#im trying out so many dumb things right now with these new cards

[jetpacksquirrel]

all the new plant cards are making me so happy. i havent had this much fun in yugioh for awhile. please keep giving me plant cards konami. also please unban healer and dryas,

[bubblesxo]

i dont know if you will see this but i am a big fan of your g!bruce meets the batfam!!!! I literally have tumblr just for this series (and now that I’ve tried it im beginning to love it ngl) . Annyywaayy ive just read the new chapter and it’s so good!?? Like i am really excited for the next chapter!!!

Oh and I haven’t watched gotham ( im planning too ) but i sometimes mix the twins????? Like your explanations are good dont get me wrong but yk when your reading and you need to check which ones which? Yeah … and like i want to fix that idk how .do i just like memorize the twins personalitys??

also in this au is theres 2 jokers??????? I saw you once mention Jerome(?) being revived or something

ps .im that great at English sorry .

oh wow wow wow thank you so so much!! i'm really glad that you're enjoying my story so much! it really means a lot to me. <33 i think your english is good! but if you need/want me to clarify anything i say here, just let me know and i'll try to rephrase it for you!

okay, so in the Gotham tv show (this has spoilers for all 5 seasons, so read on if you're okay with that) the way that they approached writing the joker was actually really up in the air in the beginning. this is because they didn't have the rights to use the name "joker," and so fox (the company that made the show) planned on making a bunch of smaller characters in the show as a kind of easter egg as people who could be the joker or who resemble him in some way.

this changed when cameron monaghan (the actor for both jerome and jeremiah) guest starred in s1e16 "the blind fortune teller." in it, the character of jerome is introduced as a 17/18 year old boy who travels with the circus with his mother, who is a snake dancer. he is meant to be one of the aforementioned joker-like characters in the show and wasn't actually supposed to be included again after that episode, if i am not mistaken.

however, the viewers LOVED his performance and jerome came back in season two as a member of the maniax, a group of arkham inmates who were broken out of the asylum. i won't go too into detail about the actual plot, but in seasons two, three, and four, jerome shows up in at least a few different episodes with very memorable storylines each time.

it isn't until season four of the show that jeremiah is even revealed at all! jeremiah and jerome are identical twin brothers, however, jeremiah has been in hiding for years under the fake name "xander wilde" in an attempt to escape jerome, who wants to get revenge on him for lying to their mother about what he (jerome) did when they were children. basically, jeremiah lied to their mother (lila, who jerome is revealed to have killed in 1x16) that jerome tried to kill him, causing jeremiah to be sent away and be adopted by rich people and get to go to a well-funded private school where he could live out his best life as a child prodigy (which was jeremiah's end goal to this), whereas jerome was left behind in the circus that they lived at (haly's circus, the same one that dick grayson later was raised in before being adopted by bruce). during this time, jerome was horrifically abused by his mother, his uncle, and his mother's many romantic partners. this eventually caused him to crack, which creates the character we see in the show.

here's an easy way to remember the difference in their personalities:

in the standard american deck of cards, there are two jokers: one that is black and white and one that is in color. in this analogy, jeremiah is the black and white joker and jerome is the one in color.

this is jerome:

he's got a *very* boisterous personality. he's outgoing and charismatic and, of course, severely messed up in the head. he *enjoys* the pain he causes people and does it with little to no reservations. he thinks things through less thoroughly than jeremiah but jerome always has a plan and is actually quite smart. i couldn't do him the disservice of calling him the dumb twin, despite some points about jeremiah that i'll get back to later.

anyway, jerome has a grand plan for all of gotham: he believes that, fundamentally, everyone in the world is like him and is also at least a bit crazy inside. he wants everyone to tap into their inner selves and let themselves run free / go crazy. he successfully ensnares huge hoards of gothamites with his persuasive way of speaking and interesting flare to his words. he amasses a large cult following, all of whom are very similar to him in the sense that they all demonstrate similar signs of instability.

here's some more gifs of him.

jerome kind of invented the iconic "HAHAHA" signature joker laugh in the gotham universe, even though he isn't the one who goes on to become "mr. j" (gotham's version of the joker) in the end (that's jeremiah, though i have a lot to say about that).

jerome's always smiling, a genuinely creepy smile that throws people off at first but can be really scary once you know what you're looking at. he single handedly turns gotham into a madhouse on multiple occasions and is the one who basically spread the "crazy" to the general population (for short: genpop).

he's a classic cult leader in the sense that he can mesmerize a whole room with his magnetic presence but also will ruthlessly cut down any of his followers if they so much as upset him (or even if they're just being annoying or could have a greater purpose, like when he stabbed a follower in the gut to take their blood to draw a frowney-face on bruce).

that reminds me, another important thing to know about jerome is that he has an iconic stapled-on face! this is because he died once (in season two, though he came back to life for season three onwards) and one of his followers tried to revive him using some insider medical knowledge from doctor hugo strange (who is just... a whole thing. ew.). he thinks that he failed at doing this and steals jerome's face so that he can wear it on television in an attempt to control jerome's followers (spoiler: this doesn't work).

however, it turns out that jerome *was* revived from this, and he's pretty upset that some dude stole his face! so he uses a staple gun to re-attach it after he gets it back (and kills the guy who did it). his face is later punched off by jim gordon but reattached more properly during his time at arkham afterward (the carnival scene happened in season 3 and jerome came back with a kind-of healed face in season 4).

here's some gifs with jerome's messed up face!

jerome is the colorful joker because he's very much expressive. he lets out every single emotion he feels---unless he's trying to deceive someone, at which point he is a phenomenal liar. (in season 1 when we are first introduced to him, he almost successfully gets away with the murder of his own mother.)

jerome is funny and laughs a lot and is *loud.* he's also absolutely insane and incredibly cruel, as well as impulsive, but he's able to curb his instincts if he feels like he can pull off a big plan.

jerome is a showman by nature. he's a product of the circus and it *shows.* everything he does is like an act, something that is acknowledged by many people in the show.

he's a funky lil dude. totally crazy, but kind of adorable at times.

he's also SEVERELY traumatized from his horrible past and has huge trust issues.

so, yeah. jerome is colors! remember that.

unfortunately, pookie died in season 4 and doesn't seem to have been revived this time </3

now, onto his twin brother jeremiah!

jeremiah is, at least at first, presented to be the complete opposite of jerome. he's calm, collected, and seemingly sane---at least at first. bruce trusts him at first and he even befriends him for a period of time before jeremiah betrays him.

jeremiah is a genius engineer, and, when looking into his past, we can assume that he was a child prodigy. he worked with thomas wayne before he died and designed the wayne plaza building under the aforementioned alias "xander wilde." he also locked himself in an underground maze for ~6 years (i believe?) and never went outside, instead sending his proxy (ecco) out to act in his place during business transactions.

as seen here, jeremiah seems to be the complete opposite of showboat jerome:

when we first meet jeremiah, we are told that he is totally sane, but we can later see that this is not the complete truth.

i'll use jeremiah's project as a metaphor for this. jeremiah was building a set of generators which could make energy harvesting and usage much less expensive and much more bio-friendly (if i remember correctly). bruce promised to fund his project and jeremiah accepts his offer quickly.

after jerome dies in season 4 after kidnapping bruce and jeremiah, he left behind a concoction of chemicals that seemingly make jeremiah go insane. this is a play on joker toxin / joker venom from the greater dc universe.

however, after jeremiah reveals his new self

he says that the spray did not actually change who he actually is, but just gave him an altered appearance. there are a lot of fan theories about this, but the general consensus is that the spray likely lowered his inhibitions, which gave him the kick needed to reveal his true self.

even his complexion resembles the joker he corresponds with: black and white. he is the black and white joker because he isn't as expressive, is way more calculated, and is more cruel and less happy. even his skin is paper white.

here's some gifs of what he looks like after those "slight cosmetic changes" :

that looks a lot more like the joker we know and love today, right? bleach-pale skin, red painted lips, green hair. he's instantly recognizable as the stereotypical joker now.

remember when i mentioned the generators? let's go back to them. the entire time that the generators have been around, they've also been perfectly functional as powerful bombs. their ability to be used as bombs does not undermine the fact that they can also be used as generators, and both of these things were true at the same time *for the entire time they have existed.*

it is in this way that jeremiah's paradoxical nature has always existed. jeremiah is crafty, cunning, and absolutely vicious. he has no care or concern for human life in general and will sacrifice most people in his life if it means that he will get what he wants in the end.

this is shown both before and after the joker toxin in how he lied about jerome when they were children (which caused jerome to be heavily abused) and in how jeremiah willingly killed one of his most devoted and beloved followers, who was being ransomed, just because someone put him on hold and it was personally easier for him to just kill him than sit on hold on the phone for a while. (he also has a vicious streak, though, because he immediately moved the demolition of the bombs up to immediately once he was out of the blast zone because those people inconvenienced him.)

something that's important to realize about jeremiah is that he has an issue with being called crazy. jerome does, too, but he eventually comes to accept the term, almost like he's reclaiming it, but jeremiah is *violently* against it. that's one of the things that set him off in the previously mentioned interaction.

both jeremiah and jerome are obsessed with bruce, though in different ways. jeremiah sees bruce first as his best friend and later as the "brother [he] could never have, that jerome could never be." jerome just sees bruce as a particularly entertaining and interesting kid who he enjoyed tormenting who he would eventually kill.

anyway, despite jeremiah being crazy (or, depending on who you ask, just less inhibited) he is still crazy smart and calculating. he thinks through everything before he does it and his master plans seem like they go on forever with 10000 parts to them and backups and contingencies galore.

the only time that jeremiah ever really seems to break out of this is when he's fighting with bruce. while he still does have a greater point to make or something he's trying to accomplish, he thinks through things less with him and shows his impulsive and rash side a bit more, which is interesting because jerome showed his thoughtful and contemplative side when faced with the obstacle that is bruce thomas wayne. i love parallels and contrasts, especially in these two characters! i just love writing about twins, they're always so interesting.

some important things about their relationship to one another:

even though jerome kidnapped jeremiah and seemingly strapped a bomb to his neck (after breaking into his house and telling him that he would kill him), jerome doesn't seem to actually want jeremiah to die. instead, as we later find out, he wants jeremiah to unleash his true self and carry on his legacy of chaos and cruelty in gotham for him after his death. this is why he left behind the laughing gas for him.

(the fact that jerome thought to do all of that shows that he really was a smart character and that he truly did understand the world around him well. he knew exactly what would happen in the event of his death, i.e. bruce offering to fund jeremiah's work and jeremiah accepting, as is shown when jerome has the joker venom in a present box which claims to be sent from wayne enterprises.)

jeremiah *hates* to be compared to jerome in any way, as he thinks of himself as "the face of true sanity." he actually has an entire notebook full of jerome's ideas, which he says he will outdo and perfect, thus defeating his brother in the end, which i don't know if i agree with, but whatever.

i think that it's because of the reputation that jerome got at the circus. jeremiah wanted people to think of him as better than jerome and as the perfect child, which he succeeded at. to him, jerome is synonymous with crazy, which i've already mentioned that he hates to be called.

okay, just one more part to talk about. the infamous, much anticipated Mr. J!!!

in the series finale, it is revealed that jeremiah, after falling into a vat of acid, is horribly disfigured and pretends to be in a vegetative state for the whole ten years that bruce is on his quest to improve himself before becoming batman. he does this as a way of waiting for bruce to come back to gotham so he can continue to be obsessed with him.

however, though this is jeremiah, it seems that he has actually gone through immense mental trauma sometime during this time (perhaps during his fall into a vat of chemicals), which has caused him to sort of lose his sense of self. he once says that there was "another me" [another him] once, which is, of course, referring to jerome. this implies that jeremiah sees jerome as an extension of himself, almost, and almost makes it seem as if mr. j is a whole different entity of his own.

hopefully this clears everything up a bit for you!! let me know if you have any questions or want to know anything specific about the characters and i will be glad to oblige!

thank you once again for being so kind as to leave this ask!! it really made my day. thank you for enjoying my fic, i hope it continues to live up to expectations. i have a lot of fun things planned (and i am very happy that you decided to look into these characters more, because they are actually extremely important to the plot as we get more into the actual story!). <33

[lunarsun12]

Handini Great Escape

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Han is enjoying his freedom, finally not having to see walls. What he didn’t think about it is that his Eomma had cancelled his card. Therefore Han to resort to him begging on the street for food, as he can’t go starving.

Meanwhile the parents are on lockdown on all for children. Which lead to some grumbles with the kids.

Surely letting Han outside the house…nothing to go wrong right?

A week since Han great escape…

SKZ Kids Chat

Felix☀️: Han? When are you coming home? Appa and Eomma is about to send a search party

Seungmin🐶: You better be back! They put all us in lockdown until you return!

Hyunjin🕺: My life is at it end! How can I ever live to see the sunlight

I.N🦊: I don’t see the problem here, you all should have followed me when I said follow

Seungmin🐶: I can’t believe, I am saying this staying at Binnie house is better than being trapped

Changbin🙄: SCREENSHOT! I will forever frame it in my room ❤️

Hyunjin🕺: Binnie using a heart emoji gross!

Han🐿️: Sorry guys! I can’t return! I have the opportunity to be free! I even bought ice cream!

Felix☀️: Hyungggg! Can you just negotiate with them…well at least Appa

I.N🦊: I still don’t understand why they won’t let Han Hyung outside

After IN has said that, he heard from the TV in Binnie living room. That Han was on the news for harassing people on the street to give him food and as well disturbing the neighbours.

Changbin🙄: Your question has been answered

Whilist the kid has been busy complaining about the lockdown. Chan and Lee Know where frantically trying to pinpoint Han location

Bangchan: Minho? Have you tracked him down?

Lee Know gave a side eye: Does it look like, I did. He is everywhere, it is impossible to track him down!

Lee Know: This is why, we shouldn’t let him wonder outside his room CAUSE someone was too soft on him and let him out!

Bangchan: He was about to bite me! I still had scars from the last time he did it!

Lee Know rolled his eyes: When I get my hands on him, I will make sure he stays here for good

Many many hours later, Chan and Lee Know found Han. He was near the han river fishing and he fell asleep next thing he woke up, he was back in his room.

Back at SKZ Family Chat

Han🐿️: Who sussed me out! I knew Appa and ESPECIALLY Eomma doesn’t go there! Who did it!!

Hyunjin🕺: OMG! He is back now oldies lift the stupid ban. So I can go blow you ban- I mean help the poor

Seungmin🐶: What! He is already back! I plotted my escape so I can go to Binnie’s. This is too much effort!

Changbin🙄: Awww you made effort to see me! I treat you and Innie to some chicken!

Seungmin🐶: I’m here to see Innie not you! Great I have to take the bus again after I collect Innie

I.N🦊: Can we leave after, Binnie treats us for chickens! He never shares his food!

Felix☀️: Maybe they found you on their own. We have brother code here!

Hyunjin🕺: We have brother code? I definitely didn’t agree to that

Seungmin🐶: It was all thanks to Han idea. To make hyunjin sign when he was asleep

Han🐿️: IM GONNA BREAK THIS DOOR OPEN!

Bangchan🐺: Hold on! Let’s calm down, you know well why you can’t go outside…

Han🐿️: I was making friends as someone cancelled my card!

Lee Know🐰: Hey! It was precautionary! I don’t want to be broke

Changbin🙄: You should worry about hyunjin…Han is the least of you worries!

Bangchan🐺: Minho? What did I say when it happens again! We don’t starve children!

I.N🦊: So Eomma lost his temper and basically put Han on the news for harassing people

Bangchan🐺: He was on the news!?

Felix☀️: Innie, we made promise not to tell Eomma and Appa that part

I.N🦊: They gotta know it sooner or later

Lee Know🐰: You idiots! Your dumb Appa just smashed my cat tree!

Lee Know🐰: This is coming out of your allowance

Seungmin🐶: I think staying at Binnie’s house longer seems like a good idea now…

[mrpenguinpants]

Childe: First Kiss HCs

I tend to make things gender neutral by not putting in pronouns and just using “you” but you can definitely read this as female^^ But I completely agree, I love this boy so much. He’s my favourite character to play (im so sorry razor) until Xiao comes out. I literally have a genshin team named “waiting for xiao” and it’s just Childe and Zhongli haha. 

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Today’s appreciation post goes to childes-starconch. Fitting that this is a Childe fic but ty for your support^^ I always notice you pop up as soon as I post a fic and I really enjoy seeing you. Hopefully you read this since tumblr won’t let me tag people, for whatever reason I don’t know anymore, but just saying hey, I see you 💕💕

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I’m just gonna piggy back off my last Childe fic. I’m sorry. 

Semi Part 1:  Fiance HCs [honestly, one of my favourites haha] 

Xiao Ver:  First Kiss HCs

Venti & Kaeya: Mistletoe HCs

Venti, Xingqiu, and Razor: Kissing HCs

[Masterlist]

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For some reason I can’t @ certain people. I’m talking to tumblr about it. 

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Childe: First Kiss HCs

Childe was never one to shy away from affection, be it holding your hand in his or wrapping an arm around you, he was always happy to be close to you. He was always a bit territorial which lead to some embarrassing situations for you but it was from a good place in his heart. But when it came to public kisses, he preferred to keep it between you two. It felt too private of a moment that he didn’t want to broadcast to the rest of the Fatui, especially to the other Harbingers. That is to say, if he actually kissed you in the first place. For all the two braincells Childe had, one was fighting and the other was protecting his loved ones, just imagining kissing you was too much for him and he needed to go find some poor recruit and beat his inner problems out. The Fatui recruitment process would always dwindled down during his inner turmoil sessions that Scaramouche himself, had to throw his goddamn hat at Tartaglia, and yell at him to hurry up and fix his problem. It was clogging up the air. 

When he tried to think about it, it shouldn’t be this hard to simply lean in for a kiss. But it was his first and while Childe might run into whatever danger or prospect of a fight without a second thought, he didn’t want to ruin it. What if he accidently bonked his forehead with yours? He should remove his mask then right? Just in case? He’s only given forehead and cheek kisses to his younger siblings so it should be the same right? Yeah he could do this, this was just another battle for Tartaglia to conquer! 

But whenever he would see you or you would both sit and bask in each other’s presences. He couldn’t bring himself to initiate something or heck, even looking at your face made him a bit hot under the collar in sub-zero temperatures. He can almost hear Scaramouche and Signora laughing maniacally at him behind their hands. He’s the youngest of the Harbingers, he should get a “get out of jail for free” card that all youngest children have whenever they get into trouble. But in this case it’s murder. He quickly slaps his cheeks to get his mind off fighting for one second which startles you beside him. 

The first time you’ve seen Childe shy was when he first confessed to you, stuttering that he liked you and just really badly wanted to hold your hand without using the frost of Sneznaya as an excuse. You flushed pink but nodded that you returned his feeling and slipped your hand in his. Whatever shyness Childe had was quickly wiped off his face and he cheered and brought you in for an eskimo kiss. Rubbing your nose with his as he laughed in joy, the tips of his ears and cheeks still coloured pink. You always hold that memory dear to your heart because not only was it the start of your relationship, it was the first time you felt you were staring at Ajax. Not Childe. Not Tartaglia. Just Ajax. 

But now, you’re not to sure what to call this. Lately he seemed to be out of it, always staring off into space or frowning at some poor poor snowmen that did not deserve that much pressure.  Was being a harbinger starting to take it’s toll on him? Did something terrible happen to his family or was the Tsaritsa being too hard on him? You were beginning to get concerned because you’ve never seen this much mental turmoil in him. This never really happened before and he usually bounced back pretty fast. Would it be better if you left him be and he sorted it out himself? Would it be better if you asked? 

Childe is startled out of his thoughts of possible committed murder because he’s too scared to ask his own partner if kissing was something they could do, when he felt your hand slowly nudge his. No matter how many times he holds your hand, you’re always warm. It could be snow storming outside and the only heater he would need would be you. He offers a small but warm smile as he laces his fingers with yours. He remembers when you first started going out he was so scared about boundaries and what was okay. Brushing your fingers together and overall, not doing a good job at saying he wanted to hold hands that even he cringes slightly at his younger self - even though it wasn’t that long ago and he’s doing it again just with kisses - but now he borderline clings to you like some overgrown animal. Scaramouche’s words, not his. 

It’s still evening in Snezhnaya and the Tsaritsa herself seems to be taking a vacation because there’s only a light snow falling down between the two of you. You’re both sitting outside his house while his family is inside, warm and having fun playing games. He breathes in, closes his eyes, and let’s the world fade away just a second. He slowly brings his other hand to cup your cheek, his hands are always numb and the tiny pin pricks are dancing on his fingers again before they fade away too, and guides you towards him so he can place a small kiss on your fore head. Then tilts your face to the side so he can kiss your cheek. Brings his nose near yours to nuzzle against. Then hesitates when his lips hover above yours. 

“Ajax is there something bothering you?” you ask softly, you’re so close to each other that all you can see is him. The small puffs of breathe you both take bounce off each other’s face before evaporating into the air. You never really took the time to appreciate Ajax’s bright blue eyes. His pupil from this distance seems to be slitted too. 

“Hm? Ah no, of course not. Where did you get that idea?” he tries to laugh it off and tries to move back before you quickly bring your hand to the back of his head and nudge him forward so he stays in place. It wasn’t like him to run away from something, it was really starting to bother you what could get Ajax of all people to retreat from something. 

“You know if there’s anything that’s bothering you, you can talk to me right?” you asked as you brought both your hands to cup his face as you softly rubbed circles just under his ear. He closed his eyes and hmmed happily at your actions and nuzzled further into your hand before turning his head inward to kiss your palm. Before relaxing and parting his eyelids half way as he seemed to be back in concentration mode. Before awkwardly saying what was troubling him these past few days. 

“So wait, you mean to tell me that this entire time I was worried about you. How out of it you were and how many fights you’ve been getting into. Was because you wanted a kiss?” you asked dumfounded as he pouted but nodded. You sighed but bonked your foreheads together softly, “You’re such an idiot....C’mere.” 

“Wha-” 

You grab the scarf on his harbinger uniform and tug him forward as your lips slot over his. You kiss him hard and for a few seconds as Ajax just stares at you as his brain tries to catch up, before his eyes seem to dilate and he kisses you back just as hard. All his past worries are quickly thrown out the window as slowly pushes you on your back, cushioned by the soft snow, as he basks in the feeling. It’s a bit sloppy given this is both your first kisses but that’s what adds to the charm. You both have to separate at some point for oxygen but Childe looks like he’s ready to dive in again. 

“One more,” he pants as he goes in for another but you quickly place your hand in the way so he ends up kissing your palm. He whines but you chuckle at him, place a small kiss on the back of your palm of where his lips would be, and push him off you. You’re both still outside his families home and you aren’t in the mood to be caught in this kind of position. Especially not in front of his younger siblings. He rests his cheek on your shoulder and looks at you, trying to make his eyes bigger and look like a kicked puppy. You sigh as you give a small pet on his head, running your fingers through your hair. What a troublesome partner you’ve gotten. 

“Alright, one more.” 

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My entire taglist was just made for the  “Enemies” to “Lovers” post and I still haven’t started hehe. Trust me, it’s coming. I’ve got requests for it and we’re slowly getting there. The entire time I’m writing this I’m just thinking “honey..no, that’s not how this works.” God you’re so dumb. I hate you. You’re my favourite character. Pour one out for Xiao, I was going to make this a crack fic too but ended up making it somewhat serious. 

So yeah, xiao is a cat and childe is a fox. In other news, water is wet. But I did actually google fox behaviors just for this shitpost. ALRIGHT TIME TO SPIN THE WHEEL OF “WILL TUMBLR BE NICE TO ME?” OR DO I NEED TO DOUBLE REPOST AGAIN. 

[plush-rabbit]

I Want To Hear You Say It

Chapter 2: Frantic Eyes

Word Count: 5.1K

A/N: honestly im writing this to do like just two scenes that i thought of (one inspired by a tiktok:P)

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His head aches. A throbbing ache that starts in the back of his head and slowly forms until he’s biting the inside of his cheeks, a slight whine escaping as his canines dig into the soft flesh and the tinge of copper fills his mouth. He’s in literal pain with bones that feel as if they weigh a ton, dragging him deeper into the soft cushion, and joints that ache with even the slightest movement and he wants to lie and pretend to be dead for just a second longer as the scent of something sweet fills his senses.

Sweet? The brat must have gotten a candle, he thinks to himself. It smells almost like candy- something overly sweet and pleasant if he weren’t currently fighting back the acid that creeps in his throat. He tries to open his mouth, to voice the words but it’s too dry, too cracked and unwilling to open, the corners of his lips feeling as if they’d tear with even the slightest opening- a plea of his body to just rest for a second long and he can’t help but listen and lay still against the soft cushion, to keep his hands fisted against the soft blanket that smells like it was freshly washed. 

He hears his name called in a gentle whisper. “Tomura?” It repeats, softer and there’s a dip beside him and he can’t think of who it is that is calling him. Kurogiri stopped doing the nightly check-ins after the League of Villains grew to be more than just the two of them. He doubts it's any of the others. There’s a soft brushing of his hair, a palm that presses against his temple in a tender touch and it’s too solid to be Kurogiri and he knows that it can’t be anyone else. His name is muffled, ears stuffed with cotton and when he opens his eyes, he’s met with an unfamiliar ceiling and eyes that he doesn’t recognize.

He twists against his body’s protests, vertigo settling in a blink of an eye, vision that blurs and head that spins and whirls and his hand is around your wrist, middle finger lifted up, pointed towards a wall and you yelp, your eyes wide and chest heaving and dipping far too much for his liking. He can feel you tremble under his touch, your face going pale and your hands slowly stretch, palms shown against him in sign of surrender.

“Tomura?” You squeak out, swallowing tightly and he narrows his eyes. “It’s- It’s just me.” You’re trying to calm him down, a soft voice that comes out in a low whisper and you don’t make an effort to push him off. “Remember?” He doesn’t. “We met last night? In- In an alleyway and you didn’t want help and-” he tightens his grip around your wrist and you whine under him, a soft noise that makes you bottom lip tremble and his middle finger twitch downward- “I brought you home because you didn’t want to call your friends.” He narrows his eyes in both annoyance at you and at the headache. “My home,” you correct, clearing your throat.

You really make no attempt to get out of his grasp. He doesn’t know if it’s because you’re just that naive that he wouldn’t harm you and he was just jittery about waking up in a new place or if you think that you can actually take him even in his weakened state. He licks his lips, and yawns in front of you, mouth opened wide and teeth displayed dangerously. 

“That’s a dumb thing to do,” he says, dropping your wrist and sits on the couch, head thrown back and eyes pinched. The blanket lays twisted against him, under one leg and over the other, spilling onto the floor and barely grazing his thigh. “I could kill you, you know.” There’s no point in hiding who he is and he opens his eyes half-heartedly. His fingers flex and joints get stuck together and pop quietly. 

You stare at him and slowly rise, his eyes never leaving you and he watches how your hand flutters against your pocket, a shape outlined against the fabric and then they flutter away and you grab the wrist that he touched, your hand cupped against it, going back and forth in a soft caress. 

“If you do,” you whisper, “can you at least make it painless?” The space between his brow bone creases and you shrug at his look. “It’s just that I took care of you and I guess I thought that you’d at least repay the favor by making my death painless.”

He stares at you and glances down at your pocket where a bit of orange spills out, plastic and dirtied with something black. “You’re fucking weird,” he scoffs and lays back down, trying to relax the erractic beating in his heart. He hears you laugh- it’s short and sweet, genuine laughter that isn’t filled with spite or anything evil and he curls his upper lip at the sound. 

“Considering I brought a stranger home,” you scoff, “yeah, that’s fair.” You clear your throat and he can hear your steps fade, the sound of something opening and items that move against each other in soft clacking and scraping. Your steps return and he feels the spot beside him dip again. “Tomura?” He regrets giving you his name- he should have chosen an alias. “I’m going to check your temperature, okay? It’s uh- an infrared one so you don’t have to open your mouth or anything.”

He opens his eyes and in between his vision is a stripe of white. “Why?” There’s a soft ding and he watches you pull the device away.

“You were hurt last night and I just want to make sure you don’t have a fever.” You bite your bottom lip and look back at him. “You’re fine- temperature wise. Does anything hurt?”

You’re too honest- too trusting as you sit near him while he no doubts reeks of garbage. The scent of candy makes his eyes water and he stares into your eyes, trying to look threatening, an hungry huff and flared nostrils as his hand claws over his wrist. You don’t falter under his gaze, only blink owlishly at him with the corners of your lips curving slightly upwards in a polite smile.

“My head,” he says in a strained whimper.

You smile softly and rise from the couch. “Yeah, I bet it is. You were in rough shape last night and I doubt the walking helped. Let me go turn off the candle and get you some painkillers. Don’t move, okay?” 

It’s not like he has a choice. Pinning you down took away all of his energy and he just woke up- he’s hungry, lost, mind clouded with too many thoughts that swirl out of his grasp and he can’t move with his brain slamming into his skull and he wants to claw at his throat but with the way you still treat him without fear- even if he did just threaten you- he has to just play the hurt civilian card for a second longer. 

A faint whiff of smoke mixes with the candy scent and he swallows down the bile. Your footsteps are soft when they return like you’re trying not to disturb him despite him already being awake. His eyes follow you until you sit down, eyes darting to where two bright red pills sit in your palm, a bottle of water in the other and the sudden awareness that he has to swallow something makes his skin turn a pale green.

“You look sick,” you murmur and he gives you a pointed look. “I, um,” you hum and grab his wrist, his hand opening up and your tip your hand, the pills falling into his open palm, “eating is out of the question, right now,” you say more to yourself than him and he does not respond. “Do you want to take a shower?”

He narrows his eyes at you quizzically. “A shower?”

You blink owlishly at him and give him a nervous laugh. “Uh, you know-” you raise your hand above you and begin to flutter your fingers- “when water comes down and you-”

His face burns and he closes his hand into a fist. “I know what a shower is,” he hisses, snatching the water from you, cupping his palm over his mouth, pills falling onto his tongue and gulping down a considerable amount of water.

“Oh! Sorry,” you say in a flustered tone, bringing your hand down in front of your chest and waving it in a frantic motion. “It’s just that you repeated the word and I thought- Well some people only take baths and there-”

“Shut up,” he groans, dipping his face to bury it in his hands. You do as you're told and he peeks at you through a gap of his eye and he startles, standing up on wobbling legs and he looks around the small living room with scared eyes.”Where is it?” He hisses, hands patting down his body.

“Where’s what?” You ask in a frantic voice, rising to stand next to him, hands fluttering around his body before they curl back into your body and you take a step away from him. “I- You were the only thing in the alleyway. I made sure to check! There was nothing else there. Do you want to go back? I can go back?”

Anxiety fills his entire body in rough crashing waves that make it impossible to breathe and he shakes as he raises his hands, nails dragging against his face and digging deep into his neck in sharp claws that drag down his skin and mark him in red that burns and flows through his body and bead onto his skin. Tears well his eyes and welts appear on his neck and he feels exposed. He feels dread and calm all at once. Sick and well in an awful mixture. The hands that coat his body, fingers that crawl onto him like a bundle of centipedes are gone, leaving him open and sick, skin crawling and bumping under.

“Tomura!” You cry his name and grab at his wrist and he wants to strike you but he can’t. He can’t right now. “Look- It’s- Whatever it is, I can go back and look for it but please, relax. You- You shouldn’t-” your voice wavers and you pull your hands away from him- “just breathe, okay?” Your hand shakes as it rests on his bicep, bringing the hand down to the crease of his emblow and forcing it to unbend until it falls limp at his side. “How about this? You take a shower and when you’re clean and eat something, we can go look for whatever it is that you lost, okay?” 

He takes a deep breath and it fills his lungs with poison. You call his name and he offers a grunt, teeth grinded against together and he’s going to rip his skin apart. His teeth dig into his bottom lip and it feels raw, soft and tender like new skin and he wants to taste blood.

“Tomura, please,” you cry out, your hands going to cup his face and he’s pulled out of his attack with the touch. Your eyes water- out of fear? Concern? Your thumbs rest below the corner of his lips and pull gently, coaxing the abused lip out of his mouth. “I don’t know what you lost but it must be important and I promise- I promise that I’ll do my best to help you find it but when I saw you last night, it was only you.” He releases his bottom lip and your hands still remain on him. He misses his hands but yours are a good enough replacement. They remain steady against him, a gentle and unwavering touch and it doesn’t fill him with sickness. “Just- Just go take a shower and when you come out, we’ll eat something and then we can go look, okay?”

He stares at you and his hands jerk, fingers that dance against nothing and he wants to keep your hands pressed against his face. “I don’t have spare clothes,” he murmurs.

“I-” you look around and he wonders if you have a roommate. No, you wouldn’t have brought him over if you did. And if you had a partner, they surely would have been here by now. “I have laundry that I have to do. Darks. Why don’t- Look, just take as long as you need in there and I’ll wash your clothes along with mine.”

“You’re going to leave me alone in your apartment.” It’s a statement more than a question and he stays still, not wanting to rid himself of the wellness that you give to him with a simple touch. You don’t move, keeping your hands against him and you furrow your brows, pursing your lips and he stays staring at you. 

“You don’t seem like the type to run around naked in someone else’s apartment,” you reason, giving him a small smile. “I’ll wash your clothes and bring them back as soon as I’m done, okay?” 

Your hands slide off his face and he feels bugs crawl over and under his skin. You pull away from him and he already misses your touch. You beckon him to follow you and he does, nails digging into his palms as he walks behind you, eyes trained on the back of your head with bile rising in his throat.

You stand in front of a door with a simple plant sticker on it, a pink pot with a generic stem growing from it. “A sticker?” His speech is slightly slurred and he needs to sit down. His goes to grab at the wall, a slight turn at the last second so the side of his palm rests against it.

“Yeah,” you trail, opening the door to a small bathroom, “the last tenants had put it there and I never really got around to taking it off.” You step to the side, your back pressed against the door, hands tugging on the end of your shirt and you give him a tentative smile, nodding your head inside for him to enter. 

He swallows and steps inside, his mind slowly losing the pain that has clouded him, his mouth drying all over agains to an uncomfortable degree. “And-”

“Oh, right,” you mention and step close to him, your hand pressing softly against his abdomen and he watches as you reach into a cabinet and pull out a washcloth, your hand falters inside and the plastic holding the cloth wrinkles in your hand. “Um-” you lick your lips and meet his eyes hesitantly- “you don’t- you aren’t allergic to scents or something? I know some people might have sensitive skin and scents don’t help with that so I have unscented soap if you need it. I think I also have cream for sensitive skin but that’s more for the body and-” you shift your weight on either leg and dart your eyes around, a nervous smile on your lips as you start to raise the pitch in your voice- “I just want to make sure that you’re comfortable-”

“I’m fine,” he says flatly. You meet his eyes for a brief second, nervous and fidgety. “I-” he struggles to give you a smile, he can’t risk having you kick him out or a struggle where other tenants would hear- “appreciate it. Which is the hot water?”

You don’t meet his eyes again and simply raise an index, pointing it to the left and muttering the direction under your breath. “Just drop your clothes off next to door and I’ll pick them up.” Your voice is strained and you stretch your arms in front of you to hand him the toiletries, still refusing to meet his eyes and he takes them hesitantly from your hand, pinky raised as he grabs the cloth and bar of unscented soap. “I’ll try to finish as fast as I can,” you say quietly, turning around and grabbing at the doorknob, pulling the door to a close. “There’s a spare towel in the cabinet,” you say through the door, shadow still for a brief second and moving away in rapid steps. 

“Thank you,” he whispers to the closed door and turns around.

Steam fills the room, it becomes stuffy and hard to breath and his clothes lay in his arms, crumpled up and smelling of dirt and sweat and he’s almost embarrassed to hand them to you. He bites his bottom lip, and dips his head, taking in a deep breath. The door opens without a sound and he tosses his clothes in a lump, watching as a shadow near the corner bobs, moving around the other still shadows and he closes the door quick, a loud noise that makes him flinch and he jerks his head, and hears you let out a soft curse. He watches the space between the door and floor and sees your shadow move close.

“I got your clothes so I’m going to wash them, okay?” Your voice is muted through the door and the running water and he does no answer. “Take as long as you need, okay? Just try not to pass out.”

The hot water hits his back in rushing waves. It burns against him and makes his skin turn a light shade of pink, spreading across his back and creeping across his body, soft blue hair sticks to his face, drops clinging to his lashes and making them stick together, until he blinks and they slide down his face. His bones and joints thank him, sighing in appreciation as he stands under the showerhead. The water burns his skin and he takes a shuddering breath, grabbing at the handle and moving it to the right, the hot water replaced by cool water that refreshes his skin and makes bumps crawl over his skin. 

He doesn’t know what your deal is. He doesn’t understand why you’re being so nice to a stranger that you only met last night who was bloody and leaned against an alleyway. Did he look that pitable to you? Did you really just want to be a good samaritan and save him? You offered him some place warm to sleep, offered to even wash his clothes for him as he used your shower. All for a stranger who he almost touched within the first minutes of waking up. He doesn’t know what to do with you. He can’t leave your apartment right now. Not when there’s daylight outside. And he can’t escape through your front door. He doesn’t even know where he is right now. He was too groggy and out of it to actually focus on the street names. What do you want from him? What do you expect from him? If anything goes wrong he can always kill you. It’s a safety measure that he rather not deal with but it’s always an option. 

Soap lathers against his body in fluffy, iridescent foam, spilling down his body and grime and dirt is washed from him. Dried specks and spills of blood are scrubbed at and come off in flakes. His neck stings under the water, a harsh grit of his teeth when the cloth is pushed against him.

He is at a complete loss. He’s sure he can convince you that he can’t leave for another few hours. You already trusted him enough to sleep under the same roof as you, convincing you to stay for a few more hours while you both are awake shouldn’t be too troublesome. It’s his damn hands that he has to worry about. Could they have been left there? No- the longer that he stays awake the more that memories from last night rush in. They were already off of him when you had appeared by his side- slowly his hand wraps around his neck; long, sharp talons pressing into the soft skin- and you had told him that there wasn’t anything nearby. Maybe they had gotten them. It’s likely that they would have. They’re awful but even Toga has enough empathy to want to pick them up and would more than likely nag the others to help. Twice would follow her lead, Mr. Compress would do so as well, Spinner would go along with it and Dabi would do it just to hold something over him.

The shower is filled with the clean scent of your body wash- it’s soft and nothing too sweet, and he welcomes the scent. The pads of his fingers wrinkle and soften and he’s alone with his thoughts. What does he even do with the cloth that you gave him? He doubts you would want to keep it. Does he just toss it? He feels like it’s almost wrong but it’s not as if he’s staying another night here. He just needs to stall for as long as he can and then leave. It doesn’t seem like you recognize him. You don’t react in fear but rather in meekness and that’s something that he can take advantage of. Under the water, he closes his fist around the cloth and watches as the dust falls and swirls around his feet and disappears down the drain. 

The water shuts off with a twist and drips fall and splatter onto the tile. He sighs and pulls back the curtain, eyes landing on the cabinet. He sighs and steps onto the carpet that wets under his touch. 

The towel is dark green and soft under his touch and pats himself dry, drops of water wetting your floor and he stands in your bathroom with a towel around his waist, the cream that you mentioned sits and stares at him mockingly. His hand covers his face, a false placement for where Father rests and it fills him with dread at the thought of the loss. He can still feel your touch on him. It wasn’t as sickening as he thought it was going to be. Your hands were soft and gentle on himm, holding him together as he fell apart and he wonders if that is how Twice often feels at the thought of his mask ripping. You tried to calm him down, comforted him in even going to go and look for his possession yourself or with him. He doesn’t doubt that you would actually do that- the way you looked at him with concern, the soft touch against his face and the way you called his name, he’s sure that you would do anything at that moment to make him feel better. 

He exits the bathroom with the heavy cream coating his body, drops of water staining the floor and when he enters the living room, you are nowhere to be found. He calls for your name, a rapid beating against his chest as you don’t reply and he’s shaking as he starts to pace, eyes frantic and scared as they search around the open space.

He hears a laugh. It’s muted and forced and it’s outside your door, the knob twisting and falling short before it can actually be opened. 

“Yeah, no, I got my mail.” It's your voice- muffled from the walls and you sound so close to him. Someone else responds and it sounds garbled, like someone speaking underwater and choking the words out. “I- You know, I work tomorrow but I’ll see when I’m free.” The knob twists again and this time the door opens. It’s a crack and the air from the outside spills inside. “Oh.” Your voice cracks and he sits on your couch. “I just have a friend over.” A friend? You’re lying to someone then. Should he help? The longer the door stays open and the less that you appear fills him with anxiety. “I really have to go,” You step halfway through the door and you enter, keeping the gap to a minimum and with a final goodbye, you close the door with a heavy sigh. You mutter something inaudible under your breath and when you turn, you startle, knocking your back against the door. “Oh my,” you say, with a hand over your heart, white envelopes held in hand. “Tomura, you scared me.” He doesn’t know if he should apologize and he stays silent. “I’m sorry-'' you shake your head and toss the letters down on a round chair- “I got a call from the office and you know, it doesn’t matter but I think your clothes should be done. You took a while in there so-”

“Who was that?” You look at him and when you tilt your head he points to the front door.

“Oh, just a neighbor,” you explain with a wave of your hand. 

“Should I have helped?” He thinks its only fair that he should ask as you fret around, waiting by the closet where a loud hum is muted. 

“No, no. He’s just overly friendly,” you say with a strained smile. “Are you hungry? I can order something or make-”

“He sounds annoying.” To be fair, he didn’t hear what he sounded like but from the way that you smile and sighed after closing the door he could only assume that he’s tiring to deal with. 

“He’s not,” you frown, crossing your arms. “He’s just,” you pause, “overly friendly,” you repeat with a defeated tone. “It’s nothing to worry about, really. Um, so are you feeling better?” A harmonious tune plays behind a door, and you flash him a smile before turning around and opening the door.

“Is it alright if I stay for a bit longer?” There’s no point waiting for the opportunity to ask. “I want to-”

“That’s fine,” you answer and when you appear in his vision, his clothes are carried in your arms. “You were pretty beat up and I doubt you got a good night’s rest. If you want, you’re free to take another nap.” You stand in front of him and he rises to his feet, suddenly aware that except for the towel, he is nude. He takes the clothes from your arms and you smile at him. He can see heavy bags under your eyes and he wonders if you got any rest while a stranger slept in the other room. “You can go change in the bathroom.” 

He does as he’s told.

The clothes are warm against his body and he holds his shoes in his hands and awkwardly places them down beside the door. His hair is still wet and sticks to the nape of his neck, the towel wrapped around his shoulders in a poor attempt to catch at the water that slides down his back and ruins the dry shirt.

He stands in the kitchen, watching you as you check the pantry, a tight frown on your lips. You turn to him and shrug your shoulders. “Is there anything that you like? I haven’t had the chance to go grocery shopping.”

Truth be told, he doesn’t feel like eating but if it’ll stall the time until he’s kicked out, then he’ll eat whatever you’ll offer. “I’m not picky-” a lie- “so whatever you’re going to get, I’ll eat from there.”

You pout at the answer and he shifts his weight to the other foot. “Your hair is still wet.” You point at his head and he clears his throat, nodding. “Come on, I have a blow dryer in my room.” You move towards him and grab his wrist, pulling him to follow you. He follows without complaint.

Your room is decorated in stuffed animals and figurines. It’s odd. Something sweet that he didn't expect. It makes you feel realer, like you actually exist and have a life, that you aren’t some random person who exists only to serve as passerby to him. He’s sat in a chair that squeaks under his weight and it adds to how real this is. That he was actually picked up by someone and shown care for. He can still feel your touch on his face and it burns.

Your hand lingers and slides off his shoulder. “I’m going to brush your hair first, okay?”

He really doesn’t understand why he’s allowing himself to be treated by you. He could just wrap his arm around your wrist and you’ll be done for. He won’t have to worry about you recognizing him a second too late. His hands twitch, fingers curling inwards and he wants to touch you- to get rid of any loose threads that have lingered in the night. It doesn’t seem like anyone knows that he’s here. Only your neighbor knows that you have a”friend” over and even then, he doesn’t know what he looks like. 

He shudders when the brush is run through his hair, your hand softly grazing his neck as you lift the wet strands and run the brush through his hair.he sits still, eyes wide as you apologize for the rough pulls, commenting on tangles.

“Why are you being nice to a stranger? Don’t you have any self-preservation about your own life?” His words cut through the stillness, and he feels you still, comb still tugging on his hair. 

You don’t answer. You remain quiet as you return to your task, pulling on his hair and combing it through. You grab at the end of the towel and pat his dry, and he wishes he could see your expression. 

“I asked myself that before I fell asleep,” you murmur, placing the come down on your dresser. “I think,” you muse with a thoughtful hum, “the only answer I can give is that if I were in your position I would want someone to help me.” You sigh and he can hear something hit the floor and a soft curse. “People are inherently good-” he snorts at that- “and you were hurt and I wanted to help. You’re free to leave whenever you want but you want to leave at night. I don’t know why that is but I’ll respect it. You haven’t been completely awful so you can stay.” He feels his hair being threaded and he swallows tightly as he realizes that your digits are threading through his hair. “I want to make you feel better Tomura because I want to believe I’m a good person.” He narrows his eyes and his hand twitches as it covers the spot where your hand held him. “Tell me if it’s too hot, okay?”

He bites his bottom lip as a hot wave of air hits his sensitive skin that still lingers with fresh cuts.

[junnibook]

Pt.2 Can I request nsfw alphabet's For 1.hawks 2.iwa-chan 3.daichi 4. SHIGARAKI!!

Shigaraki Tomura nsfw alphabet.

A/n: have fun you dust loving reader 🙏🏼

Q: would you force skin care on him?

A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex)

wait, your alive? like your not a pile of dust on his bed? wow okay.. well firstly his aftercare sucks, just saying, he doesn’t care to stay around and if he does have deep feelings for you it would still suck because he’ll either go do “work” or he’ll play the game. his way of after care is keeping you alive so don’t push it.

B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

he likes your boobs and your face. one he’s like a child and most children cling to their mothers chest plus he likes the size and how they feel. they do have a lot of bite marks. he likes your face because of all the fear and emotions you show him. he cant get enough of that, make those faces for him more often. 

C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)

he’s a messy boy. okay so one his cum would taste overly salty so if your a swallower get a cup of water because your gonna need it, two its super thick for no reason at all. he likes to leave his cum any and everywhere. he doesn’t came if it’s messy. you turned him on, purposely so that’s your problem.

D = Dick size ( the size of their dick)

he’s above average and isn’t too thick but makes up for it in length. i wouldn’t say he’s a proud boy he honestly doesn’t care if he’s big or not, if someone had somethings to say they could gladly be turned into a pile of ash and he would pee on it it and move on with his ashy day.

E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)

none, the boy doesn’t like people before he met you or whom ever, he was like a needy wild animal he had it the first time, didn’t know how to act. just humping away feeling that good ol pleasure and was blinded by it, yea if you had your first with him than he would 100% be rough with you... masochist.

F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)

he quickly finds out that he likes to be deep into you- like fully into you, he likes mating press the most, just be on birth control because he doesn’t like condoms like at all. im sure you don’t want any baby shiggys running around turning children into dust right?

G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)

no way, not a chance. you won’t catch him being goofy at all. he has his DICK out and is showing himself to YOU. be glad that you made this far, don’t test him by trying to be goofy. 

H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)

100% not shaved or trimmed. why would he? he’s a busy man plus he doesn’t care like at all.. if you have a problem with it shave it your self other than that don’t say anything abt it.

I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)

N O he doesn’t know romance it’s not in his mind set. the most he will do that you can call romantic is go easier and or softer on you. if your looking for emotional sex for comfort or something.. get you a side piece and use them for that one thing

J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)

yea he does, it’s a stress relief and on his pettiest of days he’ll leave his cum near you. he wouldn’t care if you thought it was gross, he’ll leave his cum by you and move on with his day.

K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)

he likes: praise kink, because he likes no he loves when you praise him for making you go dumb over his dick. 

he likes giving you just a little pain.. he likes the literal tears in your eyes. 

L = Location (favorite places to do the do)

anywhere he pleases which is mostly in his room. all for one told him off the last time he fucked in public since people got a half a look at his face. but if he wasn’t told not to he’d fuck you in public. “ show the hero’s how you take dick from a villain”  

M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)

anything- he’s so easily turned on, but if he’s playing the game and you try and distract him- he takes that as a threat and literally will sit on you so that you can’t move- or if he’s angry and almost won and you made him lose, he’ll grab you by the neck, have his thumb dangerously close to the rest of his fingers on your throat pull you close and look into your eyes. “stop being annoying before i makes you regret it “ 

N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

sit down loves he isn’t a bottom nor does he want to try it out, he’s top and if you don’t like it - leave {btw you cant leave because he literally won’t let you} he also doesn’t eat you out- he thinks it’s gross-

O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

his head is terrible, he hates eating you out AND him fingering you is like Russian roulette, his thumb might accidently meet up with the rest of his fingers and turn your pussy into dust- no more wap for you, you now have the dap {dusty ass puh} also he might let you suck him might not- he has trust issues and he doesn’t trust your teeth. 

P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)

like i said- he isn’t the type to go slow, he’s chasing his own pleasure si yes he will go hard and fast nonstop. safe words are needed but will be ignored- just saying so if you don’t like it so rough that your legs give out for a few days than find a new partner because he isn’t for you love. 

Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)

quickies are basically you sucking him up while he plays the game - if you want him that bad than you can wait until he wants to get off the game and fuck you, lucky for you it isn’t a long wait.

R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)

he use to be risky until he had his face shown at his attacks and so he can’t be risky and fuck you out in public to often, before he was seen he would fuck you in public places- where they could hear you moan 

S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)

he can last up to two rounds- sorry maybe three if he’s needy and maybe four if he’s stressed which is all the time.. so it depends on his mood because it changes from time to time as you know.

T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)

he doesn’t have time for things likes that and besides but how much he’s giving you- you wouldn’t be able to think about anything yet alone toys. he thinks they are weird and un needed. “are you saying my dick isn’t good enough for you? “ say no if you want, he’ll have you in tears begging for him in minutes.

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

meh- not to much he doesn’t have time to waste on teasing you, he has plans and wouldn’t want to pause them just to tease you, take the dick and go to sleep. it’ll knock you out for sure so sleep up before he wants more. 

V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)

he doesn’t moan he insults- like degradation kink is a small kink of his, he likes the way it sounds coming form him and he loves the way you repeat it when he tells you too, because who are you to refuse him. 

W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)

he is down to share you, he likes the idea of breaking you down while using another guys dick. that would probably be a punishment though, like if you happened tp the extra annoying that day and just kept brothering him. 

X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)

his dick is ashy so be careful don’t get rub burn- im joking it’s not ashy probably  the most non ashy  place on his body,

Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)

not as high as you might think- taking down the heros will always come first on his mind- his games are second and you come.. well last- your the last thing on his mind. no offense.

Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

knocked out no questions asked, your knocked out too for sure, he put you straight tp sleep. so take the sleep while you can.

[fantasy-dating-sim-trash]

Have I lost my shit?

Do I have ur attention now? Cuz there's a picture of the pretty boy Satan?!?

Good cuz now I have things to say, so plz stay and listen 🥺

Also it might be a small info dump cuz I'm excited about this

Well to cope with an unforseen medical issue (not Covid thank the gods) I've been playing obey me

Note I only play when I'm not in agonizing pain where I can't focus (when I'm screeching pain I can't focus)

I've also been playing since April so I know the game system by now.

So to cope with being stuck at home I've been making Spread sheets

Yes

You read that right

I've been making

Mother fucking

SPREAD SHEETS

If you wanna see & read more look under the cut

I'm well aware I'm a fucking nerd (partly why I got bullied growing up but that's BESIDES THE POINT)

Now you may ask why spread sheets? And wtf are you making spread sheets on?

Listen

Don't judge me to harshly

But it's for Obey me

Yes I made spread sheets for a Gotcha game

SUE ME

This is how I'm choosing to cope (aka try and ignore the pain) with my issue.

Now if you have read this far I congratulate you.

Your probably wondering why spread sheets?

Tbh I have no fucking idea either.

And your probably like GET ON WITH YOUR POINT! ARE WE EVEN GONNA SEE THESE DAMN SPREAD SHEETS!?! WHO CARES???

First of all

I'm GETTING THERE! IM A DRAMATIC BITCH! HOLD ON I JUST GOTTA BE DRAMATIC FIRST!

Second off

YES, YOU WILL! I'M GONNA SHARE THEM BECAUSE I PUT HOURS OF WORK INTO THEM OKAY, & I THINK THEY LOOK NICE

Lastly,

I DO BITCH!

I spent so much time on these! And I just think it's neat & fun! (Who the fuck finds making spread sheets fun dumb ass? Apparently I do.)

It all started when I got stuck in chapter/lesson 21.

I figured I should start paying attention to the sins and which cards had which sin but I got confused. Cuz I knew I had to pay attention to the top 3 sins but only the first one was obvious. The other two not so much. So naturally what do I do.

Make a god damn spread sheet. To make it easier on my brain.

*SLAPS DOWN EXAMPLE #1*

Now obviously its way longer than this but you get the idea. I bolded the top three so I knew immediately which where the top three. And each one has the sin color in the back cuz I hate scrolling up and down trying to remember which Sin I was looking at and then forgetting which card it was for. I've also had this one for the longest. And every time I get a new card I update the sheet.

Now Its gotten pretty long & now I have new charts!

I was curious as to what sin combinations show up and for lonely devil shit how many times I'd have to open them to get specific SSR/UR cards. be they Demon or Memory cards.

So I made a new a new chart!

(technically 2 new chart layouts, and they're made up of smaller charts. It was supposed to be 1 big one. Oops my bad!)

*SLAPS DOWN SECOND CHART LAYOUT*

Edit: a lot of my math is pretty accurate for when you have gotten far enough in the game where you just 3 star all the event battles! So plz be warned that the math may not look exactly like this if your just starting out. It may look different for u depending on how many stars u get per battle!

Now this one I made just for Lonely Devil, specifically for the older events that I don't have cheat cards for. And I have to just suffer with the bare minimum items gathered. We have 3 smaller charts in here. And I have pics so you can read them.

*slaps down chart 3*

This one I pretty simple its just the math for the days. For total battles, how much AP is gonna be used in total, and how many items you should get at the end of it.

*slaps down chart #4*

This one is to keep track of what sins combinations are important in the event. Plus the items you get in each stage. (It makes more sense when its filled in)

*Slaps down chart 5*

This also is kinda self explanatory

How many times you have dome the Event in LD, how many items you have (this changes per event), what cards there are.

Now since these are all blank, its hard to grasp what I'm saying.

But I HAVE THOUGHT OF THAT!

I have a full example chart FILLED OUT for this type of Event!

*shoves the LAYOUT BACK down*

The example here is the Bunny Boy Event just an FYI.

When its DONE IT LOOKS LIKE THIS!!!

For this example I'll be showing the bunny boy event, since it's what I was doing.

Yes its hard to read and I've got you YET AGAIN!

*furiously slaps the charts back down*

So here's all the information in the chart where you can see it :D

I'm honestly really proud of how these turned out. Idk if anyone is actually gonna look at these or read this far down. But if you did, I thank you!

I also ran out of photo space so I can't show the second chart for events going on currently. I'll make a different post for that if people wanna see it. Who the fuck am I kidding I'm gonna share it anyway.

(CLICK HERE FOR PART 2 OF THIS MADNESS) PS the next spread sheet is kind of math heavy so plz be prepared for that :)

I hope you enjoy my spread sheets. I worked really hard to make them look nice and be easily understood/legible.

If you liked it plz let me know :)

[sanchoyo]

danny phantom 14-20 thoughts!! I finished up s1 :D these last few eps were actually really really good!!!

-did. did tucker really just say esperanto was a dead language only spoken as a secret code between geeks. google says around 100,000 people actively speak it. oh my god...it being an auxiliary language doesn't mean its 'just for geeks to speak in code' ...it helps bridge gaps between people who don't have a language in common...

-danny really isn't pulling punches when it comes to fighting the ghost-cop possessed people huh. like he SLAMMED KWAN INTO THE CONCRETE SO HARD. HE THREW PAULINA INTO A BILLBOARD. will that...I mean it WOULD carry over to their bodies non-possessed, right? like if the ghost piloting their bodies gets hurt?? itd be so upsetting to be possessed, lose time, then wake up covered in bruises (and possibly, broken bones??) real horror movie stuff im sure wont be addressed in any way

-tuckers parents seem nice! I like them :)

-WULF IS CUTE AND I FEEL BAD. im so glad the gang realized he was only causing trouble bc of the shock collar walker put on him and helped. also, him wearing that big hoodie with the hood on, and thinking its subtle. we can tell youre still a giant wolfie :) THEN GETTING SUCKED INTO THE PORTAL AAAAH :( anxiously waiting to see Him Again....

-DANNY BLASTING HIS PARENTS THINKING THEY WERE OVERSHADOWED LMFAO GET THEIR ASSES. maddie marking how many ghosts she gets with lipstick tallies on the side of her portal gun? kindaaa iconic tho. (ALSO, SHE WAS LIKE, 2 FT AWAY FROM HIM RIGHT AFTER SHE TRIED TO SHOOT HIM. HOW DO YOU NOT RECONINZE YOUR OWN SON??? like sure, he might have diff hair/eye colors. but like, if one of my family members dyed their hair, and was wearing contacts, its not like id be like 'wHO IS THIS STRANGER!!!' ...he still has all his facial features!! same everything!!! I hate it here)

-paulina being #1 girl realizing danny's a friendly ghost immediately. smart queen. lancer and kwan ran away right after he made this sweet baby face at them:

which is hilarious.

-ok. im not saying his bullying is JUSTIFIED, but. dash looked so pleased with the (cute!) poster he just painted, and danny comes thru the wall and spills paint on his nice letterman jacket. his anger is justified maybe 65% of the time so far...(not the way he handles it, but STILL.) at least lancer is stepping in!! and them making a silly little bet was...cute?? until dash pulled out his GROSS UNDERWEAR AND SAID DANNY WOULD HAVE TO EAT THEM???? WHAT THE FUCK MAN. TUCKER WAS SO RIGHT ITS FUCKING WEIRD TO CARRY THOSE AROUND EWWW. THIS KID IS UNWELL. lancer was right, his animatronic setup was SUPER IMPRESSIVE?? hes actually pretty creative. danny meanwhile is stealing the fright knight's design...I hope dash is taking art classes or smth with his sports

-fright knight is the most bestest ghost so far i LOVE THAT DESIGN. I am biased towards knights, and characters with swords, but he fucks so severely. and should sue danny for copyright infringement for stealing his design for his haunted house. if some 14 yr old broke into MY house and stole MY sword, id also be pissed. his evil winged unicorn rules too with its FANGS. and he just CAN SHOVE THE PORTAL OPEN WITH HIS HANDS??? is he the strongest ghost weve seen so far? idk but hes my fav. SOUL SHREDDER IS SUCH A COOL SWORD NAME TOO. ANY NAMED SWORD ALSO FUCKS. 'flaming bedsheets of DEATH' funny king. ALSO he was polite to dash and tucker when just asking for directions and telling tucker 'oh maybe, just a suggestion, maybe be nicer to me and be more respectful :)' I LOOOVE HIM.

-I noticed this in the Ember ep, but jazz has an electric guitar in her room!! talent musical queen!! its cool to see hobbies just in the bg.

-fright knight's murder castle reminds me of the booby trapped murder castle in zexal!! another supposedly 'for kids' show with murder/trap castles! we love that. if you are a dp fan reading this, give yugioh zexal a try. its also got 13-14 year old protags and involves (alien) ghosts. the cardgame is just a vessel for the plot, which is really good. (I just want more people to watch my fav yugioh, man)

-danny. with a SWORD.

-danny doesnt NEED TO WIN this contest, dash didnt STEAL HIS DESIGNS AND STEAL A SWORD. he also got excited to hear lancer got sent to a dimension with his worst fears too just so he could win the contest? DANNY WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU!!! BRO MAYBE YOURE 14 AND HAVENT FULLY DEVOLPED YOUR WHOLE BRAIN YET, BUT...THATS FUCKED. this kid casually says the most deranged things, I do worry for my spooky son. once again, therapy needed. that judo toss was great tho. I wonder if he actually did pick up some martial arts stuff from his mom?

-danny can fly 112 mph!!! thats so fast! I love the lil montage of him and his friends testing his abilities and stuff, very cute and a good way to showcase what he can do by now and how much more proficient he's gotten from ep 1!!! I'm sure he's going to get more abilities :)

-im glad...maddie's at least TRYING this ep. I do feel for her because her husband is a man baby. but the fact it took 16 episodes to get a kinda semblance of any kind of real concern or attempts at bonding. hmm. jack's 'BACK OFF SHES A MINOR' @ the ghost trying to attack jazz. also was very funny. and him wanting to make an action figure of her? are the parents redeeming themselves to me? slightly. they gotta Work Harder

-THE GHOST. IS FLYING. THE PLANE.

-fenton machete. but she doesnt carry a PHONE??? ???

-I mean I expected vlad when you namedrop him earlier in the ep, and also the title card picture, and dalv corp being fucking vlad backwards. but seeing him just pull up on a golf cart made me bust out laughing. WITH the gift baskets prepared. why wouldnt you at least be suspicious. also, if he wants danny to be his lil sonboy, why is he so fucking malicious?? dude you are going about this in such a bad way. stop it. get some help.

-maddie not even hesitating to drag danny out. fucking good. danny is so right, go on the internet to date. get a cat. how do you spend...how many years?? has it been since college?? at least 20, right, since the parents/vlad are in their 40s? hung up on ONE girl. my god, man. incel drama queen. her kung fu IS impressive, but dude. 'we both know hes a creep' SO right. it sucks but they do need a phone and shit being in the middle of NOWHERE. also, just stealing his helicopter was great. <3

-'you must be exhausted carrying the weight of that mistake you made years ago' 'well we all make mistakes. maybe I'll make one now!' WHY DID THIS EXHCHANGE SEND ME. AND VLAD WITH THE BREATH SPRAY EWWW BITCH. 'OLD BAIT BREATH' SOO RIGHT. both danny and his mom playing him HAHAH hes so dumb. or rather, I think he thinks with his emotions too too much and is...actually pretty gullible? lmao he believed danny was ready to give in SO fast. (which is sad hes that hopeful, like you have SO MUCH MONEY YOU COULD EASILY GET ANOTHER GIRL WHO HAS A KID. AND WOULD WANT TO BE WITH YOU AND BE SUPPORTED. GET OVER THIS (1) WOMAN ALREADY IM GETTING SECONDHAND EMBARRASSMENT AAAAH)

-GHOST BEAR GHOST BEAR GHOST BEAR. it was also in the title card, but I still got very excited. we love bears here

-SAM'S BAT SWIMSUIT COVERUP!!! her outfits are simply iconic.

-'i'd tell you to go to the mens room, but I don't think you qualify' top paulina transphobic moments. :( and him wearing a tanktop to the swim park? hmmm! (actually I think she was overshadowed by then, so, KITTY top 10 transphobic moments??)

-kitty just piloting paulina around makes me feel SO bad tho, paulina's gonna wake up and be like 'wtf do you mean I was dating this rando' like youre leading danny on to make johnny jealous, and also just POSSESSING POOR PAULINA. dude take your relationship problems ELSEWHERE. last time we saw them, they seemed like such a cute couple!! wtf johnny!! I mean, she sucks for trying to make him jealous, he sucks for looking at other girls...maybe they need a break, but Not Like This. or, you know, just. better communication...

-and the A-listers having a full packet and a stamp system. who organizes this. kwan fucking owning being the new danny though, this is hysterical. THE TUCKER/KWAN FLOWER FIELD TWIRL. UNIRONICALLY ADORABLE. and him giving it his all for the poetry slam. bless his HEARTTTT.

-Star owns. actually, all of the extra characters are shining this ep and I love it.

-INVISO-BILL??? NOOOO THEY DID HIM SOO DIRTY. DANNY SWEETIE IM SO SORRY.

-johnny and danny bein friends and staging a fake fight (which danny takes too seriously, once again this child has aggression he NEEDS TO WORK OUT) I hope these three stay friends, I said it before but danny needs more friendly ghosts to hang with.

-at this point, Danny's ghost enemies are a lot like, I dunno, batman's rouge gallery is the first thing that comes to mind. they all have their own gimmick and unique designs, but most of them are easy to beat after learning the Moral Lesson. I still get excited when any of them show up again, though. 18 is another valerie episode!!!! :D skulker really said you two will get along if I have to handcuff you together <3 and the gym teacher really said, youre married now, have a flour baby! ngl, I'm not really watching this show for the shipping stuff (which I am very scared to look at the fandom for after I finish this watch through- I feel like there's probably discourse/arguing about ships...) but. I'm gonna put my opinion out there. valerie/danny > sam/danny. maybe I just really love the enemies to lovers trope. And the secret identity stuff adds Extra Flavor.

-SKULKER JUST HAVING THE BOX GHOST AND DANGLING HIM BY A STRING. HILARIOUS. and him watching them with binoculars and making his silly little commentary. AND MAKING THE SACK BABY CRY. LMAO. THIS DUDE IS A BABY KIDNAPPER. skulker is super fun

-danny, you just...collapsed the water tower. and then attacked the nasty burger machine...mascot thingy...out of anger..I KEEP SAYING HE'S GOT ANGER ISSUES BUT. HE REALLY NEEDS A LESSON IN MANAGING COLLATERAL DAMAGE!!! So does valerie!! They're both pretty focused on each other. I mean it's good of Danny to say he's trying to make sure PEOPLE don't get hurt, but... (I mean I guess it's not something 14 year olds WOULD worry about, but as an adult im like, who's going to fix that? how much money will that take??)

-TUCKER MAKING BANK. and sam and tucker being super emotionally attached to their flour baby and being pretty good parents. that's cute...also him just straight kissing her and being like. WAIT. O_O JDSKAFHD. his mom baking them into cookies was the funniest possible result. tbh I dont feel like this is on tucker, if anything the other kid's shouldve been more responsible! He was just taking an opportunity to get that $$ which I respect

-Danny being more understanding of Valerie's situation in the end (helping her at her job, too, and trying to keep that a secret for her!!!) And seeing them work together this ep, and also her letting phantom get her out of the ghost zone...was very sweet. LOVE that. more valerie eps pls

-me when I realize vlad's big stupid house exploded because of his own carelessness with changing the ghost portal ectofiltrator or whatever: *pointing and laughing*

-me when I realize it means he's gonna go make danny's life hell for it somehow: >:(

-SCOOBY PARODY!!! I feel like there's gotta be some scooby doo/danny phantom crossover stuff, right? also, 'guys in white' men in black wishes

-'oh, that's right! dad married the love of your life! you're bitter and alone!' DANNNNNYY GET HIS ASS ONCE AGAIN WE ARE POINTING AND LAUGHING AT VLAD

-'jack, you captured the ghost boy!!' UMM. he did nothing <3 'we have a weapon's vault??' YOU HAVE A WEAPONS VAULT??? and jack didnt put a handle on the inside. of fucking course he didnt! why would you leave that to your son!! or expect him to clean YOUR LAB when its where you work with probably dangerous chemicals and weapons and hes 14!! give him normal chores, like, I dunno, vacuuming, laundry, dishes...CMON. I hate it here. But I'm glad Jack is more chill about danny while he's a ghost, and willing to work with him for this ep. AND. I DID ENJOY JACK PUNCHING VLAD IN THE FACE. AND GENERALLY JUST OWNING HIM. the ghost punchy fists are actually amazing. like yeah, just punch a ghost in the face. that rules.

-ep 20 opens with the coolest fucking ghost lady design. her tattoos can come off and fight. MA'AM. I like ur nose ring and your cape maam hello 👉👈😳

-sam's grandma is hilarious and the most valid member of her family and I love her. thats my grandma now. and tucker covering for sam by dressing as her. thats true friendship <3 also skipping school to go to a goth circus. just bestie things! sam's parents are haters but for all the wrong reasons.

-'my family has controlled ghosts with this for generations!' WAIT. WAIT FREAKSHOW /ISNT/ A GHOST? I didn't expect that...he's just a fucked up guy controlling ghosts? anyway watching danny shoot at police cars and rob banks while mind controlled. its like, the most stereotypical 'bad' things lmao. (tbh an evil ghost circus troupe is a sick concept)

this gives off big deviantart emo edit vibes

(I'm going to assume evil circus reaper danny has a lot of fan content. people love an edgy au, except this one is canon (even tho its via mind control...having the protag go evil otherwise might be hard, I guess?) but au where he stays with the troupe...that has to exist, right?)

ANYWAY. excited to start s2!! lowkey surprised by how many notes some of these posts have gotten. I've gone back and tagged them all with 'dp thoughts' so they're easier to find on my blog! ^^ and I will probably possibly do (more) fanart on my art blog after I finish the watch of the whole show, so like. @sanchoyodraws follow my art blog :)

[reogou]

peonies | bokuto.k

pairing: bokuto kotaro x gn!reader

genre: fluff

warning/s: 2-3 swearing (?)

au: florist!au, implied soulmate!au

word count: 2.5k

a/n: this was supposed to be a drabble about a bokuaka fanart i saw but then i don't freaking know why this became a 2.5k fic... a big thanks to @kuraomi for helping me edit this! also, i can't put a read more on mobile so im very sorry-

The sweet fragrance of the flowers greeted Bokuto as he stepped inside the flower shop, the door closing behind him. The small bell above chimes, making the dark-haired boy from the counter turn around to see Bokuto standing in front of the door, looking so devastated. His brows were burrowing, a pout evident on his plump lips while his eyes look so so sad. The two sighed in exasperation, but with different reasons. Akaashi already knows what's coming to him.

"AKAASHI!" And there it was, Bokuto's loud whining, looking like he's about to cry. The back door opens abruptly, Konoha's head popping out of the door, a scowl forming on his face.

"What the hell? Stop yelling Bokuto! You're disturbing the other people!" He hissed, glaring at the owl head before closing the door, resuming to his previous work. Akaashi could only groan in silence when Bokuto came running towards him, already tearing up.

"Akaashi! She broke up with me!" And he wailed. "She said I was too childish and too weird for her liking! That she couldn't handle me anymore!" 

As much as Akaashi dislikes Bokuto being too loud, he just let him be. After all, he knows the pain he is going through right now. The feeling of being rejected is just too painful, especially for Bokuto since he knows that he is sometimes too much to handle, and he won't even deny it. 

"How can she say that to me, Akaashi?! I t-thought we were gonna be together forever, and that we'll have a grand wedding. We even planned out how many children we want! We even agreed on six children!" 

"There's no such thing as forever, Bokuto-kun." Konoha spoke from behind them, who just got out from the back door while carrying a bucket of freshly cut Lilies. He placed the bucket down together with the other flowers in the shop and looked at Bokuto, hands on his hips. "I told you two weeks ago that she isn't the one for you. She's been cheating behind your back and stealing money from you. What do you expect?" 

Bokuto even cried more when he remembered how he found out that his ex is a gold digger, stealing money from him by using his card that he gave her just to deposit it and buy things for her boyfriend. She even stole his favourite collections of golden pins that he collected for 10 years now. 

"My precious collections!" Bokuto shouted before crying even more on Akaashi's shoulders. Akaashi could only pat his senior's back comfortingly and looking at Konoha, who only sighed and nodded his head.

"Fine, fine. I'll take care of the counter." Even though Akaashi could hear the distaste from Konoha's tone, he knows that he also wants to make Bokuto feel better. Smiling at his co-worker, Akaashi pulled Bokuto away from him.

"Bokuto-san, let's go to the back door first, okay? You should drink water to keep you hydrated or else you'll pass out." Bokuto could only nod his head and let Akaashi guide him towards the back door, leaving Konoha alone in the counter. 

Man, what a pain. He should've dumped her the first time he caught her stealing. His heart is too soft, that's why he's always targeted by people who have ill intentions, Konoha thought, ruffling his hair and letting out another sigh. When the bell chimes, alerting that someone came in, Konoha put on a professional face and greeted the new costumer warmly.

"Good day, welcome to Fukurodani Flower Shop! How may I help you?"

You looked at the man in front of you, a small smile appearing on his face. Although the smile was obviously a fake one, you let it slide since maybe he was having a bad day. Maybe he encountered an annoying costumer?, you thought. Nevertheless, you still repaid his warm greeting with a smile, bowing your head a little as a sign of respect. 

"Hello." You greeted back courtly, letting your eyes roam at the interior of the flower shop. The atmosphere feels like home, even though it was just your first time visiting this place. After all, you just moved with your family 3 days ago. But even so, you can't help but feel welcomed here. There's just something about this shop that made your heart skip a bit. Is it weird that you felt like there was a link being tugged inside you? 

"Is there anything you need help with?" The guy at the counter spoke, his hands drumming on the marbled counter. He ran his slim fingers through his dirty-blonde hair, the same color as his eyes. He has a average build. You can tell that he is the type of guy who often goes to the gym to maintain his built. 

"Ah, would you mind if I look around first? Is it okay?" You asked. 

"Sure. You're free to take a look around the shop. Just call me if you need anything or if you already decided on what to buy." 

With that, you roamed around the shop at your heart's content, trying to find the right flower for yourself. 

Now you know why Fukurodani Flower Shop is so popular in your area. They deserve it. Just by looking at the freshly cut flowers and plants around you is enough evidence to prove their popularity not only around you area but also all over your city. 

A glass door caught your eye, the beautiful colors of red, yellow, green and many more shining brightly under the sunlight of what seems to be a greenhouse. Without taking your eyes off of the beautiful scenery in front of you, you called the guy at the counter, asking for permission.

"Hey." You spoke. Konoha lift his head up from trimming the flowers for a bouquet and looked at you, eyes glued to the glass door in front of you. He chuckled. He already knew what you want. After all, people always asked if they could go inside the green house just to see the magnificent view of the beautiful colors of the flowers and plants. They never really allowed anyone in, in fear of ruining the budding flowers inside. But it looks like he's making an exemption today.

"You wanna look inside?" His voice was filled with amusement, attention now solely focused on your face as you gaze inside the green house. When you heard his words, your head turned around to look at him, almost immediately.

"Yes." You answered, voice firm. Konoha only chuckled and shake his head a little before nodding at you.

"Ok. You can come in," He said. ",but don't ruin anything, alright? You'll have to pay if you do." 

"Of course."

And with that, you let yourself in inside the green house.

-

Meanwhile, at the back door, Akaashi managed to somehow calm Bokuto down. The dual-color-haired guy is now sitting on the chair in front of him while his other co-workers are doing their own thing at the other side of the wide room. Komi walked towards them, while Washio was just sitting at the table across them, cutting the wrappers that would be used for the bouquets. 

"What is it this time, Bokuto-kun?" Komi looked at Bokuto, who was still sulking in front of them. He looked at Akaashi instead, waiting for an answer from the black-haired junior. "What happened to him, Akaashi?"

Akaashi looked at Bokuto for a second and then gazed back at Komi. "Bokuto was dumped by his girlfriend." 

Bokuto expects Komi to laugh at him but to his surprise, the brown-haired guy only shrugged his shoulders off, not really bothered by it. 

"What?" He asked, noticing the way Bokuto was eyeing him. "You expect me to cry with you too?" Bokuto shook his head, not taking his eyes off of his friend and co-worker. 

"No… i thought you'd laugh at me or something…" He whispered, but it didn't go unnoticed by Komi. 

"What? Why would I laugh? Am i a jerk to you?" Komi asked in disbelief, clearly shocked at the owl head's accusation of him. 

"Well, you do laugh at him whenever his partners break up with him. So I can't blame Bokuto for assuming that about you." Washio interjected, although his eyes never left the wrapper that he's currently cutting. 

"I-," Komi was about to defend himself, that he's not that kind of guy. But then he realized that what Washio said was true. There's no point in defending it. " Well, I suppose I do." Komi laughed, his right hand rubbing the back of his head while the other was placed on his hip.

"But this time is different. That girl was the worst out of the worst of your exes. I can't even understand why you fell for her. That girl stinks of trouble." Komi said.

"I guess you're true." Washio agreed.

"The problem with you Bokuto-san is that you fall too easily." Akaashi said, eyes now on Bokuto's sulking figure. "And because of that, people take advantage of you. You have a soft heart. Too soft." He added, emphasizing the last words.

As Akaashi scolded him, Bokuto only looked down at his hands and played with it, not saying a single word. 

It is true. He was fooled easily. Too easy that even he himself is scared of it. Just a slight show of sweetness and care towards him is already enough to make him fall for someone. He knows that. He knows. But he isn't that dumb or stupid. He knows when and who are just faking their love or care for him. It's just that… he loved them. What could he do? He just wanna love.

But they betrayed him.

But even if some people betrayed him and made him a fool, that doesn't stop him from loving and searching for the right one. After all, try and try until you succeed, right?

"You know what, I think it's best if you clear your mind for a bit and cool off, Bokuto-san. Forget about what happened this morning." Akaashi said, placing his left hand on Bokuto's shoulder. He then grab a wrapper from Washio's stack and handed it to Bokuto, a small smile adorning his face. "How about you pick up flowers from the greenhouse make a bouquet for yourself, Bokuto-san?"

Bokuto could only nod, taking the wrapper in his hands and standing up, grabbing his apron and putting it on before opening the door that's connected to the greenhouse. As he reach for the knob and turn it around, the fresh smell of flowers and plants greeted him, calming his mind somehow. Maybe this wasn't a bad idea at all. 

Bokuto started picking up fresh flowers from the aisles of peonies, although he doesn't know why. His arms moves on it's own, plucking stems from stems and arranging it. Peonies have so many meaning, from romance to good fortune, and happy marriage. But sometimes, peonies can also mean bashfulness. 

Speaking of romance, Bokuto remembers how his mother always tells him that there's someone out there who's always waiting for him and is destined to be with him forever. She said that when he finally meets that someone, a strong force will push him towards that person. Like a rope tugged inside his heart. She also said that the feeling would overwhelm him, that it's too intense to the point that he doesn't know what to do. Up until now, he doesn't really know what she meant. 

So he keeps on searching, and searching. But he always ends up being the betrayed. 

Holding the bouquet of peonies in his hands, Bokuto walked towards the big table in the middle of the green house, the wrapper that was given by Akaashi placed in his other hand. When he reached the wooden table, he started working and arranging the flowers before wrapping it with the wrapper. As he was about to finish his masterpiece, he froze on his spot and realized something.

He forgot about the ribbon.

"Argh!" Bokuto groaned, his lips turning into a pout as he frowns at his own stupidity. 

But was it his fault though? Technically, Akaashi was the one who handed him the wrapper without the ribbon. So it was Akaashi's fault… but that doesn't sound right. Because he was the one who forgot to ask Akaashi about the ribbon. But isn't it Akaashi's role to give him the ribbon? Since he was the one gave him the wrapper? But then he was the one who's gonna use it? Shouldn't it be his responsibility?

Still stuck with his own thoughts, Bokuto picks up the loose bouquet on the table and started walking towards the exit. He was too deep in thought that he didn't see the brick lying on the ground, making him almost trip. Luckily, no damages were done. He was able to balance himself and catch the bouquet before it fell on the ground. 

Although he didn't expect the scenery he'll see in front of him.

There you are, squatting in front of the pile of peonies, inhaling the scent that the flowers gives off. Bokuto doesn't know, but he suddenly felt like he was out of breath. It felt like something was restraining him from taking oxygen inside his lungs, his head fogging for no reason. 

He feels like… he was drowning. 

The feeling is too intense, too strong for his own liking. 

God, what is happening to me?

A sudden tug at his heart made him jolt, sudden realization downing on him.

Is this… it? Has he already found the 'someone' his mom always talked about? Heat rose on his cheeks and neck, making his face red to the point where the redness reached his ears. All of a sudden, he felt shy.

Has he always been like this? Too scared to even say a word to someone he just met? Someone as beautiful and majestic as you? 

As if feeling his gaze boring inside your soul, you lift up your head, eyes meeting his golden ones. It was as if his feelings and emotions were passed unto you, because you suddenly jolted, standing up as your face slowly started heating up, making you flustered.

As if on instinct, Bokuto handed the bouquet of loose peonies to you out of surpise. He even bowed down, his face so flushed you could almost see steams coming out of his ears. 

"C-congratulations! You're our 54th costumer today! Please accept this flowers as a prize!" He blurted out suddenly. Too sudden that you were taken aback at his actions, making you step backward. 

"I- uhm… I- wha-" Your words came out as gibberish. You can't even understand what you're trying to say, for you were too shocked and surprised at what's happening.

Wait, what the fuck is really happening?

You have no absolute clue about what was happening. All you know was that your heart is beating to damn fast that you couldn't almost breath properly, the tug on your heart as you look at the man in front of you, and of course.

The smell of peonies in your hands. 

[daggery]

Jesper for the ask game??

first impression: iconic “spell forgive me in bullets on your chest” quote. when i read soc i always notice how he has the least main character-y introduction imo. in his first scene he’s mostly there to make it more lighthearted and show the bond btwn the dregs. he stands out more than the minor characters, but he wasn’t the pov character like inej and he didn’t stand out the way kaz obviously did so i hadn’t immediately recognized him as a main character. i don’t think this is a bad thing though and when i realized he was a main character i was really pleased because he seemed like a fun character

impression now: i just? think he’s good? i mean. he’s GOOD. something something he’s a criminal something something HE’S SO GOOD. like his conversation with inej near the end of CK directly followed by him going to talk with his dad to tell him the truth. he wants to be a good person, he wants to take care and protect his friends and family, he’s trying and he’s struggling and. i love him so so SO much. on the list of soc characters i really want to give a hug to he’s somewhere up there. also he wears lime green and lemon yellow together because he can and i adore him for that too. asks for an explosives guy on every job. ate a literal trough of waffles in apple syrup because he was dared to. not just girls! gonna get wylan’s ghost to teach his ghost to play the flute to annoy kaz. that’s why we call him wylan van sunshine. his iconic moments are limitless (just like my love for him) (the audience groans)

favorite moment: as always there are always so many but right now i’m going to go with all his moments with colm because i’ve been thinking about them recently, and his relationship with his parents in general. “i’m dying anyway, da. i’m just doing it slow.” jesper feels so much guilt but also anger because colm tried to protect him but wound up hurting him but above all jesper and colm care for and love each other so deeply and i!!!!! 😭 i love love. also going to mention when he talked about the oil market for a whole hour to stall the merchers because lmfao. for show jesper the first one i think of is when he shoots the card in inej’s mouth in order to join the performance troupe. when i watched that, i just Felt So Much at that moment. also the scene where he beats ivan

idea for a story: idk exactly but i do have some general things i think would be fun to see. i would love to read thoughts about an au where kaz and jesper are university friends. i would also love an au where kaz and jesper are farm boy friends. i have no idea how that would come about but i’d like it lol. misc kaz&wylan&jesper crimes but make it funny, because of that one part in rule of wolves where wylan said something about kaz only ever showing up at their house when he wanted them to do something illegal. also jesper using his powers more!! in rule of wolves, iirc, zoya mentions how the materialki work around wesper’s house was amateurish meaning jesper’s been experimenting and practicing, so idk that would be good to explore!!

unpopular opinion: i have only ever seen ppl gush over this scene so im standing here like 🧍‍♂️ is it just me. am i being dumb. but i have mixed feelings about the goat in the show when it comes to jesper. it was amusing and it was cute. but when the crows crossed the fold, jesper freaking out and yelling “so this is how i’m going to die?” while needing to hug the "emotional support goat” to calm down felt jarring and out of character. sentence 1 of chapter 11 in six of crows: “jesper always felt better when people were shooting at him.” he thrives when he’s in danger! it makes him focus! that’s like half the point of his later character development.

at first it felt like the entire bit with jesper needing an emotional support goat was there for comic relief and to intentionally turn it into a big fandom meme at the expense of jesper’s characterization. like the fact that ppl are saying things like "the conductor knew that jesper would panic in near-death situations so he specially brought along a goat lol" ??? but like, would jesper?? would he????? but thankfully the scene turned out ok bc he did his badass volcra shooting thing. the way im choosing to read that is that he’s just dramatic and wanted to scream about how he’s gonna die before he saved the day. i love the huge grin he has when they clear the fold and he goes to sit back down.

but fandom still latched onto the goat thing. which like, emotional support goat = good! if petting and hugging the goat makes jesper happy, good!! but it still reminds me of the Bad Feelings i had about jesper’s characterization in that fold scene so i’m still going keep insistently pointing to six of crows chapter 11 sentence 1

favorite relationship: INEJ JESPER BEST FRIENDS BEST FRIENDS BEST FRIENDS. they are so good and i am so happy that the show gave us so much new content for them pre-SOC, and whenever i see inesper fanart i get so happy. also height difference. hc tallest crow and smallest crow!! they’re just bffs i don’t know what else to tell you. and wesper of course <3333 lol i’m on a jesper&inej&kaz kick right now because of s&b, but i can’t wait for wylan to show up

favorite headcanon: wesper and kuwei become friends after crooked kingdom! maybe three or four years after CK, they bump into each other again and at first it’s an awkward Haha glad to see you’re not dead because last time we saw each other we all almost died and also wylan threatened to push kuwei into the canal because kuwei kept hitting on his boyfriend Or Whatever Situation, but slowly over time they all become closer. it’s a chill, slowly growing friendship type of thing where one day, years later, they’ve just naturally become true friends who can confide and trust in one another. idk the details, i just think they should be friends!!!! they’re invited to each others’ weddings. ALSO give him earrings. he’s a hot bitch who deserves earrings

[japanimee]

home (sero hanta x reader)

summary/background after your boyfriend, sero, breaks up with you, you go home to visit your family. meanwhile, sero realizes that the reason he broke up with you was dumb. you were home, but sero discovers that his home was with you. (pt. 2!)

warning(s) angst, profanity

gif credit belongs to @foolishchesspawn​

sero had never felt so... wrong.

it was strange to wake up in an empty bed, and know that it would remain that way. some mornings you’d come straight from your apartment and fall into the covers with him, giggling and loving on him until noon. the notion alone made him feel colder than ever. whether than cold was physical or simply coursing through his nerves, he couldn’t tell.

he was scrolling through his instagram feed, wrapped up in blankets. it was one of those days where he couldn’t get himself out of bed. on these mornings, you’d always barge in and drag him out while giggling. and he’d start laughing, too. but he had ruined that.

with these thoughts in mind, he looked for your profile. seeing you had one new post, his thumb hovered over the profile. he knew if one of his friends had been there, they would’ve told him not to do it. though he was the one being stupid, they don’t need him any more hurt than he already is.

he looked over your profile picture, seeing a picture of you smiling instead of the picture of you on his back. with a sigh, he clicked onto your profile.

almost everything was the same as it was a week ago. his name was taken out of your bio, his face was taken out of your profile picture, and any photos of the two of you together was either deleted or archived. he didn’t know which he would’ve preferred. he wondered if you or mina had been the one to take them down in the first place.

he clicked onto your newest post. it was a picture of you with a goofy smile that made him smile despite himself. you were laying somewhere, one of your siblings making a face at the flash of your camera. a different sibling was a simple blur in the background, obviously laughing.

lovinyn family therapy <3

though the picture was only posted an hour ago, it had over six hundred likes and many comments already.

queenoaliens my favs!! tell my real parents i love them

bakusplosion say bye before you leave next time..

sharkiri take your time at home! we’ll be here when you get back <3

pikadenki bring home some brownies o.o

allmightfan1 tell your siblings to be careful!! looks like s/n’s falling...

ribbitkawaii @//pikadenki i second the brownies motion...

jiradio missin u

snrox getting rid of toxic vibes check

after reading that last comment, he quickly shut off his phone, sighing heavily with a frustrated groan. he buried his head back into his pillow. his heart ached uncontrollably, and the ache spread through his chest, into his neck, and tickled his brain. god, he was an idiot.

“i think we need to break up,” he said, so softly that he prayed you hadn’t heard it. prayed he could take it back before you even knew. he felt his own heart stop.

“what?” you breathed, breaking away from the arm over your shoulder, your eyes catching his in an instant. he turned his gaze away. “hanta, what?”

he took a breath, remembering the words he had practiced in the mirror days before. “i don’t love you anymore.” and he looked up to meet your eyes.

he watched your heart break. “wh-what?” your voice was hushed now, choked. you scooted farther away from him, and he felt unbearably cold. cold and wrong. “y-you don’t... anymore?” you brought your shaking hands up to your face, holding them over your eyes for a moment as you tried to compose yourself.

he wanted so desperately to take it back, to stop the cold and wrongness from coursing through his veins. he reached a hand out, but you stood in that instant. tears streamed down your face as you made for the door.

“mina will be here to get my stuff tomorrow.”

your voice was cold now, trying to brush him off.

“y/n-”

“what,” you demanded, whipping around to him. but as he looked into your watery eyes, your upset expression, he couldn’t find words. you just sighed, grabbing your jacket from the coat rack and leaving before he could blink again.

he looked at his reflection in the black screen of his phone, seeing nothing but tired eyes and a deep frown. he closed his eyes and sighed, slipping his phone into the pocket of his sweatpants before shaking his covers off and getting out of bed.

when he entered his bathroom, looking into the mirror was a chore. all he saw in his reflection was a broken half; half of a whole he had broken.

“you’re a fucking idiot,” was the first thing bakugou said when sero finally picked up his phone. before he could retort, he threw out again, “what the hell were you thinking? oh hey, life’s good, time to throw out the best fucking part of it?! where do you get off?!”

sero hung up before anything else could be said, dropping his head in his hands. his phone dinged with another notification and he took a deep breath before picking the device back up. he had ignored so many texts that morning.

bakugou pick up your goddamn phone.

eijiro call me when you can eijiro what happened man?

ashido did something happen with you and y/n ? ashido she’s at my apartment balling !

denki are you okay?

ashido you’re an asshole.

eijiro im coming over.

and most recently:

yn <3 mina will be over around three.

he dropped his phone onto the floor. he didn’t look at it again until the next day. 

after he finally showered, he sat down for breakfast in a kitchen that felt too empty. if you weren’t falling into bed with him in the mornings, you were dragging him out to a breakfast you had perfectly prepared for him. he’d always shower you in kisses before he ate, and you’d giggle the entire time. his heart ached at the memory.

to distract himself, he got his phone back out, opening up instagram again. he scrolled through some of his friends’ pictures until he found that your sibling had posted something, halting his actions. he had forgotten that he was following them.

there were three pictures: one of you leaning against their shoulder, the light of your phone illuminating your upset features, another of you with uno cards in your hand, but staring at the wall instead of the game or your other participating family, and the final of your mother frowning and holding you in her arms, her eyes shut as your expression was tired and upset.

snrox @ the asshole that broke my sister’s heart, fuck you

queenoaliens who taught you cuss words???

snrox ... @//bakusplosion

bakusplosion @//snrox not cool.

despite the cruel, heartbreaking post, he missed your family. he remembered the first time he met them; your siblings stuck to him like glue, asking him questions left and right as you laughed and batted them away. your parents were patient and kind with him, though your father made a few jabs at him. he was even missing those little threats and promises.

he wished he had never done it. but he felt like he wasn’t good enough for you. like he’d never be. if you were there, hearing these thoughts, you’d kiss him into next week. you’d shower him with your love and affection until he was smiling again with you in his arms. but after you’d leave, he’d just feel like he’d further proven his point.

so he knew to get rid of this feeling, he had to get rid of you. and it would hurt like hell, but he knew some guy out there was perfect for you, enough for you. and he was waiting for you. and who was some boring guy like him to be standing in the way?

but he missed your smile. he missed how warm you always were, even when you said you were cold. he missed teasing you about “making up excuses to cuddle”. he missed the way you’d light up a room. he missed how every insecurity he had would disappear with you, because you made him feel perfect.

“im gonna kick his ass into next week,” mina grumbled as she watched you frown at yourself in the bathroom mirror. you let out a short laugh and bowed your head. “fuck that, next month.”

“mina, don’t,” you said, sliding your hand against the counter as you turned to look at her.

she sighed as you looked back at your reflection, tucking a piece of hair behind your ear. “i hate seeing you look into the mirror like that.”

your head turned back to her. “like what?”

“like there’s something wrong with what you’re seeing,” she said gently, stepping closer to you. you sniffed, your frown deepening. she quickly wrapped her arms around you.

“but there has to be,” you choked, squeezing your eyes shut as hot tears fell.

“no, no,” she soothed, pressing her face into your hair as you hiccuped into her shoulder. “there’s nothing wrong with you. sero is such an idiot. you’re absolutely perfect.”

“then why doesn’t he want me?” you whispered, so softly it was almost muffled by her shoulder.

she placed her chin atop your head, looking at her own murderous expression in the mirror. she didn’t answer.

you laughed as your older sibling dragged you onto the roof of your house. when you were younger, it was where you’d take each other when things got hard and all you needed were the stars and the rolling sight of your hometown.

“oh! i forgot something!” they hummed. “i’ll be right back!”

they slipped back into the cracked window. you shoved your hands in your pockets, looking out on the familiar town. it had been so long since you’d been home. the last time you were here was with him...

you shook the thought out easily. you ignored the buzzing of your phone as you looked up to the stars in the sky. the overwhelming sight made your head spin, and you giggled at yourself as you carefully sat and laid down. the buzzing stopped after you pieced together three familiar constellations.

it started again, but you ignored it again. you just wanted to feel the breeze of home air, to let yourself get lost like you used to. and it was so easy to get lost in the simple place that was home. all you had dreamed of back then was leaving that town, getting into the world. now all you wanted to do was lay there forever. well, maybe with mina by your side. the buzzing stopped.

you closed your eyes, letting your nose flood with the scents of your mom’s homemade dinner leaking through the open kitchen window. as that breeze whipped through again, your mind finally cleared. your heart felt a little lighter.

then the buzzing started again. with a jolt, you sat up. you slipped your phone out of your back pocket, and almost froze.

sero hanta </3 is calling... 

accept/deny

your heart raced in your chest. you glanced down briefly to see if your sibling was heading back up. you couldn’t tell. you gulped.

accept.

“hello..?” you said carefully, hoping he had misdialed, hoping he would hang up at the sound of your voice. hoping he wasn’t calling to break your heart any more after you went to the only place that could piece it back together.

“i made a mistake.”

[seraphicwiing]

Video Analysis #5- CRISIS CORE (The Truth/’You Will Rot’) 

Alright folks, the wait is over. As promised, I finally have written up my analysis of this very pivotal point in Sephiroth’s tragic timeline. After all of the posts I have made leading up to this, we have learnt of his compassion, his friendship, his loyalty and his martial prowess. Tonight, we’re going to delve into the start of his madness. Buckle your seatbelts peeps and grab some popcorn, this is gonna be a long one. The clip is 3 minutes long, hopefully the analysis I write doesn’t ramble on for too long. Sit back, relax and enjoy the read! (Also testing out a new format for these types of posts with more structured topics and headings <3)

Context

Before we talk about the scene linked below, we must first talk about the events leading up to Genesis’ being an utter douchebag to his little brother and pulling him further into the madness that would lead to his downfall. Sephiroth and Zack arrive at the Nibelheim reactor and quickly discover that not all is as it seems. The pods containing experiments from past JENOVA projects are revealed to the two SOLDIERS and it begins to make Sephiroth question his entire existence. He had been deprived of the truth his whole life, and even now at the cusp of it all his mind is breaking because he can’t tell what is right and what is wrong anymore. Even with Zack trying to help him, the information thrusted at him is all too much for him to bare. 

ShinRa had no idea how fragile Sephiroth’s mental state actually was, nor did they consider the fact that maybe sending Sephiroth to Nibelheim may not be such a good idea considering what was hidden there. But that’s a story for another time, let’s get this started!

‘Am I... A human being?’

Here we begin to see the slow breaking of the once proud hero. The way he says those words, the tone of which he conveys his shock and utter sadness at the fact that the life given to him is most likely nothing more than a fruitless lie. This is such a stark contrast to the Sephiroth we all knew and loved when speaking to his friends in past analysis videos. It hurts a lot more for me since I absolutely adore this character and just hearing him slowly lose his mind really hits me in the gut. After this we see Genesis confirm albeit in the most cruel, heartless and condescending way possible that Sephiroth was an experiment and while Sephiroth really didn’t need to believe a word Genesis said, his psyche had already been broken. All this information being thrown at him is such a huge tidal wave of emotion, it’s no wonder Sephiroth felt overwhelmed. 

(“No such luck. You are a monster.” Okay small tangent for a second: Genesis in this scene is doing himself no favours at all. He wants Sephiroth’s help so that he can live right? Why tell him that he’s a monster and droll on and on about how his life was a lie and that his mother wasn’t actually a real human being but an otherworldly cosmic entity AKA a Monster? AND THEN PROCEED TO ASK HIM FOR HELP THINKING THAT HE’LL JUST WILLINGLY ACCEPT? As I told a good friend of mine: Genesis is such an idiot. I AM SORRY GENESIS RPERS OKAY, I LOVE HIS CHARACTER BUT THE WAY HE ACTS IN THIS SCENE IS SO FUCKING DUMB)

Genesis calls Sephiroth the ‘Greatest Monster Created by the Jenova Project’. And this is 100% truth, we’ve all seen just how strong he is, how special Sephiroth is. This is Genesis trying to turn him onto his side by appealing to the monster and detaching him from his human self. But this was a completely wrong way to do it, especially with a fragile mind like Sephiroth’s. He wanted to be human but he knew he somehow wasn’t in a way, he was always detached. And while he always opened up to people in a manner of which was incredibly kind hearted, he always felt like his brith wasn’t normal. Now finding out the truth, he DOES NOT want to be a monster, he DOES NOT want to be considered compartively to the beasts that were in the pods and with Genesis’ continual insistence that Sephiroth is nothing more than a monster, the small rope that was keeping his mind in check was slowly breaking under the large weight of the truth. 

‘Poor little Sephiroth. You’ve never actually met your mother.” 

Here is where things get super bad for our soon to be psychopath. Genesis throws out all of his cards onto the field, revealing the truth about Sephiroth’s existence and also revealing the truth about his mother: JENOVA. Genesis was right, Sephiroth had no idea who his mother was other than the supposed truths that ShinRa told him. I like to believe that when Sephiroth was growing up, they gave him a forged picture of what his mother looked like AKA JENOVA and from that day onwards, Sephiroth has always conjured that image in his head, that same picture is on his desk back at Shinra HQ and he cherishes it. It makes it hurt so much more watching the scene with this in mind as Genesis further digs into Sephiroth’s heart by mentioning that she was nothing more than a monster and whatever he clung onto was a giant fat lie. 

Notice how Sephiroth turns away from Genesis, the natural smile is gone. His stance, his posture has gone. He’s almost lurching forward, his confident strides naught but small steps forward. His eyes are wide and close at times, he is trying so hard to process everything but it’s all coming too fast for him to handle This form of coercion employed by Genesis may have worked on Angeal but Sephiroth? Hell no. It’s also quite amusing that Genesis knocks Sephiroth out of his confused state by calling him by his full title. SOLDIER: 1ST CLASS, SEPHIROTH. He says it similarly to how a general would do a roll call of his cadets before training, and this is literally conveying Genesis’ belief that he is in full control of Sephiroth, he holds the cards, he holds the power over his little brother this time. He believes that Sephiroth will give him what he wants. Little did he know how wrong he would be however. 

‘What do you want of me?’ 

Genesis’ motivations are finally made clear and we learn what makes Sephiroth so special when it comes to the JENOVA Project. We finally learn of the project where Angeal and Genesis originated from as well as the the one where Sephiroth was from. I’ll let Genesis say why in the video becaue he’ll explain it better than I can, I’ll end up butchering it if I tried. Basically what he wants is Sephiroth to share his cells so that he can stop his degradation. He’s slowly dying a painful death and Sephiroth can stop that because his cells have been perfected. Sephiroth has remained quiet this entire time, pondering the truth while Genesis flaps his gums about being saved, he has already made the decision in his head of what he wants to do. 

‘The Truth I have sought all my life. You will R O T.’ 

And here we finally reach the end. Sephiroth with no remorde left in his heart, his mind deadset on now learning the truth of his birth, denies and what I believe he also does is disown Genesis as a friend and brother. All the memories they shared, all the times they recited and enacted ‘Loveless’ together with Angeal, all of that is now dust in the wind. His expression, the deadpan stare that he gives Genesis is a lot more similar to the evil Sephiroth scowl we all know and love. The way in which he speaks, gone is the relatively light hearted, dry humoured tone of the hero that everyone looked up too when trying to become a soldier. No, he speaks with rage and grief in his tongue. He is legitimately torn asunder after the revalation. Whether it be lie or truth that came from Genesis, he’s done with his brother. Their friendhip is over. And at last, he delivers probably the most scathing, delicious and satisfying burns in Final Fantasy. Not only does he reject Genesis, he literally tells him to ROT. To DECAY! He tells Genesis in the most fitting way to just ‘GO DIE’. ‘THEN PERISH’. It’s one of my favourite insults in Final Fantasy ever. It’s nice to see the sarcastic wit hadn’t died with Sephiroth’s kind hearted nature. 

The scene ends with Sephiroth heading to ShinRa Manor to find further information of his existence while Genesis is left at the reactor. The closing words being: ‘ I see, perfect monter indeed...’. Genesis was actually surprised when Sephiroth denied him, it was quite a priceless reaction if I do say so myself.

I guess this is a fitting way to conclude with a very salty Genesis and a very angy Sephiroth. I want to thank you all for sticking with it this far I know this was a lot longer than normal but there was so much information to digest. I hope I didn’t waffle or state anything that was super obvious from the clip. This’ll probably be the last one for a while as this definitely took a lot of steam out of me. But yes, I’m glad so many of you enjoy this, if you have any scene requests that you'd want to see me have a shot at IM me <3

[onepunchmiss]

OPM s2e12 Live Blog

“The Wiping of the Disciple’s Butt”

The season finale. I’m nauseous. Lets begin. 

As always, I’m watching from the perspective of someone who has read the manga and webcomic. 

Right where we left off. Again I love the music. I’m just like, really calm right now actually. hhhhhhhhhhhokay. OOF oh god all the crunching sound effects oh no, this is already so weird watching Garou get his ass handed to him since he’s pretty much curb stomped every other hero in battle thus far, or at the VERY LEAST avoided taking so many hits. This. is so uncomfortable to watch. WOAH ????? THESE SHOTS WERE ONLY THERE FOR A SPLIT SECOND BUT??? HOLY SHIT???

GAROU’S HAIR OH MY GOD 

Oh god oh god Bang is relentless this hurts please stop guys GUYS PLZ  HAS NO ONE REALISED THAT NOT ONE HERO HAS DIED CMON PLZ IT HURTS calm down stop trying to kill him plsplspls OH

THIS 

IS WHY

WE STAN GAROU

HE SAYS FUCK DEATH HOW ABOUT I JUST GET STRONGER INSTEAD QUE EPIC THEME MUSIC

oh god damnit him legit running on all fours right there just looks goofy tho F “preposterous style” Bang you aint lying asdfghjkl really though OH MY GOD EVERYONE IS DRAWN SO BEAUTIFULLY THIS IS SO BLESSED 

WAIT 

NO OPENING THEME???????????????????? WHAT?????????????????????? WHY????????????????????????? ONE, I WANTED TO SEE THE CHIBI OF THE WEEK AND 2 

I WASNT PREPARED FOR MY FAVORITE DOPEY BIRD MAN THE FUCK PHOENIXMAN PLS NO ILY I know people hate him a lot but I just really dig how he feels like a fleshed out character compared to most other monsters, like he’s legit lookit him being all smart and stuff plz I just,,,,,,,,,,,, want to hug dumb fluffy birb ;-;

Woah again I’m being blown away by the animation??? Garou getting smacked around is really fluid and this just looks really cool in general?????

FUCK I CANT DO FLASHBACKS MAN JUST HEARING THE KID VOICE MAKED MY STOMACH LURCH OH NO 

OH NO I SCREAM OH NO I CANT OH NO GIMME 5 MINUTES PLEASE I CANNOT BBY NO I FORGOT ADULT GAROU IS IN THE FLASHBACK WATCHING THIS TIME PLS NO 

LIKE???????? I got kinda a comedic vibe watching him comment on it in the manga but the slow music and shit is just FUKKIN ME UP RIGHT NOW I HATE IT THANKS IT HURTS

oh god his face he has the seething thousand mile stare of quiet rage and its burning a hole STRAIGHT THROUGH MY ENTIRE BEING “But me I was the loner kid. Always gloomy and without friends” STOP. YOU STOP THAT RIGHT THIS INSTANT. IM CRYING AT U RIGHT NOW STOP

NO DONT HOLD HIM LET HIM GO S T O P OR SO HELP ME i can’t watch this what the fuck “I was always the loser” SHIT this legitimately hurts me “I dont want to be the monster anymore” GArou hey did you hear that part?? hEY GAROU DID YOU HEAR YOURSELF THERE??? 

WHAT DID I SAY WHAT THE F DID I JUST SAY STOP HOLDING HIM STOP STOPPIT  THE HELL MAN What if……….. I just go BACK IN TIME AND ADOPT BB GAROU CAN I DO THAT IS THIS POSSIBLE IS THIS ALLOWED ? ?? ?

oh my god it keeps getting worse. I mean. I already knew garou was being disproportionately reprimanded for what he supposedly did, but watching this scene just fucking kicked me in the teeth. As if my stomach wasn’t already in knots. The fuck . why does this hurt so much more watching than reading the frustration in seeping into me ffffff.

This looks really cool but, i can barely focus on that because im pretty much being exsanguinated on the floor over here by this whole sequence look at him crying. do it for me cause I sure as hell can’t 

“I want to strike a blow for the little guy”

Fukkin GETTEM GO GETTEM 

HOLY SHIT HIS VA IS GOING T F OFF 

AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH LOOKIT HIM ILY SO MUCH SAVE THE DAY BIRB SAVE 

ASDFGHJKL THIS IS SO INTENSE EVERYONE IS SO INTENSE I KNOW WHAT HAPPENS BUT HOLY SHIT FUCK IM SCREAMING GAROU IS SCREAMING BANG AND BOMB SCREAMING GENOS AND EVEN PHOENIXMAN EVEN THE MUSIC IS SCREAM WE ALL JUST SC R E M

OH MY GOD AND THE LITTLE HEAD NOT GENOS AND BANG GIVE EACHOTHER SAVING THE HEROES OH MY GOD OH FUCK AND THE WAY THEY ANIMATE BANG JUMPING AROUND IS DOPE AS HELL AND ALSO HOLY SHIT ELDER CENTIPEDE I MISSED THE UNSETTLING SMOOTH CG LIKE ANIMATION FOR THE CENTIPEDES EVERY CELL IN MY BODY IS JUST SCREAMING RN I AM OVERLOAD HELP 

Garou flailing in the air in Phoenixman’s grip is … really adorable oh my god. “It’s your fault for not finishing them” ooooooo that shut him up didn’t it oof. Also nice cameo by Tatsumaki there 

ASDFGHJKL THE MUSIC AGAIN I LOVE IT I LOVE THEM LOOK AT THEM OH MY GOD 

THIS IS SO BAD ASS

EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS IS SO BADASS

Genos’s eye static, The brother’s fists swirling, THE FUKKIN CARAPACE SHATTERING 

THIS FIGHT IS SO WILD MY COMPUTER CANT EVEN TAKE IT. ITS GLITCHING AND FREEZING UP HOLY SHIT

oh god ok the face coming out of the face was pure nightmare fuel alright then

WAIT

I FORGOT GENOS IS A SELF SACRIFICING DUMBASS. NO IM NOT READY GENOS YOU DOOF LISTEN TO KUSENO LISTEN TO HIM 

oh no 

oh no

im crying oh no

this animation is beautiful first of all and the music like im just here this is where I’m at and I’m crying oh no 

He’s an angel. A literal angel. Look at that and tell me he doesn’t look like a fucking angel in the sky with the rays of light casting shadows around him. 

Genos you are too good and pure for this world but that DOESNT MEAN TRY TO GET YOURSELF KILLED 

Shit they really made it look like he was gonna self destruct there for a second which MADE HIS LAST STAND EVEN MORE INTENSE OH MY GOD SWEETHEART Y’all ever get into a show because you keep seeing one character that catches your interest, and you keep seeing them pop up on your dash or wherever until you finally decide ‘well fuckit, this is the asshole that’s gonna get me to finally watch the show’, cause you’re already invested in them anyway? Genos did that for me with OPM. If this fool didn’t exist Who knows how long it would’ve taken me to get to watching OPM, if ever. And shit like this is why I STILL love him. I usually move on to new faves 90% of the time but nope. Genos earned his spot and is keeping it. Look at this insane shit. My heart. Uhg

Enough gushing asdfghjkl ok but Genos, you just went INTO THE DAMNED THING’s STOMACH,,,,, and you’re SURPRISED that there’s STOMACH ACID?? But real talk. What the EVERLONG FUCK is that thing’s insides made out of? How did it NOT DIE. the FuCK

asdfghjkl Phoenixman’s chuckle???? I love 

Oh Bang no, this is wrenching my heart like I know that he doesn’t actually use his power but its built up so intensely like,,, would he be ok if he did??? and actually more concerningly since it even WAS brought up that he has some hidden true strength, will we EVER get to see that??? Oh Shit well when they word it as “All the power left to me in this life” then yeah, that seems pretty life or death ish???? THE FUCK 

Oh thank god comedic relief is here I feel like i’m about to have a heart attack my chest is so tight hhhhhh ok breathe WAIT THIS ISNT COMEDIC THIS IS BADASS AS HELL JEEZUS witht he flashbacks to the Saitama encounter and THIS LOOK

The Anime is really fucking with the audience huh??? Making it look like KIngs about to throw hands like???????????? OH SHIT AND THIS MUSIC IS DOPE AS HELL TOO IM JUST laughing I have so much excessive energy right now???

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHAHAHZAHAHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASDFGHJKLJHGFDSWERTGYHUIUJHGFDFGHJKJHGFRE THE FUKKIN SONG THEY BROUGHT IT BACK THE ULTIMATE SONG I GOT THREE NOTES IN JUST THREE NOTES AND I KNOW IM SCREAMING I GOTTA GO RUN BRB 

IM STILL SCREAMING FADFJSAGFJDSLKAHVFSKLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA OUR MAIN MAN THERE HE IS THERE HE IS IM GONNA THROW UP 

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAEIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII

OH MY FUCK THATS WHAT THE OPENING SEQUENCE EXPLOSION WAS FROM OH GOD OH FUCK BEAUTIFUL THIS IS BEAUTIFUL OH FUCK OH GOD 

The REPRISE oh no oh NO OH NO OH NO NO ITS NOT OVER im not ready its not I cant no no no i dont want to press play cause if I press play it will end soon no no no Oh my god and at the end there isnt gonna be a title card for the next episode because THERE IS NO NEXT EPISODE no non o nonononon on on on ono no no no 

NO 

HEY IVE BEEN RIPPED OFF. WHERES THE FACE WITH HIS HAIR BLOWN BACK??? ASDFJKL fine I cant even be mad everything else was tooo  ofdbghjfshkggfhsjgbfhjka

KING WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT REACTION ASDFGHJKL W H A T 

WAIT THEY ARE DOING THE OPENING THEME AT THE END NO I CANT HANDLE SEEING EVERYOONE NOW OF ALL TIMES GOD DAMNIT WHY ok yknow what. I knew it would be king. I dont know how but i did 

Wha

wh

fkin cliffhanger no please no 

I.. I’m kind of at a loss for words. I’m. That’s it, huh? It’s really over. It doesn’t FEEL over. There’s so much unfinished business. Well, the only way to really neatly wrap everything up as neatly as S1 did would have been to get ALL THE WAY through the Garou arc, which obviously wasn’t going to happen, but this is not a great spot to leave off if we’re going to endure another few years hiatus. My hope is that, with biweekley manga updates, we should wrap up the Monster Association/Garou stuff (assuming it doesn’t diverge from the web comic too much) some time next year, and I’m HOPING that s3 is already being planned accordingly along side manga publications. So MAYBE it will at least be announced around that time 2020. That’s my wishful thinking at least. I don’t think I can survive 3 years. anyway

You could really tell JC Staff poured their hearts and souls into these last 2 episodes. Absolutely gorgeous, paced well, so completely satisfying and making every second of s2 worth while. For me, at least. I’ve already seen people still complaining and I’m just sorry they didn’t have as much fun as I did. 

Seriously, thank each and every one of you guys. This has been a wild ride, I’ve barely had this blog a few weeks before season 2 started airing (and honestly just got into opm maybe a month before that?), so I owe a lot of the success on the blog to the anime I bet. This was the first series I’ve never tried live bogging, and I honestly can’t believe that they were as popular as they were? Especially since I never have any idea what I’m doing but yall listen to me ramble anyway?? Yall are crazy thank you so so so much. Now my tuesdays are gonna feel really empty… next week is gonna be weird as hell. Though I’m gonna get mad nostalgic good vibes rewatching this season in the future in no small part from sharing my experience with everyone who's stuck around. I can’t say see yall next week this time, but, see you next season whenever it may be for sure.

[useraew]

Colson baker x female reader

requested by anon

 “I’m not gonna lie, I’m really turned on by that”

“I can’t believe I’m sitting in a jail cell with you of all people”

 “You wanna get food at 2 am?”

Laying in bed while trying to sleep, back and forth i moved in the bed as my phone went off making my eyes open wide. Sliding my phone open to a new text message from my boyfriend, i rolled my eyes at his message.  “You wanna get food at 2 am?” Realizing the time was only 1 am, i came reluctant to his message but knowing Colson, he’d beg me to get my ass over to his place.  

Quickly as i changed my clothes, i put my hair in a ponytail and pulled my hoodie over my head. Texting him back “im coming over” you locked your phone and left your house shortly after. 

Approaching his house, before you could get out of the car, Colson appeared out of his door and practicality ran over to you at your car.  “Baby!” Running in your arms he noticed your yawn as he let go of you. “Aw is my baby tired?” Giving him a glare, i gave him a little punch on the side of his arm. “Ouch babe, whats wrong with you?” 

Still giving him a hard look, i rolled my eyes. “Of course im tired you texted me about getting food at 2 am which, looking back at your phone it was going on 2 as they spoke, It’s almost 2 now” As they both got into your car, Colson grabbed your hand which made you look at him. “i’m sorry baby, i just missed you and wanted to spend more time with you” “We literally saw each other earlier today though?” Colson leaned back into his seat and gave you puppy dog eyes. “i just missed my girl.” Letting out a smile hearing those words you started your car again. 

The drive to the store was nice and peaceful as you hummed to yourself as your boyfriend watched you here and there. Pulling in the parking lot, you found a spot in the front and turned off the car. Shutting your door, Colson repeated your actions and took a hold of your hand and held it as you both walked up to the entrance of the store. 

Colson grabbed a cart for you to push around once you started getting in the aisles. “Babe what are we getting?” you asked Colson as looked down the section for the chips. Colson grabbed a couple bags of chips and placed them in the cart as he looked back at me finally. “Chips, alcohol,candy,and condoms” Giving me a knowing look as he mentioned condoms. I followed him around the store and as he finally got to the condoms he looked for his brand. Looking through the brands he found other fun flavors. I could see his smirk as he turned to me. 

“Y/n why don’t we get Bacon,Vanilla,Bubblegum,Chocolate,Strawberry and Cola flavored condoms!” Giving Colson a glare as he handed me the package of condoms to look at. “Babe as much as i love are sex life what’s the point of buying of these?” As Colson took the package back from me he gave me those puppy dog eyes. “This could be fun baby please” Shrugging my shoulders i gave out a tired sigh, “fine Colson lets get it” Following Colson to the self checkout he happily pulled at his card and put the items through the system. 

As I started the car Colson looked out the window as i was beginning to pass a abandoned park. “Y/n can we go to that park?” “What no babe don’t you wanna go home? it’s going on 3 am now” Colson sigh as i stopped at the red light that was next to the empty park. “Oh come one baby live a little?” Without looking back at Colson i knew he was gonna be annoying about this. “PLEASE Y/N PLEASE” “ColsoN STOP” As the light turned green to get him to shut up i turned the corner where the park was and pulled in. 

Watching Colson get out of the car i followed him to the slide. It was like i was his mom watching him go down the slide as he made funny faces at me. “Come on Y/n come down the slide with me” As i sat down Colson wrapped his arms around my stomach and kissed my cheek. In my ear he whispered to me. “Thanks for taking me here” Giving him eye contact i gave him a worried look. “what’s wrong love?” “Sometimes i just miss being a child and im glad i have you in my life Y/n, i sometimes just need nights like this with you babe” Giving him a peck on the lips, we went down the slide.  

As we approached the swings the sound of sirens startled me. Looking around police cars started pulling up. A few men got out and started pointing their guns at us. “PUT YOUR HANDS UP” As we put our hands up, i started shaking as my nerves played out. “DON’T SHOOT WERE WHITE” As i shouted that out Colson looked at me funny. “GET OVER HERE” As the police checked us, Colson groaned as this has happened so many times before. “GET YOUR HANDS OFF MY GIRLFRIEND” Colson barely yelled in the cops face. “ Sir i’m gonna need to you calm down.” The one lady cop spoke up towards your boyfriend. 

Once the police was done checking me, the cops found weed on Colson as i leaned up against the car being silent. “Sir how much weed is on you?” Colson laughed in his face making him push him against my car. “SIR WHAT THE HELL,DON’T FUCKING PUSH MY BOYFRIEND” “Miss i’m gonna have to ask you to be quiet” I took a step back and grew anger at the officers actions towards colson. “I WILL NOT BE QUIET YOU ARE HURTING MY BOYFRIEND” Before i could say anything else both Colson and i got pulled in the back of the cop car. 

Everything happened so fast on the way to the police station, i didn’t look at Colson at all. Looking out the window, Colson tired talking to me by whispering at me. “baby please look at me” side eyeing him i finally answering him. “what Colson im angry right now you got us arrested.” “what how is it my fault?” As your eyes scrunched down at him at how dumb he was acting. “You literally begged me to take you their and yelled at me saying PLEASE” “Oh right” Colson whispered back.  

Once we pulled out of the car one male officer pulled on me a little bit harder. “Pull on me a little bit harder im begging you” i said sarcastically as the officer grabbed my arm he followed the other one who had my boyfriend. It wasn’t too long after we were put in a cell. Taking a sit next to my boyfriend i groaned really loud.  “I can’t believe I’m sitting in a jail cell with you of all people” Colson held on to me as he felt so bad about this whole situation. “God i’m so sorry y/n i didn’t mean for this to happened” Letting go of him i sighed as i put my head on against his shoulder. “god im stupid” Coslon looked back at me and shook his head. 

“No baby you’re not stupid, it’s my fault like you said before, you’re so amazing,strong,beautiful, im so glad you put up with my shit” I shook my head back at him. “yeah but right now we’re in a fucking jail cell for trespassing you do realize that right Colson? He nodded at me as he put his hands around my arms. “yeah i do clearly, calm down babe” After another few minutes a cop came over to us. “You can have one call” Before i could get up Colson got up for me. “Babe i’m gonna call Slim okay” I shook my head at him as i watched him go to the phone. 

Once Colson finally came back, he reassured me everything was going to okay.As i leaned against the cell so i could strengthen out my legs i could feel Colson stare from the back of my head. “Y/n from you being angry to now you stretching out your legs, I’m not gonna lie, I’m really turned on by that” Walking back over to your boyfriend you hit him upside his head. “Ouch baby why did you do that?” “God i’m dating a idiot” “Yeah but you love this idiot” Colson replied back as i glared at him. “maybe” Hearing him gasp i gave out a little giggle. 

After another 10 or so minutes Slim walked in and approached us. “Guys what happened!!” “It’s Colson’s fault we ended up at a park and Colson had weed too” “I’m honestly so surprised, Y/n you’re better than this” Slim replied. “ Are you fucking kidding me Slim? Why aren’t you yelling at HIM?” “Because i’m used to this with Kells” Once the cops finally let us go i hopped in the back of Slim’s car. “I Just wanted to have some sleep god” Resting my eyes i heard the voice of Colson talking to Slim.  

“Thanks man” Colson whispered to his friend. “Of course man just try not to do this again we don’t need this being a regular thing” Coslon laughed at his friends words. 

[freewheelshippin]

30 utapri questions!

Thanks @dekiaibadchoices​ for the tag, this was an awesome way to wind down after a ton of nonstop busy busy busy!!! (and thanks for tagging this blog vs the general utapri one so i can REALLY gush LOL) Here’s the OG meme! 

1. Your best boy?

BANANAMAN RAN WHO ELSE  

2. Your least favorite boy?

“least favorite” implies dislike which...not true! truthfully it’s much of HEAVENS by nature of ‘I haven’t spent as much time getting to know these characters so I don’t really know who they are.’ (though I already know I love to go for drinks and snacks with Van hehe) i do like all of HEAVENS quite a bit from what i’ve seen so far but that affection has not had time to ripen! 

3. A character that you never thought you would love as much as you do now?

mnmnj ranran tbh 

4. A character you can relate to in any way?

I can’t answer everything with Ranmaru but like. His ambition, straightforwardness, and how the soul and spirit of music motivate him to move forward beyond a tough past are things I same hat so much ;; But HONESTLY I also relate a lot to Masa and Tokiya, especially in their moments of self-doubt and dramatic commitment to to their art? 

5. A character that you think deserves more love?

Oh, Cecil, without a doubt. He’s such a resilient, committed, and open-hearted cutie and gets really shafted by canon tbh. Which makes it harder for everyone to see what a great boy this sweetie is! But I appreciate how Shining Live has given him some room to have really cute and standout moments so everyone can love him more but okay like, give me more Ceci and Ran palling around I love him most when they’re up to shenanigans 

6. A character you would want as your partner?

well we’re posting this fuckin here so you all fuckin know (im very embarrass rn i can barely say it lmao) 

(for the record i would also very much like to be friends with reiji and syo, they are cool people i think i’d get along with! and i know myself, if i knew otoya or masato IRL i’d just be like ‘well. that’s my son now’ and basically appoint myself their tough big sis-type-friend lookin out for them lol) 

7. A character you would want as your mentor/senpai?

I would swallow a pinecone before I called him ‘onii-san’ but teach me how to network kotobuki-senpai 

(No, like, forreal, I suck so, so bad at a ton of stuff Reiji is aces at, and I respect the hell out of his *waves* general everything and skilll navigating the industry. Since I’m a goofy, jokey, overenthusiastic teacher for work a lot it’d be nice to be on the receiving end of all that energy! and be a fucking decent kouhai that isn’t so horribly unappreciative of all his hard work and good cheer ) 

8. Your favorite ship?

shut your whore mouth i dont have the marbles to write it out 

(tbh it’s also Haru/Tomo, I just feel so much more romantic chemistry between those two than Haru and any of the boys u___u  Friends’ selfship stuff goes without saying, haha, and ngl I’m kind of About a Ren/Van rivalry hatemance? can i call it a kismesis thing? it’s a kismesis thing.) 

(actually no I think I’m just a member of the “Ren Fucks and sometimes it’s Hatesex” club) 

9. A character that you want to cosplay/have already cosplayed?

I had plans to cosplay Ranmaru a couple months ago bc it’s really not much of a stretch for my wardrobe, haha, but I dunno about that anymore! Part of it was wanting the Euphoria of looking like a tough, twunky, princely anime character but tbqh I’m already that every day of my life so 

I suppose if you were to pull my leg I’d go for cosplaying Van, mostly because I wanna try that mullet on for myself. 

10. Favorite side character?

TOMO!! LOVE U BITCH WHEN WILL I HEAR U SINGGGGGG 

11. Your favorite solo song?

god this is horrible how can I decide??? so many good ones??? I think it’s a draw between Top Star Revolution, No. 1, Brand New Melody, Wild Soul, Seien Brave Heart, and Junketsu Nara Ai ~Aspiration~ ??? 

12. Your favorite duet song?

HMMMMM again too many good ones. Three-way tie between Haru Hana, NorthWind and SunShine, and Original Resonance! 

13. Your favorite trio song?

Ahhh Dream More than Love is really nostalgic bc it’s the first Utapri song I really loved, but i gotta be real. It’s just Egoistic. There’s just no getting better than Egoistic 

14. Your favorite group song?

mmmm i’m be basic. Poison Kiss 

15. Your least favorite song?

I love Ai and Shouta Aoi’s incredible voice but......I’m really not a fan of super slow, overly-saccharine songs. u__u so A.I. really, really doesn’t land with me, much less so than easygoing (like Knocking on the Mind) or somber (like Winter Blossom) songs. 

16. Your favorite singer?

ranran...it’s always ranran...

(I do also adore Natsuki’s and Camus’s voices! I tend to like deeper, richer vocal qualities, but you just can’t beat Ranmaru’s subtle growls and high-energy rock!!!! <3) 

17. Your favorite group/trio/duo?

god what combo of these idiots DONT i love? I could watch Reiji prank and tease Ranmaru all fuckin day, and I also really like it when Ran’s at his most ‘tuff big bro-y’ with, like, Ai, Otoya, and Cecil!!! but honestly I do like how the Ran/Masa/Ren trio isn’t so straightforward and is more or less held together by a thin string of professionalism, there’s something i appreciate about not forcing ppl to just bury the hatchet and be Perfect Friends but you all can still care about each other? (Ranmaru needs to be nicer to them still but...) 

i need to suggest one that isn’t ranmaru centric fjdsioafjsa i fuckin love Soccer Buds (otosyo) and I loooooove it when Otoya and Cecil are good to each other!!! 

18. Your favorite member of Starish?

they’re all my favorite but if you REALLY had to make me pick.....Masato, probably, haha. I just...if you take yourself too seriously and care so much about everything but still know how to be Nasty how can I not love you??? 

19. Your favorite member of Quartet Night?

what do you fuckin think, hoss 

20. Your favorite member of Heavens?

I mentioned earlier I don’t really know Heavens well, so ofc this is all liable to change! But off the bat I love what a conniving yet wholesome bastard Eiichi is and Van is just the kinda guy I would rib and pal around with IRL!! 

21. Your favorite seiyuu/voice actor?

Ahhh that’s tough! I love all these goofbags, and Tattsun really is just so cool and makes music I’m pretty about. But I think I gotta give it to Suwabe, his performances are always so him but still pretty varied, and how can you not adore a man who loves his chihuahuas that much??? 

(if i’m being 100% honest Tattsun lost points bc he voices my absolute least favorite character in granblue ffjsfjisda) 

22. Favorite Drama CD?

HMMMMMMM see as a certified Giant Tool for Everything Mecha and silly and extra, I enjoyed the hell out of Polaris, but it really suffers from a lack of Ranmaru in my humble fuckin opinion lmao. So even though I’m not one for pirate stuff most of the time, I gotta give it to Pirates of the Frontier!! I really loved Ranmaru and Otoya’s dynamic in that one, and Camus was juuuuust the right amount of shitheel, too. 

I haven’t heard the whole thing but that thing from Egoistic where Natsuki squeezes Ranmaru to death and Eiichi’s just like ‘WUAHAHAHAHAH’ is also the mcfuckin best. 

23. Your favorite shining live card?

CAN’T PICK 

HOW COULD I POSSIBLY PICK?????????? LIKE??? I love the fucking dumb, dumb, dumb ostentatiousness of Evil Villains, I LOVE a good heel, and I also worked so so hard to t1 that event and had a lot of fun doing it!! But also, I just love his big smile and all the energy and mixed prints from Fortune and Prosperity, and it was literally the first time I ever got the exact card I was rolling for in a gacha on the last pull I had left!! (He also came home during a time I was really going through some shit, and ngl it rescued me a little bit!) but AHHHH Soulful Bass also came out right around my birthday, I love all the textures in the outfit and it’s generally the most My Aesthetique thing Utapri has ever released!!! And god, I just love it when he’s so confident and in his element like this, it sets me on FIRE to see him light up the stage wurghjgfj ;___; They all make me just want to HUG SO MUCH ARGGHHHHH 

24. Your favorite song beatmap?

Ahhh I think Shining Live really has great beatmaps across the board so that’s a tough pick! Almost all of them are super fun in their own way, but I think I gotta hand it to Wild Soul, Top Star Revolution, and Innocent Wind! 

25. Your least favorite song beatmap?

A.I. u__u Sorry, Ai...it’s just not fun for me.

26. Black Deja Vu or White Gravity?

Actually I’m really glad for this question bc I’ve been so busy lately I hadn’t given myself the time to really check them out! checking ......... 

and yep. Black Deja Vu. (I mean...Ranmaru is on it, haha.) But I’m so about this. Love this heavier sound and all these harmonies, this is so juicy. (White Gravity also absolutely kicks ass though!! I’m really liking that voice group, it’s making especially good use of those higher registers!) 

27. Utapri merch that you own/want?

Honestly I don’t have much u__u Not a lot of Utapri merch is my thing...you know? I’m mostly shopping for Ran merch if I’m getting any, but I’m very picky about how he gets drawn? Keeping his toughness and a particular clothing style about him is so essential, haha, and barely anything hits that sweet spot for me. But I will say I adored the whole ‘My Favorite Things’ series, and if I had the budget and space atm I’d love to get some of the Ran goodies from that line! 

28. How did you get into Utapri?

I first heard about it through some acquaintances from cosplay before Quartet Night was a thing. It didn’t appeal enough to my heavy metal ass to make me drop everything and try it, but I did have an interest in it I couldn’t explain and I’d always intended on trying it out. (especially after I got into Love Live and idol anime for a bit.) But it was Shining Live that got me! And I really only downloaded Shining Live because I was super exhausted after a business trip, didn’t want to leave bed once I got back home, and just wanted to sink my teeth in something new I could enjoy for hours while lying down, haha.  

29. A set theme in shining live that you want to see in the future?

This will surprise nobody, but something tougher. More rock, more punk, more metal. I want all of them in studs and spikes and leather, and I want less polish. More rough! 

I’d also love a wrestler set complete with who’s-a-heel-who’s-a-face but that’s a pipe dream and a half, lmao. 

30. Why do you love your best boy?

Oh boy. 

I think he’s this powerhouse of a human bean who can face a ton of pain and meet it with a big middle finger. And that middle finger is chasing after ambitious dreams, of spreading the power and soul of the same music that made me who I am and influences so much of my work, but also being ... you know, smart about it? He’s an idol because like, sure, maybe it’s not the OG dream, but you can’t dream if you’re dead, and you also deserve to give yourself a life and platform to share some of who you are, and you can do a lot of good with that, too. (And I won’t lie, I respect the drama of a man who takes his hair that seriously and commits so hard to the aesthetic he wears fuckin mismatched contacts i just. charm point ) 

But at the same time....I don’t know, this might sound presumptuous, but. I think. I just think he’d think I’m as neat as I think he is. I’m an ambitious, passionate person, too, and I also furiously stick to my ideals, and I also love the same kind of soul of music he does. I lean a little more metal than I do rock, but I think that’s nice, like sharing it has that ‘alike but different’ kind of familiarity and novelty all at once. Sometimes it’s tough sharing just how deeply rock and metal have sculpted me and my artwork (and therefore my career), bc it’s so deeply personal to me, and sometimes there’s weird elitism/misogyny/racism to deal with, too. But. The way he talks about rock, the way he describes the passion and how it transcends identity and is just a pure rush of power and sharing your feelings..................it just feels like he Gets it the same way I do. Just that unspoken, burning passion and understanding. I know it sounds weird to feel that strongly over just a music genre, but I just vibe with how to him, it really isn’t ‘just’ a music genre. I feel more accepting of myself for it, and I’d like to think he’d be real proud of himself for that.  

And listen, like....I’m very sentimental, but I really don’t like saccharine, flowery, romantic kinds of affection to be lavished on me. Just be straightforward but also a little tsun about it fjdsjfas and ..... those are the kind of feelings I can accept. And that’s the way Ranmaru is, and it’s also grounded in the kind of reality that I don’t like to be swept away from. He’s just so cool and hardworking and unwavering in his passion, it makes it easier for me to do the same despite all the bumps in the road. This got real long but Ran’s a cool dude, haha, I got a lot of positives to say. 

Anyways, I never tag folks for these things, but I love seeing everyone’s answers! If you see this and wanna fill it, feel free to count this as a tag from me :) I know this got real long, but with 30 questions how could it not haha? Thanks for reading and sticking around! 

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Thanks for the tag! I love being tagged in things :D

50 (yes fifty!!) Things You’ve Never Been Asked…. Let’s lighten the mood & have some fun! I always enjoy reading these and seeing a quick glimpse into my friend’s lives. (Just copy this & change the answers..😁)

1. What is the colour of your hairbrush? Plain black.

2. Name a food you never ever eat. Veal and beet root.

3. Are you typically too warm or too cold? Usually too warm.

4. What were you doing 45 minutes ago? Driving and singing along to Motörhead.

5. What is your favourite candy bar? Mars or Twix

6. Have you ever been to a professional sports game? Once with my class.

7. What is the last thing you said out loud? Small talk with my landlady, I guess.

8. What is your favourite ice cream? Stracciatella or Cookies.

9. What was the last thing you had to drink? Water from a well in the woods.

10. Do you like your wallet? Plain, black, functional - whats not to like?

11. What was the last thing you ate? Self-made chocolate cheesecake :)

12. Did you buy any new clothes last weekend? Does ordering merch count?

13. The last sporting event you watched? Probably soccer with my brother.

14. What is your favourite flavour of popcorn? I don’t like popcorn.

15. Who is the last person you sent a text message to? My best friend (who is not on Tumblr, so I cant tag her. Which truly is a loss for Tumblr because she is an amazing person.)

16. Ever go camping? I went on a two month road trip/camping tour after school and I loved loved loved it.

17. Do you take vitamins? Vitamin D during winter cause SAD is a bitch. Apart from that, no. 

18. Do you go to church every Sunday? I might burst into flames when I enter a church so I try avoiding that. I will go to church with my Grandma though if she asks me to. Not for the religion thingy, but to make her happy.

19. Do you have a tan? Right now I dont. But I do tan rather quickly in summer and I never get sunburnt.

20. Do you prefer Chinese food over pizza? I love both but only if its quality food. I dont like cheap takeaway (and Im perfectly aware of how posh that sounds.)

21. Do you drink your soda with a straw? My inner five-year-old loves to, but then again, Im trying to reduce my plastic waste.

22. What colour socks do you usually wear? Black or grey.

23. Do you ever drive above the speed limit? Speed limit? What speed limit? *laughs in german autobahn* 

24. What terrifies you? Nothing, really. (Not trying to be pretentious. I just dont scare easily.)

25. Look to your left, what do you see? A wall and a movie poster.

26. What chore do you hate most? Dishes are urghh...

27. What do you think of when you hear an Australian accent? “Is that irish?” probably. Since Im not a native speaker I suck at distinguishing accents.

28. What’s your favourite soda? AlbraCola.

29. Do you go in a fast food place or just hit the drive? I rarely go to fast food places, if I do its usually because I tag along with someone.

30. What is your favourite number? 9, 21, 25, 127

31. Who’s the last person you talked to? My landlady.

32. Favourite cut of beef? I had to google what that question means. I dont really eat beef at all.

33. Last song you listened to? When The Wild Wind Blows by Iron Maiden.

34. Last book you read? I’ve been re-reading Bartimäus and I loved it.

35. Favourite day of the week? Friday probably.

36. Can you say the alphabet backwards? No. Im dumb as shit.

37. How do you like your coffee? The more caffeine the better. I drink it solely for the effect.

38. Favourite pair of shoes? I dont really care tbh. I usually wear no-name sneakers.

39. The time you normally get up? Right now? 4:30 in the morning-

40. What do you prefer, sunrise or sunsets? Sunrise.

41. How many blankets on your bed? Just one.

42. Describe your kitchen plates. White with green pattern. 

43. Describe your kitchen at the moment? Okay-ish I think. 

44. Do you have a favourite alcoholic drink? Tequila or a Mojito. But I rarely drink.

45. Do you play cards? I know a few games and I enjoy playing.

46. What colour is your car? silver with a black roof.

47. Can you change a tyre? Just did it yesterday :)

48. Your favourite state? In the US? Ive never been to the States so I dont know.

49. Favourite Job you’ve had? I’ve worked backstage at a music festival once, that was super fun. Right now, I’m working in hospital which is one of the most wonderful jobs in the world. 

50. How did you get your biggest scar? So, I was chopping fire wood and then I kinda, well uhm… rammed the fucking axe right into my leg. It bleed like a motherfucker and the scar is pretty nasty.