be said for him. He's quietly dangerous, in the way a dormant volcano is, and you've caught that beautifully. Oh! His hair is utterly gorgeous (and precisely the length I was thinking of when I wrote him!!!!); his skin tone is perfect and I'm going absolutely feral over the way you've got him so tightly bound up in his uniform. Yessss. Absolutely yes. (I love what you've done with his uniform - it's that perfect combination of more formal, but practical and easy to move in.)

Oh gosh, I really can't stop grinning. You'll have to take my word for it, but I'm literally sitting here smiling so much my cheeks are hurting a little bit. Your talent is phenomenal, and you've captured these two perfectly. I'm so grateful and absolutely honoured that you've taken the time to draw them.

And, well, this is my phone's wallpaper now. It had to be done so I could stare at this some more on my morning commute.

Thank you so, so much. ♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️

[lesbrarians]

Nona the Ninth: A Spoiler-Free Review

Disclaimer: I'm a librarian who received an Uncorrected Advance Reader Copy of Nona the Ninth. Thank you to TOR for providing me with this ARC.This review is my own and is not influenced in any way by the privilege of receiving this ARC. I swore on the Tomb not speak its secrets, and as promised, this review will contain no spoilers.

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The only negative thing I have to say about my experience of reading this book was simply that I could not sit down and read it all in one sitting. Unfortunately, I needed to do such stupid human things as go to work, eat, and sleep. Which was most unfortunate, because Nona was the most engrossing book I've read in a long time, and I would've rather read it than do, you know, any of those things.

I've been waffling about where Nona ranks in my personal ranking of the Locked Tomb books. Because like, I didn't think it was possible to like a book more than GtN, but tbfh? NtN is a strong contender to replace it.

This is not to say that NtN is similar in tone to GtN, though! One of the things I admire most about this series is how uniquely different each of the Locked Tomb books has been in terms of its narrative voice. And look, I'll be the first to say that I struggled when I read HtN at first. My brain had a really difficult time getting over the mental roadblock with the switch to second-person tense. Of course, the emotional payoff was worth it in the end! But it was a challenge for me to get into at first.

I didn't have that kind of mental roadblock with NtN. Nona immediately sucked me in. Her narrative voice is so different than the narrative voices found in Gideon or Harrow, and it is truly such a delight to read. It wasn't as meme-y as the first one or even the second one. I think I only caught like two legit memes? The humor was still on-point (when I tell you that there was one moment towards the end where I went from quiet blubbering to actual hooting with laughter, the emotional whiplash killed me and I loved every second of it), but it took the side seat next to the worldbuilding. God, the lore encased in NtN... I need a reread to really digest it all.

And Nona herself? Being inside her head is just... it's charming. Nona as a character absolutely charmed me. The little cover blurb of "You will love Nona, and Nona loves you"? Accurate in every respect. I would die for Nona. I was so sad to finish the novel and honestly wanted to flip back to the start to go on Nona's whole journey all over again. (Because goddamn, what a journey it was.)

Also, every other character in this, not just Nona, was amazing. I loved reading about every character on the Dramatis Personae, especially the "you three." Well, except for the dogs listed. There sadly wasn't enough of the dogs. Asides from Noodle. There was a satisfactory amount of Noodle, whomst I adored.

Let's talk (not really, because No Spoilers) about twists. I went into Nona with a starting theory, and as I read, my theories changed as we learned new pieces of information. There were a few twists where I picked up on the breadcrumbs that Tamsyn was laying and called it before it actually happened, which I must say is tremendously satisfying. And then there were a few twists that absolutely sucker-punched me right in the gut because I was not expecting them at all. And then I had one theory that I was convinced was gonna be true and... I mean, it wasn't confirmed. I suppose it wasn't also denied, though? I'll sit on it.

And now that I've finished writing this review... there's some research I need to do. A few things I've written down that I must look up. A few comparisons to make between my notes and the text.

And so much thinking I must do.

And after I do all that.... then I need to decide: do I immediately reread Nona, or do I go back and reread Harrow and Gideon first? Decisions, decisions.

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TL;DR Absolutely incredible. Thought-provoking, insane, amazing. As with Gideon and Harrow before them, I am so, so excited for the world at large to read Nona. It is worth the wait.

[puppetmasteronastring]

thanks @greensolsikke for tagging me✨

not exactly sure if i'm doing this correctly but ah well

Last song: 'Million miles away' by Hanoi Rocks(i was feeling nostalgic and sad, alright?)

Fav colour: depends a bit on context but forest green or imperial blue.

Currently watching: Apart from tiktoks? The live action if One Piece (rewatching for like the sixth time)

Last movie: It was either the Michael Monroe documentary or Meg 2: The trench. Tho i did sleep through like 70% of the Meg 2.

Currently reading: "Ohjelmistotestauksen käsikirja" by Jussi Pekka Kasurinen (it's a book for school. about software testing. much exciting yes yes)

Also rereading 'Midsummer' because a)this bitch of an author knows EXACTLY what i like and b) i'm trying to get inspired to finish the next chapter of 'Afterglow'.

But in general my attention span isn't long enough to read much of anything so books aren't really my friends.

Sweet/Savoury/Spicy: Depends on the day but spicy

Relationship status: Engaged

Current obsession: Käärijä & Joker out. One Piece live action. Sleeping. Red bull. The way my gf keeps buying plant based alternatives for dairy products so that my 'allergic-to-milk" self won't have to suffer just bc i want a mug of hot chocolate.

Last google: I googled my school's yearly calendar. Wanted to know when i'll have a break (i won't. there is no break.)

Currently working on: A gift box for a friend. Afterglow's next chapter. Kinktober(no i have not abandoned it, i am just taking a little break due to the fact that there are only 24 hours in a day). School(i have two exams next week and i'm ✨screwed✨). Getting over a nasty cold. Getting more rest.

i tag @feral4kaarijasquat aaaaand @arendellepeach and @claracivry. if y'all wouldn't mind