#interview struggles

[jess-dailylife]

Life Lately – Marriage, Job Hunting, and the Struggle of Interviews

It’s been a while since I last posted. Life has been chaotic, and honestly, I’ve just been too busy to sit down and write. I feel like I should apologize for the lack of updates—if there’s even anyone out there reading these. Sometimes it feels like I’m just talking into the void, but hey, if you’re here, thanks for sticking around.

So, big life update: I recently applied for a marriage license. It’s a huge step, and I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t feeling a little overwhelmed. The thought of planning a big wedding (or even a small one, really) just feels like way too much effort. I know some people dream about their wedding day their whole lives, but I’m just not one of those people. The idea of signing the papers and calling it a day sounds perfect to me. Less stress, more peace.

On top of that, the job hunt continues. And let me tell you, it’s exhausting. No matter how many times I tweak my resume to fit the job posting, I just can’t seem to get any solid bites. People always say, “It’s all about connections!” but I’m starting to think that’s a lie. Even when I do have a connection, it’s not like they can just hand me the job. You still have to be liked a lot for them to skip the whole interview process—and let’s just say, interviews are not my strong suit.

Give me a shot, and I promise I’d be an asset to any team. But sit me down in a nerve-racking interview where I have to “sell myself,” and suddenly, I feel like I’m set up to fail. I know I’m capable, I know I’m qualified, but the pressure of interviews never seems to do me justice.

Anyway, that’s where I’m at. Just trying to navigate life one overwhelming thing at a time.

If you’re in the same boat—whether it’s job hunting, wedding planning (or avoiding it, like me), or just trying to figure things out—know that you’re not alone.

-Just a Girl in Ontario

[cthaehart]

Rotten Little Nothing

[dreadfuldevotee]

The way the everyone talks about Assad is truly hilarious to me. Rolin Jones keeps throwing him into the deep end just because he believes in his ability. Eric and Luke agree that Assad is soooo nice and sweet but gets scary as fuck when he gets in-front of that camera. Sam saying watching him perform is "spine tingling".

And then you hear from Assad and he's just all "I was shitting myself the entire time, idk what I'm doing"

[niccoguedes]

Oh… That’s why.

[kaitcake1289]

Who are you, Louis?

[mariorsomething]

[brian-kinney-apologist]

every day I thank god, the universe and the higher powers for the fact that sam reid's dedication to serve a diabolic amount of cunt as lestat de lioncourt is 10 billion times stronger than his hatred to having long hair

[jyn-ehrso]

Andor S02E05 "I Have Friends Everywhere"

[eroticlamb]

bob dylan interview, 1966 ⋆ ౨ৎ ˚ ˖ ࣪

[p4nishers]

can't believe tom hiddleston ACTUALLY interrupted the interviewer to say "one last thing, i think mobius is loki's friend and i don't think loki has ever had a friend before" like king. i love how u felt the need to add that truly

[cloudabserk]

armand is up against a 69 year old and immediately pulls a complete wardrobe shift to make himself look more mature and in control… it’s really facades all the way down huh

[pepsidogonline]

Eddie talking about chyna 🥺 and how he empathized with her behavior due to their similar struggles.

[pleaseinsertwittyurl]

There are always 2 sides.

The discourse around Louis and Lestat being a victim and abuser and nothing more drives me insane.

Something i don't think enough people remember is that the very same reason the fight began in 1×05 (lestat grabbing claudia by the throat when she tries to "take louis away") we see Louis himself do to her in 1×07 when she tries to get Louis to burn Lestat.

They BOTH would harm her rather than live in a world without the other. They are both guilty of abusing her and each other.

There is an implication that a good deal of time passed between Louis and Lestat meeting and the church. Louis expresses that he shares himself with Lestat in a way he only had with Paul. I would assume that goes both ways, to a degree. We know Louis knows at least enough about Nicki to discourage Claudia poking that wound. He also clearly knows that the threat of leaving is his most powerful weapon against Lestat.

Mental abuse is abuse. And Louis abused Lestat mentally for years. Shaming him, ridiculing him, shutting him out, manipulating him into making Claudia (a traumatic moment for him, whether Louis understands the depths of it or not) by promising to give him what he's being denying him, promising to never put him through what he fears the most.

Louis admits to purposely making Lestat suffer. He admits he was warned that Claudia would suffer and he wanted her anyway because he needed to feel redeemed. He is not innocent. He is not a trapped, weak victim. He made choices to hurt both Lestat and Claudia time and time again.

Does this justify Lestat's actions in 1×05? Obviously not. But we now know Louis was not willing to stop the fight. He taunted Lestat the same way he taunted the Alderman. He was unleashing years of frustrations just as Lestat was. His priority was not to protect Claudia, it was to hurt Lestat, consequences be damned.

I hate the drop scene as much as the next person and Lestat has admitted he will never earn forgiveness for what he did. But if you view Louis as some squeaky clean victim who was manipulated, trapped, and abused by Lestat you are missing so much of what this show is conveying.

We will always tend to paint ourselves as the hero of our own story. It is hard to accept your faults or that you hurt people you love. It is much easier to shift that blame on to someone else, to frame them as the villian. But life is not usually that black and white. Claudia had harsh words for them both in her diary, even before they got to Europe, for a reason. They both made hurtful mistakes with her, both treated her like a pawn in their relationship instead of a person, both harmed her, took away her choice, never prioritized her.

That is the great tragedy. That she never had a choice and was not allowed to be her own person. And in the end, they both are responsible for her misery and her death. That's what makes the reunion scene so important. They have been grieving her and carrying that guilt alone, all the while longing for the comfort of the other for 70+ years. Louis has found clarity in his memories, he has accepted his role in their suffering, he has seen Lestat's perspective more fully. Lestat is broken, totally consumed with that guilt and grief. Both know that although they cannot change what they've done, they can forgive the other, even if they can't forgive themselves. They can love each other despite everything they've done to one another because they cannot stop loving each other. But now they can try to rebuild that love from the rubble.

[pink0paques]

[ JOYRIDE by kesha plays loudly in the background ]

[divorceblogger]

1.07 // 1.01 // Interview with the Vampire, Anne Rice

[franoi]