#insult MY tastes

[ineffable-gallimaufry]

i can't even complain about taylor swift around here without getting the whole "oh because you listen to such good music as i like little girls" LIKE YOU CAN'T GO AFTER DANNY ELFMAN YOU PIECE OF SHIT. HE WRITES BETTER MUSIC THEN YOU WILL EVER LISTEN TO APPARENTLY

[desultory-novice]

Vent Post:  I feel hamstrung by how bad I am at forms and light...

Tried to work on a nice picture for Apologies One Year (!!) anniversary in five days. The concept is okay, I think. (?) But after the lineart and base colors, the picture is clearly missing something.

It looks flat and lifeless. Probably lineweight is to blame. I tried that new technique I learned where you lower the opacity on your rough so you're not just tracing but drawing something new, but I'm just not all that good at estimating where the lineweight should even be, and tricks ("Heavy where the lines intersect!" "Objects in the front!" "Objects in the back!") can only get me so far...

But I flail through that part. Maybe I can salvage it? It needs shape, definition, and form. Some of the things I'm the worst at. I stared at it, trying to mentally calculate where those forms are in space, I even used 3D models to simulate the lighting. When I tried to give it a bit of shading and highlight, everything ends up looking WORSE...?

...Ugh, I loathe this. I put in all this work and it's not at all like the vision I had in my head. I even tried to keep in mind aspects of other art I liked to try apply to this, soft shading and colored lineart, but it's really like that didn't matter. The CORE of the piece was flawed?

Why can't I understand these very basic concepts the way other artists can, four years in? ... sob... I feel in a rut...

And lets not even get into attempting a background :digs a hole to die in:

TLDR: I shot too high with this and didn't like where I ended up...

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I'm not posting this for the anniversary. I still have fondness for the idea, but this version of it is pretty unsalvageable so... enjoy. (This was my last attempt at a shading layer, btw. I did try something stronger and it didn't look any better.)

What I hate the most is that I knew it wouldn’t turn out good the whole time I was working on it. Why did I even think to do something like this in the first place? It was so misguided. Just stick to drawing sketchy Marxolor plushies and taking 3/4 head comics, Dess

POST-SLEEP EDIT:

I hold to what I said but I do have some more clues about where my dissatisfaction comes from. The minimalist bg doesn’t do this style of lineart a lot of favors and a stronger one could have grounded them better. The lineart also detracts from the soft, airy fantasy mood somewhat, and doesn’t let the outfits/fabric, which form a key part of the “party” mood, get to shine.

[gertritude-art]

Trying my best to look respectfully at the freckles woman, I must know more about her

(edit: the warm-up doodles being referenced)

Her specific "deal" in the story she's in is currently in flux, due to my having majorly changed the premise of it recently, but my original concept of her was that she was a 40-50 year old woman who liked to catfish people online by pretending to be a younger version of herself of dating apps. This was solely to get money. Now I am intrigued by the idea of her being some kind of hospital worker (secretary/administrative) who either still does this, or has a only fans of some sort...

[witheredoffherwitch]

I'm not going to play with any more of these 'hate' anons. If you feel the need to call me names for my stance on characters and shipping preferences, do what you will. Yell into the abyss if it makes you feel better -- I really don't care. I will be deleting each and every one of them from now on!

However, if you genuinely want to engage with these topics despite your distaste for these characters/ships, you are more than welcome to drop an ask in my inbox. I may not be the most punctual but I will respond to every ask eventually.

[dangeroustaintedflawed]

today i got told i look like i should have a good music taste but don’t …

[voxofthevoid]

fucking yikes im so sorry you get these kind of notifications, and of course theyre anonymous😒 coward cant even say it with their chest about a FICTIONAL character, in something completely optional to read. anyway, im a big fan and i reread your fics all the time! ppl complaining about gojo being ooc for being a bottom make me giggle everytime tho like no shit? fr?? gojo fucked canonically in the manga?? whens THAT getting animated and which chapter was it. can you link me 👀👉👈

and again, its not the source material. Its fanfic shared with you, not made for you. Its like walking into an ice cream parlor and demanding a steak, except even worse because the food is free!!! No one is holding you at gunpoint to sit down and read the whole thing huffing and puffing about how "its not what you ordered." and if you didnt read it, why are you here.🧍‍♂️

and imo the market is oversaturated with top gojo and bottom gojo satosugu. You're doing the lords work righting the scales one yuuji at a time🥰

"No one is holding you at gunpoint to sit down and read the whole thing": You'd think so, but some of these people do act like I'm at their house holding their entire family hostage while they read my fic with bloody tears streaming down their face.

Listen, if I had that kinda power, I'd manifest in my friends' houses to cuddle them to death. And hopefully cow-eye them into feeding me (looking at you specifically @eusuntgratie).

Delulu anon is the only one who's been a dick about it so far (and I think that one's just got several screws loose), but variations of this happen enough in my comments that I've constructed whole mental categories.

There are the nice ones, who basically say some variation of "I'm not usually into bottom!Gojou, but I'll read it from you." That's great! I generally take any version of "not my thing, but you're an exception" as a compliment, and the commenters generally mean it that way. There are also the neutral questions about who tops, usually before the fic gets explicit (yes, even in the fics where Gojou goes "fuck me, Yuuji ❤" well before the porn), and while opening my email to just that, without a peep about the fic so far, is about as appealing as eating burnt toast, I do answer and leave it be. It's fine.

And then you have the people with main character syndrome who cannot seem to conceive that any goyuu fic author would gleefully and exclusively write top!Yuuji. I've had people act like they're doing me a favor by reading my fic or assume it will be switching at the least. There was one...memorable occasion where someone liked the deaging fic overall but didn't like top!Yuuji, so they told me they'd be "stealing" the concept. Deaging is a bog-standard trope, so that's stupid as shit, but fucking Christ, the audacity. That was, IIRC, a fairly popular PWP author, so it's not even that they need any help to get eyeballs on their work.

There's just this persistent disbelief in the goyuu fandom about someone (me, I'm someone) writing top!Yuuji over and over. And it's clearly not that JJK fans just cannot conceive of Gojou taking it up the ass; like you said, there's plenty of it in satosugu, and I have it on good authority that nanago and sukugo are the same. It's just the combination of Yuuji and Gojou that gets this "one way only" attitude, and yeah, I know precisely why, but I've been in fandom for some 15 years now, a decade of it on Ao3, and JJK is the worst about it I've seen.

Sorry for the *gestures above* rant, but every goddamn month, this shit happens, and I am clinging to civility by the skin of my teeth.

But, far more importantly, please know that it put a bigass smile on my face to know that you like to reread my fics. Thank you, anon 😘

[six-demon-bag]

favorite activity i inflicted on both my partner and my mother: sending house listings back and forth to mock them for being hideous mcmansions

[l3monsoda]

I have this stupid romanticized fantasy where I have a teaparty book club. It's a normal book club that meets periodically but when they do it's a tea party and everyone sips teas and eats finger sandwiches and has fun being dainty while talking books.

This dream will never come true because it requires a set of impossible to achieve conditions. First a friend group or social circle of similarly inclined individuals large enough to pull from to get a group of 4-7 people big enough for interesting conversations. Second all members of said group would have to have the necessary amount for free time to actually read the book AND a consistent enough schedule to plan for and attend meetings on a regular basis. Third the only way to maintain sustainability for something like this is if either each member takes turns hosting or there is some kind of money pool and or distribution of tasks for setting up tea which is another time and resource factor that members would have to be able to afford.

And even if by some far away and out of reach middle class dreams miracle all these factors DID manage to come together it STILL wouldn't work because literally no one in my social circles like any of the books I do so I would have to read books I don't like every month or no one would join. Or more likely I'd try it for a few months just get tired of the book choice and eave and every one else would go on living my fantasy without me because just like how I never get the aux cord, no one is letting me curate the book club reading list.

[pinkdean]

I also think some of the most intense samcrits and deancrits HAVE to be only children because why can't you recognize harmless sibling ribbing?

[capfalcon]

ngl i really kinda hate the whole "i dont let my boyfriend decorate or add any personal elements to our home" joke that ive seen lately? like bro you are in a Relationship, you share a Home. if someone doesn't have their interests or personal style reflected in the place that they live, how are they supposed to feel comfortable or welcomed??

[aashiyancha]

This can probably pinned on the tail end of Reinhardt's first event

[thetabbybadger]

I wish you could veto certain ads on Spotify, like whatever I’m not gonna buy premium but half my ads are very bothersome >:/

[aeide-thea]

so i went to reblog some fanart earlier and started to tag it #oh this is. incredible actually, and then paused and thought, @‍self why the 'actually.' what is that adverb conveying. and i contemplated it for a bit, and finally concluded: well, shit. it's reflexive deprecation.

the thing is, deprecation is my starting position pretty much always, and that's a problem in itself, but mostly my problem; but when you're talking abt somebody else's work, and you start backing defensively away from imagined negativity before anyone's even actually voiced any? you may think you're playing bodyguard, but in reality you're the vanguard of the assault, opening a wedge for enemy forces to strike.

i was talking a couple of weeks ago abt seeing ppl tag that kristin sue lucas name-multiplied-by-one post with tags like 'this is art To Me' vel sim., and honestly i think it's a similar sort of reflex—i think exposure to the tumblr vernacular often leads people (very much including me!) to produce turns of phrase like this, that ultimately serve to convey roughly

'i, a clever girlblogger,¹ am, yeah, engaging with this frivolous hai pollai²-coded material; but my relationship to it, unlike that of most she-ple, is Intellectual and Analytical and Examined! and to make that clear, i'll be dropping in these little verbal particles from time to time, in order to distinguish my own, elevated examination of the subject from the state of risible naivete³ i'm implicitly ascribing to the other, more ordinary audience members i'm conjuring up only to instantly put down—but like, it's fine, i'm a free-and-easy girlblogger(TM), so you can't think i'd ever deliberately propagate establishmentarian prejudices! never mind the effect my rhetoric might subconsciously be having, on me or on anyone else…'

and i think this framing is worth squinting at, and worth attempting to excise from one's speech and from one's mindset, because when you get right down to it? it's just yet another insidious manifestation of respectability politics, that's gotten people to adopt it via the cuckoo-chick strategy of positioning itself as cutesy tumblr idiolect.

and like, circling back around to that fanart i mentioned at the outset: yeah, the tag did feel weirdly prosodically truncated to me without that 'actually'! but this way, if the artist ends up seeing my discussion of their work in their notes, they won't be getting slapped in the face with a wet dead fish first, so like. what's more important, you know?

⸻ ¹ ""(gender neutral)"" ² https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hoi_polloi in the feminine, if i haven't totally fumbled my declensions… ³ phrasing nicked from a comment of @‍proudheron's.

[nya-vivi]

I have got a man-child pursuing me. Creepily if I may add. How's your tuesday going.

[bigtreefest]

Not my mom telling me to take my hoodie off because I look too much like my dad with my hair covered up.

Ma’am. I didn’t ask for this life😭😭