After finishing the show nbc hannibal leaves you with the distinct feeling and impression that will and hannibal fucked absolutely raw and nasty on screen despite there being no such scene. The power it holds.
still thinking about julian's just like... anubis-ass weighing of garak's heart in the wire. and him judging it unworthy of oblivion, even while said heart squirms and kicks and screams every step of the way as he gently pulls it away from the crocodile's open maw. sick and twisted honestly. something something surrendering to mercy not because you believe yourself worthy of it but because you trust who it came from more than yourself. ok fuck me I guess I have to live then: the elim garak story
I think this is one of my favorite lines from the Wraith route because of (imo) how much the meaning changes depending on if you got there via Spectre or Nightmare.
For Spectre, it honestly strikes me as a genuine question. Why are you doing this to her? If you're on the Spectre route, you presumably already know the Narrator can't really be trusted, since you had to reject his reward to get here. What are you hoping to gain from continuing to hurt her?
For Nightmare, it honestly just makes me sad. As the Shifting Mound describes her, "She desires only companionship, but the only thing she knows is how to hurt." This line feels like a plea from someone who genuinely doesn't understand why you keep rejecting her. She wants to be with you, but she just can't understand how to do that in a way which doesn't hurt you.
Have you ever noticed how Vessel has never actually said the words "I love you"? Like. He says it many, many times - each breath he takes is a confession - but he has never said it.
It's always "my love is / as (...)", "I'm full of the love you want", "like lovers", "your love", "(...) falling in love with me". The closest we get is "I made loving you (...)". Which still isn't quite the same as saying I love you.
It's almost like he needs to put some sort of barrier between what he feels and what he knows it's the truth to lessen the blow. Because he does love them, and will continue to do so, forevermore. No matter the cost of rain, through death. He's theirs unconditionally, even if it hurts him, right?
But they don't feel the same. He knows that. He begs for it, for them to fall for him, to take a bite, show him what it's like.
Vessel knows that they want his love, companionship, worship, whatever you want to call it, the way a wolf wants its prey. He knows that they keep him around, keep pretending to be falling in love with him, merely as play thing, a means to an end. He knows all of this and keeps loving anyway, knowing that his love doesn't matter.
You don't really love,
you just hate to be alone.
Because hiding behind big, fancy, flourished phrases like "I'll live like I've got missing limbs for you", and "My arms belong around you", and "We go beyond the farthest reaches", and -
And you know I'll be yours
Just want to be worth it
I will run like the wind till you follow me again
- is much easier than to admit the very simple and pathetic three-worded truth, knowing it is not reciprocated. Not anymore at least (if ever).
If what they say is "Nothing is forever", then what makes love the exception?
[cursing]
Wren: You suck.
Levi: I got distracted-.. you suck!
Wren: Nu-uh.
Robin: Penny?
Levi: I said I’d meet her later.
Robin: Oh, reaaaally?
Levi: Shut up.
Robin: I thought she annoyed you, anyway.
Levi: Yeah, but-…
[Robin flinched involuntarily as Byrd toppled off the fence and collided with the ground, landing on his wrist awkwardly]
Robin: Shit.
Levi: What?
Wren: Ewww-.. is it broken, are you bleeding?
Robin: Are you okay? Can you move it?
Byrd: I don’t know-.. should I?!
[All the colour promptly drained from Wren’s face at the sound of Byrd’s uncharacteristically shrill voice and the mere thought of his bones being in any other state that they ought to be. Luckily, she collided with Levi’s foot instead of the ground as she passed out]
Robin: Jesus.
Byrd: Oh my god-.. is she dead?!
Levi: I think she just fainted again, dingus.
Byrd: But-…
Robin: She’s fine, are you fine?
Byrd: Uhm…
Levi: It’ll probably be fine.
Robin: I dunno…
Byrd: It’s f-fine, honestly!
Wren: I’m not fine…
Robin: Yeah, you are.
Levi: Fancy taking a nap in the middle of a skatepark-.. how embarrassing.
[Wren grumbled half-heartedly, far too dizzy to form a witty retort]
Robin: We should probably go.
Levi: Nah.. let’s go to the diner, we can eat n’ Frankie can get Byrd a bandage or something. He’ll be fine.
Robin: Yeah, alright.
Wren: I feel sick.
Robin: You’ll feel better soon-.. c’mon, gimmie your board.
[Image description: a digital drawing of sklonda and pok gukgak from fantasy high, two goblins with shoulder length straight hair and short curly hair, respectively. they're touching foreheads and embracing, both of sklonda's hands in pok's hair, while one of pok's hands is moving sklonda's bangs off her foreheads and the other is clutching at her waist. we only see sklonda's face and the look of silent grief on it. in the background on pok's half is a stylized dragon's mouth with teeth digging into his shoulder, and on sklonda's side are sheets of paper. over the background on the left is text that reads, it's okay, and then on the right side in brackets it says, (it'll be ok). End image description]
Pac: How can we live without Forever, you know? I don't know how– Like, I have already lost– I have already lost like, in a way, like Richarlyson, I have already lost like Mike, I have already lost like Walter Bob– I can't lose Forever, you know? I can't lose him.
heyyy, so i may or may not have compiled the entire new asra tale into a google drive for people to see for those of y'all who don't want to give dorian any downloads or money. if there's anything missing or that you think needs to be changed, or if something isn't opening (i have to set my phone browser to desktop mode to open some folders and i'm still trying to figure out why), just lmk and i'll take a look!
tonight tpw overthinking session is sponsored by how Rin got shot by lightning in the chapter 34.
we all knew she was insane and deranged by the end, and she realized that too after her connection to the Phoenix was closed by Kitay. she also made her final decision AFTER she got shot by the Hesperian's lightning, she said: "The lightning vanished her divinity, and all that it left behind was utter horror at what she'd nearly done." it made me sick to the stomach because while Rin's circumstance has always been awful and all the betrayals she's been through pushed her to made all those horrible decisions, she might not be that 'insane' if there's no Phoenix wrecking her mind, idk if this is a dumb realization … because I kinda trusted Chaghan in TDR when he said Rin is "the most stable" he's ever seen, and how Kitay had been blocking the "direct" connection to the Phoenix makes me think Rin has been kinda "safe" from the influences but she's not. she got drunk in that power instead, and TBG happened.