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imagining my third music video of the week that literally doesnt exist but i can vividly picture it
#i was convinced the brain stew mv was him getting dragged around in a green living room with some huge cartoon laughing clock#it doesnt fucking exist#am i supposed to will it into existence now bc what#ive been taking sleep meds might be related 😭
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i am so incredibly tired of not being able to trust my brain
#like im actually about to have a breakdown over this#i cant trust my memory and i feel like its getting worse#and my job is based heavily on following specific protocols to make sure mistakes arent made#and yet here i am#making mistakes#because i cant remember shit anymore#if its not written down and visible#it doesnt fucking exist#its happening in my personal life and i just#what can i even do about it? like yeah talk to a therapist but ive been essentially ghosted by the place i used to go#i just#between the adhd autism and trauma#my brain just doesnt fucking work
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group therapy
#gravity falls#bill cipher#billford#the book of bill#tbob#m.png#images that make me wish i did prints and merch. tbh.#fanart for a scene that isnt written in a fic that doesnt exist. you know how it is#i just think hes fun#edit: made his eye fucked up. forgot that detail bc i spent like i think 20 fucking hours on this
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trying to fucking START making a project in godot making feel like an idiot
all the documentation i found is for windows so all the pathing in the documentation is different from what im working with.
normally wouldnt be a problem except for the fact that paths are the things i have one of the hardest times understanding or intuiting ever since i was a child and as far as Ive been able to find there isnt any way to like, have godot show me where i need to be or any way to change the path
trying to figure this out feels like one of those stress nightmares where youre trying to type or read something important but all the letters keep changing everytime you look or blink but in real life
#my musings#vent#literally was on the verge of crying just trying to figure of the file manager docker#where the fuck does it want me to put my files??????#ive looked fucking everywhere#it doesnt fucking exist#i now have a headache and almost had a meltdown#i know that i just need to make it over this hurdke and i can actually get started#but im gonna need to wait for my sister to wake up so she can help me understand#shes good at explaining atuff in a way i get#is this part of the disability that ive convinced myself that i dont actually have and that my body and mind are just gaslighting me into#thinking my problems matter and are real and arent just personal failings?
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reflection
#anyways so i think samus has major survivors guilt and is a super perfectionist. The type of girl who reimagines scenarios in her mind#And thinks about how she could have done better. like ‘if i had woken up sooner maybe i could have saved everyone in prime 3’#so i think she says she doesnt know anything about herself because shes so hypercritical of her actions she doesnt see herself as a person#while also her hyper critical-ness shows how she says she wants to ignore herself but she literally cant because she has so many criticisms#oh i wanted to include the ppl from the prime 2 manga in that one shot but was like ‘i dont think ppl will recognize them’.#also lol the existence of dark samus would fuck her up SOOOO bad like it only exists bc she exists & its responsible for the gang’s deaths#okay im done rambling tldr MENTAL ILLNESS.#metroid#samus aran#loneart#metroid dread#metroid prime#super metroid#metroid series#i dont wanna tag all the games. There just those games is enough#hall of fame#gray voice
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"So what's the weirdest possible first (second) impression Loop could make on the party in postcanon?" "Yeah, that, probably."
+ Bonus
theyre just standing there in direct party order while this happens. normal tuesday.
#its not even purely aggression or a powerplay or anything i think they just fucking panicked and had to shut them up somehow#anyway . fluff reunion? angst reunion? how about just weird as fuck reunion. KEEP EM GUESSIN#in stars and time#isat#isat spoilers#in stars and time spoilers#isat fanart#in stars and time fanart#isat siffrin#isat loop#sifloop#hello again sifloop nation i bring you weird fucking takes once again#this sure is a different tone to the last thing i put in the tags huh? KEEP EM GUESSIN BABEYYYY#lucabyteart#in stars and time act 6 spoilers#anyway this is a truncated & amped up version of my headcanon reunion. which is to say loop sits on the edge of camp waiting to be noticed#& after what would be far more rambling than ive put here siffrin almost calls them that and loop stops them + makes it clear thats secret#but loop has had to travel some distance to get to them + has been stewing about it. knows they stopped existing for a while and came back#doesnt know why. blames it on siffrin. might not even have been them or a wish. but they jump to conclusions and have time to get mad#then like TWO SECONDS after they have this weird standoff reunion its RIGHT BACK to being buddy buddy and overly familiar with them.#just ultra confusing for the party. as confusing as humanly possible.
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I drew this to celebrate soon going to secondary school (it has another name in my country that might make more sense). The purple writing is in glitter pen btw, you just can't see it in the photo
#mcr#my chemical romance#my chemical fucking romance#gerard way#smellsimiart#tcfsr#smellsimi#illi mcmillin#im not okay mv#inoverse#if illi mcmillin has one fan im them#if she has zero then even the mere concept of me doesnt exist
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the only person who has ever understood music might be sufjan stevens in 2006
#sufjan stevens#thing#sufjan#at work and theres nothing to do. fuck it send my work email the 2006 sufjan interview#from a magazine that doesnt exist anymore. word documents i have them
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aand done!! This took forever, but it's the first time I've successfully finished one of these templates and it was a lot of fun :]
#wings of fire#wof#wings of fire art#wings of fire fanart#wof fanart#ani's art#peril wof#luna wof#moorhen wof#pearl wof#(im her biggest and perhaps only fan)#(i will write that fic of her Someday)#lynx wof#blaze wof#i was actually planning to do reed for the underrated character initially but like. people still at least Acknowledge he exists#and he's well liked among the ppl who do remember him#whereas i have never seen anyone talk about pearl in depth ever#maybe im just very confined to the wiki community tho idk#anyway !! love how royal seawing family history repeats itself#so of course i designed her to look like anemone#went ham on her design since she doesnt have much of a canon description to go off of#but everyone else's was colorpicked from their official art#Just realized I forgot to color pearl’s earring fuck my stupid baka life
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There is something about Pedros eyes as Joel that has me on the floor, throughout the series there are alot of microexpressions he does but this damn contrast makes my heart ache.
He goes from disbelief to shock to completely shutting down when Sarah dies, there is so much pain in those eyes it makes your heart clench, it's in the way Joel keeps hugging Sarah harder as to transfer his own life into hers by pure will,
Then you have the hospital and you see no light behind those eyes, you can just feel the pure rage and agony. Him walking slower and slower and you can just feel his heart drop, and the wires come lose in his head and then there is one mission, save Ellie. His eyes man....
#I am biased cause I love the man#actually I only started knowing him from tlou#so how biased am i#anyways#i love his acting#and he nails it#i sometimes see things#like comments especially on tiktok about the casting of tlou#about both pedro and bella#and it ticks me off#i block them but still#i actually wanna show full on appreciation for both versions#cause i fucking love the game#tlou 1#no tlou 2 that shit doesnt exist for my mental health#joel miller#the last of us#tlou#pedro pascal#joel and ellie#joel and sarah
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fellas is it normal to get reminded of ur wife when u see ur kid's schoolmate
feat. @wreckowafer 's arin \(⌒_⌒)
bonus:
#i finally managed to finish this now my goodness this has been in my wips for weeks#this idea has been in my mind ever since i saw both neily and aimee had lavender hair#i am so sorry but this fucking dilf twink has been making me extremely mentally ill u dont understand. YOU DO NOT. UNDERSTAND.#hes blonde. completely deranged. and has a cute short haircut thingy thats a triple whammy and right up my alley#also the whole dynamic of aimee terrorizing arin by just existing is just so funny 2 me and she doesnt even know whats happening LMFAO#my art
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fallen london stat prioritization is so funny because you're supposed to level all of your stats equally but also the way ambitions and stat specialization is structured means your character will inevitably end up with at least one or two stats that are their Good Ones and also watchful. level your watchful. level your watchful right now. post cancelled this is now a psa. railway content does not become accessible unless you have 200 watchful and this is a hard requirement You Need To Level Watchful
#yin-thoughts#fallen london#new players this isnt about you. pretend this doesnt exist. do not worry about it.#mid and endgame people however: This Is A PSA. From Me To You. Okay? Okay#i heavily advise against playing railway content period until ur done with ur ambition#(particularly in the case of certain HD + BaL endings)#but it is hugeeee. railway is so fucking huge man#you're gonna want it at some point. so. watchful!
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Wrong Twin Bozos 🙄
First ever DC x DP prompt because I've been getting brainrot reading yall prompts and I need a nap :> this is crac–
A classic twin Damian and Danny AU, where Danny ends up with the generic fuckery of having the GIW/Bad Parents!Fentons after him from a bad reveal gone wrong, Vlad outing him, or escaping after getting vivsected and injured badly.
Who Knows? But Danny's GOTTA GO-
Now in some scenarios, we get Danny hitting the deck and going to Gotham, to Batman and Robin aka Damian for help and revealing himself. But some au prompts I've seen of Danny ORIGINS about leaving the League of Assassins is via fake death, help or the pit, etc. Danny left for a reason that got him away with a new life- he's FUCKED if he goes to his bio dad and his twin brother, he tells himself =͟͟͞͞(꒪ᗜ꒪‧̣̥̇).
Going to Gotham aka the BatFam would blow Danny's cover, getting the attention of the League of Assassins after all this time is definitely not on Danny's to-do list. He's got enough on his plate, thank you :']
So instead, while Danny leaves Amity Park with the help of his friends, he doesn't aim for Gotham, he instead goes to hide in other cities such as Star City, Keystone City, or Central City. Honestly, doesn't even have to be a city, he straight up leaves the country if yall feel like it, guy deserves a break dammit. Can't have laws of legal torture affect you when you're in open seas ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Now cue Danny's pursuers scrambling to find the Halfa, a constant chase- that is until they finally get a photo of Danny, scowling with his green eyes, trying to hide his ghostly traits that mustve leaked through when the photo was taken in Gotham.
They begin to get ready.
It's time to capture the creature once and for all.
#Basically: Danny doesnt go to Gotham but the GIW or Bad!Fentons do to capture Damian#Mistaking him for Danny since in various twin prompts Danny is assumed to be a clone at first#cue shenanigans: the GIW or Bad!Fentons trying and failing on catching Damian and immediately getting jumped by the batfam#the batfam jump their asses soon learning they want Damian/Robin is because he looks like the ghost boy theyre after#thus Damian/BatFam learn that not only do ghosts exists but also the antiecto acts but also that their target is Damian's twin#who is ALIVE???#cue batANGST#meanwhile Danny: fucking chilling on a tropical island 😎🧉✌️ he's healing from his trauma dammit he deserves this#Sam Jazz Tucker and Ellie making sandcastles#the batfam: losing their shit looking for Danny's goofy ass AND trying to get rid of the laws before the GIW/Fentons god forbid the LoA#dc x dp#dp x dc#dc x dp crossover#dp x dc prompt#danyal al ghul#twin au#batpham#batman#danny phantom#danny and damian are twins#gurlies mtired af but brainrot REAL 😤👊 first prompt idea hope this is legible lmao so much 😭
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HTTYD 2 is ten years old today, it was my first exposure to the franchise and despite its many glaring flaws i can't help but love it and hold it so close to my heart.
This scene is a great example of why.
I love it so much. It's a heart-wrenchingly beautiful reminder that as good as he is, Hiccup is not some perfect hero. He is still just a person, a flawed human being who has cracked under the pressure of his circumstances and is barely given time to grieve his fathers' death.
(I adore scenes like this — It humanizes characters so much more, and just adds to that layer of perceived realism.)
And you can see the regret on his face as soon as he says it. But in that moment he doesn't do anything about it; he's still processing Stoick's death, and he only snaps out of it when he sees Toothless is under the Bewilderbeast's control again and Valka has to hold him back from attempting to go after him.
What he said and did to Toothless there was a momentary lapse in judgment fueled by grief. And later, as he breaks Toothless out of the Alpha's control, you can see he feels terrible about it. About how, even if it was brief, he pushed away his best friend. And he loves Toothless so much.
The way he talks to him literally breaks me every time I rewatch it.
"It wasn't your fault, you'd never hurt him, you'd never hurt me."
"Please, you... are my best friend, bud. My best friend."
And when Toothless comes back he just looks so elated to see Hiccup.
Though, Something that's even crazier to me is the fact all this takes place over less than a week. Once he gets toothless back and Drago is defeated, he is immediately made chief. And with the state berk is in, he is given presumably no time to properly mourn Stoick, or to fully adjust to the presence of his mother.
(though I feel his and Valka's relationship will never be what it could've been. He knows she chose not to come back, and that is a blow to their newly formed and fragile bond that, as much as they love each other, is not something she can ever fully make up for.)
But at least through everything, since the beginning, the one real constant he's had has been Toothless.
They're friendship was built off a mutual feeling of out-of-placeness, then unconditional trust and unwavering loyalty.
they love each other so much it makes me wanna throw up
#sorry if this is kinda. poorly worded or disjointed#also. toothless found is one of the best tracks in the movie. this is factual#thw doesnt exist. hiccup and toothless continue to adventure & explore together. they die in some kind of mishap but berk is in good hands#theyve done all they need to do and are at peace together (theyre placed next to each other sharing a funeral pyre)#httyd#hiccup and toothless#httyd 2#how to train your dragon#hiccup haddock#toothless#ramble#httyd analysis#the first part is. kind of? idk#its 2am and i have school in hours but httyd2 is on the mind and i am Locked In#also. do NOT tag this as ship please for the love of fuck#moth.txt#deyas dragons
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i think it'd be funny if someone transmigrated as xin mo. the goddamn evil sword. instead of taking it seriously, they just really fucked around with bingge. and, somehow, ended up having the opposite effect of what it's supposedly rumored to do.
picture this: bingge, on the quest for revenge and power, comes across the almighty xin mo. this demonic sword killed everyone that dared to even try wielding it. and, the few who were lucky enough to have it by their side, eventually succumbed to the swords' will.
it is said that the sword is unlike any other, that it etches into your head and eats away your brain, until eventually it consumes you whole. it whispers, speaking in lust, greed, and hatred. it slowly beckons the wielder into giving in to the worst part of themselves and feeds off of pure sin. but to him, it is no matter; luo bingge will surely tame it.
and then he gets to the sword.
demonic qi practically oozes from xin mo. the aura surrounding it makes every part of luo bingge scream, "run; get away, away from that monster." his gut prods at him, begging bingge that this is probably a really bad idea. it's a little terrifying, how even luo bingge, the determined, vengeful demon, is now getting second thoughts about wielding xin mo from just being in its presence alone.
but luo bingge is too, a monster. so he ignores the screams of plea; pushing every thought of doubt in the back of his head, and tightly grips onto the handle. the world around him seems to spin and shake, tumble and crack, from the amount of force bingge needs to use in order to pull the sword of sin out of its place.
when bingge finally has it perfectly fit into the palms of his calloused hands, he hears whispering. he knows that the sword has accepted him as its new host.
the sword's language crawls up to him, as if it were feeling around his body and mind. checking every nook and cranny for it to settle into bingge's form, truly becoming one with the embodiment of sin. the words flow through his brain like a tragically broken guqin, a melody that holds him in a frighteningly familiar trance - all while simultaneously eating away at his brain in the worst ways possible, akin to a child and their favorite snack. it seems to beckon something, but even with luo bingge's impressive hearing, he cannot make out any words from the tone-deaf musical notes xin mo sings.
and then, it is clear. the land around him settles, and everything is still. xin mo itself seems to be.. content. at least, that is what luo bingge believes.
the language of this wretched sword reflects the state around these two monsters.
luo bingge expects it to demand for bloodshed, for the erotic ecstasy of multiple women, for bingge to steal the last of the finest gems of these horrible, vast lands.
instead, he hears this:
"yoooo damn that shit was crazy. did you see what i did there? man, you know, it feels so fucking good to get out of the dirt. hey, do you know if people can like, feed their swords or something? i'm kinda craving something spicy. we never know, in this wack world! wait, don't hold me like that, buddy. it'll make things real awkward."
but luo bingge is determined to get his revenge, so he puts up with the swords' constant rambling about.. whatever the hell it's thinking.
"wait, dude, did you seriously fuck a dying girl? that's wild. yeah, like i know she was dying but it doesn't sound like you wanted it. yo, listen to me, consent is very sexy."
"HAHA hey, dude, sir, man. you wanna play some 'i spy'? we don't have anything else to do. no? too bad, we're playing it. i spy a loser who doesn't wanna play i spy. hint: he's holding me right now."
"okay i know i'm supposed to be this super evil sword and beg to be used - woah that sounded real wrong - but can you at least clean me when you're done killing shit? if you don't, i'm gonna refuse to respond to you and you'll look like a dumbass trying to wield me."
"i can't hear you lalalalalalala you're not being very it girl right now lallalalaalalalla-"
somehow, this is worse than if xin mo was actually eating away at his brain.
weirdly enough though, as luo bingge starts spending more time with this weird ass, seemingly possessed sword, it starts to become more of a.. comfort to have it by his side than pure annoyance. he finds himself responding to it more, like, actually having full on conversations with it. it puts him at ease, wielding xin mo. the hatred doesn't consume him, instead, it seems to soothe the burning rage (and, admittedly, just replace it with small irritation) that holds onto his darkened heart.
xin mo is actually quite kind and caring, for a sword that's supposed represent and be the literal embodiment of sin. sure, it is a hassle to have it cooperate with him sometimes, and it does just ramble on and on about the most random things ever, not giving a single shit if bingge was in the middle of sleeping with maidens and slaying those who get in his way. for the first time, bingge feels so comfortable around something.
it's.. odd. what was supposed to be the turning point in his life, a big step in his plan for revenge, is now something akin to an... acquaintance. not like mobei-jun, or any of the women he's come across, but an actual, dare he say, friend.
sometimes, he finds himself thinking all of this delusional. is this what people were driven mad by? perhaps they simply could not handle dealing with a talking sword. he understands that xin mo was undoubtedly unbearable to be around at the beginning of their alliance, but it has never actually beckoned for blood, power, and sex. if anything, it does the opposite.
maybe he's the delusional one. maybe this is xin mo's way of getting to him.
maybe, xin mo should be considered a thing. the thought feels terribly laughable, as if he were witnessing a person horribly explain themselves. it also makes his teeth grind together in pure agitation.
"hey, you know, you didn't deserve any of the things they did. it wasn't your fault, binghe. the fact that you're half heavenly demon doesn't make you a monster, or any of that wild stuff.. uh, i'm here for you, okay? i know you don't really like talking about all of this or opening up, but i just want you to know that you can.. talk about it. it's not like i can tell anyone else, anyways.
hey- shit i didn't mean to make you cry! wait, wait it's okay to cry! you need to let it out anyways, i promise it doesn't make you weak. there, there. i don't have any hands, so me patting you on the head with my handle will have to do. there, there.. everything will be alright, you'll be okay. i'll be here every step of the way, even if you want to get rid of me."
xin mo, the demonic sword, is more of a person - a good person - than anyone he'd ever come across.
...and then bingge and the xin mo transmigrator become besties or he falls for the damn sword. knowing him, he probably doesn't even know the difference between platonic and romantic attraction anyways. maybe bingge gets a plant body for xin mo using airplane's wack writing. idk i typed all of this down in one sitting.
(plot twist: it's not that the transmigrator xin mo had the opposite effect, it was literally just a placebo effect. luo bingge thought that, and thus it actually did help him lmao)
#PIDW but make xin mo a soul eater fan#why did i actually write all of this#idk it just sounded funny but then i kinda got sad at the end because bingge is such a lonely person its genuinely depressing#at least in here he has his this weird talking demonic sword#someone transmigrates into xin mo and ends up becoming an emotional support and comfort sword#i would say that this could be shen yuan but the xin mo transmigrator couldnt give any less of a fuck about bingges plans#and would also annoy sqq if he had to deal with it#might write this#but i need to finish that time travel bingge x reader enemies to friends to lovers thing#yes you heard me right a bingge x reader let me make him happy ok#bingmei already has sqq bingge needs someone :( and therapy but that doesnt exist here#while i thought of this i imagined like this floating talking sword by bingge#i actually have like a lot of WIPs this is only one of them#for some reason i had this idea after seeing this one instagram reel where gojo was cinderellas fairy godmother and sang IT girl#and that inspired an annoying talking xin mo transmigrator#luo binghe#luo bingge#mxtx svsss#svsss#fanfic stuff#the scum villain's self saving system#svsss ideas
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Do you ever feel the need to




#mizi is the only normal looking one here#sua doesnt know she exists#ivan#ivan...#lets not talk about ivan#AND TILL?#WHAT THE FUCK IS HE ON#MEGAMIND AHH#alnst#alien stage#alnst ivan#alsnt till#alnst sua#alsnt mizi
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