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stan culture has fostered such an incredibly greedy and competitive atmosphere where you’re so desperate for any attention online that you lose any and all basic empathy you might’ve possessed at some point
#im just fucking disgusted right now#we may be dealing with sa allegations and all these fucks care about is stupid fucking stan wars#omg red bulls downfall!!! who the fuck gives a shit right now there is an actual person whose life will never be the fucking same#i feel nauseous bc this isn’t even the first time#you’ll have a story come out about someone being sa’d or assaulted or overdosed or harmed in any way and the internets first fucking#reaction is to meme it? is that really where we are as people#everyone’s scrambling to make tweets or trying to be the first one to condemn someone not because they give a shit but because they want#those likes and retweets#is this how low we’ll sweep for some fucking attention that doesn’t even fucking mean anything
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Spoilers for BNHA chapter 423; you know where this is going.
SHIGARAKI KINNIES HOW WE FEELING TONIGHT???? CAUSE I AM NOT FEELING GOOD!!!!
in all seriousness, I could barely finish this sketch because I was crying so hard. Horikoshi when I catch you istg.
I'm not even gonna entertain the idea that he's still alive somehow until that's confirmed because I refuse to give myself false hope. But this is not how I wanted this to end. Shigaraki deserves to have the life that was literally stolen away from him from day fucking 1. Yes, killing AFO was cathartic as HELL, and seeing kurogiri/shirakumo reach out to save his son absolutely broke me, but what happens to all of the build-up with Shigaraki's story? the rest of the league's trauma, the issues they genuinely faced within this hero society? where is all that going? down the drain ig. seems like such a fuckin waste of a story but alright. this could have been about deku becoming the greatest hero by saving and reforming the villains who were abused and tortured but ALRIGHT.
also, a two page send off? be fr what the fuck.
Rest easy, king. You deserved so much better.
Or come back to us because that'll turn this car around so fast we might hit mach speed.
#tomura shigaraki#bnha manga spoilers#bnha manga leaks#bnha#mha fanart#shigaraki tomura#shigaraki fanart#mha shigaraki#mha#bnha fanart#fens art#spinneraki#bnha spinner#mha spinner#mha spoilers#i am in agony#i am i unwell#if he doesnt get saved be prepare for me to read every single fanfic where shigaraki gets saved or lives happily#or write that kind of fic#because jesus christ on a bike i need some fuckin happiness around here right now#im happy afo is finally fucking dead because holy hell i hate that guy so much#but COME ONNNNNNNNNN#also am i the only one who got extreme ick from AFO saying he loved Yoichi?????#like i know brotherly love is a thing but with AFO this feels SO different. it feels obsessive and disgusting#idk i think i just push every single type of criminally offensive ick onto AFO#it just suits him to be the absolute fucking worst that humanity has to offer#im going to play fortnite to cope with this fucking disaster
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I've legitimately been thinking a lot about trans women lately and like the women I know in my life and how complex and human and real they are. Specifically because I understand the world is not kind to trans women and likes to generalize them horribly.
I know a woman who's an artist and spending her time dreaming about stars. I know another woman who's a terrible friend and manipulative as hell. I know one who's shy and sweet and so intelligent. Trans women can be so many things 💖
I really care deeply about trans women and I hope in my friend groups I'm a good ally to them and know to stand up vocally for them. Trans women deserve so much and they're given not enough. Everyone can do something to stop transphobia by speaking up when they hear it. Don't let your friends make transphobic jokes. Don't let your dad regurgitate trump's words. Protect the trans women in your life and everywhere else, they need to be loved and respected. Mwah! 🥰
#mine#💖🥰trans women🥰💖#all humans are complex and its a beautiful thing#*cough* and a small thought#if we deny healthcare to one prisoner. no matter how disgusting the crime. it sets a precedent to deny healthcare to any prisoner#for any reason#and denying a prisoner trans healthcare is denying a prisoner life saving medicine in my opinion#trans healthcare saves lives#its basic healthcare if you ask me not some sort of secret sect of magic healthcare that should cost more#so yeah. i think people who've done horrible things should have trans healthcare in prison#but thats not even getting into my opinions on prison abolishment. thats just talking about prison existing now#so idk if yall know what case im talking about? i could find it if anyones curious i didnt dig into it at allll#just some stoned opinions from a gender fucked bitch#ummm prisoners deserve healthcare?#duh#trans rights are human rights#pre school levels of basic respect#ive been thinking about this way too much lately since im all gender fucky and i feel like trans women are just .... intelligent about those#feelings. yk? and that's me generalizing but i mean all the Tumblr ladies i see on my dash talking about life and experiences#they are smart ladies#tumblr promotes terf content and deletes trans womens blogs and i try to follow trans women but tumblr still recommends terf blogs to me#i am angry bout it#i have a very complex and long standing relationship with gender identity and gender fuckery *pulls out my resumé*#idk thoughts#im stoned sorry yall#serious post but im not being unstupid#what#okay#bye
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so many of you talk about the cruel adults in your childhood that negatively effected you and caused lifelong insecurity yet you're still perfectly fine with being that mean stranger to any kid that has the misfortune of existing around you and thats just really gross !!!
#like i get kids can be overwhelming for a various amount of reasons but its not going to kill you to treat children with basic human decency#adults can be just as overwhelming or annoying—if not more. yet if you talked to an another adult the same way you do to a kid#then ppl would fucking hate you and not want to be around you because youre not being cool and witty—youre just mean!!!#everyone has experienced the frustration of being a kid being mistreated by an adult. some more than others#rather its ignoring your bodily autonomy (from sa and assault to hugging you when you don't want to be touched to not letting you#make your own harmless choices like a haircut or whatever). everyone has been talked down to or had their opinion treated like its nothing#or that their thoughts or input doesn't matter. everyone has a childhood experience with a mean or judgemental adult#yet over and over ppl are fine just repeating that cycle of abuse and hatred#like youre a young adult and youre still getting treated like shit by older ones. but youre able to have a drink or you graduated or smthn#so now you feel like you earned that right to be judgemental & angry & mean to a group of people that didnt fucking do anything to you#anyways. this is because im sick and had to go to the store to get groceries and meds#so its a 20 minute walk to the nearest store in 108 degrees bc i dont have gas money and then in the store im ofc using a face mask#like im sweaty and feel disgusting and like shit but this kid was SO fucking excited about his spiderman toy and wanted to talk and#his mom said ‘i told you no one wants to hear about that crap leave her alone’ and like?? no fuck off let a kid be happy?? hes not fucking#doing anything wrong?? so we talked and he showed me the little tiy that lights up and asked if i saw the new spiderverse movie#and i told him i havent! so he asked why so i explained i have photosensitivity and what that means and why i cant see it#(‘even though i heard its super cool!’) and HE WAS SO SWEET... like immediately hid the toy because oh! flashing lights can hurt me!#and then immediately said dont worry because he'll tell me about it so its like i saw it instead!#and like. guys imma be honest with you. i stilm got no fucking idea what this movie's plot is.#but you bet your fucking ass i was pretending like i was following along & was going ‘no way!’ ‘so it's a parallel universe...?’ ‘oh wow!’#like yea its unnecessary. i felt oike i was gonna collapse and im still struggling to breathe at home now. but also i been the kid#who just wanted to talk about my interests and no one wanted to or was dismissing it.#i know it's not a end of the world deal but i also know that crushing feeling. you gotta be the kindness you want to see in the world yknow#anyways. be nice to kids or im not going to be nice to you. they're one of the most vulnerable members of our society and deserves kindness
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A rock was thrown through the window of our local trans resources office.
My trans and Disability Group was attacked by a dozen troll accounts last week talking about how trans people are into beastiality and child porn.
Troubleshooting, a coworker told me "if these are the worst things that happen this year we'll be getting off lucky"
I know he's right. And the fact that that's true terrifies me.
#disability#cripplepunk#trans#i saw a post recently talking about how you cant get real liberals to care about voting talking about trans issues bc theres too many#rich white trans people and essentially they dont give af#i dont know who youre spending time with but most of the people in my group are homeless or on the verge of it or in abusive households to#survive. we've been abandoned by the government weve been denied aid or told that bc we have some we cant also have food stamps#most of my friends are queer and disabled and people of color#suffering directly and deeply right now in our current politics w every change#one just got cut from health insurance and wiped out her small savings buying medicine she still had to be off of a whole week#there are rich white trans and queers and they dont deserve to die in a genocide either#but also the fact that youre erasing the rest of us the fucking majority of us bc they exist and using it to quantify your betrayal of#yourself and your community to vote ~third party~ up your own ass is fucking disgusting#its stuck in my head like a piece of jagged metal#im so sick of liberals saying my life my friend's lives are worthless for the sake of their idealism and strawmen in other countries
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I'm a damn leech. That's all I am
#audrey/kellie's rambles#audrey/kellie vents#dont mind me#im a leech. im a bug. disgusting. im too much to bare. others in the community talk to each other and yet rarely me#i try to talk witj them. maybe im just not that ... good with my ocs. maybe thats why they never ask. maybe-#im too fucking clingy. im too obsessive. im too moody. im fucking crazy.....#I'll just be here tho. i wonder why no one really talks to me. outside of the internet and in of the internet too#but maybe that means im too fucking annoying for something. bjt then again they have a life and its not sll about me. and my long ass asks#they should be sble to live their life. and yet here i am. getting jealous fucking jealous that my friends are talking to each other#its stupid. i shouldn't be like this. its fucking stupid to he jealous of my friends talking to each other. but it seems like i only#see them as my friends or maybe its because i said smth about my school. and then they leave me alone. but theyve.. always left me alone#always. always a shadow. always actually reminding me that im a bad fucking person. always to be there because...#honestly it has to be me. right? im the damn problem. thay dont talk to me. yet i talk to them endlessly. like they are already gone or smth#i suck at being friends. because this is who i am. some possessive fucking freak. i really should. choked myself with some wires.......#this is just reminding me that my twin is more better and more interesting then who i wanted to be hack then when i was on Amino.#even back then they didn't care for me. now its like its the same but much worse. because-#i hate it. i hate feeling lonely. what the fuck. give me fucking validation. give me attention. give me love.#give me any fucking kind of attention. hate on me. spit on me. kick my legs. i dont. i just want attention. i want to be the center of it#all. but im not and it fucking kills me. i want it so bad. and honestly? i did. for a fraction. because of Flor and my other past ideas#and Flor was a bit of a self insert. she was a sona. in a way. and now Yume will be one too. but-#fucking. don't fucking talk to me. i need to work on his draft
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Mika! so glad i caught you! here! this is for you! someone special dropped it off at the insectarium! 🐝🦌 now i must hop along! the woods aren’t going to frolic through themself!
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Dear Mika,
Hey! There’s the one I love so much! Been a while since I sent a letter, huh? Don’t worry, I’ll never forget about you. I just wanted to update you and let you know that i’m always here for you. I know I seem to really get on your nerves all the time, but I really do love you and all this annoyance is just how I show that! Or maybe i’m just so handsome and charming that you pretend to be annoyed to not show it… who knows! You’re a mystery to me and I love you for it. I’m not sure next time I’ll be seeing you but you’ve never left my mind.
I’m sorry this letter is a little shorter, on a bit of a time crunch! But I needed to slip it to you to make sure you know i’m always with you.
- With Love,
🐳 Childe, Your favorite Fatui Harbinger
omg hi melly sorry for the late reply i was busy planting bombs in the woods you frolic in. also can you ban this piece of shit from the insectarium? thank you. no one read the tags its private and personal
#SOMEONE FUCKING KILL MEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! UEEEEEEEE#HANDSOME AND CHARMING MY ASS. I'LL KILL YOU TEN THOUSAND TIMESSJSFHJSFJ#AHHH.... SICK this is genuinely so disgusting everyone is working against MEMGMEJCSN AHHH HGHRHRHRHRRGR#im hugging my childe pillow as i type my silly little words of hatred#umm whatever i truly dont care#you DO get on my nerves all the time. i should. i should kiss you to show you just how frustrated i am right now#﹒﹒love letters#⠀monoceros caeli ✦ 21.11⠀
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back on my bullshit, lost in the pale dirkkat sauce
#will NOT be taking questions right now#as in ''novie why'' that is unacceptable#you know why#most of my thoughts are unfortunately related to the epilogue in this regard#or probably pre-epilogues but like#anyway just really into this idea I've built in my head where karkat is increasingly pissed off by how pitiable Dirk is#he is disgusted he is like what the FUCK is with this guy if anyone even saw him he'd attract every troll in a 5 mile radius#anyway idk im just#thinking about it and getting emotional
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not that this means anything to anyone but v4 (yellow) I'm rly proud of finally fucking getting at the gym today its taken me 3 visits over the last 3 weeks to nail it. woof......
#the start is NASTY i do it with one foot crammed in the top corner of the right semicircular one and wedge my hands as firmly as i can-#backwards against the top of the other dual tex on the left n push until i can reach the middle n bring my left foot up..#lemme tell u now. those starting holds are higher off the ground than u think 😵💫 theyre above hip height for me#dual tex is slippery hard plastic rather than the usual sandpapery texture of indoor holds btw. see the light reflecting off it? yeah.#fucking death trap for sweaty or chalky hands but in order to use the top of the volume later u 100% need chalk#so i have to start without it n chalk up halfway#also im relatively short (for a climber.. not short generally lol) so i cant reach the volume w both feet secure. was giving me hell 😭#cuz it means i have to put my whole weight on a CURVED DUALTEX SURFACE!!!!! theres not even rly any good spots to smear#so scary. and yeah the finish is a pain without crazy reach too i had to get a whole elbow on top of the black volume before i could#on my like 4th? try today i got one hand on the final hold and my friend watching said out loud wouldnt it be sooo annoying if u fell rn#and i slipped just as he fucking said that bc he put the idea in my head but luckily JUST caught myself w a smear. ASSHOLE (affectionate)#i need to get someone to film me doing it next week i wanna start recording stuff so i can see what i need to work on#n also remember things im proud of getting!!!!#this is my 3rd v4 at this one gym i think.. theyre a little softer abt grading tho i only have 1 v4 under my belt at the other one#some truly disgusting v3s today too. someone got a great pic of me grimacing on one bc i only got one hand to the top#ill fully send it next week my legs were just killing me by that point n theres some weird twists n pushes u have to do#but so close...argh!#anyway damn its wayyy past my bedtime and i have to be up for work in 6 hours 🙃 gonna shower and zonk out gooooodnight#.diaries
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Okay... So I am Genderqueer.
Sometimes, I am female
Oftentimes, I'm male
Most times, I'm N/A
Occasionally, I'm both or all of the above
I was feeling kinda female today right?
Well, when I'm female, I usually feel disgusting, and it's songs like this one that really hammer it home. I'm not comfortable being female because I always feel pressured to perform a certain way. I always feel ogled, and it just makes me feel gross, and I hate it.
There's a post I saw about menstruation and the stains and stigma that come along with it.
I love dresses and skirts and the color pink, but I don't feel girl enough or pretty enough or skinny enough to perform as Girl... I don't like being so far removed from my AGAB, I don't hate being female.
I hate how it feels to be female.
#but tbf#i hate how it feels to be Other#and I want to celebrate me and all of me.... and I can't#amd thats what I hate#luke bryan#is disgusting#and I mean it with all I have#im sick of it#gender#genderqueer#female#male#nonbinary#transgender#feelings#i really wanna get some transfems opinions on feeling female#i also want cisfems feelings#because its so complicated l#it shouldn't be like this#it shouldnt be this complicated#females shouldnt have to perform#i shouldnt have to scroll through comments from nasty incels telling people they need to lose weight when they themselves weigh more#we shouldnt have to be subjected to people manipulating photos of us in order for us to be more 'attractive'#fuck sakes#gods bless#transfems#seriously... yall are really carrying a heavy load#i know theres an opposite side to this coin involving all the bullshit men and transmen deal with but#not right now#im just reporting what I see
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im killing every adult around denji i am eviscerating them without mercy leave denji the fuck alone. LEAVE DENJI ALONE!!!!! WHAT DO YOU MEAN HES SIXTEEN IM GONNA KILL EVERYONE AROUND HIM
#LEAVE DENJI ALOOOOOOOOONE#IM KILLING MAKIMA IM KILLING THAT LADY WITH THE EYEPATCH WHO LITERALLY ASSAULTED HIM AFTER YAKKING UP ALL OVER IM KILLING THOSE TWO ROOKIES#IM KILLING THE GANGSTERS AT THE BEGINNING EVEN IF THEYRE ALREADY DEAD IM NECROMANCING THEM BACK TO LIFE JUST TO KILL THEM AGAIN#the only ones im not killing are aki and power altho they were on thin fuckin ice for a second but they have rights now they are allowed#im going on a murdering spree on these fictional adult characters i hate them all DENJI IS SIXTEEEEEEN#csm#chainsaw man#nO SPOILERS im like on episode 7#i have to take a break from it cus that last episode was so fucking disgusting in too many ways#teresa.txt
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it's just so incredibly depressing to have no clothing options because nobody makes clothing for your body. and then so so so so so incredibly fucking depressing when you try to sew clothes and nobody makes sewing patterns for your body either.
#this is genuinely the lowest i have been in the past 6 months. im just sooo fucking sick of hobbling around in clothes that i can barely#move in. i feel like such a disgusting fucked up freak. its not even weight/size related i just have such a fucked up body shape i guess.#like. im going to have to try again because i have already blown $$$ on fabric but. i literally cant even look at my sewing machine right#now or stand in front of a mirror without wanting to get hit by a car#and NO you cant just fucking alter one area of the pattern because its all connected and you need to redraft the entire fucking pattern#every single time and NO mockup fabric is NOT cheap you are still blowing 15-20 dollars for 3 yards for every single mockup i just want to#get hit by a car amen#suicide mention
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soo many of u guys on this website are like. offputtingly angry and vicious and slavering at at the mouth to gloat at bad things happening to some nebulous incarnation of 'rich evil people'.
#like i just don't understand it..... i didn't get it when it was the boat thing i don't get it w the burning man thing...#i get the satisfaction of gloating at 'bad people who get whats coming to them!!!!!' but hows gloating over some undefined#vague type of Bad Person (because no one ever knows shit about the person who gets it until the bad thing happens)#making u actively happier or ur life actively nicer or better... u could be doing something constructive with#those emotions! instead of going HAHAHAHSHSHS KILL THE DISGUSTING RICH on a dead website...#anyway idk. my first thought with the burning man thing was 'oh man i know that's thr shitty techbro thing now but i bet#there's still just a lot of normal people without massive RVs who just enjoy coming there yearly... i hope they're ok!'#not EVERYONE WHO GOES THERE IS ONTOLOGICALLY EVIL AND OBVIOUSLY A SILICONE VALLEY SYNCOPHANT.#idk. obviously this isn't important im not a fucking cop. u can do whatever u want im not saying whatever is#Right or Wrong. it just is more important 2 me specifically 2 try and have my kneejerk reaction be compassion even#if its something that i personally think sucks. which maybe makes me a centerist to some people? who give a shit.#anyway. i used 2 be like this and then i realized that it wasn't making me happier or#my life any better and also anything that inconveniences someone who's truly obscenely wealthy will just hurt more normal people around the#than the person themself. hdktjfd#txt
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All my favourite ships consist of the one who can cook and the one who can’t.
#yes I’m talking about Bonrin/Rinshi Zosan and Kiribaku#like who wants to be the cook to my can’t even fry an egg right?? /j#now I’m thinking about this tweet I saw about ur favs being in the same room together…#like imagine#fucking Sanji Rin and Bakugou would definitely have a massive cooking competition#and then it’d just be Ryuuji Shiemi Zoro and Kirishima chilling 😭#Bon Kiri and Shiemi like chatting about their homework or something and Zoro just sat there like#wtf is homework???????#Rin cooking shit with his flames and then Bkg using his quirk OMG#SANJI JUST LOOKING AT THEM WITH DISGUST#the guy puts up with Luffy (luv him <3) most days he’s TIRED#im having way to much fun with this help#Cas says shit#gonna tag my rambles with that from now on
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daily shuffle ting 📸
#im having a mid crisis when im not even middle aged n i dont wanna go back to school#good day and good night. i wanna sink into the floor#bc a football club i decided to support with my heart n soul has betrayed me n i dont even like to watch games anymore#also im reading a drarry fanfiction like im 13 again.#and my skin is awful. and and and im having a crisis n so many emotions that i dont even know where they stem from#i cant even smile properly anymore ive been facial training again bc ive slacked during covid n now —#i dont know how to my eyes have expresseds n i dont know how to smile or look like i care and i TOOK A HARDER HISTORY CLASS FOR NO REASONNN#I DONT EVEN LIKE HISTORYYYYYYYY#and i hate everything n ive been avoiding all my friends n texting ppl less n im just in a Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh#i feel worthless n disgusting n my first thought when i wake up is 'i gotta take my acnetame and maybe if i deserve it i can shave my legs'#i naired one of them— my right. she is smooth in ways she hasnt been in a while. my left? chewbacca#n my school changed my passwords for my canvas so now tmr at 1:30 !! I GOTTA WALK UP THERE N GET MY NEW PERSONAL INFORMATION#the clothes i bought i didnt rlly like. but i just wanted to leave the store n make my grandmother happy. now im going into the school year#with clothes i hate n they dont feel gpod and theyre Not the right texture theyre too tight. But not in ways i love theyre too Tight.#n i .s.msneenen all my shoes r blk !!!! theyre all blk !!!!#sjsndjddjd and my hair !!!! my hair!!!!@ sjdjdjdu#God i just wanna lay in my room take showers n rot#roll around and hit myself on my headboard so hard i go into coma n i miss my entire year#n then i fuck off to hershey for chocolate bars and chocolate bags#cant even scrapbook right itsall paint its all paint n aghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh im in agony bc im not even saying whats rlly wrong with me#im focusing on the little problems and not the one it stims from. Like a web but if the spider only hang off the edge n never the middle#n everyone keeps talking at me n when i respond they yell at me for everything n i get pushed to the side#bc they hate whatever i have to say for whatever reason n wtv ig i hate them back. always pushing me down fuck them fuck them get out.#n now my friend is texting me her stuff after never speaking to me unless she has a problem#Anyways. sorry sorry. im whining im complaining im really depressed rn n def not in the right headspace to post any of this#or talk to anyone who is reading this. this probably doesnt make sense i left holes in my sentences#so sorry super sorry#that is a photo of me as a baby btw. it is the only one. please love her and maybe tell her she has nice eyebrows. she'd love that#we always take rlly good care of our eyebrows. thats a rule. we just plucked them today#anyways. see you. ill post hp gifs later n forger i ever felt bad to beginning. all of the best.
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With the help of my boss I might not be totally fucked, but I'm still fucked.
#trying not to give in to the negative thoughts#but i feel like a failure of a human#i feel disgusting and i just want to give up#its really not that deep#its a relatively simple fix#but the last few months have just been horrible and im tired of it#im tired of trying so hard and ending up worse then i started#if i didnt have two cats that depend on me and a partner right now id probably just give up to be honest#im so fucking exhausted#im just so done
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