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musette22 · 2 years

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#this isn't meant in a mean way I promise #I just feel like a bit of a idiot always asking for the same thing #only for it to happen again and again #so I thought I'd try it with humour for a chance to see if that makes any difference 🙃#I am sorry if anyone is upset or hurt by whatever is happening at any given time #that really does suck - I know it does trust me #but since that's exactly what I'm trying to protect myself from #I'd really appreciate it if you guys could respect that #I know most of you do by the way!#it's already a lot better than before #but it still happens #hence this post #and if you hadn't realised that this is my policy then no worries #but then you know now!#thank you for understanding (and that's not meant sarcastically either I mean it)#minnie talks

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hecksupremechips · 6 months

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Mizuki and Date though like. Imagine being 8 and your parents are filthy rich and going through a bad divorce. Your mom treats you like shit, lashing out at you, hitting you, saying she wishes you were never born all because you were behaving like a child. Your dad is more comforting, but he doesn’t do anything to stop the abuse and he spends his time invested in a completely different family, a girl who you love and look up to but he loves her more than you and it fucking shows. Then your dads new friend, some fucking bachelor in his late 20s, is just like "wow you guys are the worst fucking parents ive ever seen" and next thing you know your dad is sending you off to live with him. And it’s just a massive kick in the head cuz you go from a rich lifestyle to living in some really shitty tiny ass apartment with this guy who’s clearly never been around a child in his entire life and he doesn’t know how to behave and does a really bad job of censoring himself like he has a bunch of dirty magazines that he can’t hide very well cuz it’s literally a studio apartment and also he talks to himself sometimes, it’s really weird. He doesn’t even have the slightest clue what he’s doing

And he’s the best parent you’ve ever had

Because fuck, it all really hurts. You have to cope with having never received any love from anyone, and with the fact that your parents clearly don’t want you and can’t even be bothered to send you with anyone even kinda responsible. And this guy has a scary job with crazy hours and you don’t know anything about him and neither does he. But still, he never once hits you or tells you you’re not allowed to cry. He just gives you space and doesn’t push you to feel any sort of way about him. And sometimes, he’s even kind. He makes you some stew, even though it’s a bit chunky. He lets you sleep in the bed and takes the couch for himself, even though he complains about the massive back pain he’d never trade his spot for a second. He pays attention to events at your school and gives you your favorite stuffed animal when you make good grades, even though you called it ugly. He gets worried sick when you come home with bruises and puts on a goofy voice and trains you to defend yourself and you develop some highly deadly skills and even though it’s really abnormal, he buys you a bench press so you can get stronger. There’s this distance there, and you feel really weird caring about someone who you aren’t related to, but you find yourself wishing it was meant to be like this all along, that maybe, he’s secretly your real dad and he loves you like his real daughter

And when you say "I’m back" he says "welcome home"

#aitsf #ai the somnium files #kaname date #mizuki date #THE DATES THEY ARE MY EVERYTHING AAAAAAAAA #its so funny though like imagine being such a bad parent that some loner who jerks off all the time does a better job than you #and hes literally never interacted with children before and is later revealed to have actually been an assassin #renju and shoko really just suck huh #and i dont mean to reduce date to a porno loving loser cuz nah like hes actually got so much depth going on in this situation like he cant #remember a single thing about his past he has no frame of reference for what a family is or if hes ever had one himself #which we then learn he. kinda didnt he was an orphan with no friends no name no one who came looking for him it seems #yet he still finds himself loving and caring for this girl and would literally die over and over for her to live a happy life #hes so genuinely kind and caring and deeply lonely and unsure of himself if hes doing this right #and he feels agonizing pain when hes forced to remember that he isnt mizukis real dad and that. he has nothing #but despite that he doesnt force mizuki to return these feelings because its a lot to burden a child with and shes been through enough #its like. kaname date i love youuuu please just adopt her already 🥺

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genericpuff · 8 months

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vent post

#and before anyone who hates my shit says “yeah because you ARE a loser way to have self awareness for once”#i promise you this would be me with or without the LO fandom LMAO #anxiety is a hell of a thing #and as much as i internally guilt myself into thinking it would be better if i just shut up and hid away forever #i also know that's the trauma speaking because the adults around me always told me to shut up #and even as an adult i still encounter people who talk over me and make me feel like i'm not allowed to be outspoken #but the pen is mightier than the sword and all those years i've spent being spoken over i've been honing my penmanship #i have fun talking about the things i talk about and i don't have any less right than anyone else to do it #i am cringe and i am free #self post #vent post #altho on another note i do wanna make time this week to go find new series to read #too many of my favorites have turned to shit and it's taken its toll #i KNOW there are better comics out there that are genuinely well made #i already have a few that i'm reading that i love but i need to balance out the good with the bad more lol #i just need to take the time to go find good stuff instead of pouring so much of my attention into the bullshit that doesn't deserve my tim #i think both things can be true #i can have a lot of fun dissecting and writing about series i don't like #while also nourishing myself with good works that restore my faith in this medium #“perfectly balanced as all things should be”

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worstversionofme · 2 years

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After spending so much time watching dimension 20 I seriously don’t think I’ll ever be able to tolerate regular tv. My little gay heart has never seen this kind of queer representation in tv and it is nourishing my soul. And queerness is never the butt of any joke and the characters experiencing and figuring out their sexualities isn’t always sad and dramatic.

I have never related to something so much. This silly show of just a bunch of cool actor friends playing D&D has probably changed my life: I feel like I know who I am better now???

I am eternally grateful to Brennan Lee Mulligan and literally every person involved in Dimension 20 for giving us this show and this outlet to figure ourselves out. Also gonna be eternally annoyed with Dimension 20 every time I have to watch a straight romcom - give me gay wizards and fairies and candy people any day

#legit almost crying writing this wtf nerd #i was watching Lost before d20 and I cannot imagine going back and caring about Sawyer and Kate and Jack #lazuli and caramelinda or rue and hob or Misty Moore or Pete Conlan are all SO MUCH MORE COMPELLING and my gay heart feels represented #and the straight(er?) couples are also SO MUCH BETTER THAN REGULAR TV like Esther and Ricky or K and Evan #and the bonds between friends are also SO GOOD #regular tv has been ruined #I’ve seen downton abbey LIKE THREE TIMES I loved it - fuck that shit I’d watch ACOFAF instead if I ever wanted a period piece #who gives a shit about supernatural when you have the unsleeping city which also includes monster hunting and didn’t queerbait for 15 years #wow this is an insane post and some insane tags #dimension 20 #Brennan Lee mulligan #fantasy high #the unsleeping city #a crown of candy #a court of fey and flowers #misfits and magic #I’m missing some but that’s a lot of tags already

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silusvesuius · 23 days

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n*loth not being able to bag anyone over the (human term) age of 25-30 at most is the only logical and real conclusion to me because it can be just explained away as him wanting to prove and control everything and anyone (Cus he's a man!) but being stuck in that demographic because his unbearable and vile personality is a force that nobody can look past once they've outgrown the possible fear and idolization period of anyone but also n*loth in particular.

#text #i think even younger ones that possess the same nasty traits can be slammed back 'In their place' (in his mind) by him just bc his -#- abilities and power alone (alt. name the factors that make him 'Cool') that dumbs them down insanely in comparison #maybe by this i mean like; ild*ri. despite the animosity she could still feel very foolish and is conscious of her wuss-ness #if that makes sense #cause no matter the disrespect anyone might have for an older capable person the reality is still reality #tbh i just think he doesn't like to sweat it much and still aims for the younger ones bc it's easier than it would be for someone that's -#- 30+ years old #and once he's proven his point he doesn't find any merit in sticking with older ones cause their interests or anything they offer -#- don't matter to or interest Him personally #i think an older demographic is just more boring to him and he would rather spend his time being metaphorically sucked off for his greats -#- by someone that already finds themselves 'lesser' than him and always will for a long time #than someone that is defiant of that fact #basically the more power imbalance the better #in his mind there will always be one unless he certainly knows someone is his equal (or better than him) but he likes the add-on of an -#- age difference too #keeps it in a safe zone with less problems for him #sorry for spitting again my brain just started machine-gunning thoughts for no reason #also i said before that he's an innocence fan. might not be a total puritan but there's something there #it's kinda like him not wanting to be with a dusty ''OLD'' person that's seen a lot anyway #i'm like barely able to hold myself back from opening my mouth to mention t*lvas where i'm making a point about n*loth's brain where he -#- isn't even needed to prove it #but like #him voicing dislike of n*loth general nauseating character and actions but still sucking up to him while n*loth can probably feel -#- that dislike anyway is cute to me i like to view it as an object being thrown into the wall over and over #where n*loth is proving his own worth to other people by drilling their brains out with proof. not that he needs to #but he would like that to be perfected a 100%#and t*lvas is capable of being molded into that state ....... probably #silusvesuisuis you didnot just confess to wanting to see t*lvas be slammed into a wall you fucked up demented beast you're sick #actually can't believe i forgot to mention this but he's literally so immature idk what he has anything in common with actual mature people

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peppermint-moss · 5 months

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Had so much fun with these!! (template by @cereovo)

commission info || ko-fi (tip jar)

#oc #original characters #city of mist #ocs #oc dialogue meme #oc meme #image id #image description #my art #digital art #candle light #bluebell littleears #peter berrydots #bluebell/peter lore is. a wip for sure lol but this meme did unintentionally help me lots in brainstorming so that was great C:#also im gonna try to do image descriptions;; ive never done em before and the time n energy to do them is often not there #but i think it'd still be good to try when i do have the time/energy for it;#i think even a small/simple one would be better than nothing (?)#and ofc i welcome anyone who reblogs with an image id for any of my art that doesn't have one already!#I keep an eye out for those so i can reblog em/add them into the alt text

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layzeal · 1 year

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bitching abt the poll scroll this is SO stupid but i'm mad

ok this isnt about ship wars or whatever but these tags are making me laugh because "how could wlw fics of two originally male characters be BETTER than a CW queerbaiting sapphic couple" my guy, because those fics were actually written by lesbians

#I AM HERE TO DEFEND WLW WANGXIAN THEY ACTUALLY FREED ME FROM GIRL LIKER CATHOLIC GUILT #like regardless of how u feel about genderbends #lesbian fiction written by lesbians will always be better and hit a lot more than something written by. the CW #of COURSE i didnt vibe with mainstream wlw media before i started reading wangxian genderbent fic of all things #because those fics are being written by people who know liking girls is more than teehee what if we hold hands and braid each otehrs hair #the source material already hit hard and having fics explore how that'd happen if they'd been raised as women makes it hit even harder ik #anyways read out of your system by mimilamp and maybe you'll calm down #modao

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arsenicflame · 1 month

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ANGELA/SERA FROM THE MARVEL SNAP HERO ANIMATIC

#eep babies first gif #definitely... could be better #i ended up having a lot of issues doing it the way i wanted to in my head and so. had to work around it the only ways i could figure #and also making tumblrs size & dimension limits was. harder than i thought! kinda. compressed to hell #idk. i think i can do better but this is what i ended up with #also i know this has been giffed already but i thought messing w animation was a bit easier than irl images #low stakes also bc none of my friends care about this either #nyxtalks #angela #angela odinsdottir #sera #sera of heven #serangela #angelsera #angela x sera #marvel #marvel snap #gif #one of the things i was having issues was was framerate? like i could not get it to cooperate at all #i couldnt figure how to make it faster as i saved it and then when i tried to edit it in post speeding it up even 1% made it way too fast?#but it was stuttery without change. so im gonna have to mess around more with that #idk! still much to mess with #will be a long time before the GB edit happens at this rate lol #i think maybe im somewhat getting the hang of the bare basics though #if you read this far friends i love uuuuuu #i assume only my dear mutuals would actually read the tags #sorry for there being so many. i had commentary

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mad-hunts · 4 months

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#OF MONSTERS AND MEN: musings.#YOUR NEED GREW TEETH: character study.#barton's love being an all-consuming thing but also being a violent thing is... well very him as unfortunate and/or frightening as that-#might sound. because even if you are just friends with him i feel as if since barton self-sabotages a LOT more often than you may think-#and makes split-decision decisions that really aren't good whenever you actually take a moment to reflect on how much harm they'll cause-#versus how much good. so you're kind of screwed... and i'm not sure i've said this before BUT one of the key characteristics of someone who #is that they are impulsive and unable to see in other people's points of view on an emotional level. so if he thinks up something that be b #will make someone's life better / easier then he WILL do it even if it actually isn't benign.#and whenever he actually discovers that what he did was incredibly messed up then it'll already be too late-#because he already destroyed his relationship with them / showed them his true colors. and that is that being close to barton could very-#well mean danger for them. because even to people that he loves barton can often be cruel to them and express this in ways that are just-#not easily understandable to anyone except him.

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forcedhesitation · 4 months

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video editing is turning my brain into mush, take a wip of lae and my deep gnome druid pomona

#bg3 #wip #myart #the program I am using is not blender and while it makes simple videos a lot easier-- it seems more complex videos cause it to implode #complex in the relative sense because the video is not that complicated. I just need a better fucking program.#anyway. I was going to do the pieces for illamin and cadence next but there have been large developments with both their characters.#I think because they are the most important person in each other's story-- it makes no sense for romance to get thrown in On Top of that.#so illamin will simply Already have someone she is dating so that a romance doesn't-#-take the spotlight away from her friendship with cadence. her relationship with her dad.#-and the complicated dislike she has for the guy trying to flirt with her dad.#I also now have a different ending to her and cadence's story that I like much better than what I had before.#so their piece will come later. I have to think about how I want to lay it out.#instead I am going to focus on my deep gnome pomona!#she is a friend of jantar's! and a scientist :) she studies illithid biology. so you can see how she might become relevant.#she's incredibly smart but also incredibly blunt and annoying. like. a lesbian spongebob. and lae is her squidward LMAO.

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wellthebardsdead · 10 months

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Vivienne: *heavy bags under his eyes with worry and anxiety for Kaidan following a dremora who knew his name* k-Kaidan?… can we talk?

Kaidan: no. If it’s about the dremora, my thoughts, or last night. No.

Vivienne: b-but you were screaming in your sleep-

Kaidan: WILL YOU JUST FUCKING DROP IT?! Always with the fucking poking and prodding into me! I don’t follow you around every morning asking what’s going through your head!

Taliesin: Kaidan!! He’s just trying to help! We’re worried about you! This is the third night you’ve woken up screaming! We’re not even sharing a bed anymore because of it! What is going on!?

Kaidan: It’s nothing either of you need to concern yourselves with and I’m fucking sick of you both not listening to me!

Vivienne: k-Kaidan please calm down, please- you’re waking up screaming, you’re drinking from morning until you pass out- *touches his shoulder*

Kaidan: *spins around and grabs his wrist* IVE GOT ENOUGH BLOOD ON MY HANDS! DONT MAKE ME WEAR YOUR-

*CRASH!!!*

Taliesin: KAIDAN!

Kaidan: *coughs and lifts his head to find himself pinned to the remnants of a shelf as a familiar gold and blue mer with sharp features and blue flames to frame them, holds him there with the pole of his spear* v-vivec- I-

Vivec: Your past does not define you. I can forgive your outbursts for they come from fear and a grief many could not live with… but I will not tolerate you putting your hands on my child as you openly threaten him. *presses the spear against his neck threatening to crush his wind pipe* This is your only. Warning. *disappears and is suddenly replaced with a very dazed vivienne*

Vivienne: *tears streaming down his face, and wrist already bruising* k-Kaidan… *falls back into taliesins arms as he passes out*

Taliesin: Vivi… *lifts him up before looking at Kaidan with heartache in his eyes* …

Kaidan: *sitting there mortified at himself and at Vivec’s words* I… I have to g- *freezes as a lance slams into the wall behind him, and the heavy foot falls of nerevar and ryn fill the room*

Nerevar: You don’t get to run away from this, boy, either you tell us what’s going on or we’ll find out ourselves. *rips his lance from the wall* Start. Talking.

#I tried playing the Kaidan ashes of his past just to get everything I can out of the character before I switch to the Kaidan workshop ver #because fuck his current voice actor and team what a group of cunts #and the line where he threatened to wear the dragonborns blood genuinely sent me into a panic response #it felt too real to things I’ve lived through and I think was the final nail in the coffin for this version of Kaidan for me #I love his new voice actors work and the Kaidan workshop team are already 100% far better and more communicative than the extended lot #Kaidan skyrim #vivec #Vivienne dragonborn #skyrim Taliesin #nerevar #voryn dagoth

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sammygender · 3 months

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im new here- is dean abusive?

imo yeah. smarter people than me have written dissections of the way he treats sam & others (he’s also Awful to his psuedo-son jack, but i haven’t gotten to that season yet), i’ve probably reblogged a bunch of them.

he certainly doesn’t mean to be & i don’t say it to condemn him as a person or as a character & i’m still very attached to him & he loves sam very much (not that that makes a difference in whether u abuse someone or not) - but the way he treats sam a lot/some of the time is emotionally abusive and sam is clearly badly impacted. s4 and s8 come to mind as his worst moments also ofc moc era - after that there’s less interpersonal conflict (up to where i am at least) but that’s because sam mostly stops disagreeing with dean not because dean actually gets much better <3 spn is cycles of abuse show after all. family is hell. dean’s learnt pretty much everything about how to behave from his abusive father and as a result. well. cycle continues