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dykealloy · 4 months

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ripple effect legacy // my tears are becoming a sea, M83

#weaving parallels but god at what cost #something something luffy inheriting the will of a burnt out sun #something something the things we leave behind (broken promises. pain. little brothers. cool fire punch moves)#see the significance of ace is that he spends his whole life asking 'should i even have been born' and then through the positive #impact he has on everyone around him he creates a continuing cycle of change where people reach out a hand to help others #he said 'im not sure i deserve to live' and then became the most remembered and loved and sorely missed dude in one piece #like it's almost comedic how luffy keeps finding his big brother in the stories and best qualities of all the people he comes across vs.#people who knew ace and keep seeing pieces of him in luffy #anyway happy new year portgas d. ace trauma be upon ye~#one piece #op #portugas d ace #portgas d ace #asl brothers #yamato #wano spoilers #one piece spoilers #CJ's edits #amv #monkey d luffy #straw hat luffy #monkey d. luffy #portgas d. ace #CJ's op watch-through

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arsenicflame · 7 months

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i think the reason izzy can be so blasé about his relationship with ed is not because hes taken to blaming a shark instead, but because hes actually already done a lot of the processing in the previous episode.

hes mourned his leg, hes had his drunk crying rants. hes gone through the five stages of grief. and then? the crew reaches out to him, offers him their support. they make him a new leg, they nominate him their new figurehead. when he stands there on the prow of the ship, leg on, letter in hand, thats his acceptance, thats his moving on.

#sure maybe then deciding to erase ed from the situation isnt healthy- but it is conducive to his continued healing #it helps him not carry the weight #maybe he needs that to be able to live on a boat with ed #its obvious to me that he has blamed ed for this- he voted him off the boat.#but now? now he needs to move on.#the crew has him. they proved that they have him.#he looks so fucking happy stood there as their new figurehead and maybe thats all that matters #that he finds a new way to be happy #nyxtalks #ofmd #our flag means death #ofmd s2 spoilers #izzy hands #israel hands #is this obvious to everyone else and im just slow on the uptake orrrrr #idk i felt like. yeah hes actually already done a lot of what lucius is doing now. hes processed! hes over it #or. not over it but found a way to fit it into his reality. to be able to keep going about his day #idk!!!!!#slight clarification- i definitely think. he should keeo working on it! he needs to like. actually speak to ed; for a start #but i just don't think hes completely ignoring the whole situation i think he has properly processed the trauma he just is avoiding #specifically the 'ed' part of it

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skunkes · 21 days

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i may be stupid

#(but im not sure)#a doodley #i am not going to lie to you guys i am insanely scared of anti depressants. and adjacent medication.#first of all like ive said i dont think i need them #im doing way better than last yr(s) despite being in the same circumstances. i did in fact will my brain to get it together.#i told my doctor i think my issues are a result of my environment and that is what i think it is.#i dont think meds cld help change my innate personality flaws #second of all sorry but my ****** is all i have i cant risk losing it to the side effects #idk! like. idk. you guys really dont get it it really is just laziness for me #since i was a kid i just didnt have Goals and its continued to my detriment #i was also raised to doubt all my decisions so here we are #im sure my friends think im lazy bc what ive described to them IS laziness #im like the only person i know without hashtag goals and life motivation...and all my friends have mental health stuff too #so its not that...! its personality. its laziness #its literally like the ''my son is 35 and refuses to get a job and does nothing all day'' reddit posts #with ''he's not depressed he's lazy you should just kick him out and refuse to keep providing for him'' comments and all

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voltrons · 2 months

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[guy who is only reading utrh for the dick grayson chronology voice]

was anyone going to tell me that the lead in to the climax of this arc is bruce and jason watching bludhaven get bombed under the assumption that dick is still there. that it's happened again. that bruce will never make it there in time. that everything is falling apart with OMAC and that all of bruce's "precautions" have led to nothing but failure and destruction and it's happened again.

phew!

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lollytea · 2 months

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I get to write Willow and Amitys weird awkward friendship in this fic I'm so excited!!!

#its hard being both a willow lover and an amity liker #i LOVE to talk about how amity deeply affected willow's life for the worse #but i also love to talk about how amity has to live with that truth for the rest of her life #i love how amity continues to try because she loves willow #tries too hard even #i love how amity STILL continues to fuck it all up because shes so painfully awkward and guilty #and shes so busy trying to preserve a friendship that died years ago that she doesnt realize that she should be aiming to build a new one #because this is NOT the same girl that she knew #i love that amity still means so much to willow that she cant bring herself to get confrontational over the obvious infantilization #i love that willow is trying so hard too because she wants this to work out so badly #and she cant even admit to herself that this idealized friendship shes wanted back for YEARS is not everything she hoped it would be #i love both girls so much #it used to be a real struggle to talk about this because somebody with a hate bias towards amity always wants to chime in #and like okay fine sure you can hate whatever character you want im not gonna shame you for it #i just dont WANT to discuss one of my my favourite dynamics with people who hate one of the characters yknow?#theyre two teenage girls who love each other and theyre struggling to love each other properly but they want to #I LOVE THEM!!!

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enden-k · 10 months

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drawing some interdarshan championship stuff for funsies (not that i miss the event or anything abckjsab) and i cant stop thinking about the way haitham asked kaveh to thank him one more time to make it three bc you could just hear the smile in his voice. stupid mf

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this particular line grrrrrrgrggr

#its so very cute i hate it #i just know it riled kaveh up to no end smirking at him while saying please as if he mocks him #one of the many things i keep thinking about whenever i think about that event HAHHAHJSHJCK #ahhhh speaking of event maybe i should..........continue the current one.......ajkscbkjcas #def not going to sleep until im sure i pass out fr i had 2 nightmares today thats enough for one youn #babbles #own

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fuckyeah-bears · 7 months

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you know 99% of the time i get nice, totally reasonable, polite, and frequently kind asks on bearotonin. but every now and then i get some asks that just make me wanna reply snarkily so badly lmao

#the weird shit people send me #like unsolicited 'helpful suggestions' about how to run my blog better #or 'concerns' about the way i run it or some of the photos i post #and it takes a significant amount of self control not to be snarky #because i am not allowed to break brand continuity #but like #people really gotta learn that it's not cute or helpful to come into a stranger's inbox and critique/suggest they run their blog differentl #and i get that most of these (admittedly not that many but still frequent enough) asks are probably not meant to be obnoxious #like i'm sure the person who sent them doesn't have bad intentions #and probably just doesn't realize what they're doing is irritating and a basic etiquette no no #but it's still annoying #sometimes people just gotta learn to keep their opinions to themselves #not every opinion should be shared #just being clear 99.9% of the many asks i get are totally fine and nice #but because i get a fuckload of asks the 0.1% of annoying asks i get is substantial enough to get annoying and tiresome #don't mind me im just vague post venting here as a stress relief so i don't reply snarkily on bearotonin #okay im done ranting now #please ignore me lmao #Posts about bearotonin

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kinos-fortress-2 · 5 months

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ok before i continue to do the other 11 stickers... still not sure what you guys think about this...

the theme for the stickers was just like how i explained in my other post, just ugly beheaded heads of the tf2 characters... im just planning to do 14 stickers because hell nah that idead of making all tf2 characters was crazy from my part (still 14 is more insane ha)

and well... uhuh.

oh yeah

DONT REBLOG THANKS.

#when i mean dont reblog is bc hell dont even know if i want to change this designs later #but im gonna leave it open JUST FOR ME TO REBLOG IT if i ever make any announcement about this #this couldve been an idea for halloween tho...#you know this was inspired by those halloween ugly stickers i have found somewhere and well... i like to do this type of style #so idk if i should continue this style buak #also im not sure if i should color this or not... if i should then thats gonna be more difficult buak #i am doing too much to myself i cant finish everything i have... is too much ideas im gonna explode #i just want to draw everything my brain thinks so instead of killing myself drawing i have to write the ideas in my note pad so i dont forg #i feel like a hermit drawing too much sighs... i should take a break is too much ideas #but if i do i will end in an artblock and im afraid of that #sorry ranting over here ha #just lemme know if you do like it or nah still

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mea-trinitas-profana · 7 months

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something im just Thinking About at 10pm. since its confirmed that the clinic is in fact a midwife clinic and Not an abortion clinic, i wonder why the baby doll amy receives makes her feel such guilt. Is she perhaps a little more aware of what Gary is using those babies for than most people assume

#i assume the funny looks her mother receives are because of the clinic's reputation of harmful practices #and of course that is also what the polie wre investigating #but let's dig into it. just this once #she could be feeling guilty over her work because of the rumoured malpractice. sure #but why towards Baby Dolls specifically?#im saying amy should willingly sacrifice a few babies before being possessed as a treat #maybe she doesn't know they're being Sacrificed to the fucking devil sure. but imagine she knows gary is making them disappear in some way.#and she Continues Doing It #the complexity. the trauma. the regret.#Indulge in my evil thoughts boy

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deus-ex-mona · 11 days

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yurusanta: the ✨gift✨ that keeps on ✨giving✨

#thank you cn lxl twt for your hard work #cn lxl twt: the only place with consistent high quality aiyuu fanart and the funniest of observations known to mankind #my birdsite dash is p much just ‘omg aiyuu necklaces’，[king yaoi (all 3 of them) lore]，[random fandom discourse]，’omg aiyuu necklace’ rn #that qrt i saw of the initial observation post with just the yurusanta lyrics made me laugh ngl #can’t believe we’re still getting samishigariya references in 2k24 though #maybe we’ll get to see them flirt in last stage??? i swear i’ll write an entire novel-length aiyuu fic if they become canon in last stage mv #yeah yeah tempting fate ikik they won’t become canon so easily anyway lmao <-has no faith in loserxloser #lxl is truly the only couple who could get married twice (nonfan and meoto) and still not be canon. smh.#at this point im just waiting for last stage mv so that i will finally have the motivation to update my kissmark tier list lmfao #i haven’t looked at it since the julieta album covers… hmmmmmm. maybe next week or the week after then #oh welllllll. time to go back to scrolling through king yaoi twts ig #i should really continue to read the o r v novel. why is yjh the og king yaoi when his ‘companion’ is the one who keyboard warriored for him #but mannnnnn. i also really wanna watch the final ll live dvd that came in a few days back…#so many things to do; so little time~~~~~~~~#well. that sure went off-topic real quick. u m.

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bhaalsdeepbat · 4 months

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I saw some discussions about how evil Gortash was when Karlach worked for him, and how she should have been aware, but there are a few things going on that make me believe she never got the whole picture. I think she only saw what Gortash wanted her to see.

She's a victim of powerful people who see other people as tools and pawns for their own ambitions. She's a soldier who was tempted by the promise of a good life doing a job that she believed in (at the time), only to find out the horrors happening under her nose. And I don't think she was ever aware of them!

Karlach makes it clear she wouldn't have worked for Gortash if she knew half of what he was actually doing. She didn't even get the whole picture until she returns to Baldur's Gate with the squad.

And again. She was a child when she started working for Gortash. He must have known what to say to her, specifically, because she believed in him SO much before he ripped everything away from her and betrayed her. I don't think she'd have trusted/respected him if she had even the faintest idea of what was going on.

And that's kinda the story with a lot of soldiers, y'know? They sign up to get themselves out of poverty, they grow up a bit, and they either double down in their beliefs or they realize the life of a soldier isn't what they thought it would be. I think she represents this kind of person really well, tbh.

Then, she spends her entire time back on the Sword Coast protecting people and doing the things that she wanted to be doing with her life, before getting caught up in the service of people out for their own power and conquest.

She is the goodest girl, but even the best people can be caught up supporting the worst people, especially when subterfuge and forced servitude are involved.

#bat plays bg3 #gortash is so charismatic too he would know just what to say #zariel shes literally leashed to but gortash?#he had to know he would need to control what info karlach was privy to so he could maintain his grasp on her #karlach respected him so much i dont think she could feel the memory of that respect #if she knew literally anything #but ye i keep thinking abt this #she's the best girl who keeps continuing to do good despite the cards she's dealt #and she was misguided as a youth but like #children shouldnt have to make choices like “should I become a child soldier so i can keep food in our bellies and a roof over our head?”#bc that was the choice Karlach had to make #and im sure there were worse avenues she could have gone it was baldur's gate for durge's sake #but she would have went with the one that seemed like the lesser evil if not a net good #and i think the latter is what she saw in Gortash's ambitions #not realizing the trap she's getting caught in #karlach #bg3

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terrorbirb · 1 month

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I'm bored at work so I'm seeing if I should report my old company for violating labor standards.

#totes bro #im so close but it is so obvious it would be me because i used to complain about this all the time #they dont inform their immigrant workers of their rights and so they dont like understand how their timecard works #and thr company advises them to take the least expensive insurance policy because they 'are healthy and don't need it'#but i know one couple wants fertility treatments but couldnt afford it because of that #they dont have the required posters #they also knowingly continue osha violations which i held a meeting over and was told this doesnt apply to us #which uhm it says it does on the Web site so i disagree #all of this is like why i left and what caused me to leave #and literally lying to me and another guy that we would get promotions for the work we did #and then they hired someone else to do the job making our promotions unnecessary and they were like hmmmm sorry #idk they like got a ton worse and i think the president got more reactionary which caused this #not sure how many of these count but thats not for me to decide anyway #oh and cleanliness standards but i actually fixed a lot of those..... fulfilling the role that promotion role that was promised #my coworkers here are like 'absolutely report the hell out of that place' because we do code violations lol #every time i say something they go 'that could be a violation :)'#they paid someone on a salary basis when they were under the salary pay and therefore should have gotten overtime

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anotherpapercut · 8 months

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help me decide how to decorate my bass and case

the bass and case in question:

the stickers:

im also thinking that if I don't put the bat on the actual bass it might look really good like in the upper middle of the coffin and then I could sticker (or not) the other side. so if u think the bat is better for the coffin vote for smth else for the guitar and lmk in the replies or smth!

also I really like the idea of stickering up the case but it looks nice all black like it is so I was thinking of maybe just doing 1 side. what do yall think?

#im going to put tiny bats on the frets at some point as well so idk if bat continuity would be cool #or if since im gonna have bats already i should do smth else #any of these can also just go on the back and/or the case too so ill get them all eventually #just need to decide which one im putting on the front #there are some other small stickers im gonna put on there also like 1312 and fag lmao #btw it is entirely possible more than one of these will fit but some dont have sizes listed and theres not much continuous space #so i cant be sure. so just in case im picking a main one and the others like ill see what i can do lol

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wilsonthemoose · 5 months

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Someone stop me sending a passive-aggressive thank you for considering it message to the lecturer who said she wouldn't let me take a quiz at a later date despite my being like. actually pretty sick.

#Sighhhhh #Id skip it but the developmental psych lecturer hates me and is determined to sink my gpa #So i might as well do well in this course #When asked about low marks on the midterm. (which went really well actually. I knew all the answers /and/justified them.) she said content #Was good but the writing was really bad #Huh? T.T #Like it's totally legible. Not cutesy yes. But legible...#ANYWAY. im gonna loudly drag a chair off to the side tomorrow. 'sorry. Just making sure i dont get anyone else sick. Continue please :)'#Also sneezing every few minutes today so that should be fun in class tomorrow :)#:)#(ok im kidding but also am i really dragging myself out of bed tomorrow? T.T everything hurts and my throat itches and my body has yet to #Decide if it wants a fever or not because im alternating between feverish and then the hated fever-breaking state #:(#I attend every class. I stay awake. I answer questions. I do well in exams/quizes/assignments. Ive earnt a sick day :(

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summoner-of-mist · 1 month

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man im having a wanting to die kinda night again :(((((((((

im trying so fucking hard to make friends but i guess i just cant and just gotta die instead

#like if people dont wanna be my fucking friend just say it instead of letting me continue to humiliate myself !!!!!!!!!!!!!#its not like i can just magically KNOW which people do and dont want to be near me unless its super duper obvious #and i hate the fucking games of people acting like they really like me and then #NOTHING #just absolute jack shit #its this constant back and forth of making me feel good and happy and like maybe they like me #and then distance and Nothing #it sucks man #i just feel like im broken but i keep on trying EVERYTHING to fix it but idk what it is #because pretty much all my relationships or attempted ones go sour and like #if it was only a few thats one thing #but its all of them so its clearly my own fault #i just cant fix it if i dont know what im doing wrong #i guess i could just be with people that hurt me and drain me since at least they tend to stick around and are interested in me #pretty sure the universe is telling me that i dont and never will deserve any better #that i should just be happy being with people that make me feel like shit or hurt me #or just be completely alone instead

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elisedonut · 8 months

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i think my least favorite i dont want to say like trope

but like concept? i guess?

Are fics where Percy gets like punished after the war typically by the ministry itself but sometimes by other non family characters

#percy weasley #i think im just too attached to the Percy was doing things hc #so it always just feels fucked up to me #like hey he's a hero doing his best how dare you continue to make his life hell 😠#like would HE feel like he should be yes for sure #do i think he should be in a help to “redeem” himself (when he doesn't need to be) no

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