#idk what to tag this as but i feel weird leaving no tag

[kobonus]

i wanted to post this on twitter but i felt like it was too mean

[lottieurl]

please ignore this if you disagree. this is just me thinking out loud but i keep coming back to this impulse shauna had to EAT the ear and of course there's been all this talk about how she wants to consume jackie. how it's wanting to destroy her how it's wanting to be as close to her as possible. but i'm interested in the physicality of it. like there is the metaphor of cannibalism and then there is the REALITY of it

i read about mortuary cannibalism in the past and i believe it wasn't even the close loved ones eating the dead usually because often it would be too hard for them and even those who weren't as close and were the ones to consume the dead would sometimes throw up while eating. like let's put aside for a moment everything this means narratively and metaphorically. there is the physical act of putting a real uncooked half frozen eat into your mouth and the fact that that's the ear of a person you LOVED. the ear you may have whispered secrets to during class and one you felt against your cheek when the two of you hugged. and shauna does that after gently caressing the ear in her pocket for an entire day

i think there's an interesting component to how she's interacting with dead-jackie. some part of her brain acknowledges that jackie is dead while a much larger part of her refuses to. and i think at least on some unconscious level she's aware of the way the cold preserves jackie's body. after the initial shock of finding jackie when we see her sit in the same room with her now she's keeping her distance. there's this feeling people usually get from seeing their dead loved ones especially if it's been a little while since they died - a feeling of alienation. the muscles are no longer animated, the skin no longer warm. a feeling of this person being foreign to you in some way suddenly. and so a part of me wonders if on some level she wanted to stop the ear from rotting now that it's not frozen, warmed by shauna's hand and safe in her pocket. i don't think it would be a conscious thought but it's just. walking around with that ear in your pocket. not wanting to part with any part of jackie. wanting to consume her yes but also wanting to preserve her in a very physical way in a sense

[ssreeder]

I'm so looking forward to iroh and zuko properly talking and seeing irohs reaction to zuko being gay.

Like we all know he doesn't agree with the fire nation rn but how will he react?

Will he not support him cause sokkas a guy? Will he not support him because it's SOKKA? Will he accept him? Will he reveal he's known for years zuko was gay?

Especially with everything that happened with zhao, regarding to what jee said to bato on their date. (Which is a very understandable perspective, zuko just got out of this very sexually traumatising situation and almost immediately starts a relationship (his first relationship) with sokka, but then again it is a very unique situation)

One thing I love about some atla fics is how they portray the FNs thoughts on queerness, cause on one hand they were one of the only country's (I think) that treated men and women the same but then again it's also the fucking fire nation.

And I also think zukos whole canon arc can be very comparative to queerness,

His dads an asshole and after speaking out against him he throws him out, and zuko try's for 3 years to regain his father's love and acceptance, and then faced with the opportunity of regaining it takes it immediately regardless of who or what he may hurt (iroh, his own morals etc) but once he makes it back home realises how fucked up everything is and eventually confronts his dad and openly tells him he doesn't agree with him then runs aways.

I also wonder if iroh secretly knows jee is queer it doesn't seem that likely to me but it also is iroh so who knows.

<3

I do think Iroh’s reaction will be a big moment for not only the story but for Zuko’s character development. Right now, Zuko’s technically still a prisoner, holding himself there by assuming Iroh will not understand or judge him when in reality he’ll never know what his uncle is thinking until they TALK ABOUT IT. (Which the FN royal family is just sooo good at healthy communication I don’t understand why this is so hard for them lol?!)

I do agree that the suddenness of the relationship combined with the intensity from both zuko and Sokka is very alarming for people looking at it from the outside (I mean we all totally get it cause we were there but others are like uhhhh hmmmm ok this might be concerning) so I get them gossiping and wondering if this is truly real or what the fucks going on with those boys.

I love Zukos canon arc because there’s just so much about zukos story that can be relatable no matter who you are and I think that’s why he is a fan favorite (it doesn’t explain why we torture him the way we do but ehhhh it’s fine haha)

Hmmmmmm does iroh know Jees gay? Depends on how saucy those music nights got ;)

[chipsncookies]

idk I was kinda thinking of trying the new pokemon anime but seeing u get so creepily obssessed with the explores these past weeks has kind of killed my interest in watching it tbh. I was hoping that after working urself into a frenzy every single week because you thought a side character villian would show up ud get a clue about how weird this was making u but I guess not. But yea I saw how creepy people got about the first anime, not doing that again, no thanks lmao

[risingsunresistance]

fascinated by the amount of replies to that post that dont understand the whole "talking in the tags" thing

like i get it, the actual reblog comment box SEEMS like it would make the most sense. and it does make tumblr seem less focused on talking to people (it kinda is, bc that's not the main feature of the site, it's not a standard social media)... but it quickly causes a problem on big posts bc of the way reblogs are structured. you end up with posts like:

[joke]

HAHA XD

OMG! LOL!

[commentary on the joke]

WHOA that's crazy

omg who knew :0

[commentary on the commentary]

[the part of the post you actually want to reblog]

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tags are a great place to put unnecessary comments, the OP or anyone who wants to publicly respond can simply screenshot/copy them and @ you for a discussion if they want

that doesnt really happen on twitter for example, where reply chains get condensed and QRTs will only show you one tweet back, requiring you to click on the tweet chain for additional context. and im not familiar with reddit tbh, but im pretty sure replies also get condensed to their own little corner

the fundamental difference is that tumblr is a BLOGGING site, you just end up with really long blog posts that obliterate someone's dash. so it's common courtesy to leave things that maybe are more personal or not really deserving of their own post to the tags where they stay on YOUR blog instead of going on the blog of anyone who reblogs from you

[todayisafridaynight]

any hopes for kiwami 3? like things u wanna see added or changed stuff like that

if they dont keep kiryu's goofy walk stance and the hoof-like walk sounds i dont wanna play it

[zorosnavigator]

fanfic rec post tomorrow maybe???👀

me to all my fandom ships knowing perfectly i wont have the time to do even 1 for at least one pairing til next week 🤡

[dndadspolls]

hey yall ! I think I'll be able to open up polls again soon (within the next month or two 🤞) but ! in the meantime, I'll have a few housekeeping polls to help get ready, so I've got a question for y'all !

my main thing has just been that I'm worried abt rbing ships and people not wanting to see whatever ship , but idk !

[definedvines]

chaos theory makes me insane in like 2389524589 different ways i still cant believe it even happened. is happening. s2 in fall wow.........

[annie-thyme]

and once again I am suddenly overwhelmed with an intense feeling of not really fitting into a gender

[byanyan]

being friends with byan is so weird bc they say they want you to have the balls to be bluntly honest with them, but then the very moment you're honest about something they don't like, they're peacing out, all "lmao ok friendship ended byeeeee"

[ace-apple]

every time someone talks about qcellbits relapse as "giving into his urges" or some shit in that vain an angel loses its wings a fairy dies etc etc

[christianborle]

there’s a local theater near me putting on something rotten! and I kind of want to go but I also feel like it’s gonna be so weird to see the show again????

[risingsunresistance]

man. knowing techno had a song for a final sendoff really Hurts bc i've thought about what mine would be for a very long time and now that someone has given me theirs i actually dont think i like the feeling it leaves behind! idk if i could do that to someone else

[justablah56]

I’ve been caught lmao. Yeah it’s me. I’m only 2k words into the fic so far though and I’m feeling like it’s gonna be a longer one 🤔 i never know though lmao I never plan the fic I just go with the vibes until it’s finished so 😃 it’s a mystery!

eheh yay >:] but aubdnsnd what a mood , well I very much look forward to this fic whenever you finish it !!

[orcelito]

Personally, I find the whole "I'm sorry for your loss" thing awkward. Like I get that it's supposed to express condolences, but really it kinda feels like someone weighing in on something they can't fully understand me on & reminding me of it all in the same breath. & it can feel like empty platitudes.

So when it comes to Other people, I falter bc like. I know I'm Supposed to express condolences. But bc of my own feelings on it, I hesitate. I don't know how this person feels about it. Would it be insensitive? Would it be insensitive for me to NOT?

And so I go full autism creature & am just like "umm Uhhh . See you later!"