#incredibly distant from every important person in your life and your supportive community

[bluesidedown]

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[porloquevivoyo]

I was told by a distant (and I meant diiiistant) family member “wow that’s far from family” about my move to the Netherlands.

And I was so INCREDIBLY activated by that.

I got defensive really defensive as my first reaction.

I know I carry around feelings of insecurity despite how confident I am in my actions because I hear comments like that ALOT. “I could never live away from family. Why do you live so far from family. Family is everything to me. I believe family is important.” And from anyone and everyone. Family, friends, strangers. I believe all of those things too. I also have a different definition of family. I also don’t believe proximity to people I care about matters to me as an individual. I also understand everything people say is a direct reflection of what they know and feel inside and their small bubble of life, a projection. Not at all aimed at me and never personal. Still I feel shamed by the (mostly asleep) society I live in. As if I’m supposed to value “being closer to family” more than feeling where my soul just wants to be at any given moment.

It was easier when Jeff was in the military. Even though I absolutely loved being in Arizona - at least somehow it wasn’t “my fault” at least we still always dreamed of “ being home” and somehow our distance was so noble. And everyone in the military community also dreamed of home.

But no, now these are very conscious choices we are making. Very much on purpose. And after so much wrestling I’ve realized every single con to living away from family is not even an ounce worth every pro I see for myself.

Here I am explaining myself. As if I owe anyone an explanation for why my soul feels as it does. For why I actually don’t feel sad about my lack of proximity to family. For why I would consider places with no family my home.

I think of my kids. And I would want them to stretch their wings as far as it could take them and soar. Whatever that means and however that looks. And to give two shits about what anyone thinks and just follow their soul, divine purpose because it’s the only way. The only way to support the collective is to wake up from this trance and do what YOU are meant to do for this planet.

Ugh. All because of one silly comment I hear all the time from people who- either are asleep, or it’s their divine calling and purpose to be physically close to familial or deep connections.

Sigh. These feelings too shall pass. I suppose it was just a full moon . And in Scorpio. And I’m practically all water.

And, this is just what happens as humans, society pulls us with her illusions and then I have to remind myself my truth.

Carry on if you made it this far. Follow your souls purpose ❤️

[trevorlifecoach]

Navigating Challenges and Embracing the Journey of Positive Change

Life is a tapestry woven with threads of both joy and adversity. While challenges may cast shadows at times, it's important to remember that the sun always rises again. In this blog, we'll explore the profound truth that life gets better, delving into stories of resilience, personal growth, and the transformative power of a positive outlook. Let's embark on a journey to discover how each trial is an opportunity for growth, and how the promise of a brighter future is always within reach.

The Seasons of Life:

Just as the seasons change, so do the circumstances of our lives. Adversity may arrive unexpectedly, but it's crucial to recognize that challenges are temporary and often serve as catalysts for personal development. Just as spring follows winter, better times often emerge from the darkest moments.

Embracing Change and Growth:

Life's challenges are like stepping stones on a path toward self-discovery and growth. They push us out of our comfort zones, compelling us to evolve and become stronger versions of ourselves. Every setback can be reframed as an opportunity to learn, adapt, and ultimately thrive.

The Power of Perspective:

The lens through which we view the world shapes our reality. Shifting your perspective to focus on the silver linings amidst difficulties can be transformative. Instead of dwelling on what's wrong, try focusing on what's right – the small victories, the lessons learned, and the opportunities for improvement.

Resilience: Bouncing Back Stronger:

Resilience is the art of bouncing back from setbacks with newfound strength and determination. The challenges you face today are molding you into a more resilient individual, better equipped to handle whatever the future holds. Embrace the process, and you'll find that adversity is the forge in which your character is refined.

Small Steps, Big Changes:

Life improvement doesn't always require monumental leaps; often, it's the small, consistent steps that lead to lasting change. Each positive decision, no matter how small, contributes to a brighter future. Embrace healthy habits, pursue your passions, and cultivate positive relationships – these incremental changes add up over time.

Building a Support Network:

No journey is meant to be walked alone. Surrounding yourself with a supportive community of friends, family, mentors, and like-minded individuals can be a source of comfort and encouragement. Sharing your challenges and triumphs with others can help lighten the load and remind you that you're not alone on this path.

The Transformative Power of Time:

Time has an incredible way of healing wounds and revealing the true depth of our strength. The difficulties you face today may become distant memories, overshadowed by the growth and positive experiences that await you in the future.

Celebrating Progress:

As you navigate life's challenges and setbacks, remember to celebrate your progress, no matter how small. Each step forward is a victory, and recognizing your accomplishments fuels the motivation to keep moving forward.

A Future Bright with Possibilities:

The journey of life is a testament to the fact that better days lie ahead. Embrace the uncertainty with hope and optimism, knowing that every trial you overcome brings you closer to a future filled with new opportunities, joy, and personal fulfillment.

Conclusion:

Life's challenges may test our resolve, but they also provide the fertile ground in which we grow and flourish. By embracing change, maintaining a positive perspective, and nurturing resilience, we unlock the profound truth that life does, indeed, get better. With each step forward, we move closer to a future brimming with possibilities and the potential for lasting happiness. So, embrace the journey, trust in the process, and look ahead with hope – for life's brightest chapters are yet to be written.

[moo-nstone]

venus through the houses

venus in the 1st house: your very existence is magnetic. people are very attracted to you and show it by constantly wanting to be around you. you radiate charm and friendliness, and you may love to be surrounded by people, and social interactions have a flirty nature to them. but even if everyone around you is entranced by your physical appearance, you might struggle a lot with insecurities, resorting to self-deprecating humor to cope. you have a life-long mission of learning to love yourself and that true beauty comes from within. you shouldn't get too obsessed with others' opinions of you. you give a lot of importance to your individual style and sense of aesthetic. you find value and beauty in every being. you radiate vulnerability. 

venus in the 2nd house: your voice is absolutely alluring! people feel very attracted to it. to you, love is comfort - you want to surround yourself in an aesthetically pleasing environment. a talent for business and art. it's probable you'll make a career out of one of your hobbies. this placement gives luck when it comes to financial comfort + accumulating wealth, and it's no longer that this placement is associated with having sugar daddies - your partner will most likely be much richer than you. you might struggle with compulsive spending, though. you crave admiration. loyalty and devotion are very important to you, and you might be very possessive. you're a caretaker - you're very attentive to the needs of those you love. 

venus in the 3rd house: you love people with who you can keep intellectual and endlessly interesting conversations/discussions for hours and hours on end! you love complimenting others, and you're so gifted at communication that it's very easy for you to use flattery to get what you want - that and the fact that you love playing mind games makes for a very dangerous combination. a sucker for dirty talk. a need to be constantly intellectually stimulated. imaginative and curious. you love analyzing the way your partner thinks and you can be fascinated with someone's mind and their interests. your need to be constantly entertained can make it difficult to maintain a long-term relationship, which is why you need to feel fulfilled in the other parts of your life as well, like your hobbies and career. a talent for talking, writing, poetry. 

venus in the 4th house: you feel like home. living in a comfortable, safe and beautiful house is very important to you, just like establishing a family. your relationship with your family, friends and significant other is of utmost importance to you and you feel the need to create a loving atmosphere for them. although being nurturing is an amazing quality, your attachment to your partner can be so overwhelming that it can lead to break-ups. you're terrified of stressful situations, scandals and chaos, and you absolutely need to focus on being in a peaceful environment and one where you can pursue your happiness. very nostalgic and overprotective of loved ones. you need your partner to constantly reassure you of their love to you or you'll go crazy with feelings of jealousy and insecurity. you love helping others, and you inspire love and trust in those around you. 

venus in the 5th house: you're literally idealized by many as the perfect partner. you're absolutely crazy about romance and achieving happiness through life's pleasures. you're looking for a partner who's just as charming and fun as you. your loyal nature makes you want a life-long lasting relationship, and you'll likely be a great parent, and your kids will bring you immense happiness. you might be very popular and have a flair for the dramatics, loving it when the attention is all on you. you want to show off your partner to everyone, being very proud of them. you find having crushes on people something that's very fun and light-hearted. very romantic - you love museum dates, picnics, giving and receiving roses and you just love when someone makes it their mission to conquer your heart. very magnetic. be careful of basing your self-love on the way others feed your ego, because when you're not receiving that kind of attention, you can become insecure, lonely and as if you're not enough. 

venus in the 6th house: you're very supportive of your significant other and your express your love through acts of service and small gestures - it's as if you want to take all of their hurt and the weight on their shoulders, not caring about how that will take a toll on you. this can be very toxic especially if you fall for someone who takes advantage of your giving nature. you need someone eager to serve you just as you serve them. you naturally earn the respect and adoration of others. you enjoy routine and balance, and you're very thoughtful to others' details and needs, with a huge sense of duty. be careful of being easily manipulated. you also need to work on your low self-esteem and find a way to love yourself and find value outside of your achievements and hard work. you have an obsession with perfection. your indirect way of showing affection might be very misunderstood by others, making you come off as unemotional and unromantic when really you love painfully hard. 

venus in the 7th house: you're very attached to the person with who you're in a relationship with! when venus falls in the house of relationships, this is truly where you feel the most emotionally fulfilled. you seek peace and harmony with your partner, and you hate arguing - it truly takes a toll on your stability. be careful with losing yourself too much when in a relationship and losing your sense of individuality, and also with needing the approval of those close to you too much. your magnetism can give you great luck when it comes to attracting the right kind of people, and you get along with a lot of people. you're the type to have dreamt about the day of your marriage ever since you were a little kid. you give your all when in love, so don't let others take advantage of that. very romantic, you love exploring new things and being a sensual being. you have a very high need for respect and to be appreciated. very positive and talented, with a special charm that makes many dream of being with you. 

venus in the 8th house: you love intimacy and are not at all interested in surface-level friendships and relationships. it might be difficult for you to allow yourself to be intimate with others because you're a very closed-off person who needs a closed-circle of friends, and they're the only ones who get past your intimidating walls and right onto the genuine and caring person underneath. you're not interested in casual relationships and one-night stands. when you do allow yourself to open up to a potential partner, you seek intensity, possessiveness, drama and a meaningful connection. you're terrified of betrayal and being cheated on. a need for loyalty and trust. penetrating eyes and sexual energy. you express your love through sex, making friendships and business relations. very devoted to your partner. you might have a thing for dark, mysterious and secretive people! you also love getting to know absolutely everything about your person. you’re also very secretive yourself and love to keep your secrets hidden from everyone but the few chosen ones.

venus in the 9th house: you crave adventure and new experiences! you might fall in love very easily, but it's always with people who bring something new into your life. freedom is very important to you, so when your partner threatens that in any way and when you feel like you're not learning anything new from them, you'll leave. you love the idea of exploring the world with someone by your side. you love traveling, learning and philosophy, and have a very open mind, and your love for freedom makes you very independent. very attractive hips and thighs. you're very fun to be around!  you love life and you love to love. you make friends very easily. a sucker for spontaneity - routine simply drives you crazy. you fall in love with someone's spirit, someone with who you share many interests, not with looks and social status! 

venus in the 10th house: people constantly experience falling in love with you at first sight – which is almost always one-sided because you have incredibly high standards. you love being the center of attention, and although you have this distant and cold yet oddly intriguing aura about you, you’re very warm on the inside, but only with the few you trust. incredibly charismatic. power turns you on, and you fantasize a lot about student/teacher and worker/boss type of dynamics: you fucking love power-play and want an older, more powerful, more experienced, richer and of a higher social-status partner.. which is just your luck, because you’re practically a magnet for those people. you have a very high sense of aesthetic and love presenting an image of beauty and perfection to the world - an attempt to hide the turbulence of emotions underneath. 

venus in the 11th house: for you to fall in love with someone, you need to build a very strong sense of friendship with them first! one of your favorite tropes is friends to lovers or enemies to friends to lovers. you love making friends and you impulsively do so, taking a lot of pleasure from group activities and social gatherings. you place a lot of value in all the kinds of relationships in your life, and your loved ones simply adore you. you love bringing people together, and you easily adapt to the environment and people with who you're with. you can be interested in more than one person at a time. very humanitarian, you fight for the causes most important to you, and you need to be careful with only seeing the best in people while ignoring their flaws. 

venus in the 12th house: you over-idealize love to the point where it feels like something straight out of a movie. you're attracted to forbidden love, star-crossed love, unattainable love. you're very caring and pure-hearted. love is very private and personal to you. you need to be careful about putting your partner on a pedestal, though - you love very hard but you also tend to give all you have to your loved ones, and many might take advantage of that. it's very easy for you to get hurt in love, and your love life might be very complicated. you can also be afraid of openly expressing your feelings. you have a very mysterious and enigmatic aura. healing powers through touch. don't let your past experiences shatter your perception of love - don't let your dark past dim your light. 

[thebibliomancer]

Essential Avengers: Avengers #246: GATHERINGS

August, 1984

Family feud! Guest-starring SERSI of the Eternals!

She comes!

A portent of times to come! I hear a faint rumbling of leather jackets from distant years...

Also, hey! She-Hulk! I missed you!

The Avengers have been through the Secret Wars and participated in the Wraith War! What’s next for our band of heroes?

Maybe parties? The cover makes it look like a party is going on before some Kirby-looking guys crashed.

But also? Vision’s vague scheming to raise the Avengers’ profile continues as he and Scarlet Witch take a trip to visit President Reagan and First Lady Reagan at the White House.

Weird thing is that we don’t get an unobscructed view of Reagan’s face. He’s either back to the ‘camera’ or cropped on the panel border. Weird, since this wasn’t a problem last time he appeared in this book. Y’know, the time some plant people tried to hold him for ransom? That time?

President Didn’t-Pay-for-the-Likeness-Rights thanks Vision for taking time to personally brief him on all the biz the Avengers have been up to.

President Reagan: “I wish we could talk like this more often! The National Security Council keeps me posted on your missions, but there’s nothing like getting the news firsthand.”

Vision: “I quite agree, Mr. President. In fact, I have a few suggestions for making the lines of communication between Avengers Mansion and the White House more... shall we say... direct?”

He suggests they speak in private which Reagan gladly agrees to, shooing Scarlet Witch and Mrs. Reagan out. To Scarlet Witch’s surprise because he sprang the trip on Washington on her and now he’s sprung this on her.

Also, every time Vision meets someone in private and the conversation takes place off-panel, they suddenly come around to his point of view so.... uh...

Well, I’m sure it’s fine.

Meanwhile, we get back to Captain Monica Marvel Rambeau’s subplot. Remember how she worried after getting back from Secret Wars that she had no explanation to give her family for being missing for several days? And was thinking of telling them about her secret superhero thing?

Well, she calls home to New Orleans and her presumably firefighter dad answers. I presume he’s a firefighter because there’s a firefighter hat and coat hanging up prominently in the background. We call that environmental storytelling.

Monica’s mom isn’t home so Monica asks for her parents to call her back when they’re both available.

Monica: “In a way, I’m glad momma wasn’t home. That gives me more time to figure out how I’m going to tell them that their ‘little girl’ is leading a double life... as an Avenger called Captain Marvel!”

... Geez, her costume looks so weird when there’s nobody in it.

Monica ponders just bringing it up casually by RECAPPING HER ENTIRE BACKSTORY! Which, in fairness, would be an appropriate way to handle it. But she decides that just going ‘yeah I was helping old family friend Professor LeClare investigate a secret lab on an oil platform, punched a machine, got powers, and then joined the Avengers’ would sound crazy and that there must be a better way to tell them.

I say, take it slow and ramp up. Start from ‘I have superpowers’, do a little pew pew flashlight beam and let their questions guide your explanation.

Meanwhile again but elsewhere, Wasp van Dyne is just chilling at Avengers Mansion, bumming herself out rereading the World According to Garp, and receiving a phone call from West Avengers Chairman Hawkeye.

He tells her that he found a great HQ for the new West Coast Avengers, some old silent film star’s home, and he’s overseeing renovations now.

This ongoing Hawkeye real estate subplot is to get you excited for the upcoming West Coast Avengers series. Are you?

I dread it.

Anyway, Starfox comes in after the phone call and recognizes that Janet is in a Mood. A very bored mood. A post-chairperson funk.

Wasp: “It’s just that Wanda and the Vision are in Washington... Hawkeye and his new wife are setting up a new team in California... Cap and Thor are away on missions of their own... Everybody’s doing something! Everybody but me! It’s funny, after all we’ve been through lately, especially with that horrible Magneto, you’d think I’d appreciate a little leisure time. But instead, I’m bored out of my mind!”

Magneto kissing her really teed her off if that’s what she’s focusing on from the whole Secret Wars thing and not having died.

Starfox has just the answer for Wasp’s post-Magneto-kissing blues though.

PARTY.

He was on his way to a great party and Wasp can be his plus one!

Meanwhile, on the Washington to New York plane, Vision and Scarlet Witch.

She’s confused why they didn’t just take the Quinjets that they have instead of flying on a commercial airline but Vision says that getting out among the people is just good public relations.

I mean, he’s not wrong. But also flying in public, in your costumes, seems like it runs the risk of aggroing a supervillain attack.

It doesn’t happen but I wouldn’t have been surprised if it did.

The flight attendant asks Vision if he drinks before course correcting into asking him if he wants a drink.

I don’t know what’s more amazing here. Wanda going ‘he never has coffee at home’ like that coffee ad that Airplane spoofed.

Or Vision patting himself on the back for connecting to the common man with his drink order.

Simply superb.

Back at the casa Rambeau, Maria Rambeau returns and then returns Monica’s call. Monica says she’s going to come over for dinner and then a panel later, she’s knocking on the door.

Her parents are confused because it’s a twenty-minute drive between Monica’s house and theirs but that’s just part of what Monica wants to explain to them.

I see Monica decided to just jump into her explanation.

Back in New York, Janet frets over whether she’s dressed right for the party but Starfox just dismisses that as one of Earth’s weird mores. Why, he only wears the one outfit and that’s just gonna have to be good enough.

They arrive at the party and it seems to be a hobnobbin’ sort of event, with people discussing court settlements and acting. Also, She-Hulk is there. Hi, She-Hulk!

Glad Stern found another excuse to include you after Byrne stole you away to the land of the Fantastic.

She-Hulk says she met the host at an exotic bakery shop just last week and that’s how she scored the invite.

I wonder what made these baked goods so exotic. And I’m wondering if it wasn’t actually erotic. Do I think that She-Hulk would purchase a butt cake? Yes, yes I do.

She asks Starfox how he knows the host and, well, he doesn’t. He heard about the party and decided to invite himself (and Wasp) along. I.e. crash.

But the host...

ITS SHE!

SERSI!

SHE COMES!

But the host, Sylvia Sersi, isn’t too bothered by the pair of party-crashing Avengers and has She-Hulk introduce them.

Starfox is enchanted to meet Sersi and she likewise but they’d best not be too enchanted to meet each other because I’m pretty sure they’re not too distant relations.

Mentor founded the Titan colony of the Eternals and the Eternals have all been around a while so there’s not that many branches between Starfox and Sersi, I don’t think.

Anyyyyyway.

A drunk man pauses before a mirror to tidy up his tie and gets a startle when a Watcher-looking guy that isn’t the Watcher because he has hair appears in the mirror instead of his own face.

When Sersi comes over to investigate she tells him he must have imagined it and sends the guy away for some air but then interrogates the mirror face man and calls him Domo.

Domo, in the mirror: “We need you here in Olympia! Everyone is needed for the final decision!”

Sersi: “I told you before, I don’t care! Go ahead and make your big decision! It won’t affect me, because I intend to go right on doing as I please!”

Then she turns the mirror into a picture of penguins??

Her powers are great indeed.

Although her investment in the community is less so.

Whatever this mysterious decision everyone is voting on, it is clearly less important than this rockin’ party. This party has a She-Hulk!

Back over at the Rambeaus, Monica decides to just rip off the band-aid and tell her parents that she’s Captain Marvel. They find it hard to believe so she just pulls out her costume and lightspeeds into it.

Harder to hold doubts when your daughter glows with an awesome power.

Frank Rambeau: “It’s true... my little girl’s an Avenger. Hey, that means... you’ve met Captain America!”

Frank jumping right to the important points.

Thankfully, Monica’s parents are very supportive. And actually like the Avengers. You have cool parents, Monica.

Frank Rambeau: “Monica, I don’t know what to say! The Avengers are heroes... like Cap and the Black Panther and Thor... They’re like a legend! To think that you’re one of them -- !”

Maria Rambeau: “We’re very, very proud of you, dear... Prouder than we ever thought possible!”

Very cool parents.

Meanwhile, back at the party, mirror spooked guy (apparently Harry) goes out for air like Sersi suggested and then sees something else which spooks him even harder!

He runs from the party babbling about seeing things or not seeing things and not sticking around to sort out which.

Then a bunch of goons crash the party by flying through the terrace doors.

Look at these total goons.

Starfox steps forward and tries to defuse the situation both by words

Starfox: “Easy, my friends! I’m sure you don’t want to hurt anyone!”

And by shooting pleasure beams from his mind.

Predictably, his pleasure beam, besides being creepy, can’t be allowed to be too effective.

If it actually worked we wouldn’t have conflict and plot.

So like the Hulk in Incredible Hulk #300, these dudes called Delphans just slap Starfox out of the way.

Then superhero number two steps up.

One of the Delphans say that they need to get “that witch” before she can cause them any grief and She-Hulk was in proximity and assumes they meant her and takes exception to that.

She-Hulk: “‘Witch’, huh? You wouldn’t mean me, would you? That’s a bad choice of words, but you’re right about one thing... I can give plenty of grief!”

The Delphan just immediately hits her with an energy pole which just pisses off She-Hulk and ruins her party dress. Thankfully she had the unstable molecules FF costume on underneath.

She dresses in layers.

Delphan: “You’re still standing? But that photon-burst would have stunned the mighty Karkas!”

She-Hulk: “You stupid jerk! Do you have any idea how hard it is to find nice things in my size?!”

She-Hulk and Starfox start beating on the Delphans but its Sersi’s party and she can shoot eye beams if she wants to, eye beams if she wants to.

Sersi: “I should have known Domo would send you Delphans after me! Well, it won’t work! You’re not taking me away without a fight!”

Not just eyebeams but apparently a piggifying beam!

A singing piggifying beam!

Oh, sure, the Delphan says that its a transmutive ability but I know whats what.

Her name is Sersi, which is like Cerci, and she can shoot pig beams at people, especially Greek soldiers.

Unfortunately, like other witches before her, she needs some wrist range of movement to do her business and grabbing her by the arms will just nullify her.

Sigh.

If only he didn’t have armored outpanties, she could kick him in the business.

But fortunately, Wasp “can blow up a small house” van Dyne won’t be stopped by armored outerwear and shoots the Delphan grabbing Sersi right in the butt.

That is, Wasp shoots him in the butt, not that he’s grabbing Sersi in the butt.

Meanwhile, over in the Vision and Scarlet Witch subplot, their plane lands at LaGuardia and they’re instantly accosted by journalists who wants Vision’s take on rumors that the president is going to make chairmanship of the Avengers a cabinet-level post.

Vision coyly tells them that he and the president discussed many things but he’s not at liberty to confirm anything.

Hmm.

Then Vision excuses himself, saying that he and Wanda have to get back to Avengers Mansion.

Scarlet Witch: “We certainly do!” And when we get there, we are going to have a little talk!

Seems Wanda is annoyed at all this being left out of the loop.

Back at the A-plot, where A stands for Avengers go to a party and then get into a fight, Sersi gets fed up with these shenanigans and threatens to turn the Delphans into worms but she gets grabbed by the wrists again, this time by power-dampening chonky handcuffs, and dragged away by the Delphans to their spaceship that was hovering right outside the party.

Starfox and Wasp fly out in pursuit, with non-flying She-Hulk complaining about being left behind.

Wasp: “After them, Starfox! We mustn’t let them get away!”

Starfox: “I quite agree! Hostesses such as Ms. Sersi are all too rare!”

Wasp: “No kidding! Once we rescue her, I want to find out how she does that trick with her eyes!”

... Really.

The eyes specifically? Not the singing pig beam?

Huh. To each their own.

The ship takes off shortly after Wasp and Starfox stow aboard and the two heroes resume beating Delphan ass to try to save Sersi.

Lead Delphan: “We have the advantage in number, but they’re still making us look like idiots! We can’t let them beat us now! Have to initiate transport... while there’s still a chance!”

The ship then disappears with a FWOF!

And reappears above the mountains of Northern Greece.

Apparently, Eternal transportation is like the kind in Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy because Starfox and Wasp are discombobulated and nauseated by the transport.

The Lead Delphan seizes the opportunity while the bull is hot and pulls the lever to make the ship just completely disassemble.

The Delphans take advantage of the heroes startlement to beat the shit out of Starfox in midair.

Clever. But rude.

Sometime later, Starfox comes to in Olympia to discover that he and Wasp are completely surrounded and in the shit.

Domo: “Citizens of Olympia!! At last, we all stand together... reunited with our Polar and Pacific cousins! Our destiny beckons! But before the ritual may begin, we must first deal with these two... who have intruded into the affairs of the Eternals!”

Hey, dick! They don’t come to a party you’re crashing and slap the host!

But I guess we’re going to meet all the Eternals next time.

What a fun coincidence that I’m hitting this point of the story when the Eternals movie is just a few months away.

Follow @essential-avengers​ because one day I’ll read comics about Sersi wearing a leather jacket. Like and reblog for the same reason or for different reasons.

[missmentelle]

How much is too much to ask of your (potential) partner's time? Is expecting to talk once a day too demanding, even just to say hi how are you? This guy I've been talking to recently stopped reaching out daily. I agree that we can both live our own lives without revolving around each other, going without any communication for days seems weird imo? I've never been in a relationship before tbh so I don't know where the line is for asking too much of their time and attention? Thank you so much!!

Honestly, this is a matter of your personal preferences and communication style - there aren’t any hard and fast rules here. Some people - myself included - like to be in regular contact with their partner and talk or text throughout the day. Some people are okay not hearing from their partners as often - my best friend and his wife-to-be only talk 2-3 times per week, as they are both incredibly busy with their careers. There aren’t any right or wrong answers here. If I only heard from my partner every other day I’d be lonely, and if my best friend heard from his partner every day he’d feel smothered. It’s all about finding a pattern that works best for you.  If you and a partner have very different preferences when it comes to how often you want to talk, that’s an issue that you should discuss. One partner might need to make an effort to text back more often, and the other partner might need to find a way to cope with not texting as often as they would prefer to. If your preferences are extremely different, though - as in, one person wants to text back and forth all day and the other person prefers a weekly phone call - at some point it might be worth considering whether you’re really compatible. Communication is an extremely important thing in a relationship, and having a relationship with someone who is far outside your communication preferences just might not work for you. Even if the other person is otherwise great, a relationship that constantly leaves you feeling lonely might not be the best choice for you, especially when there are so many people out there who will match your communication style. It doesn’t mean that anyone is “wrong” in this situation, it simply means that people want different things from relationship and have different expectations. 

If a partner is suddenly growing distant from you when they are normally talkative, however, that could be a sign that something is wrong. There might be something going on in their personal life or they could be growing detached from the relationship. If you’re noticing a change in someone’s communication, talk to them about it - you need to know what’s causing the change so that you know how to deal with it. The person might need some extra support, they might just be having an “off week”, they might be wanting you to initiate the conversations more often, or they might unfortunately not be as invested in the relationship as they used to be; that last one may be painful to hear, but it’s important to know about it so that you can decide how you want to move forward. 

Ultimately, you should remember that it’s okay to want to hear from the person you’re dating often, and you are not “clingy” or “unreasonable” for wanting a “hi, how was your day” text once per day. That is a valid thing to want in a relationship. You might just be dating someone who has preferences that don’t align with yours. It’s okay to value keeping in touch, and it’s okay for that to be something you value in a partner.  Best of luck to you! MM

[snowyseba]

Miles Away

Summary: A Rockstar!Steve AU. Steve Rogers was known to most people as the lead guitarist for the Howling Commandos, but to you, he was also your boyfriend, or at least you thought he was. Lately, though, you weren’t so sure. He was barely around anymore and seemed to want nothing to do with you. Wrapped up in his own emotions, Steve won’t even hear you out, choosing to ignore you rather than confront his own failings. An unexpected phone call during the Howling Commando’s tour brings everything crashing down around him. How is he supposed to fix this mess?

Word Count: 6.2k

Warnings: angst, swearing, Steve is kind asshole, pregnancy & injury during pregnancy, fluff

Posted 12/18/19

Well fuck. The little plus sign on the stick in front of you changed everything. You and Steve had been together for just over three years now, living together for two of those years, but you’d never really talked about kids. It wasn’t that you didn’t want them eventually, but the subject just never came up, especially with his career taking off rapidly. Hell, you’d never really talked about your future. If you did talk about the future, it was always about his plans and his band, The Howling Commandos. You didn’t regret dating a musician; you had known what you were signing up for when you started the relationship. Hell, the fact that he was a guitarist was part of the appeal in the first place.

Lately, though, things weren’t great. Steve was busy, which was nothing new given his crazy schedule, but there seemed to be less and less time for you. Despite living together, it felt like you saw him less than ever. Most mornings, he was still sleeping when you left for work, not bothering to get up or say goodbye, and he’d stumble home well after you had fallen asleep each night. You might have been living together, but your lives had never felt more separate. He used to make time for you, or at least text you to let you know that he was running late. Not anymore, though. You were lucky if you got a few messages a day.

Maybe that’s why you started clinging to him. The more distant he got, the harder you tried. And the harder you tried, the more you seemed to drive him away. You felt like you were annoying him, but you shouldn’t have to beg for even the smallest bit of attention, not to mention affection, from your own partner. The more he pushed you away, the harder you held on.

Something was broken between the two of you, but you couldn’t fix it if he wouldn’t talk to you, and lately, that seemed like the last thing he wanted to do. You were running out of time. Steve was leaving for tour tomorrow, and you still hadn’t found a time to tell him you’re pregnant. You had been trying for a week now, but every time you tried to talk to him, he’d make some excuse about running late for a meeting, or having to go meet the guys to rehearse. Tonight was your last chance, and then he’d be gone for three months. You’d be showing by the time he got back. Sooner or later, the truth would come out. 

So there you were, perched on the ledge of the bathtub, staring down at the positive pregnancy test, wondering just how the hell you were going to tell Steve. You’d wait up for him, you decided, no matter how late he was. The positive test was just confirmation; you had suspected that you were pregnant for a while now but had been too scared to buy a test. It would have been easier if you could have told Steve your suspicions, but your main form of communication lately was texts. This deserved an in-person discussion.

Four hours later, it was just past midnight. You were exhausted, but you were determined to stay awake. Thankfully, you didn’t have to wait much longer; Steve returned minutes later. The second you heard the door open, you felt the familiar pit in your stomach. Dread. That was the only word you could think of. 

“Oh, uh, hey babe...I didn’t think you’d be up.” 

“Well, I’m up,” you tried to sound playful, but you barely managed to conceal how shaky your voice was. “I was actually hoping to talk to you.” 

“Not now, babe.” Steve shook his head, waving dismissively. “I’m tired and tour starts tomorrow. We can talk in the morning.” 

You sighed in frustration, shaking your head. “No. We’re talking right now. I’ve been waiting for you all night. I barely see you anymore. I’ve been trying to talk to you for weeks. This is really important, Steve.” 

“Jesus, Y/N. I’m fuckin’ exhausted can you just drop it? I said we’ll talk tomorrow. Fuck, I don’t know what’s gotten into you lately.”

“Well,” you huffed, still keeping your hand on his wrist, certain that he’d walk away the second you let go. “I’ve been trying to explain what’s gotten into me but you won’t even give me the chance! Fuck, Steve, I’m just asking for some goddamn time. We don’t talk. Hell, we don’t even see each other awake anymore!” 

Steve tugged his arm away from you at that. “You know what, fuck you, Y/N. I’m gonna crash with Bucky for the night. I’ll see you after tour. I can’t do this right now.” 

“Steve! Don’t walk away from me! I’m trying to tell you something really important!” 

He retreated up the stairs and all you could do was stare after him in stunned silence, a shaky hand pressed against your stomach as you slowly sank to the ground, body shaking with silent tears. Fuck. What were you supposed to do now? You couldn’t just blurt out that you’re pregnant. Who knows how Steve would have taken that.

Steve didn’t even give you a second glance as he stalked through the front door, weekender bag overstuffed with clothes slung over his shoulder. He paused at the door, turning, looking at you silently for a few moments. His brow furrowed and his fists were clenched. He opened his mouth, then closed it again. “I...look, we’ll talk after tour, babe. But...I need a break. I can’t do this clingy shit. That’s not what I signed up for. I don’t know what’s up with you, but maybe some time apart will be good for us. I think that maybe we shouldn’t talk until I get back, though. Whatever it is you needed to tell me, it can wait until I get back.” 

Ouch. Okay. “Fine,” you struggled to keep your voice calm, failing to prevent it from shaking and giving your emotions away. 

And then he was gone without so much as a goodbye. Maybe you should have argued with him. Maybe you should have told him you’re pregnant despite his insistence that the news could wait, but you were tired. Tired of being the one who cared more, tired of being the person trying to fix everything when it was clear that Steve didn’t care. Steve had made up his mind, and it seemed like he was going to give you no choice but to accept it. 

There was a huge part of you that wanted to fall apart completely, to close the curtains and curl up in bed for days, but you couldn’t do that. You had another life to think about now, and you had to try to take care of yourself. From now on, you’d focus your energy on your baby. Your baby. That brought a smile to your face despite everything, your hand still gently cradling your stomach. From the moment you found out, you knew you were going to keep this baby. No matter what happened with Steve, you’d always have your baby. You’d give them all the love in the world. With or without Steve, you were going to make sure that this baby had the best life possible.

Ten Weeks Along. 

Today was your first ultrasound appointment. The doctor said you were measuring a bit bigger than expected given the date of conception, so she had ordered an ultrasound to confirm your due date. You had desperately tried to get ahold of Steve, leaving him several texts and a voicemail, but so far there was no word from him. You were still conflicted about telling him that he was going to be a father over the phone, but you could have really used his support. All of this was so new and unfamiliar. 

Nat, a longtime friend of Steve’s who you’d quickly come to consider one of your closest friends, offered to come and was meeting you at the clinic. Nat was over the moon and eagerly agreed to go with you. You were glad that you wouldn’t be alone, but you couldn’t shake the feeling that it should be Steve by your side, sharing in the incredible experience of seeing the little life you had created for the first time. The Howling Commandos’ tour had barely begun, but he was already missing so much. In the short amount of time that Steve had been gone, you noticed a small bump was forming. To most people, it would probably just look like you’d overindulged at your last meal, but you knew better. Still, you were surprised. You figured that you were fairly early in your pregnancy, so why were you starting to show already? Then again, that was why you were here.

Next to you, Nat was practically bouncing in her seat as the doctor applied the gel to your bump, and she was the first one to spot the second baby, your second baby. 

“Oh!” Nat squealed, gripping your hand tightly in her own, pointing at the screen. “Is that...are those...two?”

As it would turn out, the reason for your measurements was that you were currently carrying not one but two babies inside you. Lo and behold, there were two little blips on the screen. Baby A and Baby B. 

“You’ve got a good eye!” your OB/GYN grinned. “See that, momma? Looks like you’re going to have your hands full.” 

You didn’t know whether to laugh or cry. Being called ‘momma’ and seeing your babies growing safely within you was incredible, but there was something, someone missing. Fuck. Now you really had to tell Steve. One baby, you might be able to handle on your own, but after hearing all the potential complications and concerns that came with having two babies, you weren’t so sure that you could do this on your own. 

Nat fixed you with a knowing gaze before glancing up at the other woman. “Could you give us a moment?”

She nodded, stepping around the examination table and excusing herself. “I’ll be right out here when you’re ready.” 

As soon as the door closed, the dam burst and you couldn’t help the sob that left your lips as you pressed a hand against your stomach. 

“Oh honey, c’mere” Nat wrapped her arms around you in an instant, rubbing gentle circles over your back as she held you. It was the most intimacy you had felt since Steve left, and it made you cry all the harder. “Do you want to tell me what’s going on? Not that I’m not thrilled to be here, but...shouldn’t Steve...I mean, wouldn’t he want to be here for this?” 

You pulled back from her, avoiding her gaze as you whispered dejectedly. “I wouldn’t know,” you paused. “He doesn’t know.” 

“Y/N?” Nat’s voice was even, but you could tell she was trying hard to keep it that way. “What do you mean he doesn’t know?” 

And so you told her. You told Nat everything - how distant Steve had been, how he had told you that he wanted space, how he was ignoring you texts and calls, how he had walked out on you that night without so much as a second glance. By the end of your story, Nat was fuming. She had stopped rubbing soothing circles over your back, now just gripping you tightly against her. Coming to sit on the exam table in front of you, she took your hands in her own, squeezing reassuringly. “Okay. Here’s what we’re going to do. We’re going to go back home, and we’re going to call him. I’m going to be with you, and we’re not going to give up until he actually picks up. This is too important for him to ignore.”

“You have reached Steve Rogers. I can’t come to the phone right now. Leave a message and I’ll get back to you as soon as I can.” 

That was the tenth time in a row you were sent straight to voicemail after a single ring. This was just getting childish. Steve was now actively ignoring you. He wouldn’t even give you the chance to try to have a conversation with him. You didn’t want to tell him about something this important via text, but he really wasn’t giving you much of a choice at this point. 

“What an asshole,” Nat’s voice did little to mask her resentment towards Steve. “Has it been like this the whole time?”

You nodded, trying not to fixate on the pitying look Nat gave you.”Haven’t heard from him since he left. He said he wanted a break. Fuck, Nat, I told him I had something important to tell him and he...he just told me it could wait. I don’t know what I’m supposed to do here.” 

Panic was rapidly bubbling deep in the pit of your stomach. Tears pricked at your eyes, quickly spilling over, your breath catching in your throat as you paced the length of your living room, wringing your hands. “What if he doesn’t want me anymore? What if he doesn’t want us? What am I supposed to do, Nat? I don’t know if I can do this by myself. I can’t have two babies on my own. This wasn’t supposed to happen this way. This isn’t how any of this was supposed to happen.”

“Y/N, you’ve gotta breathe. Can you do that for me? Take a deep breath, you’re starting to hyperventilate.”

Although you registered her words, you couldn’t stop. Thoughts were racing, and it felt like your heart was about to jump out of your chest. What on earth were you supposed to do now? You weren’t sure if you were prepared to face the very possible reality of doing this without Steve. You were too wrapped up in your thoughts to even notice that you were about to walk right into the coffee table. 

Nat shrieked your name, and you looked up at her in a panic, but it was too late, your foot caught on the leg of the table, and you went tumbling forward. Nat sprung into action, propelling herself towards you in a frantic attempt to catch you, but she was too late. You had already fallen.

Steve snuck away from the rest of the band to tune his guitar. As much as he loved his bandmates, he needed some space after traveling in such close quarters and spending most of time each day with them, some time to clear his head. The way he had left things with you didn’t sit well with him, but he just couldn’t bring himself to pick up the phone. If he could just keep himself busy, maybe he wouldn’t have to think about it. 

“Steve! Fuck, man, I’ve been lookin’ everywhere for you!” Bucky’s voice reverberated through the empty arena. It wouldn’t be that way for too much longer, though. Only a little while left before that night’s show, and it was sold out. Soon, the fans would start filing in, the anticipation building until that magical moment when Steve and the band stepped out onto the stage. Those were the moments he lived for, when the worries and stresses of life washed away and he was able to truly live in the moment, sharing what he loved with these people who had made time in their lives just to hear him perform. Sometimes he couldn’t believe how lucky he was. 

Still, Bucky sounded worried, so Steve set his guitar down on its stand and turned to his friend. “What’s up?” 

Out of every possible imagined scenario, Steve never expected the words that next left Bucky’s mouth. “I’m so sorry, Steve, you’ve gotta go. Now. Y/N had a fall. They’re worried it could have hurt the babies. You’ve gotta go. They won’t tell Nat anything since she’s not family. Get your ass to the hospital, man, and you can explain why you kept your unborn children a secret from your best friend later.” 

He stared at Bucky for a few seconds, trying to process the information he had just been told. Babies? Fuck. Holy fuck. You were pregnant, with more than one baby, and you had fallen. You were being taken to the hospital. He stared at Bucky, uncomprehending, but suddenly finding extremely difficult to swallow, his chest constricting tightly as the realization set in, rapidly followed by guilt, then sheer panic.

Steve had messed up. More than messed up. He was pretty sure he might have just ruined the best thing that had ever happened to him, something he didn’t even know about because of his own pride and stupid inability to talk about his emotions. If he got to you and those babies...Bucky hadn’t said how many, but why would he? He had obviously assumed Steve had already known. Was it twins? triplets?? Oh god... if those babies were gone, if you were hurt, he wasn’t sure he’d ever forgive himself. He wouldn’t blame you if you never forgave him either. He had been such an asshole to you. All he could do now was hope that it wasn’t too late to fix all the damage he had done. 

It was like a flip switched and before he even realized what he was doing, he had grabbed his phone booked a ticket for the next flight home. It would be tight, but if he left now, he’d make it on time to catch the flight. Meanwhile, Bucky called a cab, ushering Steve into the back seat as soon as it arrived, telling him to call as soon as he had news.

Once en route to the airport, Steve’s thoughts drifted to the night he left. He muttered vague responses to the driver’s small talk, but all his thoughts were centered around you. Something hadn’t felt right when he left you, he knew that, and yet he did so anyway. Even when you had said you had something important to tell him that night. When you had begged him to let her you out. All of a sudden, it was like everything fell into place. Of course. You were pregnant. That’s what you had been trying to tell him. That was the crucial news, and he had just walked out on you like you meant nothing to him. Worse, he told you not to contact him. He ignored your texts and calls. Oh god. He felt sick to his stomach at the thought.

Steve knew he had to fix this. He had no idea how, but he was going to try, and trying started with getting himself on that flight. Tour could wait. His family was in danger.

By the time Steve reached the hospital, he felt like he had run a marathon. His chest was tight, and breathing was getting harder and harder. He was exhausted, and yet on high alert. All he knew was that he needed to get to you. He was out of the Uber before it had even come to a full stop, mumbling a thank-you to the driver. Quickly shutting the door, he strode straight to the front desk, desperate to find out what room you were in. He needed to get to you as soon as he could. He only hoped it wasn’t already too late. 

Thankfully, a sympathetic nurse took pity on him, “Follow me,” she’d offered with a kind smile. “She’s in room 103, at the end of the hall on your right. She’s asleep and under observation, but she’s stable so you can wait until she wakes up.” 

Now here he stood, at the door to your hospital room as if some invisible forcefield were keeping him out, watching the slow rise and fall of your chest. The pallid white walls emphasizing the sterile and cold environment did nothing to make him feel better. He wanted nothing more than to fall at his feet by your side, begging you to forgive him, but his feet were rooted to the spot. Did he even deserve that? He had abandoned you completely when you needed him the most. He hadn’t even given you the chance to tell him about the babies, his babies. At that moment, he was pretty sure he was the world’s biggest asshole and he was going to spend the rest of this pregnancy, if not the rest of his life, making up for it. 

Taking a shaky breath, he approached your bed, carefully sitting in the adjacent chair so as not to wake you. You looked exhausted, even asleep, and he felt his heart constrict with shame and guilt. His fingertips brushed over your hair gently, whether to reassure you or himself he wasn’t sure. 

Steve remained silent for a while, listening to your breathing, his eyes fixed on the slight swell of your stomach that definitely hadn’t been there when he left for tour, the swell that currently housed his babies. You could have easily fallen on your stomach when you tripped. The thought ignited a spark of guilt deep within him that soon felt like it was consuming him completely. He swallowed thickly, shaking his head and looking away for the first time since arriving. If he had been there, he could have caught you. He could have been there if he had known. Maybe he could have even prevented this. Things were going to have to change, moving forward.

Finally, he found the courage to speak. He took your hand in his, giving it a hesitant squeeze. “Hey, princess. I don’t know if you can hear me or not but I’m so sorry. I was an asshole. I was so beyond out of line, and I should never have left you the way I did. I’m so sorry, sweetheart. I’ve been a horrible dad so far, but I promise I’ll do better.”

Your eyes fluttered slightly, but he wasn’t entirely sure that he wasn’t imagining it. “Y/N?” Instinctively, his grip on your hand tightened as he waited with bated breath, searching for any sign that you had heard him. 

He was almost about to give up hope, turning his attention to your belly and the babies within, when he heard you utter a small, groggy “Stevie?” 

A sharp inhale left the man beside you as his eyes suddenly flicked from your belly to your face, searching for confirmation that he wasn’t making this up. When he saw your eyes open, looking at him with an albeit confused expression of love and gratefulness that he wasn’t entirely sure he deserved, he could barely stop himself from crying. “Oh, sweetheart...I’m so sorry, I -”

There was a knock at the door, interrupting Steve and alerting you to the doctor’s presence. “Ah, Mr. Rogers, it’s a good thing you’re here. Do you have a moment to discuss your results?” 

“Of course,” Steve answered automatically, his grip on your hand tightening. His hand was clammy, his brow furrowed with concern. 

“Now, the good news is, your results looking within the normal levels for a twin pregnancy, but you did fell, which can cause some problems. You haven’t had any contractions, and there’s no sign of blood or amniotic fluid loss. Everything is looking okay so far, but I’d still like to do an ultrasound just to make sure. You’ll need to make sure she’s taking it easy. Dad,” she looked at Steve, who’s somber expression suddenly brightened as the name sunk in, “you’ll want to make sure she’s resting enough. Make sure you’re staying hydrated and eating enough as well. Let’s make sure we try to avoid any future falls as well. Now, let’s take a peek at these babies.” 

The moment Steve saw the two little blobs on the screen, when he heard the rapid thump thump thump of the twins’ hearts, it was like his whole world shifted. Suddenly, all he wanted was to stay here with you and his family. This was where he truly belonged, and he was an idiot for jeopardizing it in the first place.

How was he supposed to just go back out on tour, spend weeks and months on end away from you, all while knowing that you were at home, alone, carrying his babies? He didn’t want to miss another minute. The Howling Commandos would be okay without him for the rest of this tour. They could get a temporary replacement guitarist for him. He was okay with stepping out of the limelight for a while. Being able to be here for you and experience this together was better than all the applause in the world. The beating of his babies’ hearts was more captivating than any music he had ever heard. 

After the doctor left, cautioning you again to make sure not to overdo it, you and Steve sat together in silence. He was still gripping your hand in his, his eyes glossy. Even though it wasn’t your first ultrasound, you still couldn’t help but tear up when you saw your little ones. Although Steve had stayed silent, fixated on the screen, you didn’t mind. If anything, you were moved by how he was completely captivated by the two little lives inside you, and you didn’t miss the way his hand tightened around yours when their heartbeats filled the silence.

“Y/N...” he raises your hand to his lips, pressing a kiss to your knuckles, “fuck, baby, I’m so sorry. I know sorry doesn’t cover it, but I swear, I’m gonna make this up to you. When Bucky told me you were in the hospital, that our babies were in danger, shit, I was terrified. I had everything I ever wanted and I was too much of an asshole to even let you tell me.”

As much as you wanted to forgive him, to comfort him, now that you were over the shock of him actually being here, part of you was still apprehensive. “You walked out on me, Steve. You walked out without even looking back. How am I supposed to trust you? You’ll be on tour for months after this. Honestly, I don’t know that I can handle the stress, and you heard what the doctor said. What, are you going to fly home for every appointment? You’d have to leave right afterward, and I don’t know if I can manage that. What about all the time in between? I miss you enough as it is, and having you here playing house for a couple hours every few weeks...that’s not what I imagined for us.”

Once you started talking, it was like all your fears were coming out at once. Everything that you had bottled up inside since the night Steve left was being unleashed upon him. “What if you miss the first kick? What if I go into labor while you’re still on tour? What if you can’t get home in time?” Your breath was coming in short gasps now, your chest tight as tears stung your eyes. 

“Hey, hey, baby please take a deep breath for me, okay? Can you do that for me, sweetheart? We’ll talk about everything, I promise, but first I need you to calm down - doctor’s orders, right?” He moved to sit on the edge of your bed, facing you. His hands cupped your cheeks, his eyes locked on yours. 

You tried to focus on his face, the feeling of his rough calloused fingers, a physical sign of his dedication to his craft, against your cheeks. How could you ask him to give up his dream? You needed him, but you knew just how important the Howling Commandos’ music was to their fans. Some of them saved up for months just to afford tickets to a show. And you also knew just how important music was to Steve. Still, you did as he asked, and tried to steady your breathing. 

“That’s my girl.” The corners of his lips twitched up in the slightest smile. His hands dropped from your face to hold your own. “Now, let me start by saying that I was so incredibly wrong to leave like I did. I should have let you finish what you were saying. I missed out on finding out about the best damn thing that’s ever happened to me. It was unforgivable, and you have every right to hate me for it, but --”

You cut him off before he could continue. “Why did you do it? What did I do to deserve that? If I was being too clingy, you could have talked to me about it, Steve. But you didn’t. You just shut me out.” 

“Y/N,” he pleaded. “You didn’t deserve it. Any of it. Look, honestly...I didn’t want to leave. I wanted to skip the tour and just stay with you. I miss you when I’m gone. I hate the time differences, the missed calls, sporadic texts. I hate that I don’t get to go to sleep and wake up with you by my side. I didn’t want to give that up. But then I thought about everything I have, and how so many people dream of being where I am, and I felt guilty that I wanted to give it all up. Don’t get me wrong, I love what I do and I don’t want to stop, but sometimes I just...wish I could have a normal life. I worried that I’d be letting everyone down if I asked for a break...so I pushed you away.” 

His bright blue eyes were glassy, his deep voice taking on a gravelly, unsteady edge. “And then when Buck came running out on to stage, telling me you were being taken to the hospital, that you fell and they’re worried about the babies...doll, I...” he shook his head, clenched fist pressed against his mouth. He squeezed his eyes shut, shaking his head. Without thinking, you reached out to squeeze his shoulder, tracing soothing patterns over his arm. Once he had collected himself, he began speaking again. “I don’t think I’ve ever felt more afraid, sick, or loathed myself more. I almost lost everything, Y/N.”

“But you didn’t lose everything, Stevie. We’re all okay.” 

“I could have, though.” He shook his head, looking down at his feet. He was struggling with what to say next. “I’m not taking any more chances. I’m not taking any of this for granted. I’m going to talk to the guys and work something out. I’m going to be here every step of the way, okay? If you’ll have me, that is.” 

You’re silent for a few moments. You’re still not entirely sure you can trust him, but you’ll never know unless you try. “All I’ve ever wanted you, Stevie, only you.” 

“Hmm, only me? That might be a bit of a problem, sweetheart considering it’s going to be the four of us in a few more months.” 

“The four of us? Are you really sure you’ll be around.” 

If he was offended by your question, he didn’t show it. Instead, he pressed a kiss to your forehead, pulling your body against his. “I can’t change the past but I can promise that I’m going to spend the future making up for it and showing you just how much I want this.” 

Thirty-Six Weeks Along

The universe was trying to kill him, Steve decided, as he accelerated out of the studio’s parking lot, merging onto the highway shortly after. You weren’t due for at least another week. The midwife had cleared you, and both of you had assured Steve that it would be fine to head into LA for the day to do an interview with the band. Tour was over, and the Howling Commandos were working on their next album, allowing Steve plenty of time to be there for you and your growing family for at least the next year. 

But of course, the universe had other plans for him. Halfway through the interview, the band’s assistant was making frantic motions from the side of the set. When Steve finally caught on, his heart sunk. Before he even realized what he was doing, he had stood and was quickly making his way over to her. All he processed were the words ‘Y/N,’ and ‘in labor,’ and he was out the door, taking the stairs two at a time rather than waiting around for the elevator. He’d be damned if he was going to miss this. 

Every minute that ticked by as he was stuck in LA traffic was excruciating. All he could think about is that yet again, he wasn’t there when you needed him. Rationally, he knew you wouldn’t be angry; you had been the one to push him to go to the interview in the first place, despite his protestations, but his residual guilt over his behavior made him feel as though he was letting you down by not being there with you right now. Steve had felt anxious all day, and the last thing he had wanted that morning was to leave your side, but he tried to quell his anxiety as you blamed it on the first-time dad-to-be jitters. He should have listened to his gut. If he had, he would have been there for you. 

Steve did make it, though, and he was right by your side as you delivered two healthy babies, a boy, born at 11:42 PM, and a girl who arrived only 16 minutes after her brother. The moment he held his son, and then his daughter in his arms, he broke down into tears. He had managed to keep calm throughout your labor and their birth, focusing on supporting and encouraging you, but when he felt the weight of the babies, felt their impossibly soft skin against their own, watched the steady rise and fall of their chests, it suddenly hit him that this was real. 

The next few hours were spent cuddled on the bed, the two of you marveling over your twins, both of you still trying to register that they were really here. Steve noticed your attempts to stifle your yawns, the way you struggled to keep your eyes open. 

“Get some sleep, sweetheart.” Steve murmured, kissing your forehead as he scooped your daughter from your arms, moving her to rest by her brother in the crib by your bedside. “You’ve had a long day.” 

You would have protested, but a yawn beat you to it, and Steve fixed you with a stern look. “Okay, okay.” 

“That’s my girl. Don’t worry, momma, I’ll keep an eye on them while you sleep,” Steve brushed your hair back, looking at you in pure adoration. 

“Mmm, thanks daddy,” you replied cheekily, smiling up at him. You were beyond tired, but not too tired that you were going to give up the opportunity to tease him. He just rolled his eyes at you, shaking his head in pretend exasperation. “What? You are a daddy now.” 

“Yeah...yeah, I am. And I can’t tell you how grateful I am that you gave me this chance,” his gaze focused back on the twins. 

“We’ve been over this, Stevie,” you replied sternly. “You’ve more than proved that you’re sorry. It’s okay to move on, to forgive yourself for what happened. I have.”  

His back was still turned to you as he wiped a few tears from his eyes. It was something he had struggled with ever since that day at the hospital, and you weren’t sure if he was ever fully going to allow himself to stop feeling guilty over it.

“You keep saying that but--” 

“No buts, Stevie, unless its your butt that we’re talking about, okay?” That earned you a chuckle, and he turned to face you again. 

“Alright. Alright,” he pressed a kiss to your forehead, his hand tracing your cheekbone. “But only if you agree to get some sleep.” 

“I guess I can live with that,” you agreed. 

“That’s my girl,” he pressed another kiss to your forehead, then turned his attention to the crib and its brand new occupants.

Confident that they were going to be well looked after by their father, you finally gave in and let sleep take you. You’d only end up getting a couple hours of rest before the twins woke you, demanding to be fed. You’d take whatever rest you could. 

Once he was sure you were asleep, Steve’s attention returned to his children. He took a moment to send photos of the sleeping newborns to his bandmates. They were fast asleep only moments after you. As much as Steve wanted to hold them, he was afraid of waking them up, so he settled for sitting between you and the babies, keeping watch over his family as he allowed himself to wonder how the hell he got so lucky. Bucky, naturally, responded almost immediately, congratulating Steve and asking when he could see his niece and nephew. He’d respond to that later, Steve decided. He wanted a little more time to exist in the haze, completely overwhelmed with exhaustion, fear, and so very much in love with his new family.

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Libra Compatibility - The Best and Worst Match

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Libra Compatibility - The Best and Worst Match

Libra natives are peaceful, diplomatic, and sociable.

These individuals are fascinated by symmetry and they are interested in creating a world of justice and equality.

Besides, their urge for balance operates on an aesthetic level.

Libra Suns have an innate sense of style and are inclined to look for refined experiences and objects in their everyday life.

Getting information about Libra compatibility could be useful if you are interested in sustaining a healthy connection.

Whether Libra is your Sun sign or the sign of your crush, this article will help you get facts that will be useful for navigating the challenges of relationships.

Remember, though, that Astrology is not limited to the Sun sign.

You should consult with a professional astrologer to acquire an in-depth report of the compatibility between two people.

Sun signs only offer a general idea about compatibility.

Best Libra Compatibility Matches

The Sun signs that are the best matches for Libra have to share some common traits with the graceful nature of this cardinal airy sign. Read on, to know more about them.

Libra and Gemini

Gemini and Libra are both air signs. This means that they would have an entertaining mental connection and a witty verbal understanding.

Gemini and Libra enjoy sharing their ideas about every-thing and participating in cultural events that will make them learn something new and meet stimulating people.

Libra Suns love to entertain their acquaintances and Gemini Suns are also very social.

This couple is great at hosting parties and inviting friends to their home.

Since they both love talking and being the center of attention, they will make jokes and observations like they were stand-up comedians in their own Netflix special.

The spontaneous nature of the Gemini Suns could be really beneficial for the perfectionist Libra Suns.

On the other hand, Libra Suns can help their Gemini partners to tidy up their scattered thoughts in order to express them more cohesively.

They can complement each other beautifully when they are capable of appreciating their unique mindsets.

This almost-perfect match may hit a snag if they do not show their vulnerable side.

These two Sun signs have a bit of a reputation for being superficial.

They need to learn how to vent their feelings and to accept that life is not always fun, entertaining, and light.

Libra and Aquarius

There is a strong bond between an Aquarius Sun and a Libra Sun.

They share the element of air and appreciate mental stimulation.

Since both signs rely heavily on communication, they will enjoy talking with each other and will find the right words to solve all of their issues.

Libra is a sign who does not want to be alone. Aquarius, on the other hand, likes solitude and needs some space to feed its individuality.

The Libra partner could seem clingy, whereas the Aquarius partner might seem detached.

Luckily, meeting halfway and finding some common ground is possible and it will guarantee that they will be able to overcome their differences.

Marriage is considered very meaningful for Libra Suns. For Aquarius Suns, it may seem to be an obsolete institution.

But they will settle down for the right partner and a Libra Sun may have the specific qualities that an Aquarius Sun needs to feel comfortable and amused at the same time.

It is important for both Libra and Aquarius Suns to move slowly and make the decision to tie the knot when they are certain that the relationship is going to be beneficial in the long run.

Libra and Leo

Leo Sun values pride and beauty. And a Libra Sun enjoys pleasing other people with their attractive and elegant demeanor.

Together, they may learn how to express themselves unapologetically and how to strengthen their talents.

They support each other’s personalities in a communicative and charming way.

The sextile between the Leo Sun and the Libra Sun makes it possible for them to have a respectful partnership and to build stronger personalities that are free of judgment of any kind.

This couple knows how to shine!

The elements of fire and air fit perfectly. Leo puts a passionate touch to every intelligent idea concocted by Libra. Their communication is quick, inspiring, and enthusiastic.

These two signs together represent the consummation of a loving relationship.

When you look at this couple, you will see that their devotion for one another is real, palpable and it has long-term potential.

When a Leo Sun and a Libra Sun are together, they will not engage in a relationship with no future.

Less Libra Compatibility Matches

Having mentioned the best matches for Libra Suns, the moment has arrived for taking a look at the less compatible ones.

Please remember that this Libra compatibility article is based only on the Sun sign.

Two people who possess Sun signs that are not traditionally compatible can still have a healthy relationship. The reason behind this is that compatibility goes beyond Sun signs.

There may be other astrological placements in the natal charts, as well as a desire of getting to know more about a partner, that could make a relationship work and be long-lasting.

Libra and Taurus

Even though both signs are ruled by Venus, Taurus and Libra couldn’t be more different.

Taurus is a fixed and earthy sign that enjoys life when it’s predictable and stable.

Libra, on the other hand, needs to start new projects all the time and to socialize with new people.

These two signs will drive each other crazy in a committed relationship.

While the Taurus Sun may be stubborn and fixated on their old ideas, the Libra Sun may be indecisive and always interested in seeing life from a variety of perspectives.

The Taurus Sun wants to keep things under control and the Libra Sun wants to push the envelope constantly.

Insecurity may be another issue in this couple.

The Libra Sun could criticize their Taurus Sun partner as a way of projecting their own fears of not being good enough.

But the Taurus Sun will not understand this unconscious mechanism and will take the criticism very personally.

Then, the Taurus Suns could experience sudden bursts of anger because they are not able to channel their emotions constructively. And Libra Suns will go away because they can’t stand rudeness.

Libra and Virgo

A relationship between a Virgo Sun and a Libra Sun doesn’t look like a good match.

Virgo is an earth sign and is ruled by Mercury. This means that it relies on tangible results.

Libra is an airy sign ruled by Venus and couldn’t be more distant from Virgo’s pragmatic nature.

Libra craves beauty and art and can be very vacillating when making a decision.

As soon as one of them has to articulate a concern or a deep feeling, the other one seems to freeze and to lose the ability for showing empathy or compassion.

These two signs are not known for having the skill to connect with their emotions and display them honestly.

The mental attraction that they may experience interferes with showing love and with providing comfort at disturbing times.

Virgo wants to optimize processes and improve existing systems. Therefore, people born under this sign will take over the decisions that the Libra Suns need to make.

The Libra Suns will feel inferior and will stop respecting their Virgo Sun partner. While Libra Suns don’t tolerate the absence of kindness, Virgo Suns can’t accept ambivalence.

Libra and Scorpio

The value system of a Scorpio Sun is remarkably divergent from the value system of a Libra Sun.

Scorpio is not afraid of facing the darkest aspects of the human condition. Libra, on the other extreme, is devoted to niceties.

A Libra Sun may perceive that a Scorpio Sun goes the extra mile to be perceived as special and deep.

A Scorpio Sun may perceive that a Libra Sun compromises all the time just to fit in.

The main problem here is that a Libra Sun may be too concerned about other people’s opinions and a Scorpio Sun finds this concern superficial and shallow.

Libra Suns will have trouble understanding the inquisitive side of Scorpio, as much as Scorpio Suns won’t be able to understand the accommodating nature of their Libra partners.

Their differences could be impossible to reconcile. However, they may have an incredibly intense and demanding sexual life.

Obsession and possessiveness are two possible manifestations when they are in the bedroom.

They could create profound ties through their physical contact, but everything else in the relationship could make them feel unsatisfied and unappreciated.

Libra Man

The Libra man is gentle, tactful, and smart. He has great manners and dedicates a lot of time to improve his appearance.

On the downside, he could have high standards in a partnership and this will be reflected in the way he treats his significant other.

The Libra man could not-so-subtly make suggestions to his partner about clothing and modals.

When he is in a committed relationship, he loves taking his significant other to fancy restaurants, art galleries, and big concerts.

He wants to dress up for special occasions and display a spotless image. And he wants his partner to act in the same when they are together in public.

This man enjoys compliments about the way he looks and how smart he is.

He likes being cherished and caressed in public, but he may have a hard time showing affection when surrounded by strangers.

Libra Man Relationship Compatibility

The signs that are most compatible with having a relationship with a Libra man are Leo and Sagittarius.

Having a relationship with one of these fire signs is beneficial for the Libra man because his partner will make him feel appreciated.

If you are dating a Libra man but you are having trouble deciphering his true feelings for you then I recommend you read our article on Libra man in love to help guide you.

Libra Man Sexual Compatibility

If the Libra man wants to experience a satisfying sexual life, he has to choose partners with the Sun in Aries or Capricorn.

These two signs are also cardinal and will definitely know how to ignite the spark.

Libra Woman

The Libra woman is fair, loyal, and delicate. She will be prepared to make a lifetime commitment with a partner of her choosing.

However, she could be too focused on pleasing her significant other all the time and forget who she is as an individual.

Therefore, she can come across as someone who is calculating and fake.

Her need to be in a relationship is extremely strong and dating is never casual for her.

In extreme situations, this woman could be thinking about marriage after the first date!

She could be quite needy and dependent on her partner to make even the simplest decisions. But when she knows her worth, she can be adorable, enchanting, and attentive.

A confident Libra woman doesn’t go unnoticed.

Libra Woman Relationship Compatibility

The signs that are most compatible with a committed relationship with a Libra woman are Gemini and Aquarius.

Gemini and Aquarius are connected with Libra by trine. The relationship with one of these tactful airy signs will be fun and exciting.

Libra Woman Sexual Compatibility

Even if they will not work well together in a long-term relationship, having a sexual partner with the Sun in Taurus or in Scorpio will be a parade of lust for the Libra woman.

These two fixed signs are intense and possessive, two qualities that could be interesting to find in a sexual encounter.

Final Thoughts

Gracious and charismatic, the sons and daughters of Venus will definitely catch your attention. Their persuasive tactics and their classy style make them utterly mesmerizing.

Libra Suns are relationship-oriented and could be people-pleasers. But they also want to have a first-class partner.

They won’t settle for less than they deserve and they will not give up their social life to stay at home with a dull person.

This is why Libra compatibility with the other air signs is a good combination, as well as with fire signs. Air and fire are positive elements that want to have a vibrant and lively existence.

A long-term relationship with an earth or water sign may not be the best option for Libra Suns.

Earth and water are elements that belong to the negative polarity and their natives are much more reserved and quiet than a Libra Sun.

If this article didn’t quite answer your questions about Libra compatibility then I recommend you take a look at our article here to find your perfect love match according to astrology.

[tysukis]

Hi, first(?) AU anon here. I will absolutely dive down this rabbit hole with you. I went a little overboard (sorry?). I absolutely agree with you on your Zuko take. I think we all kind of land there naturally. But I also think that Zuko would latch onto stability the moment he realized he had it. So this is kind of how I see it going down:

I think the band Sokka is part of would be solid. Just a local hit, right? But Sokka is the plans guy, and the aspirations guy, and they can do *so much better*. I 100% do not know how real life musicians work so add a pinch of salt here, but he would absolutely land them a gig as openers to a mediocre niche headliner just by sheer power of phone calls and charm. (He scripted it as much as possible, we all remember how that canon speech went when he winged it, but he knows how to put words together when he has time).

And yeah I love the idea of Zuko being an academic. I'm assuming Ozai is out of the picture for this, and the boy gets to pursue his passions instead of an expectation. Unfortunately, you mix in passion and the general anxiety of a kid who lived under intense scrutiny and you get an adult who gets tunnel vision during spring finals/prep for a conference/etc. So he doesn't quite rise to the occasion when his boyfriend drops this life changing news, he's proud but distracted, and he's already so bad at words in comparison to Sokka that it's just. Lackluster. And he probably meant to meet them at the bar/house party to celebrate after he got home but he's sleep deprived and his phone is dead because he's a disaster sometimes.

So now you've got Sokka stewing on immediate events, and being a little heartbroken because he went all out every time Zuko accomplished *anything*, even if it wasn't super impressive to Zuko himself. And maybe there's a bit of Zuko assuming Sokka doesn't need that reciprocated. He just doesn't vocalize his important needs, so Zuko assumes they're being met, you know? I like the drama of a blown up confrontation but also the idea that Sokka just confronts him sounding hurt and so damn tired of being the emotional one for that long.

But on the other side you have Zuko with his internalized plan that this is his forever person, and he does go to almost every performance even if they don't play his preferred music. And he assumes Sokka is satisfied with this. Maybe because Zuko can't imagine being happier than near his family - the good ones anyway - or because he genuinely thinks Sokka and the band are happy with being local celebrities and leaving it at that. So he plans for permanence. Because he is still a disaster, Zuko probably never vocalized this beyond doing window shopping for apartments or something. Vague jokes about a wedding that Sokka laughs at/agrees with and Zuko interprets as, "Yes I am also thinking about being here with you forever." He's not the wordsmith, he's the pragmatist and love means house shopping and snuggling over takeout and planning trips to visit their distant family together, right? Sokka's confrontation blindsided him, because he thought they were on the same page, and Sokka didn't have to leave to keep playing music, why is that even a thing??

They're both justified in being jaded because they're dumb as hell (affectionate). This isn't an AU for two grown ass men who have put in therapy time, they're both young and full of their own understanding with poor communication skills.

musician au anon!!! hello welcome back thank you so much for this incredible ask, let’s GO

(I’m gonna pop this one under a read more because otherwise this post will be eight miles long lmao)

Honestly I’m wracking my brain with what I can possibly add to this because you’ve got like. A fully fledged outline here my dude and it’s a good one. Do you write? Because you should, if you don’t. I still love the alternative take of Sokka being the one to leave and honestly this pretty much cements how much potential it has. I absolutely adore how you’ve thought about just how the communication would break down between them - and you’re completely bang on the money with it as well. Zuko is fully a hot disaster and would completely just assume Sokka’s needs are being met if he isn’t vocalising them, and we know Sokka, he’s a complainer but when it really comes down to those he loves - he’s known for being pretty selfless and for putting up brave faces. I can totally see Sokka perhaps almost feeling a bit self conscious about how hurt he is by Zuko’s lack of enthusiasm. Because Zuko loves him, right? And it’s just one show, right? So maybe he’s just overreacting, right? Or maybe he’s actually not even that good. Oh no, maybe Zuko hates his music and is just waiting for the right time to break it to him gently. Oh no, oh no, oh no. I think I might have already said it at some point tonight but Sokka would absolutely spiral until he convinces himself that him leaving would be nothing more than simply just leaving before he gets left. And like you said: Zuko  is out here planning a whole future assuming that they’re on the same page, meanwhile he has no idea.

I totally buy Sokka winging his way into a supporting act spot using his charm and charisma, and yeah his speech in canon didn’t go too well but this could likely be over the phone to only one person which would probably make it easier. I was thinking about how Sokka performing would work in conjuncture with his canon almost stage fright/fear of public speaking - and I’m leaning towards the hc that he embodies a sort of persona in front of large crowds and he’s able to let that take over and act casually and confidently no matter the audience.  (source: I am someone who studied acting and excelled in public speaking most of her life despite having a chronic anxiety disorder - playing parts and speaking on stage didn’t feel like ‘me’ because I was always channeling a character either fictional or an alternative version of myself. It works, folks.)

Are we thinking he broke away from the band and went on to succeed in a solo career? As in, he felt being local heroes was a limited pathway? Or did they all go together? Who else would be in it I wonder.

I LOVE your interpretation of Zuko and how the factors under which he was raised would shape him, especially in a modern setting. He would absolutely go into tunnel vision and that perfectionist mindset he was essentially forced into as a kid would probably be alive and well into adulthood. (And yeah, these aren’t men who have been to therapy - yet! - so we’re probably gonna assume that Zuko views this as a Perfectly Normal And Healthy Way To Live And Not At All A Trauma/Survival Response.)

I’m assuming this confrontation is what leads to their break up and then Sokka going off to pursue music further? I wonder, even all their other issues aside, what Zuko thinks about him travelling so far? As you said, we’re operating under the assumption that he doesn’t understand why Sokka couldn’t continue music and stay local. Even if things were perfect between the two, I imagine they still might not see eye to eye on that, which of course would just be another breaking point for them to tack onto the list.

As for their eventual reconciliation, Kaleigh @zukkau with her gigantic brain, said earlier that Sokka being the one to leave could also tie into a whole ‘I couldn’t ask you to uproot your whole life for me’ anxiety (especially if we’re painting zuko as a bit of a homebody here; hates change, likes routine) and that sets up perfectly for a “I would go anywhere for/with you” moment. All this to say that I think that would slot into this (^) narrative nicely.

If you have (or anyone has) anything more to add or touch on I would absolutely love to hear it, I am now fully in love with this AU and all messages and mentions of it are permanently welcome in my inbox and DMs <3 

[deviant-reads-stuff]

Books I Read Throughout 2020-Part One

For many of us this year has been incredibly stressful and difficult. There were times throughout this year that my mental health had suffered, but there were also times where I couldn't have been happier. If I were to make any comparison to what the year was like, I would say that it was like the scariest and exciting roller coaster that anyone has ever been on. During the year, while the world seemed to burn around us and everything terrible happened, I managed to surpass my reading goal for the year. Something I did not expect to do, especially since I had months where it seemed that I couldn't finish anything. In times like this, I think it's important to take a step back and look to the positive things, even if they are small.

Here I am going to give a brief description of the first 10 books that I read, with a small snippet of what I thought of the books at the time.  

Book One - The Book Thief by Markus Zusak

Finished Reading on January 4, 2020

"It is 1939. Nazi Germany. The country is holding its breath. Death has never been busier, and will be busier still.

By her brother's graveside, Liesel's life is changed when she picks up a single object, partially hidden in the snow. It is The Gravedigger's Handbook, left behind there by accident, and it is her first act of book thievery. So begins a love affair with books and words, as Liesel, with the help of her accordian-playing foster father, learns to read. Soon she is stealing books from Nazi book-burnings, the mayor's wife's library, wherever there are books to be found.

But these are dangerous times. When Liesel's foster family hides a Jew in their basement, Liesel's world is both opened up, and closed down.

In superbly crafted writing that burns with intensity, award-winning author Markus Zusak has given us one of the most enduring stories of our time."

For years I have heard good things about this book and for many, this is an all time favorite. I was excited to pick this one up, especially since I had read

I am the messenger

by this author and loved it.  While I do not view this book as an all time favorite for myself, I do think it was beautifully written. I just personally wished that it was a bit shorter at times as it seemed to drag on. Despite feeling that it was a little long, my favorite part of this book was the role in which Death plays. I won't mention anything more in case some of you are still contemplating picking this one up.

Book Two - All Systems Red (The Murderbot Diaries #1) By Martha Wells

Finished Reading on January 5, 2020

"In a corporate-dominated spacefaring future, planetary missions must be approved and supplied by the Company. Exploratory teams are accompanied by Company-supplied security androids, for their own safety.

But in a society where contracts are awarded to the lowest bidder, safety isn't a primary concern.

On a distant planet, a team of scientists are conducting surface tests, shadowed by their Company-supplied 'droid—a self-aware SecUnit that has hacked its own governor module, and refers to itself (though never out loud) as "Murderbot." Scornful of humans, all it really wants is to be left alone long enough to figure out who it is.

But when a neighboring mission goes dark, it's up to the scientists and their Murderbot to get to the truth."

This was a novella that I greatly enjoyed, but unfortunately I have not kept up with the series. I believe my library did not have the rest of the books and at the time I didn't want to purchase them. As my library continues to get the rest of the series, I will gladly continue to read them. I thought the story was unique, and at times funny. I would highly recommend this series to anyone who wants a science fiction book that is quick and easy read.

Book Three - Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them By Newt Scamander

Finished listening to an Audiobook on January 7,2020

"An approved textbook at Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry since publication, Newt Scamander's masterpiece has entertained wizarding families through the generations. Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them is an indispensable introduction to the magical beasts of the Wizarding World. Scamander's years of travel and research have created a tome of unparalleled importance. Some of the beasts will be familiar to readers of the Harry Potter books - the Hippogriff, the Basilisk, the Hungarian Horntail ... Others will surprise even the most ardent amateur Magizoologist. This is an essential companion to the Harry Potter stories, and includes a new foreword from J.K. Rowling (writing as Newt Scamander) and six new beasts!"

I am not one who will usually listen to audio books. I have an incredibly difficult time listening to anything that is over 3 hours because it's hard for me to really concentrate on the storyline. On occasion, though I will listen to them, depending on the length of the title and if the general consensus is that the audiobook is better. Fantastic Beast was a great audio book to listen to when I took my daily walks. I was able to delve a bit deeper into the wizarding world and learn more about the creatures briefly mentioned in Harry Potter.

Now, I do want to briefly bring into attention that I will no longer purchase anything written by JK Rowling. I have always distanced myself from creators as I use books and music to escape, but it has come to my attention that JK Rowling has repeatedly done harm to the trans community. That's not something I agree with or can support in any way shape or form. For those who do continue to purchase and read JK Rowlings work, that is your choice and I will not say anything about it (unless it is actively causing harm here). This is my own personal choice and opinions on JK Rowling.  

Book Four - The Near Witch

Finished Reading on January 9, 2020f

"The Near Witch is only an old story told to frighten children.If the wind calls at night, you must not listen. The wind is lonely, and always looking for company.And there are no strangers in the town of Near.These are the truths that Lexi has heard all her life.

But when an actual stranger-a boy who seems to fade like smoke-appears outside her home on the moor at night, she knows that at least one of these sayings is no longer true.

The next night, the children of Near start disappearing from their beds, and the mysterious boy falls under suspicion. Still, he insists on helping Lexi search for them. Something tells her she can trust him.

As the hunt for the children intensifies, so does Lexi's need to know-about the witch that just might be more than a bedtime story, about the wind that seems to speak through the walls at night, and about the history of this nameless boy.

Part fairy tale, part love story, Victoria Schwab's debut novel is entirely original yet achingly familiar: a song you heard long ago, a whisper carried by the wind, and a dream you won't soon forget."

I am going to be perfectly honest. I will pick up everything that V.E Schwab writes eventually. Including this book, I have read 10 of her books and I have enjoyed every single one of them. The Near Witch is one of V.E Schwab's earlier works that had previously gone out print. Recently, the book has gone back into print and received a cover change. The story takes you to another world with superstitions, magic, and adventures. While it is apparent that this is an early work of V.E Schwab that does not mean that it's not a great book to pick up. This book brought me back to the type of books that I read when I was younger and it was an overall great experience.

Book Five - How's Moving Castle By Diana Wynne Jones

Finished Reading on January 12, 2020

"Sophie has the great misfortune of being the eldest of three daughters, destined to fail miserably should she ever leave home to seek her fate. But when she unwittingly attracts the ire of the Witch of the Waste, Sophie finds herself under a horrid spell that transforms her into an old lady. Her only chance at breaking it lies in the ever-moving castle in the hills: the Wizard Howl's castle.

To untangle the enchantment, Sophie must handle the heartless Howl, strike a bargain with a fire demon, and meet the Witch of the Waste head-on. Along the way, she discovers that there's far more to Howl—and herself—than first meets the eye."

Howl's Moving Castle is probably one of my favorite stories of all time. I first watched the animated film by Studio Ghibli. In all honesty, I have a hard time determining which version is my favorite. The movie and novel do have some differences, but I think both can be enjoyed. Howl's Moving Castle shows how the pressures placed upon us and how we view ourselves can have a negative impact on ourselves, but only if we let it. Sophie struggles with being eldest daughter, and struggles with seeing her worth, but as the story progresses, we see how resilient and strong she is.

Book Six - Bird Box By Josh Malerman

Finished Reading on January 21, 2020

"Something is out there, something terrifying that must not be seen. One glimpse of it, and a person is driven to deadly violence. No one knows what it is or where it came from.

Five years after it began, a handful of scattered survivors remains, including Malorie and her two young children. Living in an abandoned house near the river, she has dreamed of fleeing to a place where they might be safe. Now that the boy and girl are four, it's time to go, but the journey ahead will be terrifying: twenty miles downriver in a rowboat—blindfolded—with nothing to rely on but her wits and the children's trained ears. One wrong choice and they will die. Something is following them all the while, but is it man, animal, or monster?"

I had originally watched the Netflix movie before listening to the audio book. I was curious about the book as I noticed a lot of people was divided on whether or not the movie was better than the book. Although I thought the audio book was great, I definitely enjoyed the movie more. Normally this is never the case, but I thought the book was adapted well onto the screen. What are your thoughts on it? Was the movie better than the book?

Book Seven - Skyward By Brandon Sanderson

Finished Reading on January 25, 2020

"Defeated, crushed, and driven almost to extinction, the remnants of the human race are trapped on a planet that is constantly attacked by mysterious alien starfighters. Spensa, a teenage girl living among them, longs to be a pilot. When she discovers the wreckage of an ancient ship, she realizes this dream might be possible—assuming she can repair the ship, navigate flight school, and (perhaps most importantly) persuade the strange machine to help her. Because this ship, uniquely, appears to have a soul."

Skyward was the first Bandon Sanderson book that I've ever picked up, shocking I know. I was not disappointed at all. Skyward brought me out this world and I found myself rooting for the girl who fought for everything that she's ever had. If you haven't picked this ne up yet, what are you waiting for?

Book Eight - The Name of the Wind By Patrick Rothfuss

Finished Reading on January 30, 2020

"My name is Kvothe.I have stolen princesses back from sleeping barrow kings. I burned down the town of Trebon. I have spent the night with Felurian and left with both my sanity and my life. I was expelled from the University at a younger age than most people are allowed in. I tread paths by moonlight that others fear to speak of during day. I have talked to Gods, loved women, and written songs that make the minstrels weep. You may have heard of me.

So begins a tale unequaled in fantasy literature--the story of a hero told in his own voice. It is a tale of sorrow, a tale of survival, a tale of one man's search for meaning in his universe, and how that search, and the indomitable will that drove it, gave birth to a legend."

I first read this book in 2015 and picked it up again earlier in the year. I personally feel like I enjoyed the book more the second time around. It's a lengthy and often slow story of a man telling the story of his life. I have often described this book as having a similar ambiance to The Lord of The Rings and Harry Potter. Don't get me wrong though, this is a completely different story of those two series, but I couldn't help but draw a comparison.

Book Nine - Red, White, and Blue By Casey McQuiston

 Finished Reading on February 15, 2020

"First Son Alex Claremont-Diaz is the closest thing to a prince this side of the Atlantic. With his intrepid sister and the Veep’s genius granddaughter, they’re the White House Trio, a beautiful millennial marketing strategy for his mother, President Ellen Claremont. International socialite duties do have downsides—namely, when photos of a confrontation with his longtime nemesis Prince Henry at a royal wedding leak to the tabloids and threaten American/British relations.

The plan for damage control: staging a fake friendship between the First Son and the Prince. Alex is busy enough handling his mother’s bloodthirsty opponents and his own political ambitions without an uptight royal slowing him down. But beneath Henry’s Prince Charming veneer, there’s a soft-hearted eccentric with a dry sense of humor and more than one ghost haunting him.

As President Claremont kicks off her reelection bid, Alex finds himself hurtling into a secret relationship with Henry that could derail the campaign and upend two nations. And Henry throws everything into question for Alex, an impulsive, charming guy who thought he knew everything: What is worth the sacrifice? How do you do all the good you can do? And, most importantly, how will history remember you?"

I needed something lighter and easy to read after The Name of the Wind. Red, White, and  Blue did not disappoint, and I was whisked into the life of Alex Claremont-Diaz and Prince Henry. This LGBTQ+ book is full of entertainment, self-discovery, drama, and love.

Book Ten - Cress (The Lunar Chronicles, #3)

Finished Reading on February 17, 2020

"In this third book in the Lunar Chronicles, Cinder and Captain Thorne are fugitives on the run, now with Scarlet and Wolf in tow. Together, they're plotting to overthrow Queen Levana and her army.

Their best hope lies with Cress, a girl imprisoned on a satellite since childhood who's only ever had her netscreens as company. All that screen time has made Cress an excellent hacker. Unfortunately, she's just received orders from Levana to track down Cinder and her handsome accomplice.

When a daring rescue of Cress goes awry, the group is separated. Cress finally has her freedom, but it comes at a higher price. Meanwhile, Queen Levana will let nothing prevent her marriage to Emperor Kai. Cress, Scarlet, and Cinder may not have signed up to save the world, but they may be the only hope the world has."

The Lunar Chronicals is a guilty pleasure of mine. Each book in the series is a re-telling of famous fairy tales. Cress, the third book of the Lunar Chronicals, is a sci-fi/ fantasy re-telling of Rapunzel. While each book follows a different fairy tale, the whole series comes together and forms an epic story. As we follow a shy young girl, who spent her life locked away from everyone suddenly get swept into the resistance, we learn that hope is always possible even in hopeless situations.

[naiylabrouillard]

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193. Sonic the Hedgehog #125

Sonic Adventure 2.5: Ωmegλ

Writer: Karl Bollers Pencils: Dave Manak, Art Mawhinney, Ron Lim, Dawn Best, Steven Butler, and J. Axer Colors: Jason Jensen

Welcome to the end of the era, folks! As you can see from the credits above, though this one isn't quite as big or dramatic as Endgame, it's still a very important issue, with bombastic action that drives the story forward and changes the fate of the preboot world forever. Here, we reach the conclusion of not one but two different arcs that have dominated this era of the comic, so without further ado - let's do it to it!

Last issue, we discovered that Mobius is Earth, and that the Xorda are prepared to execute every living members of this planet as revenge for some random humans dissecting one of their ambassadors thousands of years ago. Seems like overkill, guys! Rotor, having overheard everything going on in the castle from his lab, has hastily developed a technological measure that should allow them to communicate directly with the Xorda in the form of a telepathic helmet. Sally volunteers herself as the one to contact them, believing that she can make a good argument based on her and Nicole's research, and puts on the helmet, suddenly finding herself in a bizarre space surrounded by surprised Xorda.

This reveal is even better than the last one! Yes, the Xorda's gene bombs inadvertently caused the DNA of ordinary Earth animals to be mixed with deconstructed human DNA, which only goes further to explain why Mobians are all so humanlike. With the Xorda still on their genocidal streak, Eggman contacts the king once again to lay out his new plan to drive them away - he wants Sonic to come to his base to use his super speed to power a giant mecha that has enough force to just punch the aliens clear out of this solar system. It's a good idea, and Eggman is being genuine (for once) about his desires to defeat the Xorda, but King Max knows that with the upper hand he's gained in negotiations, he can get something more out of this deal.

As Eggman angrily agrees, we travel back to the liminal space that is the afterlife, only to find Knuckles exiting the Chaos Force almost as soon as he's entered it, alarmed at having sensed danger to the entire planet. He demands answers from Aurora, wanting to know if it's possible for him to return, and she hesitates, clearly uncomfortable at the line of questioning. In Knothole, Sally rallies all the people fit to fight to be ready for anything in case Eggman's plan fails, and on Angel Island Locke similarly encourages the theocracy, the Legion, and even the dingoes to work together to muster up a fighting force. Sonic gets ready to head off to Eggman's base to power the robot, but Sally insists on coming along, saying that if Sonic falls in battle, her place is at his side until the end. And so, they arrive and both strap into the robot, which, powered by Sonic's super speed, puts up a fight against the Xorda spaceship currently hovering over Eggman's base in New Megaopolis.

Sally is delighted at their apparent success, but Eggman then shows his true colors by strapping Sonic into the seat, intending to use his power to fuel his robot until Sonic dies of starvation. However, his betrayal is quickly sidelined as a mysterious device drops into Mobius' Southern Tundra from orbit, and the Xorda once again telepathically contact everyone on the planet to explain their newest plan.

Really, Xorda, did you have to show your hand and reveal what your newest plan is? I mean, I do want it to fail as much as the next person, but if you wanted to ensure that it couldn't be stopped, then just… don't mention it to anyone? The Southern Tundra is literally Antarctica, a frozen wasteland where no one even lives apart from exiles like Nate Morgan (RIP). Even if Rotor or Eggman's instruments detected its presence on the continent, they wouldn't know what its purpose is just from looking at it, and might not be able to formulate a plan in time to stop it. But since the Xorda have so very kindly explained to everyone how the Quantum Dial works, Eggman reluctantly releases Sonic to pilot the Jaeger once more, intending to smash the Dial to bits with it. Meanwhile, in the afterlife, Knuckles continues to insist that he be allowed to come back to life to save his friends, and Athair supports him while Aurora desperately pleads with him to reconsider.

You know, maybe this is an unpopular opinion, but I like the concept of Aurora as a deity. She's not omnipotent, and she's definitely not perfect. It's clear that due to her lofty position high above the mortal plane, she's so wrapped up in the enormity of the world's mysteries and the knowledge that can be gained thereof that she's kind of blind to the joys that ordinary people take in their mortal life on Mobius. And yet she's ultimately benevolent or at least benign, allowing people to make their own decisions regardless of what she feels they should do, and "lesser" beings such as Athair feel comfortable addressing her informally and generally being flippant if they feel like it. Back in the tundra, the world quickly finds out that some kind of invisible defensive grid surrounding the Dial prevents anything technological from getting close to it, causing Station Square's nuclear missiles to fall apart harmlessly before they hit it. And thus, every fighting fit being on the planet masses on the continent, ready for a final desperate assault for the fate of their planet.

Laser cannons erupt from the ground, firing at the attacking force and causing them to scatter. At the same time, Eggman's robot reaches the Dial, only to fall apart the same as the missiles, causing Sonic and Sally to fall out of it into the snow nearby. Nicole (who somehow didn't fall apart - maybe because she's not a weapon and thus wasn't targeted by the defensive grid?) takes this chance to run a quick analysis on the device, and Rotor, upon receiving her data, deduces that while the Dial isn't designed to stop moving once in motion, a sufficient counter-force would be enough to disintegrate its gears and halt its progression. Sonic suggests he could create that counter-force with his speed, but Nicole discourages this, as the resulting implosion of matter around the Dial would kill Sonic. She then gets another reading from the device, and discovers to her, Sally, and Sonic's horror that a quantum wave is about to expand out from the Dial, incinerating everything in a hundred mile radius. Sally and Sonic realize they're too late, and begin to say a last "I love you" to each other as the wave rushes toward them, but it suddenly, inexplicably dissipates just before it hits them, leaving them shocked and baffled. But what - or who - is responsible for this apparent miracle?

You guys didn't really think Rad Red would stay dead, did you? Nah man, this is a comic book! Welcome back to the mortal coil, buddy, we missed ya! The Dial's defenses have all been disabled by Knuckles' final burst of power, but the danger isn't over yet - the arm is still in motion, and with time quickly running out, only Rotor's counter-force suggestion seems feasible.

I'll admit, when I first read this issue I didn't see this coming at all. I'm not ashamed to say that I cried. Y'all already know I'm kind of a sucker for this pairing, and truly, this is far more in character than what we saw last issue. Sonic may not be sappy or romantic, but he is incredibly loving, even if he doesn't always openly show it. And it's always been clear, from the very first issue of the comic and every issue in between, that whatever problems they have, whatever evils might try to tear them apart, Sonic the Hedgehog truly, deeply loves Sally Acorn, and has ever since they were children. A final confession of love before a heroic sacrifice is just his style.

And so, he runs. He leaves without another word, not looking back, refusing to let himself be tempted to stay. Sally is left behind in tears as Sonic puts his plan into action, racing counter-clockwise around the Dial. He's saved the world so many times, and now, if he can push himself to his limits and pull it off once more, it will have all been worth it…

The Dial's gears grind to a halt, and the device implodes. Everyone stares out in shock at the resulting crater, wondering about Sonic's fate, until Sally approaches with the news they all feared.

And thus ends the legacy of Sonic the Hedgehog. I'm afraid that we've reached the end of this comic, guys. The world has been saved, and though the lives of those close to him will never be the same, he will always be remembered as a hero the world over, and his… hey, wait a second. Remember how the Quantum Dial was supposed to create a black hole? And you know how in science fiction, black holes are always some kind of portal into another part of the universe? Let's zip away from Mobius - far away, 849,000 light years in fact - to take a look at the barren surface of some distant, alien planet. It's unremarkable at best - but suddenly, a flash of light illuminates the rocky surface, and when it disappears…

Sonic the Hedgehog is lying on the surface of the planet. Unconscious, but alive.

[gloamingdawn]

I don’t normally do big posts like this because I’m definitely the kind of person that would rather just reach out privately than dump an entire text post on a website but seeing as today is “World Kindness Day” in honor of Mr. Fred Rogers I’ve decided to deviate a little. As we slip into the Holiday Creep our online communities can start to feel a little more distant as important RL things are happening for folks and now seemed as good a time as any to give some public kudos. 

The bulk of this post is going to be me gushing over people I haven’t spent enough time gushing over lately, and it’s not meant as a personal slight if you read this and aren’t included -- my thoughts are really hole-y after a long couple of weeks at work and there’s a good chance I’ll do a couple more of these as we drift into the New Decade. 

@kharrisdawndancer​ You & I have been online (and RL) friends for a very long time now. One of my favorite memories from when I lived near enough to you to visit easily was sitting at your kitchen table, eating tiramisu that your husband put way too much booze in. I moved over to WrA with you, we’ve raided together, you were one of the first people I called after Rory had to be emergency admitted to the vet for his troubles, and you’re one of my constant pillars of support when I’m struggling with my place in the community. 

You do so much by hosting Cakes in game nearly weekly & trying your hardest to make it out to all the social events you can to support the other players and guilds who give their time to make sure other RPers have a space to hang out. You, your characters, writing & art are very special and I hope you keep creating in this space for a while to come. 

@turning-through-the-never​ What a year, huh? I can narrow that down even further to “What a month, huh?” as you, with Kharris, were driving forces in bringing people together for the October Writing Challenge. You’ve doubled down on this and started the Weekly Writing Challenge over at @weekly-writing-challenge​, adding to all the stuff you do to make the WoW RP & WoW Tumblr community a more creative and constant space to play in.

You do so much in game to not only make good events with the Tarts but you constantly advertise, attend, and sometimes perform at events for other guilds within WrA and MG and I know how time consuming that is -- especially with how incredibly busy you are in your personal life. You’ve done a very good job of keeping up with your stable of characters through all of this, something that never fails to impress me. I’m very happy I ran into you nearly five years ago when you were barking for a Tarts event -- my time on this server has been so much better for it. 

@darbiebot​ Your D&D game has made me lifelong friends and brought me closer with people who I was never able to find the time to hang out with even though we only lived 20 minutes from each other. It’s a major factor of joy in my life and I really do get a little sad when we can’t play as much as we want. I’ve been telling my own group that the next couple of months will be rocky -- that’s just how it is as adults with families around the holidays, but I’m looking forward to diving in feet first when we’re able to get back to playing again in the HOMEBREW STORY you made. It’s in all caps because I’m so proud that you’ve done this and I am extremely excited to do my best to ruin as many encounters as you’re willing to put in front of me (& maybe also thunderwave the rest of my party to death). 

@andijelly​ You’re at the helm of a huge, icon of a guild and I know how spooky that can be. You’ve had to navigate losing officers, gaining officers, dealing with the insanity that trying to plan and execute a good event can bring. You’ve got an amazing support net behind you, & the fact that they’re always so willing to help you out speaks volumes to your character and theirs. 

Thank you for putting up with me pestering you about things with grace. As a former major officer for a big, military style RP guild and an event planner in real life I often have Suggestions or Observations and you kindly listen to me every time I dump them in your lap. You’re going to rock that hat you’re making, just take it one stitch at a time and remember -- you can always rip back and fix your mistakes! Yarn is the most forgiving material.

@lylianwyatte​ We’ve not known each other very long but your excitement around RP and your willingness to reach out to literally anyone to start a thread or get them involved at whatever event is going on is refreshing. You’re such a bright and light personality that you’re a boon to any community space whether that’s a guild or in a discord. I’m happy the Owl found you, and that you engaged with me & some of my other spaces through them. 

@belillinafireseeker​ You are SO NICE. All the time. It might be the curse of being close enough to Canada that it’s just seeped into you from across the border, but it’s the trait of yours I immediately mention when new folks are asking about the who’s-who around the server. You’re another one of the major drivers of events on the server, and you’ve somehow managed to bridge yourself across two high-performance, high-event guilds and I am constantly impressed that you’re able to keep that up. 

@theconstructsworld​ You didn’t think you’d be able to write as much for the October Writing Challenge, but you really stuck to it and made sure to get something out on a daily basis. Life’s kept you away from the game for a while, but your posts really do pick up my day sometimes. I hope you’re able to come back soon, but in the meantime there’s always this terrible website & discord. Please keep writing as much as you’re able! 

@seraphai​ My crafty buddy <3. Your quilting is so impressive to me, it’s one of the fabric witchery crafts that I’ve yet to dive into and it makes my history loving heart so happy to see the blocks you’ve put together. It’s one of the handmade disciplines I really worry will die out over the next decade (maybe that’s a good resolution for me, huh? Just start). On the in-game, in-RP side of things our characters just sort of clicked and then we just sort of clicked. Chatting with you about our stories or what’s going on is a highlight of my day whenever we manage to find the time. I hope you’re able to get some good R&R over your upcoming holiday break, you’ve earned it in spades!

Alright, my brain is mush. I’m going to sign this off here and come up with more gratitude over the next few weeks so I can be mushy about more folks in my sphere in another (probably way too long) post. 

[phantasmagoricreverie]

Hey there, I’ve recently finished a lot of Tourabu fics and all but will it be okay to request an lovingIshikirimaruxdyingfemale saniwa... my angsty ass is longing for a bittersweet fics

Ahh, thank you for taking thetime to send in this request! As to whether the saniwa is dying from anillness, or a curse, or something else entirely, I decided to leave it ambiguous.This ended up being sort of like a mini fic, at 1,459 words… In any case, Ihope you enjoy!

Ishikirimaru

You’ve known death is at yourheels even before you accept your appointment as a saniwa. It doesn’t evenreally register when you accept the appointment, but on the day of yourinauguration ceremony, you promise yourself to make as few attachments aspossible, to avoid the inevitable pain that those left behind would feel atyour passing

You’ve never really been afraidof dying (perhaps being alone when it happens, or being in a lot of pain, butnever of death itself), but it does have a weight that presses down on you,like a second gravitational pull. It’s something others notice about you, evenif you’ve become so accustomed to it that it’s imperceptible to you

You manage to keep your loomingdeath a secret (or mostly a secret, there have been times where you catch asword looking at you in a way that suggests they know). One the other hand, despite your best efforts, your plan toavoid attachment altogether fails. You’ve become attached to the citadel, orperhaps more specifically the swords that reside there along with you

Ishikirimaru is no exception to thissense of attachment. It initially starts as a simple interest, but as time goeson, you rely on him more and more, and as you recount how much time you’vespent with him, you realize that you’ve already fallen for him

Naturally these feelings are keptclose to heart. Even if your feelings are returned, you reason that it would betoo painful since you know you’re going to leave this world soon. You couldn’thurt the person you adore the most in that way

The weight of your death growsheavier and you can feel the day is coming sooner. It’s with alarming claritythat you realize you don’t have much time left. It feels less like a distantevent and more concrete, more real, and that’s how you know that you’re time inthis world is coming to an end

This knowledge ends up burdeningyou, as you wonder just when and how it will happen. Your health suffers andyou find yourself quite ill, to the point where you find it difficult to getout of bed

Ishikirimaru insists on being theone to take care of you. Despite the haze induced by your illness, you’re happyto see him; you don’t have much time after all. All the same, some lucid partof you curses as your heart skips a beat (or maybe two)

His presence reminds you thatyou’ve become afraid of dying, of leaving him and everyone else behind

It’s that train of thought thatconvinces you that maybe this is the moment that will come take you to yourmaker. The end can come suddenly, and that realization that sparks a fear inyou

It’s the same fear that grantsyou the resolve to confess your feelings, though you do decide to wait despiteyour days being numbered. You don’t want to earnestly confess only to have itbe mistaken for something arising from feverish delirium

Soon enough you recover, thoughyour mind is still a little foggy despite your body being relieved of itsailment. The oodachi asks if you’re feeling any better, and you say that youdo, and that when you’re certain your health is well you’ll be able to confess

It takes almost a full minute foryou to process the words that have just spoken. You blame your illness knowingfull well you’re too lucid for such an excuse, with the knowledge that it’sIshikirimaru himself that’s made you lower your guard

Now that it’s been said, you can’ttake it back, so you use the momentum your verbal slip-up gives you and give a somewhatmessy, but sincere confession of your feelings

It’s definitely not theconfession you wanted to give, but you think that it’s maybe for the best whenyou see the gentle smile that graces his face and he professes that he feelsthe same way

You’re incredibly happy, elatedeven. Then the realization that your mutual feelings for each other will makeyour parting all the more cruel strikes you like a dagger to the chest

It’s unfair to keep it a secretany longer, especially so to the man that loves you

While you’re being honest withyour feelings, you give another, more solemn, confession as you profess you’vealways known that your life would be short and furthermore, that you know youdon’t have a lot of time left.

You apologize at the end,reflecting on how unfair it is to have kept silent on something so importantfor so long

He seems saddened, maybe by thefact your life is bound to be a short one or perhaps that the time he has withyou is far more limited than it may be otherwise, or maybe it’s all thesethings in combination

The two of you start arelationship officially though, and you receive an embarrassing number ofcongratulations and quite a bit of teasing as well. It starts off a bitawkwardly with the two of you trying to figure out how to navigate therelationship

Despite the knowledge of yourdeath towering over you, or perhaps because of that, it’s a very sweetrelationship with very few problems, as the two of you are able to communicateclearly with each other. It’s a very solid relationship, something of a dreamcome true

Time moves on relentlessly, nomatter how much or how little time has passed, it’s not enough. But you knowthe end is near and that the hour of your death is approaching all too quickly.Although you had sent Ishikirimaru away on an expedition because you didn’t wanthim to be there when you died, you still can’t help but think it would be niceto see him one last time

You’re in your office sortingthrough the paperwork only those who know they’re dying have to do when hebursts through the door, out of breath, and the first thing out of his mouth isinquiring if you’re all right, that he rushed back because he felt thatsomething is wrong

You give a small smile, the sameone you’ve always given him, and tell him you’re fine now and that everythingwill be all right. Even though it’s the end, despite everything, you’re happyto see him, even if he isn’t spared the horrid experience of watching you dielike you wanted

The look of his face is that of aman absolutely crushed when he realizes the meaning behind your words and youcan feel some part of your heart die with him as he knows you’ll be goneforever and soon

He gently closes the door behindhim and makes his way to your side, taking you into his arms

For a short while, you stay inhis arms, trying to memorize every detail about him before you go, so that maybe,just maybe, some part of you will remember what he looked like, what he feltlike, all the little details. You want to carry at least one small piece of himwith you, as selfish as it might be

And then you feel it, it’s likethe dagger in your chest you felt when you had confessed, but more final thistime. There’s a fear that seizes you, as if that metaphorical dagger tore open somepart of you and released those feelings

You admit that you’re scared andyou don’t want to go, that you haven’t since meeting him, because Ishikirimarumakes you want to live and that is scarier than your inevitable death. He reassuresyou that he’s here for you, that he’ll be here until the end

He wishes there is some way hecan make it easier for you, but he knows he can’t. This is one journey you mustundertake alone

Your awareness of the worldaround you gradually fades, until you can no longer hear the ruckus of thetantou, to the point where you are only vaguely aware of the warmth of the manholding you.

Your lucidity vanishes soonafter, only vaguely aware of Ishikirimaru trying to support and comfort upuntil the final moment like he said. You wish you could tell him that you areglad to be loved by him, but your body doesn’t seem to want to listen to youand then you’re gone

Ishikirimaru stays there for awhile, holding your cooling body in his arms, softly calling your name, but it’stoo late; it’s always been too late, and you’ve already gone somewhere far, toa place where he may never be able to reach

[practicallymagicco]

✧ The 12 Signs of the Zodiac, Explained ☽

Maybe you’re just beginning in your astrology journey, or maybe you’re bored and want a good read–either way–we got you covered. Read on to learn more about each sign of the zodiac:

ARIES (March 21st-April 19th) Element: Fire

The Infant of the Zodiac, very often naive and innocent in your way of thinking.  As you mature, life will teach you not everyone has good intentions and, you're likely to lose several relationships over this in your 20's. Not to fear, you bounce back better than anyone and, developing relationships is your forte. You're impulsive and spontaneous, you love to have fun by any means necessary. You are magnetic and often have admirers, even from afar. Your honesty can be your demise and you should remember, not everyone is as direct and straightforward as you. Practice patience and tolerance, both traits are hard for the Ram. Once in a while, sit back and observe instead of seeking attention. You would make a great teacher, manager or even politician as you are a natural born leader.

TAURUS (April 20th-May 20th) Element: Earth

The Bull. You are a force to be reckoned with. You are reliable and loyal and expect the same in return. Your calmness under pressure often puts you in positions of leadership. You make slow and methodical moves in your decision making and your attention to detail makes you an incredible decision maker. People believe in your opinions and will follow your lead. Understanding different opinions is difficult for you, as you are data driven and your beliefs are often supported with concrete facts. You are possessive and, like the bull, stubborn. You have a tendency to be possessive of your loved ones and letting go of relationships never gets easier for you. You enjoy fine foods ( especially food YOU make), art and, music and no doubt you would excel in any of these industries.

GEMINI(May 21st-June 20th) Element: Air

The Twins. Dual Personalities. It's a full time job keeping up with the Gemini. One minute you are charming and openly communicative then, suddenly, you become stoic and sullen.Your mind is your greatest asset; multitasking, brainstorming and creativity all come second nature to you. You know a little bit about almost everything, however, concentrating on one topic for too long will cause you to drift into your own world where you are free to bounce ideas around in your mind with no interruption. Emotionally, you are distant and have trouble connecting with other's feeling's; in fact, you struggle to recognize your own feelings. Don't allow yourself to ignore your emotions or you'll find yourself burned out before you know it. 

CANCER(June 21-July 21) Element: Water

The Crab.  You are kind, caring and, compassionate to nearly everyone you encounter. You are the ultimate care taker and unconsciously "feel all the feels" for almost any circumstance which surrounds you. Often on the quiet side, you can be easily overlooked. However, you do have an admirable ambition and drive to you, you are not afraid to isolate yourself to accomplish your dreams. You are ALL emotion, this is both a strength and weakness and, only as you mature will you be able to respond to your different emotions appropriately. You are extremely protective and you instinctively understand the needs of others; a natural born parent. Your immense sense of emotion can lead to jealousy, and like the crab you will literally claw and grab at what you feel is rightfully yours.

LEO(July 21-August 20th) Element: Fire

The Lion. The leader of the pack, impossible to overlook.  You have a commanding presence and people are easily drawn into your lair. You are a natural ruler,  you truly believe that you were put on this earth to rule everyone around you and, luckily, your charm allows you to lead almost every circle graced with your presence. You are romantic, funny and adventurous. Your abundant confidence makes for a stubborn mind and, changing your opinion is nearly impossible. You are warm and bring sunshine into people's lives.  However, your pride and arrogance and even snobbery can push people away. Try to remember that even though you might be the king of the jungle, life is lonely for the lion if you cant see past your own ego.

VIRGO(August 21st-September 20th) Element: Earth

The Virgin. Modest, humble, patient and kind. These strengths of the Virgo are often envied by others, as Virgo's possess these traits while making it look effortless. You're quiet and self-controlled. Your need for order and efficiency can make you a workaholic.  You are a perfectionist and will take twice the amount of time to complete a project. Not to worry, your slowness is understood, even appreciated by others, as they know only your touch can bring a project to perfect completion.Your need for perfection can often lead to suppressed feelings and frustrated relationships. To you, emotions are unpleasant and messy, which make expressing your emotions quite difficult. You are very critical of others and so expect the same perfect manner and behavior from anyone in a relationship with you. Remember its nearly impossible to meet your standards, but those around you will work tirelessly to impress you. 

LIBRA(September 21st-October 22nd) Element: Air

Laidback Libra, always looking good- but is sure to check in the mirror just to be sure. Outwardly charming and often the      'people pleaser' you are not above lying and manipulating to keep the peace. In your eyes, you are doing the right thing. Your personality feeds off relationships and Libra's are seldom alone. In group settings, you are often the planner, which works well in your favor by letting out natural Libra aggression in a healthy way. Emotions for others are nearly non existent for you.. EXCEPT in romantic relationships. Your deep desire for a partner can lead to intense emotions and emotional outbursts. You are generally not jealous, but any threat to an emotional partnership can arouse deep insecurity.  You have excellent powers of negotiation and would be a great mediator. People come to you for no nonsense solutions and you thrive on being needed. 

SCORPIO(October 23rd- November 21st) Element: Water

The Scorpion. You are difficult to get to know and you like it that way. You have many secrets and often will keep them for a lifetime. You are incredibly intuitive and can read people easily. You have a desire for power and you will use any means necessary to obtain it. You are STRONG; your resilience is unmatched and you, like the scorpion, will use your stinger to win any battle. Often known as caring yet controlling, you enjoy dominating in any relationship and are not comfortable unless you are most important. Your intensity can be enticing and romantic in a new relationship but can often exhaust a long term partner. No one can match your passion and loyalty in love and, although your emotions are intense, your sincerity and genuine care for others are perhaps your most admirable trait. 

SAGITTARIUS(November 22-December 21st) Element: Fire

Ruled by fire, a Sag is full of fun and has a constant desire to be stimulated by friends. You have an inventive mind and there is nothing better to you and than an in-depth debate.You are optimistic and have a hard time identifying any emotions which could lead to self-doubt. You are highly creative and use this strength to stay one step ahead of everyone around you.You realize this strength and use it to your advancement in business and new relationships. If it were up to you, you'd prefer not to deal with emotions, or even feel them, as emotions are not something a Sag can easily fix with their tricks. You crave freedom, which can you make you untrustworthy and unreliable, your lack of attention to detail- particularly in recognizing others emotions- can cause you to say hurtful things to your closes friends and family. As you mature, you will become more of an observer rather than a leader and this will help in lasting relationships.

CAPRICORN (December 22-January 19th) Element: Earth

The Goat. You are a traditionalist and loathe any sort of change. At a young age, you choose responsibility over fun and maturity will be a much happier time for you than youth.  You are goal oriented and will see any project through to completion. Emotionally, being ruled by Saturn has made it difficult for you to express emotion. You often feel lonely despite your portrayal of self-confidence and you rate success based on material achievements rather than personal development, which can lead to feelings of inadequacy when something fails. Rest assured, you have infinite patience and are great at dealing with difficult situations. Your dry sense of humor can break up any stale conversation and people enjoy your company. You are controlling over family and friends but over time will learn that not even you can avoid change and disappointment. 

AQUARIUS (January 20th-February 18th) Element: Air

You are intuitive and intelligent, you follow a logical thought process but are open to new insight and enjoy conversations which make you ponder your existing opinions. You have a mental picture of how things should be and can struggle when life doesn't manifest your exact dream. You are motivated by a powerful circle of friends and understand that surrounding yourself with critical thinkers will only help you climb to the top. You understand the changes needed in the world and no one is better at evolution than the Aquarius. You are prone to fads and have a hard time letting go of materialistic priorities. Once you understand goals are attained through sacrifice, you will be unstoppable.

PISCES (February 19th-March 20th) Element: Water

The Two Fishes. Compassionate, impressionable, dreamer. Your personality can be compared to a sponge. You absorb the emotions of others which often weakens your position in relationships. You are pulled in so many different directions you have a tendency to be unreliable and make empty promises. You have such a strong ability to feel others around you and often wallow in guilt that doesn't belong to you. You can be a pessimist and often cast yourself as the victim making it difficult dealing with everyday reality. When you are at your best, you are intuitive and sympathetic; a compassionate, kind friend. You have a magnetic appeal that draws others in, but be careful with your negativity, it can push them right out.

[satelliteinasupernova]

fic recs (featuring bughead)

PART 1!  LONG FICS

I was originally planning to do this all as one post with both long fics and one shots, but man this got long, and it’s only four recs.  BUT SOMETIMES YOU CAN’T STOP TALKING ABOUT FICS YOU LOVE.  Anyway, I wanted to share some fics that I have really emotionally bonded with.  There is a good chance you have heard of these, but in case you haven’t read them yet: here we go

I gotta put this under a cut, I swear I didn’t mean this to get this long:

Three Wishes by @nimmieamee (Complete)

Do you know that feeling when you start reading the first chapter of a fic, and by the end of the chapter you are just SO excited because it is everything that you didn’t know you wanted to read? That’s this fic for me. I had so much fun following it along as it updated. It takes all kind of twists and turns with each chapter!

Riverdale is honestly just made to work in universes that are just a bit weird, and the mirror verse concept of this fic uses the trope to its full potential. The chapters hop between Betty, Veronica, and Alice’s perspectives and each of their plot lines deal directly with their own personal flaws in a way that the series proper refuses to. When they end up in this other universe, they find themselves facing a version of themselves that is entirely different, but is still them, with the same desires and flaws, just developed and twisted in a different way. It forces them to come to terms with who they are and what they want, and each deciding if those goals are worth fighting for, if it’s something they need to change. I love fics that focus on complicated ladies so much!!

Taking the nonsensical, poorly written concepts of Riverdale and turning them around and developing them until they finally make sense is something that nimmie is especially good at in all her fics (I recommend you look into her full archive of fics btw). Here she really focuses on having Veronica face the repercussions of what siding with her father would do to Riverdale (even before the for-profit prison plot line showed itself!). A really serious look is taken to what a dark!Betty actually would look like, where Betty’s motivation with taking that direction comes from, and how Betty would interact if she did have a close relationship with the Serpents. It also helps Betty come to an understanding with the parts of Jughead’s life that she feels distant from, that she even feels is taking Jughead away from her. Then you have Alice, who has spent many years cultivating a specific image and a specific life, finding herself in the life she has never allowed herself, but secretly dreamed of. I know Alice/FP is not for everyone, but it is so great here. You get to see how they work as a support unit, even while living extremely messy lives, and continuing to make just questionable decisions, lol.

If you have not read this fic, please go read it! It does have Explicit content, and it is used in a way that builds on the characters and their relationships in a fun way. This fic deals with these flawed ladies, but really shows their strengths too, and makes me crave for a canon narrative that actually lets these characters grow.

road to me by @heavy-lies-the-crown (On going)

So how much you enjoy this fic may depend on how much you appreciate getting your heart broken over and over again. This fic HURTS. Brutally, and with regularity, but it still feels worth it because you know there’s a light at the end of the tunnel, lol. This fic deals quite seriously with the complications that form in relationships that start young, how it hurts when you are starting to grow out of your skin, but still find your relationships tethered by the person that you used to be.

It alternates between Jughead and Betty’s perspectives with each chapter, and what makes it so great as a fic is how deeply it gets into their heads. They both don’t have a good perspective of what is happening in their relationship and with their break up, they are too overwhelmed by how much it hurts and the confusion over what exactly did go wrong. The fic takes place over the course of the year, each chapter focusing on where the characters are at each month. It really does support the fact that this break up, even building back up to a relationship, is a process and a painful one. Even when the characters are hurt, even bitter, it is clear how much they love and are impacted by each other. The break up forces them to realize what was wrong, what wasn’t working, and what they want to change about themselves. Every choice and action they make is sensitive, because they are still trying to heal.

Just recently we have gotten to the months where Jughead and Betty are trying to build back a communication with each other, because now that the dust has settled, it hasn’t changed how much they miss or love each other. It is both heartwarming, but still difficult!

I have never read a fic in my life that has made me feel so extremely that I JUST WANT THESE TWO PEOPLE TO GET MARRIED lol. Like, really. Even when things are going wrong and Betty makes a selfish choice, or Jughead lets himself get completely swept up in hurt or anger. I just want these two to figure it out, and build a long-term life together.

(I am really really looking forward to the final chapters of this fic)

  girls girls girls in neon lights by @myrmidonofmelodrama / Em11134 (Complete)

I am desperate for real, honest Toni and Betty interaction. STARVING for it. The Betty Cooper & Toni Topaz tag on AO3 is one page, btw. ONE. This fic is everything I wanted. It takes place during ~the break up (the 2nd one), and has Betty and Toni building an alliance to change the Serpents.

This is how I want Betty to create a relationship with the Serpents, outside of her relationship with Jughead, instead forming bonds with the ladies within the gang (Ladies! Plural!).  Even though their interactions start tense and uncomfortable, Toni and Betty form a friendship pretty easily because they talk honestly and are able to relate to each other’s feelings.  Betty learns from Toni to broaden her own perspective while also getting support from her in her relationship with Jughead, while Toni is given the support to really take charge in changing the Serpents to be better, and to allow the female members of the Serpents gain the power and respect they deserve.

This fic gives so much care on really developing Toni, showing her perspective and letting her be her own person, while also building a relationship with Betty.  I love it, I love it so much.  I love how Toni functions as a great friend to both Jughead and Betty, but approaches the situation with a bit of humor and irony.  I love getting to watch Betty and Toni find the different things they admire in each other and building a real affection between them.  I live for it!!!  (More Betty and Toni content.  Thanks.  In the meantime, go read this fic)

  Vespertine by @yavannies

Okay, I put this one last of the long running fics, because I talk about it??? a lot??? (It might get annoying even, IDK) If for some reason you still haven’t read this fic yet, sit down and let me tell you why you should.

So I have a big weakness for narratives that play with perspective, especially ones that play with how people with different experiences view things. It’s shown up in all of the fics so far on this list, actually. The way Vespertine plays with this concept is by having an introduction of the fic from Jughead’s writing, often in relation to or in contract of the main fic from Betty’s perspective. I love it as a concept, and it works so well in execution.

In general, I haven’t been a big fan of fandom’s idea of Serpent Jughead, because it often presents him as a completely different person that he has been established as in series. Jughead as a Serpent is still the same kid from season 1, just now with a community of support in the Southside, so he has learned to be much more vocal about his problems with Riverdale. For this fic, Jughead and Betty’s different experience creates a lot of early conflict, and shows up in the different way they view the things happening around them. Even with that, there is a natural attraction between them that builds up as they are around each other, and as they end up helping with each other’s problems.

I could go on and on about this fic. The way it addresses Betty’s mental health realistically, the affection and care that is shown among the young Serpents, the slow build up and change in how Betty and Jughead learn to understand each other. It has just the right amount of leaning on good old high school movie tropes that it’s a really fun read.

It is the other fic on here that does have Mature content, and I honestly love how it is written. Sexual content is not something that I gravitate toward in fic, but I do really enjoy getting to see Betty learning to become comfortable with her sexuality, and to learn to be proactive in what she wants. There is almost a reverence in how Jughead treats any and every sexual encounter with Betty, and it’s just incredibly sweet. Jughead is not someone who always puts his thoughts into words, but even outside of his chapter intros, it is always clear by his actions what is important to him, or where his insecurity impacts him. When I can dissect what a character is thinking while viewing the interaction from the point of view of another character, that is what I deeply love reading.

This fic is almost done, and I know Yavannie will be glad to see it over, but honestly I will be really sad to see it end lol. (I’m really excited about her getting to move on to new projects though.)

I love these fics!  Go read them!

(I plan to share some of my beloved one-shots, TBD, at some point when I am bored at work again lol)