#ik this shit will go down in history 😭

[rendezvouz-fling]

Astro Observations #28

• I’ve noticed most actresses from ‘American Horror Story’ have mainly earth/air in their charts and there’s a predominance with 4H/10H placements. E.g. (they’re all from season 3 btw) Sarah Paulson is a Virgo rising/Cap venus/Aqua moon & a 4H stellium, Kathy Bates is a Virgo rising & mars with a 10H Cancer stellium, Jessica Lange is an Aqua moon with a 10H stellium, Angela Bassett has a Taurus mars & Virgo stellium, etc…

• I’ve just noticed some Taurus/2H moons are the types to just say old sayings during conversations.

• If you copy a person who has Air placements in their big 3 (specifically Aqua & Gemini) and a fire sign over their 11H, just be ready for them to call you out on the spot. (I have Aries over the 11H and I can testify 🙄).

• Having Aries/1H, Sagittarius/9H, Scorpio/8H & Pisces/12H placements can indicate wanting to learn about ancient civilizations, world history or about other dimensional subjects like conspiracies, etc…

• Most 1H moons I’ve met are really nice but also quick tempered and become petty when things don’t go their way…

• Gemini/Sagittarius risings 🤝 loving jewelry.

• Those with Jupiter-Asc especially trine tend to have loud laughs!! They’re the types to have a signature laugh and love cracking jokes! They might also go quiet if someone shuts their good mood/optimism down.

• Gemini & Scorpio risings deserve their overdue fashionista recognition. They don’t even have to be that into fashion they just know how to dress and which accessories to use, etc..

• Aquarius sun-Aquarius moon-Libra rising-Aquarius mercury people are so nice, chill and intriguing?! Like yes let’s sit and have some coffee and you can continue complaining about your friends.😭

• Water venuses in 2H/6H/10H 🤝 materialistically spoiling others in turn for being emotionally spoiled.

• Some 10 Stellium ppl with 2H saturn might have a poor parent but they act spoiled.😭

• And some of them ARE spoiled.🥲

• I’ve started noticing a pattern with Pisces suns who have water moons and them growing up without their moms or going to live with her later or their moms just don’t care about them.🙁 Idk if it’s an all water moons thing though…

• Ppl with water venuses tend to have emotionally manipulate or lying mothers. Ik an ex of mine who’s a Cancer venus and it’s very true same with me (Pisces venus).

• I feel like out of all the elements, water signs (big 6) are the last ones to acknowledge when they’re being taken advantage of.

• Most Water & Fire placements start acting out as kids because of lack of attention.

• Air risings are just those kids that easily grab others’ attentions and tend to make friends easily! Especially if they have Fire mercuries.

• 8H mars with mostly Air/Water in their charts are calculatinggg.😂 They could be sitting here talking to you normally but if they peep some weird shit, just know they’ve already got you figured out and they know what your next move will be. They’ll probably just wait on you to do something so they can say their intuition was right, lol.

• Moon trine asc ppl tend to be very caring & sweet! They’re also great listeners.💗

• Having your luminaries (Sun/moon) at 18/22 degrees is never been fully able to just be yourself or being told/force into to acting more mature.

[lowkeyrobin]

OMG I've had this idea for a while but fuckshit x shy turned confident reader where they're in the same class but fuckshit doesn't really notices reader until reader starts dressing for themself and does things they want to do instead of letting people walk all over them and fuckshit starts developing a crush and starts seeing reader everywhere !!! Thank you love you robinnnn <33

-♠️

STOP I LOVE THIS WTF ♣️ dw I saw the other thing ik its u bae ; love you too freakazoid ; thanks for requesting pookieeee hope u enjoy

FUCKSHIT ; confidence

summary ; fuckshit develops a crush on the new you

warnings ; language, censored racial slur, weed

disclaimers ; fuckshits real name is gonna be olan (like the actor himself) as much as I don't like it that much it's the best bet + I don't wanna make up some random name for him 😭🙏 it's just bc ain't no teacher is gonna call him fuckshit and stuff ; also I do censor the n word one bc I'm not black, two it's how ray and fuckshit talk, it's not overused or anything, I'm just not trying to whitewash their speech and mannerisms and them reclaiming that word is kinda important for them because they're black skaters in the 90s so 🙏

word count ; 1k

masterlist

You used to cover yourself up a lot, even during summer. Sweaters and long sweatpants and jeans paired with hightop Converse were your usual outfits, even in the blazing LA heat.

You skated here and there, not at any parks or popular spots, just around. You shared a class with Olan, or Fuckshit as he likes to be called, at school. You had 12th period history with him, where he sat next to you.

You were very shy and reserved, you never talked to anyone unless spoken to and spent your time in the back of the class just getting through your work. Every so often, Fuckshit would try to talk to you to little or no avail. He never really noticed you much in the hallway or any other class either, so he didn't have any other way to talk to or see you through the day.

He didn't know much about you, which is why he also didn't know much about how you'd let people walk over, use, and bully you. He'd defended you in class once, but that was the extent of it. He wasn't a bully whatsoever, a fuckboy, yeah, but he wouldn't make fun of you for some dumb reason like the way you dress or the way you bite your nails.

But, now, he couldn't help but stare at you.

He could finally see your gorgeous eyes again, your smile proving that you were much happier this way. You seemed so excited and confident. He even noticed you in the hallway talking to someone with a smile on your face.

He had to say something.

"Oh, shit, like your shirt. Gravediggaz is fire." He smiles.

You return said smile. "Oh, thanks! You listen?"

"Hell yeah, n****"

He sees the kids who usually made fun of you snicker and whisper a few feet away, but pays them no mind. You follow his gaze and get a quick look before rolling your eyes and turning back to him.

"Fucking annoying" You say, placing a finger gun to your temple. "You skate, right?"

"Yeah, why? You trynna hang?"

"Maybe" You chuckle and shrug, "Going to the courthouse, just wanna show off some tricks at that party. Wanna come with me? You'd make it way less embarrassing"

"Yeah, of course" He grins, "Mind if I bring my boys along?"

"Oh, please. The more the merrier" You nod, "I'll be under the left tree at six, yeah?"

"Yeah"

Safe to say he couldn't wait to talk to you later considering he wouldn't shut the fuck up about it. Ray had been making fun of him all afternoon while Fourthgrade filmed it all, Ruben's laughter prominent in the background.

He was basically bouncing off the walls as the minutes ticked away, time coming closer and closer as to when he'd see you again.

"Put your dick away"

"Shut the fuck up! I'm just excited"

"Yeah, excited alright"

"I swear to God-"

He basically sprinted out the door when it hit 5:50, leaving the others in the dirt as he skated down the sidewalk as fast as humanly possible.

He saw you waving for him as he entered, and he quickly walked towards you with a smile and a blunt in his hand.

"Hey" He smiles, offering you said blunt.

You take it and blow a puff out of it, "Hey, glad you made it. Where's your friends?"

He looks over to the side, waving to a group of boys who were clearly trying to look for him. The three nod and talk toward you two, talking about something you couldn't hear.

You wave to them as they approach and sit with you, joining the conversation about everything skate and music related. As the sun sets, the area illuminated by white and colorful neon lights, you get up onto the building, top of the stairs, to show off some tricks. You see Fuckshit and his friends watching you, along with many other strangers who were watching other skaters show their shit off.

You grind down the metal railing and hop off with a kickflip. You glance over at the curly haired blonde, who's shouting some inaudible compliments. You see his one friend, tall and blonde, filming with a Camcorder. You didn't mind, you thought it was pretty sick.

The youngest out of them, maybe fourteen or so, hands a blunt to the dark-skinned boy with the locs, both of their eyes on you, like they're scanning your high-school coolness level or something.

"Ayeee, that was sick as fuck!"

"Olan, is there something you need to share with the class?"

Fuckshit's eyes slightly widen as he slowly looks up at the teacher who'd caught you two whispering in the back of class.

"Nah, I'm good"

The teacher turns back to the board as you two quietly smile and snicker.

He can't help but get lost in your happiness, feeling comfort in your sneaky smile. He can't help but adore everything about you, from your humor to your skating, your music interests, it was like you were made for him.

The bell rings, nearly popping your eardrums once more as it dismisses you for the day. You walk side by side through the halls, taking the longest way through the school to go toward the front doors to leave.

"I just don't understand being a poser like that, it ain't getting you any pussy" He laughs, agreeing with your long tangent about how being new at skating didn't mean you were a poser, and that being a poser is lame. "Like what you doing when someone asks if you can do a trick or show them? You just paid for a deck to look cool?"

"Exactly! They act like we can't tell who's a poser and who's not!"

You reach the entrance, having to go your separate ways home.

"See you tomorrow, dude" You smile with a light chuckle, waving him a little goodbye as you step on your board to skate away.

"See ya! I'll bring those cookies tomorrow too!" He smiles and waves back at you.

Ray and Fourthgrade approach, confused and amused looks on their faces.

"Cookies? When did you become a baker, n***?" Ray asks.

"Shut the fuck up, I owe them"

"For what?" He asks again as the trio walk down the sidewalk, straying away from the street til they got off school property.

"Inviting us to that thing on Friday, and homework answers"

"Ugh, here he goes again"

[nijisanji-brain-rot-fics]

luxiem x reader || as fathers

a/n : YALL LIKE MY LUXIEM HCS MORE THAN MY OTHER ONES SO HERE U GO LMAO 😭 ill feed u guys some more luxiem content before mysta graduates [sobs louder]

SHU YAMINO

TYPICAL ASIAN DAD

but minus the yelling and stuff

hes just pretty damn strict but like he loves you all the same

if you get an A+ in maths, GOOD JOB, HE'LL TREAT YOU TO ICE CREAM [and maybe a magic show WWWW]

if you get a D-, he'll probably say something along the lines of : " try harder kiddo! you can get a higher mark next time! do you want me to help you study? "

he will definitely show up at all of your events and stuff like that to cheer you on

b a n a n a

omg he would accidentally get banned from ur school games bc he keeps helping you with his witchcraft stuff

LUCA KANESHIRO

OMG HES THE DAD THAT ALL YOUR CLASSMATES LOVE

hes the type to bring like the BEST FOOD during those potlucks ur school has

will panic if you bring math homework to him for help AJSHD

if he cant go to ur school events, HE WILL SO FIND A WAY TO GO, EVEN IF IT WAS JUST FOR A MOMENT

ur little sibling would deadass be a dog.

like no shit, this man would want a dog

and that dog is ur sibling

he and his mafia men would be the ones to raise you [FUCKING BONUS POINTS IF ONE OF HIS MEN IS A WOMAN AND SHE IS UR MOTHER FIGURE]

" oh, don't worry kid, you'll get it next time!! if you're ever feeling down, just know your dad thinks that you're pog! "

you dont know how to tell him that saying pog as a [however old he is] man is a little cringe, but you love him for it (IN A FAMILIAL WAY)

IKE EVELAND

a very chill dad when it comes to homework and grades

unless it was english

if you get a low score in english

THIS MANS IS RUTHLESS. HE WILL GET YOU TO READ. A LOT.

but if you get tired of it, he'll let it go

i feel like he'd be the parent who IS your teacher at school

oh boy, you should dread first day if he's your english teacher

" class, i'd like you all to know, im only fucking one of your mothers. " [all jokes LMAO he wouldnt embarrass you like that..... or would he?]

if you get a low score in any subjects or like if you flunk a test, he'll hug you and say:

" don't cry, you've made me proud already. i love you kiddo, and none of those test marks will change that. just tell me if you ever need help okay? i'm always happy to help you with those. "

MYSTA RIAS

BRO OMG HES THAT ONE DAD WITH INSANE SOCIAL MEDIA PRESENCE

SOMEHOW ALL YOUR FRIENDS FOLLOW HIM ON TWITTER??

the most laidback out of all the luxiem guys about homework

doesn't mind if you flunk it, as long as you did your hardest, it's a pass in his book

he cant physically help you with homework

its a british debuff /j

like he would stare at the pythagorean theorem and go 'uhm....'

HE WOULD HELP YOU WITH ALL YOUR FASHION DILEMMAS

there to listen to all the GODDAMN TEA!! like how dare jessica cheat on james like that with ryan??

dude is like the communal dad if any of ur friends dont have a father figure, he'll be there for them too

" oh you flunked your math test? it's alright!! you'll get it next time. they give you too much tests nowadays you guys are all probably burnt out... how about we watch a movie? your mind needs to destress. "

VOX AKUMA

SHAWTY HAS FLIRTED WITH YOUR TEACHERS MORE THAN ONCE

LIKE YOU GOTTA STOP HIM, HIS RIZZ IS TOO MUCH

also that one dad for some reason everyone likes

hes like pretty strict, but its because he wants the best for you

WOULD GET BANNED FROM TRYING TO GO TO UR SCHOOL GAMES BC HE GETS SO PISSED LMAO

" WHAT THE HELL DO YOU MEAN THEY GET A FOUL?? THEY DIDNT EVEN HIT THE OTHER KID??? "

hes the demon you and ur friends would try to summon at sleepovers

" kid, please, i love you and all, but dad needs to fucking rest. please stop summoning me. "

AND YOUR FRIENDS WOULD SCREAM WWWW

anyways, hes pretty damn smart so hes gotchu covered when it comes to homework help

unless it was history.

history pisses the fuck out of this ancient man.

he will rant about how incorrect the history books are and you'll get nowhere with homework

" oh, darling, it's alright. i'm not disappointed in you and i won't be when it comes to homework. i get it, sometimes it's hard and you don't understand it, but that's when you ask for help, alright? i won't ever shame you for asking me for help. "

a/n : i hope yall r fed this took me 30 minutes to shit out and clean up also i think its obvious whos my favourite in luxiem LMAOO

[auxiliuno]

I love how you wrote my last request so here's another. I feel manic but dogshit lately so please gib angst.

König and ex gf Y/N bump into each other again at a German cafe after so many yrs. Lil happy catch up over coffee (that Y/N prolly initiates bc knowing König). They had a good relationship but shit didn't work out as young peeps. She lives abroad now and just returned to town to visit family, so as much as the relationship was rly special, it's old and unrealistic and both are just happy to know the other is doing great.

Then days after, he lowkey wants a friendly chat again but finds out that she died in a car accident. Now König doesn't know if he wants to cry or not, and if he should visit (he prolly will). Gawd it's a whole level of sad when it fits upbeat music. Song reference? Alexa, play Never Forget You by Noisettes.

And thank you, have a good day.

Hello! Thank you for requesting from me again, I'm really happy you enjoyed my first writing! 💗 I hope you feel better soon darling :( ik how it feels to be in a bad place so I'm sending you lots of love! XOXO 💝

König x ex!reader

Hurt/angst

Sfw

Tw: mentions of death and car accidents, funeral, crying, cursing

How long has it been? 2 years, 3 years? No, definitely more than that

The time you spent with that boy washed away like sand on the seashore

Memories fade, as do old relationships

You just never thought you'd see him again

On a trip back to your hometown, to visit your family

You go to your favorite café, the one you always went to before you went to work abroad

The smell and atmosphere of the café brings back so many memories, of good and bad, happy and sad

Nostalgia is truly a weird thing

As if he knew you were nostalgic, he was sitting at a small table, in the back of the café, looking over it

That's when his eyes meet yours

Both of you freeze momentarily; time seems to stop

None of you dare to move, waiting for the other to initiate the first move

Like how it was, and always had been, you were the braver one

You started your way to him

He shifts, clearly startled by your sudden eagerness

"Hey, is this seat taken?"

"No"

Well then that's your que

You sit down across him; time seems to go by painfully slow. You both don't dare to look in each other's eyes, not knowing what to say. Having to take the lead again, you part your mouths to say what he didn't have the courage to say. "How have you been König?". He seems even more disturbed by your friendliness, shifting in his seat; he answers: "I've been fine, you?". A bit more comfortable now, you decide to be more open about what you've been up to, despite the fact that you both had history.

"Well, you know, just been working, doing the adult stuff....paying taxes and shit." You try to be a bit funny, but you think you sound awkward to him. He smiles, he missed this old you, you've never changed ever since you were children; that takes him back to his younger days, with you. You continue on: "I found a good job abroad, and it pays well. It's also a job that I've always wanted to have.". "I know, you've always been adventurous, wanting to get away from this small town.". You nod, surprised that he somehow still remembers that about you.

"What about you? What have you been up to? You ask curiosly. Truth be told, he had grown up and looked way different from the young boy you used to know, but his personality didn't seem to change much; his body was just a man now. A handsome man at that. You briefly wondered if he was seeing someone else know, but quickly remind yourself that it's not what you're here for. He's just an old friend you knew.

"I got the military job I wanted." Swiftly, he meets your eyes for a second to see any sign of admiration or fondness for his new job. He thought that maybe joining the army would make him more scary, more manly, less of the young and dumb boy he once was. Yet your expression never wavered, but you seemed proud of him. He was fine with that. "That's really great König! I can't imagine the hard and tough training you went through to join the army, I'm very proud of you." Your answer was so genuine and kind. It made his heart ache a little. Just a little... "Yeah, I'm happy you think that." Wow, what a conversation killer you thought. Seems like you still need to take the lead, even in a conversation.

"So...." You start slowly, pleading him with your eyes, to say something too. "So, why are you back here?" He asked, genuinely, he was curious; he hadn't seen you in such a long time, didn't hear from you either, and now you just suddenly show up? And he happens to see you? Fate must have set you guys up, again. Dumbfounded, you answer: "I'm just back to see my family, I miss them a lot, and this town, even if I acted like I wanted to get out of it. I never thought that I could miss it so much, or maybe I just missed the memories I made here." Wow. What a deep answer. Were you also thinking of him when you said the memories you missed? Does that mean you missed him? Part of the reason why he was in this particular café today was because he missed you.

He missed the memories you both made here, the numerous dates you guys had here. He just didn't expect to see you. Lady luck really smiled on him today, so why does it feel like he's fucking it up? What does he lack? What's wrong with him? Hadn't he grown into a better man now? Older and wiser, kinder and smarter? You break his train of thought when you suddenly tell him that it was time for you to go, you still had family to visit. He silently curses himself for letting you sit in silence with him, when he had this chance to talk to you again. He just mods politely, tells you that it was nice to see you again, and maybe you both should go out to catch up again sometime. You nod and agree: "Here's my number if you want to contact me König." Althought taken aback by your boldness, he eagerly takes your number. "Here's mine. See you here, same time, same place, in two days?" You agree and say your goodbyes to him, little did he know, he should've cherished this time better, as it would be the last time he ever got to see and hear you again.

The two days went by so slow. He was still processing the fact that he actually got to see you again. "Should I wear something nicer today?" He thought. "No, it's just a casual talk over coffee. Nothing special." He opted for a white button-up shirt and rolled up the sleeves, paired with dark jeans and leather shoes. At least he looked presentable enough. At the same time as yesterday, he drove to the café. He sat down in the sane spot as yesterday, patiently waiting for you. After he waited around 20 minutes, he decided to text you."Hey y/n, are you okay? I'm waiting at the café for you. If you are running late, it's okay, just lmk." Simple, yet to the point. He waited about 10 minutes for you to reply or call him, but there was nothing. Anxiously, his thoughts started to waver and think the worst. Maybe it was your plan all along, to get him to trust you, and then to hurt him like this. No, you wouldn't do that; you never were that kind of person. He knew he needed to stop being so insecure and worried, so instead, he decided to drive to your family to check on you instead.

It was a short drive, from the café to your family house, which he remembered was on a small but peaceful street. Driving by, he saw it; it was the same as he remembered in his teenage days; small yet cozy, you had a younger brother that most likely already moved out too. The house had all sorts of flora and greens growing outside of it. Your parents had a passion for gardening and always kept everything presentable. Parking his car on the side of the street, he got out and made his way up the steps of your family house. Nervously, he knocked on the front door a few times, anxiously waiting for someone to answer the door.

After a few minutes of worrying and anxious thinking, your mom opened the door, looking distraught and her eyes a bit red. "Hello Mrs.l/n, how are you? I came to check up on y/n after she didn't show up to our...catch up day today.". He was so nervous about talking to your mom again, fearing she would get mad and shut the door on him since you guys weren't a thing anymore. Instead, she looked a bit relieved, but tears started welling up in her eyes. "K-könig, it's so nice to see you again... It's y-y/n, she...she got into a car crash just half an hour ago. She told me she was on her way to see you." His heart dropped. "W-What, Mrs.l/n, are you sure? Y-y/n can't really be....gone? Right?" He was shaking now, stuttering through his words. "I wish I was lying too König, but we just found out too, after the police called us.". No!no! This can't be! After all those years of missing you, he got his chance to talk to you again, and now you leave again? It can't be true! "Would you like to come in and have a seat König? I'll make a cup of tea for you, " she sniffled. Still shocked, he nodded and went inside your house. The smell and feeling of your presence hit him like a train. He couldn't help but let tears well up in his eyes, nose starting to run. Your mom gently pats his shoulders as she leads him to sit down at the dinner table.

After he was seated, she started to make some tea in a kettle: "she had missed you a lot." She told him suddenly. Shocked, König looked up at her from his hands, "she did?". "Yes, she told me yesterday night about how she ran into you at her favorite café, and how you hadn't changed much. She said you reminded her of home." Fuck. He started crying harder now, after he heard what your mother told him. You really missed him? And all this time he was worried about what he did. You truly were a kind soul. Your mom turned around and gave him a hug. "I know it's hard König, I know you must have missed her too. Otherwise, why could you have come all the way to our house to check up on her?" He shifted, agreeing with what she said. "She would've been very happy to hear that you still care about her this much, after all these years.". He started bawling now. He didn't care if it was embarrassing. He didn't care if he wasn't manly anymore. All he wanted to do was to mourn for you, for the soul mate he lost. For the one who slipped from his fingers all the time.

Your mom continued: "After the police are done investigating who the driver that ran into her was, and after they...they gather her body... we will be having a funeral for her. We would be happy if you'd come." "Yes, yes, I will be attending her funeral, Mrs.l/n." "Good, she would have wanted you to. Would you like to stay here for tonight?" She asked kindly. "Thank you for the offer, Mrs.l/n, but I think I should go and think about everything." "I understand König, but you are welcome back here anytime okay?" He nodded, thanked her for the tea, and went about his way home.

On the drive back to his home, he couldn't stop the waterworks from coming. He was never the type to cry so hard, especially not over someone. But you, you had been different. You bad been someone special, someone he held dear.

Now that you're gone, he doesn't know what to do. He was probably going to drink his night away and reminiscence all the good times you guys had together.

The day of the funeral came back. All your friends and family were gathered together on a gloomy, cloudy day. The sky looked like it dared everyone to go home, for it would start storming anytime soon. Looks like even the heavens were downcast from your death. He stood alongside your mom for the rest of the funeral. He brought your favorite flowers and set them on your gravestone solemnly. Silently, he promised to himself that he would never, ever love anyone unless it's you again.

Omgggg this was one of the longest fics I've ever written 😭😭😭 I'm sorry it took kind of long, and I apologize if there are any errors in here, I was too lazy to go back and proof read it 😞😞😞 I hope you guys enjoy it tho!

Have a great day!💐

[ghastlyfilters]

well today was EVENTFUL

i had briefly spoke to this boardwalk empire and sopranos fan in the past just about the shows in general. i’m down with randomly yapping to anyone about interests i share with them. but this shit took a turn so fast.

he appeared in my tiktok inbox today after seeing my story i’d posted (it was a little video of me lip syncing to a lana del rey song I JS FELT PRETTY YK AND IT WAS ONE OF MY FAVOURITE ALBUMS)

he replied to it by only saying my name, nothing else (i saw this message late this morning as my shitpost account on tiktok isn’t my main so i’m not on it as much)

we briefly spoke about boardwalk for a little bit and he started calling me “alcapona” out of nowhere, which i didn’t respond to at first because i didn’t know it was an actual nickname he thought i should have??

when he explained it i was like “ah ok” and i continued to talk about boardwalk.

he kept telling me i was cute asf and then sent “I WANT YOU SO BAD”

now i was tryna ignore ts in the nicest way possible because i genuinely wasn’t interested and there’s no point in leading someone on that’s just shitty

i told him that a lot of convos i have with the occasional male boardwalk empire fan go like this seeing as somehow they think it’s fascinating female can be into such things (i’ve never saw the big deal in the opposite gender literally just liking a show but whatever)

he then asked for my age and without my permission started all this “baby” shit which i was already severely cringing at BECAUSE MAN ALL THIS CAME OUTTA NOWHERE.

THEN HE CLAIMED HE WANTED TO MOVE FROM MOROCCO TO SCOTLAND FOR ME AND HE GENUINELY WANTED US TOGETHER.

one, i didn’t even know this mfs name aside from his user which was random letters. two, ARE YOU REALLY GONNA PULL THAT SHIT WITH SOMEONE YOU DONT KNOW??

this isn’t the first time mfs have told me they’re gonna come see me or can i come see them (i think it’s just weird unless you’ve seen them irl or fully know who they are and have known them for a long time)

anyway it all got too awkward and he got rather persistent whenever i didn’t respond (my mind was trying to think of what to say as i’d already told him i’ve been out of school for a year and a half due to severe anxiety and i do tend to go blank if i get a text my brain doesn’t know how to reply to in that moment 😭)

so i went into flight mode and blocked him because man shit was getting AWKWARD.

within two minutes, i’d already gotten multiple texts from two accounts he’d made, one of which actually had the words “imsorry” within the user.

i just thought it was extremely obsessive for someone from scotland he really did not know. and i gently told him that. but man he was pushyyy

he said i’d made him cry (i call bullshit) and could i please unblock him.

HE HOUNDED ME UNTIL I PRETTY MUCH BLOCKED HIM ON ALL THE ACCOUNTS BUT ALL THIS JUST BECAUSE IM A FEMALE WHO LIKES STUDYING THE HISTORY OF THE MAFIA AND BOARDWALK EMPIRE??

listen ik mfs wanna yap about their interests and i’m all for that but how are u gon justify to a person you wanna wait and move countries for someone AND START HOUNDING AND SOBBING THE MINUTE THEY GET TOO ANXIOUS AFTER BEING HIT WITH ALL TS

[ramblingdisaster73]

hi! i saw a few of ur posts and asks lately and i hope u don't mind me popping in to kind of rant a little. i haardd agree w what you've said re: ep03 and 4x04

403 really did hurt. and i get it. i get that it comes hand in hand with the angst, and i think. i hope (?) that they'll be ok in the end bc at this point, it's getting a little bit frustrating to me. i hated the line of carlos being like 'can't let go of a bad relationship' :/ ik its probably a really poor take coming from the writers but like. with the setup, framing, and tk looking at him after he said that line. what did they want us to think. i think there's a fine line between being petty and hurtful and being a jerk. and imo if i want to put more weight into that line (i probably won't, bc i believe its meant to be more like a throwaway line that we'll collectively ignore and won't resurface again), he's leaning towards the latter. i can't imagine the patience tk has rn

i did not like that, time and time again so far, tk is just being his non-confrontational self. and i get it, with the whole 'you lash out at you loved ones in the moment of extreme anxiety and loss of control, whilst knowing that he will be there for u through it all. through all ur messiness and ur shit, it's like a lifeline that he can hold on to.' hell, i did that too. and i love this sentiment, and i think ep1 - ep3 is them trying to show us this. except before we get their reconciliation in 4x04 (hopefully), these are what we have to work with.

i also read somewhere (i'm so sorry i'd forgotten who said it) that we might get more of carlos + iris reunion rather than a carlos/tk one bc it will carry more weight for carlos' character arc, and at this stage, i hate that i can see that happening, and i don't like it. i'm just asking for any sort of carlos/tk reunion to be cathartic af, after all of what we've they've been through so far. i don't think i'm asking for much atp 🥲🥲

(prev.) if this really happens, i hope it's in the context of like, iris reassuring carlos that she's not his legal responsibility anymore, that she's more than capable of taking care of herself, and that he needs to let go of the unfounded guilt that he's carrying towards this whole mess (ik this is controversial, but i would argue that iris carries equal responsibility as well and i blame carlos as much as i do iris, she could've reached out too, but i won't be getting into that), so that he can truly move on with tk. a clean slate, if u will. i won't be able to accept anything else.

i just. my god. i love tk. i want to give him a little hug. it's genuinely really painful to watch him in these 3 eps. i have no hope that it will ever be addressed. can u tell i just really need more tk/carlos scenes atp bc i do i miss them being a team and i don't like it when there's tension that we can never get closure too. i don't want to expect anything for 404 except that it'll probably be disappointing, just so i won't be let down again.

also as like a little sidenote, i saw the 100 in your bio and omg i was there (!!!!!) doesn't this (e.g. tim's post, ro and rafa's interviews) all feel like jrat + the 100 cast mess all over again. bc i see it. i'm not sure if you're aware of it back then, but it was like a whole mess between the cast and jrat and they had to keep defending his writing and lmaoooooooo history repeating itself over at ls here i see i see

i'm so sorry its so long. it got away from me. thank u for reading through all that tho if u did 😭 have a nice day/night!

This storyline has definitely ruffled feathers, a lot of them for a lot of people. The way they are only revealing bits at a time through this 4 episode arc is slowly driving us all insane – especially those of us that were not blessed with any sort of patience (that’s me, I have none) and want to know everything right now.

Just like 3x13 had some painful to watch scenes, so did 4x03 – but watching Ronen & Rafa this season has been a real gift – we care so much about these characters in large part because we know how much Ronen & Rafa love their characters, how much they respect the relationship that they are portraying, combined with their natural chemistry, makes Carlos & TK such a compelling people – as both individuals & as a couple.

-The first couple of seasons, we got glimpses of Carlos’ flaws, but they weren’t as obvious or as loud as TK’s, so many people just over looked them, some to the point where they don’t believe that he can do any wrong or that pretty people should always be forgiven because they are pretty.

*For this particular storyline – They had to pretty much exaggerate his negative traits: Control freak, self-blame, avoidance to the point of lies by omission, and his compartmentalization in order to have him learn more about himself (I think) If they had just kept him as he was in 3x13 with the petty chicken dinner, then we wouldn’t really be able to see him learn anything – it would just have been a continuation of his avoidance, without long term consequences.

– his traits/flaws had to be so in our faces, so that when he loses all of that – all control, all ability to compartmentalize, can’t lie to even himself anymore – we are feeling it with him, feeling him learn that this isn’t a healthy way for him to live.

*I have no clue what their intention for the bad relationship line was – but I do think it missed whatever the goal was since none of us can decide on the meaning. I am currently going with it is part of how they are exaggerating his traits (his pettiness in this case) to show how much out of the ordinary this whole situation is for him. I do think he is filled with so much guilt over Iris, that it almost froze him where she was concerned, especially since TK came into his life – and he realized that he could have something real. -thinking about it this way does make it more tolerable, at least it does for me.

*There is a fine line between petty and jerk, Carlos has been walking it like a tight rope since the minute that venue called, probably since the morning after he realized that he hadn’t dreamed up TK proposing. I think that the show is finally letting us see his other sides, we are seeing him start to unravel a little – he doesn’t know how to deal with it – THERAPY WOULD BE MY SUGGESTION, SIR! – so much damn therapy.

I am loving TK (& Ronen) this season – that man can say a lot with his eyes – especially when the script doesn’t give him words. I do think that part of his lack of an emotional response, isn’t that he doesn’t have feelings about what is going on (Carlos being married), but he sees how fucked up Carlos is over the whole thing – he knows that if he freaks out too, then everything will get worse – this time, even though shit is hard, the last thing he wants to do is run away or blow things up – and honestly, I love it. And I have written quite a few fics so far that have really helped me deal with the emotions that this storyline brought up.

*I do not think that there will be a whole lot of bottled up TK in 4x04 – I think he will be a fiery tornado with one goal in mind – as Ronen has said, we are going to see a different side to TK this season. I think part of that might be the way he processes his emotions/thoughts (plus he has a whole fandom to be mad on his behalf) – I don’t think TK will ever just roll over and let anyone (Carlos included) walk all over him - he has just learned to pick his battles, support his fiancé over himself when needed.

*I can’t wait for feral TK

I did say something along the lines of Carlos more important reunion would be with Iris over TK – to be honest though, I doubt we see a real reunion between Iris & Carlos at this point – BUT, my reasons for thinking that were what you said – that she might be the one that gets through to him that people are stronger and more capable than he gives them credit for – Both her and TK – as well as Carlos.

*We will get some type of emotional reunion between TK & Carlos on screen – I think that Tim loves to pull things apart – but he does it because he loves putting them back together. Someone pointed out that each episode has shown us another aspect of the Tarlos relationship – The understanding from TK in 4x01, the unit that they are in 4x02, what friction and stress can cause in 4x03. I think 4x04 will be another aspect to see.

-I am leaning that the bulk of the ep will be them separated – Carlos being held captive, torture & TK will be realizing he is missing/searching for him. I am also thinking that the amount of time on screen that they will be together will be similar to Push 3x04 – An emotional reunion (like at the hospital when TK woke up), then a domestic like scene (like the initial Tarloft scene), ending with some type of group scene (like the reopening of the 126) – obviously, I could be wrong – but that is how I am leaning as of now.

TARLOS IS ENDGAME & ALL ROADS LEAD TO THE WEDDING – is my mantra and I repeat it as necessary in times of need.

I also love TK, he is also probably the one I can relate to the most, so that helps (or not, depending on how you look at it). That mean needs all the hugs, he takes everything on himself (kinda like his fiancé), and wants everyone to be happy. I can’t get over how blessed we are with the cast that plays these amazing characters – they don’t feel like one dimensional characters – they feel real – this is why we care so much.

I think the difference between Tim & J Roth is that Tim is supporting his work & his cast/characters while J Roth killed off characters if his cast member needed time off for a medical/mental health issue or has a disagreement. I got lucky with the 100, my ship made it to the end, even if they were the ship with one of the smallest fanbases (sorry, I am a total Mackson fan – they are what brought me to tumblr & Ao3 in the first place), so I didn’t hate J Roth for the shit writing in Season 7 (also, don’t hate season 7 – see my ship for why 7x14 was a total gift for me)

*I really can’t see Tim treating any of this cast like J Roth did Ricky & Bob

*Tim will fuck with us though – and since he gives us such beautiful scenes (even the hard ones), I will forgive him. While he loves to tear our hearts out, he is sure to let us know that he will let these characters put them back in place. He knows that we love them, but he does deserve to be protective of his work (even when we don’t agree with him).

I enjoy reading people’s thoughts, adding my own, and welcome people sending me asks/their thoughts!                                                                   

[coleszzzworld]

Title~mad hatter.

yandere!Fuyuhiko Kuzuryu x reader (she/her pronouns)

Summary-this takes place before the remnants of despair was put in the simulation , basically before the simulation you and fuyuhiko was much closer . You guys had history that goes far back . (U/t- your ultimate talent )

TW!⚠️⚠️(this is before junko dies . This was when the remnants were causing chaos. Cussing , death , reader being so uninterested in all of these 😭. Just kinda of sum fuck up stuff use of weapons like guns n swords 🧍🏽‍♀️ reader and fuyuhiko being consumed by despair. )

A/N- before I get into this , I want too say I literally tried too write something that’s not as bad as what the remnants of despair did in the show/what I read , like they was literally on sum crazy shit y’all 😭 I’m just trying too make this as water down as possible but still trying too keep that topic their yk?😭

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“You hear that y/n?” I snap out my thoughts. I eventually look where fuyuhiko is looking. I look out a big window looking down on the streets with people running away from despair , “ah, the screams of despair. That feeling. They know their going too die yet they fight back so hard . Too bad their last moments is filled with that feeling.” I say resting my head on my hand looking at the sight unfold before me . “Well. That’s what they get for thinking they can survive despair. “ Fuyuhiko laughs . “Fucking dumb asses “ he looks away in disgust. “ they should just give in . Instead of having hope . “ he finishes his sentence then rolling his eyes in disgust. “Well what do you say y/n , why don’t we go encourage their despair a little “ Fuyuhiko looks at me and chuckles . I eventually look away from the window and look at him , “I guess. “ I say giving little interest in this feeling of despair, “oh cmon , you the U/t doesn’t want too go inflect some despair on people. You don’t wanna crush their hope with despair?” He says looking at me then back at peko who was ready for what ever . “I guess your right . Let’s go crush some hope. “ I say getting up and eventually all of us grabbing our weapons,making our way too the streets.

As we make it on the street , people are trying too fight back the other people with monokuma masks killing them one by one . “These losers are so boring. They are just killing them in a lame way . “ I say uninterested in their killing styles . “Well let’s spice it up . “ fuyuhiko says as he cocking his gun eventually I follow suit cocking my uzi (y’all Ik know nothing about guns😭) eventually peko follows suit and pulls out her sword and we run into battle.

“Please i have a wife! " the man says laying in the street begging for his life , what a lame reason. “Well . Soon all she will feel is despair. And soon you will too . “ I say shooting him . Eventually we regroup. “This is boring .let’s just leave the rest of these lames too the others. “ I say still uninterested, “yeah this got boring fast . These people just kept begging for their lives . I know they felt so much despair in their last moments. “ Fuyuhiko chuckles . Peko walks ahead of us into the tall buliding . As me and fuyuhiko hold hands following behind her. Even tho we were both filed with despair . We still loved each other .

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A/N - yall I hope this wasn’t too dark ! But in the game / show and from what I read the remnants of despair was literally on sum wild shit😭 so I tried too water down some of the stuff they did as much as possible .

[dwter]

What do u think the big dsmp update is i think itl be something like a memory wipe or so idk idk what else it could be unless its like some big fight but ik cdream has something planned and lots of people on the server kinda like him ish (remmeber the line "everyones gonna think i changed while i make ur life a living hell") i think maybe wel get that also in dre and wilburs reddit post they make the point of cdream tormenting ctommy by bring back cwil clear 🤔

this shit is so long brah im so sorry but IM SO GLAD IVE FINALLY WRITTEN EVERYTHING IVE WANTED DOWN 😭🌟 ok click for my. Thoughts 🙌🏽

if its a memory wipe im killing myself Hope that helps BUT i also have a few reasons why i dont think it will be. a) i dont think the smp would be as enthusiastic as they seem to be for whatever dream has planned if it was a memory wipe. we can look at it from a passion/sentimentality point of “they care too much abt what theyve already put into the story/developing their characters” but even from a logic standpoint it makes no sense. no one on that server that very few ppl have motivation for would suddenly become excited at the idea of having to “start fresh” but not even genuinely start fresh as theyd still have to adhere to whats around them. plus having to remake dynamics that were heavily cc-based anyways takes so much effort specifically bc they would be different from the original lore which was build on, again, the ccs actual dynamics that evolved over time. i just dont see the ccs, esp someone like tommy for instance who has said hes excited for what dream has planned, to be motivated by any form of a memory wipe.

b) i feel like dream (cc) sees and understands the value in the dynamics that currently exist in the smp and wouldnt change and discard them to that extent, both as a storyteller/lorehead but also career/retention-wise. do i see him creating an event that fucks up/twists/moves around the dynamics? absolutely. completely amnesia tho? no. hes a smart guy and one of the people most invested in the lore (and probably the lore-based community as a result) he KNOWS what ppl like and what keeps them here and there no way he doesnt see the personalities, histories and evolved dynamics as what does that, at least partially

c) it would be too much work + wouldnt make people log on a lot or in massive crowds. usually what makes ppl log on both in large amounts and consistently is 1. a set goal/focus 2. knowing other ppl are on 3. being able to do what makes them comfortable. 1 and 2 are self explanatory but with 3 i mean that ppl who dont want to do lore/dont enjoy doing heavy intense lore where they have to be in character all the time would not like or be comfortable with a memory wipe where they have to pretend and stick to that basically the whole time, esp if they cant rmr each other. imagine someone like tubbo for instance wanting to slip into casualness and just play and half talk to chat half be involved and slipping up about the memory stuff and getting frustrated like thats super real. amnesia would be terrible for morale and is just too much investment for a ton of them and wouldnt motivate ppl to log on (at least in the long run)

ok now that ive explained myself about this: what do i think it could be

i am a huge believer in the apocalypse theory/things similar. it would be a perfect ripple in the dynamics currently set without damaging, eroding or erasing them. it also would be able to give a goal/focus for the ccs which is one of the biggest motivators for ppl logging on which is also part another motivator which is literally just ppl being there when u log on/logging on with u. and it also lets ppl interact with lore and intensely or casually as they want as there is nothing they have to commit to the whole time or force them to go in and out of “lore mode” awkwardly. they can do whatever they want and say whatever they want, it is just up to them how in character they want to be and they can hang out and be with whoever fits their vibes the best in that sense, or go back and forth.

it just does what the reboot/update SHOULD do: give purpose in playing again, refresh whats already there, make things less ridged, let ppl start fresh without actually starting fresh and most importantly: LETS PPL HAVE FUN! and whether fun is lore breathing into a mic for an hour or a chill mining stream to prepare for whatever the apocalypse has caused/is or just fucking with your friends—this specific kind of reboot lets all of those co-exist if they want it to.

as for ur ideas: in my heart of hearts i dont want to believe it but the “im going to make ur life a living hell etc” line seems to be referencing the boy who cried wolf plot which is. Dead in the ground i fear <- says through gritted teeth. i would LOVEEEEEE if that line became important again but i just feel like all its implications have kind of been abandoned, at least what they used to be. and about ppl mostly liking cdream hmmm ….. i dont know how much that will play a role if things got rebooted, especially regarding ctommy. i dont think anything like final disc finale but with cdream and ctommys role reversed will happen. no one/not enough ppl on the server is cdreampilled OR ctommynegpilled enough for anything like that. plus a big fight wouldnt cause this much excitement (although i do wonder if the revamp is partially pvp based bc with how excited cctommy sounded about it, it definitely could be. thats something he rly enjoys and likes about minecraft and dsmp like he mentioned it in the tribute video (like the battles he had with dream being his fav)). that last point IS interesting tho hmmm ….. maybe it was just stating a fact rather than it being foreshadowing? although cdream hasnt used cwilbur enough as leverage for me to think theyre done/didnt have anything else planned for that. either way tho, im not sure how much that involves the update since i think for it to make EVERYONE excited, it has to be something that involves the entire smp/affects it all/everyone, not just the big three

ANYWAYS thank u for reading all my rambles and thoughts if u made it this far anonnie or anyone else. i feel at peace now. mind body and soul. all at ease. 😊❤️

[enhypen-scholarship]

heyyyy how u doin?? shits goin insane on the blue bird app but whats ur verdict abt the whole hoshi fatphobic joke thing

heloooooo im great hope everything is well for u

and i have seen it, the whole thingy, so for me ik that hoshi did that as a joke but it was too far, ik that hoshi did not mean to hurt boo's feelings

however ik or most carats know the mere fact that hoshi would never hurt him, verbally or physically. u can already tell from their unconditional love for each other and theyre history together,

as someone who was called fat and chubby in the past, it really stings and it changes the way u look at urself and ur self-esteem would go down below the bar

wk that if ever boo is really really bothered about his comment, and ofc as they are a public figure everyone would make this very controversial and they would spread it for the whole world to know what he did

both men are great friends, they have amazing chemistry together.

but wdk people🤷‍♀️

this is the same case w riki n sunoo😭

[hobo-dragon]

HEADCANNONS, THEY'RE COMING AT YOU WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT-

MT Headcannons:

He has a decently long tempter, but when it runs short, this man, this s t i c k f i g u r e, terrifying.

He can be known to get very violent(borderline homicidal if there's someone in his way of what he wants) when he gets mad.

He's fallen from a ruling somewhere or something else to ruling over pigmen. He doesn't tell anyone this.

I don't know how long he's existed for but I headcannon that he was alive during TDL and TCO's reign over the internet, and lost many of his friends because of it.

If he played, he would get the genocide run in Undertale, period.

Purple Headcannons:

They're scared of being betrayed, so they betray others first, deep down they do want to be friends with the Rainbow Gang, but are too scared of being betrayed.

They have a history of being betrayed :'[

They were like just created (maybe a little older)when TDL and TCO took over the internet.

Both Purple and MT hate TCO and TDL.

SPEAKING OF TCO AND TDL-

TCO/TDL headcannons:

At least one of them snores, at least one, kinda had this headcannon and went 'shit, but they both seem like the type to snore' and then went ah screw it, and/either works too.

Okay I know a lot of the fandom sees them as a couple/together but....

They were somewhat together before the whole AVA thing and things went downhill during AVA.

TDL was/is in a coma after the Showdown. (I'm kinda going off the facts like, I get TDL is hella strong but, did y'all see how TSC beat his ass? Like I put coma because like I went to put dead, but kinda decided that was kinda a mood killer so I put coma)

TCO would much rather have a simple domestic life than be a chosen one, like please this man just wants to enjoy life and the entirety of AvA happens 😭

TCO has a 'Tired of this Chosen One shit' shirt that either TDL or TSC got him

HAAHAHAHHA SPEAKING OF TSC(yes I have amazing transitions)

TSC headcannons:

TSC fears the choice of either never being able to sleep again, and his friends would live, or be able to sleep, but his friends would p e r i s h. (Kinda a silly one ik-)

They sleep a lot, like this ain't even a headcannon-

Also they can fall asleep the fastest and sleep just about anywhere anytime.

They WORSHIP hoodies(not me projecting on TSC at all-). Like it's the closest thing to pajamas that aren't pajamas and are socially acceptable to wear in public-

Speaking of pajamas and hoodies, they have a god awful taste in fashion :']

Also warning for those who absolutely love TSC and would hate to see them hurt

You know that one Saw movie where the first trap has actual saws and people with buckets attached to their heads are there? And just about all of them escape apart from that one guy who was sleeping basically the entire time? When I first watched that part, my brain immediately, no joke, went 'Hey look it's TSC'

I felt bad afterwards :[

Thingy for TSC getting hurt and whatnot, idk, over.

TSC has had nightmares where they have hurt their friends, or they've gotten hurt and he had no control over the nightmare.

They didn't tell anyone.

Aaand that's it for my headcannons, most of them are half thought out rfhrefvyydefbb-

[selfcarecap]

Bless you, love. You're too sweet, I love talking to you as well. I'm literally always on here and see your posts. Even hearing you thinking of me makes my heart burst. How small interactions through anonymous messages have such a tremendous impact, to form some sort of companionship, will never cease to amaze me.

Yet after my little freak out the other day, where I got all anxious and panicky, I started getting reluctant to contact you. You were incredibly kind, and your reaction was nothing but thoughtful. I even prepared a novel-like response, in which I explained my sudden outburst and apologised for the inconvenience, as well as thanked you for your immediate comforting reply.

However, I felt too overbearing and conflicted with myself, which is why I threw this draft overboard and decided to provisionally stay out of your asks, at least for a little while. (= me still explaining where I was last week without reopening the novel-like draft no one asked for)

I hope you're doing okay? How's your second semester going? Did your initial anxiety die down, or are you still experiencing it? How did you adjust to your new schedule?

-sparkles

Sparkles 🥺 you don’t need to worry about stuff like that with me omg <3 ik easier said than done but :( this is gonna sound weird to say about myself but I’m genuinely a kind and forgiving person, I mean you didn’t insult me or anything (i genuinely don’t even remember what it was about... wasn’t it just a bit of a Meinungsverschiedenheit? (lmao) that’s nothing you have to worry about or nothing that makes me not want you in my asks :( you can always message me and if i have a problem with you, you’ll notice 😭 but i can’t imagine what a kind person like you would have to do to really make me dislike you, if i already like you as much as i do i can’t imagine changing my opinion about you any time soon

I’m okay! I still get nervous about my only in person class even though it’s one of my favourite classes! Otherwise my anxiety has gone away SO MUCH within the last week and I’m so so relieved. I don’t want to be too optimistic but it makes sense that my anxiety is slowly dying down now that it’s the third week of uni (??) and I’m getting used to it. I’m still unsure about my classes though. I signed up for more classes than I’m supposed to this semester and I was thinking of dropping out of a few classes once the semester starts and I know which ones I like or don’t like but it’s currently not as much work as I thought it was going to be and I don’t really want to drop out of any classes in case I don’t get into them again next semester </3 I’ve written down when I have all my exams and how many assignments I have and how much I have to write and I honestly can’t tell if it’s going to be too much work or not. I don’t know the topics of the assignments yet either and have no idea if they’ll be more research based or I just have to talk about my opinion and interpretations which would be a lot less work. So I’m kinda struggling with that because I don’t want to overwork myself because it’ll just lead to bad results, but I don’t want to wait until January (which is when I’ll know all topics for my final assignments/papers) to decide if I’ll do all of them? Because I don’t want to go to classes for 3 months only to not do the final exams and maybe not get into the class next semester. Idk if I’m explaining it well but I don’t feel like going into the administration stuff of my uni xsldjsk😭

Another thing is my minor subject (I never know how to translate Nebenfach) that I started this semester (art history).... I’m very undecided. It’s just the third week but so far I’m not really enjoying it. It’s very weird because my professors are so great and the actual subject matter is so fascinating to me and yet I hate going to those lessons and I can’t imagine doing that shit for five semesters. I’m not a fan of any of the minors that my uni has for Anglistik but I have to choose one and I really enjoyed art in the Oberstufe so I thought I’d like it at uni too but I’m really not sure. The only other minor I’m interested in only starts during the winter semester so if I really realise that art history isn’t for me I would have to wait til my 4th semester (end of next year) to start that minor (I can’t really say what it’s called because it’s very specific to my uni and I’m already not the most careful person when it comes to personal information so sixhsksjsjs). I’d definitely have enough time to complete it especially with new covid rules regarding how long you’re allowed to study but :( I just wanna find a minor that I actually enjoy. And also I think I’d have to pause Anglistik for a semester or two to catch up on my minor and I’m not sure if that’s such a good idea. This is probably all really confusing and doesn’t make sense and I’m thinking way too far ahead, maybe I’ll start enjoying art history soon and it’ll all be fine anyway. (Lol that was a lot of... talking about myself shsks how are YOU?)