firstly, i'd like to address the other anon. i'm glad that my words gave you one of those warm and fuzzy feelings. always nice to hear someone take kindly to what i say, so i thank you back for letting me know. i hope your days take kindly to you from now on as well.
as for august, if you say that we might have been lovers in our past lives, you'll make me desire the same status with you now. and in the case where what you say is true, then perhaps i did not love you enough when we were who we were before. perhaps that's why i'm here again now: to love you again, to love you more. (laugh) that might explain why i've been waxing poetry to you in your inbox. a modern take to love letters, maybe? maybe.
but the more you reply to me, love, the more i want. and i do absolutely want. but how do i talk about loving you without making it weird? for i am but stranger over the internet, and (to be frank) you are too. we know too little of each other, but why do you feel right? i am urged to whisper back the words i love you to you over and over again as thought they were a prayer to keep you whole. teaching me how to bake? lemonade on a picnic? yes, yes, yes. yes for as long as you'll have me. i'll hold your hand even with batter caked beneath our fingernails, and i'll kiss the tanginess of the lemonade from your lips. if, that is, if and only if you will have me.
you are my favorite song. i don't know why that makes you somber, so, please, if it is not too much to ask of you, let me know why. if you are a butterfly unable to see how beautiful your wings are, i will place you gently in my palms and hold you up to a mirror. then, maybe you will see yourself as how i see you: beautiful, kind, deserving of tender happiness. to know that my heart is safe with you, i am beyond grateful. and i confess that i, too, am not wholly here. i myself have pieces missing, lodged somewhere in the past, and to hear that you admire me is unbelievable in its own feat. but i am willing to try just as you are willing to try for me. just the fact that you will try (and for me nonetheless), i love you. (and i say that like it is a prayer here, yes, i do.) perhaps we may fill our own gaps with pieces of each other until we are ready to trade them with one another for the ones that were originally ours.
i leave with you one of my favorite poems, called "to kiss a forehead is to erase worry" or "a kiss on the forehead" by marina tsvetaeva. there are varying translations, but i love the first one done by ilya kaminsky:
to kiss a forehead is to erase worry.
i kiss your forehead.
to kiss the eyes is to lift sleeplessness.
i kiss your eyes.
to kiss the lips is to drink water.
i kiss your lips.
to kiss a forehead is to erase memory.
i kiss your forehead.
i kiss your forehead,
🍋 anon
i don’t think strangers over the internet can speak like this so easily and wholly, so i’m pretty certain we must’ve been past lovers — but then again, not doubtful, but almost worried
why me? why did you take the time to reply to that ask game i reblogged, to put so much effort into it and connect so deeply with someone you don’t know, but have learned to know.
i do have self respect yes, but i don’t understand how someone like yourself wound up speaking to me, comforting me and giving me air to breath . . . i feel sort of lost of how i should go about this, but i feel as if i don’t deserve you, i really don’t. like i can’t reciprocate your love in a way that would please you, like i’m not enough. maybe that’s my insecurity talking, i can’t figure it out. please don’t let me take up your time honey :)
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supporting communities & people impacted by the Southport attack and the far-right riots in the UK
here is a list of community fundraisers I found, starting with those aiming to support the Southport community after the appalling attack at a children dance party, to the fundraisers helping those affected by the subsequent racist and Islamophobic far-right/nazi riots
Edited on 5 August to include Middlesbrough fundraisers. Edited on 6 August to correct the link on the Books for Spellow Lane fundraiser, to adjust the name change for the Belfast fundraiser, and to adjust the wording in the second last paragraph.
Southport:
Southport Strong Together Appeal - organised by the community foundation for Merseyside, for those affected by the Southport knife attack
United for Southport families - the funds will be distributed among the nine families of the children who were at the party
Swifties for Southport - a fundraiser for the Alder Hey Children's charity, which supports the victims and the affected families, as well as first responders and clinicians. Extra funds will also support the wider Southport community
Fundraiser for the Southport Mosque - a fundraiser to aid rebuilding or possibly re-locating the Southport Mosque after the damages it suffered during the riots
Rebuilding Windsor Mini Mart - fundraiser to rebuild the locally-owned grocery store that was targeted during the attacks, broken into, and looted
Liverpool:
Fundraiser for the Spellow Hub - the Spellow Hub was broken into, looted and set on fire at night during the riots. The Spellow Hub is a newly created one-of-a-kind (in the UK) institution, which consists of a library as well as a community centre with a mission to help people get education and pathways to work
Books for Spellow Lane - another fundraiser for the library in the Spellow Hub, to replace the books and rebuild the library there edit: included the correct link
Hartlepool:
Fundraiser for the Nasir Mosque - the Nasir Mosque was attacked following Southport riots; this fundraiser is organised by Hartlepool citizens to help the mosque deal with the damages as well as to show appreciation for the role of the mosque in the community. edit: the funds will be also distributed to the local community!
Rebuilding the Farm Shop - the shop was targeted during the riots, and when the owner and his son tried to protect it, they were also violently attacked. The fundraiser is to help fix the damages to the store.
Sunderland:
help rebuild Citizens Advice Sunderland offices after arson - two of the Citizens Advice Sunderland offices were set on fire during the riots, and one of them is completely destroyed.
Hull:
Hull Help for Refugees - a local fundraiser to support the Hull Help for Refugees charity, the donated money will be re-distributed to community members affected by the riots
Fundraiser for Hull Help for Refugees and Welcome House in Hull - collected money will be donated to the two charities
Belfast:
help fix racially motivated damages - originally the fundraiser for the Sahara Shisha Cafe which was targeted by the far right in Belfast during the riots, now a fundraiser for all affected businesses in the area. edited to reflect the change of the name of the fundraiser to avoid any confusion
Middlesbrough:
Supporting residents after the riots - Middlesbrough has suffered so much during the riots, lots of businesses as well as just regular family homes were vandalised, had their windows smashed or even were broken into. This fundraiser wants to distribute the funds between affected people to help them fix the damages, and to generally support the local community. the newest fundraiser, imo potentially the most urgent one
Fundraiser for a Care worker's car which was set on fire - a car belonging to an employee of a care agency was set on fire during the riots while he was on shift at a care home.
If you want to donate locally but there is no fundraiser to support where you live, consider donating to your local charities oriented towards Muslim or PoC communities, or towards anti-racist and refugee organizations! And go support your local Muslim/Arab/Black/Asian/Refugee owned businesses!
If you have any information about other local fundraisers, feel free to add to the post or don't hesitate to let me know and I will add them here! We have seen so much hate in the past few days, we have to stay strong and keep supporting each other!
Stay safe everyone 💛
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