#idk. maybe im talking out of my ass cause its midnight. but i like to think about it. again. layers. complicated. 👍

[rustedgate]

Truly, I think about Zack getting older and seeing parts of Angeal in himself. Almost jumpscaring himself walking by the mirror some days; looking at old photos and thinking. There's mourning and grief in it all, knowing that he's gone, but it's like Zack is taking him with. Living for the sake of them both, because what else are you supposed to do.

[serowotonin]

˗ˏˋ 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘀𝗮𝘄 𝘀𝘁𝗮𝗿𝘀 ˎˊ˗

𝗰𝗵𝗮𝗿𝗮𝗰𝘁𝗲𝗿 ` sakusa kiyoomi ` 𝘄𝗼𝗿𝗱 𝗰𝗼𝘂𝗻𝘁 ` 1.2k ` 𝗴𝗲𝗻𝗿𝗲 ` pure crack ` 𝗳𝗼𝗿𝗺𝗮𝘁 ` hcs `

𝗻𝗼𝘁𝗲 ` umm idk what this is.. lowkey based off real events? midnight ramblings? yeah that kind of thing i guess... also big thank you to @kaguol​  for giving this a read (⁄ ⁄•⁄ω⁄•⁄ ⁄) `

it was sports day at your school and most of the events were over and done with but the teachers didnt allow anyone to leave yet cuz,,,, reasons✨

which is why some of the students kinda just flocked to the gym to chill and maybe play around

that was until somebody suggested they host an unofficial, volleyball game

the net was still up nobody bothered to put it down so yeaahhh

rules of the game were simple: there were none, except keep the ball in the air and get it over the net…however you can

at first only a few ppl played… the “energetic” and “athletic” ones and it still seemed like a typical volleyball game

then more ppl started joining

and it slowly started getting more chaotic

it got to the point where the entire gym was the court

there were ppl running around chasing the ball, others just hitting it as hard as they can in practically any direction, then there were those who just stood there cuz everyone else was standing there so why not ??

now sakusa didn’t want to be there

he was tired because his class had signed him up for ALL the running events

why? well cuz he was tHe OnLy AtHLeCtiC PeRsOn in his class

utter bullshit btw

he plays volleyball hes not a runner

but still ended up winning tons of races just cuz… it was him💅✨ no explanation needed

n e wayss he was tired and wanted nothing more than to go home and take a nice long shower

but ofc the students of itachiyama wouldn’t let him

some of them dragged him into the game early on

again, because he was aThLeTiC ~

but this time they actually got the sport right lolol

honestly he was lowkey annoyed at how un-volleyball the game started to become but continued playing it anyway

it was hilarious how the others tried to receive even his weakest, half-assed spikes

sakusa always made sure to aim his spikes directly at ppl’s arms tho

not out of consideration for their pride or anything no no 

it was cuz whenever the ball touched the ground the ENTIRE gym groaned rlly loud and there’d be ppl going “NOOOOOOOO” 

and that annoyed tf out of him so he was nice with his spikes

then there was you

you were outside with one of your friends when the whole volleyball thing started and only came to the gym cuz the rest of your friends were in there

so you walked in, scanned the crowd, immediately noticed your crush *cough*sakusa*cough* and then found your friends standing in a group on the other side of the gym

now here’s the thing

sakusa has a crush™️ on you too. took him a while to realize and accept it but he did and now he officially has a crush on you

he just hadn’t really gotten around to the idea of asking you out or anything

mainly cuz he just very recently realized his feelings aka last night he was thinking about all the events he had to do for sports day and he groaned cuz ppl made him do it but then he realized ppl wasn’t actually ppl it was just you

you were the one who smiled at him and said “why not sakkun,, it’d be fun” and like that he agreed. then he realized further he actually thought about you a lot. like earlier he was thinking about how’d you look tmr since u weren’t gonna be in normal school uniform and you’d have your hair all done. and then he realized he was looking forward to seeing you which led him to realize you were one of the few ppl he actually enjoyed being around. THEN he fucking finally realized “oh… i have a crush…. on y/n……. oh”

somewhat conflicted abt it for the entirety of the day,,, bois experiencing feels for u ofc its gonna take some time >.<

he didn’t get to talk to you all day though,,,,,, he was busy with his own events and you were elsewhere

either way,, when he saw you walking past in the gym he kind of lost focus

lost focus in that the ball was coming to him and he jumped to spike it but only had his eyes on you causing his aim to mess up and well,,

he hit his target

*your head*

and because he wasn’t focused, it wasn’t a “soft” spike like all the other ones hes been doing 

it was a full-blown sakusa kiyoomi spike

that hit your face

(;´༎ຶٹ༎ຶ`)

sakusa just went: ᶠᵘᶜᵏ

you saw stars,,,,,,,, and fell on ur bum

like a split second later, you heard a calm voice asking if you were ok. you muttered out a yeah and felt arms helping you up

one of them was your friend you were pretty sure, but the other one’s hands were too big to be any of your friends’

“let’s get you to the nurse,” the calm voice said again. 

“mkay,, thats probably.. a smart choice.. yeah….” and, vision still blurry, you were guided to the nurse by your friend and someone whose identity you weren’t sure of yet

sakusa was still standing there

all that, the spike hitting you, you falling, your being escorted to the clinic,,,,, that happened in like 2 seconds

he didn’t even have time to say anything yet

to make matters worse, some random ass guy was the one who came and swept you out of the gym

sure your friend was with you but to sakusa,,, that guy sus af

after they left, the game continued and sakusa rlly didn’t feel like playing anymore

he wanted to make sure you were okay and wanted to apologize 

however,,,, the teachers came in shortly after and told them it was time for the closing ceremony

throughout the entire thing, his eyes flit through the crowds looking for you

he couldn’t find you tho>:((

big sad

after the ceremony was over,, he went to the clinic but you weren’t there

then he just kinda,,, /slump/

figured he’d just pull you aside tmr and apologize then

except,,, tmr came and he still hadnt found a good time to pull you aside for a proper apology?? 

you were just so… busy.?

finally,, at around lunch after you finished eating, you kinda just sat with your friends and were talking and stuff when sakusa decided now would be an appropriate time to apologize

he walked up to you and asked if you two could talk in private for a bit

your friends shot glances at each other. he saw,, but he didnt let it bother him

anyways,, he led you out into the hall and in the softest tone he could manage he says, “about yesterday… i’m really sorry, spiked the ball a bit too hard.. how are you feeling?”

you tell him ur fine,, just that it aches a bit but nothing serious

he nods and mutters another ‘sorry..’

then this happened:

“no it’s ok you don’t have to be so sorry. accidents happen.”

“it wasn’t an accident tho..? so im sorry, it wont happen again.”

“yeah ok,, wAIT WHAT?? wdym not an accident?!?? u spiked the ball into my face on purpose?!?!!?!?”

“WHAT NO- ofc not. i just,,, i kind of lost focus… on other things… at the time… and yeah”

“????”

*sighs* “i was focused on you when you walked past and didn’t consciously control my aim or whatever and ended up spiking it into your face”

“?!?!?!??…. why were you focused on me??”

“cuz i like you dummy” /it slipped he didnt mean to say this/

“oh.... wAIT WHAT?!?!?!?!?!?!?”

and that is the story of how sakusa confessed

𝗻𝗼𝘁𝗲 ` honestly think it would be better as a fic but uh,,, my lazy ass cant be bothered to write fics rn so uh,, hope this was good for now? lol might mess around and write one later tho.. maybe `

[writingforjoy]

Decotta’s Diary

Once again, huuuge thanks to @aurikhai, @rose-of-sharon-cass, and anon for asking for this particular drabble and i apologize again for taking so long with it! the first three entries are for the asks, and then i did the last one as a normal diary entry. All typos, punctuation, and grammar mistakes are left the way they are because I wrote it as if she was typing it on her phone. @rhikasa i hope you'll enjoy this one too

Dear diary, July 22, 2016 10:58pm

We’re leaving for a ‘mission’ tomorrow. Just gathering more intel or something on this ring of productivity. Think its supposed to create whatever you want, but idk, wasn’t really listening when pH0 and zane were talking about it. I would just ask him but I don’t wanna make myself look stupid! I mean, its literally not my job as ‘king’ to know, just to make sure that we don’t use all our expenses. Anyways, tomorrow we’ll leave Moonshine Lake. I’ve never been to Arkansas before, I wonder if it’s any different from Louisiana? We’ll see...but I’m not driving lol.

Dear diary, July 23, 2016 3:47pm

The only thing worse than all these trees is Emment presence. Honestly I don’t get WHY Haiden thought it was a good idea to send Emment along. I dont care if he can heal, I can protect Zane on my own! Now we can’t share the room OR have the romantic date like I planned! It was supposed to be just me and Zane enjoying the rest of the day ALONE together just relaxing but nnoooo. With Emment here, senpai wants to ‘get this done as quickly as possible’. I’ll have to read Sixteen to see how to fix this.

Dear diary, July 23, 2016 11:15pm

If Emment’s tagging along didn’t have me pissed, I definitely am now. APPARENTLY, Zane’s been working on this BY HIMSELF FOR MONTHS, and the person that has the stupid ring now is soME GIRL HE’S BEEN “DATING” FOR GOD KNOWS HOW LONG!! I wouldnt have known about it if Emment hadnt let it slip what Zane was actually doing tonight when he left! To make it all worse, it wont be til maybe midnight when he decides to come back! Why did you have to lie to me senpai?! I couldve been of use! It would’ve been different this time!!!

Dear diary, July 24 2016 3:42am

Just as i got ready to go out and find him, senpai comes stumbling in, reeking of what i can only guess is weed and alcohol. Thankfully, he had everything to make a purification potion. Buuut, he wasn’t...all the way there to do it himself. Emments useless ass was already sleep when he made it in earlier, so that left me to make the potion for him. i couldnt stand seeing him so out of it, so of course i made it! now he’s just puking on and off again from potions effects. ...i hope he sleeps well tonight.

Dear diary, July 26, 2016 6:42am

Ok i know im supposed to have a journal entry everyday but the night zane came in he ended up resting the rest of the day and i stayed by his side watching him and then yesterday was sooo busy! YESTERDAY WAS THE BEST. DAY. EVER!!!! Oh my god wher do i even begin??!!? Ssooo, as my reward for being the best girl in the world the other night to senpai, i had BREAKFAST IN BED!!! He ordered room service for me and brought me ROSES!! He tried apologizing for everythign but i told him not to worry about, this small gesture was enough to let me know that he still cared for me~ AND THEN. HE ASKED ME. TO HELP HIM GET THE RING!! i was BEYOND excited to help him!! But i kept my cool, and told him sure, whatever. So he went on about who the girl, maggie, was (just some uppity college bitch rebelling against her rich folks) and was telling me that when we went out that night i’d have to use a glamour (he already had his ready and dear god he only gets hotter the older he gets), and who i was going to be waltzing around as (another one of her friends who sounded equally boring as her). Anyways, her parents been gone on vacation or whatever and that night she was hosting a big party at her house that he was invited to. Haiden was going to get the girl that i was going to be and keep her busy or whatever, but she was already taken care of by the time me and zane got to the party. Oh god that party was intense, so ima make try to make this entry short cause tired as fuck.

When we got there, the party was already goin, music blasting, couples all on the couches drunk kissing, people in the corners drinking, beer pong in the kitchen, the works. To maggie, i was there to help her trap zane and oh my GOD it took ALL of my willpower to not light her ass up on the spot (though it was pretty damn hilarious when i caused a short outage and she and a couple of other girls screamed), luckily senpai was close by and was able to calm me down before i got myself caught like last time, then off they went to have a ‘private conversation’, and maggie told to let everyone know that she’ll be ‘right back’ if anyone needed her, but we both know how that went lol.

So as soon as they made it to the room i stood at the door making sure no one would be interrupting senpai...and do a little eavesdropping AND OH MY GOD THIS STUPID HUMAN! She called him a crook and a liar, and all he wanted from her was her money all while she was fake crying, and then she had the nerve, the AUDACITY, to call him a witch. Of all things! A WITCH!! Then! Ooh then she called him a low-life and a snake-FIRST OF ALL MA’AM MY BABY’S JUST DOIN HIS DAMN JOB SO FUCK YOU AND YOUR UPPITY ATTITUDE-i wanted to bust in and shout that so badly, and senpai must’ve known it too cause i heard him yell ‘calm down’ in french, and again softly in english for her (i guess). At this point my curiosity was getting the best of me and i just had to see what they were doing, so i enchanted the door so i could see in, and oh my poor baby. He looked genuinely concerned, hurt even, at her accusations. Then he cupped her chin in his hand and asked her where she heard such things, and when she told him he gave her this sad look and told her some pitiful story that i only wish i remembered to prove his innocence AND SHE FAILED FOR IT! She started wiping her eyes, stammering apologies, talkin how she ‘loved’ him but didnt wanna get hurt again, and when he did his little ‘confession of love’ for her, shE KISSED HIM! I promise to god i this close to barging in, but i saw senpai hand waving ‘stop’ while she started mumbling god knows what. then he slowly leaned (a little bit too) close to her ear and whispered something that made her redder than a ripe tomato, and this horny bitch got up faster than the sun rises and started stripping out of her clothes, what makes it sad was that she tried to do it sexily, but she wasnt as graceful as she thought she was about it at all. So drunk and pathetic, humans are so weak minded that its actually entertaining lol. Once she got her bra off and straddled him, he finally put the sleeping spell on her and laid her on the bed as he slipped the ring off her finger! We made the deliver just before we got home this morning and i am more than thrilled to be in my own bed right now and that everythings finally done.

Zane Masters, my senpai, is simply the best demon in the world! He’s sweet, charming and clever, and can easily manipulate people when he wants to, and thats what i love about him. Thats why hes the Second King, our K2, my sweet, sweet, love. One day he’ll agree to go out with me, then he’ll see that im just as much of a girl as any other one, and then he’ll fall in love with me, and we’ll finally live happily ever after!

[keebzcoolmailbox]

hi im mun pink and im gonna ramble about this funky au keebz and shu-chan is in

tfw this au and an oc is all you’ve been thinking about that you have to write it down in words :)))

part 1 of ??? - intro to the au and going into angie’s and kaede’s story

Okay! I’m deciding to call this the Flipped!AU. Why? I’ll tell ya why! All of the NDRV3 characters (except ONE theywhowillnotbenamed >:( ) have this fabricated backstory, right? Well, what if A) this was the character’s actual backstories and B) in some point of this backstory something changed that caused them to go to a whole different career path. A... flip of a switch so to say... Heh, heh, heh. 

I ain’t gonna talk about the two characters on this blog cause their backstories and what makes them different from their OG counterparts is something that ya’ll gotta ask yourself. So, I’ll just stick to characters that probably aren’t going to show up on this blog. 

Probably.

Being the person who watched someone online play NDRV3, I really don’t know as much as other people! So, what is a girl to do? She looks in the Wiki. Looking into the DR Wiki for that good old fabricated past lore brought some interesting things up. Things like that fact that Angie’s home island has plants that are known to attack people. Um, WHAT? 

I never knew that, and I feel like those goddamn plants need to be in the spotlight! So, let’s weave them into Angie’s backstory, eh? But hooooow? Well, Atua is really important to Angie, so let’s rip Him away from her via the power of attacking plants!

In the Flipped!AU, lil’ Angie, the prophet of the island god Atua, is attacked by one of these plants and forgets EVERYTHING. Her name, her status, and the main man Atua Himself! The islanders see this as Atua rejecting Angie and shun her to the wild jungle because if their God doesn’t see her as suitable then why should they?

Now Angie is like less than ten years old in this wild ass jungle. Kind of a big yikes. Don’t worry, she totes survives. And with that survival comes the total hatred. People who she doesn’t even remember just discard her like just because their stupid (every time she disgraces Atua, she flinches but she doesn’t really understand why) god said so? Fuck them, and FUCK THOSE PLANTS.

Yea, that’s right. She hates those things, especially now she’s in the jungle where they live. It was because of those plants that she’s in this mess! Grrrr!! And with hatred comes the desire to wipe them off of the planet! She sets up a hut and via her childhood friend who tries to help she studies her little brain off to eradicate these plants. But it’s hard to do when these things when the plants you're dealing with might not even be plants, so hell why not study all the plants and how to kill them to see if something works.

Studying all the plants? Whoop, whoop, we got ourselves a SHSL Botanist! After using her friend to send a letter to a scientific journal about a correction, Hope’s Peak Academy sends her a letter and a free ride to their academy (because killing games don’t exist in this universe. a weird little game about them does tho OWO). Boom! This feral botanist is on her way to becoming a true Ultimate!

If I were to make a sprite edit for her character (which isn’t saying a lot because I don’t change their clothes at all sksksk), then I’d just dirty the swim top, make her jacket white, exchange the paintbrushes for vials, and make all the clothes look like its been through a tornado. Oh and have her hair more shaggy and long as she really wasn’t able to get proper hair cuts (if I could even achieve that with my basic sprite edit skillz)! I’m not sure what else though. Tbh, I’m more of a backstory person than a costume design person.

Personality wise, she’d be insanely bitter with some serious walls around her heart. But at the same time, she just wants human connection so she does a total Gundham and makes excuses for a classmate to be “useful” and be around her. Standing next to a person (god forbid someone she finds slightly attractive) gives her a high, I swear. Her speech would be blunt and short to the point with a possible stutter because I’d imagine an incident that gave her amnesia might mess with some language things.

Hgggggh, god it feels so good to put this on paper! Or online text? I don’t know. You know what doesn’t feel good? Me, Mr. Stark. Not doing the thing you love to do! Bad segways are bad, but Kaede’s situation isn’t that good too.

Lemme read you something straight from the wiki. “Since she was a child, Kaede has been playing the piano so much so that she would forget to eat and sleep at times.” Forgetting to eat and sleep. Forgetting to eat and sleep. Hmmm, I can use that!

I like when there are consequences for actions, and this time the action is that Kaede goes too far. She really immerses herself in the piano and gets hospitalized as a result. This has been like the fifth time this has happened, so the doctor says NO MORE PIANO. 

Did you hear that? 

That’s the sound of 9-year-old Kaede Akamatsu’s heart breaking.

Kaede feels empty without her beloved piano. It’s been her whole life up into this point, so she tries to fill that void. A little bit of art? How about some writing? Gardening? Cooking? Building? Studying? Acting? She does it all. And, honestly, she’s only decent at all of the skills above and she still feels as empty as ever. 

Apparently, that’s enough for Hope’s Peak Academy as they invited the supposed girl who can do everything. And thus, the SHSL Jack of All Trades came to the school. Or maybe something shorter. Eh, I’ll figure it out.

Sprite edit would be to make her clothes into dull tones. Erase every reference of music and piano if possible. If not maybe draw x’s over these? Anyway, in place of these have a bunch of badges all over her clothes, one for each talent she’s half-assed in. Lowkey just realized her talent is the shitty version of Izuru’s sjafksdflkj

Like her clothes, her personality would be like her OG self if some pulled back on the reins a lot. Dull, bland. Not very fun to be around tbh. However, being in Hope’s Peak and away from parental supervision would probably make her personality slowly (and I mean slowly it’d be pretty unrealistic if she snaps back to her ndrv3 self immediately) go back to original, especially when her class surprises her with a cheap piano from the Japanese equivalent of Craigslist. She’d cry so much seeing that thing.

tldr; Different backstories make for this Flipped!AU. Angie is feral and angry SHSL Botanist, and Kaede is a piano-less and empty (but slowly recovering) SHSL Jack of All Trades.

Okay that’s it for the rambling. It’s like midnight, and I have to be up at 7:00! If you got to this point without relying on the tldr, thank you for reading!!! Ahhh, it makes me feel fuzzy that someone was willing to read all of my verbal vomit. Maybe one day I’ll make an addition to this idk! Have a good day!

[myuun]

do you live in nz? is it better than usa?

I do live in New Zealand! 

HMM… In some ways? I haven’t been to many parts of the US, I mostly stuck to the Southern states and have been to just the general touristy states like New York and California… but even then I haven’t seen all that much and I was a teenager and I really… can’t remember perfectly anymore… ;v; oh my god, I really can’t, I’M SO OLD NOW.

I have also not explored a lot of New Zealand, just Wellington (I live here!) and the nearby towns. 

My perspective comes from being raised on a small city in Mexico and studying in a small city in Texas, so I’ll go from there. 

I’ll go from the cons, cause that’s funner! 

CONS OF NEW ZEALAND:

- EXPENSIVE. Expensive. Expensive. If you come with American Dollars you gain more NZ dollars which is great. But the country is damn expensive. I’m used to my groceries for two people go to the hundreds per week. EASILY. Buzzfeed, save your words, I can’t save money on many things. Some things I can (which I’ll talk about in a bit). 

- You pay rent per week. Welcome to hell. Also, getting an apartment is the hardest thing you’ll ever manage to do. Don’t even talk to me about finding a job, even a temporary one. 

- Biggest bummer: NEVER ENOUGH JUNK FUCKING FOOD. NEW ZEALAND HAS THE STOMACH OF AN 80 YEAR OLD. Cheetos? Nope. Rice Krispies? NAH. VARIETY OF CEREALS? NO UNLESS YOU LOVE NUTS AND GRAINS. I have such cravings for shitty food. I miss simple, beautiful greasy food. POUR ME A BOWL OF PANDA EXPRESS ORANGE SHRIMP. Everyday I dream about Chick-fil-a and I weep. This country has things similar… but everything here is very healthy… too healthy. Which I guess its good, but when you are raised on grease, you miss it ya’ll. 

- It can get boring depending on where you are. New Zealand pretty much closes shop… early. In small towns, malls are closed by 5:30PM (a shocking discovery!). Most restaurants, if they serve at night, they close by… 9-10PM. It is shocking if something is open after that, and it is most likely a bar. We are pretty much in by 6PM and if we are out… we are definitely running late or its a blue moon. 

- EARTHQUAKES. This needs no explanation. I hate earthquakes. PETRIFIED. And I live on the top floor and it feels HORRIBLE. No thanks.

- No matter where you go you’ll hit water. My husband loves that we are on an island… I… feel uncomfortable? It’s a small country, we could sink easily if a tsunami hit. This is a bit half and half, it depends on who you talk to. For me, I… I’m not that big into islands. I like land.

- It’s a small country. Again, this depends on who you ask. Some people love it. I personally like it… to an extent. Im at the bottom of the north island and you can get to the top of it within 8 hours. That is… insane. That is HALF THE COUNTRY DOWN. It’s TINY.

- It’s small, so fashion, food, games, fads… all come later for us. So anything trending in the US… we know about it. But we cannot get it until a year later. It’s a cute joke that NZ is always ten years behind.

- The hole in the ozone is right about New Zealand, so you CAN get sunburned on cloudy days. It has happened to me, I swear. There is a SPECIFIC sunscreen made here by the cancer society because skin cancer is so prominent. Wear sunscreen! Fun fact: sun screen is also expensive. 

- It’s an island… and yet fish is expensive as HELL. ????!?!??? wh???!whw??? seafood restaurants? what??? who??? for the rich??? same with milk btw

- Lack of true racial understanding. This is a personal one, which I’ll elaborate on. There are SO MANY FOREIGNERS HERE. So many. But white people are the majority. So a lot of white people… have really strong stereotypes about people of color. I, personally, had never seen such incredible diversity before of religion, race, and nationality so to me, it’s amazing how much I learn, but… its a bit cringy as well how a lot of New Zealanders (especially older ones) are… quite… racist… Then again, this happens everywhere. I just thought with such a colorful variation of population… it would be more… open. And it is! But… ya know… YA KNOW.

- People don’t say bless you when you sneeze. ok I know its a small thing but it BOTHERS ME. 

- People pretty much dress the same… almost… the same. 90s style hipsters.

- So much hipster. 

- HILLS. SO MANY UPHILLS. SO MUCH… WALKING. if you’re into climbing, and foresty, and biking this is the country for you. But I’m not. 

PROS OF NEW ZEALAND:

- No matter where you go, it will always… always be stunning. I have a bit of a mocking attitude when people go to “scenic spots” because I feel it’s a waste of time? Personally… THE ENTIRETY of the country is a giant scenic view. No matter where you look, it’s absolutely beautiful. I look out my window and it faces another building and yet the sky and the trees are gorgeous. 

- The air is so fresh, that it cleared my skin. This is a no-joke, my skin actually got better when I lived here for a month and then went back to Mexico, and it burst into pimples. It’s so fresh here and almost NEVER humid. Sometimes, but its tolerable. 

- There is little, to no danger. We can walk at midnight in fling flang wherever and the likelyhood of me getting robbed is pretty minimal. It HAPPENS but it’s so so so rare. The newspaper writes about your neighbor’s tomato farm (seriously). Not… murders. 

- Animal care and respect is SO MUCH HIGHER here. As a huuuge animal advocate that lives for her animal shelter, the love and outpour people give their pets is amazing. It’s INCREDIBLY RARE.. AND I MEAN… RARE. To see a stray dog. In fact, mark my words, I’ve never seen a single stray dog. Maybe a stray cat, but cats are outdoors here a lot, so probably not. THIS DOES NOT MEAN THERE ISN’T ANIMAL ABUSE. There certainly are. But not as rampant as in the US or Mexico.

- It’s rare to eat bad food. I will honestly say in the three years of me living here… I’ve had shitty food… four times? five? And every other time… its been amazing. Idk what it is. It’s always… worth every penny. So I can tell you, when it’s bad… ITS BAD. It’s hard though, you really can’t fuck up here (well, at least Wellington).

- People are so… so nice. I think nice people are everywhere, but New Zealand is especially nice. SO NICE. 

- The diversity is amazing. I’ve never seen such a colorful city.

- RECYCLING AND KEEP NEW ZEALAND GREEN. It really has encouraged me to be more thoughtful and resourceful and soon I hope my lazy ass can fucking… whats it called… compost.

- Everything is very close by which can be very convenient. It’s a small country, so we are close-knit. 

- OUR PRIME MINISTEERRR. She is as lovely in person (my husband and I are lucky to have a selfie with her) as she is on TV.

- Tons of events, tons of artsy fartsy stuff, so many things to see. New Zealand encourages so much togetherness in their community so tons of events are honestly done by the entirety of the country. Festivals, community services, art stuff… Markets are AMAZIIING. 

- If you’re into health, gyms are cheap and walking is even cheaper. We walk… everywhere and everywhere is close by.

- Bus system is fucky, but certainly very useable. It’s all we take and it gets you everywhere. 

There is SO MUCH MORE IM SURE, but I’m about to have dinner and I can’t think of anymore. ;v; But I hope this answers your question. 

Overall, I do love New Zealand, but there are tons of things I miss about the US… mostly just the food… and all the food. And my family. It’s weird being in a country that is really far away from the world. It feels a bit isolating at times, but the kindness and community shown in New Zealand is fantastic, and I really love this country a lot. ;v; Please if someone here is close to the Chick-fil-a CEO, I’ll donate to have one open in Wellington. We just got Krispy Kreme… in one airport in Auckland.

Someone please sir… a bag of donuts and chick-fil-a waffle fries…

waffle fries i miss you

I don’t think New Zealand is necessarily better than the US because the US has such variety because of all the states and people and natural beauty, but I will say... politics wise, I do think we have a SLIGHT UPPER HAND THERE, SON. 

[bvrtram]

NICO MIRALLEGRO —— well, if it isn’t BERTRAM AUBREY, the HUFFLEPUFF superstar. for those of you who don’t know HIM, you can spot them sitting with the other SEVENTH years. most people think that they’re CANDID and RESILIENT, but they can also seem pretty SELF-RIGHTEOUS and PESSIMISTIC. sometimes people call them the PEDANT. sure, they’re a MUGGLEBORN, but that doesn’t define them.

this intro is gonna be messy as fuck im warning you already

he’s got a pinterest board but it doesnt have much on it yet 

wow. what an asshole.

ok so the only canon thing known about bertram is that james & sirius hexed his head to grow to twice its usual size and i think that’s so fucking funny

can u say chip on his shoulder? legally blonde style? was born to a father who dropped out of high school and now works in construction and a mother who wanted to become a teacher but left that dream behind when she unexpectedly became pregnant with bertram when she was 19. bertram’s parents did love him but they really never had a lot growing up and it caused a significant amount of stress on the fam

so obviously they were like all super shocked when bertram was magic and was approached to come to hogwarts and shit especially cause like neither of his parents had gone to university or anything ? so bertram vowed not to fuck up this chance

has a little sister who he’s hella protective over

his parents divorced a couple years ago and even though it was a long time coming he’s still like .... very salty about it 

he’s like ..... percy weasley mixed with ron swanson and uhhh lil bit of xander harris 

people are always surprised he’s not in ravenclaw cause he’s smart af and works hard af to get good grades af lmao and then they’re always more surprised he’s in hufflepuff especially since he’s uh... how do u say...... a bit of a DICK 

but his values are very hufflepuff. he values honesty and fairness and hard work

has very high standards. for everyone. will judge the fuck out of you if you don’t meet those standards. like if you slack even a little bit ? get ready for bertram to be pompous as fuck and go on some self-important condescending lecture. i h8 him

very practical, very down to earth. has no time for fairytale stories or puppy love or really anything that doesn’t have a useful application in the real world. 

he’s like weird cause he’s pessimistic in that he doesn’t believe people will naturally do the right thing but like, he believes that they should and they can. like he doesn’t expect much out of people but still holds them to high standards

he doesn’t lie. like. he doesn’t. for one thing he couldn’t if he tried, but he also values honesty like a ridiculous amount and can often be very blunt while sticking to these values

you know that gifset of like prince charming chris pine from into the woods where he’s like “i was raised to be charming not sincere”? it’s the opposite for bertram. sincere not charming. sorry folks he’s nobody’s prince charming

like he’s an asshole but u gotta give him credit, he sticks to what he believes and he’s not afraid to share those beliefs. it’s gotten him in a sticky spot quite a few times but he’s also very clever with his words and can often talk himself out of it which is good cause he can’t fight for shit. someone kick his ass please

i don’t have words for how self-righteous he is ok i know i talked about this a bit already but i need you guys to know he’s a pompous self-righteous asshole. like you’ll see his good qualities and then be like “oh maybe he’s not that bad” but then he also sees his good qualities and points them out to u and ur like shut up bertram

doesn’t apologize easily but when he does he means it. like if you’ve ever had bertram apologize to you it’s so funny he gets so solemn about it 

you know that john mulaney bit where he’s like “get out of here with your facts. you’re like the kid at the sleepover who after midnight is like ‘it’s tomorrow now’. get the fuck out of here with your technicalities. just cause you’re accurate does not mean you’re interesting. like hey why don’t you get your sleeping bag and GET OUT OF MY HOUSE. take your goddamn epipen and gET OUT OF MY HOUSE” 

thats bertram. he’s the kid at the sleepover

but if you need help, he’ll give it to you. he might be annoying and condescending about it but he’ll be there for you whenever you need him. and he’s so so so loyal to those who are close with him 

like, he’s a good guy, deep down. deep deep down. he values fairness and honesty so even if he has the chance to have an advantage that might be considered unfair he won’t take it, and idk he’ll stick his neck out for people who are struggling 

and he’s faced a fair amount of shit in his life for idk being the way he is and also for being a muggleborn but he just shrugs it off and keeps going

i love him. but i hate him. someone take the stick out of his ass. or just kick his ass, that works too

um anyways plot with him

[batslime]

taggt ( by @wesminator )

Last:

Drink- im schlurpin mtn dew rn

Phone call- my mom to make sure she knew we needed cat food

Text- showing this awful thing to @succubus

Song- ddu-du ddu-du by black pink ( that doesnt even sound the way its spelled and i had to look at it again bc of that )

Time you cried- i dont remember probably while i was watching a movie or smt

Ever:

Been depressed- b o y

Gotten drunk and thrown up- i dont go to parties because i live in the middle of nowhere and ive never been drunk i dont like alcohol enough to get to that point

In the last year have you:

Made new friends- ya

Fallen outta love- YA

Laughed until you cried- no

Found out someone was talking about you- just today my manager told me one of the part time mans texts him to say ive been “acting up” ( i said something to her she didnt get so i told her not to try so hard bc i could smell the smoke coming from her ears ) and he straight up tells her shes stupid fgvhjb

Met someone who changed you- for the worse yes lmao

Found out who your friends are- I’ve found out who my friends aren’t!

Kissed someone on your Facebook friends list- Maybe???? ive remade it so many times/ never go on i dont remember if i have any exes besides @succubus

General:

Fave color- im always a slut for pink but i also love rich greens and lavender

How many Facebook friends do you know IRL - why is a tumblr meme probably aged at like teenage-twenty year olds even asking about facebook

Any pets - rn i have three cats

Do you wanna change your name - legally ya

What did you do for your last birthday - I dont remember i was probably still at home jobless and sad

What were you doing last night at midnight - working on miniatures

What is something you can’t wait for - @succubus is coming over next month, next paycheck, to get the energy to work on all my projects again, genji nendroid

What are you listening to - i just left blackpink playing after i had to look that title up

Have you ever talked to a person named Tom - idk

Something that gets on your nerves - god everything lately im like a time bomb

Most visited website - Tumblr and Youtube

Hair colour - Black/ dark brown

Hair length - i cut it asymmetrically l recently and shaved it back in march on the sides so its. all over the place

Do you have crush on someone - i have a crush on being a better and more productive and happier and richer person

What do you like about yourself - lets not start this lol

Want any piercing - not rn im too depressed to take care of my body on a regular basis

Blood type-  b+

Nicknames- 

Zodiac - capricorn

Pronouns - She/Her or They/Them is fine.

Fave TV show - I dont watch tv occasionally tho ill go into netflix and play whatevers nice to listen to while i work, like forensic files or movies im really familiar with 

Tattoos - i dont rly like the way they look i think n when i do see designs i like i like seeing them on other ppl, im too fickle for them myself. i used to do designs for ppl tho

Right or left handed - Right-handed

Ever had surgery - to have my teeth removed and tbh id be terrified and i think id really rather just die if i ever needed under-anesthetic under-the-knife surgery for multiple reasons 

Sports - no

Vacation - i like vegas, theres lots of countries id love to see but ive never been out of the states. im too poor and scared to do that rn esp alone

More general:

Eating - i love squishy foods but ive been craving crunchy stuff a lot lately too. ive been getting bowls of ice to take to my room while i work

Drinking- i drink like three things and that mtn dew, water w crystal lite, and match fraps

About to watch- i dont watch stuff much i just play whatever i can presently stand hearing while i work

Waiting to-

Get married - god no i literally just wanna live alone i dont wanna have to see people in my house while im trying to force myself to work or walking around naked i dont wanna be responsible for another person

Which is better:

Hugs or kisses - i dont like to be tocuhed

Lips or eyes - 

Shorter or taller -  

Nice arms or stomach -  these are like. really obscure selections 

Troublemaker or hesitant -  

Have you ever:

Kissed a stranger - no

Drunk hard liquor - no

Lost glasses - yeah i just toss em at the end of my bed at night

Turned someone down - um i work retail and look like a teenager i can hardly fucking go in public without some random ugly ass dude thinking he can talk to me lol 

Been arrested - no

Cried when someone died - i dont think so just animals as far as i can recall, i havent lost anyone close.

Fallen for a friend - ya

Do you believe in:

Yourself - Yeh boi!

st sight - for like animals or shows or smt. if youre talking about another person. thats called attraction and calling it love is creepy and unhealthy and an obsolete concept that we need to nip in the ass tbh. i hear a disproportionate amnt of guys to girls say this and its like always someone they meet in public or whatever. im sure if i were desperate and self hating enough to humor any of the losers who try me theyd say it like five years down the line too. you dont know who tf somebody really is til youve known them for years and gone though real shit and seen how they respond. ive always found “love at first sight” creepy 

Kiss on the first date - idk

Angels - maybe

Others:

Best friend’s name - i call her a disgrace and the cause of my death but other ppl call her franky/ alexa 

Eye colour - Brown

Fave movie - 

Fave actors -

franky ive already tagged you like eight times. also im done working for the day. if you wanna be tagged reblog it and tag yourself im not doing anything else for any more people today 

[clockworkwhiskey]

another

Long answer asks

Describe your dream house

Probably three stories with hella big closets, checkered tile floors in the kitchen that is BIGGGG with an overhead stove, nice bathrooms and showers with seats and multiple showerheads, a studio, a movie room, a sex room, 2 guest rooms, a pool, a jacuzzi, probably a performance dock in the backyard so i can pretend im a rock star, an in home gym, shit idk my dream house would have so much

What's your top 5 songs at the moment and why?

Never knew love like this - Stephanie Mills (it makes me happy)

Black dog - Arlo Parks (it helps me when im anxious)

Midnight Train to Georgia - Gladys Knight & the Pips (make me feel confident in running away)

Never forget you - Noisettes (makes me happy when i get off work)

Happier Than Ever - Billie Eilish (i only know some of it but i love it already)

What's your favourite memory from school?

i liked looking forward to lunch with my friends tbh i miss that feeling, i had no thoughts at all just ‘lunch wif buddies’ in my head over n over again

Whats your least favourite memory frol school?

getting arrested on campus bruh tf was that fuck iya edais she a snitch

Whats your relationship with your parents like?

:( idk

Desribe ONE of your favourite people

they smell good and make me feel really safe. whenever i’m in trouble or hurt or something, they’re the first person i think of running to immediately. i also really like the way their hair has been looking lately. they’re also sometimes funny and don’t realize it. sometimes i envision their face in my head n wanna punch it but i think thats that affection aggression shit idk

Talk about your favourite tv show as a kid

it had dinosaurs n i wish i had that stone they used to go see the dinosaurs

Talk about a band you loved as a teenager

if i heard their music today, i’d still think it was bangers on bangers

Talk about your favourite historical period

precolonialism because everything was better before white people came around with their bullshit. lots of countries were matriarchal and weren’t imperialist or capitalist based and were open to multi-sexual people as well as gender fluid beings and ya all that good stuff

Share a recipe you love

cut up some chicken breasts, marinate them in soy sauce and vinegar 1:1 ratio over night, double batter them in some seasoned flour n eggs, n fry once til light brown- cool it down, and fry again til golden brown. bomb ass fried chicken. goes best with some rice- easy nut

How many children do you want and why?

2 or 3 but idk cause i dont really want kids. but if i did, i’d want 2 at first so they can take care of eachother at school n stuff. n then knowing me, i’d get sad and want a baby again so i’d probably have another one years later

What's your favourite season and why?

summer because it feels less lonely

Write a review for the last book you read

it was billie eilish’s photobook. i loved it, felt like i was right next to her n she was showing me her family albums.

Write a review for the last film you watched?

i don’t even remember the last movie i watched

Write a letter to someone your no longer in contact with

hi,

you look really happy and i am so happy for you. even though i know its you in the pictures, i don’t seem to recognize you. i’m sorry that my emotions got in my head and that things ended the way they did, but you were literally such an unpresent person in my life. you were selfish, wishy washy, choosey, and only cared about how others perceive you. you only befriend people for clout and pretend like you genuinely share interests when you don’t. you’re just as selfish as your family. but i applaud you full and well, because you play a decent game. i will always love and care for you, but i had to let you go for my own mental health and well being because i couldn’t keep depending on someone who wouldn’t reciprocate my energy. you made me realize that i have the ability to cut off anybody, regardless of how much they mean to me. you helped me prove to myself that i’m stronger than the love i have for people. and i’ll always be thankful for that, along with everything you did for me before you turned out to be such a train wreck. i wish you the best and i wish you genuine happiness and i wish you the best version of yourself that you could ever imagine.

i love you always.

Talk about your favourite conspiracy theory

can’t really talk about it on here

Whats your favourite city and why?

elk grove because there’s grocery stores everywhere bless up

Describe an essay/story you wrote in school

please god no

Whats sole life advice everyone should know

stop. half. assing. your. friendships. and. relationships. THERE IS NO POINT IN NOT GOING HARD AND ALL IN FOR THE PEOPLE YOU CARE ABOUT. NO POINT.

If you got $500,000 what would you buy

maybe a hotel on the las vegas strip to make more money

[bumblebaubles]

fave kpop releases of 2*2* (im censoring the year it was awful)

La Di Da Everglow: So impactful, i have a bias towards 80s pop themed songs. 80s pop is so overdramatic and self indulgent with its poppy synth and deep dirty bass and la di da delivered on that. It *is* the song i blast at full volume going 75 on the freeway. literally my anthem, like what more can you want from a song. The girls are literally screaming at you for three minutes teling you to fuck the haters and get a bag while looking sexy ITS EVERYTHING. 

Love sick girls BlackPink: for some reason this one got me in the emotions. I cried listening it the first few times. its not often you get a pop release that also fucks with your feelings. last time i cried was feel special. This song is a rollercoaster. from hopelessness, to denial, to heartbreak ,to screaming at the raining sky  WHY DONT YOU LOVE ME like, ahhh plus rose and jisoo have writing credits so maybe its so emotion filled because its a passion project. their first writing credits on a song yay them. rose belting but we were born to be alone really did hurt my feelings ouch 10/10.

pporappipam sunmi: love story of the century what more can i say. I told you already i love 80s pop what did you expect from me? The soft vocals the soft purples the midnight 

5 STAR CL:is this what its like being in love? pporappipam and 5 star are the closest i’ll get to experiencing it. the lyrics go so well with the music. its hard not groove. its the slow song, its the love song, its the song you remember long after the relationship is gone and you listen back and smile through your tears bopped

Diver yooa: Ok you’ve heard i love 80s pop but what about 70s disco? yes yooa pprovided that for me. I’m very greatful, its powerful like a ballad, funky like a dancetrace, and catchy as a mother f*cker

wannabe Itzy: it doesnt even feel like wannabe came out this year but it did so let me go back in my head to march.the dance break, especially when you’re first seeing it is impactful. Its that heavy bass girl power bop that sustained me through finals week of the winter semester amen. The song really delivers on telling the listener to be unapologetically them. 

Bad girl woo!ah!: Theres so much about the song. I- where do I begin. I like that they take risks with the song, its not the normal pop bop formula thats popular nowadays. its still had a bit of a edm(?) type influence like wooah’s debut but theres also more sonically cohesive or better sounding things in the song as a whole, but they didnt lose their uniqueness either. The rap parts are killer, the dance break is weird and fun, and and the after chorus screams girl power. plus all the wooah girlies are so damn cute how can i not love

Tag Me weeekly: I literally never shut up about this song.I never shut up as soon as i heard it this was all that i talked about. this song IS for main characters. Its girls, its sassy, its retro its what me and the girls needed and weekly provided. 

tiger inside superm: how do i explain why i like tiger inside so much. It feels like an action movie track. But not any action movie track. Its like when the main character realizes their true power under pressure and starts kicking ass or something. 

black mamba aespa: its bassy fun. I described the concept as acid trip powepuff girls and i stand by it.  Feels like an action movie track which is why its next to tiger inside. Its canon that superm and aespa are connected or at least in the same universe, but give sm credit, notice how the high note at the end of black mamba is the similar to baekhyuns climax in tiger inside?

So bad stayc: ne, ne ,ne, ne, ne meoli meoli. ne meolisoge. Once again another love ballad pop song with high energy synth and bass. I ALREADY SAID THIS i love overdramatic self indulgent obnoious pop songs like im sorry im basic. when i first heard it there was something in it that reminded me of early 2000s pop but i couldnt put my finger on it. but once again overall bop im a sucker for melodramatic love songs bye

90s Love nct u: THIS IS HOW WE DO IT DA YEOGIE or something idk korean. point is out of all the nct 2020 releases this is my favorite. misfit and make a wish are a close second but my husband jeno is there so 

Bazooka Gwsn: NAN ANAJUL GEOYAAAAAAAAAAAA ugh its one of those songs that so chic? like something you’d strut down a runway too, or theres a shopping montage when your out on the town with the girls™. the whole synth pop upbeat swing thing it had going on is so freeing in a way. its feels airy summery and fun and when thar NAN CHAJAJUL GEOYAAAAA WHOAH hits its over.

better twice: gosh ok how do i explain myself im sticking to one song per artist and better beat out cant stop me i ok ok- chill let me explain. I do fucking LOVE 80S pop/city pop and i cant stop me was everything i love in an 80s song but when i first heard better it gave me the feeling. you know the feeling. that youve heard the song before and you already love it. I didnt even need to know the lyrics because the song is so nostalgic in its own way, i already pieced together it reminds me of a friendship/relationship we all wish we had. I listen to the song when im lonely and yes i tear up a bit ok i cry a lot.

got that boom secret number: it is a step up from who dis. and i liked who dis. who dis was basic harmless fun. got that boom though, GOT THAT BOOM though,,, 👀that chorus,, like bazooka, got that boom has the feeling of freedom and fun and colors and i stan it. when the girls say “Dance, dance. Dance. Get up dance” you know exactly what the fuck to do. Someone else pointed out that the lyrics in the chorus of who dis slows down. It takes its time to say what it needs to say and i feel like got that boom is the same way. especially ESPECIALLY when denise (i think) starts belting after jinny’s tounge twister rap. “Fly Fly Fly away -” for some reason it felt like spice girls but i cant place why. overall bopped.

Play Chungha: i had to pick one chungha song, its play. play is love, play is mischief, play is energetic,  play is end of the year spectacle all wrapped in one because chunga doesnt know how to flop. Something about the music in the chorus feels like it contrasts chunghas voice. Plus the influence from other cultures adds that spice. 

revolution: alexa i love you. shes so uwu. and this chorus splash of ice cold water in the face. alexa wants you to get the message shes yelling at me in the chorus “THIS IS A REVOLUTION_ REVOLUTION OF THE MIND” and then of course in alexa fashion theres a ridiculous dance break near the end. Its the talent for me love. 

home YEZI: once again, this song is probably the closest i’ll feel to romantic love. 10 for the vocals, ten for the song, 10 for the MV. 

MORE k/da: Does k/da count as a kpop group because im counting them as a kpop group first listen i wasnt sure during their brief intro but as soon as akalis part cae on i knew that once again a virtual character from a game had managed to become the singular pillar holding up the music industry yet again. the way the music cuts out and akali goes in, goes IN!  AND SHE DRAGGED ME IN WITH HER. SHE SAID “ Im giving you more cause im greater than, i never did numbers i hated them ( i paraphrased that lyric) , but all of my numbers are talking babe, got money like ms.monopoly” GOODBYE 

[lesbianstarlightglimmer]

hey hi guess who wants to die?

my asshole of a father is wearing me thin. i came home at dinner and we always talk about how school went that day and i had my day interrupted countless times by either 1.) my mom getting upset my youngest brother for messing w the cat at the dinner table 2.) my dad yelling at him for same reason 3.) one or both of my brothers ‘jokingly’ complaining about how long me talking about my day is and so on. my youngest brother decided the entire meal he was just gonna ignore what he was told to do and thus got his phone taken away. 

all the yelling and fighting made my other brother stressed so he took a drive through the neighborhood. before we got ready for bed my dad asked him why he was feeling stressed and he said the fighting was stressing him and i chipped in (because it happens every fucking time im home) saying it stressed me out too and how its chaos every time i come home.

my dad informed all three of us we had no reason to be stressed bc we’re not parents and how its ‘optional’ i come home on weekends bc i COULD be forced to pay rent AND THEN he said that the ‘so called chaos you feel when you get home is caused by you’

fuck. you. you worthless abusive piece of shit. ive wanted to die like 7 times this week alone and fridays not even over and this bullshit aint helping. im not the one shrieking at the youngest brother every other second bc hes doing whatever bc he never went through the bullshit i did that made me the timid soldier fucked up ass i am today

you know what? i dont come home for my fucked up family. i come home to get away from school, eat food thats different from the same 5 fucking things they have to eat there that doesnt make me sick, and to see my cats. i cant spend more than maybe 30 mins before i wall myself up in my room until i leave because they stress me out so badly

AND THEN THIS ABSOLUTE BASTARD had the nerve to say how i never thank my mom for doing laundry/cooking/cleaning/etc. OH HO DO NOT GO THERE! whos the one complaining about how the foods not the right temperature or that its not what he wanted to eat or wasnt at the time he wanted? whos the one who gets mad when she gets home from work bc something didnt get done that HE could have done? 

Now whos the one who went 18 years of her entire life not complaining about how much the taste and texture of sausage makes her gag because she was being grateful her mom cooks? You wonder why i only tell my day to mom? its bc u dont give a fuck. i can hear it in the disinterest or how it becomes a life lesson. i say thank you like 4 times throughout a meal and every load she brings in (oh and btw most of the time im doing my own laundry and i would do it at school except i dont have the soap and stuff) i say thank you. they beat it enough into me and yet im still punished because NOTHING i do is enough for them. but yes I’m the selfish prick

and then they had to bring in how im always alone (wow idk my 2 friends from hs were dead ps im not counting skye bc they dont know about her/tumblr for my safety and hers and my hs friends’) and he used the fucking b*st fr**nd bullshit fuck you fuck you fuck you. and then the ‘i want you to get married and have kids’ FUCK YOU!!!!! you wont want me to if i decide to marry a woman!!!!! i dont wanna have kids bc ill fuck them up like YOU DID ME AND MY BROTHERS.

and then he guilt tripped us by saying how ‘we work our jobs bc we’re paying for what? (directed at me).’ “college” i hiss. “dont you spit it through your clenched jaw” Youre fucking lucky you were on the other side of the room motherfucker ooooooooohmygod. Ohoho and when he ‘opened the floor’ once he was done telling us how shitty we are and how hardworking him and my mom are, he asked if i had anything to say. i wanted to spill all of the above but i cant. i dont have a job bc i can barely get out of bed in the morning for school let alone more of a job than i have now

you know at one point i was grateful for them helping pay for college. now its just a burden bc they hang it over my head whenever i show the slightest (and fair) complaint i have like how i come home and everyone just complains about me, makes me do their jobs for them, the youngest hits me (but oh no thats how boys show love right ‘hE sItS iN uR rOoM wHeN yOuRe GoNe’) or otherwise physically or verbally/mentally abuses me.

i need therapy. i have no time no money and my parents obviously dont give a shit about my mental health period. he even had the audacity to ask if it was ‘something they did’ parenting wise. uh you want the list in fucking alphabetical order or by year or...?

anyways this is long and its passed midnight and they placed a baby monitor outside my door to hear one brother for night terrors so ik they can maybe hear me typing so yeah

[ikarosapollo]

tagged by @zuukko ah thank you bethan!!

Rules: answer these 85 statements & tag 20 people

the last:

1. drink: soda

2. phone call: my mom

3. text message: my partners mom

4. song: what’s it gonna be - shura

5. time you cried: the night from thursday to friday last week? i think

have you ever:

6. dated someone twice: yea

7. kissed someone and regretted it: nope

8. been cheated on: not that i know of 

9. lost someone special: yeah

10. been depressed: i mean,,im pretty sure i am but ive never been diagnosed so

11. gotten drunk and thrown up: nope

favorite colors:

12. blue

13. purple

14. black

15: thats like,,it tbh asdghf

16:

i guess??

in the last year have you:

17. laughed until you cried: oh yeah for sure

18. found out someone was talking about you: yeaa

19. met someone who changed you: yep

20. found out who your friends are: i mean, kinda? idk

21. kissed someone on your facebook list: yeah

22. made friends: yep!! this past year ive made some really good friends and i love them all

23. fallen out of love: nope

general:

25. what did you do for your last birthday: uhh i have shit memory, i think i watdhed horror movies with my friends and played until dawn? im pretty sure that was last year..

26. how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: all of them

27. do you have any pets: kinda, i mean its technically my partners cat but i love him

28. what time did you wake up: like,,6 am? i stayed in bed for a while tho

29. what were you doing at midnight last night: i think i might have fallen asleep already idk tho

30. name something you can’t wait for: going to london at the end of october for comic con!!! c:

31: what are you listening to right now: ring of keys from fun home

32: have you ever talked to a person named tom: no i dont think so

33: something that’s getting on your nerves: bethan wrote swedish and honestly?? mood??? actually speaking in general cause i always mess words up,, also like,,people,,,in general,,tbh

34. do you want to change your name: my birthname yeah cause i havent changed it yet

35. hair color: brown

36. long or short hair: short

37. piercings: i have an industrial and a few on my ear lobes, but that it,,for now

38. tattoos: i dont have any yet but i’m planning on getting at least one or two

39. blood type: i have no idea

40. nicknames: matt, matty, matti, tory called me atthole once and theresa called me matt thigh ass if those count asghjdf

41. relationship status: taken

42. zodiac: libra

43. pronouns: he/him

44. most visited website: tumblr, youtube is probably a close second

45. right or left handed: right

46. surgeries: a few, cause i was sick and also once i ha to reattach two of my toes when i was little lmao

47. sports: sports? idk her

48. favorite tv show: uh, criminal minds and elementary maybe? rn at least

49. vacations: i used to go to the mountains every spring but my grandparents sold their cabin so that’s not happening anymore, otherwise? ive been like,,no where

50. sneakers: i have like, one pair, and then a million pairs of converse

more general:

52. eating: i just had breakfast 

53. fave drink: orange juice i think

54. what you’re up to: looking over applications for the safeshironet and also im having anxiety about a meeting i have later

55. waiting for: top surgery,,going on t maybe,,also comic con!!

56. want: to be able to actually do something with my life at some point

57. get married: i’m not sure, maybe

58. career: ive always wanted to be an author but idk, id love to work with books tho so, librarian or working in a book store would be nice

which is better:

60. hugs or kisses: both

61. lips or eyes: eyes

62. shorter or taller: shorter

63. older or younger: neither tbh

64. nice arms or stomach: uhh arms? i guess

65. hook up or relationship: relationship

66. troublemaker or hesitant: like,,,what i like in a person or me? cause im hesitant af but idk man

have you ever:

67. kissed a stranger: no

68. drank hard liquor: yeaa

69. lost glasses/contacts: nope

70. turned someone down: yeah

71. sex on the first date: nope

72. broken someone’s heart: im pretty sure yea,,,

73. had your heart broken: ye when i was like 12 ajsdghf but also recently but not romantically

74. been arrested: nope

75. cried when someone died: yeah

76. fallen for a friend: yep yep

do you believe in:

77. yourself: moslty? nope

78. miracles: idk tbh, probably not

79. love at first sight: not really

80. santa claus: nope

81. kiss on the first date: i mean, yeah if thats what you wanna do?

82. angels: maybe? idk tbh

other:

83. current best friend’s name(s): elin, linnea, noah, theresa, lois also aleesha probably, idk those are the friends that are the most important to me rn, but i love all my friends :// they’re all the best :((

84. eye color: brown

85. favorite movie: the man from uncle

im tagging: @dianaofthemiscyra @transkeiths @ejharts @marshmallow-galaxy @macnkeith @connerkcnt @timotydrake @sharkiestshark @blackstarfires and @strawberrysombra 

this is really long and you guys dont have to do this if you dont want to <3

[pkmtrainerbenny]

tagged by @wibuwibirb a long time ago and got lost on my notifications askdjskdfh but here it is

Rules: Answer these 92 statements and be happy yes

LAST

Drink: coke

Phone call: My uni teacher

Text message: to my two childhood friends

Song you listened to: Shelter - ᴘɪᴀɴᴏ ᴠᴇʀ - (Cover)【JubyPhonic】

Time you cried: hmm that would be last week, like at 2am or something

HAVE YOU

Dated someone twice: nope

Kissed someone and regretted it: nope

Been cheated on: nope

Lost someone special: I lost a few very good close friends, which makes me very sad.

Been depressed:  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Gotten drunk and thrown up: nah i don’t really drink, bro

Made new friends: yeah!!

Fallen out of love: nah

Laughed until you cried: probably, yea-

Found out someone was talking about you: hmm... yeah, actually

Met someone who changed you: ayup

Found out who your friends are: i found out who aren’t my friends, and that is a just as important, i guess

Kissed someone from your Facebook list: what even is facebook at this point- but no

Kissed a stranger: nope

Drank hard liquor: nope

Lost glasses/contact lenses: hahah- once, because i slept with my glasses on my face and woke up with them gone. they were under my pillow

Turned someone down: ... not that i am aware of?

Sex on the first date: nope, no sex. or date.

Broken someone’s heart: ... i guess not? i hope not...

Had your heart broken: not really ahah- not that i know

Been arrested: I WILL NOT GO BACK TO JAIL! okay but jokes aside, no

Cried when someone died: ... no, actually i didin’t.

Fallen for a friend: Guess not?

Kissed on the first date: nope

GENERAL

List 3 favorite colors: Blue, red and pink!

How many Facebook friends do you know in real life: uuUHH- itS BEEN SO LOng leMME see--... 154 dsfkljdsf i have more followers than that wheeeze

Do you have any pets: i already had two dogs, one was a boxer named Sora, the other a pinscher called Bidu. I had a few hamsters as well and some golden fishes and three betas. The dogs passed away, the fishes too and the hamster i killed one and then gave out the rest to a sick kid that really wanted pets wheeeze but currently no, no pets

Do you want to change your name: want- not really want no, but if I were to choose another name- man, I love the name “Melody” a lot, that would be such a cute name to have.

What time did you wake up: today was about... 7:30am

What were you watching at midnight last night: my drawing being made finally after so long wheeeze- i was drawing last midnight

Name something you can’t wait for: finishing my final project on uni so i can focus fully on developping my game alraedy askdfjiher

When was the last time you saw your mom: like, 10 minutes ago wheeeze

What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: my gosh forsaken will to do work because man i need to get back to focus on those things

What are you listening to right now: unravel (English Cover)【JubyPhonic】ᴅᴊ-ᴊᴏ ᴅᴜʙsᴛᴇᴘ ʀᴇᴍɪx

Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: nope

Something that is getting on your nerves right now: my lazy ass

Most visited website: tumblr, youtube and my email

Mole/s: Yup

Mark/s: i have- freckles caused by sunburn on my shoulders and... maybe one or two scars somewhere...

Childhood dream: i wanted to be a bus driver and a trashman.... or well, trashwoman. dont ask, i also don’t know why

Do you have a crush on someone: i have a crush on a stable sleep schedule and i know its out of my reach so i gave up. no, no crushes

What do you like about yourself: .... optmism? uh.... kindness? or.... being very patient?

Piercings: used to wear earrings, but now eh just on special moments.

Blood type: O+

Nickname: Ben, Bennyo, Benben, Bencake, Benbun

Relationship status: single like a pringle, looking for Pringles, not dates. Give me chips, thanks.

Zodiac: Aeris

Pronouns: She/her

Favorite TV show: what is TV? im not even joking its been so long since i watched anything-- uh... Bear Bears, Voltron, uh... idk man, weve been watching so much Star Trek lately i cant stand that anymore otl

Tattoos: oh man I WISH

Right or left hand: Right to things that need precision, left to anything that needs strength

Surgery: none so far

Hair dyed in different color: it already was: red, purple, blue, pink and blue, and now that im not taking care of it is green wheeeze

Sport: i like chess. thats a sport. im not good, but i like it lmao i also love to watch voleyball

Vacation: from my room to the bathroom

Pair of trainers: ... two i guess, one have a hole but still usable

Current and all-time best friend: nOW THAT I KNOW i caN HAVE MORE THAn ONE its sazy and avi! not gonna tag because im lazy. But!! I do love all my friends equally, no need to feel left out

Eye color: hazel/ bright green when i cry

Favorite movie: Mickey, Donald, Goofy: The Three Musketeers

WHICH IS BETTER?

Hugs or kisses: hugs. i love hugs please just-- just hugs...

Lips or eyes: eyes, yes all eyes are gorgeous

Shorter or taller: ha as if there is anyone shorter than me. taller

Nice arms or stomach: can i like- pick a third option: back? no? well- arms then

Sensitive or loud: a little bit of both is always good man, someone that is energetic and uplifting but knows when to tone down and be gentle

Hook up or relationship: relationships

Troublemaker or hesitant: again, a little bit of both is always good

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

Yourself: i dont omg i know so much bad stuff about me, man hey man, if i don’t, who will?

Miracles: yes, but you need to work for them. Miracles only happen to those that work hard.

Love at first sight: hhmm... i don’t think so, no... you can like someone at first sight, but love only comes after knowing the person.

Santa Claus: good man, needs more love of the kids

If you feel like doing this, please go ahead and tag me so i can look at it too!! Have fun~

[academicsapphic]

92 Question Tag

Tagged by @annikki-studies​ thanks a bunch!

LAST:

Drink: always water

Phone call: the pharmacy

Text message: “everyone i know just leaves after sleeping together unless they’re like dating” - me to a GC

Song you listened to: Crushed Little Stars - Mitski

Time you cried: i don’t even remember which frightens me cause i normally cry every five seconds

HAVE YOU:

6. Dated someone twice: i haven’t even dated someone once 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: i haven’t even kissed someone once 8. Been cheated on: see #6 9. Lost someone special: i don’t feel like i have?  10. Been depressed: it’s my way of life 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: okay so i did drink a punch at my friend’s party and i didn’t get drunk but my body completely rejected it cause i drank half a cup really slowly with water, was completely lucid, and ten minutes later started vomiting. that’s enough liquor for me i shall stick with beer. and im still salty cause i was like i wanna see what its like to be tipsy i wanna let loose and have fun! and my body was like “how about no fun and only puke”. all that to say: yes and no??? DON’T DRINK LIQUOR MIXED WITH JUICE IT’S A DISASTER WAITING TO HAPPEN EITHER DO SHOTS OR DRINK BEER OR DRINK NOTHING

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS: 12-14: purple, certain blues, gray

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU: 15. Made new friends: omg so many. ive made shitty ones then i made my actual ones. all you do in college is make friends. 16. Fallen out of love: havent been in it. ive fallen out of infatuation though 17. Laughed until you cried: of course, all the time, my friends are ridiculous 18. Found out someone was talking about you: yeah that’s always a great feeling 19. Met someone who changed you: i’m sure lots of people i’ve met are responsible for who i am today  20. Found out who your friends are: yes, see #15  21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: see #7 GENERAL: 22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: all of them why would i add strangers 23. Do you have any pets: a dog 24. Do you want to change your name: not really 25. What did you do for your last Birthday: i think we went to dinner 26. What time did you wake up: like 6 something? not being at college means i have a normal sleep schedule and i hate it 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: sleeping i hate summer 28. Name something you can’t wait for: MOVE-IN MOVE-IN MOVE-IN I WANNA GO BACK TO UNI SO BAD 29. When was the last time you saw your mom: about an hour or two ago 30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: so many things i cant even list but also im very grateful for my life so like idk 31. What are you listening to right now: HIMYM 32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: ?? idk 33. Something that is getting on your nerves: summer, registration, sometimes my family 34. Most visited websites: Netflix, YouTube, Tumblr, Amazon, Vandy’s registration site, and MyFitnessPal

LOST QUESTIONS. I JUST PUT IN RANDOM INFO ABOUT ME 35. Mole/s: my arm, my neck, my chin 36. Mark/s: a lot, birthmarks, scars, places ive burned myself 37. Childhood dream: same one i have now, be a professional musician and performer 38. Hair color: dark almost black brown 39. Long or short hair: long, but recently my hair got cut and i actually really like it short too but for the long run, long 40. Do you have a crush on someone: no life is boring and im giving my feelings a break from getting hurt 41. What do you like about yourself: sometimes my music is good and my eyes are a nice color but i hate everything about me lol 42. Piercings: basic ears 43. Blood type: no idea  44. Nickname: Bree 45. Relationship status: single, as i have been for my whole life, as i will be for my whole life 46. Zodiac: Aquarius

47. Pronouns: she/her  48. Favorite TV Show: Fringe/The Office  49. Tattoos: Nope, maybe someday, something small on my wrist or hand, but probably not cause my pain tolerance is -100 50. Right or left hand: left 51. Surgery: nope 52. Hair dyed in different color: ive gotten highlights a couple times 53. Sport: softball from childhood through high school 55. Vacation: going to myrtle beach next week 56. Pair of trainers: what are trainers?  MORE GENERAL: 57. Eating: just made myself dinner (veggie burger with lettuce bun and 100-calorie fries)  58. Drinking: water, obv 59. I’m about to: eat some frozen grapes and do some cardio 61. Waiting for: School to start jesus i wanna go back so bad

62. Want: all my wildest dreams to come true 63. Get married: i like really really wanna spend my life with someone so hopefully that happens someday 64. Career: idk yet. maybe grad school, maybe law school, maybe my music career will take off and ill get to do my passion for a living WHICH IS BETTER 65. Hugs or kisses: i wouldnt know cause no kisses yet 66. Lips or eyes: eyes 67. Shorter or taller: for guys, taller, for girls i dont care cause theyre all so beautiful i shant dare have a preference for their anything 68. Older or younger: older but not by a lot 70. Nice arms or nice stomach: i truly dont care i have neither so how could i judge 71. Sensitive or loud: sensitive i love crying and i wanna have a df who cries too  72. Hook up or relationship: not that i could get either, but relationship 73. Troublemaker or hesitant: troublemaker cause im so hesitant HAVE YOU EVER: 74. Kissed a Stranger: no 75. Drank hard liquor: yes it tastes so bad but i stuck through it to try to get drunk  76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: i literally lost my right contact at the beginning of senior year and spent the rest of highschool wearing just my left one. i’m a mess. i’ve never lost my glasses though *knock on wood* 77. Turned someone down: yes which is amazing 78. Sex on the first date: if im going on a date with someone ive probably already known them for a while since dating strangers terrifies me so sure maybe why not  79. Broken someone’s heart: doubt it 80. Had your heart broken: not truly? like ive never been in love but in an infatuation crush sense? literally all the time. i spent all second semester so heartbroken that i was in physical pain for months at a time over this guy i liked so much who had a girlfriend and was also really annoying so it wasnt even worth it. it took a therapy session to get out of it.

81. Been arrested: no my black ass would probably be killed first 82. Cried when someone died: yes 83. Fallen for a friend: I never fall for friends. that’s so weird to me. when i first meet you i’m either not attracted to you so you’re therefore just my friend, or i’m attracted to you and i can’t just like you as a friend so you’re a crush. but i’ve never been friends with someone i liked, i’ve only liked strangers and people i’ve never talked to cause im pathetic. i could never like one of my friends oh my god. when friends like me, i get so uncomfortable i can hardly look at them. DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 84. Yourself: honestly i have to cause its kind of hard to let down the only person on your team at all times  85. Miracles: kind of, i believe that everything happens for a reason and the universe/gods have a plan so if something miraculous happens it was meant to happen 86. Love at first sight: i believe in first really strong attraction that turns into love 87. Santa Claus: not anymore :’( 88. Kiss on the first date: definitely, even before the first date who cares  OTHER: 90. Current best friend name: don’t really have a single best friend 91. Eye color: brown 92. Favorite movie: Breakfast at Tiffany’s probably

[undeademoprincess]

82 Truths

rules: once you’ve been tagged you’re supposed to write a post with eighty-two truths and then tag twenty-five people.

tagged by @hoseokjinns bruh this has been sitting in my drafts for how many eons????

name: Dawn blood type: b nickname(s): Celeste (cousins mainly) and then anything else is adding an e or i sound to the end of my name (tho i have noticed dawners is a frequent name) r/s: dead inside zodiac sign: libruh pronouns: she\her favorite tv shows: dude, i havent seen any tv shows since i was 8, that was well over a decade ago. i collect the dvd/blurays of tv shows but not often. my mother and i are really into futurama but other than that its usually animes that i collect long or short hair: literally lopped my hair off myself like 3 days ago height: 5′5″ do you have a crush on someone: if fictional characters count then yes, the husband list keeps growing and i need another closet to shove them in but real life im fighting a “battle” what do you like about yourself: i have yet to be called annoying or that im an ass to those i love and i support them with all i can, so ive got that going for me right or left handed: right, tho i am ambidextrous over weird ass shit. like gymnastics im left dominate in??? idfk either man list of three favourite colors: literally any color associated with fall/autumn and ill be a happy camper

right now: eating: just ate a cracker that had peanut butter on it cause im munchin hard drinking: sweet h2o man i’m about to: probably go to bed or i might work on my drafts for my writing blog, havent decided yet listening to: a mix about cats, love, breakfast and being tired by in love with a ghost (on youtube) kids: hell no, unless i know i can support the damn thing with all i can while living comfortably along with someone i KNOW wont leave both me and the kid and help me then maybe, but its still a really strong no. pets are fam tho, so technically i have like 5 kids already get married: down for that, annoying someone all the time as a “job” sounds fun, especially if we get late night adventures and do weird ass cooking class shit for fun. ITS IN THE CONTRACT YA KNOW career: i really want to travel the world and get paid to do so, but at my own pace

most recent: drink: water????? idk what you want from me man im a thirsty hoe for livin phone call: been on discord all day today with 2 of my best friends and listening to music with my bot the other half on it song you listened to: lauv reforget (literally just came on) 

have you ever: dated someone twice: no been cheated on: nope, and im not the type to let them get away with it if they ever did kissed someone and regretted it: no lost someone special: yes been depressed: yes, began at a very young age due to the death of my father. literally had a midlife crisis when i was 4 cause of his death been drunk and thrown up: hell no kissed a stranger: no had glasses or contacts: glasses had sex on the first date: no, not really my thing broken someone’s heart: i think so, never really ask how they felt about it afterwards turned someone down: yuuuup cried when someone died: yes fallen for a friend: mmmmm, not really??? i usually crush on an acquaintance and my friends drag them in and somehow become friends later??? 

in the last year have you: made a new friend: uuuuuh, maybe 3??? i dont like leaving my house nor do i like wasting my time on strangers, especially if theyre rude fallen out of love: yeah laughed until you cried: many times, MANY FUCKING TIMES met someone who changed you: uh, i think so??? idk, i kinda find my own flow in life and people either respect it and enjoy the ride with me or fight it, and i dont have the energy to deal with pointless shit found out who your true friends were: ooooh yeah found out someone was talking about you: humans talk, its natural. i dont really do anything but i can see why someone WOULD talk shit if thats what this is asking about kissed someone on your fb list: ew no

which is better: lips or eyes: eyes hugs or kisses: hugs, i like being warm shorter or taller: both have pros and cons romantic or spontaneous: both? both sensitive or loud: idk what the fuck this is asking about but if its about being around people who are loud or sensitive then neither, im sensitive to headaches so loud people irritate me and trigger the pain and ive had bad experiences in person with sensitive people where they dont leave me alone and wind up stalking me???? i love being alone so neither hookup or relationship: relationship troublemaker or hesitant: one can be kinda fun but also a pain in the ass if they get you into trouble a lot and the other might not be as constantly fun per say but at least you shouldnt be in trouble as often 

first: best friend: Samantha surgery: thankfully nothing yet sport i joined: badminton  vacation: everything my parents did was while i was literally an infant soooooo yeah, greaaaaat memories

do you believe in: yourself: not all the time, but i rely on myself more than anyone else. i dont trust anyone for shit when i know damn well i can do it myself and know that if something goes wrong i myself fucked it up and can probably fix my mistake miracles: yes and no, i believe theres a reason for things to happen the way they do, and there are times i see it as miracles love at first sight: i believe in attraction at first sight, not immediately seeing someone soul or some shit heaven: im more for reincarnation and spiritual aspects in life and death

extras: how many people from your fb list do you know irl: 90% of them do you have any pets: im not counting my outside pets because there are too many to even keep track of to count so my children are 5 cats, toto my conure, oz my dog, tubby my gecko, and a beta fish and a catfish do you want to change your name: if i ever did, which i dont want to do, it’d be either Celeste or Aurora (my mom actually debated on calling me aurora after like the disney princess if you will and funny enough shes always been my favorite princess) what did you do for your last birthday: 2 of my friends kidnapped me and took me to dinner and we drove around and looked at interesting things. this years its during ren faire and im so damn happy what time did you wake up today: 9 pm. im sick atm and its really fucking up my sleep schedule  what were you doing last night at midnight: just got out of a call with one of my best friends and sat on my own server for a bit chillin with my music bot before my other best friend joined my after like SIX HOURS, DAMN YOU SIMON something you can’t wait for: ren faire, getting married cause then i get to sweater slap someone and get away with it, and being comfortably happy in life last time you saw your mom: a few hours ago? i went to the kitchen to get my cat to love on her and saw her then what is one thing you wish you could change about your life: i wish i had more determination to see things through and not be scared to take the leaps to see it through have you ever talked to a person named tom: i worked in retail, so probably what’s getting on your nerves: a lot of things, mainly petty things. kinda wanna cut a toxic person out of my life but we all know thats easier said than done especially seeing how he talks to literally all of the people i talk with on a daily basis save one soul and he treated her like shit when he talked to her sooo yeah, dunno wtf is his problem but im tired of being the object of his frustration and anger, idk how the rest of my friends deal with his shit but im just so damn DONE

man im not taggin 25 people. if youd like to tag me as a “i found it from so and so” then go for it man, let youre dreams run free friend. im just a lazy sack of shit and am tired and im amazed im still up and that its TAKEN ME A MILLION DAMN YEARS TO DO THIS IM SO SORRY LEANNE

[universalsatan]

hihihi another vent post cause feelings are DUMB

okAY so like denial crush person that i made a post about like a few weeks ago?? anyways the only place i know them is on instagram right?? so ANYWAYS my desperate ass was SURE they vagueposted me (prolly not but lets roll w it for now) w this book paragraph as a picture (irrelevant i think but lets roll w it) anyways the caption was in SPANISH and said (translated) ‘if you love me save me’. OKAY GETTING TO THE POINT 1) im not sure of his background BUT im half hispanic and can speak spanish (i dont know if they know this tho), plus the only languages ive seen them post in are english and once korean (im sorry [translation]) (lmfao their dramatic aesthetic showing the pic was someone lighting a rose on fire ANWYAS)(they also like kpop so they could be at least part korean, know some korean, or just translated it for the Aesthetic™. idk). okay so its been a few weeks and as per usual ive been trying to get over it so im like ‘okay. whatever. chill.’ even so, i still REALLY vaguepost reply to them because u kno why not. so in my instagram story (which btw they dont even check half the time anymore :/) i just took a picture of the fairylights off my bunkbed cause thats the only source of light and said 'ummm i was reading on demons and stuff and its also midnight im so dead :/’ SO not blatantly obvious stuff but rather like the call for a rescue thing (i hate myself why am i doing this and like overanalyzing ANYWAYS) (also this claim wasnt exactly untrue as i was looking for content for unsolvedbs and i found this one fukcing eerie af image tagged as demon and i HATE creepy stuff so yeah). but nothing ever happens weve never talked online before and i only had an hour of sleep the night before so i go to sleep. so then i wake up in the morning, check my phone notifs, and turns out they replied LIKE A FEW MINUTES AFTER I WENT TO SLEEP. AND I WANNA DIE NOW????? cause also when u reply to someone story it creates a whole chat. and hhhhhhh. anyways remember that post about saving people? they literally were like 'eyyy dont worry i literally have a copy of Ars Goetia’. i looked it up and its mostly about summoning demons n shit so maybe i took what they said wrong or smth but thats fine cause i sent them 2 paragraphs (not 10 cause i aint a desperate ho :/) and well im just lowkey angery because chatting during the day is very different than chatting at night but who knows it really depends on what they reply with, when or even if they reply \_(シ)_/ sorry lol

also imma murder anyone i know irl who reads this lmfao :)

[no2da]

@epaetaeya thaaank you for tagging me i love these games!!! (so many questions, so many ppl to tag... eh ↓ i dont even know 20 ppl)

Rules: Answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people

THE LAST:

1. Drink: cheapo cola right this moment 2. Phone call: my mom, on my birthday, when i was hanging over the toilet 3. Text message: 17 new ones in a groupchat i have yet to read.............. 4. Song you listened to: are you satisfied by marina and the diamonds.. :^) 5. Time you cried: ?? no idea. im so genki and i got the memory of a goldfish

HAVE YOU:

6. Dated someone twice: ...... no 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: YES 8. Been cheated on: i dont think so 9. Lost someone special: lost in like, they died, or lost contact. cause i lost contact to many ppl who were important to me, but i dont think anyone close to me died yet 10. Been depressed: all the focking time m8 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: only once from cheap ass japo vodka

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS:

12-14: YELLOW, COBALT BLUE, emerald green 

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. Made new friends: YES I LOVE YOU GUYS (HI) 16. Fallen out of love: i guess so, ive overcome a heartbreak 17. Laughed until you cried: probably, idk, i laugh a lot, and often until it hurts 18. Found out someone was talking about you: everyone talks about me :p 19. Met someone who changed you: i think i change a bit all the time, and of course my friends make a Postive influence on me <3 from getting out of the clinic last year in spring, to now, im in no way the same person 20. Found out who your friends are: i dont even know what this means ...

GENERAL:

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: all except 1 but not like i actually use facebook 23. Do you have any pets: my two kitty babies i miss them so much 24. Do you want to change your name: im fine i think 25. What did you do for your last Birthday: it was only a couple weeks ago!! we went downtown with friends and ate cake and i also died cause of a headache so bad i almost vomited 26. What time did you wake up: around 6 but i got up at 8 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: 漢字を勉強した 28. Name something you can’t wait for: see my kitties again ;;;;;;;;;; 29. When was the last time you saw your mom:  in april?? spring break 30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: my face lmao

31. What are you listening right now: my neighbors weird music

32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: lol i think not? 33. Something that is getting on your nerves: a lot. most of all not being able to pet a cat right now 34. Most visited Website: (((((tumblr actually))) 35. Mole/s: yes. everywhere 36. Mark/s: i dont know..... 37. Childhood dream: marine biologist..... i used to dream of deep sea creatures and listening to whales  38. Haircolor: naturally its a fucking ugly blond but i dye it black cause im emo 39. Long or short hair: *burp* short 40. Do you have a crush on someone: my boyfriend i guess????? 41. What do you like about yourself: my curiosity in science 42. Piercings: no im too scared of bodymods 43. Bloodtype: ill find out soon :3c 44. Nickname: edi? 45. Relationship status: t-t-t-t-taken 46. Zodiac: cancer  47. Pronouns: its an it 48. Favorite TV Show: no watchy tv 49. Tattoos: someday maybe 50. Right or left hand: right.. 51. Surgery: not that i know of, my insides are untouched........ 52. Hair dyed in different color: had the blue hair once. remember?  53. Sport: i wanna but the depression. also im a körperklaus. volleyball is a lot of fun 54. (question wasn’t here) ???? ill just leave holly’s text here.. mysterious 55. Vacation: my friend took me to italy and croatia with her once but, nowhere else. i would love to travel  56. Pair of trainers: ? own a pair of nikes and new balance but i only ever wear my converse..

MORE GENERAL:

57. Eating: i just finished the bag of chips i wanted to save as ‘’’study snack’’’’ 58. Drinking: cola 59. I’m about to: not do the dishes for another week 62. Want: to draw........ 63. Get married: idk. its not a dream ive had but i guess if im older and have someone i love  64. Career: stay in uni forever, keep learning all the different things, do research and field work, escape the harsh reality of capitalist work machine :^)

WHICH IS BETTER

65. Hugs or kisses: HUGS, KISSING ISNT THAT GREAT 66. Lips or eyes: eyes, dark eyes, nice and warm 67. Shorter or taller: short, same height as me 68. Older or younger: my age preferably??  70. Nice arms or nice stomach: pudding stomach and arms are nice too 71. Sensitive or loud: sensitive cause im the loud one 72. Hook up or relationship: relationship, im too touch-repulsed to do hook-ups  73. Troublemaker or hesitant: i dont know ;;;;

HAVE YOU EVER:

74. Kissed a Stranger: yea was bad 75. Drank hard liquor: ;) 76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: nop 77. Turned someone down: Yeaa 78. Sex on the first date: NO 79. Broken someone’s heart: i sure hope i did. 80. Had your heart broken: yeah, my fault  81. Been arrested: no my friends are too law abiding and im shy 82. Cried when someone died: no one ever dies  83. Fallen for a friend: bro of course

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

84. Yourself: who 85. Miracles: are aliens miracles? yes. 86. Love at first sight: nop. its not possible, infatuation at first sight yeah 87. Santa Claus: no. corporate invention 88. Kiss on the first date: Noo

OTHER:

90. Current best friend name: Everyone Is My Best Friend 91. Eye color: brown;; 92. Favorite movie: dont know actually... i think a ghibli movie probably, cant decide

now lets tag.... @emergencybattle @awkwardcorner @kattekoor @ravenflawuniverse idk this are a lot of questions i hope i dont bother you guys