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hi! do you have any favorites where stiles and derek switch bodies?
Yes! So many hijinx opportunities with this trope.
Not Exactly Comfortable by entanglednow
(1/1 I 1,227 I Teen I Sterek)
"Ok, so this could be worse." Which, on the whole, is probably not the most reassuring thing for Stiles to say right now.
i feel you in every heartbeat by warlock (sapphicblight)
(1/1 I 4,063 I Teen I Sterek)
Suddenly his entire body felt tingly and sensitive and he could swear gravity had failed on him just then; he couldn’t feel the chair he was sitting on, or where he’d planted his feet on the floor, or the clothes he was wearing, or the pen he was holding, and then his vision started blurring and morphing into a picture of some place that was not his classroom.
“Oh, shi—”
“—it,” he finished with a different voice.
Or, the AU in which, on their 22nd birthday, a person will switch bodies with their soulmate and is left to figure out whom they're temporarily inhabiting, and how to get back to each other. But because Stiles is Stiles, he forgets that it's his birthday, and the bodyswap takes him by surprise.
Fuzzy Logic by Sparseparsley
(1/1 I 6,506 I Explicit I Sterek)
Derek and Stiles switch bodies because of wizard reasons and Stiles just wants to know what that awesome scent is.
Where is My Mind by whiskey_in_tea
(1/1 I 6,585 I Mature I Sterek)
“Ground rules: no jerking off," Scott says. "No using my body to mack on my best friend, okay, that's fucking gross."
look at the wonderful mess we made by Squidbittles
(1/1 I 8,873 I Explicit I Sterek)
The pack scatters for college, and Derek and Stiles amiably break off their no-strings attached relationship. Stiles's Spark has other plans, however.
Home Is Where the Dubious Magic Is by alexenglish
(1/1 I 8,998 I Explicit I Derek/Stiles/Scott)
Everything feels wrong.
He looks down and yeah, that’s not his body. The skin’s too pale, the legs too skinny. Those aren’t his hands, that’s not his stomach -- those definitely, definitely aren’t his Captain America briefs.
He doesn’t own Captain America briefs.
I'm Lost In You by matildajones
(3/3 I 13,453 I Teen I Sterek)
He knows he should move but a part of him still feels paralyzed. He has clear feelings of not being able to move his body, of not being able to even blink.
“Oh my god,” Stiles says, and he clambers to his feet, feeling dizzy. He easily finds a mirror in the room and then the most gorgeous eyes stare back at him. They’re a sea-green instead of the normal brown that he’s used to.
He’s looking at his soulmate.
--
Stiles wakes up in his soulmate's body, on his twenty-second birthday, with blurry memories of the past year. Derek doesn't wake up at all.
Might Not Make It Back by GotTheSilver
(1/1 I 23,347 I Explicit I Sterek)
Bodyswap. Because of the fun.
Trust Fall by orphanaccount
(13/13 I 144,224 I Explicit I Sterek)
Stiles is fairly certain that a case could be made for every bad thing in his life coming back to Peter Hale. This time it's pissing off a powerful witch, who retaliated by swapping Stiles and Derek a la Freaky Friday, because sure. That makes sense. Um, there are GPAs on the line, not to mention the whole thing where his dad wants to shoot Derek on sight. Except who he sees as Derek is actually Stiles, and Stiles did not sign up for filicide.
Great. Wait...does this mean he's the Alpha until they figure this out? Holy. Shit. ****
Derek had stood in front of the bathroom mirror for a few minutes trying to control the panic as he saw himself as Stiles. As the loud mouthed human friend of the pack. He was going to kill Peter. He was going to kill the witch, then he was going to kill Peter. Maybe even resurrect him again just to kill him all over.
They were going to have to play this cool. They would have to stay calm and focused. Which is of course why the universe threw him into this situation with someone who physically couldn't be calm and focused.
Of course.
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5 Oldest BLs I Want to Remember Forever
I keep getting tagged in that "oldest BL" game so I thought I'd just do my version of it.
So here are 5 of my very oldest BL screen caps and why I keep them around.

Japan's Takumi-Kun 2007
Possibly the first BL I ever saw, I don't really count it as such. That was before BL existed as a term, I got access to a bootleg version through my anime contacts way back when. (Like on a damn thumb drive.) Technically it was probably 2009 or so since it was DaiMao with fan subs. I remember not liking it all that much but understanding why others might. And then returning to my beloved yaoi. (Which did not include Takumi-kun, mind you. I did read it later. And it's just as bad as the show, if not worse.)
I keep this image for obvious reasons. I mean the kabedon is so common in Japanese romances they invented a word for it. And this is its first appearance in BL.
After that, I actually have Junjou Pure Heart from 2010 saved. A fascinating early JBL of the atmospheric style that recently reappeared legally on Gaga (if you want watch).

Korea's Just Friends 2009
Korea started off their BL journey strong. Of all the olds on this list, Just Friends is the only one I rewatch regularly. IMHO KBL still has not climbed back to the realistic queer chemistry and gritty charm of this show. It's fantastic and it's available all over the place, including on YouTube. It's like under 30 minutes too. Frankly, you have no excuse not to watch this.
This final kiss is a masterpiece. In public?! In UNIFORM?! Will we ever see something this groundbreaking from Korea again?

Thailand's Love Sick 2014
I don't know if Love Sick stands the test of time for new BL watchers. Frankly, I don't really care. (I'm certain all the het stuff around the main BL plot line does not work. So watch the BL cut if you want.) Because look, it still works for me. I still do the occasional rewatch, over ten years later!
I will never get over the earnestness of this show.
The pure unadulterated messy high school angst of our beloved boys in blue shorts. You can see how Noh and Pun shook up a nation and started an industry.
And they did it with one lost hand hold.
Iconic.
Forever.
Possibly the greatest moment in BL history.
I don't even need to say fight me on this one. You can't. Because it's the truth.

China's Like Love (2014)
I probably reference 2016's Addicted and Irresistible Love more often but Like Love still has a place in my heart. This still is from when it up on YouTube before the 2016 crack down. Honestly? It's worth a watch if you can find it, as it is pretty typical of early CBL before said crack down. Just imagine what this kind of BL industry would have developed into without censorship.
I keep this particular still because it jogs my memory so quickly over the leads, their styles and personalities. This show hald many of China's favorite BL tropes rich/poor, jock/nerd, and a touch of whipping boy. Its legacy is HIStory Obsessed, 100%.

Taiwan's Faded (2017)
I keep a few others from Taiwan's 2017 roster like HIStory Obsessed and Red Balloon but Faded is the important one to me. Faded is a pro-marriage equality propaganda short and it is worth tracking down. It is an ICONIC piece that uses BL for queer advocacy of the kind that helped Taiwan become the first Asian country to legalize same sex marriage.
Why this shot? Look, the forehead kiss is so much a marker not just of romance but of a shift from romance as hidden, private, and sexual to romance as family unit and legal entity. A forehead kiss eludes to something sacred (the head is to be bowed, blessed, and so forth) and is enmeshed (in many Asian cultures) with elements of familial piety, class loyalty, and religious obedience. This image is emblematic of the move of queerness from a private hidden (disregarded) sphere and into public discourse and political advocacy .
Well, goodness I had a lot to say about that, didn't I?
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#my oldest BL screen shots#for reference reasons#Takumi-kun#Japanese BL#live action yaoi#Chinese BL#Like Love#Thai BL#Love Sick#Love Sick 2014#Korean BL#Just Friends#Taiwanese BL#Faded
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headcanons and dynamics for my au from last post, very messily put together (i dont think i need to specify but i will anyways, this is all just about the dsmp characters i dont care about the irl people please please please)
Tommy (now Thalia, ty @idiot-mushroom for your amazing hcs always) is trans, realized not long after exile ended but only had the time and energy to commit to transitioning after the final confrontation. She doesn't strictly identify as transfem, it's a lot more complex than that, but settles with the label trans and does whatever the hell she wants. Ranboo helped a lot a lot with the transition
Tubbo and Ranboo are still the only two married; not that they'd be against the other two joining. Thalia's just still figuring herself out and not ready to focus on that part of her life, and Purpled doesn't feel like he's been with them long enough to take the step. Someday though
Thalia and Purpled aren't as close with each other as with others, not very emotionally or affectionately close. They tend to be each others caretakers when in need though
On that note, Purpled has not spoken about his brief alliance with Dream and Punz. At this point, he doesn't plan to.
Ranboo is probably the most affectionate with all of them evenly, they spend more time in everyone else's rooms than their own.
Tubbo is the primary caretaker of Michael, though they all pretty evenly split duties. He just likes to have the kiddo nearby, and Michael acts more and more like him as he gets to being an adolescent.
Less relationship wise and more individual characters :3
Thalia
Sharper features as she's gotten older, her facial structure changed from repeated malnutrition (pogtopia, exile). She doesn't mind though, it kind of reminds her of Niki or Jack. The gooduns
Spends the most time out of the house, still making efforts to try to clean up the server and 'find herself'. Unclear to everybody what exactly that means, but if digging around in the dirt is what she needs then so be it.
Still pretty religious, its a comforting stability after everything. Overall, she's pretty happy.
Tubbo
The messiest of them in most applicable ways. Has a hard time upkeeping hygiene, usually takes reminders to do so. It's a point of shame for him, but its hard to get in the mindset to start perceiving that stuff.
Got a fake eye made by Foolish a long while ago, he can't recall exactly when. He'd like to replace it at some point but is not in a rush- if it works, it works.
A lot a Lot of nerve damage, he doesn't have much feeling in the right side of his body. A couple of fingers are amputated and prosthetic. Tends to injure himself while welding and it freaks Ranboo the fuck out lmao
Ranboo
Memory loss and sleep problems are quite a bit worse, they don't leave the house very much because getting lost is a problem nowadays. The ender state is less of a problem at least, they've learned ways to manage it and the others have gotten better at recognizing it before he wanders off.
Terrible vision, they have glasses but lose them quite a bit. Purpled put one of those straps around the back that make it harder to just slip them off without thinking; this did not help much.
Does most of the interior decoration, they have a certain vibe they enjoy and the others do not care enough one way or another so let them have at it lol
Purpled
The fall off the Needle caused bad permanent damage to his legs, he walks with braces and a cane now. It's a sensitive thing for him, he put a lot of worth into his physical capability. Still coming to terms with it; Puffy helps him with physical therapy.
Very antsy, he has a lot of unfinished projects that he picks up and discards at random. Some are builds, some are skills he's trying to hone, sometimes its just stupid challenges. He tries to make it competitive, Thalia's the only one that really takes that bait.
Possibly greyromantic, he doesn't have any specific labels because he doesn't care, but yeah
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I'd like to add to this, (for some info, if you haven't seen my stuff before, I'm an academic who has completed her dissertation (and multiple rounds of scientific research), and I have tutored, and taught, undergraduate courses in her scientific field) if you want to do "accurate" research, the above tips are excellent, and I can't argue with them, but I'd like to add a few that I used to tell my students.
In academics we love "primary" sources, that is, stuff written by the researchers themselves, reported by the individuals affected, those who saw the thing (yes, eye-witness testimony!), and the writings of people who saw the thing. Each has different levels of "trust" in terms of how beneficial they can be for research, and it all depends on what you're looking for in terms of specific information.
For instance, knowing how a particular particle acts? We want the stuff written by the researchers, not testimony from the janitor who was on site (even if he was the math-wiz who figured out it would do that *ahem*). On the other hand, knowing a specific person was at a specific event? Usually we have to rely on eye witnesses as there isn't other sources (of course, there could be, film, video, paper records such as signed guest books, etc), but we would classify those a little differently (especially, and this falls into my field as a psychologist, we know how "wonky" [scientific, non-scientific word] memory can be).
To all of these, let me add some specific references that are worth knowing about, as you should be able to find information for most topics in these places:-
Wikipedia. Yes, I know your teachers probably told you "Don't use Wikipedia". What most of them are being bad about communicating with this is that Wikipedia is NOT a "Primary Source". Wikipedia HAS citations, go look those up and verify they are primary sources and use those. The wikipedia article is a good summary of things from the primary sources (in most cases... sometimes it's a bad summary, and in other cases [extremely rarely] it may actually be the primary source, but don't bet on it).
You're local library. Sounds weird to many, but your local library is likely to have access to actual sources of information that you just won't find online (even though it's likely online), because your local librarians are likely to be able to find that 1924 edition of the book you are trying to find some information from, and not give you fifteen different places for people trying to scam you out of money.
Sci-hub. If you don't know what this is, look it up on your non-google search engine of choice. I say avoid google, because google has a competing "product" that google makes money off, and they've been helping crack down on sci-hub for that reason. Also, just don't use google in general because it's gone to shit (this is my personal opinion btw, but I hear it's more common than it used to be *cough* ai results *cough*).
Now, there's also a few things you should absolutely, and utterly avoid if you are trying to find viable information.
ChatGPT. Don't. Just don't. If you don't know why, the short-form of this is ChatGPT is not even a search engine, it "hallucinates" (meaning: It lies about stuff because it doesn't know the difference between a truth and a lie, because it's not actually anything more than a complicated version of your phones predictive keyboard text).
Youtube. While I love watching youtube videos on all sorts of things, and there's some great science communicators who do a lot of good research there... until you know how to "spot the fakes" when it comes to good academic sources, youtube should only be seen as entertainment, not research. Don't trust it unless you know how to verify stuff in the first place.
Any social media "influencer". I'm sure there's a few of them who actually did pass high school educations, and I'm even sure that there's a few who went on to tertiary education and learnt some stuff... but they aren't doing their social media stuff to give you good sources, but to entertain. So... don't trust them.
There's one last entry that is.... well... can be good, can be bad, depends on the circumstances, and that's podcasts on a topic. I've listened to some podcasts that ran for years, that I figured out early on were very loose with the science, but the presented their podcast as if it was all settled science (it was about cults and the psychology of them, and as a psychologist... yeah, they were getting a few obvious things to me wrong), but I also know of podcasts run by people who are actually researchers and very knowledgeable in their field... and they all present on your favourite podcast app of choice as if they are the same thing. I recommend, if you want to use podcasts to help you find information, verify them as being good sources first. For instance, is the podcast about space and advertised on the SETI website? It's likely reasonably accurate. Is it about space and is only found under SUPERAW3S0M3 PODCASTERZZZZ!!! on <podcast app of the day>? It's likely sketchy so I wouldn't trust it. Now, having said that... I wouldn't recommend most of the psychology podcasts you can find off the APA (American Psychological Association, not American Psychiatric Association... *sigh*) website... the APA in recent years hasn't been the champion of science that they claim to be, many of us who are members are rather upset by that in fact.
Also... and here's the bonus "how to find good sources for 'amateur acadamics'", this is a fun one. I know it's relatively easy if you live in the USA, check to see if there is a local "adult education" course near you that is aimed at teaching you proper research methods. The community college I started at (and did teaching and tutoring at once I moved into graduate school), ran six week courses over summer for that, and 12 week courses (once a week, in person and online) during the regular terms. Here in Australia, the TAFE colleges generally have a similar course offering you can take as well. And if you can't find such a course? Remember the "local library" option I mentioned earlier? Yeah, librarians LOVE helping people learn how to find reliable information, and I know there's a lot of smaller libraries that would love to throw on events for things, you never know, you might ask, and they might do a couple of evening "courses" on doing that research.
And wow did I have a "little bit to add" here or what?
Do you have any tips on doing accurate research for people without access to formal education
Sure! This can't be one size fits all for every field, but I can give some starting points for history.
If you're reading a book, here's what to consider:
1. Are there footnotes or endnotes? In academia this is our way of being transparent with each other about where you got information. If a book doesn't have them, they're more interested in telling a good story than being accountable to their peers. That's a red flag.
2. Don't trust claims that seem very specific but don't have a source. Broad claims can be the author's analysis. But specific things "so and so said this" "there was a rumor that (x)" should be coming from somewhere and it is the author's job to tell you where.
3. Look out for choppy quoting. Even if someone has a source, they may not be using it well. If someone is paraphrasing a lot and only uses bits and pieces of the text while also using a lot of ellipses, you will want to try to find the whole text to make sure it's being quoted fairly.
4. Look at the publication date. Knowledge changes with time and old books tend to be outdated. You don't have to stick to the academic rule of thumb of "25 years is the threshold for new scholarship" but do be aware that if something is over 50 years old, many many people have likely revisited and revised what it's saying. Not that new books can't also be bad and incorrect, but they tend to be working with better tools generally.
5. Look up the author. I cannot stress this one enough. The author's background and political convictions can matter a lot to how they interpret things. For example, one of the biographies people tend to pick up about my dissertation topic is from the late 1920s by a man who later applied to join the NSDAP. That fact really can't be separated from his interpretations no matter how hard people try.
6. Stop reading if someone is making a lot of moral or personal judgements on a historical figure. I'm talking about the "Elizabeth I was a frigid hag and men found her ugly"-esque takes, not things like calling historical atrocities morally bad. Does it feel like bitchy gossip? That sort of thing is unprofessional, uninformative, and means someone has an axe to grind. Spite can be motivation for research, but axe grinding shouldn't show up clearly in published work.
These are things to keep in mind to make sure you're getting better information. Others are free to add on for their field or if there's something I forgot.
One very important thing to add: professors and academics like people emailing them about their research. You can do that! You can ask for copies of pay walled articles. You just have to go through the mortifying ordeal of expressing interest in an email.
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Dragons rising season 3 part 2 spoilers? Very faint
Hot takes.
If Ninjago is gonna keep dehumanising Zane then they should just kill him off permanently. Give him a really sad ending and then make it so people think he’s gonna come back and he doesn’t or maybe then when he does come back he has zero memories at all. Just make him suffer at this point we need a focus season again. It’s been so long. I miss him. Give him back. We were lied to. He died and then goes on a bloody vacation.
Wasn’t this his whole purpose to be like in the balance between humanity and technology and yet over the years now since season three he has become more and more robotic like?? this better be leading up to something big with him if not I’m crashing out.
Also what is with the hints with the ice Emperor? Is he coming back? He better be. They better not do them as bad as they did in crystallised that was so bad I am writing a whole au on that. 
Like is Pix and Zane gonna come across the never realm and gives Zane flashback or something he relapses back into the ice emperor???
because I’ve watched the episodes that were leaked for part two. I have to wait until I think September it was for the last two episodes. So USFGHEHAH.
The better be more season than Ninjago by the way I think they have a plan for a few more years now but like if they end soon, I’m gonna cry..
They should low-key like animate the books and stuff too into little like mini episodes or mini seasons it would be really cool in my opinion.
Back onto what I was talking about earlier. I need more Zane content. I don’t even care if he dies at this point. give him more like focus or stop to humanising him.
Side note: I love angst. I’m allergic to happiness in characters. I love hurt no comfort, that’s probably why I’m saying just kill him off at this point 😭 also because Zane is in my top 3 favourites I just gotta traumatise the boy.
#ninjago#ninjago zane#zane julien#zane ninjago#zane master of ice#ice emperor#lego ninjago#the ice emperor#ninjago lego#zane julien ninjago#ninjago zane julien#zane x pixal#ninjago dragons rising spoilers#hot takes#rants
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You want anguish? Okay, how about this: Stan didn't break Ford's perpetual motion machine—the machine isn't working because their high school doesn't have materials of a high enough quality to make it, and they overstress and burn out and break—but was accused anyway of doing it because Ford found a bag of toffee peanuts in the gym and assumed was him and in the end, Stan ended up being kicked out by Filbrick and Ford is now mad at Stan for something he didn't even did. Then, over ten years later, during the Portal Incident, Stan is branded by Ford and is the one how ended up being trown inside the portal. And 30 years later, Stan, now without his right arm and with his left eye blind, manege to built his own portal, during his travels in the multiverse, that connects itself with the weak spot in his dimension, that where his Ford's portal was built, to be able to come back home, since his Ford partially dismantelend his own portal for the greater good.
Now I ask myself... Can this relationship be saved?
Imo, its never too late for a happy ending, and happy endings make the world a brighter place because stories are place for fantasy and reality is sad, so we escape to stories.
To my credit, I've endured four days of seven hour microbio labs back to back and my brain is stuffed full of random stuff. So if I dont make much sense rn, that's why
Also, anon, if you askin' you, don't ask me! Go write the fic! See if you can do it! It doesn't matter if you're "not a real writer." The story will write itself.
I'm not saying that everyone likes writing or should like writing, just sayin', if you want something written and nobody else has made it, maybe try your hand at it! (and tag me if you do; I'm curious to see where this would go)
No matter what you decide to do, it's a cool idea! Keep it around ;)
#gravity falls#stanley pines#stanford pines#grunkle stan#stan pines#stan twins#grunkle ford#stangst#also did I say I wanted angst? I dont remember saying that#but I probably did somewhere.#eh nvm just cuz I dont remember it doesnt mean it didn't happen#it probably did and my memory's just bad because#my brain is stuffed full of microbio atm.#...I probably said that.
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Lately I'd been wondering if maybe my asthma was doing so much better since I stopped living in a place with fire season that I could talk to my doc about stopping my asthma meds, but uh. Accidentally tested that? My maintenance inhaler was empty for at least a day, possibly more, before I realized so I was using it but getting no meds and it turns out I was improved because my maintenance meds were working, so I started coughing again. Not super bad, but like if I had a nickel for every time I've accidentally ran a double-blind trial* on myself I'd have two nickels, and that's weird, right? *the other time was when I figured out I'm allergic to acetic acid, because I'd checked the ingredients of the individual serving of a pre-made meal from a store and it was fine, but I reacted to the family meal portion of it (after not checking it, assuming the ingredients would be the same), and the only thing different was the acetic acid.
#the person behind the yarn#medical mention#food mention#allergy mention#arguably I've actually done it three times#because the moderna covid vax has acetic acid in it#not much! and for most people it's not a big deal! but it turns out if you inject something you are allergic to into you#it sucks! it's terrible. feels real bad. thought that was just how I react to vaccinations but no it was the allergy#switched brands and it was still unpleasant but not 'require a wheelchair because my bp is too low' unpleasant#hey in retrospect that was bad? that was probably bad enough I should have gone to a doctor when I say it out loud#huh. well. always good to contextualize memories I suppose. I did look unwell enough when I got the first shot#that when I got the second shot the nurse (who had been giving a LOT of people shots)#remembered me and commented on how much better I was looking (I'd taken benadryl preemptively for the second one)#I also had to get the first two shots from a nurse and not a pharmacy because I'd had an allergic reaction from the flu shot#still don't know what that was about but another fun fact: when they say redness at the injection site is a possible effect#they do NOT mean a handprint-sized hive and that is. in fact. a thing you should tell your doctor if it happens#I only told my doc because I happened to have an appointment like a week later and they asked about the giant bruise#and then were like no!! that's not supposed to happen!! you are not allowed to have the flu shot anymore
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I occasionally wish to reach out to old friends/acquaintances I haven't spoken to since high school/some other even earlier time in my life, but I have SOOO little social energy even for required tasks (like making dr phone calls or etc), I never have any leftover for extra ones, and it would be very odd to message someone I haven't spoken to in like 5 years out of the blue but then take 4 entire months to respond back lol.. My natural curiosity with nostalgia/collecting details of the past/etc. (literally if I were born a little earlier I would definitely do scrapbooking or something lol) is very strong, but, alas, not strong enough to beat out the Social Issues Demons apparently
#facebook always does that 'here's a post from this day 8 years ago' thing. and I see old comments interacting#with people and it's so like.. OOOOO~~ where are they now?? what's going on? how much have they changed as people?#how much are they the same? this is fascinating. i should contact them!!' but then it's like... take that to it's logical conclusion though#you would contact them and then IF they even responded it would take you 80 years to respond and then they would#think there was something wrong or that you were trying to be insulting or something. To contact anyone I need to include an 85 page#disclaimer of all of my social issues & mental illness things. 'If i take 3 weeks to reply I promise it has nothing to do with u' etc lol#THIS is why more people need to be into phone calls/voice calls/some form of audio real time communication/etc.#I think one of the main things that's hard about messaging through text for me is it's so unscheduled and open ended#(plus it takes forever if you're talking about anything in detail and gets very long very quickly)#because like you can send a message and then just get a reply whenever. and then you're expected to reply back whenever#so it's like you never know when the response will come or when a new obligation to reply can come up? so it's like this sudden thing with#no outline?? if that makes sense. whereas a phone call is very like 'hello let's schedule a call from 10am - 2pm on thursday'. And you know#EXACTLY when the interaction will start and EXACTLY when it will end and you can plan around it in your schedule easily.#I have the reverse thing of a lot of people (how people don't pick up phone calls/hate calls/only text)#I would literally talk on the phone with a stranger. I would have a discord voice chat with someone I barely know.#if someone I hardly even remember from elementary school asked to have a voice call with me out of nowhere I would do it.#but if a stranger MESSAGED me?? or someone I barely know sent me a TEXT or something?? I will never reply probably#It's just too vague and weird. and you can't read voice tone over text. and the interaction could last forever with no clear end#point and etc. etc. But a call is like. set. established. clear boundaries. you can read the flow of conversation better. rapport. etc. etc#I get that I guess people feel more anonymous or distanced over text?? but you can have fake phone numbers on the computer. or do like disc#rd calls. or zoom without a camera or etc. etc. Also the distance that's present in text is BAD distance because it just means that tone is#not conveyed properly and you will never truly get a sense of the person's conversational vibe or mannerisms or how well you really click.#ANYWAY ghgjh...... I'm so so so interested in concepts of like.. How did that one kid I used to talk to in elementary school#but then they moved away in 5th grade - how did they end up? what are they doing now?? etc. etc. Like despite the severe social anhedonia#and general lack of connection with others I'm just really fascinated in like.. idk. the human development of it all and like#the concept of how we're actually a million different people through the course of our lives ever evolving in different iterations and etc.#PLUS again. i love nostalgia. sometimes old peple you know might remember a shared memory or can tell you about something you forgot#or etc. like it's SUCH A COOL THING in CONCEPT but I am too socially inept generally speaking lol. which people I still talk to today are#familiar with my 'phone call once every few months' communication style. but strangers would just be like... wtf. And I don't blame them#Sure I literally cannot change the physical health + brain issues i have - but also I know enough to not put others through that lol
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crick is a few years older than isaiah... what if he had very faint i was a little boy memories of isaiahs mom before she died oxo
#thinking sooo hard about it#really a blind leading the blind moment#they get along well honestly. crick enables isaiahs sadboy side where he just wants to mope about bad stuff in his life#and isaiah enables crick to actually get it out of his system because hes very active (destructive) about negative expression#isaiah isnt a crier hes a breaker. crick is a sogggggggggy drinker who just cries all day abt it#so theyre very cathartic left to their own devices#i think crick being like thank god my mom drove my dad off. hed probably be like your dad if he was still around#and isaiah goes i wish my mom was around to do that... and getting soggy about not having ever gotten to know her#so crick dredges up the faintst foggiest memories of knowing her before she died and isaiahs RAPT just RAPT#and it makes crick cry bc hes SUCH a mamas boy the idea of losting cathy like that makes him blubber#so they just blubber about it together#thats their whole dynamic LOL#its why they only ever let themselves be alone 1ce and they went on a wholeass sadboy road trip about it#then did NOT stay in touch after#bc its not. a very healthy friendship all things considered#its really great when hunter first leaves tho bc crick is the ONLY person who gets it. what isaiahs feeling#bc he and hunter werent together but he LOOOOVED him and crick had the same thing happen w d.alex when he left for college#and never ever came back. ever. he left for good the moment he got a foot out#ofc that comes around to isaiah and hunter absolutely end up together and crick and d.alex Do Not. dave never felt that way abt him so#but its for the best#cricks husband is VERY good for him. gideon is no nonsense and doesnt have time for moping#he whips crick into shape as his lil househusband instead LOL
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not to be annoying or anything but it's been 9 years since the release of indie game undertale
#It's. One of my special interests#Like I have identifying Mediterranean animals on sight and I have memorizing every line of dialog in undertale#Those are my things. And I did recognize a seagul once by the sound while jetlagged and not paying attention so#Tbh I should probably play the game sometime. But also it'd be very funny to not play it#And then one day just like. Idk. Live stream playing undertale for the first time. But doing it w a blindfold#Check how far my knowledge spans for a person who has never once played the game#Like. I know muffets attacks are a repeating pattern. I know some attacks have audio so I'd use that as a guide#I'd go easy route on toriel and papyrus bc I know you can skip those by being bad at game#And I'm pretty sure I could memorize mad dummy patterns bc I remember there being like. A trick in the code#For if you're bad at the fight#Also you get astro food right before so I'd have good healing#So. Yeah the undyne and asgore and omega flowey fights are really the only things I have to watch out for I think??#Esp since I'm gonna do a bunch of tricks to get out of certain fights#Like. The thing with doing armor switches rapidly on mettaton for fast ratings boosts#Or the lowering of hp on mad dummy after the first hit so the fight can't last beyond a set number of turns if you're shit at it#Tbh yeah undyne is the only one that's actually scary all the way until asgore. That said I also think you can like. Skip that bit entirely#Like by backtracking before new home to get the undyne letter and doing true lab first. I think#Because that's the bit that's the true pacifist thing to do. Which actually true lab also scary#Like ok snowys mom and endogeny are easy but lemon bread and the memory heads are actually hard esp if u cant see#Also reaper bird but only after the everyman gets ate by the whimsun attack flies so I'm not super duper scared#And. I plan on temmie armor after mettaton. And bandage until then for running away from encounters#Just straight up my first time playing the game will be with a blindfold on and livestreamed#(I'd flex especially in that one echo flower room where if you kill toriel flowey taunts you with it)#But until then! Happy 9 years of being extremely neurodivergent :D
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I’m exhausted and had probably the worst shift at work uhh ever but the important thing is: eih chap 5 is 7200 words right now.
#I’m delirious working nights so writing today is probably going to be mostly bullshit#but know that I AM writing and it will be soon. this week soon.#by the way this Friday night was so bad it felt like a bad joke.#how did I have two simultaneous code blues.#how did I have 7 new admits AND someone dying in the unit#I was also fairly certain that I told the wrong family member their loved one was dying……#I think I didn’t and everything turned out ok but still#when you’re covering 40+ patients and have that many new admits AND codes#to be honest like… everything turned out ok and I didn’t miss anything major#but. you don’t have time to think about people. you’re literally just putting out fires#today I had only two new people and I was able to go through their records be able to catch things I think others docs would have missed#it’s so sad. like. when I have the time I try to be very thoughtful when admitting#but Friday night I was barely keeping my head above water#AND I stayed an extra 2 hours making it a 14 hour shift#AND I didn’t eat all night#good thing I have short term memory issues because lmao this is why docs kill themselves#at such high rates. like. the thought of someone dying on my watch#and me potentially being able to prevent it but not being able to#because I was alone and there was simply no time#that shit is devastating#anyway. having a normal one on tumblr.com#I know I bitch a lot here about my job#and I apologize my friends on here#as you can imagine most people in real life don’t want to hear these stories#and I don’t want to make people uncomfortable#its what I chose. I’m very good at it. it’s an incredibly difficult job#and honestly trying to compensate for other doctors that are straight up incompetent#is. absolutely demoralizing work.#that hospitalist was an idiot. like. wrong. on every account#maybe it’s people that work night shift exclusively I don’t know
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the problem with watching classic films is that they're widespread enough to attract people with negative media comprehension
#'in modern day they never would've let mr smith make his senate speech! they'd have censured him for going against the stream!'#did you not watch the film. genuinely did you not watch the movie#he has to filibuster BECAUSE he gets censured. it is in fact one of the most important plot points#and they hardly 'let' him - he has to call for a quorum because the entire senate WALKS OUT. it is not 'letting' if you have to be mandated#you are so so stupid god bless#unless this was one of those hazy recollection of a film to justify my point things. which honestly it probably was because of how bad the#interpretation is#if you don't remember how a movie goes simply don't use it to make public statements on the modern american political climate#it is that easy#anyway. this applies to a lot of things i've seen this is just the most infuriating in recent memory#og#mr smith goes to washington#sort of
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i have the exact location where theyre sitting in mind however its hard to convey in shitty quality comics
first comic btw sorry i forgot to... add that
#art#my art#gintama#sagaru yamazaki#yamazaki sagaru#shinpachi shimura#shimura shinpachi#id in alt#hey does it show at all that i drew these comics after having been awake for 25+ hours.#like first of all? that 'i didn't think'? look. it reads i didn't thinT. because i forgot to finish the k.#but bc the comic looks bad to begin with i dont feel pressured to correct it <3 love & peace on planet earth#mr man looks so wonky in last panel thats how u know hes one of my favourites. i will never respect him 🥰 (affectionate)#the area they should be in btw. its nearby the bridge. you know the one. w the river. & theres grass.#the only episode/arc i can think of where this area is relevant is. the one w the. cursed sword. ik that doesnt say much but#its not the tosshi arc i just barely remember the details??? good lord my memory is bad#wasnt that sword.. in love w... another sword... or a sword handle... um..... it was something like that... probably...#did sougo wield that sword at some point??? i feel like he did#anyway dont mind me rambling in the tags of my own post . ill be here all day
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I’ve been waiting for Lucius to put on the Moonstar mask for so long, this is everything to me you don’t understand
#high rollers#rollonsunday#aerois#lucius virion elluin elenasto#And Edea isn’t even dead! This is the best outcome#I mindlessly sketched Lucius putting on the mask in a different sketch and because Edea and Norfir look basically the same in my mind#except that Norfir is older of course#I got really worried because i thought ‘wait did Edea die?? I should be sad about this!’ because I wasn’t thinking and my memory is bad#This probably doesn’t make any sense#But imagine it like this I was just looking at my own sketch not thinking about anything and it was like I hadn’t seen the episode#and I just saw some out of context spoilers on twitter or something#Anyway I got really sad about Edea dying for a second there until I remembered
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how was playing hsr? was there anything that you liked in the game and the story?
ITS BEEN AMAZING AS EXPECTED!!!!!!!!! i actually havent played genshin in a while since starting it, i have no motivation to do the filler event while a perfectly good star rail is sitting there waiting to be played :')
but for mechanics, i love they have auto battle so you dont have to nessecarily sit there and invest in every little battle you gotta do....and i love that the resin (resin??) system is a lot more forgiving with a higher cap, lower cost, and allow for overflow...thats nice...i also love that the mc and starter units are very useful. im so emotionally attatched to the star rail crew so im glad they never have to leave my team !!!!
storywise im LOVING IT SO FAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i started playing it at the beginning of spring break 2 weeks ago and im almost all caught up!!! i went through belabog and penacony and now im just doing those leftover intermission main quests which im only now realizing i shouldve done before going to penacony LMAO
and of course.....danmarch....im so soft for them......and also i love sampo i cant wait to see what they do with him
#besides the star rail crew and sampo im not too attatched to anyone else#im very much a (what would happen in canon) type of player so the only units i REALLY want are himeko welt and imbibitor lunae#(and sampo)#everyone else i can go without#so this game is probably gonna be a lot better for my wallet#overall it just like it better than genshin minus the open world part#i like the story and characters...i like that you can play as bad guys while theyre still bad guys???? like blade and kafka???#cuz in genshin you always gotta redeem them somehow first before theyre playable#not here hueheuhe#also i love that they actually kill off playable characters#(spoilers from here on out)#i know were supposed to be all sad for fireflys death but honestly.......i didnt care about her too much LMAO#i was actually a little annoyed for the secret base part because her base was SO FUCKING DEEP IN ENEMY TERRITORY#i was like (damn bitch how far away is this shit??!)#that by the time we got to the emotional part i was just mad#i never liked characters where the game tries to like....force you to care about them#and its implied you have some super close relationship ESPECIALLY when you havent known them long#now if march died that would be a whole different story#but firefly??? i mean rip but i didnt really know her#im loving the penacony quest so far though#any setting where its like a place of mind tricks and gambling and spending money and sin is always so scary to me#especially the dream within a dream within a dream shit#the mind fuck aspect is always a good plot that i enjoy#i also love that theyre not afraid to upgrade units#like we have dan heng and the dragon dan heng#so characters arnt stagnent forever#everyday i hope we one day get to see a 5-star secret power march#cuz that girl has some shit going on i swear#i just did her luofu memory quest#and those fuckers in the garden of recollection............
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*clenching fist* One day, one day soon even, I will not be so physically exhausted I struggle to do art
#hate that I pissed away my sunday that could have been for resting the way I did. that SUCKED and I'm still exhausted#being put into contact with family for an extended period unexpectedly is. very bad and ruins anything that could have been fun#it all has the kind of fogginess in hindsight that tells me that without the physical evidence of a new object in my room#it probably would have been totally greyed out in my memories and I'd struggle to place what happened yesterday at all. oof#bad memories just become very slippery for me sometimes. it has been difficult to come to terms with that#I got really mad at this plushie in my room earlier because it didn't fit with that weird unreality feeling#it's okay... we're on good terms now#rambling
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