#if anyone has that blacklisted lol

[arklayraven]

OM devs were like "We're going to keep the first game running, so that new players coming from NB can play the game too!"

Then also secretly were like "We're going to remove some events though, and change up how you can get rewards, which are more difficult to get now, even if you pay to win. As well change/edit older card stories so you can't experience the original options and all. Etc..."

[corvidsong]

DOG | noun

1.  to cause persistent problems or distress. to follow someone closely and continuously. to follow or track with hostile intent.

[moregraceful]

i was gonna watch the vgk-dal game to bandwagon the stars but then i realized that if i have to see hertl in that jersey even once it's literally my last day, and also mike grier's last day, on planet earth, so.

[ei-mugi]

i have this incredibly specific headcanon that aira had a phase where he went super hard into being a trans Woman but detransitioned after like a couple months, and is now gnc.

like not too long after he becomes an idol hes struggling a lot with his blossoming sense of adolescent identity and clear insecurity-complex, and of course he's in Ensemble Square which is full of gay people, and he's online a lot too in queer twitter communities and it kinda all accumulates into him thinking, MAYBE I AM A WOMAN? so he tries it.

but he has this very narrow and specific idea of what it means to Be Transgender, and to Be a Transwoman by extension, so he just throws himself in the deep end and goes full social & clothing transition immediately. tatsumi and mayoi are supportive (tatsumi is an Ally and mayoi is genderqueer in some form) and this is probably hiiro's first introduction to it but he doesnt care either and is enthusiastically supportive. pretty much everyone he knows is on board with it (except subaru and hokuto are weird about it probably but who cares about them). the Pretty 5 are overjoyed and help by taking him shopping, Arashi especially.

but while aira has an initial euphoric burst of freedom by doing this he very quickly feels very WRONG. but hes fucking committed to it now and like he knows hes not a dude, right?, and he doesnt want to be NonBinary (which is a single third gender identity and not an umbrella term at all, as everyone knows /s). and like, he does like wearing skirts sometimes, and long socks are cute. and he was already kinda feminine, he is ALKALOID's Cute One. so he's probably just not feeling anything at all and he isn't going to address it.

but arashi can fucking tell something is off and tries talking to him. he deflects and denies everything and at someone else bringing it up he only doubles down.

he is wearing FEMALE MAKEUP now! he is looking at tutorials on youtube on how to apply makeup just-so, so he can look like the Cis-Like and Conforming Trans Woman he is. and he is OWNING IT, he is a Girlboss and is now making Activist Twitter Posts talking about his transfem (because that isn't its own thing, either, it's just a synonym for trans Woman! also /s) experience which he is now suddenly an expert on.

and he is fucking miserable just having trapped himself into another stupid binary and now eichi is accounting for this in StarPro's marketing or whatever and now all of ALKALOID's fans are getting it into their heads about being special trans allies and all these things are happening and and and and.

mika tentatively comes up to him one day. he says that hes too nervous to go to pretty 5 or arashi about it, as irrational as it is considering it's fucking arashi, but he just wants aira's help to like, try on some skirts or something like he sees aira doing. no strings attached it doesnt mean anything, just to try.

aira is trying not to have a meltdown in the store while he waits for mika in the changing room. writing twitter posts with hands sweatier than they are after a live is one thing but having to physically be there and act as this ideal image of THE Trans Woman feels like he's standing there waiting for an axe to swing at his fucking head and that it's going to happen any second now. he gets these chills all down his back like some creepypasta character is about to get him. (he's still scared of the creepypastas).

mika says that he thinks the skirt is cute on him, but that he doesn't think he likes it. he says he doesn't know. he says that he doesn't like how it impedes on his masculinity.

"isn't that the point, though? you wanted to be a girl?" aira asks, hair actually wet with how much he's sweating.

"no... nyaghhhg, i don't wanna be a girl. i didn't think just putting it on would make me one, but if it does then i don't wanna wear it anymore."

aira thinks that is a weird fucking thing to say because of course if you're trying on skirts and trying to be feminine it means you're trying to be a transgirl, and he also thinks that if he has to hear mika talk for a second longer he's going to explode from fucking anger. he doesn't think to question why he's so angry, but he says something snappy at mika and it makes mika give up so it all works out and he can go home.

hiiro can tell aira isn't doing well but hiiro can go fuck himself for all aira cares. aira can't even practice anymore, he's just getting angrier and angrier with each day.

eventually he tears off all his clothes in a rage and throws out all his makeup, even the ones he'd been using before his transition. rei comes into their dorm and is alarmed to find aira burning a pile of clothes in the middle of the room. he's attempted to protect the carpet by putting it on top of cardboard. rei has to use the fire extinguisher.

after aira's calmed down a bit rei laughs out of nowhere. aira asks him what. rei says that he thinks aira is the first amab trans guy he's met. aira says he's had enough of all these fucking labels. rei asks if he wants him to inform eichi for him, in regards to the marketing. aira says yeah, thank you...

with touch of feather, aira grows more comfortable in his own skin.

sometime later, mika nervously announces to the pretty 5 that he's genderqueer. arashi helps him come out, and the rest express their support. tori says welcome to the club. (aira wonders how he didn't already know this about tori.)

"in what way?" aira asks mika after congratulating him.

"errr..." mika looks confused for a moment before realisation dawns on his face. "oh. nah, just genderqueer. i don't like all those expectations 'n all that. i just wanna do whatever feels right. that's what humans are, ain't it? just a lotta nonsense feelings."

"oh," says aira.

in retrospect, aira supposes that arashi isn't completely gender conforming and hyper-feminine either. and later, after he and hiiro get together (finally), he asks hiiro if he was still interested in him while he was trans. hiiro says yeah, he doesn't see why that would affect it, and really he was worried about him more than anything else. before aira can make some inquiry about his hometown, hiiro continues that he's been talking a lot to the other idols, so he knows a bit about the city's queer labels (and the variance & nuance in identity) now, and that he's bisexual --- well, he doesn't really like calling himself the labels very much, but that it's the best way to communicate it. aira says huh. he wasn't really expecting to hear that from him.

i think after all that aira would be comfortable just being gnc occasionally, and not worry too hard about being a Boy or a Girl.

[cosmic-kaden]

playing BL3 is fucking hard when you're OP in speed and you're drunk LMFAO I go TOO FAST! Mainly because I'm trying for the life of me to try and get Rowans Call and its a random drop in the world anywhere and I put myself on Mayhem 1 (Trying to build up to go to 10) and the first roll I got was speed demon. (Movement speed up to 50% ontop of the already face pace I got for my baby FL4K sdjfdskjfh) HELP

OH ALSO TAGGING @ama-ships IS IT POSSIBLE TO TEAM UP AND TRY CIRCLE OF SLAUGHTER BECAUSE MATCHMAKING IS ASS ON PS4 AND ITS SO MUCH FASTER TO FARM ROWANS CALL IN SLAUGHTER THAN IN WORLD DROP HHH

[partiallypoison]

fuck it. since redditors are rigging the poll i’m outing myself as not immune to the good times

for every person that sends me a screenshot showing that they voted for goodtimeswithscar i’ll do a sketch of a requested character/person. not sure if i’ll cap it because idk if anyone will do it but yeah. vote for goodtimeswithscar ultimate tumblr sexyman and babygirl and get a sketch from me

[prophecydungeon]

i am still trying to process that season. i am in hell. if someone had told me in 2011 that twelve years later i would watch a season of red vs blue that made my soul split from my body i would not have believed you.

[chenziee]

youtube really going kissanime on me, huh

[bruvebanner]

You tag a lot of stuff as Asher- tell us about Asher!!! I'm fascinated

He's an OC of mine! I'm a bit shy sharing my characters, but he's my current fixation. I've contemplated making a side account for talking about him more, but at the moment I've just been lavishing in his aesthetic. The kind of man that stares at roadkill, the kind of repressed gay that struggles to articulate feelings without aggression, the kind of lucky homeless junkie that just barely skates through life without dying in a gutter.

I've recently found a lot of comfort in his character, and I'm sure I'll elaborate a bit more in the future. Suffice it to say, he is my hand made blorbo and I hope someday I'll be gutsy enough to share him.

[toytulini]

does anyone else have like popular users, or users with popular posts, where like, you like and generally agree w a lot of the posts of theirs that end up on ur dash. but when you look at their blog for more than like 2 minutes you immediately know that if you tried to follow them youd end up hating and blocking them lmao? i am obviously Not going to give examples

[capricious-stars]

I had cat ears on the brain

[myhsterie]

guys i have a fun little secret :)

i read the fnaf script back in october 2022 at my work :)))))))

& i get to see a test screening a month before it releases :DDDDD

i am bound by an NDA to not say anything about the script but what i CAN say is that many of your theories are wrong :P but i think that was expected

will come back to this when it fully drops so i can compare and contrast earlier versions with the final product! i will have had access to two (2) previous drafts of it so there will be lots to discuss

[monster42069]

Opposite side of the coin is this transsexual(me) having the annoyance of following tags for my health conditions that only or primarily are diagnosed in females/some intersex people and them always having to get posts like these by “feminists” or trad women shaming people’s relationships to their bodies with the same disorders, as if that’s appropriate and sensible feminist commentary and totally doesn’t sound exactly like my conservative grandparents when they saw my mustache growing in thicker in elementary school. Or completely off subject from the disorders like they’re supposedly complaining about from trannies in the disorder tags instead of any tag related to trans people or gender politics.

Transsexuals are the “freaks” and “mentally ill” being mentioned, right? OK. What makes us freaks and mentally ill? That we want our bodies to look different and choose to make some changes? Why does that bother anyone that a minority of the population is genuinely happier with having non-conforming bodies?

Cope with it + You aren’t fucking us and never have to + You aren’t owed information on our bodies + That’s not very feminist of y’all to call people who have a mixture of non-conforming secondary sex traits “freaks”/“mentally ill” for having a mixture of non-conforming secondary sex traits and being comfortable and happy with those traits (that some of us couldn’t help having to some level to begin with if there’s hormonal disorders).

But sexy Mega Mind is what I wish people thought about 95% of the time before they speak on transsexuals.

[stardustedknuckles]

The beauyasha fandom in its heyday was a wonderful place to be and I'm forever grateful I got to be part of the phenomenon in a real way but my god I do not miss the routine of unfollowing a new round of wlw every time Caleb said more than twenty words in a row.

Like folks were straight up like "we don't dislike him because he's autistic, it's that-" and they proceed to list off a list of autistic traits. Of which he had many, largely why so many identified with him. And when folks pointed that out they got hostile about how neurodivergence doesn't mean they have to like him and those of us who weren't crypto radfems were like. Nobody said you had to like him. They're seven flavors of dickhead, you're bound to not mesh with one. But you keep describing his traits using words like white male and male privilege and misogyny and lesbophobia and I really don't think the problem you have is the one you think you have. Do you hear yourself.

Every fucking time.

My favorite thing (extremely derogatory) about it was like so many of them were ostensibly Beau stans? Like most of them would fistfight about how well they apparently knew and related to Beau and I'm sitting over here going "Beau would fucking take your kneecaps for implying she can't check him herself when necessary AND for talking shit about Caleb. In that order of priority." especially that one time everyone insisted Travis/Fjord had stepped in to make him stop because Beau/marisha needed that for some reason. The slashes are because people lost the ability to separate character from player and it was bowlgate all over again. (I don't want anons asking about that so just in case, that refers to the fight they had about the bowl and calianna way early in the series. Like in the teens/20s. I wasn't back on Tumblr or in the fandom until episode 110 and I was still hearing about it. It was bad.)

They're all assholes. Beau isn't magically a better, more permissible asshole because she's a girl. She's the asshole I'm attracted to, but that is not at all an observation that imparts objectivity and Caleb was never ever an edgelord kylo ren character like I kept seeing. He was critical to Beau becoming who she was. She loved him and he loved her.

There's a reason I follow like 10 critical role blogs at this point and like 8 of them are artists and not commentators. Absolutely abysmal how much of being a fan of a wlw ship permitted and encouraged the ideology of terves even among people who overall meant well.

I miss a lot about the b/y heyday but not that. Not even a little.

[fecto-forgo]

tried reading up on agreed on goncharov lore and i think its funny nobody seems to agree on what the fuck is going on between mario and ice pick joe.their relationship is personalized for each viewer.lovers? just coworkers? joe thinks of him like a father? actually really manipulative and fucked up dynamic? you name it they can be anything

[chocolateturnip]

HI omg I saw you in the notes of a post and didn't realize you had a tumblr! I love your fics, especially Fireball Outfit!!! I have a question: was there any particular inspiration that made you write Gil as asthmatic or was it just you know, vibes?

Ahhhh, thank you! People rediscovering Fireball Outfit 5+ years on wasn’t on my bingo card, but I’m enjoying the attention, hehe 😊

I made Gilbert asthmatic because I’m particularly squeamish about respiratory problems, and I thought it might help to inject a sense of panic into the narrative if I wrote about something I find slightly disturbing. (My partner is asthmatic and it’s only very mild, but I do sometimes have nightmares about him having an asthma attack.) Also, there’s a scene in an Agatha Christie novel (I won’t say which) when a victim dies after the murderer poisons their inhaler, and that messed me up a lot 😬

I was initially planning to kill Gilbert in the scene under the stage with the smoke. I changed my mind, but decided to keep it in for the tension and foreshadowing.

Anyway, thanks for the question, and I’m glad you enjoyed the story!