#is it ok to say 'gay' if I'm bi???? I always worry

[williamvapespeare]

"every day i'm fucking smiling;" a rant (cogent, intellectual character study) about Charles

We all know that Charles Rowland is THE character of all time. Obviously. Undisputedly (except by Netflix) blabla. I, a mixed race bisexual idiot with daddy issues, am about to fucking get into it.

I think there are a lot of ways to get into that end of ep 4 scene – I think we can look from trauma, we can look from model minority syndrome, we can look from a place of people pleasing to the extreme, but I think the best way to get into Charles (for me, personally) is to look at him as a character formed of intersections. Of in-betweens. In literally EVERY way possible, he is between things. He’s mixed race, he’s (probably) bisexual, he’s between life and death, he’s between good and bad, he’s probably sitting somewhere between trauma and healing – like, he’s CONstantly engaging in coping mechanisms and that itself is an in between.

Ok this idea of “I must be liked” very obviously will come from living a life where the opposite of not being liked is always violence, and that definitely can’t be understated. But I think this whole scene and this line in particular really speak to this very specific feeling that comes with inhabiting an identity that is ALWAYS seen as “not enough” in some way. Like, if you sit in a place where you don’t speak one side of your family’s language well enough and simultaneously aren’t white enough (or whatever enough) for the other side, you’re just like fundamentally culture-less and fighting to just be ANYTHING.

(Another GREAT example of this I think is the game Life is Strange 2, which is about two Hispanic American brothers, one of them speaks Spanish and the other one is much younger and doesn’t and there’s a bit where the younger brother doesn’t want to leave the US and says “I don’t even speak Spanish” and the other one is like “don’t worry, everyone likes you.” Like YES being “““Likeable””” is maybe the only way in when you are so fundamentally detached from a thing that you are also fundamentally part of, anyway!!)

Similarly, like all of us bisexual people know we’re constantly getting shit from both sides, from straight people and gay people and probably like, corpses decomposing in the ground who are throwing around terms like “gold star lesbian” or whatever the fuck. People just look at whatever relationship you’re in and they’re like ah yep that’s you!!

Like the whole thing is the most reductive narrow-minded stupidity, but it’s also just THE WAY. It’s the way of stuff. And being like ok, I AM NOT ENOUGH OF ANYTHING THAT I AM. How are you going to deal with that, you’re going to try and be likeable?? Because that’s something you can control!!!

And I’m low key so mad that we can’t see a continuation of this story where we get to see a character slowly come to terms with these in-betweennesses and say like, I’m not actually two halves, I’m two wholes. This is intentional in-betweenness. Like yes, blabla let the boy be bi, but it’s SO MUCH MORE THAN THAT. And I trust this show and I trust these writers to get that right and we were robbed of that.

So yeah idk tldr “every day I’m fucking smiling” was like the gut punch of the century. Whoever wrote that I’m omw to haunt your local Denny’s with my extroverted mixed race bisexual energy THANK U

[queermania]

Ok so I have a real question not trying to start discourse or any thing. If Dean knew how he felt about Cas slash knew he liked men why was he always so weird about gay people. I can see a reading where Dean knew how he felt about Cas but not one where he knew he was bi

this is totally a fair question and i don't think there's any one True reading or interpretation of the show/characters so it really just depends on what version of events resonates the most with you. the way the picture makes the most sense to me is that dean is a guy who was raised in the 80s-90s in a hyper-masculine environment with zero stability. i think all of those puzzle pieces slotted into place in his brain in a way that said "sex with men is okay, feelings are not." a furtive hookup with a dude in a seedy bar bathroom is fine. going on a date with a guy is prohibited.

and the thing is that this is kind of true for dean when it comes to women as well. a one night stand is a-okay. falling in love and settling down is not. so, you take that sort of mentality and then apply all the homophobia of growing up in the eighties and the nineties and a life lived out of a car bouncing between truck stops and, well, you get a dean who is absolutely flabbergasted when confronted with the fact that not only are you allowed to want something romantic with a man, you're allowed to say it out loud to other people. you're allowed to have it.

dean wasn't weird about gay people, necessarily. he was weird about people who were able to just be themselves. he didn't know that was an option. also, i don't know about y'all but as a queer person who doesn't necessarily read as queer at a glance, i too get Very Awkward when confronted with another queer person in the wild and it's not because i'm homophobic. it's because oh! new friend! must send telepathic signals that me queer too! my behavior around other queer people in queer spaces does not match my behavior around other queer people in random public spaces. i'm embarrassing and i see that part of myself in dean lol.

and dean being weird about other people making comments about his perceived queerness, to me, is a very normal reaction for a closeted person (or even someone who is selectively and/or quietly out). you can be perfectly at peace with who you are and still not want to be clocked. like???? homophobia is not a thing of the past. dean grew up during the AIDS crisis. he was, what? nineteen years old when matthew sheppard was killed? his reactions to people insinuating he might be anything even close to queer make perfect sense for someone his age, living the life that he did.

also, like, here's the thing: i realized i was queer when i was about eleven and i freaked out about it for about a day and then promptly suppressed the whole thing because of a deeply traumatizing childhood. being queer was the least of my worries and there was never any time to unpack it and deal with it so i just didn't. and then when i was about nineteen i started to have queer sexual/romantic relationships but continued to suppress the fact that EYE was in fact queer because, again, i didn't really have the space to unpack it. it wasn't until i was about twenty-three and surrounded by other queer people (in a platonic way) that i finally felt safe to fully admit to myself and to other people that i was in fact queer. and then i never really did a whole coming out thing. i just... lived my life openly as a queer person and let other people figure it out.

my point in all this is that i feel like my general experience/trajectory lines up really well with how i view dean's. he had a very traumatic upbringing so while he knew he was attracted to men, he had no time or space to deal with it. that didn't stop him from having sex with men, but he never really unpacked what it actually meant. it wasn't until he was older and had openly queer friends that he felt safe enough to fully acknowledge that part of himself. and then.. that was it. he just lived his life as a queer man. like, i feel like we actually watched that happen over the course of the show???

most importantly, i cannot handle any reading where everyone else knows dean is queer but dean does not know himself. i especially loathe the idea that sam Knows and has to explain dean's own sexuality to himself. that is so ugly. dean is a very self-aware person. you could even argue he is perhaps too self-aware at times.

anyway, this is all obviously just a watsonian explanation of dean's relationship to his queerness. it doesn't even touch on the doylist stuff but that's a whole can of worms i'm not really interested in opening on tumblr dot edu right now.

so, yeah. that's my personal reading.

[bteezxyewriter12]

Love Is Love/ 1

Pairing- Hongjoong x Named Reader

Word count- 5.9k

Includes- Joong has to tell reader something and is worried, new experience, pussy eating, blow job, cum eating, riding, multiple orgasms, fluff

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Hongjoong POV

'Just tell her', I tell myself, 'Get it over with. She won't judge you'

There's something I need to tell my best friend

Something I just figured out and I'm worried about how shell take it

Logically I know she'll be supportive and she'd never judge me but still the fear is there

"You ok Joong?", she asks, looking from the tv over to me

I nod, nervously tugging on the blanket on my bed

I finally have time to hang out with her and we agreed that she would sleep over

We've been watching movies but I couldn't tell you a fucking thing about them

She shuts off the TV, putting the remote on my nightstand, turning fully to me and giving me all her attention

"Spill"

"What?"

"C'mon Joongie. I know you. I know something's wrong. You can't hide from me"

This I know

She has always known when something was wrong or off, ever since we were five

It's an unnerving talent she has

"Just tell me"

"Well there's nothing wrong exactly. Just something about.....my personal life"

Of which she knows everything too

She knows I'm gay and knows all about my boyfriend's and fuck buddies

And she keeps all my secrets

"Is it about you and Seonghwa?", she asks, smirking, "Trouble in paradise?"

"Oh my god we are not dating!", I exclaim, "We just fuck sometimes, that's it!"

"Yeah ok", she rolls her eyes

"I'm serious Jo. There's nothing romantic between me and Seonghwa. There never was. It was just sexual"

Seonghwa is bi and he wanted to fuck a few times

I was horny and gave in

But that's all it was

And nothing changed between us

Not as friends and not professionally

"We're just friends", I say firmly

"Well ok", she says, not sounding convinced, "Then what is it?"

I swallow hard

Here goes

"I just recently discovered...uh more like realized.....I'm...I'm... uh bisexual"

Her eyebrow raises as she takes in my words

She's always known me as just gay because that's all I thought I was

But the past year I'm finding I'm extremely attracted to girls too

Sexually and romantically

Other female idols, ATINYs, staff members

But the one girl I've fallen for is gorgeous and just perfect

So I figured out that yeah, I'm bi

"But if you're bi....", she trails off

And I see when she gets it

"Oh my god, you like a girl?", she squeals excitedly

I slowly nod

"Holy shit! So tell me about her! When are you going to ask her out? Do you need help? I'll help you! Oh my god!"

"You uh...you seem very....happy about this", I comment

She smiles, "Of course I'm happy Joongie. You like someone where you actually want to be with them. It doesn't matter if it's a guy or a girl but it is surprising it's a girl. You've only ever been with guys"

"Yeah", I agree, "I just...once I've noticed I'm attracted to girls, this girl...she just....I just noticed her and I can't stop thinking of her"

She smiles widely, "Tell me about her"

"Well uh she's really pretty. Like beautiful....and sexy"

"Uh huh", she grins, staring at me, her eyes as huge as saucers

"Her eyes are....fucking gorgeous. I swear I could stare into them all day. And her smile...fuck her smile"

"Best thing about her?", she smiles encouragingly

"Yeah", I nod, "Her body is so hot too. Big...huge...boobs that I want to squeeze. Cute ass I want to squeeze. Fuck just thinking about having her under me, moaning and screaming my name..."

"Damn", she says, shock on her face, "Are you sure you just don't want to fuck her?"

I shake my head, "No. I thought that at first but my...thoughts....daydreams aren't only about sex"

"Oh my god, what else do you day dream about?", she squeals, clapping

"Uh ahem...holding her hand", I say a little embarrassed, "Date things, like watching a movie, eating together. And uh...sleeping. With her. Cuddling. Holding her all night"

"Joongie!", she exclaims happily, "You're in love!"

"I don't uh know if it's that strong yet"

I know it definitely could be

I'm one hundred percent sure of that

"Ok well you're in serious feelings territory. This is so exciting!"

"Yeah it scares the shit out of me", I answer

"Why? You're an amazing guy, you have nothing to be scared about"

I'm glad she thinks that of me but as for the other part, I do have a lot to be scared about

"Jo, I've never been with a girl before. I...I don't know what to do. Uh sexually. And also not sexually. I don't know how to read a girl"

"It's not rocket science Joongie"

Yeah right

She's my best friend and she's fucking complicated

"Look Joongie, whoever it is, they'll be lucky to have you ok. And if they don't see that then they're not worth it. No matter who it is. Guy or girl", she says comfortingly, "And you just have to try and learn like you did with guys. Just explain that you've never been with a girl before"

"Isn't that unrealistic?"

I mean I'm 25

Most guys have had experience with girls by now

She rolls her eyes, "No Hongjoong. There's plenty of reasons why a guy hasn't been with a girl. Not all guys think they're gay then realize their bi Joongie. Maybe the guy is a virgin. Or they're focused on school or their career"

"I don't know. That sounds flimsy"

She snorts, "You're also an idol Joongie. That screams not much time for anything too. I'm guessing that's why the guys don't have girlfriends or boyfriends either"

She's right about that

There's no time for a relationship but I'm willing to make it work

"Yeah I guess"

She nods, "So who is this girl? Is she a stylist?"

"No"

"Make up artist?", she guesses

I shake my head, "No"

"Staff member?"

"Nope"

"Idol?"

"No"

"What the fuck who is it? A friend of your brother's?"

"No", I answer, laughing when she gives me a glare

"One of the guys sisters or friends?"

"No"

"Do I even know her?"

"Yeah", I nod

"Who is it? I'm tired of guessing"

Here goes

"It's you"

She immediately snorts, "Right. Good one Joongie. Who is it really?"

I should have known she wouldn't believe me

I take her hand, slowly lacing our fingers, shocked at how right it feels

"It's you Jo", I say softly

It doesn't matter if she's a girl or a guy, it's her I want

The look of utter bewilderment on her face is adorable

"Me?"

I nod

"You're shitting me"

"Never", I answer, "I wouldn't joke about this"

She's silent and I know it's taking a while for it to sink in

"I can't stop thinking about you", I tell her, "I can't stop wanting to be around you. I have to literally restrain myself from kissing you, it's that bad"

Taking a huge risk, I lean closer to her

She doesn't move away and I take it as a good sign

Pressing my lips against hers, I immediately melt into her, her lips so soft against mine

I'm so fucking giddy when I feel her kiss me back, one of her arms sliding up my chest and wrapping around my neck

The kiss deepens, our tongues against each other and shivers run up my spine

Her kiss blows my mind, making me feel things I haven't felt before

And making me feel other things I haven't felt in a long time

The same lovey dovey feeling my first boyfriend gave me but more intense

When the kiss ends, I smile softly at her, moving some hair out of her face

"I want you Jo. So much. Would you wanna try with me?", I ask

"I haven't thought about it before Joongie. Me and you. Because you were all about guys. I can't tell you I have feelings for you like that"

My heart deflates

It sounds like I'm going to be rejected

"But I want to try with you Joongie", she says, smiling at me

My brain processes her words and I'm fucking ecstatic

"Yeah?"

She nods, "Yeah Joongie. I don't think I'll have a hard time falling for you. You're pretty amazing"

I beam at her even though my cheeks turn red from her words

"And hot", she adds

I laugh, "You're hot too jagi"

"Thanks", she giggles

"Are you....are you ok with me being bi?", I ask, knowing that some girls would have a problem with that

Hell, some guys would too

"Of course Joongie. I don't care about that. All that matters is that you're just mine"

I nod rapidly, "I am yours. I promise"

"I promise I'm yours"

I'm so fucking happy, it's ridiculous

Pulling her to me, I crash my lips to hers, kissing her earnestly

Her arms fly around my neck, her body as close to me as she can be

Deeping the kiss, I pull her in my lap, holding on to her tightly, letting all the feelings for her wash over me

I move my hands down her body, gripping her ass

She moans softly and goddamn that sound turns me on

I can't stop touching her, my hands roaming all over, getting to know her body

Being brave, I wrap my hands around her big boobs and squeeze, groaning in her mouth, my dick getting so hard

Her boobs are amazing

So squishy

So soft

So fucking big

Moving my tongue against hers, I slip my hands under her PJ shirt, her skin trembling against my fingertips

Fuck, I like that a lot

I slowly push her shirt up, taking it off, throwing it somewhere in the room

Leaning to her, I press kiss after kiss to her neck, her collarbone, her chest, loving the small whimpers she's making

I want to take her bra off but I don't know how

I've never done this before

I move my fingers on her bra strap, trying to feel how to take it off

"Wait", she says, stopping me

What did I do?

Did I do something wrong?

I probably did

Stupid

"Joongie, we don't have to", she says, cupping my cheeks, "Don't rush anything ok?"

I shake my head, "I'm not jagi"

She bites her lip, hesitantly

Maybe she doesn't want me like that yet

I'd be disappointed but I would never force her

"Are you ok baby?", I ask, keeping my arms around her waist

"I just...will it work? Will you..uh..get hard? I don't want you to get upset if it doesn't work"

I understand what she's saying

And I get it

She's unsure if she'd turn me on because she's a girl

I understand that it'll take time for her to get used to me being bi, me being attracted and wanting girls

Well, I may be attracted to other girls but I want only one girl

Her

I kinda threw a lot at her and I'm not upset

Grabbing her ass again, I push her down on my hard on as I press up into her

"It'll work baby"

Her cheeks turn so red as she feels me and it's so fucking cute

"You turn me on jagi. So much, you have no idea. I want to be with you so much. In more ways than one", I assure her, "But if you want to wait, we'll wait, baby. I'm perfectly happy kissing you"

Her cheeks turn pink again, her smile getting shy

"I want you too Joongie. I just don't want you to think we're moving too fast"

I shake my head, "We're not baby. I've known you my whole life Jo. Everything we'll do is at our pace"

"Ok", she nods, a genuine smile on her face, my heart beating so fast seeing it directed at me

"Fuck jagi, you're smile baby", I whisper, softly touching her face, "Best thing about you"

She laughs, the sound so musical, "Well you do know how to woo someone"

I smile, nodding, "I'm the best"

"Yeah you are", she agrees, her lips against mine in a sweet kiss

Sliding my hands back to her bra, I tug on it, "Can you show me how to get this thing off?

She laughs, nodding, "I'll turn around so you can see it Joong. You can figure out how to get it off"

That sounds like a good idea

She turns around and I lean closer to her bras strap, seeing the hooks that's attaching it together

Taking a side in each hand, I try to maneuver it to get it open

It's not coming off and it takes me a few tries before I get it open

I'm so gonna have to practice

She takes the bra off, throwing it on the floor, then turns around

And I proceed to choke on air

Jesus Christ, she's perfect

Those fucking boobs, those tattoos on her sides, her pretty stomach, her delicate neck, fuck me

I'm just lost in staring at her that I don't notice her trying to take my pj shirt off until she whines my name

"Sorry jagi", I say, helping her get my shirt off

"Jesus Christ Joongie", she murmurs, her hands running from my stomach to my chest, "So fucking hot"

I can't believe she thinks that about me

It's crazy

My brain shuts off when her lips press against my neck, kissing me, her small hands around me, roaming my back slowly

"Fuck baby", I moan, feeling her smirk against my skin

She presses kisses against this one spot on my neck, murmuring, "Fuck, I love this beauty mark baby"

I feel a huge smile burst in my face hearing her call me baby

God I fucking love it

Lifting her face to mine, I crash my lips to hers, gently pushing her down on my bed

She pulls me with her, turning into me as I lay next to her

Trailing kisses down her neck, I latch on to her nipple, sucking on her as I grope her ass

"Fuck baby", she moans, her hand moving in the back of my hair

She tugs lightly, turning me on even more

Holy shit, I had no idea I was into hair pulling but apparently I am

Moving my hand to her waistband, I hesitate, not knowing what to do

"Jagi...can...can you help me?", I ask shyly, "Can you show me how to make you feel good?"

She smiles softly, nodding, "Yeah Joongie"

"Ok", I smile back

I know I need to get her PJ pants off so I sit up pulling them down and off

My gaze lands on this tiny see through thing she calls underwear, my mind stalling

It looks so good on her, so fucking sexy

"You can take them off Joongie"

I snap back to the present, nodding, "Ok baby"

I slowly pull them down, my eyes on her body as I do it

Once her panties are off, I look at my girlfriend naked in my bed

And have a heart attack

She's stunning

Just perfect

I run my hands from her ankles to her thighs, slowly opening her legs

I've never seen a pussy in real life before

On porn sure but that's through a screen

Lowering my gaze, I whimper, "Oh fuck" as I look at her

So small, so fucking wet, so pretty

Goddamn, I just want to shove my cock in there and fuck her brains out

"Is uh.....are you....uh...?"

"Horny?", I finish for her

She bites her lip, nodding

"You have no fucking idea how much"

As it is my cock is straining against my pants and I'm pretty sure I'm leaking cum all in them

But I want to learn how to please her first before I get inside her

"Can...can I touch?", I ask

She nods, my hand immediately shooting out and running along her slit

"Oh god, so wet", I murmur

My fingers brush against her clit and she moans softly, her body tensing

"Feels good there?", I ask, watching her nod

Moving my fingers there, I rub her clit, watching her

"Is this good?"

Her hand moves down, her fingers over mine, moving mine in a circular motion

"Like that Joongie. Faster"

"Ok baby"

I follow her directions, watching her pussy get wetter and drip on my bed

Fuck

"Can I taste you?", I find myself asking

"Yes", she agrees

I lay down on my stomach, face to face with her dripping pussy and it's even more pretty up close

"What do I do?"

"Just lick for now"

Ok then

Moving my tongue by her hole, I press against her and lick up slowly, getting a taste

She moans just as I do

She tastes fucking good, oh my god

What the hell?

Running my tongue up and down her pussy, I push my face into her more, wanting more of her in my mouth

Her loud shouts indicate that I'm doing a good job

At least I think I am

I swirl my tongue around, getting more and more juice in my mouth and swallowing

How she tastes this good I don't know but fuck, I know I'm going to want to be down here all the time

Sliding my tongue up, I roll it over her clit, her hips immediately snapping in my face, her moan louder than before

"There Joongie. Please", she whines

Ok then

Lapping at her clit, I notice it throbbing and that each throb sends pleasure into my body

I don't know how I feel this bliss from eating her out but I'm not questioning it

I keep licking, her clit so soft against my tongue

"Joongie", she moans, her hand moving into my hair, tugging on the strands

I groan into her cunt, loving the hair pulling

"Baby...need...need.."

"What do you need babygirl? Tell me and I'll do whatever you want"

"Suck baby"

Suck?

Suck what?

I mean I know how to give a blow job, I'm good at them but that's when there's a dick in my mouth

And obviously she doesn't have one

"Where jagi?"

"Where you're licking"

Where I'm licking?

I lick her clit again, asking, "There?"

"Yes, fuck yes "

Huh, I guess I could suck on her clit

It's swollen enough for me to do it

Wrapping my mouth around her clit, I suck once

And I'm immediately addicted

She screams as I suck faster, loving the way her bump throbs against my lips, loving how it feels in my mouth

How good it is to completely slurp on

I go hard, not wanting to let go of her for a second

Her hips move into my mouth, fucking my face and I fucking love it

Her back arches, her hand fisting my hair as she screams, "I'm gonna cum! Joongie, I'm gonna cum"

I suck as fast as I can hearing that

I want to make her cum so badly

The next suck had her screaming, her legs shaking around my head, her hand holding my face to her cunt as her orgasms

"Hongjoong! Hongjoong!", she cries, sending shivers down my spine

I didn't know how much I'd love hearing her scream my name

God, it's everything

All the while I don't stop sucking on her, helping her through her orgasm

When she lets go of my hair, I know she's done

Letting her clit go, I look down at her hole, surprised to see cream leaking from it

Without thinking, I press my tongue to her hole, licking up the cream

"Oh my fucking god", I groan as her sweet taste punches me in the face, "Fuck jagi, you're cum tastes so fucking good. Jesus Christ"

"I- really?", she asks, just as I start licking up more

"Yeah", I agree, making sure I get everything, "Fucking so sweet baby. Gotta be the best cum I ever tasted"

"You're shitting me", she says, gaping at me when I look up at her

I shake my head, pressing a kiss to her inner thigh, "No jagi. I told you, I wouldn't lie to you about anything"

"Ok", she says, her entire face, neck and chest blushing

Sliding up next to her, I ask, "Was it ok? Did uh...did you like it? Did I do it right?"

Eating a pussy is vastly different from sucking a dick and I'm so worried I completely failed even though she came

"It was perfect baby", she assures me, surprising me

"Are...are you sure?", I ask

"Yeah", she smiles, "Are you sure that was the first time you ever ate pussy? Because your fucking tongue baby. You're mouth. Fuck"

Now it's my turn to blush, glad I'm good at something when it comes to a girl

I move my gaze to hers when I feel her hand on my cheek

"Kiss me Joongie"

Pulling her to me, I crash my lips against hers, reveling in the way her kiss feels

God, it's everything, sending chills up my spine and making my head spin

All that from her kiss

Fuck

As I kiss her, she pushes me down on the bed, her hands pulling my PJ pants down, making me so fucking excited

I lift my ass up so she can pull the pants and boxers off

"Oh my god Joongie", she gapes, her eyes on my dick

"What baby?", I ask, slightly panicked, "Is...is it not good? Is there something wrong-"

"No Hongjoong, of course not", she tells me, her hand wrapping around my dick, softly stroking me

Pleasure seeps in my body, making me stifle a moan

"You just have the biggest dick I've ever seen"

Yeah I've been told that before

And it's always a surprise for the other guy

I guess it's because I'm short for a guy and kinda small looking that guys were shocked when they saw how big my cock is

"Is...it's ok?", I ask again, wanting to make sure I'm what she wants

"More than ok Joongie. You're perfect baby"

Perfect

I can't believe she's using that word to describe me

To describe her yeah, but me?

No

I'm thrown out of my thoughts when I feel her tongue press against my slit

I immediately look at her, watching her lick the cum leaking from my head

"Fuck jagi", I whimpers, my body tensing in pleasure

"Mmm yummy Joongie"

"Fuck", I repeat, my mind imploding when it realize she likes the way I taste

Holy shit

All thoughts leave my mind when her mouth wraps around my head, sucking softly

"Oh god", I groan, feeling her mouth move faster with every suck, slowly building up the pleasure

Her hand moves in time with her mouth, making everything even better

She moves down my dick more, choking sounds coming from her when I enter her throat

She switches from sucking to bobbing her head up and down and fuck she's amazing at blow jobs

Shit

It's gotta be one of the best ones I ever had

She stops moving, keeping me in her mouth, as she slides down, her tongue licking and swirling around my head like rapid fire, making me choke out from the pleasure

"I can't deepthroat you yet baby", she says, between licks

I stare at her in shock that she even wants to do that to me

"Your cock is enormous and I can't get it all in right now"

"Ddd...d...", I stammer, trying and failing to tell her not to worry about it

"I just need to practice", she continues, her eyes flitting to mine, "Gonna let me practice on your dick baby?"

I nod my head so fast, I feel like a bobble head doll, "Yes....oh fuck...yes"

She smiles around my cock and I swear I can cum right now

"Good baby"

She begins sucking my head again and I'm so close

But I don't want to cum in her mouth

I'm dying to feel what it's like inside her

So, with much difficulty, I croak out, "Stop jagi. Ppp..please"

Her eyes snap to mine, widening and immediately getting off me

"I'm sorry", she apologizes, "Did it hurt? Did it not feel good? Tell me what I did wrong and I'll fix it baby"

I shake my head, trying to calm myself down as well as feeling horrified that she'd think I didn't like it

"Nnn..no jagi. It was amazing baby"

She raises her eyebrow, a skeptical look on her face

"It was baby. I promise, it was so good", I assure her, "I only stopped because I want to...uh..."

I feel my face turn hot, all of a sudden shy about telling her what I want

"You want to what baby?", she asks, confused

"I want ah...to be...uh...inside. You", I get out

Understanding enters her face, "Oh. Ok. I get it"

"How uh...how should we...", I trail off

I don't know how good it'll be for her since it's my first time with a girl

I don't want it to suck for her

"How about I ride you this time?", she suggests, "Since it's your first time"

That sounds amazing

"Yeah jagi", I nod, relief entering my body, "Ok"

"Are you sure Joongie? We don't have to have sex if you don't want to", she asks, "I don't want you to feel like you have to"

I shake my head, "That's not what's happening baby. I want to. Like really want too"

"Ok", she answers, pushing me down gently

I lay down waiting for her to get on me, my cock straining and aching to be inside her

"If you're uncomfortable tell me", she insists, "If it doesn't feel good or you don't like it, tell me. I won't be upset ok?"

I nod, "Yeah ok jagi"

I doubt I'm not going to like it

I'm pretty sure it's gonna be incredible

"Promise"

"I promise", I assure her

She nods and I grab her hips, helping her climb on top of me

I hold my dick up for her, so fucking excited

It's kinda mind blowing that I'm excited to have sex with a girl

But that's because it with her

My head slips inside her, my breath increasing

She starts sliding down fast but I stop her

"What's wrong?", she panics

"Relax jagi", I tell her, "I just want you to go slow. I want to feel all of you"

I want the full experience

I've heard the guys talk about sex with a girl, how good it feels getting their dick inside their pussy

I want to know what that's like

Her eyes blink in surprise but she nods, "Ok baby"

Now she slides down slower, wiggling onto my cock and I can't help but moan, my eyes watching her hole take me

She feels so fucking good, so fucking tight, so fucking wet

And warm

I had no idea she'd feel warm like this

"Oh my god Joongie", she moans as she takes me inside her, "Fuck, big dick"

"Feels good jagi?", I ask shyly

She nods as she bottoms me out, her pussy pulsing around me, her hips moving in a circular motion, grinding against me

Christ, that's good

"How...how does it feel for you?", she asks

"Fucking amazing baby"

Her eyes widen, "Are you sure?"

I nod, "Yeah jagi. Jesus, you're so tight, feel so good wrapped around me. And your constant throbbing feels so good"

Her whole face and chest turn red as she smiles shyly

"Can I move?", she asks

"Please jagi"

Her small hands lean on my stomach, her pussy sliding up my cock

My mouth drops at how wet she left me but I don't have much time to think about it as she moves back down fast, bottoming me out in one move

"Shit", I groan

"Ok?", she checks in

I nod, "Please baby, fuck me"

She bounces on me, taking me inside her over and over and I'm thrown into unbelievable pleasure

She's so fucking tight around me and pushing through that tightness is so pleasurable

She rocks against me in between bounces, moaning loudly as I rub inside her

"Fuck Hongjoong", she cries, turning me on hearing my name

She moves faster, rocking and grinding on my cock every time she takes me in

Her pussy is holding my cock in a vice grip, throbbing wonderfully

I'm in so much bliss, I can't think

My eyes move all over her body, mesmerized by how she moves on me

Her big boobs are jiggling hard, beads of sweat running down between them and that sight fucking makes me so horny

Gripping her boobs, I squeeze over and over, listening to her whimpers

My gaze moves down to where she's fucking me, my mind blowing at how much cream is coming from her pussy

She completely coats my cock, it's so pretty

I've never experienced this before

I've heard the guys talk about fucking a creamy pussy but I didn't really know how that worked

Unless I used lube, there was nothing like that when fucking guys

Now I fucking know what they were talking about and I know why they loved it

I fucking get it now

She leans back, her hands on my thighs as she bounces rapidly

"Oh god Joongie", she yells, "So fucking good"

Her cunt is pulsing faster as she goes, getting more and more wet, giving me pleasure to the max

"Hongjoong!", she yells, "I'm gonna cum"

Yes, fuck yes

"I'm gonna cum on your cock! Oh god"

"Yes baby, cum for me", I urge her, excited beyond belief to feel it

"Hongjoong! Hongjoong! Oh god, Hongjoong!", she screams as she cums

Unbelievable bliss hits my body and I force my eyes open to watch her

She's fucking gorgeous when she cums

Her body is shaking, her head back, pleasure all over her sweaty face, calling my name over and over

I glance down at her cunt and am shocked at how creamy her cum is

The pleasure and watching her throws me over the edge and I scream, "I'm gonna cum!"

"Yes Hongjoong! Cum inside me", she whines

"Oh my fucking god, Joanne!", I shout, pulling her down my cock as pure ecstacy slams into my body, stars blasting in my vision as I cum inside her pulsing cunt

I can't speak, just make moans as an intense orgasm runs through me

She resumes bouncing on me, making the pleasure last longer

"Fuck, you're so fucking hot Joongie", she murmurs, her small hands on my chest, "So beautiful baby"

I hear her and if I wasn't in such bliss, I'd be blushing so hard

But I can do anything but hold her hips hard, moaning her name over and over

As I come back to my senses, I feel her lips pressing soft kisses all over my face

"Jagi", I whisper

"Mm baby"

Touching her face, I move her so her lips press against mine, kissing her

She immediately kisses me, deepening it as she moves off me, laying in my arms

I turn to her, tightening my arms around her, pulling her right against me

After the kiss, she snuggles into me and fuck holding her feels so right

Like she belongs in my arms

I love that feeling

"Was it good?", she asks

"Amazing", I answer, "Fuck the way you move baby. So fucking pretty. You felt so good jagi. So good"

"Oh good", she breathes in relief

"Was it good for you?", I ask

I didn't do much, just watched her bounce on my dick

"Incredible Joongie. You're so big and God, it felt amazing"

I smile softly, glad I was able to make her feel good

"I'm sorry I couldn't last longer", I tell her

I'm not sure how many orgasms she's used to when fucking but I couldn't hold it back

"Shush baby", she says, running her fingers in my hair, "It's fine baby. You never have to apologize for that ok? I want you to cum whenever you want when we're together ok?"

I nod, "Ok", relieved she's not disappointed about that

"Should we get dressed?"

Absolutely not

I love feeling her skin against mine and I want her against me for longer

"No jagi. We can stay like this"

She raises her eyebrow, "What if Seonghwa comes in?"

"I told him not to. He...he knows I was going to tell you how I feel about you and he agreed to stay out of the room for the night"

"Oh. Seonghwa knew?"

"Yeah. I needed someone to give me advice. He noticed I was nervous and acting differently and he asked me about it. He encouraged me to tell you"

She smiles, "Well I'm glad he did baby. And I'm glad we can stay naked together for the whole night"

"Me too", I grin, kissing her, loving the feeling of her lips against mine

After, she cuddles into me, leaning her head against my neck, "You're so comfy Joongie. Can we sleep baby?"

"Yeah baby", I agree, utterly excited, happy to have her here the entire night

Wrapping her in my arms, I kiss her cheek and holding her tightly, I close my eyes

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Movement against my cheek wakes me up and I open my eyes groggily to see what's going

"Hi baby", she says, kissing my cheek

Last night comes roaring back and I realize who's next to me

A huge smile bursts on my face as I turn my body to her

"Hi jagi", I say softly, then press a soft kiss to her lips

This is officially my favorite way to wake up

She responds, her arms moving around my neck, pressing her body against mine

My arms stay around her, my one hand on her back, the other groping and squeezing her cute ass

"Hongjoong!", I hear, just as the door opens

Fuck

I manage to pull the blanket over our lower halves just as San appears in the doorway

Her naked back and my chest are exposed as I keep tugging the blanket up

"Uh what the fuck is going on?", San gapes at me and her, "Are you....fucking Joanne?"

"What?", Wooyoung yells

Oh god

Wooyoung slams into the door as he slides into my room, his eyes widen when he sees us in the compromising position

"Are you naked? Is she naked?", Wooyoung exclaims

"Yes", I growl, "Get the fuck out"

"Did you really? With her? You know she's a girl right?", Wooyoung continues

"Obviously", I snap, "She's my girlfriend. Now go away!"

"I don't understand. You're gay!", San yells

"Did your dick work? How did you get hard?", Wooyoung questions

"Oh my god!", she roars, "He's bi! He's my boyfriend, I'm his girlfriend, yes we fucked, yes his dick works just fine! Get the fuck out! Now!"

"Girlfriend?", Wooyoung asks stupidly

"Bi?", San repeats

"Oh my god I'm gonna kill them", she mutters angrily

"Can you get the fuck out? I'll explain everything later alright? Leave us alone right now", I snarl

"Are you gonna fuck again?"

"Get out!"

"Fine. But I'm telling everyone", Wooyoung says

"Don't-", I start but Wooyoung leaves the room yelling, "Hey guys! Guess what Hongjoong is doing?"

San just shrugs then closes the door

"You're members are idiots", she mutters

I nod in agreement, "But you knew that already"

"Yeah", she sighs, "Should we go out there?"

We should but I really don't want to

I'm too comfortable with her

"Fuck em", I say, "For now anyway. I wanna stay with you"

She smiles brightly, "Good"

Then she pulls me right back to her, her lips melting against mine

[ellsieee]

I'm really going to miss SWM despite the sad ending. The actors really did a great job with what they had and could do. I knew the accident was going to hurt me, and that it would be a OE, but I did not expect it to be more like a BE. More about that later. At least we got a whole episode of happy boys before all the shit hit the fan.

This scene really touched me. Su Yu pushes Wu Bi to achieve his dreams and is there to support him all the way. We also get another hint of what Wu Bi's time capsule wish is. My guess is that he wished for he, Su Yu and Doudou to always be together. Normally it's Wu Bi who is always saying he doesn't want to be separated from Su Yu, but this time, it's Su Yu telling Wu Bi not to leave him, pulling on Wu Bi's heartstrings. 🥹

Why does Wu Bi have a picture of his and Su Yu's epic bike ride framed? Did his mother draw that? Did he get the idea from her? Wu Bi, I have so many questions...

Su Yu wrote a wish card for Wu Bi too. 🥹 I am not ok. 😭

One last shout out to the shipper girl. She knows. 🤭 I'm glad they didn't write her as a crazy person, inserting herself into Wu Bi and Su Yu's relationship and doing a bunch of weird stuff to get them together.

Arghhhh the foreshadowing! When Su Yu said that, my heart filled with dread even though I already knew what was coming. No. They're going to ride their bike together forever ok. 😭

Wu Bi is so completely smitten with Su Yu. It's all heart eyes, all the time. They are so cute. Was this the reward Su Yu was talking about? I thought it would be something 🔞, but taking Wu Bi on a date might motivate him even more. I mean what kind of equestrian center has prince charming equestrian outfits? 🤭 I think they look great, but this totally looks like a date (Doudou is just there to make it look less gay).

Wait a minute... that's not what the director demonstrated! I wanted to see that peck on the lips! Please tell me they shot two versions and we'll see the uncut version later. 🙏

Psycho alert! 🚨 Mo Yi was hella creepy here. I was a bit scared he would actually hurt Su Yu. You can feel all the resentment he has for Su Yu. First his ex-gf wanted to be with Su Yu rather than him. Second, Wu Bi has chosen Su Yu over him and is acting like a little bitch towards him. Not defending him, but I honestly don't think Mo Yi would have felt such hatred and resentment if Wu Bi hadn't started being really rude and bratty towards him after falling in love with Su Yu.

The ultimate sacrifice. 😭 Wu Bi knew there was no way to stop the car safely so he chose to protect Su Yu by crashing the car on the driver's side. Even though I knew the accident was going to happen, it still hurt so much. Wu Bi will always protect Su Yu no matter what. I read some comments scolding Su Yu for sleeping even though he knew something was wrong with the car. My interpretation is that Su Yu wasn't sleeping, he was worried too, but he trusted Wu Bi completely, and Wu Bi told him to rest because he can handle it, so he did. The level of trust and confidence you need to have in your partner for that is just...

I didn't notice this the first time watching because I was too busy wailing, but Wu Bi hugged Su Yu to protect him. FUCK. 😭😭😭😭 For all the unreasonable jealousy and temper tantrums, Wu Bi really is the best boy.

This is so painful, I can't screencap bloody Wu Bi anymore. It killed me that Wu Bi woke up for a second to stare into Su Yu's eyes when Doudou called to complete their OT3, only to fall into a comma again.

Argh this ending! Is Wu Bi alive or dead? I didn't notice that the doctor nods a little when speaking to Su Yu the first time around. Doctors usually only nod when the operation was successful, so I guess Wu Bi is alive but what about the empty house? Only Wu Bi's stuff is still there, meaning that everyone left him? How is this not a BE? 😭

Of course this makes sense as a set up for a season 2 but I feel like they still could have given us a conclusion. Something like Wu Bi lives, but Su Yu left because he knew Mo Yi was crazy and he wanted to protect Wu Bi. Then the new season would be about how the boys find their way back to each other. It wasn't necessary to leave viewers hanging and heartbroken. 😢 And with 24 episodes of 30+ minutes runtime, I felt the team had enough time to tell a complete story. It shouldn't matter that book 1 of the novel ended like the series because the drama should stand on its own outside of the novel. Besides, wouldn't it have been safer just to film the whole thing at once to avoid the risk of not being allowed to film part 2?

There's a lot of doubt that S2 will actually happen, but someone asked Mo Yi's actor if there will be a 2nd season and he said that there should be. I'm not going to get my hopes up too much before there is official news that everyone is shooting again to spare myself any disappointment, but of course I am hoping for a second season. In the meantime, I hope cjd will release the uncut version of the series that she teased about before. I really do love this series so much even though I was disappointed with the ending. I'll have to treat SWM like MODC and skip the end. SWM only has 22 episodes. Yup. 🤡

[beanghostprincess]

ok idk if ur still doing the ship thing and ik i already asked you about some but thoughts on acesan?

you can ask me anything, whenever you want. never getting tired of giving my opinion and knowing people kind of care about what i have to say! and besides, i've been thinking about this ship a lot so i appreciate it <3

I LOVE THEM!!!!!!!!!! ace was sanji's bi awakening. i just know. it's so real. i'm so glad we all as a fandom agree on this. their scenes together are so gay for literally no reason??? like seriously, what was the point of their dynamic being so homoerotic. ace lighting up sanji's cigarette??? at this point just kiss him and get over with this oh my god, ace... he's not subtle.

okay but it's not only the homoeroticism of it all. it's also the fact that their pasts are so well synced. they match so well!!

sanji's brothers have always treated him horribly. he went through so much physical and emotional trauma because of them that the thought of siblings having a good relationship is completely weird for him. he doesn't have good memories of his brothers, but he knows how they should have treated him. the way they acted isn't how someone that should love you acts. those are not his brothers. so the concept of a brother loving him is completely foreign to him.

and then he meets ace.

ace, who looks after luffy constantly. ace, who's worried about how his brother is doing. ace, who's polite and kind and a genuinely good person. ace, who's obviously luffy's brother because he is also a menace to society. ace, who would do anything for luffy. ace, whose priority will always be luffy.

and, you know, that's weird for sanji. a brother who cares. who loves. who fights for his little brother. who wants to be with him. who loves him. who has missed him during the years they've been apart. and it makes sanji wonder why his brothers weren't like this, if it isn't that hard, really, to love him. maybe it's just his own fault.

and it's such a great dynamic to explore! because, for sanji, luffy is just so lucky to have ace. and ace is literally the peak of kindness. sanji lacks brotherly love, ace is literally made to be luffy's brother, and for sanji that's literally so, so beautiful...

it helps, too, that ace is extremely hot (cliché pun extremely intended).

it's not only the whole "ace being a good brother" thing, though. it's also their pasts. feeling worthless and undeserving of love. of living. they both feel out of place and often pretend to be what they're not. they can't love themselves and are always appreciating the fact that they have people who love them. it's such a good ship because it explores both of them learning to love and to be loved!

i like the ship for these things, but also because it's so, so funny.... ace is so chaotic and he tries to be all teasing and cool and hot. and he's just a failguy sometimes. because he's a fucking idiot. and sanji finds that endearing. also, sanji being all done with him because he is, indeed, an idiot, is the funniest thing ever. and sanji is the most bottomest of the bottoms, so of course he likes ace.

idk i really like their dynamic and it's wayyyy deeper and more interesting than what people make it look!!

[emilymaxximoff]

Deserve Better; Enid X Fem!Reader

CW: Some angst, Struggling with your sexuality, Fluff

Description: After Ron and Enid break up, you let Enid know that she has better options than him.

A/N: Confession time (sorry this note is gonna be long), I've been siting on this one for a hot sec. The absolute bi panic I feel between Carl and Enid is absurd. There's not a ton of Enid fics that I could find so I took it upon myself to write one of my own. This is definitely inspired by Boyfriend by Dove Cameron because, gay. I have been super excited bout this one. I definitely want to write more about her too. I mean just look at the GIF. Also the panic of do I want to be her or be with her is so real with her. Once agin disclaimer, everyone is at least 18. I am 19 and anything else creeps me out. The actors themselves are more than old enough now so like just please. It would mean so much to me if y'all reposted but don't feel like you have to. Love you!

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"Hey Y/N!" You heard someone yell behind you. You turned around and immediately smiled. It was Enid. You felt butterflies in your stomach as she lightly jogged towards you with a wicker laundry basket. She had a beautiful glow about her and her hair gently fell around her face.

"Hey Enid." you said as you gave her a cheesy grin. God she was beautiful. You had had a crush on her for years but you would never admit it. It was the apocalypse but people were still people and you were worried about if people would judge you. You also had no idea if Enid liked girls and she had just broken up with Ron so it seem a worse time as any to suddenly admit your feelings. Thankfully the break up didn't seem to bother her much. The only person who knew about your crush was Carl. That fucker knew everything about you. He knew before you did. He could read you like a comic book.

"So, I've been thinking and I think we need to have a girls night tonight. I've got shit to talk about." she said as she smiled back at you.

"Oh dear."

"Oh yes. Meet you at my house around sunset?"

You bit your lip and gave her a joking half grin. "Yeah, yeah. I'll see you then. I have guard duty tomorrow night though so we have to get some sleep tonight." you laughed.

"Great!" she squealed. "I'll see you later."

Your heart was beating out of your chest. You had sleepovers often but every time you still got butterflies. You always had to suppress the urge to lean over and kiss her and tell her how you felt but that never happened and you told yourself it never would. She made you so happy and she had no idea how much she meant to you and how much you loved those nights where it was just you two. She didn't know how much you wanted to hold her hand and hold her as you fell asleep. She had no idea how weak your knees felt as she let you wear her shirt and you breathed in the smell.

You started off towards the Grimes house to talk to Carl. He understood and you needed the support right now. You didn't even need to have the words for him to understand. You walked in the door and casually greeted Rick before climbing up the stairs and going into Carl's room.

"Hey shithead." you said throwing off your shoes and flopping down on his bed next to him.

"Well hello to you too." he laughed. "What's up?"

"I don't know my heart is just about to come out my ribcage and kill me but besides that I'm doing just peachy." you replied as dramatically as you could, sighing and putting the back of your hand on your forehead.

"Enid again?" he laughed at your dramatics, raising his eyebrow.

"Wow how'd you guess?" you rolled your eyes. "We're having a girls night again and you know how I feel during those. She's just so perfect god damn it."

"You should just tell her already. It's driving you insane and she broke up with Ron so it's a great time."

"YoU SHoUlD JuSt telL hEr." you mocked. "Yeah that will work out fucking great. I don't even know if she likes girls. I don't want to ruin our friendship."

"Jesus ok. You don't gotta be a bitch about it. I was just saying I hate to see you dancing around it like a pussy." he grinned at you.

You grabbed a pillow and threw it at him. You laughed as he put his hands up and laughed back. "Fuck you."

"Hey don't shoot he messenger just cause he's right."

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You took a breath as you knocked on the door of the Rhee house. Maggie opened the door and smiled at you. "Hey Y/N she's in her room. Let me know if you want snacks or anything. I don't have anything to do tonight." she said motioning you inside.

"Thanks Maggie. I'm good for now thanks." you said as you quickly rushed up the stairs towards Enid's room. You knocked lightly on the door and smiled waiting for the go ahead to come in.

"Come in." You saw her slime as you open then door and come in. "Y/N omg. Come here. I've got just so much shit to say."

You giggled and sat next to her on the soft bed. "Ok spill." you said crossing your legs and turning to look at her.

Oh did she have lots to say. She talked about her runs and her guard duties. She told you about the walkers she killed and how Maggie was nagging her about learning more combat. She ranted about Lydia and how annoying she was. You listened to every word she had to say, putting in input where appropriate. Everything was perfect. Just you two talking and sharing experiences. That was until Ron came up.

"Ron is trying to get back together with me again." you rolled your eyes. "Hey I know we just broke up but still. It's like how much else is there in the world at this point."

"I mean there is a lot more. I'm just saying you can do so much better. You deserve better. Ron is probably one of the worst options right now. He's mean to you a lot of the time." you replied, nervously playing with your hands.

"Yeah ok sure. Who then? Carl? Fuck no." she laughed sarcastically.

"No. As his friend I can tell you no. I'm saying there are other options." you paused. "Better options."

"Ok fine then tell me. What other person could I be with that's better?"

"A lot of people. Ron is awful." you said, trying so hard not to blurt out yourself.

"Ok but like who? We are some of the last people alive on this shithole." she said eying you. She could tell you had something on your mind.

You took a deep breath. You were frustrated and in the heat of the moment somehow you had courage. "I mean like me."

"What?" Enid stared at you wide eyed.

"Fuck. Just forget it. I'm sorry I didn't mean to." you sighed tears filling your eyes. You had been so mad at her naivety and you could stand it do you had blurted out your feelings. You felt as if you just wanted to melt away. Had you ruined your friendship? Was she mad? You couldn't look up at her. You were mortified.

"Hold up no. We need to talk about it. What did you mean?" Enid said reaching out to touch your shoulder. As she did you moved back, rejecting her touch and the tears you were holding back fell down your cheeks as you lifted your head to look at her emphatic face.

"NO! Fuck please stop. I didn't mean- I never meant to- just please lets move on or I'll just leave." You said shakily. You were trying to keep your composure but it was fading quickly.

"No. Y/N, I want to talk about this. I don't want to upset you but when someone you have known forever tells you that you could be good for them..... You want to know what they mean, ya know" Enid said as nicely as possible. You tried to read her face but it was impossible to in your distraught state.

"Fine. Do you honestly want the truth?" Enid nodded her head. "Honestly I've had feelings for you for a long time but you were with Ron and there are so many other factors like I don't know if you even like girls. I don't want you to hate me or think I'm creeping on you cause we sleep in the same bed all the time. It's not like that. I like you for more. Don't get me wrong I definitely wan to have sex but like it's more than that. I like your smile and personality and just everything you do. I mean again like I try not to let anyone know that I like girls so Carl is literally the only one who knows about my crush on you and also like I don't know if you like me or just girls cause you've never said anything. So I've been suppressing these feelings and I wasn't gonna say shit until... ya know... now."

You took a breath and looked at Enid for any validation. She smiled back at you in return. Your tears started to dry. "So what you're trying say is I should ditch men?" she smirked.

"I'm saying that I could be a better boyfriend than Ron ever could be." you said, leaning closer to her.

"Maybe I don't want a boyfriend anymore. Maybe I'm in the mood for a girlfriend now." Enid leaned close to you too, closing more space so you could feel her breath on your lips. You felt butterflies in your stomach and you couldn't contain the huge cheesy grin.

"Well I can be a better girlfriend than Ron too." Enid closed the gap, connecting your lips. she grabbed your face and pulled you even closer. You felt so happy and even through you were kissing her you just wanted to be closer, to become one being. You grabbed her hips and pulled the rest of her close to you. Even though it pained you, you separated once you were out of breath.

"As much as I want to keep going, I told you, I'm gonna be a better partner than you have ever had before. That means doing this the right way. Let me take you out on a date, a real one." you smiled.

Enid groaned and smiled. "I'm ok with rushing in."

"I know but still. I want this to last. I'm gonna do it by the book."

"Ok, I understand. Can we at least hold each other tonight?"

"Anything for you beautiful."

As you snuggled into Enid, you felt at peace for the first time in a long time. To know the girl you loved, loved you back. To know that at least one person could love you for who you were. For now, that's all that mattered.

[carcharsaur]

(sticking to your rearview window) 3, 15, 34 for both caranar and kozu please...

3. Does their Echo function like it does in the MSQ? Or is there a twist to it? 

kozu doesn't have the echo at all! he's a RELATIVELY normal guy... not being able to help the 'real' wol fight did bother him more and more as time went on so endwalker finally letting him participate was gratifying for him (guy who has a guilt complex about inaction. smiles) for caranar, he gets flashes of the future similar to mikoto from ivalice/bozja quests and... it's a big thing for him, from the moment he got it he and the people around him labeled it as a curse and portent of doom. it was the start of a lot of bad shit happening to him genuinely. it haunted him for the longest time, and before meeting minfillia he refused to even speak about it or admit it was a thing anymore out of fear of it. after meeting her and other echo-bearers it was a huge weight lifted from him, but it took him a long time to begin to accept and come to terms with it. even when it was framed as a loving blessing from hydaelyn he still fell ill at ease about it. the things he sees always happen without fail, but they lack a lot of context that the canon in-game echo scenes have so the devil is in the details etc. but even still very rarely does it not fill him with dread to get one. meeting mikoto really helped him cope too though I imagine they are besties based on JUST that cause he is not scholarly but they can firmly shake hands about this.

ok good lordt I'm gonna readmore the rest

15. Is your WoL promiscuous? Celibate? Or just waiting for the right person? 

caranar hypothetically has no problem sleeping around, but in the context of like ARR-late HW he is way too insecure and scared (both of being hurt and hurting someone. bodily) to be vulnerable with people like that really. so he flirts then pulls back before he has to really show his underbelly etc you'd have to chase him and get his trust. hard sell. in my main canon for caranar by the time uuuh 4.1 rolls around he has a wife but in my multitudinous AUs SB would be the prime caranar slut era (especially when he's riding the high of the nadaam arc), shb too but in a more unhealthy "we might die tomorrow so fuck it" way. post endwalker though he'd be very well adjusted and free to indulge. the thing with him though is that if he catches real feelings for someone he'd pursue that singlemindedly and get overprotective of it. and fall deep fast. so partially waiting for right person but not going to hold himself back either I suppose? kozu... well he's a whore and I love him for that. (in my perfect world where transphobia isn't a thing to worry about on etheirys). as soon as he got remotely settled in dalmasca he just had a full hedonist era. caranar was his roommate and was sick of his shit but didn't care enough at the time to intervene. the events at the end of their time there though lead to kozu withdrawing a lot and focusing on himself rather than relationships, by the time we get to ARR though he'd just have regular flings. dropping anything as soon as he got scared of the expectation, inclination, echo, of any real emotional intimacy and commitment. genuinely kind of a big problem with him until fucking shadowbringers where in the face of "we might die here for real" and being away from the source he pulled some skeletons out of his closet and faced them for real. still a bit flighty but he's trying. also he's polyam and if a partner wanted exclusivity it'd be over right away, but he's very clear about that before getting real with anyone. oh btw caranar is bi/pan and kozu is very very gay

34. Would you say your WoL is fundamentally a good person? Or are they a bad person that's been persuaded to do the right things? 

well I think if you directly asked them, caranar would legitimately think he's a bad person despite his every effort to try and do good. and kozu would just say they're trying to be a good person out of their own selfish desire, undermining how good they could truly be. I think they're both fundamentally good people though, especially caranar... he's just been abused and used enough that he blames himself for it rather than those who inflicted it on him. (other than the empire. and ishgardian inquisitors. he wants to tear through them. his righteous rage is focused more of injust structures of power and ppl that willfully enforce them vs. individual people) he really just wants to do right by common people though. kozu is a bit more complicated, but not enough for me to say he was ever "bad" just he genuinely didn't understand the weight of his own actions when killing people as a warder in golmore and felt more and more personally sickened by himself the more of the world he saw, and thinks he can never make up for a hundred years of that no matter how many lives he saves now.

[an-otterly-adorable-being]

"Hey, Max, right?"

"Yeah. Do you need something, Elliott?"

"I wanted to talk with you real quick. About..."

"...My sister?"

"...Yeah."

"What'd she do this time?"

"Well, you know we got into a big fight, and I'm not sure how to talk to her now."

"That's fair. She's always been over dramatic. I've seen her break up with guys for less, but since you're cute and funny, she probably just needs a day."

"Did you just... call me cute?"

"Well, you know, objectively...?"

"Max, I don't want to be too intrusive, but are you, y'know..."

"Yeah, I'm gay. Please, don't tell my family."

"Don't worry, I won't. If I'm being honest, I'm actually bi."

"Oh thank God, this would've been so awkward if you were straight."

"Oh absolutely...but, you said I was cute?"

"Well yeah, have you looked in a mirror? Cutest boy around if you ask me."

"Heh, that feels kind of good. Mary doesn't really say that kind of thing."

"She never does. Listen, I really, really like you, so I'll give you some advice. Run as far as you can from her. She'll ruin you, I know because I live with her. I've been given a front seat to her tearing apart every boy she doesn't think is "perfect" enough for her. Trust me, you should get out while you can."

"What about you?"

"Hm?"

"Who'll take care of you? I've seen how she treats you Max, so what about you?"

"I'll be fine. We got, what, another year before college? Soon as I get the chance, I'm leaving on a scholarship and never looking back."

"Max..."

"I'll be fine, I have to be fine. Besides, it's not like you're going to sweep me into your arms and run away with me."

"Y'know, that doesn't sound too bad."

"Huh?"

"I, I don't know, okay? I mean, maybe it's because you're so nice, but I think I feel some little butterflies when I'm around you. And besides, Mary isn't the best to be with."

"I- You can't just leave her for me! I mean how would we even work?"

"I don't know, but I want to try atleast."

"...Ok, how about this. There's a spot on the mountain I go to when I need to get away from my family. We can go there tomorrow and, I don't know, have a little date?"

"Yeah, we can even make it a little picnic, say we're just trying to become friends."

"Yeah, that sounds good."

"I...I really want to kiss you right now, but, like, I don't know if you're okay with that."

"I absolutely am. I love me some good ol' physical affection."

"So, I can kiss you?"

"...Get over here you big dork."

(Yo, another snippet, except this time it's just dialogue between the bunny boy (Max) and racoon boy(Elliott). I'm not great at formatting dialogue, so critique and advice would be much appreciated. Hope you enjoyed!)

[stranger-awakening]

ok if you dont wanna answer but but how did you figure out you’re ace and not ‘just’ repressing being gay or whatever else? I don’t think i understand what attractions supposed to be but looking at stuff like the lesbian masterdoc is really confusing and making me second guess everything i thought :/

Oh, thank you for being so respectful about this, but don't worry this is totally okay to ask !!! First, I want to say that I haven't read the lesbian masterdoc but you can absolutely be a lesbian and asexual if that's how you feel. Those things aren't mutually exclusive.

As for the more personal stuff, I actually realised I was ace a few years before I realised I was also bi, so I don't know how helpful this will be, but I'll put my journey under a read more in case it is !!!

So, I had my big asexual realisation when I was 17, I think entirely thanks to seeing the definition and posts by other aces on this site. I hadn't heard the word before that, but I read "lack of sexual attraction" and thought "hey that might be me."

I've always been a hopeless romantic who wanted a relationship one day, and I had a lot of crushes growing up, so it wasn't really until I was a teenager that I realised there was something different about me. Because that's when people started really talking about sex, and I was always so uncomfortable around sex talk. Like, I have a vivid memory of one of my friends in high school asking why I was so uncomfortable when they all brought it up, but that was before I had an answer.

At the time it was very much like, sure I like boys and I would like to date one but also I would rather die than sleep with one. Which (to my knowledge) isn't something people who aren't ace feel. I actually used to tell people I was waiting for marriage just to avoid being asked about it. Not for religious reasons, but because marriage was the latest (somewhat) socially acceptable time you can put that shit off. I kind of knew anyway that even if I really loved the person that wouldn't be on the table. I just couldn't picture or think about it without feeling kind of sick. Sex just wasn't for me or wasn't something I wanted. Which was super isolating because I didn't know anyone else like me until I found other ace people on this site and learned that was sex-repulsion and that a lot of ace people (but not all) feel that way.

So, that's kind of how I figured it out. I guess my asexuality is kind of textbook in the sense that I don't feel any sexual attraction and I'm sex-repulsed, so those are super defined puzzle pieces that were (somewhat) easy to link together. It was kind of confirmed for me too when I got into my first relationship and none of that changed. I loved my girlfriend at the time, but I didn't want to have sex with her. At all. I just never looked at her and wanted her that way.

That said, I honestly might not be the best person to talk to when it comes to liking girls if you want like clear cut answers because realising that was ... messy. For me, liking girls was always tied up in 'do I want to be like her/look like her or do I want to be with her.' It really took me until I was like, uh, 19 or 20 I think before I realised it was the latter, and I still second guess myself all the time.

But, in terms of not knowing what attraction feels like, I've heard a lot of ace people say that they've felt that way too. Here's an article that has some details about the different types of attraction which might be worth skimming through.

Hopefully some of this helped a little !! It's okay to be confused. Every person has their own way of finding out or discovering who they are in as many steps as it takes.

You can also absolutely send follow up questions if I didn't cover something and/or you want some more specific answers, I don't mind 💜

[faeshifter]

hhhh so many pretty women Survivors... so many STRONG women Survivors... and the ones with mystical/magical powers?! AAAAAAAAAAA

[transmasc-wizard]

Here's my writblr intro

you know, the one i've been saying 'i'll get to' for like 2 weeks

Hey, I'm Nico, and my pronouns are he/they! I'm a queer teen writer, and i'm (sort of) a writblr now!

(To be clear: i'm still absolutely gonna post other stuff. However, i'll now tag that stuff "not writblr"--that way if anyone wants to follow solely for writblr content, they can.)

I write epic fantasy, urban fantasy, supernatural fantasy (i like fantasy ok), thrillers, queer fiction, and YA.

the FAQ:

"hey nico what's nanowrimo?"it's a writing challenge where you write 50k words, here's the website, have fun

"hey nico will you do tag games?" fuck yeah tag me, also do not worry like "hey maybe i've tagged him too much lately", i LOVE tag games.

"hey nico can i tag you in something random/a meme/a cat picture/a social justice post?" yep, go nuts

"hey nico can i know your exact age" no (this. has been asked)

"hey nico how can you be a bi aroace" like this!

"hey nico do you give writing advice" yeah, and I have a masterpost here that I update... mostly-frequently

"hey nico can i be on your taglist for {blank}" absolutely, i'll always say yes, you can just say "add me to {blank} pls" and i will

My WIPs (more extensive WIP intros themselves will happen later):

WIP: Gay Fairytale Series (GFS). books: 5. I talk about: 1 (Gay fairytale WIP 1), 2 (GFW2), the series as a whole. Genre: epic fantasy.

WIP's OCs: Angelique, Rowan, Cor, Ollie, Tasya, Vanya, Bea, Hope.

General synopsis: GFS is a queer fairytale retelling (cinderella mainly, and some others later on) about a group of teens destined to destroy the world and how they spite the government as much as possible while trying not to succumb to their fates. (I know it doesn't sound like cinderella but it is i promise--)

Taglist: @the-gay-lady-of-ravenclaw-tower, @timelybees, @stormharbors, @citywillow, @strawberrie-faerie, @void-fireworks, @pigeontnt, @phoenixistrans, @dauntlessshadowice1, ask to be +/-

Status: drafted (books 1/2), second drafting (GFW1), plotting (book 3), generally planning (books 4/5).

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WIP: Nano Thriller 2021 (NT21). books: 1. Genre: supernatural thriller.

WIP's OCs: Lissa, Ace, Raf, Winston, Thalia, Jade.

General synopsis: a group of prodigies are the first students to go to a new prestigious academy. But when murder hits the halls, they realize it's haunted by both monsters and a serial killer and they must figure out who's behind it, or be the next victims.

Taglist: @the-gay-lady-of-ravenclaw-tower, @stormharbors, @googolplexicon, @bluewritesbadly, @judylunsford, @void-fireworks, @citywillow, @strawberrie-faerie, @dauntlessshadowice1, ask to be +/-

status: first drafting

wip intro | comic sans powerpoint | wip page

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WIP: Valarie Saintly is Totally Normal

OCs: Val, Mack, Leah, James, Spacey, Franklin

General synopsis: Val saved the world! now she's trying to live life even though people keep trying to get her help again. She's welcomed into a group of slightly criminal weirdos and shenanigans ensue as she learns self-care and other mushy stuff.

Taglist: uhhhh @goldentangerines i think. please correct me if im wrong. also @dauntlessshadowice1, @inked-fables, @master-of-fluff and @void-fireworks. ask to be +/-

status: plotting, will be drafting in January 2022.

the comic sans powerpoint which is also the wip intro

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WIP: Golden Heists

OCs: they don't have names yet but they kill people and they're gay

General synopsis: a bunch of criminals break out of prison then work together to steal from monarchs and get revenge on those who've wronged them. Almost everyone dies, or worse!

Taglist: @writeblrfantasy, @stormharbors, @citywillow, @master-of-fluff, @dauntlessshadowice1, ask to be +/-

status: plotting, will be drafting at some point in 2022.

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If you'd like to be added to a taglist, please specify the WIP or if you'd like to be added to all in general!

Also it'd be great if this was reblogged (no pressure), i'd love to find more writblrs to follow! (especially if you write similar stuff!)

[r0zyp0zy0zy]

✾❃S.H+D.K- A Bisexual Mess✶

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Master list

Warnings: Smut, threesome, spit roasting, suggested poly relationship

Words: 3407

Pairing(s): Kaminari Denki x Sero Hanta x FEM!reader

Summary: Being attracted to your friend is weird, and your boyfriend having a crush on him too is even weirder. 

Ok so I might’ve gotten carried away and prepared a basket instead... oops. Enjoy!

Part two

===NSFW UNDER THE CUT===

Sero Hanta always bragged about you to his friends, which wasn't a secret by any means. Well, not a secret to anybody except you. What can he say? You're perfect to him, and who's he to keep that information to himself? He would spew everything he loved about you and more, infuriating Bakugo and making Kaminari jealous.

You didn't mean to eavesdrop, really! Well, not at first. Buuut... your pretty little boyfriend mentioned your name in his conversation with the Bakusquad, and you couldn't help it. You stood quietly outside of your home office— the only place in the house you allowed Hanta to smoke —and leaned as close to the door as you dared.

"She's just so perfect," you broke into a smile at Sero's words.

"Will you stop bragging about y/n-chan?" Kaminari groaned dramatically from within the room, "I almost can't take it anymore! You know that I like her. Stop making me jealous on purpose because I can't have her!"

Your eyes widened slightly at Kaminari's words. He did? Since when? Well, that was a silly thing to think; Kami has probably had a crush on everyone in high school at one point or another. But the fact that he just admitted it to Hanta was straight-up bold.

"Yeah I know," you heard Sero smirk, "ever since you've heard about her magic mouth you've wanted a piece."

"-wha? Wrong. I've had a crush on her longer than that!" Kaminari argued. You could hear Mina in the back cracking up.

"Will you two shut up?!" Bakugo yelled, rattling the door. "Every fucking time I'm here is all 'y/n this' and 'y/n that' ok we gET IT, THE TWO OF YOU ARE IN LOVE WITH HER!"

You stood in their silence for a moment, trying to process that holy shit, the Mega-Virgin Kaminari has a crush on you, even before you sucked Hanta off for the first time! What was happening?

"K'mon, bro," Kirishima chided, and you heard the slap of his hand land on Bakugo's back. "Chill out, take another hit. Y/n-san might pop in if she hears too much noise."

"Whatever, 'tch," Bakugo huffed, "kinda wanna go home anyway, you nerds don't have anything interesting to talk about."

You quietly hurried away to your shared bedroom at the sound of footsteps, pretending that you hadn't just heard Hanta openly talk about your 'magic mouth', and Kaminari's confession. You could still feel the flustered blush on your cheeks as Kirishima and Bakugo walked down the hall to the front door, the latter grumbling about "those damn nerds".

"Wait, guys," Mina called to them, "I don't want to be stuck with those love-sick idiots!"

After Kiri offered to buy the pink girl an Uber home and the front door was shut, all you could hear was the muffled conversation a room over. You snuck back to the office door, and pressed your ear against it.

"-s-stop!" You heard Kaminari stutter.

"Never! It's so fun to make you flustered over my girl," you playfully shook your head at Hanta's words. Typical Sero move.

It was silent for a few minutes, broken soon after with a, "dude! What the hell?" From Hanta.

"I- it's- it's your fault!" Kaminari retorted, apparently spinning around in the squeaky office chair.

"You-," Sero burst out laughing, "you got hard just from me talking about her! Bet it was the part I told you when y/n and I were at that one restaurant-."

"S-shut up!" Kaminari squeaked.

Your face flushed considerably pinker. Right here, right now, were two boys that were sexually attracted to you on the other side of the door. You felt your stomach flip and twist in excitement at the new feeling.

"It's kinda cute that you're so into her," you heard Hanta tease. "You're always a blushing mess, and just stuttering over your words."

"Damn S-sero," Denki said grouchily, "stop making fun of me."

You couldn't help but press your ear completely against the door, the two boys inside were too high to notice the shadow under the door anyway. Was Hanta... Flirting?

"I'm not making fun of you," Sero paused. "I'm just calling you cute."

You drowned out the rest of their conversation with your thoughts, trying to connect dots together. Hanta was a little suspicious at times from what you could see over his shoulder. Suspicious of what, exactly? Being gay, or at least bisexual. You saw him close tabs of soft-core gay porn occasionally, and you even accidentally stumbled upon Sero's old diary from years back. You didn't worry too much about it, but now... was he suppressing his feelings? Was he about to cheat on you?

Your heart dropped at that thought. Hanta was a nice guy and he wouldn't do that to you, right? He wouldn't lie about loving you. Not after what you heard earlier. Or was that just to fluster Kaminari? You shook your head in an attempt to clear your mind, and tuned back in on the two boys.

"-AH—! Wait!" You heard Sero panic, "I didn't- I shouldn't've-!"

".. shouldn't have kissed me?" Denki squeaked quietly so you had to strain to hear.

What on Earth did you miss while you were spaced out?

"Well- I was just thinking about h-how cute you are, and I forgot that I can't kiss someone who isn't my partner!" Hanta stressed, "god why do I have to love both of you..."

Your eyebrows raised at that, and listened in a little harder. Did you hear that right? Sero had a crush on Kaminari?

Honestly you couldn't blame him when the blond was so undeniably attractive, especially with the smudged black eyeliner on the corners of his eyes and the lightning bolt streak in his hair. You wouldn't lie that you liked him a bit too, but you suppressed those feelings for Hanta.

"I- I can go if you want," Kaminari mumbled, voice cracking slightly.

"Er- if you want. I don't mind chilling with you a bit longer. Just— don't tell y/n what happened. I- I'll tell her later when I figure out what to say," Hanta said.

"You sure she won't get mad at you?" Said a concerned Denki. "I know how much you love her, and I don't want you two to break it off.."

"Weeelll," Sero dragged on nervously, "y/n is very understanding, a-and I also need to tell her a few other things anyway."

You headed towards the living room, hearing all you needed to. You honestly didn't exactly know what to think about what just happened. Hanta kissed Denki, who likes you, and you that likes Hanta who also likes Denki. What even.

You sat comfortably on the couch, watching the last of the sun meander under the horizon. You nervously tapped on your phone after playing games on it for about an hour, waiting for Kaminari to leave so you could talk with Hanta. You finally heard the office door open, and you turned your head. Sero shuffled towards you with a sleeping Denki in his arms. The blonde's mouth was wide open and snoring lightly, drool going halfway down his chin.

"Uh," Hanta said awkwardly, "help."

You giggled and jumped up from your to help your boyfriend position Kaminari on the couch, who immediately latched onto a pillow mumbling incoherently.

"Whatta dude," you stated, fists on your hips.

"Yeah..." Hanta scratched the back of his neck. "Uh, I have to talk to you about something. It's pretty serious so we can wait until later if you want."

"Nah," you shook your head, "you've seemed off lately, and I'm guessing you just need it off your chest."

"Well, if you don't mind," Hanta plopped down on the love seat. You kneeled over to lean your head on his knee as he sucked in a shaky breath. "I- Um. I- I think I'm Bi."

You nodded your head understandingly, taking his hand in yours. "Ok, baby. Thank you for telling me."

"—there is o-one more thing I-I have to confess," Sero shook, "just please don't hit or yell at me."

"I would never, baby. I'm here for you," you looked up at him encouragingly, giving him a smile.

"O-ok. Uh, I kinda, well... I kinda kissed Kami. O-on the lips," Hanta's eyes looked away from yours, floating to the floor.

"Do you regret it?" You asked, keeping a calm exterior.

"Uh- I dunno. I do because I'm with you.. but... I- I think I don't," Sero looked incredibly guilty, and he squeezed your hand, "I love you, b-but I also have a crush on him..."

"That's ok," you reassured, reaching up to turn his head back to you, "I don't mind if you want to be in a relationship with him too, separately or not."

Hanta looked incredibly surprised, and a smile split his face, "really?!"

"Yes really," you giggled, kissing his cheek. "I can share you."

Sero, being the genius he was, suggested introducing Denki into the relationship with a threesome. Totally not skipping a few steps or anything.

"Are you sure he'd be willing to do that?" You had asked. "He's a virgin to basically everything."

"Oh, he'd be willing alright," Hanta smirked. "I'll message him about it then?"

"Mhm," you nodded, "it'll be fun. We'll get to tease him."

Denki was freaking out. Actually, he was more than freaking out. He was freaking out and jerking off. Multitasking. He could not believe his eyes when he opened Sero's text message, four glorious words: 'wanna have a threesome?'

Of course, Denki had asked if his friend had been joking or not before opening up his mind to fantasies. He got off rather quickly, though who could blame him. He swore that his libido was abnormally high, because even the thought of you, (and Sero as well), would get him flustered and he would pop a boner.

The next day when he came over, his teeth brushed and pubes trimmed, he stood outside your apartment door for at least a minute before knocking. His mind would keep circling the same thoughts: 'Sero just wants you to embarrass yourself in front of her', 'he told y/n about your crush and now they want to laugh at you', 'holy fuck is this actually happening', and 'I hope Sero actually doesn't mind sharing'.

"Sup, man," Hanta grinned as he opened the door for his blushing crush, a far too casual greeting for the situation about to unfold.

"H-hey," Kaminari grinned back, shuffling inside and slipping off his shoes.

"Y/n's just making up a snack so we can chat before uh, y'know," Hanta held back his blush, already nervous because damn, did Denki put on eyeliner or something? He looked hotter than usual.

"Take a seat in the living room, I'm almost done!" You called from the kitchen as you poured one last cup of tea. You carried the tray of tea and homemade cookies to the coffee table, and sat yourself down on the love seat. You couldn't lie— you were nervous as shit at the moment. You looked up as Hanta led a very flustered and anxious Kaminari behind him, and you gave a comforting wave.

"H-hi," Kaminari squeaked, sitting himself on the couch in front of you. He rubbed the sweat off his hands on his pants, trying to avoid your gaze.

"Hey!" You greeted kindly with a smile.

"Alright so now what," Hanta stated, plopping himself beside Denki only looking slightly nervous.

"We discuss boundaries!" You said cheerfully. You reached over for your cup and took a sip. "Any hard no's?"

"Kaminari's not fucking you," Hanta crossed his arms. "Not yet, I want it to be more special than this..."

Denki choked on his drink, sputtering on his tea.

"Kami, any hard no's?" you steered. 

"U-uh not right now," the electric blond stuttered, eyeing Sero nervously.

"Ok great!" You exclaimed, clapping your hands together, "the safe word Hanta and I use is 'soy sauce'."

"That's two-."

"Yeah same difference," you waved Kaminari off. "Anyway, my hard no's are just don't hit me, don't degrade me, and don't choke me out."

The two boys nodded anxiously.

"Holy fuck," Denki muttered as he watched Sero kiss your lips, palming his dick through his jeans. He admired your half undressed state as he feverishly threw off his T-shirt.

Without looking, Hanta held out his hand in a 'come hither' motion, and Kaminari steered over to his friend. Sero pulled away from you for a moment, guiding Denki's shaky hands to your bare waist. Once the two of you continued kissing, Kaminari hugged your waist closer and kissed the side of your neck. Your encouraging moans excited him, and he kissed your skin harder.

Denki's hips couldn't help but rut against your backside, drawing out a soft groan from him. He peered his head up to Sero, who turned to give him a gentle kiss, and Kaminari could feel your saliva on his lips. You turned to face the blonde, leaning forwards to propose a kiss. Denki filled the gap quickly, and met your lips with his. It was a messy kiss, but neither you nor Kami cared. You heard Hanta grumble in your ear, nipping at the cartilage carefully.

Honestly, Denki thought he was being spoiled rotten. You were so soft in his arms, and he swore he could stay like this forever. Sero's nimble fingers snuck to the back of your bra and quickly unclasped it, making Denki suck in a jittery breath.

"Hmmh," you sighed as Hanta cupped your breasts gently, waiting for Denki to desperately ask for a turn.

"You can touch her, Denks," Sero chuckled, leaning over and kissing his friend again.

Denki mumbled into the kiss, and shakily moved to grasp your tits from behind. His cock couldn't help but twitch in his pants as he massaged your nipples softly, his lips still locked with Hanta's. Kami pulled back with a gasp, strings of saliva still attaching them.

"Oh so good," Denki whined as he humped your ass, breathing heavily into your ear.

"Mmm, Denki~ take your pants off for us, won't you?" You licked your lips and watched as Kaminari hobbled out of his skinny jeans.

He looked at you with wide eyes as you sat on your bed, with Sero following suit. Denki moaned when the two of you started making out again, and nervously edged closer to the bed. You smiled at him encouragingly and reached out a hand to play with the elastic of his boxers. A whimper left his throat as you trailed a finger up his clothed shaft, and he eyed Hanta guilty.

"It's ok!" The smiling man replied, helping you get into a better position. "Let loose a little, dude."

Denki wasn't sure he could do that since you were slowly pulling down the hem of his underwear, his cock springing up to slap his stomach before standing straight out. He slipped down his boxers and kicked them away, having full attention on you and your beautiful e/c eyes.

Hanta was massaging your ass cheeks as Denki experienced your mouth for the first time, and he pulled down your panties, (which were soaked, by the way). You moaned against Kami's cock as Sero rubbed the inside of your thighs with his warm hands, causing Denki to let out a lewd groan. His eyes kept switching from you, to Sero, and back to you again.

"So wet for me, y/n," Hanta mumbled, "if I knew you were into this stuff I would've invited Kami over earlier."

You hummed in response, too busy indulging yourself with Denki's dick. You enjoyed making him squirm in his stance, licking over the glans of his cock and the underside of his shaft. You swore you could see his eyes start to water up.

Kaminari was wide eyed as he watched Hanta strip out of his briefs and give himself a few pumps. Denki's mouth opened in a silent moan when Sero lined up to your entrance and slowly inched inside, letting out a low groan when he bottomed out. You hummed diligently on the cock you were sucking and grabbed Denki's hand to put on your head, letting him grasp your hair like reins.

The electric blond babbled quietly as he watched Hanta pump into you, forcing Denki's cock further down your throat. The way your mouth contracted around him made Denki's legs shake, and he got red in the face trying to keep his hands from urging your head deeper.

"You look like you're having a good time, Denks," Sero commented as he admired the blonde's teary eyes. His hips rolled forwards in a new rhythm and you griped pleasantly as you fisted the sheets under you.

"Fuuuck yeah," Kaminari grumbled, catching up with his friend's rhythm. He was over the moon, and was just trying not to cum prematurely so he could enjoy this moment longer.

"Don't be afraid to fuck her face," Hanta said smugly, repositioning his hands on your hips. "She loves choking on cock, ain't that right beautiful?"

You wept in agreement, looking up at Denki with soft, pleading eyes. You bobbed your head faster in his loose grasp, gagging and sputtering on spit and precum. The man above you groaned with satisfaction and fisted your hair and forced his dick deeper into your tight throat. His thrusts came in a perfect rhythm with Sero's, and whenever you moved, you were getting impaled from either end.

Your limbs shook as you struggled to breathe with the cock in your mouth, and your pussy clenched around Hanta desperately. You felt tears stream down your cheeks as you sobbed for breath, enjoying every moment. You nearly squealed as Sero pressed a vibrator against your clit, and your vision fuzzed a bright white.

"Gonna cum, baby?" Hanta egged on, panting for oxygen. "C'mere Den, kiss me."

You whined loudly as you heard the two men kissing above you, and your stomach tightened and rolled around pleasantly. You gurgled on Denki's cock as you came, pussy pulsing with need and delight.

"Fuck, fuck, fuck," Kaminari moaned in tune with his thrusts, so close to the edge that you could practically taste his cum already.

"Oh shit, y/n. You're so— tigHT," Hanta groaned as he rutted against you one more time before you felt his warm cum fill your insides.

Right on cue, Denki hit his peak right after Sero, moaning about how good your mouth felt and how hot you were, "god, Hanta, she looks so fucking good like this."

Denki let out a choked whine as he finally let his orgasm take over his body, and he held your head in place as his semen ran down your throat. You choked it down before Kami pulled away, and you opened your mouth to reveal strings of saliva and cum.

"Holy fucking shit," Denki said, exasperated, "I feel like I'm not gonna go soft for a week."

"You alright, my love?" Hanta said softly as he let you fall onto your chest, ass still up.

"Hell yeah," you mumbled, your voice scratchy and sore from being face-fucked. You watched Kami stand awkwardly as Sero wiped you down with a warm cloth, taking care between your thighs.

"Denki, go get some water please," Hanta instructed as he rolled you over. "You did so good, baby. The best."

You hummed softly in response, already feeling your eyes flutter sleepily. Kaminari held out a straw to you, and you sucked down the cool substance thankfully.

"That was the best blowjob ever," Denki sighed happily, watching Hanta scoop out the cum from your cunt.

"It was your only blowjob, Kami," you mumbled teasingly, a soft smirk on your face.

You felt yourself drift into a calm state, and you could only hear the muffled voices of your boyfriend, and... your other boyfriend? You fell into a comforting, dreamless sleep, and you knew that Denki would make a great addition to your relationship.

[venteamocha]

Hello! Sometimes I see you post stuff from IF blogs and I've recently started playing some IF games, which I've enjoyed so far. Do you have any IF stories you'd recommend in particular? I'm not attached to any particular genre and I don't need romance or a self-insert main character, (though I'm not opposed to either). Though, it's a definite plus if it's LGBTQ+ inclusive! I'm not really sure what the "cornerstones" are of IF so I'll take any and all recommendations haha

Oh god, I play so many IFs. So many. And it’s not even close to all of them, but I’m trying!!

Tbh IFs without romance seems to be very rare, I think because when I think IF I think Choice of Games, and those pretty much always have romance in them. At least, the most well known ones do. But a well done one without romance would be nice too!

Okay, this is a list of my favourites! They’re all LGBT+ inclusive, and most have gender selectable love interests, or at least ones that change gender depending on the gender and sexuality combination you pick. In no particular order, of course.  Behind a cut because I’m gonna give them each a mini review. Because I haven’t done that yet.

(There are so many.)

Mind Blind: I absolutely love our big brother Nick, I love how witty and sharp so much of the dialogue is, I love how the MC clearly has a rather large handicap, but is still such an important person to so many people and not looked down on in the slightest. And when they are, we all know it’s because that person is a jerk! They’re not defined by what they aren’t, but what they are, and that’s a great message.

Shepherds of Haven: Part of why I love this one so much is I just love fantasy settings and this one just pulls it off so well. The cast is full of amazing characters, and I gotta say I die inside pretty regularly for not being able to afford the patreon content, lol. The author puts so much amazing stuff on there, and gives us so much great content in the game and through answers on tumblr, and you can tell this whole thing is just the best thing ever to them, and that makes it the best ever for us readers too!

The Wayhaven Chronicles: I’d be shot if I didn’t mention this one, the series that literally killed dashingdon when the book 3 demo dropped!! Again, another author that cares a lot and does their best to do right by their fans. We’ve been given drip after drip of these amazing characters backstories, and I just cannot wait for more! It’s definitely very romance centered, but the overall plotlines are also very good, and I have to say that no matter who I romance, I just feel like the group as a whole is a family. And that’s wonderful.

Speaker: I really like the lore. I really like the lore. I can’t wait until we get more of the overall plotline. Mostly I want my Speaker to get in deep trouble so Seb, Li and Seer (best sister ever) go off and beat the shit out of whatever is causing it. This probably says something about me, but what can I say, I thrive on angst and inflicting near death injuries on my OCs. Sometimes I even kill them, although all of this is offtopic. Or is it? I guess we’ll find out, although I doubt we’ll actually be able to kill off Speaker. And yes, I am definitely playing the Seb & Li poly route. I love them both so much. 

Wilhelmina: I love vampires, ok? Ok? And this one is based off Dracula!! The OG!! And you can choose Drac’s gender!! Shit, sign me up forever!! Yeah, she might be literally killing my bff, torturing my fiancé and low key fucking with my mind, but vampires are hot!! Let me live! Or not. But yeah, this is a really well done retelling of the Dracula novel and I like how well it works as an IF. Did I mention I like vampires?? Especially when they get all monstery?? (This one has an MC with a set gender, as it’s based on an already existing literary figure. Mina can have a same sex relationship with dracula, if you make drac a female, or with Lucy, a female love interest.)

More Things in Heaven and Earth: Hi Nell!! First off, I gotta uncover a deep shame of mine. My family literally has a Shakespeare heirloom collection. As in, my greatgrandfather passed down through the family a collection of Shakespeare that was published in 1911. In ye olde englishe. I tried to read it when I was like 10 and was like what language is this?? What the fuck? What the fuck??? And ended up reading As You Like It, a bit of Romeo and Juliet, and a little of Hamlet. Didn’t touch the rest of it. I only got into the other stories through trashy ya reimaginings. That said, this retelling of Hamlet inspired me to go read the whole of the original and now I have a lot of fears for these characters that I’m so much more attached to, oh god I hope my Ophelia has a happy ending. I hope Hamlet himself has a happy ending. The dialogue is so well done, everyone is engaging, and yeah it made me finish an old af book when nothing else did. (This one also has an MC with a set gender, female, for the same reason. However, there are two gender variable love interests, so you can very much play a bi or gay Ophelia if you so choose.)

Guenevere: I love King Arthur. All the myths. I have so many books based on the King Arthur mythos, oh dear god. I love pretty much every version of it. All the movie and tv shows too! I just can’t get enough of those knights. I could go on for paragraphs about how courtly love worked and how all the different social castes were, but I’ll try not to. This series lets you customize Guen as a character to an amazing degree, considering that she’s also based on an actual literary figure like the other two I mentioned above. It really feels like she becomes your own character, and yet she still exists within this world very very well. I worry quite a bit that the author might have bit off more than they can chew with the current book they’re working on, what I’ve seen of it looks absolutely massive in scale. What is out so far is a wonderful read though, full of drama and laughter and lots of chances to make the story your own.

Bastard of Camelot: Yep! Another King Arthur series! Sue me! This one lets you set Mordred’s gender though, so it’s more inclusive in that way. It is very interesting to play as one of the “bad guys” of the King Arthur mythos. You can play them as straight up evil, as good, or you know, a bit of column a and a bit of column b. Or they can just be a rude little shit. It’s got dragons too! You get a dragon pet! Dragons are cool. It can be a bit tough to play sometimes, since a lot of people dislike Mordred quite a lot because of prejudices. Hopefully this will change a bit later in the series if you’ve been a fairly good person up to that point. Gotta say though, as a warning, that Mordred is a product of incest. It’s not glossed over, and it does cause a lot of problems for them in the story.

God of the Red Mountain: I just love that this inspired me to read more chinese mythology tbh. There is just so much here! And it’s just such a good read. I wish I was better at describing things. The MC being a spirit that you can define, the whole setting, most of the love interests also being spirits, the massive amount of history and culture and lore, how it all fits together. It is such a well done story. I really wish it got more attention than it does. I still miss Big Sister. I still can’t wait to find out more about the foxes, and how we can heal our MC.

The Nameless: Another one that lets you play as something otherworldly. I love the lore behind this one, and I love all of the cast I’ve met. I kind of like that our MC isn’t loved right off the bat, that we’ll have to win over all of our love interests and even the other npcs. I’m up for the challenge! Everything I’ve read on the tumblr for these characters just makes me love them all more tbh. I love how much they’ve written for all of them! Most of all though, I love Oisein. All the art of them is just *chef kiss* and their personality is magical.

A Mage Reborn: This is a really recent one but!! Wow, it’s really well done! That cliffhanger!! Oof!! Not many books literally start with killing your MC off! That takes guts! I told the author this already, but I love the way they formatted this, the way it starts with the end, so to speak, and then fills it all out. It just made everything feel so poignant, how MC is literally looking back at all these moments in time in the last minutes they have before they die. Shit. That’s powerful. And there’s gonna be more??? Can’t wait for that angst. Give me that drama. Of course I picked the one who had me killed, that’s just how I am!

These are all just the COG type games, there are a few twine games with graphics I’d throw on here, but the list is long enough as it is and they feel like they’re in a different category to me. Maybe it’s just me?

[bookwrm130]

Turns out when you're a writer who has a lot of thoughts and feelings, you write. Who knew!

I've had a few hours sitting with Spooner's coming out and I want to get these thoughts out before I go to bed. Apologies for the rambling thoughts and potential grammatical errors ahead. (Don't worry, though, most of it will be under the cut if you want to scroll on past.)

Spooner coming out is huge. But the reason I've been constantly thinking about it has little to do with the fact that she came out as ace. I applaud the representation and I love that there's another canonical ace character that we all can point to. But to me, that's not why this is such a huge thing.

I've been watching Legends of Tomorrow since I found out Sara Lance was going to be in it, but I became an ardent fan once I watched the finale of season 3. Needless to say, I've been following this show for years. I've rewatched it many times. Whenever I'm bored, I tend to rewatch either Here I Go Again or Legends of To-Meow-Meow. Other than Mythbusters, Legends is my comfort TV show.

This is to say I know a lot about this show. I love how unapologetically weird they are, especially for someone whose Twitter bio is "Normal is boring." But as we all know, nothing is perfect. There are a lot of faults in this show, and one of them is how rarely they ever actually talk about sexuality.

Sure, Sara and Ava are in a long, committed relationship, John had deep, albeit somewhat brief relationships with both men and women, Charlie flirts with basically anyone that moves and breaths, and somehow everyone has very fruity vibes, whether that's Zari, Nate, Ray, Mick, etc. But I can only remember a handful of times the words lesbian, gay, bisexual, pansexual, etc. has ever been said. It's always "I'm not the husband type" or "settle down with a nice boy or girl" or the line John said to Spooner in season 6 about how people hate him for liking both men and women. (I haven't rewatched that season and I can't be bothered to hunt down the exact phrasing.)

I know that we know that they know that Ava is a lesbian. But she's never said it. (I'm pretty sure.) We only had to infer that from the previous husband comment, any exes she ever mentioned were always women, and she knows the lesbian stereotypes. But she never actually said, in the show, that she's not into men or that she identify as a lesbian. I know she was created and cast as a lesbian but if we only ever take the show as the source, we can't definitively say so.

To be frank, it's such a small fault. I know plenty of people, including myself, who doesn't like going around labeling their sexuality. I have no problem saying I'm non-binary or genderqueer, but I always hem and haw and end up saying a full on sentence and a half whenever anyone ask me about my sexuality. And it is nice to have queer people just be without it ever being their main thing.

But then a few months ago I decided to watch season 2 of Batwoman. If Legends is unapologetically queer, Batwoman is loud and proud. There was a scene where Sophie called herself a lesbian who had married a man, to which Ryan replied with "I thought you were bi." And suddenly I realized what I was missing.

When I was in Singapore, I immersed myself in the queer community. Most of my friends there identified as one or more letter in LGBTQIA+. And you know what we queer people do when we're around queer people? We say queer words! We call each other lesbians and gays. We joke about straight people. We wonder if the hets are ok. We poke fun at how much of a stereotype we are.

After watching Batwoman, the Legends' "silence" became really loud. For a group where at least half of them are queer, they sure never talk about queer things unless it's directly about their romantic relationships.

So imagine my surprise when they actually said and succinctly explained what ace, or asexual, is. They even got the part that even though asexuals aren't interested in sex, some of them still want deep, romantic relationships. And that's really cool!

But now the real test. Based on the Legends' writers' tweet, Spooner's less-than-five-minutes coming out was important enough to put into their no-context spoiler. That means, hopefully, that it's not just a throwaway thing, that it's going to be a plot. It's not just a one-and-done thing. That we get more unapologetically loud, queer Legends.

[ordinaryschmuck]

What I Thought About "Eda's Requiem" from The Owl House

Salutations, random people on the internet who certainly won’t read this! I am an Ordinary Schmuck. I write stories and reviews and draw comics and cartoons.

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...HOW IS SEASON TWO SO GOOD?! WE'VE HAD SEVEN EPISODES SO FAR, AND EACH ONE OF THEM WAS A HIT!

Take "Eda's Requiem," for example. It's yet another episode where I have NOTHING bad to say about it! That's two weeks in a row where that happened! HOW DOES THIS HAPPEN?!

HOW!

HOW!

...But anyways, "Eda's Requiem." It's another fantastic episode, and I'm about to dive into explaining how and why. Just keep in mind, it's gonna require spoilers to do so, so be wary of that as you keep reading.

Now, let's review, shall we?

WHAT I LIKED

Eda’s Checklist and Grom Photo: Within the first second, "Eda's Requiem" perfectly sets up Eda's central conflict in the episode. Despite spending years being on her own and looking after herself, she now has two kids that she's constantly caring over. Eda can try all she wants to say that she doesn't care, and I bet she has in the past. But given the hard work she's putting into getting King and Luz what they need and having a grom photo of the three of them together pinned in her mirror, it's pretty clear that those two knuckleheads wormed their way into her heart and are never getting out.

Eda’s Worried About King and Luz Leaving: And thus, that's precisely why something like this bothers her so much. Eda inadvertently adopted two rambunctious rapscallions (Yeah, I know. I'll get to it), so the idea of them not being around her anymore is going to be terrifying. That is a situation most parents, especially mothers, can identify with. It’s called empty nest syndrome and it proves just how much Eda loves Luz and King that she can't stand the thought of her babies leaving the nest. It's yet another well-made, wholesome, found-family moment that this series continues to excel at each week, making me extra excited for more like it to come...while also readying myself for heartbreak when one of them eventually does leave Eda.

Eda and Raine’s Music: Ok, I don't know the exact instruments that were played during this episode, but I also don't care because it was all (for lack of a better term) music to my ears. Every time Eda and Raine played resulted in melodies that are so beautiful and filled with so much emotion and feeling that I'm honestly tempted to listen to them again, multiple times, on repeat. Shows rarely do that for me, as background music doesn't always draw me in as much as lyrical songs do. Usually, it takes something so extraordinarily composed to give me the desire to listen again, and that's the case here. So huge congrats to Brad Breek for doing so. Seriously, the man's been killing it this season.

Eda’s Bard Magic Causing Things to Turn to Ash: This was assuredly a surprise side-effect of the curse. The fact that Eda can sort of do magic at all was its own shock. To then reveal that a specific type can do dangerous things to people and environments is...Well, it definitely brings up its own fair share of questions. Like, how can she do this? Will she do it again, one day? And are there other types of spells that can be negatively affected by Eda's curse? We don't get answers for any of these questions, and odds are, we never will. But that's alright with me. Because if a show makes me consider these many possibilities after a brief amount of time, it is a show that has to be doing something right. Even if I don't get the answers I want, the fact that it caused such a reaction makes me less willing to care.

Raine Whispers: Hey, would you look at that. Another fun, interesting, and compelling character added to the list of this shows' other fun, interesting, and compelling characters...how is this series so good at this!?

Joking aside, Raine's pretty good. I like Raine. They could have been this super serious leader who lost all their fun after years apart from Eda, but I'm glad that they're not. There are moments when Raine takes their job as leader of the BATs seriously, as one would, but I still prefer the fact that they kept a jovial nature despite how grim their situation is. It's an admirable trait to have, and it avoids the trope of making leader characters boring just because they're the ones who have to take things seriously.

Oh, and also, Raine's Disney's first non-binary character who has a stake in the plot. This is a tremendous deal, as you don't usually see that many non-binary characters in children's animation, let alone ones that hold importance to the story. So it's pretty cool for the writers to feature Raine, as it helps several kids feel as though they're finally seen and respected. And the fact that Disney of all companies gave the thumbs up is even more impressive. I hear people say that Dana Terrace should have pitched The Owl House to more progressive networks to avoid pushback, and while I absolutely see your point, I'll have to respectfully disagree. Disney is the largest entertainment industry of all time, so if you want to make LGBTQA+ representation normalized, you gotta stop making splashes and start making waves. Because if the same company that made three racist cats in the span of a few years manages to say that being gay is a-ok, then you know there's something wrong with you. Yes, Disney ended up screwing over the show anyway. But for that one moment, when kids felt pride after seeing a character like Raine, then, in the end, it's kind of worth it.

Also, if you're still having issues with more representation like this popping up in kids' shows, then allow me to redirect you to the complaint department.

...I made that post earlier today for this bit. YOU HAVE BETTER APPRECIATED IT!

Day of Unity is meant to be a Secret: At least, that's what I got when Raine stumbled over their own words. So if it's true, then I wonder why? Why does Belos want to keep the most critical change in the Boiling Isles a secret? Does he want to make it a surprise for his grateful subjects, or does he not want to spread worry and fear amongst the wild witches? It has to be something big if he doesn't want his followers to even say the words "Day of Unity." Whatever reason he has, we most likely won't know until the future. A future that I grow more and more afraid of each week.

Hooty Eating Echo Mouse: My heart sank in that brief moment when I thought that Hooty intensely screwed Luz over in getting back home. But looking back...it is pretty funny.

Just the suddenness of Hooty eating the poor creature that Luz desperately tried to earn its trust is priceless in how shocking it was. And also, Luz's expression.

That was the look of a young girl who immediately shoved her hand down an owl demon's throat the second the scene cut away. The Owl House may not always be a hit in the comedy department, but scenes like this prove that when it's funny, it is hilarious.

Luz and King Entering the Grand Prix: Not much to discuss here. It's just a cute subplot that adds frivolity to the intensity of what's going on through Eda and Raine's story. But I will say that I love how both stories occasionally interconnect with each other through the many moments of Eda being worried about King wanting to leave to find his father and avoiding any conversation about it. It helps both plotlines feel like they belong together, without being something like "Through the Looking Glass Ruins," whereas both stories could have been in their own episode. Which is neat.

How Bard Magic Works: I really love how this season is diving into how the other magic types work. More specifically, the ones that seem a little vague. I mean, stuff like healing, potions, and plants are easy to figure out, but what does it mean when a witch's talents are construction, beast keeping, and bard magic? We've been getting a lot of clearing up lately, with bard magic looking like a witch can control their environments and enemies through the power of music. Which is fair. Music is pretty powerful in the metaphorical sense, and I actually love that it's powerful in the literal sense when in the Boiling Isles.

The BATs: Not much to comment on these three either. The BATs have the potential to have an entertaining dynamic, but they do very little in this episode that I can't say much other than I hope they make a return in the future. But I will make this claim: Amber is my favorite. I'm sorry, but her screaming "You're not our mom!" to then go, "Bye, mommy Eda" is just too precious for me not to love.

I'm a simple man who falls for cute s**t. Leave me alone.

Raeda (RainexEda): Well, EdaxCamila, you were a fun crack ship while it lasted, but I'm afraid that this is now goodbye. The current canon has provided an incredibly adorable and believable relationship that I would be a monster not to support with my whole bi-heart. It's been real.

Ok, back in serious mode: I love these two together. Eda and Raine are grown-ups, and they still act all flustered near each other as if they were still Luz and Amity's age. It's definitive proof that you're never too old to get flustered near a crush, and seeing them interact adds a sense of wholesomeness when seeing them together as well as heartbreak when they're forced apart. Plus, we get confirmation that Eda's LGBTQA+! Whether she's bi, pan, or whatever, now that we know Eda can catch feelings for someone like Raine, it's yet another case that The Owl House is the most important series to the community. Because having the main character be queer is fantastic in its own right. But having the same apply to the motherly mentor figure? That's is an extra bit of normalization that anybody would be willing to appreciate.

Unique Guard Designs: Not many fans are going to appreciate this, primarily compared to everything else this episode does perfectly. For me, I actually like that you see a few Coven Guards looking differently from the others, as it helps make them less like clones and makes it seem like anybody of any body type could be a part of the coven.

Gus Looking Uninterested when Presenting Grand Prix with his Dad: I am positive that you didn't notice this (I didn't even notice it until someone else pointed it out), but there's something to dissect here. It hints that perhaps Gus isn't as interested in his father's field of work as one might think. If he did, he would look a lot less bored and much more excited to be helping Perry Porter present the race. It could just be the race itself, but judging from Gus' expression, it really seems like the kid would prefer to be anywhere but there. And why would he have that reaction to a race that his best friend is competing in? To me, this seems like an inkling of what Gus' relationship with Perry could be, which may not actually get time to shine, what with how little wiggle room the series has now (Thanks Disney). Regardless, it is interesting to notice, and it will certainly have fans thinking for a while.

Bump Being Smug of Luz Being in the Lead: That's it. Principal Bump looking smug as his human student is beating the students of his rivals is yet another moment that proves why Bump is easily the best cartoon principal.

Darius: First of all, this guy is f**king fabulous, and I love him. *Snaps*

Second, he is definitive proof that you do NOT want to f**k around with Coven Leaders. Lilith may have had her intimidating moments, but none of them compare to the guy who can turn himself into an abomination monster where only magic that hasn't existed before can take him down. It's genuinely scary to see Darius lose control, and I fear for the day when Luz inevitably ends up in his crosshairs.

With that said, Darius' still a ton of fun! He may be threatening, but he's just a flamboyant guy that hates the idea of getting his outfit the tiniest bit dirty. And I love that. I love that these Coven Heads have actual personalities instead of being generically evil. I consider it preferable to make villains entertaining rather than blatantly scary as I'll remember the personalities first and the villainous acts last.

Eberwolf: But this one's my favorite. I told you: I'm a simple man who gets easily swayed by cute s**t. And Eber? I mean, just look at her:

She's just a cute widdle rascal! I just want to pinch her cheeks, give her a belly rub, and--

...Eberwolf is not a cute widdle rascal. She is a strong, independent woman, and I will respect her as such from this moment forward...lest I feel her wrath.

That is all. Let's move on.

Eda and Raine Attempting a Final Performance: This was the best scene of the episode. It looked gorgeous, it shows the dedication Eda and Raine have for stopping Belos, and it says so much through so little. Go back and look at how Eda and Raine regard one another when performing Eda's requiem. Through their expressions and a few short words, you know they understand that if they complete the song/spell, they probably won't make it in the end. And yet, they don't care. They both know bad stuff will happen if Belos wins, so Eda and Raine put everything to the side, both their feelings for one another and the people they leave behind if it means putting an end to a tyrant. That level of dedication...Words can't fully describe how powerful that is.

Raine Sacrificing Themselves Instead: But in the end, Raine can't do it. Not when they know the life that Eda has and the people she'll be leaving behind. It's an extra bit of nobleness to the character seeing that Raine refuses to take away a woman from two kids who need her the most. A tad bit selfish, sure, knowing what Belos has planned. But when it comes to love, the romantic, familial, or platonic, the best decisions aren't always the logical ones.

Eda Crying: Luz crying tears me up, but seeing Eda cry is a whole different level of heartbreak. Like Lilith, Eda has her emotions locked up tight, with the closest she came to weeping were those two tears in "Young Blood, Old Souls." In "Eda's Requiem," she cries but almost quickly stops herself. As if she knows that doing so isn't going to save Raine. That is...even worse than seeing Luz break down after losing Eda. The fact that Eda refuses to give herself time to mourn losing someone she loved is tragic because crying is the most natural way of showing grief. Turning that off isn't healthy, and seeing her do it with little resistance is sad to me. It's sad to see a character I love can easily shut off all emotions despite how badly she may want to embrace them. It's one of those moments that, again, by doing so little, it shows so much.

“No one watches Crystal Balls anymore. It’s all about streaming.”: Oof. Even I felt that burn towards cable.

King’s Message: King's message was the pick-me-up I needed after the heart-wrenching sadness this episode put me through a few minutes ago. Seeing King say who he is and listing all the things he loves is nothing short of adorable. On top of that, I adore that Eda willingly recorded the whole thing. She may not want King to leave, but that doesn't mean she'll sabotage the one thing he wants. Especially not after Raine gave up everything so Eda could be with her kids. The opening scene may prove how much Eda cares about a rascal like King, but this heartwarmingly sweet moment reveals just how far she'll go to make him happy.

King’s Dad Reveal: ...ok, I'll be honest, I did not think we'd get that reveal this soon. Dumb of me to say, considering the number of times I've said that these writers don't waste time getting to the s**t, I know. But still, it's pretty cool knowing that King's dad is alive and well, added with the fact that we've got a fair idea of what he looks like. At this point, it's only a matter of time before we see him figure out where the Clawthorne residence is and witness the tear-jerking moments that will follow.

King Changing his Name to King Clawthorne: Not the official adoption I was expecting Eda to make...but DANG IT, is it still diabetes-inducing levels of sweetness!

Personally, I feel like the main reason why Eda breaks down this time is not only because she shouldn't be worried about King leaving her life, but also because Raine's sacrifice wasn't in vain. Her kids really do need Eda because no matter how far apart they'll be, she will always be a part of their life...dang it, I'm going to cry too!

What those Coven patches really do: Well...that was horrifying to see.

...Writers, if you kill off the best non-binary character in animation (it's a short list, I know), we are going to have PROBLEMS!

IN CONCLUSION

"Eda's Requiem" is--surprise surprise--another A+. The emotions hit hard, the representation hits harder, Raine is a fantastic addition to the cast, and it was all surprisingly cute at times. Season Two is currently on a hot streak, constantly winning with every episode that's come out so far. When a bad episode does eventually show up (IT'S GONNA HAPPEN!), I'll be sure to sing my requiem then. For now, I'm just gonna enjoy the ride.

[dolokhoded]

TWO!!! THINGS !!!!! maybe three ill see as i go

1. im currently reading war and peace and i am Enjoing it and i love your blog you seem like a cool person with whom id enjoy being friends

2. for the chARACTER GAME if you're still doing that could you please do either andrej because i despise him (affectionate) or denisov because i love him ??

i hope you have the most beautiful day keep on being Cool and Amazing

also last thing as an aroace i LOVE your headcanons and i want to say that andrej is aroace as well methinks

farewELLLLL

1) that is so sweet of u ty you also seem real cool !!!!!!

(also aroace andrei methinks yes.........)

2) I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS ONE I HAVE SO MUCH IN MY HEAD ABOUT THEM LETS FUCKING GOOOOO ok let's do BOTH also this prob has 534967569 typos because i didn't spellcheck it because im lazy

andrei

Sexuality Headcanon: oh i never thought of it actually? i mean i ship him with women and men so def not straight lol. bi? bi. bi. on the aro spectrum definitely but not strictly aromantic.

Gender Headcanon: idk probably like,,, man. he seems like man. cis or trans idc he is man.

A ship I have with said character: andrasha his one redeeming trait (always keeping in mind i have mentally aged most women in the book by five years and aged down most men by five years) and then andrierre,,,,,, g ar b a g e. i love them.

A BROTP I have with said character: i guess i can say pierre although they were very clearly gay,,,, his relationship with marya is something i'd like to see more i like sibling dynamics and i got really hyped whenever they had like a Sibling Moment.

A NOTP I have with said character: andrei/lise i suppose, he just treated her like shit and she deserved better

A random headcanon: very touch starved. extremely so. will not initiate any physical contact himself because y'know he is Strong and Manly and thinks we're all stupid and worthless but if you touch his hair he will literally be at your mercy.

General Opinion over said character: bastard man fuckin IDIOT literally did not deserve a single good thing that happened to him. but also he's just like me fr. also i like to talk about this, but andrei was DEFINITELY a character written to die. from the moment he appeared in the story i was like yeah this bitch is dying. i genuinely think that he wouldn't be as good (and good i mean like well structured) of a character if he had lived. and then i also have a LOT to say about how SHIT his death was written but,,, anyways !

denisov

Sexuality Headcanon: idk. def likes men. maybe women too? definitely fruity that he never got married. idk i'm not good at,, labelling people as you may have noticed.

Gender Headcanon: NONBINARY VASKA DENISOV HAVE I NOT TALKED ENOUGH ABOUT THIS???? DO I NEED TO TALK ABOUT IT MORE BECAUSE I WILL !!!!!!!!

A ship I have with said character: denisov/nikolai,,,, denisov/nikolai. there is a bit of a power imbalance at the start i'm not gonna lie to you but i feel like it,, kind of evens out throughout the story.

A BROTP I have with said character: once again the denisov/dolokhov/nikolai friendship is a real fun one. denisov as petya's cool mentor was rlly cute as well "where WERE you i've been worried SICK omg petya". he's so funny.

A NOTP I have with said character: denisov/natasha i guess idk

A random headcanon: denisov definitely knows music. i don't know what he plays but he plays something. also a sad one lol, AND BOOK SPOILERS BC YOU MENTIONED YOU'RE CURRENTLY READING THE BOOK AND IDK WHERE YOU ARE EXACTLY THAT'S A PRETTY BIG SPOILER, when petya died he avoided nikolai and the rostovs for so long because he just felt so guilty that he couldn't keep him safe. at some point he found himself in the same place as nikolai and that's when it becamse really clear that he was avoiding him and nikolai was like ayo what the fuck, and they had a nice talk about it, and eventually it all went well.

General Opinion over said character: he is my FAVORITE he is the BEST i love him,,, so so much. such a good little guy.