#in my villain era

[dadralt]

BART EDWARDS as EMHYR VAR EMREIS in The Witcher: A Look Forward

[philgbtqochs]

[prefixsstars]

I’m going to use polls to cause problems on purpose and watch people fight. That is my ultimate goal.

[luckyqueenreign]

Amelia's Choice...

sooooo hear me out..I have a little theory on who Amelia is choosing tomorrow but this will literally break the LITG mold that they've upheld for 5 seasons prior (of someone stealing ur LI/ur LI not being immediately available) soooo take it with a grain of salt.

Amelia and MC obviously have some weird, underlying tension between them. The fact that the sisters didn't even talk about going on Love Island is strange to me but it seems like Amelia is super friendly, loving with MC despite the weird atmosphere at the start. Depending on your choices, if you ask Amelia to leave ur LI alone or not flirt with him she seems pretty receptive and says that she won't go there with ur LI, that she would never on the outside world go after ur LI, etc. Which has me convinced that she won't go there this time. So when I look at the other possible islanders there's only one that would cause some waves in the villa. Ozzy. outside of ur LI he's the only one we could have a diamond scene with after Amelia arrives and I think that is also because they want us to unlock the route, but if u did do the gym scene its actually SO GOOD. Lots of cute, slow burn tension happening. PLUS Ozzy is with Grace who hasn't gone full Hope just yet but she's lowkey almost there. AND think about it...when has FB EVER told us a non LI will be an LI later in the game?? They want u to know Ozzy is an option, they're leading us to his path! If Amelia picks him now, theres def going to be drama and tension with the sisters if MC starts grafting on him or even if Ozzy starts grafting on MC. When I coupled with Lewie he said he thought Ozzy wouldve stepped forward for me, that he had a look in his eye or whatever. Im sure FB is going to start pushing more Ozzy scenes on us....and pls do because I need more Ozzy.

Again...this is me being totally biased because I want MC to be a villain this season for once.. and I also desperately need more Ozzy scenes lolol

[boopshoops]

your name is strangely applicable in these times….. boopshoops?? as you wish, ig???

[tarabyte3]

I'm not going to lie, December has been a pretty rough month.

(vent post. mind the tags.)

I have been struggling with anxiety, writer's block, RSD, loneliness, and some extreme imposter syndrome. (To the point I had to talk myself down from just fully deleting some of my drafts/WIPs. Because, unfortunately, I'm not a big fan of my own writing at the moment. And I know we're not supposed to compare ourselves to other people. I know we're only supposed to write for ourselves. I know that! But sometimes I look at how many hours I've put into my writing, and then look at my numbers on here and AO3, and I feel discouraged. Like, maybe that's a sign that I'm not very good at it so what's the point. Of course more people don't want to read it. I don't blame them! I'm kidding myself. OR maybe it's me specifically that people just don't like! Makes sense. Then the writer's block kicks in, which makes me feel bad, which makes it impossible to write, etc. A vicious cycle.) Tl;dr my self esteem is in a stagnant pool of murky gutter water.

On top of that, I recently learned that someone I quietly blocked on here a month ago (due to a lack of boundaries and trauma dumping in my DMs with no warning or consent, which went on for weeks) has since messaged other Andy fan pages on other social media platforms (that I've never spoken to!!), talked about me to them, and portrayed me as a hateful bully. Which was very upsetting and baffling! Because 1. even the thought of being mean to someone makes my stomach hurt (it took me over a week to make the decision to even block them in the first place because I felt horrible about it), and 2. all I want to do is exist, thirst over Andy Serkis, and hang out in my own lane. 😩 So I know, logically, I didn't do anything wrong by inserting a boundary and gracefully exiting a situation which was causing me stress and anxiety. But the part of my brain that tries to convince me that I'm actually a horrible, cold, obnoxious, unlikable person has had a fucking feast with that.

Then I had to deal with my shitty family over Christmas. They're very good at finding new and interesting ways of excluding me and making me feel like an outsider. I never know why, though, and I'm not sure which is worse: that they're doing it intentionally, or that I matter so little they don't even realize or think twice about doing it.

All that being said: Please don't worry about me. I'm safe and I will be okay. In time. It's just that the holidays are stressful, it gets dark at 4:30, I'm always tired, I'm sad, I can't write for shit lately, and I had to get this off my chest so that maybe I would feel light enough to finally dig myself out of that pit. At the very least, I'll do it for spite because I am also quite mad about that second thing.

[billyshakesqueer]

[dakotakazansky]

I’m protecting my peace. My mental health will not suffer at her hands any longer.

[videcoeur]

Evil booping strangers. They wont know what hit em

[i-just-wanted-to-be-loved]

Okay so if we're being real, I am definitely guilty of romanticizing my trauma, but like. What else am I supposed to do with it? Without a story, without a beautiful tragedy, without feeling poetic about the pain, it's just. You know. Pain. Horrible, unending pain that doesn't make any sense.

Like I really wanna just be a mysterious character with a tragic backstory. It sounds so much cooler than the reality of being me.

[outer-spec]

im going to hunt down and torture every single abusive parent ever. they can’t keep getting away with this

[every-dayiwakeup]

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[nakajimaas]

how do you produce masterpieces like Fullmetal and mob100 and still manage to fuck up this badly

[cat-scarr]

someone in the fandom: *makes obscenely incorrect claims against my fave*

fools…they're only giving me more fuel to fire back at them

[1jade6]

I feel super confident in these so I wanted to post them...