#it legitimately causes me pain

[mmrsmagic]

the way they got Keeley Hawes, a woman goddess with THE most beautiful British accent, to play her character in Orphan Black Echoes with an American valley girl accent is killing me. she’s still so clearly British in her mannerisms and facial expressions for the love of god just let her speak with her flawless British accent.

[insane-weasel]

I think as writers we should hold funerals for our WIPs more often.

Dearly beloved, gather us here today where this fic of some middle-aged man getting rawdogged and this other fanfic about the importance of friendship are laid to rest, because the author got really distracted playing that new video game.

We celebrate what could have been, cut-and-recycle those really good lines or ideas, because I swear I'm going to use them, I swear! And drag this poor document not to the great recycling bin or trash, but to the "graveyard" folder because sometimes I like to commune with the dead.

[femmefaggot]

ok hi haha lol I dont rly feel like going in circles in my head forever trying to figure out whether, among other "smaller" things, being left alone in a room w only media as a child and not feeling like I had even a semblance of a personality for most of my life counts as "trauma"

a lot of these parts of me are new, I'm just recently putting names to them and it feels as though I'm developing facets of personalities in my mid 20s after a lifetime of either feeling like I'm basically just ADHD in a person, an amalgamation of kins shoved into a body, or something made of guilt Also shoved into a body.

I don't like, claim to know what this means. but I don't think a lot of my current mutuals would feel comfortable interacting w me bc I don't necessarily believe in the black and white of what plurality is. I'm not able or planning on getting any formal diagnosis and while I'm discussing this w my therapist they're very much not one to pathologize

I definitely don't feel like one person but I dont think id count for most of you as a "system" as the different parts of me feel as though theyre still developing. take all of this as you will, I'm not going to stress my body out more by trying to figure out "what" I am as I've been doing that my whole life and I'm kinda tired of it.

I know that I'm not entirely one thing and feel Enough like multiple things for myself, but blurred in a lot of ways. like some sort of gem with many different facets.

not sure where to go w this tbh take this how you will. im not comfortable saying I'm leaning one way or the other regarding system discourse, (<- not a phrase i want to use but the best shorthand i have) as I genuinely don't believe the human brain is nearly that black and white.

I'm both "me" and very much not "me" at times. idk what this means but ik I'm not comfortable saying im just pandora and im not sure im "allowed" to say im a system and im not sure if it matters, or should matter, regarding friends. im going to be like this regardless, id unfollow me if this grey area im likely to stay in bothers you

if you don't want me refollowing I'd probably block, too, as my memory is bad

[cantsaythetword]

my entire body feels WIRED i can't stop the urge to MOVE it is TORTURING ME ugh this sucks

[anthromimicry]

sorry, halsey — hopeless fountain kingdom.

[wastedonthesebutterflies]

i am so terrible at taking care of myself

[toonfinatic]

Seriously considering breast augmentation in the future

[no1ryomafan]

I’m very tempted to make a post on twit asking peeps what makes new unappealing compared to arma bc even if I still really like arma and sick of how tarnish it gets in the SRW fandom, I do think new is more cohesive and probably the best written of the 3 ovas-

But whatever unappealing aspect it has that I haven’t recognized-bc even with the “flaws” I pointed out to myself that it has I don’t think their show ruining-must be a universal thing because for some fucking reason it’s been a struggle to finish this god damn show irl with friends and only two people seemed fully invested anyways 💀 This NEVER happened with arma, especially when I actually sat down to watch episodes with someone, and SVN I’ve always finished in one sitting bc it’s so short, so I don’t know why new is plagued with “oh you wanna finish this show? Throw some life inconveniences above you!”

[dreamlogic]

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[grizzlyofthesea]

Not Google gaslighting me by saying that internal ultrasounds aren't painful and only cause "mild discomfort" 😭

[fencesandfrogs]

The cool thing abt having a lot of brain junk is that you learn it’s all connected. Didn’t make a note of this earlier bc I was in the impeding time panic but according to my psychiatrist antidepressants help with migraines. So like. Who knows. My neurotransmitters need to get their shit together. Unionize.

[carrieway]

in other news i bickered with ethan over whether or not im chronically ill . i think i lost .

[goodnightwindy]

mfs when they sit worse than a shrimp all day and then wonder why their back hurts

[mostlyinconvenient]

//tw me venting because my bfrb is being bad again

Hate being nd actually because why did me accidently pinching my lip with a pretzel trigger my bfrb so bad that said lip is now visibly swollen and injured, my jaw and just that entire side of my face hurts from said injury and constant motion, and, worst of all, I can't stop it. I can't even stop to sleep without a fight. It always sucks so much when I get episodes like this and like, I know it's bad for my jaw and my lip long-term but just. I legitimately can't control it and I've tried so many things for so many years it sucks so much

[newsoysauce]

looking back at old texts is not good for my psyche bc it's making me remember how funny and cool i was in 2022

[terrorbirb]

I'm too inarticulate to make posts about how in BG3 playing an evil character, that is extremely morally reprehensible, is enjoyable in a gothic horror kind of way.

In video game form I think it's especially effective because you can see the better options in front of you. You can know the better outcomes. Yet, to experience this character's story you cannot choose them.