#im deadnaming the app

[gh0stsblogs]

save me Miku the killer. save me. Miku the killer save me.

[aurischolar]

hrm. my bank app seems to have added an option for pronouns and a preferred name but like.. being trans sounds like the kind of information i should not be thoughtlessly handing out to The Bank

[fish-b0nez]

twitter moment

[sweet-milky-tea705]

Thinking about how our family turtle of 17 years had semi-recently laid an egg after we thought it was a male turtle. And my mom has been trying to start using she/her pronouns for the turtle. And has actually been trying not to “misgender” this fucking turtle even though she knows im trans and she knows my chosen name and doesnt even bother to try and use it 🤩🤩🤩 thanx girlie ❤️❤️❤️

[himbodad]

resisting the urge to swipe right on every trans person on a dating app that has my deadname

[l-na]

>_> can i get some help here please

please dont tag as d.0n4t.ion!

hi!! i'm luna and life as a disabled person fucking SUCKS!!!! im blasian, trans, autistic. i also have POTS and a brand-new heart condition i have no fucking clue how to get under control and am currently being terrorized night and day by.

i recently moved out of state to get into affordable housing, and had to give up my previous setup where the state gave me money for disability. according to my case manager, im about three months minimum from getting money that i need to survive.

i havent been able to pay rent in three months, and im falling behind on my bills. ive been working my caretaker to the bone and havent been able to pay him anything. i literally owe the person whos in charge of taking care of me money.

as of right now, im currently bedbound and unable to focus, much less hold down a job of any kind. everyday i struggle to feed and clothe myself.

please help me out! im already dealing with several debilitating conditions, i really dont need to be worrying about being in the negatives!!!!

https://venmo.com/lunawuma

here is my boyfriend's paypal!! i got banned from paypal for not using my deadname. if you donate, please mention you're donating to luna. thanks.

[edgeworthsstupidbangs]

Please help a neruodivergent trans man make rent.

I hate having to keep making these posts but I do. I once again need help with rent.

For those not in the know, i got dumped by my partner almost 4 months ago and im now im trying to care for myself by myself with four jobs (a retail job, a movie theater job, plasma, and doordash).

One of my jobs literally only gave me 12 hours for the entire month so im in trouble. I had a little saved to help but the energy bill needed paid so i am screwed.

Its been a big struggle. Im out but cant afford medically transitioning as I didnt expect to get dumped and then st*lked by that ex. Its been a lot.

Im looking for around 400 dollars. I know thats alot but im also going to be doing doordash when im not at my theater job to try and make up too.

Anything would greatly help. Ill even write you a poem if youd like as i am a writer and id sell my poetry if folks paid for it.

I have zelle but its attached to my deadname so please ask.

$app: sweettothekorie

Pypal: sweetothecorey (that also has my dead name on it)

Venmo: sweettothekorie

0/400

Thanks yall for sticking with me.

[gender-void-partially-stars]

i have cvs prescriptions under both my deadname and my normal name so in order to see both in the cvs app i had to designate my deadname account as part of my ‘family’. now im a caretaker for my past self. pretty fitting tbh

[eldrytchcryptid]

"You gotta enjoy every part of your transition, you're still becoming a man now - even without it."

-a very wise trans girl

I've been waiting almost a decade to start testosterone, and finally having a date for my gender appointment has made me... almost ignore all the euphoric changes (and all the weird and funny changes) happening in my transition as a trans man. So I thought I'd make a list of pre-t stuff! I might add more later - or y'all can add some too!

Socially transitioning

- feeling I gotta make sure to let ladies go first (on the bus, through doors etc)

- "Ma'am?" "Who??? Oh right. Uh yeah no." / "Deadname?" "DEADNAME?" "WHO ARE YOU TALKING TO RN - oh lol."

- oh god am I making her nervous DUDE STOP BEING WEIRD *I'm literally just walking home and it's dark* BE LESS WEIRD *aaaAaaAAA*

- *mmm boobs* *AAAA IM LOOKING AVERT AVERT AVERT*

- am i still allowed to say hi and pull faces at cute babies or is it weird cause I'm a dude now?? Am I creepy?? But kids! Kids are fun!!

- *on dating apps* oh god this is so different now I have to come up with conversation oh god oh no

- yes let me pick up these heavy chairs for you ma'am yes I am helpful I am a valid man now / yes let me get this thing off this high shelf even tho I'm only 5'7

- *watching videos of me a year ago* oh shit I actually speak lower now w/o T

- that crunchy morning / cold-ridden / drunk low rumbling voice 😩👌

With a (stp) packer

- *upon putting it on* oh oh it's a dick holy shit yes

- *upon taking it off at the end of the day* 😭 noooooo my dick my broski I miss you already

- the fcking toilet seat

- aim aIM GOD NO nOT THERE

- I really hope I don't look like I'm hard rn

- *need to adjust* *no I'm disgusting don't look at me*

- *upon crossing legs* oh shit I can't wait hold up it's in the way *has to change way to cross legs*

- manspreading?? Am I spread too much??? help

- these trousers as tight af but my dick looks amazing right now

- left or right. Too far up wait *searches pictures of dudes to find out where to put my dick

- *touches whilst sat chilling at home* fren. safe. i love u pp

- *squish* *wiggle*

- *I will hit you with my penis as an threat*

Minoxidil (pre-t beard growth)

- *stroking beard* hheeeeeee fluffyyyy

- RAZOR BURN ITCHY

- researching how tf to shave cause apparently i can't fuckin do it right

- stubble???? Itch???? Euphoria???

- *strokes* hmmm yes indeed

- gotta fuckin use twice the face wash cause I'm essentially shampooing at this point

Body

- huh yea guess that's me (instead of hatred/disgust)

- yeeeee hairy legsssss

- cis guys wish they had this ass dude

- need musle gib *too chronic fatigued to work out*

- mm yes men's clothes (on top half w/binder)

- mm no men's clothes (thighs and ass too strong 🥲)

- shoes make me taller let's fucking go

- men have tits too right? Ye man I just got man tits

- *stroking the mirror like I'm Mulan* am I just a gross man? Is this my fate?

- strapon. just. strapon.

[bloodyscott]

why does it feel like poc (along with fat) trans people are less likely to get their identities respected?

literally had this ex friend who fetishized my ass and tits, talked about how black girls take well to gaining weight amongst other weird things after i admitted to wanting to gain weight and i told him i was transmasc and he said “but gaining weight will make you look more fem, and that means you want to be a girl”, and when i told him a bit more abt my gender identity (being multigender, butch, genderfluid), he said i was changing it 50x and that i needed to “not try to fit in anywhere”. he also talked abt how he doesn’t see me as butch but as femme. and then when i said i don’t go by my deadname anymore, he was like “no massive ass and tits for you lmao”. when i called him out on the black girls taking well to gaining weight thing, he used science as an excuse, saying it’s because black girls are more likely to store it in spots like their ass.

this mf was also agender so wtf???

he also was insistent on me not making dirty jokes due to me being a minor, while saying worse shit to me and him being 25. im 17.

(i met this mf on a vtubing app btw, where we do live streams)

[gay-mic]

MUTUAL AID REQUEST

hello everyone. im not returning to this blog, but im in a bit of a pinch (alright more than a bit) and im gonna have to swallow my pride here and ask for some mutual aid. since i left this blog i have been diagnosed with type 1 diabetes, which has been..... a struggle. it’s drained me of a lot of energy, time, and money.

as of now, my bank account is in the red, and i am desperate for any kind of help. if any of you are willing to throw a dollar my way, or reblog this, anything, it is all appreciated. i have a job, but my conservative manager is not a fan of my disabled, trans self so i currently only work about 10 hours a week, if i am lucky. i am constantly applying for new jobs, with no luck so far.

my pay app info:

venmo || ko-fi || paypal available upon request, as it is under my deadname

all help is greatly appreciated, including simply boosting this. thank you all for listening.

[trans-joy-is]

Ok so I'm a semi-closeted teenage trans guy, and i think i look pretty masc. And other trans people can probably tell im transmasc.

The other night I was working (i work at maccas) and these two beautiful trans girls came in and they'd ordered on the app, or at least one of them did because her order had her deadname on it, I dont remember it. I barely looked at it. It might not have been her deadname, maybe she ordered it on a guy she knows account (through the app) but like. She looked really sad or anxious, maybe worried that it would be read out. But I actually rarely read out the names so that any trans people's deadnames or just anyone who doesn't like their name doesn't have their name read out to the whole store. So I used the number. And she looked so happy. And relieved. And I smiled at her and said "have a great night" like I always do, except this time it meant more because I was looking at her in a way I hope that said "I know that's not your name and I love you, I understand." But I dont know if she understood. I hope she did.

But thinking about it now gives me so much joy, because if one of my collegues had read out her deadname she probably would've left the store upset or dysphoric or something and instead she hopefully left feeling happy and understood.

I just. I love it when trans people look out for eachother.

That’s so lovely to hear about, I hope you both had a great evening 🤍

[siamusotima-aranea]

Got cursed out by a trans woman today. That was...interesting.

So, the situation was this, I work customer service helping people get gov assistance for heath insurance premiums. (and my god we are stupid levels of understaffed right now) The whole application can be done online, people make their log in, verify their identity, fill out the app and get their results all right there. The problem, its janky as hell, not user friendly, and compleatly inflexible.

One of the hard rules with this thing is that people have to make their account with their EXACT government name. No Greg insted of Gregory, no Jon insted of Jonathan, that sort of thing. If its not registered with the social security administration, its not your name in the eyes of the system, and you can't go any further.

So, I had to call this woman up and let her know and well... she did NOT take it well. She was pissed, she swore at me at the system at the world, saying things like "I can't believe I still have to deal with this twenty fucking twenty four" and "You people blah blah blah!" this and that.

And im just sitting there like...I'm not out to my co-workers. Some of them straight up refused to use my last name in place of my first for a decent while until I gave them a not trans/non- binary enough reason they could get behind. I still use my birth name when I answer calls because I have to. If anyone else had picked up that woman's case they would not have even KNOWN what a deadname is, no less why its distressing.

And yet I was the lucky trash receptacle into which she decided to throw all her rage. I, with zero say in the matter, and zero ability to change it.

IDK. I'm just...tired. Today was hard, and I don't feel good.

[c0rpseductor]

put my preferred name as eric on my college app and finally looked at the email they sent me that was like "hey we got your application!" and it was like "Hello [DEADNAME]," so. off to a magnificent start in that department.

they also say that i might not get a next steps email with a student ID bc if i've already applied i might have one and then tell me "oh so just look at the last email you got from us!" like oh uh. the one i may or may not have bc i got it SEVEN YEARS AGO??? ugh. anyway if they dont send me an email tomorrow im just going to call them rather than try to dig for an email i likely don't even have any longer

im also going to do my insurance application stuff tomorrow. i hate that im putting it off but ive discovered why i feel like garbage! and it's my period. so. all i really want to do is curl up in a ball. and i'm still going to do it soon

[labgrownmeat]

for some "unknown reason" (they won't change my deadname in the system but my work email account is my actual name is the reason) i was never emailed an edi survey from my employer so i bothered someone about it so that i could fill it out and bitch and complain about the reason i never got it. they've disabled the "preferred name" entries in our payroll management app so they end up slapping my deadname on to everything despite me going to HR about it multiple times. im really irritated by it. everyone at this company has pronouns in their email signatures lol

[brigatebajor]

so in my university you can do this neat thing that lets you display your chosen name on the uni's internal channels like uni email, website profile, myuni app, anything as long as it isnt an official legal document like your graduation certificate. so. after four years and with merely one year left of uni (<- me when i lie and severely overestimate my ability to take one years worth of exams in three months) i am doing this thing right cause im going to therapy and learning that i do not have to hide and cower in shame and beg for peoples forgiveness just for existing, you know how it is. right.

so my uni's website is a black hole hostile to any kind of intelligent life form which means that the steps needed in order to Activate this thing are a total fucking mystery. so i ask the Uni** Trans Council and they tell me to go ask this one professor whos basically in charge of the whole thing, which is a pretty normal occurrence in my university bc my university is held together by a pack of toothpicks and a bestemmia. so i have no choice but to email the man and ask him to help me navigate the dark seas of bureaucracy.

(picard voice) now gentlefags. idk how many emails yall have sent in your lives but i have sent one too many emails to uni professors alright. i have trained reflexes. i open up a gmail tab and my fingers are already instinctively typing Gentile Professore. i have completely lost the ability to write an email that doesnt end in Ringraziandola Per La Cortese Attenzione Le Porgo Cordiali Saluti. but this is different. this is me, a humble idiot, going to this guys house and kneeling on his doorstep begging for help, so virtually not that different from what im usually emailing professors for, but this time i can actually CHOOSE. how i sign the email.

i have two options: i either have to sign my email with my deadname, or with my chosen name. not as easy as it sounds.

my deadname is the obvious professional option, bc it's the name thats displayed in my email, the name youll find on the university records, the name youll find on my id. im obviously sick to all hell and back of having to actually SPELL my birth name like write it down myself as opposed to having to hear it passively from all over, which is not as bad as youd think if you dissociate enough, but writing it? thats the ultimate humiliation isnt it? so obviously id want to avoid doing that, but theres also the added factor of sounding kinda stupid - hi, i want a different name displayed on my stuff, but im not gonna tell you that name! hehe :3

on the other hand, though, theres that part of me with the autocompleted signature in the back of my brain that stops me short of just fucking writing "sam" on the email like a normal person. perhaps it's the part of me that says "like the dog in i am legend" when the barista asks me to repeat my name for the third time at pedros (we dont have starbucks here so we had to make our own brand). in any case, i just cant help but perceiving my own chosen name, the one that i am LITERALLY formally asking to have displayed on my account, as something thats a tad too silly to reveal to Any Public Figure. which is ironic bc bestie clearly that therapy is Not working

and btw, no, there is no third option. bc its a formal email and my uni survival instincts would rather stop the nerves in my hands from working before they let me send an unsigned email (unprofessional! youre gonna fail every exam if you do <- REAL innegociable truth of the universe), so my only choice is to die as a hero and never graduate again (because this is OBVIOUSLY what would happen if i broke the unspoken rules of a professional email to a professor whos not even part of my course), or live as a clown and deadname myself (which im used to, cause i Am a clown).

anyway so this is the story of how ive been staring at the unsigned email on my puter for the past five hours. how have yall been doing