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todayisafridaynight · 1 year

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barely four hours into the new month and im already silly

#rgg #ryu ga gotoku #ryu ga gotoku 7 #yakuza series #yakuza 7 #yakuza like a dragon #arasawa #masumi arakawa #jo sawashiro #snap sketches #BYE LMAO #i just wanted to draw arakawa tbh but then somehow sawashiro ended up here too #a reward for me for shotgunning all of my comm sketches tonight :)))))#im lying of course. there was SOME intent. but i really didnt expect to make this a 'whole' thing #at the very least i just expected to post the sketch and call it a night but I Am Not Tired And I Fear Time Loss So Might As Well #anyway todays inspo for this is uhhhhhhhhhhh heavage LMAO #my guy being SO respectful not to peak... couldnt be me Who Said That #sorry i draw young arasawa so much. it just tickles me cause i get to Reasonably make jo a doofus #yk. before he fully invests himself in The Horrors and becomes a cunt. still love him tho <3 maybe even more cause of it LMAOO #ok i should sleep. but im not going to cause im gonna go work out HAHA BYYYYYEEE #posting this now so i stop looking at it and feeling like i need to add more to it BITCH ITS JUST A SCRIBBLE MOVE ON AND EXERCISE

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klanced · 2 years

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i understand why it didnt happen. but i do legitimately think that the voltron fandom would have been better if shiro/coran was more popular. i was a #shirantruther from the start but imagine if some dude and his dilf bf was a cornerstone of the fandom

YOU ARE SO REAL FOR THIS‼️🗣️🔥💯💯

im not even joking like. can you imagine the neutralizing impact shiran would have had on the fandom dynamic. like imagine if it was as uncontested as a well-established fanfavorite het ship. like sure people would still ship them with other characters but there would have been like a mutually understood starting point. we could have had peace

also the dynamic of shiro being allura’s step-dad/step-uncle would have been so Peak

#this is why I am an alforan truther tbh we need old man yaoi to settle our differences #I NEED to go to bed #ask #anonymous #anon you are so big brained #I think it’s because like. there’s a cultural aversion to being old. right? we’re afraid of getting older and we think you #become less desirable past a certain age #but shiran subverts this by having an age gap while still depicting a healthy and loving relationship #ugh im too tired to word this right. but there’s like. tenderness here do you understand me. WITHOUT acting like shiran is in a nursing home

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sunn-mechanic · 2 months

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Ngl the longer i stay on break the more i don't feel like I wanna come back. I would miss you guys but also i'm realizing how tiring it was being on here almost all the time and constantly thinking about it, and I get really tired when i think about ending my break. tbh im thinking i might not ever officially "come back from break". im prolly just gonna keep it this way, only coming on every now and then.

This might just be me realizing i needed the break more than i thought i did and i just need to stay off longer before i feel like coming back, but honestly im most likely going to keep the "im on break" spirit even if i end up being super active again later.

#just thinking out loud ig #like its fun here #i like talking to my moots and other ppl #but im also tired #i think its mostly just my own brain that did this tbh #cuz i tend to create invisible rules and pressures on myself without really realizing it #(especially with things I enjoy a lot and end up doing. A Lot.)#until i remove them and im like #“oh i wasn't really having fun with that anymore"#its happened with so many things #it happened with some foods I used to love eating all the time #it happened with tiktok #it happened with monkie kid #it happened with several art and writing pieces I was doing until I dropped them #just.#yeah #imma scoot outta here again now and keep being on break i was just having thoughts #sunn chats

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betasuppe · 5 months

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🎶Feels like a failure & never added anything to fandoms anyways~

#i am so so so so so so so tired of myself #you have no idea how much i want to draw but anything i do is utter shite so im losing the energy to keep trying♡#i feel like a fucking failure & let down #but tbh never added anything valuable to conversations at all #im so ready to delete my blog & vanish into the ether #im so sorry about this all #i dont know why ive tried to do something here #what a fucking wasteeeee lmaooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo #whyp do i even try #why do i even try #whyyyy do i even tryyyyy #about to step out & not post here ever again #sorry for just being annoying in the first place♡

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bunnihearted · 6 months

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#soo blah blah need to vent again abt my health issue situation 💀#yuh so like im so sick nd tired of whats going on. nd not being able to just eat whatever i feel like whenever #it's emotionall draining tbh. im always thinking abt what i could maybe try nd im always like ohh gotta make sure the portion is small etc #it's annoying me sm bc i can def feel the effects of me not getting the right nd enough nutrients nd vitamins etc etc #i get dizzy nd my vision is hazy sometimes. nd im like forgetful bc the other the when i walked home i kept getting lost nd had to walk back #nd forth several times nd i was like ?!?!? what?! i've lived here for 25yrs nd now i just cannot for the life of me rmbr the way #also i am so weak in my body. like carrying even a small amound or books nd groceries nd walking for 30min makes me exhausted #my legs are actually shaking when i get back home nd every step feels like im walking in cement #plus i just wanna be able to go to the gym nd build muscle. but if i dont get enough protein in me i cant build muscles T-T #what else... yeah also i do miss food bc of comfort. like my coffee + chcolate everyday makes me genuinely happy lmao #but i just want the food situation to be normal bc even w veggies im like oh no that is too gas building that is too hard to digest etc etc #it's mentally gruelling to not know how tf to get all the important nutrients!! i def have several deficiences lmao :((#im so over it. but theres nothing i can do. i wish i could just not think abt it 24/7 tho #also. im the thinnest i've ever been BUT. i am constantly bloated so i look fkn pregnant. so i cant even enjoy looking the skinnier

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waywardsalt · 2 months

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deciding (and realizing based on the way i write and think abt it) that no matter what bellum is not making it out of swabbie rank. he’s put at the lowest rank of whatever hierarchy linebeck decides to adhere to no matter what, no matter the au. bellum can be practically a stowaway or romantically involved with the captain but he is swabbie while link made it to first mate in a handful of months and while being like twelve. bellum gets the mop. to humble him.

#only fair that the minor demonic god is swabbie. cant give him too much. tags are a mess on this one btw #anyways secret criteria for being first mate is autism. you gotta be autistic to have actual authority on that ship #…..link would have some flavor of authority in post ph then. i need to thinm on that #salty talks #fuck uhhhh #post-ph #bellum #forgot what i was talkjg abt with this tbh. like what the context was #i know i was thinking abt how linebeck always refers to human bellum as a swabbie or some other low rank in the shipfic #GOD im sl fucking bad a mobilee typing normally i fix typos n shit and im sojng some ln the fly but twice now ive typo’d and instead #writtien ‘fuck’ instead if some other word. also im tired ig but god i hate typing on mobile so fuckint much #<- longest ive gone without bothering much to fix typos. hate it here (on my phone) anyways. i cant remembee the wider context to this #idk what rank damien would technically be. he helps with repairs and technically everyone does swabbie stuff #tbh with how linebecks ship is being swabbie probably isnt too bad aith how ive figured hes extremely loose with it n does everything #i thinm i wanted to say smth ph related and came up with this #the mobile typos frustrate me so bad rn its exacerbated by. something. but i kinda fucking hate it its not really funny or anything #also the mess of accidentally hitting the nimbers button and switching the keyboard. god. lol #anyways. squid on swabbie duty for forever sucks to suck man shouldnt have killed all those people. whatever

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mymp3 · 1 year

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trailer talk

#compendiumnotebook #i probably articulated a lot of my trailer thoughts better to my mutuals and friends i was dming the other day #but the tldr of it is that im kind of disappointed they only seem to be adapting mostly movie and portable stuff #not that i hate hate portable or hate hate the movies #but saying that this is going to be a faithful remake of base 3 and having only portable events and options available + adding movie stuff #feels like a big slap in the face to fes and manga enjoyers. and dont get me started on the hammy lovers.#and also is just straight up incorrect. wish they would say what they're adapting rather than saying its a faithful remake #damn im so sorry yall. especially because if they wanted to do a portable adaptation she should be here.#even if im not her number 1 fan i get how dirty it feels #but tbh i am leaning more towards femc as dlc rather than the answer as dlc now #bc atp it just seems like they take fes for granted and brush it off #bc its not as popular #just feels kind of mean a bit #“manga and fes are there. but portable and movies seem to be popular so we can do more of that!”#minato being able to work a job is something i dont like. he's constantly overworked in every other department of his life.#now hes gotta work too?#it seems like this hero is less chronically ill tired angry and like theyre trying to give him more energy and “wipe away his wrongs”.#iddkkkkkk #im sure I'll warm up to it in game #and find a way to work this into my reading #but for now those are my thoughts #oh! i like his mp3 player saying hi to him. thats precious.

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devotedlystrangewizard · 9 months

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totk really is one of those games that make me go "ok thanks for the characters, setting, and general plot, but ill take it from here <3" because the entire historical timeline had so much potential for interesting and nuanced story telling but they just went with the old zelda story formula and YES thats how theyve always done it but botw was such a reset in terms of gameplay that they couldve overhauled how they handle story in totk. but they didnt

#ramblings #all the races swearing fealty to rauru made me so uncomfortable #like yeahhh ganondorf evil or whatever but also. hey. why is the one leader fighting for the independence of his people. the evil villain #am i just not getting something here am i insane #my first thought when i heard about ganondorf returning was 'wow they could turn him into an actual character' AND THEN THEY DIDNT #its been half a year i feel like the honeymoon period is over. totk was kinda mid. im sorry #it was alright but it just. didnt grab me. at all #botw was interesting because it was new but totk made me yearn for the older zelda formula #though tbh. im always yearning for the older zelda formula. i grew up on oot & twilight princess #you hype up ganondorf so much you make him look like THAT (no im still not over this) and then you just. do what weve always done #this happened in twilight princess. it happened in oot. it happened in ww. hell if you count demise it happened in skyward sword #IT HAPPENE.D IN THE FUCKING HYRULD WARRIORS SPINOFF #'oooh noooo the great evil has returned' WEVE BEEN HERE EVERY TIME. DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH POTENTIAL #heres the gerudo having a man born and making him king as is their custom but they spend years in fear that he will be monstrous #here they are after all these iterations of ganondorf afraid to even have kids out of fear that SOMEONE will bring the new great evil #heres a child recently given the throne despite being barely more than a baby always treated with fear by everyone around him #ARE YOU SEEING MY VISION????#the curse is right there. do something with it. oh my god #i KNOW zelda games are just simple heros journeys but pleaseeee i need food #you dont have to make ganondorf nice just. do something with him im so tired of the evil guy caricature #i like guys who are plain evil but i like them more when they have some fucked up motivation beyond taking over the world

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rainingincale · 8 months

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#i am only typing this because im tired and feeling more loosey goosey than i usually would i guess #but ive just been debating something for a while now #so basically i used to just openly talk about like. everything on this blog but then due to a multitude of reasons #i stopped posting about certain things 1. because irl people found my blog and probably still could if they Really tried #2. because i didnt want to post about certain things and have absolutely anyone know shit about me #like as much as it can feel like a cosy wee community. just me and my mutuals <3 etc. its like. actually the fucking internet djdbdjdhdhjdh #anyways whats prompting me to type all this is that i used to post kinda negative stuff on here i guess you could say. like just my feelings #and shit. but i stopped because i want this to be a positive blog and i do feel like you can manifest shit you know? if i constantly reblog #posts where im like “i feel worthless and i am a piece of shit” that isnt helping anything you know? i think what really hammered it home #for me is when i saw a mutual rb something from me like that and it made me so sad tbh. because like. no youre not. youre amazing and ily #you know? anyways. overall i think it has been a decision for the best and i enjoy that my blog has become a more positive space. but i #do sometimes just feel like im kind of going the opposite direction where i act a certain way when im really just. feeling crap.#like all the time. idk maybe tumblr isnt the place for it but it used to be my outlet you know? and i have other things like my diary and #art and even a sideblog lmao. but i guess i do just mourn my whole self not being on this blog. idk what im trying to say by all this #is it this deep? am i thinking about this way too much lmao. idk. idk.#le text post

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taegularities · 10 months

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hmm

#so tired tbh #of being treated like im worth nothing #not here but in life general #like im a burden or like my existence means nothing even though i try my best #and honestly maybe i deserve it atp or it wouldn't happen that often #but yeah #could need a hug or two #hope everyone's been okay at least

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zonecode · 1 month

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there's nothing like dusting off an old blog, seeing the muse list, and going "damn why the hell did i ever leave, i've got omega on this thing. i've got all i could ever need or want for."

#(OOC.) ''The kind of tired regular sleep can't fix.''#((man we've got omega and blaze here. and i still wanna see if i can cook with rouge tbh))#((i think i could do that woman justice. cool spy stuff sounds dope))#((so many things i've seen is just her being a hot lady. but im like. but..... but cool spy stuff.... dont forget that she's a spy......))

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thewickerking · 9 months

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JUST REMEMBERED THE TUMBLR NIGHTMARE I HAD WAS A NIGHTMARE AND SIMPLY. DID NOT HAPPEN. THANK FUCK. This was like. A week or more ago I judt kind of assumed it was real this whole time

#do u guys ever get tumblr stress dreams and/or nightmares. cause i do. i think this symbolizes social media being bad 4 me #but i will never quit tumblr sorry. i love her #i had a dream i made a discourse sideblog (😭) and misrepresented my thoughts on smn and my muts fucking hated me #this is unrealistic because i would never make a discourse sideblog. but i got so so scared. tbh this is connected to . well. disorders #but i havent posted abt certain ones of mine on here and i wont start now. yet. idk. well see where the wind takes me but its complicated #i feel like this is worded really poorly. which was the conflict in the dream. im really tired guys know that im very niceys and scared #.ares

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grandmasickomode · 2 months

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God dads outburst at me about the election really has left me shaken and fucked up

Spent the last few weeks feeling incredibly lost and tired. All it took was dad breaking my trust in him and losing his stupid ass to the right wing.

#Bro Im so mad about it but also too exhausted to fucking do anything as of this moment #But plans are being made to move in with the ol ex and just live there.#Its. Scary. Really really scary. But its okay.#Its his own fault for letting himself get so overly emotional and basically yelling about how he cares more for an ideal like that than lik #The daughter who wants him to be safe #Same goes for the reat of my family tbh #Theyre all just happily living their lives and Im jist sat here looking like a crazy person #Trying to have brunch while also tryibg to be normal #It sucks. I hate it. Im tired.#I feel so fucking disconnected from my family now and its a weird feeling #I feel like I dont actually belong anymore and its awful #But hey. Who cares right?#Eldest daughter + only child syndrome in an asian family is a HELL OFNA DRUG.

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tianshiisdead · 10 months

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Forget school actually please send hate to distract me from no money I'm so hungry o(-( dunno how much longer I can go with the 1 food item per day money saving scheme to attempt to afford rent

#diary #eating issues cw #not bc eating disorder for oncebut yk #mfw my periods stopped #idk if bc food or stress but wehhhhhhhhhhh hewp me #mfw ottawa unlivable rn #next sem student loans should save me for a while but they dont come till Jan...#like. ive been here before but im rlly sick this time (im usually sick but lol) and then exams on top of that and stress abt grandparents #im excited to see parents for xmas bc i feel like i cant continue on sometimes and i dont feel safe being alone in my flat #esp bc its so... like. dark aand small yk and i get claustrophobia but housing is so expensive rn so its the only place i could afford #idk idk its nothing new but im at the end of my line rn #ive been sleeping w the lights on despite cost bc paranoia and i think its fucking with me tbh tbh but again claustrophobia #like in general idk if i can go on like this 🗿🗿#i feel so sick and cold every day and also tired nd its hard to study when im scared to buy water bc card may decline and my fridge is empty

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ultimateinferno · 2 months

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Looking back I think one of the biggest things that got me through uni was that Canvas had calendars that showed when assignments were due and actually let me plan out what tf I was going to do without feeling overwhelmed.

Well... that and being a tutor/TA/lab assistant letting me work on homework during my shifts. Those two things really pushed uni from being agonizing to doable.

#honestly getting through uni in 4 years with 0 loans on unmedicated adhd is a fucking god damn miracle #i was even able to do extra curriculars senior year AND art #god i miss that #also i didnt have chronic anxiety then but i also didnt have chronic anxiety 2 months ago so its not unique #honestly looking back at 1:45 am is a gentle reminder that for all the hardwork and dedication i have #i'm also VISCERALLY lucky. physically abled. financially stable. debt free. decent–ish degree (even though the industry shat itself)#cishet white guy with a support network who even while unemployed for an entire year #was still able to survive comfortably in spite of hardship.#it does make me frustrated just how badly ive stagnated because of it.#but also fully aware that i can very very easily bounce back #hell. after a year with 1k+ of debt on my credit card that shit is evaporating since ive gotten a flexible job that pays by productivity #rather than by the hour while working from home.#like... this is can easily constitute as bragging and tbh it is.#this past month has been a fucking ringer that im just taking it all in.#i'm lucky. i'm okay.#anyways heres to hoping the psychiatrist can fucking put down this OCD bug in my brain then ill be golden.#im tired of my thoughts being interrupted by pointless bullshit that shouldnt bother me but 100% does.#and maybe adhd meds along the way.#god had to take my attention span to make it fair for all of you.#thats a joke but its also not.

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venomgaia · 6 months

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ngl i genuinely wholeheartedly think i paint best in paint tool sai 1.0 theres just smthn so distinct about the rendering thats unique in sai pieces vs stuff i do in csp or procreate. i can get CLOSE but its not the same

#i dont like 2.0 as much even though it has more features #and csp is really great bc im mobile and inconsistent so i alwaus need to switch up workflow and tools or i will die #but i will die on the hill that the brush engine of paint tool sai is my favorite and its rlly a shame theres nothing that feels right #hypotheticallt i trust gimp and krita to be able to replicate my sai brushes but i dont think the specific ones i paint with will ever work #because my main brush is SO specific to how sai handles stamping if that makes sense #ONE DAY THOUGH. I WILL MAKE A PERFECT VERSION THAT WORKS ACROSS PROGRAMS #(preferrably gimp krita and procreate. i have a VERY CLOSE one in csp tho)#and on that day ohohoho i will finally be unstoppable truly #and maybe im actually just being a dweeb and theres no visual difference/it doesnt matter as much as i think it does #but i wish. I WISH WITH ALL MY MIGHT. That one day itll be possible to use sai on a tablet.#tbh im rlly just tired of subscription model art programs csp and adobe can suck it from the back #[THE TAG THAT WAS FORMERLY HERE HAS BEEN REDACTED IN THE OG POST FOR COMEDIC EFFECT]#not art

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