#in fuckinh sane !!!!!!!!!!!

[milflewis]

😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫

[delicatetaysversion]

standing up for myself feels so fucking good i don't know how my mom lives like this

[rose-tinted-kalopsia]

breathes.

i doN'T HAVE THE FUCKIMG DIAMONDS FOR THBI S

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I CAN T BRE A THE

TJE MASK

THE FUCKSINFNSJFHSJF

THE OUTF

BOTH OF THE

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"YOU LIKE LUMIERE THAT MUCH?"

"ME OR LUMIERE?"

THR FUCKINH

/LOUD INCOHERENT SCREAMING IN THE DISTANCE, GLASS IS BREAKING, SIRENS ARE WAILING, I AM NOT OKAY I AM NOT NORMAL I AM NOT SANE

I CAN'T DO THIS NO ONE TALK TO ME

I AM NOT BREATHING

I HAVE 20 FUCKING PULLS.

WE DIE LIKE MEN.

[dollivication]

im appearing in here again sorry but I'm having the most icky insane down bad diabolical freaky ass thoughts about servant!Vergil helping you change.

What he's SUPPOSED TO DO is wait for you to put your undergarments on, and then help you get dressed with everything. And at first thats what he did, gently and tenderly dressing you, trying to feel your skin as much as he can, to be as close to you as he can.

But after a while, and because he needs to be able to flex on everyone else, he decides to help you with your underwear too. Hands lingering for farrr too long on your hips and thighs and the top of your chest and your back and oh my god he's about to have a heart attack you're so beautiful.

He's a lil bricked and is kinda regretting it now (no he's not he's just mildly annoyed with his body he would never regret seeing u) because hows he supposed to help you get dressed when he's already half mast :⁠'⁠( 🌀

Vergil try to be normal challenge, impossible!!!!!

oh good heavens.. GOODNESS! GOOD FUCKINH LOORRRDdhggh

i think servant vergil quite literawy solos everywan regarding stuff from user… laik because he’s ur servant, bro gets to TOUCH and SEE you naked up close!!! lord knows the rest of the guys could only DREAM of that!! and vergil knows it WELLLLL

CONSIDERING THIS, i figure he may be the one with the most progress… he can see how you shiver at every light touch that was terribly sensual for a man of his status towards literal royalty. and yet not once do you reprimand him! you let his breaths caress your skin, eyes occasionally meeting in the mirror while he helps you get dressed ૮꒰ ˶> ༝ <˶꒱ა

THE LAST TWO PARAGRAPHS.. this goes so heavy when he helps bathe u… he gets to touch you where only a spouse should, just subtly groping your chest, rubbing your stomach and thighs,….shifting constantly bc his cock stirring in his own attire upon seeing the soap suds on your body! the soft sighs falling from your lips when he gently scrubs a particularly sensitive part of you.. he genuinely mightve cum then and there if he didn’t want to disgust u and play it safe.. (◞‸◟)

he thinks he’s soooo sane… WRONG! FREAK!!!!

[aaaaaaaaaaaa-hey-its-jude-or-bee]

*giggles and twirls my hair*

morris.. I have nothing to show for morris I'm just gonna kiss him into changing his corporate so he helps small businesses :P (especially if farmer does crochet/knitting)

omg imagine a poly! morris + pierre + farmer. I'M SORRY I'LL SHUT UP NOW AHAHSRHRHFJSJF

maybe I am a little insane 😔...

an angel dragon hybrid. Is ... Uh.....

(angel wings + dragon horns and a tail basically lol........... . ... . maybe 2x double below ahahahahahha- *dies)

- 🫚anon

I'm taking this as a not request .... Hopefully AAJSJSKSK I'll probably end up making a little one shot (I ACTUALLY HAVE NO FUCKINH IDEA WHAT A ONE SHOT MEANS AS A WRITER I'LL BE SOFUCKING REAL WITH YLU ALL PLEASE DONT BULLY TIS SILLY OL GUY AJAKSJSKSKSKSK)

I am gonna go fucking insane I gotta finish the request and then your first request and then the others that I am goandjfjf I need to also start on the wizard ,,, HAJASJSKDKDK I'm gonna have so mu h fun with that one like oOOIAUAU I am insane ahauwjsjdj

I am over the angel dragon hybrid farmer thing it's ok I'm ok now omg I am sane yeaahhyeahhheahah!!! Waaaahhooooo!!! (Is not sane. Is in fact not ok. /J BAUSNWDK)

[khaleesiofalicante]

This was probably my favorite chapter yet. The ending was so so so good.

Like YES IRIS MY QUEEN I TOTALLY GET WHY YOU KISSED HERMES.

Leaders making sane, thoughtful and controversial decisions knowing what the consequences will be but still doing it because they know it's the right thing to do is so fuckinh hot. I think Hermes might be my favorite side character in the story. Also I love his interactions with Magnus. They're both so powerful and influential but in such a different way. I love how much they both respect eachother.

I have a theory. I'm not not sure if it will happen but maybe if Hermes dies, the person who takes over for him will be Magnus. Hermes is clearly an amazing leader who knows how to make decisions and lead but also knows when to ask for help and collaborate. And Magnus who's also incredibly smart and influential is now learning to ask people for help and reached out to Hermes. I don't know maybe I'm overthinking it but I would love to see then working together/taking over after him. I'm really excited for all the warlock stuff.

The reveal of the pandemonium entrance was very cool. I didn't gasp at it and scream 'plot twist'. It was more of a 'oh' feeling because it made a lot of sense and it made me realize just how important lance is in this story. I'm kinda glad that this kinda balanced the scale. Like now there's a reason why Lance's death should be avoided. I'm not sure how the Clave will perceive it though.

I'M SO SO SO HAPPY THAT KINNY AND JOAN ARE FRIENDS NOW. I've been looking forward to this for sooooo long. I hope their friendship grows and they can be there for eachother despite their differences.

I was kinda mad at Max when he was yelling at Arthur. It was kind of a shock to my system to see him talking to Arthur like this but I also get it. But also I really wanted to protect Arthur and give him a hug. It was kind of worse to see David's reaction to it. I'm not sure why.

When Lance finally finds out about Arcaid, all hell will break lose (literally). I cannot wait.

Thankyou for always being so amazing and keeping me on my toes.

Love, Yana

Ps. Random question. Seeing how malec are so blissfully healthy, what do you think one of them might do that would really make the other one really mad? I'm especially curious about what Magnus would do.

I love your take on Hermes' leadership style. It's quite spot on, really. This is why I prefer the Warlock Council (the structure/governance of it) rather than the Clave - which seems a little too rigid for me.

The pandemonium reveal is similar to the reveal of Lance's blindness in IALS - it's definitely 'oh' moment because it was right there all along.

Fun fact: Lance's tattoo which is the latin motto of nephilim ("the descent into hell is easy") is literally a clue about where the pandemonium is because it's written on his back - he got it ironically because he thought it's funny (What am I going to do with this boy?)

About the malec question, I'm not sure if you asked in the context of LBAF or general, but I think it could be something around:

a) putting themselves in danger (like literally sacrificing themselves). But this sound hypocritical because they both have a tendency to do this hehe

b) something to do with the kids - they were more likely to have these fights in LBAF 2 (or like TLND timeline) when the kids were younger and they were still responsible for them.

c) something to do with politics. Like in the show, you know? Magnus and Alec are two important leaders in their respective communities so if there is a warlock vs nephilim situation...Well, who is to say? 🥰

[webslingingslasher]

I just got my wisdom teeth out and my face looks like Alvin and his 3 fuckinh chipmunk brothers combined and I your frat!peter drabbles are literally keeping me sane 🩷🦷

im so happy!!!! make sure you keep your sockets clean and wet!!!

[the-art-in-arthesia-is-loud]

RGverse Story Summary (Season 1: Part 1)

i was too lazy to continue on so have the summary from arc 1 to arc 7

———

i have......a lot to say before we start, actually.

and it's about the post title. you see the "season 1" thing? yeah. the main storyline is split into seasons.

season 1 is supposed to focus on ars and the more earlier characters i've made more i think. it's also supposed to go in depth with ars' conflict with dark ars, and maybe some destonio-fate lore too.

season 2 is more focused on the severed eden gang, mainly abstruse tho. it's also more focused on the rest of team destruction as a whole, and this season is overall the one that ends the story completely.

now.......there's a third season. "oh! season 3?!" WRONG! season 1.5

it serves as a bridge between season 1 and 2. it has two arcs, with the first arc focusing on one objective and also on the conclusion of two specific characters, while the second arc focuses a little more on ana, primeval, and technicolour.

OKAY DONE FINALLY. LET US START NOW. THERE'S ARCS HERE TOO BTW. OK LET'S START FOR REAL THIS TIME. NO PROCRASTINATING ONCE AGAIN. FUCK IT WE BALL.

———

• arc 1: starting arc

i don't have names for these arcs so just take random words/sentences that have smth to do with the story of the arc itself ok thanx

anyways, i think it's safe to say arc 1 focuses on introducing some of the characters here first. i think the characters introduced are ars, lucas, ana, aresi (she only appears for like a brief moment sorry aresi 😔), the thunderriders members, fate, and destonio. that's abt it

this arc also focuses on introducing the conflict in hand; team destruction and a weird reoccuring dream ars keeps having for some reason.

as for the dream, the premise is always the same; the sky for some reason is pink and there's a weird gateway to god knows where that sucks in everything in the world and ultimately causes destruction and shit. some guy (supposed to be abstruse) is just watching some girl (supposed to be arghena) cause everything and be the bad bitch she is. also in the dream ars just watches some randos (supposed to be the rest of severed eden) die one by one in the same ways every single goddamn time (like the lore related art i posted like. so so long ago).

the dreams always ends up in both abstruse and arghena being consumed by a rlly bright light and them boom. ars wakes up. how odd.

timeskip to like. awhile after he got the dreams. he constantly get those dreams and then finally he got tired so he consulted to aresi abt it. "dude maybe you're going insane how abt you go on a morning stroll to keep yourself sane" she said.

and he fucking did that (idiot).

during that walk he met lucas who just got to the cantate kingdom. lucas was like, looking for a place to stay ig so ars was like, "oh you can stay at my place!!!!" like the fuckinh IDIOT HE IS. lucas agreedeither way bc he"$ greedy as hell at the time. i'm not even gonna bother fixing the typos but you get it right

anywayzzzzz after awhile ars told lucas abt that dream bc lucas was like "yo why do you look like you're gonna lose your sanity 💀💀💀💀💀" and uh yea. lucas did NOT suggested that ars should go to a therapist but instead told him that he should actually find the answer himself. and then boom. actual shit begins

they went to the astra kingdom first bc ars wanted to visit ana first. ars tells her abt the dream, and then she agrees to come with him and lucas. and then whoooooshhhhhh to modelista city they go

they nearly got killed once they stepped foot into it btw.

DON'T WORRY THO!!!!!! TROJAN IS HERE TO SAVE THE DAY!1!1!1!11!1!1

trojan then offers to take the trio to the thunderriders base and then foosh. they meet the rest of the thunderriders :)

also i never rlly mentioned who the thunderriders members are so lemme just list it here uhhhh:

- tempo

- shifta

- trojan

- galactic

- satellite

- terabyte

- glaciaxion

- pamolia

- pupa (tho at the time he didn't appeared yet lol)

- aleph-0

yeah.

anyways

moving on

tempo told ars, lucas, and ana abt their goal in defeating team destruction, and how if team destruction successfully carries out their plan to destroy the entirety of planet earth (LMAO AORRU CALLING IT PLANET EARTH IS FUNNY TO ME), then everyone is doomed (and they'll probs die obv)

i think the best way to kick off this arc was to have them be in a bit of danger facing the thunderriders' enemies; team destruction.

well. it's just their minions that came to fucking obliterate them but THATS BESIDES THE POINT. THEVPOIMT ISSSSSS. FATE CAME TO SAVE RHEM BC THEY NEARLY DIED.

FATEEEEEEEE THE FIRST BEST GIRL HERE (i still ly primeval i prommy)

also the arc rlly ends when destonio first appears. he would say smth abt lumine ig. and abt how he hates everything. based destonio moment

from here, pls keep in mind that their objectives are:

1. defeating team destruction and their plan to destroy the world, and

2. find out an answer to ars' dream

———

• arc 2: oh god things get a lil tricky arc

THE ARC NAMR YOODBYE.

anyways, in this arc we get to know more abt fate. the Sillies™ find out that she's a fucking goddess and nearly everyone freaked out. ars might look like he's calm abt this when he is screaming on the inside.

^ visual presentation

moving on from that, fate was like "oh i'm just visitinf here ykyk hot girl stuff" and lucas was like "okay bozo" wow soooo misogynistic /j

suddenly some guy comes into the base. fate was shockex enough to seehim BC IT TURNS OUT IT'S DESTONIO⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️

anyways convo between fate and destonio in a nutshell ig:

fate: what the FUCK

destonio: HELLO LUMINE.

fate: NO SHUT THE FUCK UP GET AWAY FOM ME I'? NOT LUMINE

destonio: oh. i get it now. so you decidsd to go by a new fucking identity

destonio: ok fine whatever idgaf anymore.

destonio: anyways hello everyone

ars: What The Fuck.

things went normal after that for some reason. fate, despite her horror of reuniting with destonio, decided to bother him either way. "dEsTo ThIs, DeStO tHaT, WHEN EILL SHE LESVE ME ALONE??????" my guy you fucking asked for this yk 💀

anyways after so much filler stuff we finally get to the part things get interesting. dark ars starts invading ars in his sleep instead of the reoccuring dream he always has every night. dark ars is like "hey ars can i. can i take over." and ars would be like "NO??????? LEAVE ME ALONE????"

ok ok uhhh after so much tormenting and even more filler stuff, the Sillies™ start to realize Something Is Wrong with ars. trojan decided to interrogate ars alone on that matter

Worst mistake possible.

because dark ars was annoyed enough by this to the point where he actually makes ars suffer and feel so much physical pain during the interrogation, which honestly sounds like a shitty premise, but i'm writing this on the spot, so that's why it's shitty. trojan was fucking concerned, let me tell you that.

he was all like, "ars!!!!!!!! are you fucking ok??????!!!!!!!!!!!!" and ars is like "NO I'M NOT." and then after so long dark ars finally takes over and nearly kills trojan. ouch.

lucas managed to confront dark ars abt this and was like "ars?? what the fuck man????" and dark ars was like "shut the fuck up human. i'm seriously going to kill each and everyone of you lowly idiots."

"OUCH??????" — fate, probably.

anyways they managed to defeat ars, but fate accidentally summons a portal that takes ars to a whole different place. probs far away from modelista city. "ms. fate....what the hell???" tempo asked.......this isn't a fic.

the arc ends with ars just....waking up elsewhere. as for where it is.....we'll find out in a little bit.

———

• arc 3: aegle city arc

uwogh

i....originally didn't exactly want to put aegleseeker as a main character in the story, but now that i think abt it, he can be a supporting character in a sense.

anyways ars turns out to have woken up in aegle city, a city that.......is currently trapped in an eternal night.

heh. mlp moment /j

ars woke up in some house ig, so he quickly realized someone found him unconscious and took him in. turns out that someone is- OH MY GOD THE AEGLESEEKER HIMSELF??????!!!!!!

yea. it could get weirder and nonsensical from here /j again

i don't have much to say abt this arc, other than the fact that ars and aegleseeker just.....help each other in a sense ykyk? it's just them bonding and becoming besties somewhat.

at one point tessi gets mentioned. aegleseeker criticised her for making this world somewhat odd. he also criticised amazing mighty at the same time. this guy is rlly bold.

not much to say abt this arc. it's...really boring compared to the other two ones i think.

IT ACTUALLY DOESN'T END THERE THO.

ars has to get tormented by dark ars again,,,,,,,,,

after that, ars decided to distance himself from aegleseeker, which obviously made him confused. like i would be confused too if my friend started distancing themself from me and talked to me less. he just didn't know that ars is doing that for his safety.

eventually, ars ran away from aegle city, not even telling aegleseeker first. that...definitely made the latter felt a bit hurt in some way, but he's good at hiding things, so that's not obvious enough from the outside.

in the end, we shift focuses...

———

• arc 4: lucid traveler arc

huh? lucid traveler? could this mean.....oh! lucas is the main focus here now!

it turns out, during ars' time in aegle city, the rest of the thunderriders were trying to find him. fate didn't talked to them that much out of guilt. destonio just went along i guess.

ig throughout this arc lucas reminisces on his time with ars. it's short, but he ended up feeling a lot of things because of his time with ars LMAO.

oh god,,,,feelings?

also at one point pamolia takes the spotlight, which definitely teases something for a future arc lol

god this is all going so slow i hate this AHAHSHDBUDDBF

in the end, one day, lucas decided to find ars all by himself when one can least expect it. after some finding and even more reminiscing, he ended up finding ars in the end. they're not in modelista city anymore btw. they're kind of nearly back in the cantate kingdom, but not exactly there either.

ars was literally trying to avoid lucas so dark ars doesn't hurt him, but lucas just kept on coming to him even more. it can't be helped when dark ars decided to take over eventually. they both then had a super intense fight (real) and despite all of dark ars' efforts, he actually lost Again. he ended up falling unconscious again, and because he felt pity for ars, lucas decided to jusf LEAVE HIM LIKR THAT WHAT THE UFCK MENA.

uh. anyways.

———

• arc 5: malware arc

oh wow. it's trojan time besties

the main character here is still lucas honestly lmao, but the real main focus here is trojan

lucas got back to the thunderriders base after some time, and the first thing he saw was trojan and terabyte watching the fucking news.

yeah, apparently, the deal with ars and dark ars got a bit out of control, huh?

the whole first part of this arc is pretty normal.......until we get to the second bit. tempo and shifta start to notice something wrong with trojan. trojan starts to say...really weird stuff, like "haha guys what if someone here betrays us or something?" or "y'know, a traitor could be among us (SUS???? /J), right?" OR "[insert name of anyone near him right now], don't you think acting is a strange thing to be made into a profession?"

they both didn't exactly mind this at first, but then the questions and what-if scenarios get even weirder and that certainly made tempo a bit suspicious. so, he decided to confront trojan abt it.

tempo, being dumb for once, tried to force an answer out of trojan bc for some reason he isn't giving any answers???? dawg what are you hiding m8.

WELL.

TURNS OUT.

HE IS INDEED HIDING SOMETHING.

.......

..

.KDCNFK

um

he.

he"$.

he's a spy from team destruction.

HE HAD TO EXPLAIN THIS TO TEMPO SO THAT HE DOESN'T GET KILLED OR WHATEVER BUT BASICALLY the reason why he became a spy for team destruction was because they offered him a good enough deal and they thought he'd make a good enough spy considering how close he is with tempo, the leader.

he was like "oh yea sure i hate the mfs here anyways lmaoooo" at first but then he got attached. that's how you know things got bad for him.

tempo was a bit disappointed at first, but then he was like "alright fine." trojan was relieved that he was forgiv—

"but what about that time you asked me about something related to acting?"

shit.

he doesn't trust him yet.

and now he thinks trojan is acting all of this time when he is NOT acting.

"it's just something related to this...whole ordeal. sorry."

this is really shitty ngl /hsrs

anyways trojan felt a bit bad after that, because tempo started avoiding him a lil more, and that's when the conflict between them started.

oh dw abt them, they'll solve things once.....uhhhhhhh season 2 comes in /hj

———

• arc 6: confrontation arc

WE'RE BACK WITH ARSI CANT ATE BABYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

uh. so!

ars is actually back in the cantate kingdom! with aresi and his parents! how peaceful!

......ok not rlly actually lmfao

dark ars continues to torment him every night in his sleep. it irritates ars a lot, honestly, so yikes. BUT THAT ALL CHANGED ON ONE FATE(oh hi girly /j)FUL NIGHT.

ars meets dark ars in the dream world AGAIN. BUT THIS TIME......ARS HAS HAD ENOUGH OF HIS SHIT‼️

ars and dark ars have a lil duel and shit, but then, for some reason, dark ars got defeated again for some reason. what a bitch (affectionate). the two then have a lil talk! like a heart to heart, bc that's all dark ars is capable of at this rate.

basically, their conversation was abt how dark ars is a personification of ars' self hatred and perfectionism. it's hard to explain without his backstory post bc i haven't posted his yet (i wanna finish up on the worldbuilding ones first lol), but yeah, that's the gist here.

if ars learns to accept himself more, then dark ars will disappear and stop bothering him. as a little extra, dark ars will become one with ars. ars then decided to just accept himself for who he is and then boom! he wakes up with dark ars now being an actual part of him that he'll appreciate a little more!

also he gets a new look that i actually used for his proseka stamp redraw, but i haven't made a ref sheet yet lmaoooo

ars tells his whole family abt this and they all hug and cry in joy <3333

ars then decided to get back to modelista city to find the thunderriders, lucas, ana, fate, and destonio again.

———

• arc 7: OH GOD THE GANG IS BACK TOGETHER BUT. BUT LUMINE AND DESTONIO LORE ARC??????

OH GOD FINALLY THE FOCUS IS ON DESTONIO LETS FUCKING GO.

but for a small half of this arc lucars is the focus (yay)

ars gets back to the thunderriders base and literally crushes lucas and ana with the most biggest bear hug ever. what a silly guy. "if we started this together, then we might as well end this together too." he told the two of them.....haa......i love tjem....

anywayzzzzzz the focus is finally on destonio after that. basically he keeps talking about this lumine girl, and how he misses her, even if he hates to admit it sometimes. that obviously made fate a lil frowny lol

ars tries to get an answer from destonio regarding who lumine is, but destonio refuses to answer.

howeverrrr pov switch to destonio just for the sake of flashbacks happen.

throughout the arc, random flashbacks pop up here and there. uhhh the premise of each flashback goes like this:

1. flashback 1: lumine and destonio's first meeting basically. rlly basic shit.

2. flashback 2: the two of them finding out one is older than the other and vice versa when they saw each other at high school, followed by lumine teasing destonio abt his short height that fits his age. destonio Does Not like this at all.

3. flashback 3: The Besties™ hanging out at an amusement park. they got ice cream too and destonio jokes abt how lumine would be a messy eater when HE'S THE ONE WHO HAS ICE CREAM ALL OVER HIS MOUTH LMAO

4. flashback 4: this is where things get...concerning. i think. lumine rants abt how much she hates this world and how she'd rather be dead then see The Horrors™. needless to say destonio was fucking confused.

5. flashback 5: basically what one of my vent arts reference. "i wanna die, and when i die, i'm going to ascend to heaven and be god's most special angel ever! haha- eh? why are you looking at me like that, desto?"

6. flashback 6: lumine tells destonio abt an upcoming summer festival that they both should go to. this is foreshadowing Very Bad Events.

7. flashback 7 (THE LAST ONE BTW GOD BLESS): lumine and destonio are near the edge of a cliff. lumine tells destonio stuff that are muffled out for some reason (to add to that mysteriousness frfr) and then the firework show happened and then—

ah.

that's all.

———

yea this is all i can write for now. i'll probs continue either today, tonight, or tmrw. depends rlly lol

uhhh if you have any questions feel free to ask me! i love getting asks :)

also this is indeed very shitty-ly put together i apologize in advance. maybe one day future me will look back at this and go "oh god this is bad i need to rewrite this" but for now! this.

[nature-played-a-trick-on-me]

U ever

[celicett]

calming them down when they’re mad - genshin boys x reader

Includes: Scaramouche, Kaeya, Diluc (separate)

Warnings: Slight cursing

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Scaramouche

when he’s angry when is he not? all hell breaks lose.

if you try to stop him, you might get caught in the crossfire.

key word might cause once you step foot in his peripheral vision, he ceases most brain functions.

making your way down halls of HQ, you hear a familiar voice echo off the walls. someone was really getting an ear full you thought

you walk towards the commotion and find a particular harbinger belittling his agents

“you had one job. ONE. what is this bullshit??” scaras voice rang through the halls as he shakes a pile of paperwork in his hands. the agents that kneeled below him were so nervous they couldn’t even form a proper sentence.

“what? are you so incompetent you can’t even speak? when i ask you a question you answer it. do i need to teach that to you too? what is this-”

“scara~” you call out to him, his body language freezes at the nickname. you knew those agents would be done for if you didn’t intervene

“y/n can’t you see i’m in the middle of teaching these insolent fools a lesson?” with a click of his tongue he turns towards you, his eyes were dark with murder

“i’m sure they got the point already, we can’t keep replacing the underlings you keep killing off.”

“maybe if you stop hiring idiots into the fatui maybe they won’t keep “dying off.””

if looks could kill you would be dead.

“let’s go. they’re already pissing their pants. they got. the. point.” you grab his hand and drag him away from the mess.

arriving into his office, you release him from your hold.

you could feel his eyes boring into your back and you turn to meet his gaze.

“where did you learn to get so cocky and assertive” he stared down at you.

with a smile you replied, “i learned from the best.” your hand reaches to caress his cheek prompting his hand to guide it towards his lips

kissing the palm of your hand, “looks like someone needs to reteach you your place.”

Kaeya

loses all rational thought and will rant for hours unless you stop him

the way to go is make him focus on you and reassure him everything will be fine

when he’s calm offer him your assistance. he actually won’t allow you to do anything though, he just needs your company to keep him sane

“THREE TIMES, they lost the paperwork THREE FUCKING TIMES. i get it the first time but how can someone be so bad at their job that they lose the same paper THREE FUCKINH TIMES.”

you were sitting at the dining room table plopping grapes into your mouth while you listen to your blue haired boy friend rant about his day.

the minute he walked into that door he was foaming at the mouth and the second you ask what’s wrong, queue the tangent.

“are they incompetent. if it was confidential work it’s my ass on the line-“

“baby.” you try to interrupt

“it’s so goddamn stupid even jean is already down my throat-“

“BAby.” you get up and walk towards him

“WHAT-” you shove a grape into his mouth.

“chew.” he did as he was told. goodboy you huff triumphantly

“i can help you you know? with the paperwork” you offer, your hands cross at your chest.

swallowing the grape he retorts, “it’s not your job.”

“jean wants a new copy by tomorrow morning right? i don’t want you to stress” you go to fix his disheveled button up, “let me help.”

you were not taking no for an answer and the way you look at him with such determination will be his death.

“i love you so..” pulls you into a big fat sloppy kiss

Diluc

will take it out on his servants if it’s really bad or if they’re the problem but most of the time he keeps it to himself

if you try to talk to him he’ll say he’s tired, he doesn’t want to be bothered, or nothing at all

don’t leave him in this state, it’ll just get worse, he needs reassurance and a nice big hug

shower him with affection. this poor man is touch starved

you were speaking to one of the maids when you heard the front door creak open. a tired an disheveled diluc walks in.

“diluc! you’re.. home…?” you tried to get his attention by calling his name but he completely ignored you, heading straight upstairs towards his bedroom.

you politely excused yourself from your current conversation and made your way towards his chambers.

you slowly opened the doors, seeing an exhausted diluc bathing into the afternoon sun that was peeking through the curtains.

one of his forearms laid across his eyes, you knew his energy was completely depleted.

“honey?” you call out again, your hands reach out to him, aiming for his fluffy red hair. “are you okay?”

the minute your fingers make contact with his hair, you run them through his scalp. you could literally feel his body relax into your touch

“i’m fine.”

ah the typical i’m fine but i’m not really fine scenario

“okay if you say so.” you remove you fingers that massaged his scalp and you made your way out to brew him something to drink

“wait.” the arm that rested on the arm chair reached out to grab your hand “stay here..”

an eye peaked out to look at you, how could you resist that look?

you smiled and returned to your original position reassuring him, “i’m not going anywhere my love” as you plant a kiss on his head.

[thiswasnotmyintention]

its dumb

and it's been weeks and weeks since I've lived with not a single addiction

it's always everything except the things you would be addicted to...

none of it makes sense

it isnt about the making sense

it isnt even about the thing I'm doing

it's about the motive

it's about being destructive

pushing everything away

even the thing itself

whatever it is for that day

I'm a whore for new addictions

it's stupid as shit

it's one thing a day

it can be people

I wont leave them alone until I get my fix then I'll be bored of them

it can be drinking or smoking because "one more wont change anything"

it can be cutting

it can be eating

too much or too little does it make a difference?

it can be too much media

even books

it's all the same thing

I get over stimulated and lose my shit it's all so fucking dumb just can I not please

and like

my body does Everything to keep me sane

I don't even fucking feel danger when I put myself in it

I can almost die

and someone asks to check if I'm breathing

and my brain goes

look what I can do

and I stop breathing for like two minutes straight

almost suffocate

no adrenaline

Just this illusion of control

and it still makes no fuckinh sense

and all these survival instincts

fuck me

I am wasting a security system on a building that's got nothing valuable in it anyway