#it's my birthday and i'm depressed

[an-aroaces-harem]

Ellis said he would make people you hate disappear.

But I hate myself.

What's Ellis gonna do?

Make me disappear or make me happy instead?

[homkamiro]

Can I make it any more obvious?

[carlyraejepsans]

i don't think I've ever enjoyed a birthday party with friends as much as today i am genuinely getting a bit teary eyed

[lunarharp]

scrombly indulgent recent stuff LOL

[lostmf]

I turn 25 today

I am still not sure who I am

I am still incapable of feeling safe

And I still wonder how I would have turned out if I wasn’t traumatized

[ravidrws]

[wip] happy new year

[blackshadowswriter]

A lot of fans said he’s better looking and taller in person, is it true? Also what was his perfume like?

Okay Lando is definitely a bit taller in person. Maybe I'm just short (I know I am), but like he just seems taller irl than he does on the screen bc I've seen him a bajillion times but when he was right there in front of me, I was like "holy shit why is he this tall???" It's not that he's super tall, it's just that I didn't expect him to be that tall. He had to fucking bend down to sign my shirt, which was like, yeah okay I really am too short.

As for the better looking part, I mean he always looks good so idk what to say to that. Imo he looks pretty much the same irl as on screen (amazing). And his scent, I don't really think he had any cologne or perfume on? Maybe there were just too many people around me, but I didn't really smell anything on him, so I guess the answer is just clean lol

But he was like super patient too despite all of us there, like I know he didn't get to everyone (he couldn't with how many people there), but he went kinda slow down the group, so most people in the first or second row had a good shot of getting something signed or getting a picture, which was so nice of him.

Someone actually brought stroopwafles though 😭 when he first came out, he was talking with his engineers, but someone shouted "LANDO WE HAVE STROOPWAFLES" and THEN he looked up and started grinning 😂 and he went to that person's side of the line first LMFAO

[ohhiplumbob]

🎃🪦

[somuchbetterthanthat]

truly feel like after a certain age at the VERY LEAST Anxiety should disappear. Like, okay, you've been anxious and depressed since you were oh, right, 13 is that it? more or less. So that means your sentence is over. Welcome to the fun 30s. No more of that!

and yet

[musicalchaos07]

I need Jonathan Byers to survive so he can become some Gen z kid's emotional support weird Gen x boss

[snixx]

I genuinely feel like I'm rotting with time

[lunarharp]

qifrey's birthday and silly stuff

[theabyssgazesalsointoyou]

rip jake dillinger u would've loved i can do it with a broken heart

[magicalgirlmindcrank]

It was my birthday yesterday and none of you were invited. All I did was cry about it and sleep in and smoke weed though so you didn't miss anything.

[silversiren1101]

All I want for Christmas is to see a better year.

[katiehwang]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KUDOU SHINICHI!!

So as a detco fan for uhhh about four years now, I had this thought about how... ordinary Shinichi is in detco universe where Japan had a bunch of genius teens and adults. Beika alone have Shinichi and Yuusaku, Sera and Mary, Amuro, Akai, Jodie, then we have those in other part of Japan like Heiji and Heizo, Kaito, Hakuba, and other competent officers outside of TMPD. Hundreds of new chapters in detco, everytime new characters were introduced, most of them were more intelligent than the average people. I've come to wonder why Shinichi was such a Big Deal. Why he's the Great Detective and saviour of the police? Lots of other people could have achieve that title, so does Shinichi only got there first because he's a detective nerd? The one who cannot get enough of deducing things? The one who have connection to police and thus can squeeze their way into most investigations?

Then I had this new thing in my life that is quite familiar to detective work (seriously they have all these cases and interrogation stuff going on) . At first I was excited to dive into it because it really is a similar setting to detco minus the crimes and murder, but then.... I got tired of it. I got bored, and most of the time came up blank even with all the clues in front of me because I'm so tired of it. There's also the fact that there is sooo many cases coming in and every one of them is different and certainly does not follow the textbook rules. There's also the knowledge that if we got to the wrong conclusion we will literally ruin someone's life and... Isn't that the most depressing thought? Everyone's pressuring you and you cannot fault them because it is a big responsibility.

So I guess now I understand why detco can have hundreds of geniuses but only one Heisei Holmes. Only one Kudou Shinichi. Because he's the one who put his heart into it. The one who have passion for the one truth. The one that got his ass kicked by that very same passion yet still pick himself up and continue to pursue his goal to put all criminals behind bars. The one that knows full well of the weight of his words and thus put so much care into it. The one that truly cares about every single person around him instead of seeing them as mere pieces in a puzzle (at least for this one, he learn it throughout the journey).

Most of the brilliant characters in DC can be a good and competent detective. Some of them already are. Most of them have kind hearts and don't want random people to be wrongfully accused. But intelligence and kindness alone are not enough to be a great detective because it's not just about piecing together puzzle or solving a code. You still have to interrogate people that don't want to be interrogated, talk to people with emotions ranging from devastated to murderous, with a certain time limit or else the evidences will disappear either naturally or planned. Isn't it stressful? Top it with the whole being-in-the-same-room-with-a-murderer... It's certainly hard to find anyone that will happily put themselves in those situations because if I were to be the smartest person in the world I sure would find better things to do.